1 00:00:26,400 --> 00:00:27,753 This is you. 2 00:00:28,600 --> 00:00:30,511 Eyes closed, out in the rain. 3 00:00:31,520 --> 00:00:34,034 You never thought you'd be doing something like this. 4 00:00:34,920 --> 00:00:36,512 You never saw yourself as, 5 00:00:37,840 --> 00:00:39,478 l don't know how you'd describe it, as... 6 00:00:39,640 --> 00:00:40,789 like one of those people 7 00:00:40,960 --> 00:00:43,076 who like looking up at the moon, 8 00:00:43,240 --> 00:00:46,391 or who spend hours gazing at the waves or the sunset or... 9 00:00:47,640 --> 00:00:50,234 l guess you know what kind of people l'm talking about 10 00:00:51,280 --> 00:00:52,429 Maybe you don't 11 00:00:53,840 --> 00:00:56,513 Anyway, you kinda you kinda like it being like this, 12 00:00:57,680 --> 00:00:59,193 fighting the cold 13 00:01:00,240 --> 00:01:02,071 and feeling the water seep through your shirt 14 00:01:02,240 --> 00:01:03,593 and getting through to your skin. 15 00:01:05,400 --> 00:01:06,833 And the feel of the ground 16 00:01:07,000 --> 00:01:09,355 growing soft beneath your feet 17 00:01:09,920 --> 00:01:11,035 and the smell. 18 00:01:13,040 --> 00:01:15,793 And the sound of the rain hitting the leaves. 19 00:01:18,200 --> 00:01:21,112 All the things they talk about in the books that you haven't read. 20 00:01:23,120 --> 00:01:24,314 This is you. 21 00:01:26,640 --> 00:01:27,959 Who would have guessed it?. 22 00:01:29,920 --> 00:01:30,875 You. 23 00:02:08,080 --> 00:02:09,433 Lesson 3. 24 00:02:09,760 --> 00:02:10,749 Dialogue. 25 00:02:15,800 --> 00:02:17,074 Catch this. 26 00:02:17,360 --> 00:02:18,713 You give me the big one. 27 00:02:19,000 --> 00:02:19,830 OK. 28 00:02:20,200 --> 00:02:21,474 Don't you even... 29 00:02:24,600 --> 00:02:26,352 So how come you always get... 30 00:02:29,240 --> 00:02:31,390 why do you always get the big one? 31 00:02:32,360 --> 00:02:33,873 I deserve the big one... 32 00:02:36,120 --> 00:02:38,111 Maybe you should just try and you know 33 00:02:38,920 --> 00:02:40,876 to get chalk of the blackboard. 34 00:02:46,760 --> 00:02:47,476 Laurie... 35 00:02:47,640 --> 00:02:49,551 Oh, l'm trying to bIow it away from you. 36 00:02:49,720 --> 00:02:52,109 -l thought you were quitting. -l am quitting. l'm quitting, quitting. 37 00:02:52,280 --> 00:02:53,190 That's great. 38 00:02:54,560 --> 00:02:56,232 l can't quit smoking 39 00:02:56,520 --> 00:02:59,080 and quit eating at the same time. 40 00:02:59,440 --> 00:03:01,795 You don't have to quit eating. Why would you have to quit eating? 41 00:03:01,960 --> 00:03:03,109 You just don't understand. 42 00:03:03,280 --> 00:03:05,430 You Iose weight just by thinking about it. 43 00:03:05,720 --> 00:03:08,632 I swear you're slimmer now than you were a month ago. 44 00:03:08,800 --> 00:03:11,030 -No, you're imagining it. -l am not. 45 00:03:11,960 --> 00:03:13,871 When you're fat like l am, 46 00:03:14,040 --> 00:03:16,873 the only thing you see is other women's bodies. 47 00:03:17,080 --> 00:03:18,752 lt's the only thing you see. 48 00:03:18,920 --> 00:03:20,638 Laurie, you're crazy. 49 00:03:21,200 --> 00:03:22,792 You're not fat at all, okay? 50 00:03:22,960 --> 00:03:25,474 l know fat people. You're not one of them. Look at this tummy. 51 00:03:25,640 --> 00:03:27,471 It's not the tummy of a fat person. 52 00:03:28,320 --> 00:03:29,673 As for me, l'm eating the same as always. 53 00:03:29,840 --> 00:03:31,273 Yesterday, I ate a whole litre of ice-cream. 54 00:03:31,680 --> 00:03:33,955 l haven't had ice-cream in so long. 55 00:03:37,400 --> 00:03:38,276 Say, 56 00:03:39,160 --> 00:03:41,116 you're not following one of those ice-cream diets are you? 57 00:03:41,280 --> 00:03:43,271 Yeah, Ben and Jerry's miracle diet. 58 00:03:43,520 --> 00:03:44,111 Really? 