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<i>But it really doesn't matter
with me now...</i>

2
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<i>...because I've been
to the mountaintop.</i>

3
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Susanna, you have a visitor.

4
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What are you doing here?

5
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I ship out next week.

6
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Here.

7
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Checks.

8
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Sorry.

9
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No. It's okay. We have
10 minutes till they come back.

10
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Hey, Torch.

11
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What you doing?

12
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Nothing.

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Well, why don't you go to
your room and do nothing?

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Checks.

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Checks.

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Checks.

17
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Hey, Margie.

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Hey, Lisa.
What you doing?

19
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.Checks.
.How's Joe?

20
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He's fine.

21
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I have to do my checks.

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Taking five minutes for me
would be a dereliction of duty?

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What if I had a punctured artery?

24
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You'd go on your rounds,
ignoring my wounds?

25
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.Stop it.
.Stop what? Look at this.

26
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Go ahead. Go ahead.

27
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That's enough!

28
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Take one step
and I'll jam this in my aorta!

29
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Stop it.

30
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Your aorta is in your chest.

31
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Good to know.

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.I'll make a note of that.
.Good.

33
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You have grounds privileges.
Why don't you take a walk?

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Go get a cup of coffee.

35
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We should get out of here.

36
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The cafeteria's this way.

37
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My wheels are here.

38
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Wait. What are we doing?

39
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We're going to Canada.

40
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You're not crazy.

41
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Okay? You don't need to be here.

42
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I tried to kill myself, Toby.

43
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You took some aspirin.
I took a bottle of aspirin.

44
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That buys you a year in this place?
That's bullshit, okay?

45
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They're breaking you.

46
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Come on. All right?
Everything's changing, man.

47
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What do they know
about being normaI?

48
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I have friends in here.

49
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Who? Them?

50
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Those girls...
Susanna...

51
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...they're eating grapes
off of the wallpaper.

52
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They're insane.

53
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If they are, I am.

54
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No, baby.
Listen, come with me.

55
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Look...

56
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...my dad gave me five grand.

57
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Okay? We can go up there.
We can build a cabin in the woods.

58
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Look, I know that this sounds crazy...

59
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...but I think I love you.

60
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So come with me. Okay?

61
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Come with me.

62
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You wanna leave, don't you?

63
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Yes.

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I wanna leave.

65
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But not with you.

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Not with you.

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I'm sorry.

68
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Susanna, wait a second.

69
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Why did you do that?

70
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Fix the light bulb at night?

71
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I'm not here in the morning...

72
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...and that's when you like to draw
your pictures and stuff.

73
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So...

74
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John?

75
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Why do you like me?

76
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I just like you.

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That's all.

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I wish you were getting
better, though.

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I would...

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I'd take you out to go see
a movie or something.

81
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That'd be nice.

82
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My face!

83
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My face!

84
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I'm okay. I'm okay.

85
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Let her be. She's fine.
My face!

86
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My face!

87
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Seclusion.
Take her to Seclusion. Come on.

88
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I got you.

89
00:07:06,921 --> 00:07:08,274
My face! Why?
.Open it.

90
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My face!

91
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My face!

92
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Quieten down. Quieten down.
You're all right.

93
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I'm ugly! My face!

94
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I'm ugly! Why?

95
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What happened to Polly?

96
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What needs to happen?
No one's ever gonna kiss her.

97
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They're building a new
Disneyland in Florida.

98
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If I could have any job,
I'd be a professionaI Cinderella.

99
00:08:04,314 --> 00:08:05,906
You could be Snow White.

100
00:08:06,154 --> 00:08:08,509
Polly could be Minnie Mouse and then...

101
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...she'd be hugged, kissed
and loved...

102
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...and no one would know
what's inside that giant head.

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Give me your keys.

104
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Hey, Polly.

105
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It's Susanna.

106
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Just play something.

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If talking did shit,
we'd be out of here by now.

108
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<i>When you're alone
And life is making you lonely</i>

109
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<i>You can always go</i>

110
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<i>Downtown</i>

111
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<i>When you've got worries
All the noise and the hurry</i>

112
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<i>Seems to help, I know</i>

113
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<i>Downtown</i>

114
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<i>Just listen to the music</i>

115
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<i>In the traffic in the city</i>

116
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<i>Linger on the sidewalks
Where the neon lights are pretty</i>

117
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<i>How can you lose?</i>

118
00:10:00,901 --> 00:10:03,698
<i>The lights are much brighter there</i>

119
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<i>You can forget all your troubles
Forget all your cares and go downtown</i>

120
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Back to your room, please.

121
00:10:10,659 --> 00:10:14,413
<i>Things will be great when you're
Downtown</i>

122
00:10:14,619 --> 00:10:16,769
McWilley is gonna wake up.

123
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Give me the guitar.

124
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You're gonna get me fired.

125
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<i>You'll be dancing with him
Before the night is over</i>

126
00:10:25,777 --> 00:10:27,608
<i>.Give me the guitar.
- Happy again</i>

127
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No. No.

128
00:10:31,056 --> 00:10:33,126
It's okay. It's okay.
Come here.

129
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You'll get me fired.
You know that?

130
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<i>Downtown</i>

131
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<i>Everything's great...</i>

132
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<i>...when you're downtown</i>

133
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I'm writing you up.

134
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I am sick of this bullshit.

135
00:11:31,729 --> 00:11:33,448
Is she here?

136
00:11:33,929 --> 00:11:35,806
You can go in now.

137
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.What did she do?
.They drugged Nurse McWilley.

138
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.Good morning, Susanna.
.Good morning.

139
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How are you?

140
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I'm fine, I guess.

141
00:12:00,326 --> 00:12:01,839
Sit down.

142
00:12:11,005 --> 00:12:12,404
You look tired.

143
00:12:14,524 --> 00:12:19,278
Polly freaked out last night and we
stayed up singing to her, Lisa and I.

144
00:12:21,004 --> 00:12:23,642
Have you become friends with Lisa?

145
00:12:25,603 --> 00:12:27,161
Why? Is that bad?

146
00:12:27,403 --> 00:12:30,042
.Does it feeI bad?
.No.

147
00:12:30,722 --> 00:12:33,794
Before you came here, did you
have many girlfriends?

148
00:12:34,402 --> 00:12:35,835
Not really.

149
00:12:37,801 --> 00:12:41,589
Would you say that before you came here,
your friends consisted mainly...

150
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...of boys, of men?

151
00:12:44,681 --> 00:12:47,036
Does it say in there
that I'm promiscuous?

152
00:12:47,720 --> 00:12:49,631
Why do you choose that word?

153
00:12:49,840 --> 00:12:53,276
How many guys would I have to sleep
with to be considered promiscuous?

154
00:12:53,480 --> 00:12:55,549
Textbook promiscuous?

155
00:12:56,119 --> 00:12:57,472
What do you think?

156
00:12:57,719 --> 00:13:00,916
Ten. Eight. Five.

157
00:13:01,679 --> 00:13:05,148
How many girls would a guy have to sleep
with to be considered promiscuous?

158
00:13:05,358 --> 00:13:07,234
Ten? 20? 109?

159
00:13:07,438 --> 00:13:09,349
Someone who's compulsively
promiscuous...

160
00:13:09,598 --> 00:13:12,794
...might engage in a sex act
with a guest in their room...

161
00:13:12,997 --> 00:13:17,912
...and then engage in another sex act
during the same day with an orderly.

162
00:13:22,076 --> 00:13:26,706
Am I in trouble for kissing an orderly
or giving my boyfriend a blowjob?

163
00:13:28,715 --> 00:13:30,513
Melvin says...

164
00:13:30,715 --> 00:13:34,913
...you have some very interesting
theories about your illness.

165
00:13:35,115 --> 00:13:39,027
You believe there is
a mysticaI undertow in life.

166
00:13:39,234 --> 00:13:42,385
"Quicksands of shadows. "

167
00:13:42,594 --> 00:13:46,587
Another one of my theories is that you
people don't know what you're doing.

168
00:13:46,833 --> 00:13:49,666
You acknowledge a problem
coping with this quicksand.

169
00:13:49,913 --> 00:13:53,701
I have a problem coping with this
hospitaI. I wanna leave.

170
00:13:55,632 --> 00:13:56,701
I can't do that.

171
00:13:56,912 --> 00:13:59,472
I signed myself in,
I can sign myself out.

172
00:13:59,712 --> 00:14:03,067
You signed yourself into our care.
We decide when you leave.

173
00:14:03,391 --> 00:14:05,143
You're not ready for it, Susanna.

174
00:14:05,631 --> 00:14:08,270
Your progress has plateaued.

175
00:14:09,991 --> 00:14:11,901
Does that disappoint you?

176
00:14:12,391 --> 00:14:14,062
I'm ambivalent.

177
00:14:14,710 --> 00:14:16,860
In fact, that's my new favourite word.

178
00:14:17,070 --> 00:14:19,503
Do you know what that means,
ambivalence?

179
00:14:20,029 --> 00:14:21,144
I don't care.

180
00:14:21,389 --> 00:14:23,300
If it's your favourite word,
I would've...

181
00:14:23,509 --> 00:14:25,977
It means " I don't care. "
That's what it means.

182
00:14:26,228 --> 00:14:28,662
On the contrary, Susanna.

183
00:14:28,908 --> 00:14:33,617
Ambivalence suggests strong
feelings in opposition.

184
00:14:33,867 --> 00:14:36,779
The prefix, as in ambidextrous...

185
00:14:36,988 --> 00:14:38,500
...means " both. "

186
00:14:39,267 --> 00:14:42,542
The rest of it, in Latin,
means "vigour. "

187
00:14:43,147 --> 00:14:45,899
The word suggests that you are torn...

188
00:14:46,586 --> 00:14:48,941
...between two opposing courses
of action.

189
00:14:52,505 --> 00:14:54,575
Will I stay or will I go?

190
00:14:54,905 --> 00:14:58,135
Am I sane or am I crazy?

191
00:14:58,464 --> 00:15:00,103
Those aren't courses of action.

192
00:15:00,864 --> 00:15:04,333
They can be, dear, for some.

193
00:15:04,584 --> 00:15:06,540
Well, then, it's the wrong word.

194
00:15:06,903 --> 00:15:08,018
No.

195
00:15:08,703 --> 00:15:10,342
I think it's perfect.

196
00:15:23,702 --> 00:15:26,375
"What world is this?

197
00:15:26,861 --> 00:15:28,340
What kingdom?

198
00:15:29,581 --> 00:15:32,573
What shores of what worlds?"

199
00:15:32,860 --> 00:15:37,614
It's a very big question
you're faced with, Susanna.

200
00:15:38,260 --> 00:15:40,899
The choice of your life.

201
00:15:42,060 --> 00:15:45,210
How much will you indulge
in your flaws?

202
00:15:46,419 --> 00:15:49,251
What are your flaws?
Are they flaws?

203
00:15:50,018 --> 00:15:54,932
If you embrace them, will you commit
yourself to hospitaI for life?

204
00:15:56,257 --> 00:15:59,806
Big questions, big decisions.

205
00:16:01,097 --> 00:16:05,009
Not surprising you profess
carelessness about them.

206
00:16:11,696 --> 00:16:13,209
Is that it?

207
00:16:15,055 --> 00:16:16,613
For now.

208
00:16:25,254 --> 00:16:27,404
This way, Susanna.

209
00:16:41,092 --> 00:16:43,481
<i>John was moved to the men's ward.</i>

210
00:16:44,972 --> 00:16:48,407
<i>And Lisa never came back
from Dr. Wick's office.</i>

211
00:17:15,288 --> 00:17:17,482
<i>We live in a time of doubt.</i>

212
00:17:18,647 --> 00:17:21,798
<i>The institutions we once trusted
no longer seem reliable.</i>

213
00:17:26,287 --> 00:17:29,518
Daisy sent us a postcard
all about her new apartment.

214
00:17:30,086 --> 00:17:32,202
She got a pussycat.

215
00:17:33,046 --> 00:17:35,002
Where's Lisa?

216
00:17:36,005 --> 00:17:37,997
You know where she is.

217
00:17:39,286 --> 00:17:41,640
They just put her in another ward.