59 00:03:44,400 --> 00:03:45,196 No. 60 00:03:45,920 --> 00:03:47,273 You know what l'm thinking of right now? 61 00:03:47,440 --> 00:03:48,156 What? 62 00:03:48,640 --> 00:03:49,789 Corn on the cob. 63 00:03:50,960 --> 00:03:53,349 With lots of salt, lots of butter. 64 00:03:54,080 --> 00:03:56,196 Just talking about diets makes me hungry. 65 00:03:56,640 --> 00:03:57,550 See you tomorrow. 66 00:03:57,720 --> 00:03:59,438 -All right. See you tomorrow. -Tomorrow. 67 00:03:59,600 --> 00:04:00,635 Bye. 68 00:04:48,960 --> 00:04:50,473 ls Don going to look for another job? 69 00:04:50,880 --> 00:04:52,632 Don's always looking for another job. 70 00:04:53,440 --> 00:04:55,749 l could try and get him something at the hotel. 71 00:04:56,560 --> 00:04:57,788 That's okay. 72 00:04:58,640 --> 00:05:01,313 Last thing l need is for you two to fight there as well. 73 00:05:10,080 --> 00:05:11,718 Why do you have to listen to this stuff? 74 00:05:11,880 --> 00:05:14,678 Why can't you listen to music like normal people? 75 00:05:22,960 --> 00:05:24,188 No one's normal, Mom. 76 00:05:26,040 --> 00:05:27,632 No such thing as normal people. 77 00:05:54,800 --> 00:05:56,756 Some muffins for the girls, for breakfast. 78 00:05:56,920 --> 00:05:59,559 They're a littIe squashed, but they're fine. 79 00:05:59,840 --> 00:06:01,432 Who rented Nathan's house? 80 00:06:03,080 --> 00:06:05,355 l don't know. Someone's moving in on Sunday. 81 00:06:08,240 --> 00:06:09,753 Barry Manilow. 82 00:06:09,920 --> 00:06:10,716 What? 83 00:06:11,240 --> 00:06:13,674 Barry Manilow. He's normal. 84 00:06:14,800 --> 00:06:15,915 Good night, mom. 85 00:06:55,240 --> 00:06:58,437 Come on. Move over, buddy. 86 00:07:07,240 --> 00:07:10,391 Are those your feet or are you rubbing ice-cubes down my legs? 87 00:07:10,560 --> 00:07:12,039 Yes, they are ice-cubes. 88 00:07:14,160 --> 00:07:17,357 Okay, warm them up. That's my only choice. 89 00:07:32,920 --> 00:07:34,558 l'm cold up here, too. 90 00:07:34,720 --> 00:07:36,392 l'm cold everywhere. 91 00:07:41,800 --> 00:07:43,836 Did you put all the laundry in the basket? 92 00:07:44,520 --> 00:07:45,919 -Yes. -Thank you. 93 00:07:46,640 --> 00:07:47,709 Are you tired? 94 00:07:48,720 --> 00:07:49,550 Okay. 95 00:07:49,760 --> 00:07:51,159 No! 96 00:08:00,560 --> 00:08:03,870 I think you're too little. l'll tell you when you're older. 97 00:08:04,040 --> 00:08:04,995 You guys want some more milk? 98 00:08:05,160 --> 00:08:06,229 Please, please, teIl me now. 99 00:08:06,400 --> 00:08:09,119 Drink up your milk. We've going to go in about five minutes, all right? 100 00:08:11,720 --> 00:08:14,678 You've spilt your milk. I told you, you're too Iittle. 101 00:08:14,840 --> 00:08:17,912 Shit, Patsy, can you not drink a glass of milk for once without spilling it? 102 00:08:19,840 --> 00:08:21,273 No, no, no. 103 00:08:21,520 --> 00:08:22,509 What are you doing? 104 00:08:22,680 --> 00:08:25,114 Daddy, why don't the Flintstones ever go to the beach? 105 00:08:25,280 --> 00:08:27,032 l don't know. Don't change the subject. 106 00:08:27,200 --> 00:08:29,111 Where does Mommy keep your sweaters? 107 00:08:30,800 --> 00:08:33,360 Mommy, l ate all my cereal and Patsy didn't. 108 00:08:34,320 --> 00:08:36,072 lt's okay, we have accidents. 109 00:08:36,240 --> 00:08:37,992 OK. Under the girls' bed, in the green box, 110 00:08:38,160 --> 00:08:39,593 there's another sweater under there. 111 00:08:39,760 --> 00:08:41,034 Okay, put up your arms. 112 00:08:41,200 --> 00:08:43,395 Come on, we've got to take this off, okay girlie? 113 00:08:43,720 --> 00:08:45,119 Got a little bit of milk on you. 114 00:08:45,280 --> 00:08:46,395 Are you stuck? 115 00:08:46,560 --> 00:08:49,358 Where's Patsy? l don't know. There's Patsy. 