218
00:17:52,644 --> 00:17:55,204
I think you need to get up.

219
00:17:55,604 --> 00:17:59,232
I'm just gonna rest for a while,
just a little while.

220
00:18:07,042 --> 00:18:07,918
What are you doing?

221
00:18:11,042 --> 00:18:12,235
Fuck!

222
00:18:14,881 --> 00:18:16,394
Sorry, too cold?

223
00:18:16,640 --> 00:18:20,315
What the fuck are you doing?
Get me the fuck out of this tub!

224
00:18:20,760 --> 00:18:21,875
Get yourself out.

225
00:18:22,560 --> 00:18:24,152
Where's Lisa?

226
00:18:25,199 --> 00:18:26,791
Where the fuck is Lisa?

227
00:18:27,400 --> 00:18:29,196
Can't hack it without her?

228
00:18:29,439 --> 00:18:33,478
You banish her for singing to Polly.
We were trying to help her!

229
00:18:34,118 --> 00:18:38,749
We were trying to help her! This place
is a fucking fascist torture chamber!

230
00:18:38,958 --> 00:18:40,107
No.

231
00:18:40,358 --> 00:18:44,032
I worked in state hospitals.
This place is a five. star hoteI.

232
00:18:46,078 --> 00:18:47,749
<i>Oh, lordy, pick a bale of cotton</i>

233
00:18:48,717 --> 00:18:53,233
You know, I can take a lot of crazy
shit from a lot of crazy people...

234
00:18:53,437 --> 00:18:54,506
...but you?

235
00:18:54,876 --> 00:18:56,514
You are not crazy.

236
00:18:56,756 --> 00:18:58,428
Then what's wrong with me?

237
00:18:58,675 --> 00:19:01,473
What the fuck's going on
inside my head?

238
00:19:01,676 --> 00:19:04,189
Tell me Dr. VaI, what's
your diag. nonsense?

239
00:19:04,395 --> 00:19:08,274
You are a lazy, self. indulgent
little girI...

240
00:19:08,514 --> 00:19:11,233
...who is driving herself crazy.

241
00:19:14,074 --> 00:19:17,828
Is that your medicaI opinion? Huh?

242
00:19:18,034 --> 00:19:21,423
Is that what you've learned in your
studies at night schooI...

243
00:19:21,633 --> 00:19:23,783
...for Negro welfare mothers?

244
00:19:24,552 --> 00:19:28,465
I mean, Melvin doesn't have a clue.
Wick is a psycho. And you...

245
00:19:28,712 --> 00:19:30,065
...pretend you're a doctor.

246
00:19:30,272 --> 00:19:34,423
You sign charts and dole out meds, but
you's ain't no doctor, Miss Valerie.

247
00:19:34,631 --> 00:19:37,589
You's ain't nothing
but a black nursemaid.

248
00:19:40,550 --> 00:19:42,781
And you're just throwing it away.

249
00:20:07,947 --> 00:20:09,983
You still wanna go to Florida?

250
00:20:12,466 --> 00:20:15,219
Lisa, we need money, don't we?

251
00:20:15,467 --> 00:20:18,139
You've tongued your meds?
Yeah, but I only have...

252
00:20:18,347 --> 00:20:20,576
They gave me shocks again.

253
00:20:20,986 --> 00:20:22,704
Jamie, I have to get out of here.

254
00:20:25,265 --> 00:20:26,983
I'm Susanna.

255
00:20:28,065 --> 00:20:30,215
I'm Susanna.

256
00:20:48,382 --> 00:20:50,180
What are we doing?

257
00:20:52,942 --> 00:20:54,580
What is it?

258
00:20:55,861 --> 00:20:59,297
" Dear sir, please give
Daisy Randone assistance...

259
00:20:59,501 --> 00:21:02,970
...installing a telephone
at 23 Vicar Street. "

260
00:21:03,181 --> 00:21:04,819
I thought we were going to Florida!

261
00:21:05,061 --> 00:21:07,972
We just need a place to crash
till we get plane tickets.

262
00:21:10,060 --> 00:21:11,379
Come on.

263
00:21:22,259 --> 00:21:23,976
Nice coat.

264
00:22:25,731 --> 00:22:26,958
What?

265
00:22:28,170 --> 00:22:30,479
You don't want me, Tony.

266
00:22:30,730 --> 00:22:32,607
Yes, I do, baby.

267
00:22:32,851 --> 00:22:35,409
No, you don't.
I'm a crazy girl.

268
00:22:35,649 --> 00:22:37,879
You're crazy, so we can't
have one night?

269
00:22:38,129 --> 00:22:41,121
I am a crazy girl. Seriously.

270
00:22:42,449 --> 00:22:45,168
.You've been in a hospital?
.Yes.

271
00:22:51,008 --> 00:22:52,600
Do you see purple people?

272
00:22:54,247 --> 00:22:56,477
My friend, he saw purple people.

273
00:22:56,967 --> 00:22:59,959
And so the state came
and took him away.

274
00:23:01,047 --> 00:23:02,764
He didn't like that.

275
00:23:02,966 --> 00:23:05,002
Some time went by...

276
00:23:05,446 --> 00:23:08,199
...and he told them he didn't see
purple people no more.

277
00:23:08,406 --> 00:23:09,759
He got better.

278
00:23:10,526 --> 00:23:13,278
No. He still sees them.

279
00:23:16,045 --> 00:23:16,841
We gotta split.

280
00:23:17,085 --> 00:23:18,642
Somebody stop her!

281
00:23:18,884 --> 00:23:21,193
She took my fucking wallet!

282
00:23:31,443 --> 00:23:33,353
Identify yourself.

283
00:23:34,003 --> 00:23:36,152
It's Susanna and...

284
00:23:36,362 --> 00:23:39,160
It's Susanna. Daisy?

285
00:23:45,442 --> 00:23:46,556
You got Valium?

286
00:24:02,239 --> 00:24:03,354
CooI pad.

287
00:24:05,479 --> 00:24:06,958
Peace, man, peace.

288
00:24:07,399 --> 00:24:09,434
I'm sorry for being a bitch.
I was a drag.

289
00:24:09,638 --> 00:24:11,151
That's for you.

290
00:24:19,998 --> 00:24:21,555
That's Ruby.

291
00:24:22,317 --> 00:24:24,147
My dad bought her for me.

292
00:24:26,237 --> 00:24:28,592
This is a Castro Convertible.

293
00:24:29,396 --> 00:24:31,068
.It pulls out.
.CooI.

294
00:24:31,796 --> 00:24:33,195
.Where's your bathroom?
.Right there.

295
00:24:37,236 --> 00:24:38,509
You don't have a tub.

296
00:24:38,715 --> 00:24:40,592
No, I don't.

297
00:24:41,554 --> 00:24:43,227
.What about upstairs?
.Nope.

298
00:24:45,834 --> 00:24:48,586
So, what, did you two
escape or what?

299
00:24:48,834 --> 00:24:51,347
Actually, we're going to Florida.

300
00:24:51,593 --> 00:24:54,391
All you have is mustard
and your chickens.

301
00:24:54,953 --> 00:24:58,229
So what are you girls going
to do in Florida?

302
00:24:59,553 --> 00:25:02,544
I'm gonna be Cinderella at
Walt Disney's new theme park.

303
00:25:03,192 --> 00:25:05,183
Susanna's gonna be Snow White.

304
00:25:05,632 --> 00:25:07,827
You can come if you want.

305
00:25:08,391 --> 00:25:11,144
You can be the cocker spanieI
that eats spaghetti.

306
00:25:12,991 --> 00:25:14,265
I wanna make pancakes.

307
00:25:14,630 --> 00:25:16,349
I'm tired.
I wanna go to bed.

308
00:25:16,591 --> 00:25:18,785
I want to make pancakes
in the morning.

309
00:25:18,990 --> 00:25:20,503
There's a market on the corner.

310
00:25:20,950 --> 00:25:22,941
Pans are under the sink.

311
00:25:23,149 --> 00:25:25,061
Silver's in that drawer.

312
00:25:28,349 --> 00:25:29,862
Do you have any money?

313
00:25:31,189 --> 00:25:34,146
Do you have some sort
of a safety net down there?

314
00:25:35,628 --> 00:25:38,301
People you know down there in Florida?

315
00:25:38,908 --> 00:25:40,340
Relatives?

316
00:25:41,228 --> 00:25:43,901
Friends? Anything?

317
00:25:54,426 --> 00:25:56,541
This is for your pancakes.

318
00:25:58,105 --> 00:26:00,539
Don't make a lot of noise
in the morning.

319
00:26:01,505 --> 00:26:03,541
I like to sleep late.

320
00:26:04,225 --> 00:26:06,340
I'll come down when I'm ready.

321
00:26:34,502 --> 00:26:35,980
Give me the Valium.

322
00:26:37,100 --> 00:26:39,012
We don't need your daddy's money.

323
00:26:39,500 --> 00:26:41,331
Then leave it there.

324
00:26:41,781 --> 00:26:44,340
Just give me the fucking Valium.

325
00:26:49,979 --> 00:26:51,128
What's this?

326
00:26:51,379 --> 00:26:52,494
.What's this?
.Let go.

327
00:26:52,739 --> 00:26:55,571
.Trying out your new silver?
.Get the fuck off me.

328
00:26:56,259 --> 00:26:57,486
Less appealing for Daddy.

329
00:26:58,818 --> 00:27:00,695
Look at your own arm, asshole.

330
00:27:00,938 --> 00:27:02,893
I'm sick, Daisy. We know that.

331
00:27:03,137 --> 00:27:06,925
But here you are in so. called
recovery, cut up like a ham.

332
00:27:07,137 --> 00:27:09,014
Just stop it, okay?

333
00:27:10,257 --> 00:27:12,770
Help me understand.

334
00:27:13,537 --> 00:27:16,767
I thought you didn't do Valium.
Tell me how this works.

335
00:27:17,856 --> 00:27:21,246
Tell me that you don't drag that blade
across your skin...

336
00:27:21,455 --> 00:27:24,970
...and pray for the courage
to press down.

337
00:27:26,454 --> 00:27:30,367
Tell me how your daddy
helps you cope with that.

338
00:27:30,774 --> 00:27:32,571
Illuminate me.

339
00:27:35,053 --> 00:27:37,170
My father loves me.

340
00:27:39,614 --> 00:27:40,807
I bet.

341
00:27:41,054 --> 00:27:43,886
With every inch of his manhood.

342
00:27:44,133 --> 00:27:45,964
Oh, God.

343
00:27:50,052 --> 00:27:51,963
I'm going to sleep now.

344
00:28:00,930 --> 00:28:02,522
Please be gone in the morning.

345
00:28:05,770 --> 00:28:07,601
You're just jealous, Lisa...

346
00:28:08,930 --> 00:28:10,760
...because I got better.

347
00:28:11,730 --> 00:28:13,560
Because I was released.

348
00:28:14,609 --> 00:28:16,963
Because I have a chance.

349
00:28:18,408 --> 00:28:20,001
And a life.

350
00:28:21,848 --> 00:28:24,362
They didn't release you
because you're better.

351
00:28:24,768 --> 00:28:26,360
They just gave up.

352
00:28:27,528 --> 00:28:29,279
You call this a life?

353
00:28:29,527 --> 00:28:33,964
Taking Daddy's money? Buying your
dollies and your knickknacks?

354
00:28:34,166 --> 00:28:37,920
Eating his fucking chicken?
Fattening up like a prize heifer?

355
00:28:38,847 --> 00:28:40,882
You changed the scenery,
but not the situation...

356
00:28:41,086 --> 00:28:43,361
...and the warden makes house calls.

357
00:28:43,566 --> 00:28:45,635
And everybody knows.

358
00:28:46,126 --> 00:28:48,958
Everybody knows that he fucks you.

359
00:28:50,365 --> 00:28:51,683
What they don't know...

360
00:28:53,044 --> 00:28:54,397
...is that you like it.

361
00:28:56,364 --> 00:28:58,831
.You like it.
.Shut the fuck up!

362
00:28:59,044 --> 00:29:01,318
Man, it's cooI. It's okay.