116 00:08:50,800 --> 00:08:52,199 There you go. Here you go. Put that on. 117 00:08:53,440 --> 00:08:56,238 Lance's brother rang me last night. He said he might have something for me. 118 00:08:56,400 --> 00:08:57,913 No way! Great! 119 00:08:58,080 --> 00:08:59,559 Where are the keys? l can't find the keys. 120 00:08:59,720 --> 00:09:01,676 -They're still in the ignition, l think. -They are? 121 00:09:01,840 --> 00:09:03,751 Girls, you've got to put on your jackets. 122 00:09:04,960 --> 00:09:07,349 Mommy, do l have to tell Patsy where babies come from? 123 00:09:07,520 --> 00:09:09,511 -l think she's too little. -She is too little. 124 00:09:09,680 --> 00:09:11,238 Can you put on your jacket first? 125 00:09:11,400 --> 00:09:13,868 They opened a swimming pool business in Wilmington Drive. 126 00:09:14,040 --> 00:09:15,393 -No way. -Yeah. 127 00:09:15,760 --> 00:09:16,795 I know. 128 00:09:17,600 --> 00:09:19,318 -Good luck. -Yeah, thank you. 129 00:09:20,040 --> 00:09:21,871 Can you... You pick up the girIs from school, 130 00:09:22,040 --> 00:09:23,598 because l might not be back till later. 131 00:09:23,800 --> 00:09:25,597 -Yeah, sure. No problem. -Okay. Guys? 132 00:09:25,760 --> 00:09:26,988 Put on your hats and gloves, okay? 133 00:09:27,160 --> 00:09:30,152 l'm going to warm up the car and we're going to be gone in two minutes, okay? 134 00:09:30,640 --> 00:09:32,073 Two minutes. Yes! 135 00:09:32,360 --> 00:09:33,998 l want you to help Patsy with hers as well, okay? 136 00:09:34,160 --> 00:09:35,354 So get yours on and help. 137 00:09:35,600 --> 00:09:37,477 -Bye, guys. Have a good day. -Bye, Mom. 138 00:09:37,640 --> 00:09:39,790 l got you, l got you. 139 00:10:28,960 --> 00:10:29,597 Ann, 140 00:10:30,360 --> 00:10:33,432 l'm hanging out some wash. You got anything you want me to hang out? 141 00:10:37,600 --> 00:10:38,749 Ann, are you in there? 142 00:10:44,200 --> 00:10:46,668 Put your cIothes in the bag, and put on the robe. 143 00:10:46,840 --> 00:10:48,239 Do you know if this is going to take long? 144 00:10:48,400 --> 00:10:50,834 -l'm supposed to pick up my kids. -l really have no idea. 145 00:10:51,040 --> 00:10:52,598 Can l just go teII my Mom to pick them up for me? 146 00:10:52,760 --> 00:10:54,478 We can't make any exceptions. 147 00:10:56,080 --> 00:10:57,229 Is your mother outside? 148 00:10:57,400 --> 00:10:59,277 Yeah, she came with me. Ann Matland. 149 00:10:59,440 --> 00:11:02,034 -l forgot to tell her. -l'll see what I can do. 150 00:11:02,360 --> 00:11:05,033 Now if you could get undressed or you really will be here aIl day. 151 00:11:05,480 --> 00:11:06,356 Thank you. 152 00:11:12,160 --> 00:11:12,797 John, 153 00:11:12,960 --> 00:11:14,916 Charlie Bob, Seymour, 154 00:11:15,080 --> 00:11:16,195 Jack and Bill. 155 00:11:22,200 --> 00:11:23,872 Follow me, please. 156 00:11:24,120 --> 00:11:25,872 Hey, do you know if the other nurse told my mom she had to go pick up my kids? 157 00:11:26,040 --> 00:11:27,314 l was supposed to go and pick them up today and... 158 00:11:27,480 --> 00:11:28,071 Who'd you tell it to? 159 00:11:28,240 --> 00:11:29,275 The other nurse. I don't know her name. 160 00:11:30,480 --> 00:11:32,789 Do you know how many nurses we have working in this hospital? 161 00:11:33,880 --> 00:11:35,996 Do you know what it's like to be waiting at the school gate all on your own, 162 00:11:36,160 --> 00:11:37,115 with your nose freezing to death 163 00:11:37,280 --> 00:11:38,872 while aII the other kids get picked up by their moms? 164 00:11:44,600 --> 00:11:45,635 Yeah, l do. 165 00:11:46,240 --> 00:11:48,071 I'II go see if l can find your mother. 166 00:11:59,040 --> 00:12:01,076 Hi Ann. l am Doctor Thompson, 167 00:12:01,640 --> 00:12:04,359 l'll be looking at the results of your ultrasound. 