363
00:29:01,523 --> 00:29:02,751
It's fucking fine!

364
00:29:03,003 --> 00:29:06,439
A man is a dick is a man
is a dick is a chicken...

365
00:29:06,643 --> 00:29:07,962
...is a dad...

366
00:29:08,163 --> 00:29:11,711
...a Valium, a speculum, whatever.

367
00:29:12,002 --> 00:29:13,560
Whatever.

368
00:29:14,762 --> 00:29:16,434
You like being Mrs. Randone.

369
00:29:18,242 --> 00:29:20,152
Probably all you've ever known.

370
00:29:23,440 --> 00:29:25,557
Have fun in Florida.

371
00:31:12,988 --> 00:31:14,545
Has she come down yet?

372
00:31:15,268 --> 00:31:16,256
No.

373
00:31:17,747 --> 00:31:20,704
But she's been playing
that shit all morning!

374
00:31:22,387 --> 00:31:26,061
<i>Why does my heart go on beating?</i>

375
00:31:28,746 --> 00:31:32,625
<i>Why do these eyes of mine cry?</i>

376
00:31:35,505 --> 00:31:38,064
<i>Don't they know</i>

377
00:31:38,305 --> 00:31:41,580
<i>It's the end of the world</i>

378
00:31:41,824 --> 00:31:44,896
<i>It ended when you said</i>

379
00:31:46,024 --> 00:31:48,981
<i>Goodbye</i>

380
00:32:36,618 --> 00:32:37,937
Daisy?

381
00:32:56,616 --> 00:32:58,526
Oh, my God!

382
00:33:09,974 --> 00:33:11,725
What an idiot.

383
00:33:20,172 --> 00:33:23,881
.Yes, I need an ambulance.
.Make it a hearse.

384
00:33:25,212 --> 00:33:29,045
Daisy Randone. She killed herself.

385
00:33:31,171 --> 00:33:35,801
23 Vicar Street.
Yes. Please hurry!

386
00:33:46,809 --> 00:33:49,801
You pressed her buttons.
Now you're taking her money.

387
00:33:51,369 --> 00:33:54,007
I didn't press shit.
She was waiting for an excuse.

388
00:33:54,209 --> 00:33:55,608
Pack up.
We have to go.

389
00:33:55,848 --> 00:33:57,998
All right?
We have to go!

390
00:33:58,208 --> 00:33:59,926
Now we have money.

391
00:34:03,487 --> 00:34:05,523
Don't be stupid.

392
00:34:08,927 --> 00:34:11,521
All right, fine.
Be stupid.

393
00:36:18,752 --> 00:36:22,300
We should send someone
for a litter box.

394
00:36:51,147 --> 00:36:52,899
Can I pet the kitty?

395
00:36:55,547 --> 00:36:57,104
Be carefuI.

396
00:37:00,586 --> 00:37:03,418
.Hello, puddy. cat.
.Kitty!

397
00:37:04,266 --> 00:37:06,301
You are so cute.

398
00:37:17,943 --> 00:37:19,662
Checks.

399
00:37:21,344 --> 00:37:23,095
Where's Georgina?

400
00:37:23,944 --> 00:37:26,138
She's staying with Polly tonight.

401
00:37:26,863 --> 00:37:29,057
They're playing with your cat.

402
00:37:32,822 --> 00:37:34,778
Did they find Lisa?

403
00:37:36,102 --> 00:37:37,091
No.

404
00:37:55,059 --> 00:37:57,653
I couldn't stand up to her.

405
00:38:01,739 --> 00:38:05,048
A decent person would
have done something.

406
00:38:07,338 --> 00:38:09,056
Shut her up.

407
00:38:12,937 --> 00:38:14,928
Gone upstairs.

408
00:38:15,617 --> 00:38:17,448
Talked to Daisy.

409
00:38:20,136 --> 00:38:22,445
Melvin said you went upstairs.

410
00:38:24,656 --> 00:38:26,248
Too late.

411
00:38:28,615 --> 00:38:30,845
What would you have said to her?

412
00:38:32,495 --> 00:38:34,247
I don't know.

413
00:38:35,934 --> 00:38:37,846
That I was sorry.

414
00:38:43,133 --> 00:38:45,966
That I'll never know what
it was like to be her.

415
00:38:50,133 --> 00:38:53,842
But I know what it's like
to wanna die.

416
00:38:57,811 --> 00:39:00,245
How it hurts to smile.

417
00:39:02,131 --> 00:39:05,441
How you try to fit in,
but you can't.

418
00:39:06,931 --> 00:39:10,082
How you hurt yourself
on the outside...

419
00:39:10,290 --> 00:39:13,441
...to try to kill the thing
on the inside.

420
00:39:15,610 --> 00:39:20,239
Susanna, it's all well and good
to tell me all this.

421
00:39:21,209 --> 00:39:24,645
But you've got to tell
some of this to your doctors.

422
00:39:30,728 --> 00:39:32,605
How am I supposed to recover...

423
00:39:32,808 --> 00:39:35,561
...when I don't even
understand my disease?

424
00:39:36,527 --> 00:39:38,802
But you do understand it.

425
00:39:39,087 --> 00:39:42,476
You spoke very clearly
about it a second ago.

426
00:39:43,287 --> 00:39:46,323
But I think what you've got
to do is put it down.

427
00:39:46,566 --> 00:39:48,841
Put it away.
Put it in your notebook.

428
00:39:49,046 --> 00:39:50,956
But get it out of yourself.

429
00:39:51,646 --> 00:39:55,433
Away, so you can't
curI up with it anymore.

430
00:40:02,084 --> 00:40:04,439
Lisa thinks it's a gift.

431
00:40:07,123 --> 00:40:09,842
That it lets you see the truth.

432
00:40:12,923 --> 00:40:15,312
Lisa's been here for eight years.

433
00:40:23,522 --> 00:40:25,637
I'm so sorry.

434
00:40:26,081 --> 00:40:29,039
.I was a pig.
.It's all right. Listen.

435
00:40:31,520 --> 00:40:33,910
Do not drop anchor here.

436
00:40:35,121 --> 00:40:36,030
Understand?

437
00:40:48,918 --> 00:40:51,227
<i>When you don't want to feel...</i>

438
00:40:52,119 --> 00:40:54,837
<i>...death can seem like a dream.</i>

439
00:40:55,798 --> 00:40:58,437
<i>But seeing death...</i>

440
00:40:59,037 --> 00:41:00,949
<i>...really seeing it...</i>

441
00:41:01,317 --> 00:41:05,230
<i>...makes dreaming about it
fucking ridiculous.</i>

442
00:41:06,076 --> 00:41:09,830
<i>Maybe there's a moment,
growing up...</i>

443
00:41:10,036 --> 00:41:12,027
<i>...when something peels back.</i>

444
00:41:12,436 --> 00:41:16,633
<i>Maybe we look for secrets because
we can't believe our minds.</i>

445
00:41:16,836 --> 00:41:20,623
<i>Though I missed Lisa,
life was easier without her.</i>

446
00:41:20,834 --> 00:41:23,065
<i>A thought is a hard thing
to control.</i>

447
00:41:24,994 --> 00:41:27,144
<i>All I know is that
I began to feel again.</i>

448
00:41:27,354 --> 00:41:28,503
<i>Crazy? Sane?</i>

449
00:41:28,714 --> 00:41:33,184
<i>Whatever I was, I knew there was
only one way back to the world...</i>

450
00:41:33,393 --> 00:41:35,782
<i>...and that was to use the place...</i>

451
00:41:36,033 --> 00:41:37,432
<i>...to talk.</i>

452
00:41:38,112 --> 00:41:41,866
<i>So I saw the great and wonderful
Dr. Wick three times a week...</i>

453
00:41:42,072 --> 00:41:44,950
<i>...and I let her hear
every thought in my head.</i>

454
00:41:48,712 --> 00:41:52,340
Do you think maybe I have ESP
or something, that I'm gifted?

455
00:41:53,311 --> 00:41:54,744
Perhaps.

456
00:42:06,509 --> 00:42:09,262
You think I can be home
by Thanksgiving?

457
00:42:13,028 --> 00:42:15,622
Nothing's happened
in weeks, you know.

458
00:42:16,388 --> 00:42:18,901
The point is controI.

459
00:42:19,148 --> 00:42:23,106
Yeah, and here I am,
in controI, off meds...

460
00:42:23,348 --> 00:42:26,419
...no headaches, sleeping sound.

461
00:42:34,506 --> 00:42:36,701
<i>Oh, will you help me?
Can you help me?</i>

462
00:42:36,906 --> 00:42:38,736
<i>You don't need to be helped
any longer.</i>

463
00:42:38,945 --> 00:42:41,140
<i>You've always had the power
to go back to Kansas.</i>

464
00:42:41,985 --> 00:42:42,861
<i>I have?</i>

465
00:42:43,065 --> 00:42:44,577
<i>Then why didn't you tell her before?</i>

466
00:42:44,784 --> 00:42:47,015
<i>Because she wouldn't have
believed me.</i>

467
00:42:47,264 --> 00:42:48,663
<i>She had to learn it for herself.</i>

468
00:42:48,864 --> 00:42:50,855
<i>What have you learned, Dorothy?</i>

469
00:42:55,384 --> 00:42:56,941
<i>I think that it...</i>

470
00:42:57,143 --> 00:43:00,977
<i>...that it wasn't enough just to want
to see Uncle Henry and Auntie Em...</i>

471
00:43:02,583 --> 00:43:05,699
<i>...and if I ever go looking
for my heart's desire again...</i>

472
00:43:05,902 --> 00:43:08,974
<i>...I won't look any further
than my own back yard.</i>

473
00:43:09,261 --> 00:43:11,571
<i>Because if it isn't there...</i>

474
00:43:11,781 --> 00:43:14,932
<i>...I never really lost it
to begin with.</i>

475
00:43:15,861 --> 00:43:18,216
<i>- Is that right?
- That's all it is.</i>

476
00:43:38,699 --> 00:43:40,211
Thanks, Joe.

477
00:44:39,371 --> 00:44:43,842
Go away. Go away!

478
00:44:49,370 --> 00:44:50,803
It's me.

479
00:45:05,288 --> 00:45:07,596
It's been a while...

480
00:45:08,847 --> 00:45:11,600
...and I just wanted to say hey.

481
00:45:15,366 --> 00:45:17,005
You okay?

482
00:45:18,246 --> 00:45:19,998
Fabulous.

483
00:45:22,886 --> 00:45:25,559
You're gonna be late.
Gretta's waiting for you.

484
00:45:29,764 --> 00:45:32,996
I gotta go. Dr. Wick.

485
00:45:35,284 --> 00:45:37,195
They still fucking with you?

486
00:45:40,684 --> 00:45:41,912
They're...

487
00:45:44,043 --> 00:45:46,603
Actually, they're letting me out.

488
00:45:50,283 --> 00:45:52,000
Oh, that's great.

489
00:45:55,082 --> 00:45:56,800
You better go.

490
00:46:13,400 --> 00:46:16,835
Well, my dad got me a job,
a part. time job...

491
00:46:17,039 --> 00:46:19,234
...at a bookstore in Harvard Square.

492
00:46:20,358 --> 00:46:23,111
And I got an apartment
with a phone so I can...

493
00:46:23,318 --> 00:46:24,467
Stay in touch.

494
00:46:26,158 --> 00:46:29,707
And I'll be seeing Sonia
twice a week.

495
00:46:29,958 --> 00:46:33,633
Is that your long. term plan?
To work in retaiI?

496
00:46:37,277 --> 00:46:39,552
My plan? No.

497
00:46:40,076 --> 00:46:41,987
Then what do you plan to do?

498
00:46:44,876 --> 00:46:46,354
I plan to write.

499
00:46:53,835 --> 00:46:55,473
<i>Polly Clark.</i>

500
00:46:56,474 --> 00:46:58,386
Cynthia Crowley.

501
00:47:01,674 --> 00:47:03,743
Susanna Kaysen.

502
00:47:05,993 --> 00:47:08,632
.I don't think I need...
.Sleeping pills, darling.

503
00:47:08,833 --> 00:47:12,142
You want to be rested for tomorrow.
Last night's a long one.

504
00:47:12,472 --> 00:47:14,827
Good girI. Katie Cooper.

505
00:47:17,192 --> 00:47:18,591
Rosemary Jones.

506
00:47:21,031 --> 00:47:23,181
Teresa McCullian.

507
00:48:44,621 --> 00:48:45,974
Ruby?

508
00:49:25,256 --> 00:49:28,487
" If I spread my fingers out,
my hand looked more human.

509
00:49:28,737 --> 00:49:30,169
So I did that.

510
00:49:30,416 --> 00:49:34,295
But it wasn't tiring holding my
fingers apart, so I let them relax...

511
00:49:34,536 --> 00:49:36,332
...and then, I turned my hand over.

512
00:49:36,735 --> 00:49:38,327
The back wasn't much better.

513
00:49:38,575 --> 00:49:40,770
My veins bulged. "

514
00:49:45,054 --> 00:49:47,568
Shut up, I'm reading.
Shut up!

515
00:49:49,654 --> 00:49:53,363
" I can honestly say that my memory
has been transformed...

516
00:49:54,373 --> 00:49:57,126
By Freud's definition,
I've achieved mentaI health.

517
00:49:57,573 --> 00:49:59,961
And my discharge sheet
reads, 'recovered. '

518
00:50:00,773 --> 00:50:02,171
Recovered. "

519
00:50:04,932 --> 00:50:06,763
Don't do this!

520
00:50:07,572 --> 00:50:08,970
"Whatever it was... "

521
00:50:14,610 --> 00:50:17,443
" Had I stopped arguing
with my personality?

522
00:50:18,890 --> 00:50:20,039
Recovered. "

523
00:50:21,850 --> 00:50:25,445
We were reading your book.
We're having a little read. aloud...

524
00:50:25,649 --> 00:50:28,368
...celebrate the wisdom you're
taking into the world.

525
00:50:28,569 --> 00:50:30,844
Try to learn something,
grow as people.

526
00:50:32,169 --> 00:50:35,001
When you were a baby,
they strapped you to a board.

527
00:50:35,608 --> 00:50:37,678
You think Georgina doesn't
wanna leave...

528
00:50:37,928 --> 00:50:39,407
...and I'm criminally insane.

529
00:50:39,728 --> 00:50:42,036
What are you guys doing here?

530
00:50:42,288 --> 00:50:46,166
" Lisa's eyes, once so magnetic,
now just look empty. "

531
00:50:48,207 --> 00:50:50,084
That is mine.

532
00:50:50,606 --> 00:50:52,358
That is mine.

533
00:50:54,206 --> 00:50:56,845
"Georgina lies only to people
who keep her here.

534
00:50:57,046 --> 00:50:59,513
Sometimes I think she wants
to live in Oz forever. "

535
00:50:59,766 --> 00:51:03,041
.How perceptive.
.You better erase that thing.

536
00:51:03,565 --> 00:51:07,716
My father is the head of the CIA,
and he could have you dead in minutes!

537
00:51:07,924 --> 00:51:09,516
" In this world, looks are everything.

538
00:51:09,724 --> 00:51:13,512
Sometimes I think Polly's sweetness
and purity aren't genuine at all...

539
00:51:13,723 --> 00:51:16,715
...but a desperate attempt to make it
easier for us to look at her. "

540
00:51:17,244 --> 00:51:20,201
So nice of you to pass judgment on us
now that you're cured.

541
00:51:20,723 --> 00:51:22,713
What the fuck are you doing, Lisa?

542
00:51:23,363 --> 00:51:25,512
I'm playing the villain,
like you want.

543
00:51:25,763 --> 00:51:28,117
.I give you everything you want.
.No, you don't.

544
00:51:29,761 --> 00:51:31,080
You wanted your file?
I got it!

545
00:51:31,281 --> 00:51:34,671
You wanted out, I got you out!
You needed money, I found you some!

546
00:51:34,921 --> 00:51:37,833
I told you the truth!
I didn't write it in a book!

547
00:51:38,041 --> 00:51:40,031
I told you to your face!

548
00:51:40,281 --> 00:51:44,273
I told Daisy what everybody knew and
wouldn't say, and she killed herself.

549
00:51:44,480 --> 00:51:46,072
I played the fucking villain.

550
00:51:46,320 --> 00:51:47,355
Just like you wanted.

551
00:51:47,600 --> 00:51:49,033
Why would I want that?

552
00:51:50,560 --> 00:51:52,789
Because it makes you
the good guy, sweet pea.

553
00:51:52,999 --> 00:51:56,991
You come back here, all sweetness
and light and sad and contrite...

554
00:51:57,198 --> 00:52:01,828
...and everybody wrings their hands,
congratulating you on your bravery.

555
00:52:02,278 --> 00:52:06,556
Meanwhile, I'm blowing guys at the
bus station for money!

556
00:52:07,157 --> 00:52:08,590
Stop it, Lisa. She's too...

557
00:52:08,837 --> 00:52:10,031
Shut up, Polly!

558
00:52:12,277 --> 00:52:13,426
Where are you going?

559
00:52:14,236 --> 00:52:15,669
I'm talking to you!

560
00:52:20,116 --> 00:52:22,948
Where are you going?
I'm talking to you!

561
00:52:27,235 --> 00:52:28,748
You don't like me anymore?

562
00:52:28,994 --> 00:52:30,826
No, I don't!

563
00:52:32,195 --> 00:52:33,946
Because you're free?

564
00:52:34,234 --> 00:52:35,747
You think you're free?

565
00:52:36,513 --> 00:52:37,741
I'm free!

566
00:52:38,234 --> 00:52:40,793
You don't know what freedom is!

567
00:52:41,553 --> 00:52:42,906
I'm free!

568
00:52:43,393 --> 00:52:45,782
I can breathe! And you...

569
00:52:46,033 --> 00:52:49,024
...you'll go choke on your
average fucking mediocre life!

570
00:53:01,231 --> 00:53:03,062
There are too many buttons
in the world.

571
00:53:03,311 --> 00:53:05,346
Too many buttons,
and they're just...

572
00:53:07,110 --> 00:53:09,419
There's way too many,
begging to be pressed.

573
00:53:09,709 --> 00:53:11,507
They're just begging to be pressed!

574
00:53:11,710 --> 00:53:14,178
You know, they're just
begging to be pressed.

575
00:53:14,909 --> 00:53:16,786
And it makes me wonder.

576
00:53:17,229 --> 00:53:20,777
It makes me fucking wonder.
Why doesn't anybody ever press mine?

577
00:53:21,028 --> 00:53:22,347
Why am I so neglected?

578
00:53:22,588 --> 00:53:25,624
Why doesn't anybody reach in
and rip out the truth...

579
00:53:25,828 --> 00:53:28,102
...and tell me
that I'm a fucking whore...

580
00:53:28,427 --> 00:53:30,463
...and that my parents
wish I were dead?

581
00:53:30,947 --> 00:53:33,586
Because you're dead already, Lisa!

582
00:53:40,146 --> 00:53:42,455
No one cares if you die, Lisa...

583
00:53:43,826 --> 00:53:46,340
...because you're dead already.

584
00:53:47,025 --> 00:53:50,734
Your heart is cold!

585
00:53:52,904 --> 00:53:55,100
That's why you keep
coming back here.

586
00:53:56,824 --> 00:53:58,735
You're not free.

587
00:53:59,504 --> 00:54:02,813
You need this place.
You need it to feeI alive.

588
00:54:03,344 --> 00:54:04,298
It's pathetic.

589
00:54:44,379 --> 00:54:47,131
I've wasted a year of my life.

590
00:54:52,417 --> 00:54:55,534
And maybe everyone
out there is a liar.

591
00:54:58,697 --> 00:55:01,733
And maybe the whole world...

592
00:55:01,976 --> 00:55:05,332
...is stupid and ignorant.

593
00:55:08,015 --> 00:55:10,324
But I'd rather be in it.

594
00:55:12,175 --> 00:55:15,850
I'd rather be fucking in it...

595
00:55:16,095 --> 00:55:18,529
...than down here with you.

596
00:55:36,412 --> 00:55:38,846
Don't. Don't.

597
00:55:40,211 --> 00:55:41,530
Don't.

598
00:55:51,891 --> 00:55:53,370
Oh, God.

599
00:56:36,525 --> 00:56:37,514
Did you get it?

600
00:56:40,804 --> 00:56:43,796
I had to trade with a transvestite
in the men's ward.

601
00:56:46,764 --> 00:56:48,116
Thanks.

602
00:57:44,717 --> 00:57:46,514
I'm not really dead.

603
00:57:52,796 --> 00:57:54,274
I know.

604
00:57:58,595 --> 00:58:00,984
I'm gonna miss you, Susie Q.

605
00:58:03,394 --> 00:58:06,625
No, you're not.
You're gonna get out of here...

606
00:58:06,834 --> 00:58:09,108
...and you're gonna come and see me.

607
00:58:31,351 --> 00:58:33,103
Hey, Georgina.

608
00:58:33,351 --> 00:58:36,104
You know all that stuff
I write in my journaI...

609
00:58:36,350 --> 00:58:38,342
...I don't know what I'm saying.

610
00:58:39,190 --> 00:58:42,148
They're just thoughts.

611
00:58:42,790 --> 00:58:44,701
Maybe I'm the liar.

612
00:58:46,469 --> 00:58:48,107
Maybe not.

613
00:58:56,348 --> 00:58:57,701
See you.

614
00:59:08,186 --> 00:59:12,543
You think if I left Ruby here
you'd take care of her for me?

615
00:59:12,987 --> 00:59:16,296
Let me play with her
when I come for my therapy?

616
00:59:26,864 --> 00:59:28,183
Bye, Ruby.

617
00:59:48,901 --> 00:59:51,097
Remember me when you shave your legs.

618
01:00:20,298 --> 01:00:22,368
<i>Declared healthy...</i>

619
01:00:22,578 --> 01:00:25,411
<i>...and sent back into the world.</i>

620
01:00:25,738 --> 01:00:28,127
<i>My final diagnosis.:</i>

621
01:00:28,497 --> 01:00:30,885
<i>A recovered borderline.</i>

622
01:00:31,937 --> 01:00:34,575
<i>What that means, I still don't know.</i>

623
01:00:35,776 --> 01:00:37,687
<i>Was I ever crazy?</i>

624
01:00:37,936 --> 01:00:40,404
<i>- Maybe.</i>

625
01:00:41,176 --> 01:00:43,530
<i>Or maybe life is.</i>

626
01:00:45,135 --> 01:00:46,806
I remember you.

627
01:00:49,095 --> 01:00:50,493
Where are you going?

628
01:00:51,455 --> 01:00:53,649
17 Burlingame.

629
01:00:53,854 --> 01:00:55,048
All right.

630
01:00:56,294 --> 01:00:59,013
<i>Crazy isn't being broken...</i>

631
01:00:59,293 --> 01:01:02,365
<i>...or swallowing a dark secret.</i>

632
01:01:02,853 --> 01:01:04,844
<i>It's you or me...</i>

633
01:01:05,093 --> 01:01:07,083
<i>...amplified.</i>

634
01:01:07,693 --> 01:01:10,206
<i>If you ever told a lie...</i>

635
01:01:10,452 --> 01:01:12,283
<i>...and enjoyed it.</i>

636
01:01:13,732 --> 01:01:17,849
<i>If you ever wished you
could be a child forever.</i>

637
01:01:19,131 --> 01:01:21,281
<i>They were not perfect...</i>

638
01:01:21,731 --> 01:01:23,925
<i>...but they were my friends.</i>

639
01:01:25,250 --> 01:01:27,401
<i>And by the '7 Os...</i>

640
01:01:27,610 --> 01:01:29,407
<i>...most of them were out...</i>

641
01:01:29,650 --> 01:01:31,560
<i>...living lives.</i>

642
01:01:32,290 --> 01:01:34,280
<i>Some I've seen...</i>

643
01:01:35,449 --> 01:01:37,883
<i>...some, never again.</i>

644
01:01:39,169 --> 01:01:42,478
<i>But there isn't a day my heart
doesn't find them.</i>