168 00:12:09,840 --> 00:12:11,398 Why are we doing this again? 169 00:12:13,520 --> 00:12:14,748 How are your kids? 170 00:12:15,200 --> 00:12:16,872 l'm kind of worried, actually, 171 00:12:17,040 --> 00:12:19,031 I was supposed to pick them up today so... 172 00:12:19,200 --> 00:12:21,919 Let's not worry about thatjust now. This will be over in a few minutes. 173 00:12:53,080 --> 00:12:55,355 Ann, would you excuse me for a moment? 174 00:12:55,760 --> 00:12:57,318 Yeah, sure. lt's your hospital. 175 00:13:03,240 --> 00:13:05,151 Ann, this is Doctor Stuart and Doctor Lance. 176 00:13:05,320 --> 00:13:08,232 Hi! Do you know if someone told my mom about picking up my daughters? 177 00:13:08,640 --> 00:13:10,949 We're onIy gonna take a few minutes, okay? 178 00:13:16,880 --> 00:13:18,598 Does your husband Iive with you? 179 00:13:18,760 --> 00:13:19,875 Yeah, 180 00:13:21,560 --> 00:13:23,630 he.. he builds swimming pools. He was out all day today. 181 00:13:24,040 --> 00:13:26,190 And you work at the university. 182 00:13:27,240 --> 00:13:29,196 Yeah. l clean the university. Nights. 183 00:13:29,640 --> 00:13:30,959 And you're twenty-three... 184 00:13:32,120 --> 00:13:34,839 l'll be twenty four in December. l'm an Aquarius. 185 00:13:35,720 --> 00:13:38,678 How about you? What star sign are you? What the hell is happening to me? 186 00:13:39,120 --> 00:13:42,157 We've done the scan three times and... 187 00:13:42,360 --> 00:13:45,193 Are you sure you wouldn't prefer to call your husband? 188 00:13:46,480 --> 00:13:48,072 No. l would prefer not to call him. 189 00:13:50,640 --> 00:13:54,428 We've done the scan three times, and l've ordered a... a pre-biopsy... 190 00:13:54,600 --> 00:13:55,635 So, what? 191 00:13:57,520 --> 00:13:59,556 You have a tumour. 192 00:14:00,480 --> 00:14:01,674 In both ovaries. 193 00:14:02,280 --> 00:14:05,397 lt's reached your stomach and it's beginning to spread to your liver. 194 00:14:14,040 --> 00:14:15,359 Wow. That's pretty far gone, eh? 195 00:14:16,400 --> 00:14:18,550 Ann, if you were twenty years older, 196 00:14:18,720 --> 00:14:22,076 the whole thing would be spreading more slowly we could operate on it. 197 00:14:24,440 --> 00:14:25,714 But... your cells are very young. 198 00:14:25,880 --> 00:14:27,950 Too young, in fact 199 00:14:29,040 --> 00:14:31,429 and l'm afraid there's... there's nothing we can do. 200 00:14:53,400 --> 00:14:54,276 Wow. How long? 201 00:14:55,200 --> 00:14:56,713 Two months, maybe three. 202 00:15:04,440 --> 00:15:06,476 Here's me thinking l was pregnant... 203 00:15:08,560 --> 00:15:09,675 No, l'm afraid not. 204 00:15:19,160 --> 00:15:21,833 l knew it was something pretty serious when you sat down here beside me. 205 00:15:23,600 --> 00:15:26,990 They're renovating my office, changing the air-conditioning and... 206 00:15:30,520 --> 00:15:31,839 No, that's not true... 207 00:15:33,640 --> 00:15:37,235 l can't sit down in front of someone and tell them that they're gonna die... 208 00:15:39,640 --> 00:15:41,232 l've never been able to... 209 00:15:42,000 --> 00:15:44,389 the nurses are beginning to mention it. 210 00:15:48,200 --> 00:15:50,475 Your family might wanna see another doctor, 211 00:15:50,640 --> 00:15:52,278 they might want a second opinion. 212 00:15:52,440 --> 00:15:55,000 Someone who tells me the exact same thing as you, but looks me right in the eye? 213 00:16:00,120 --> 00:16:01,519 Can l get you a coffee? 214 00:16:02,320 --> 00:16:03,196 No. 215 00:16:04,800 --> 00:16:05,630 Bourbon? 216 00:16:06,480 --> 00:16:08,152 Let me guess, you're goinna offer me a cigarette? 217 00:16:08,320 --> 00:16:09,116 No. 218 00:16:13,160 --> 00:16:14,434 Do have a piece of candy? 219 00:16:14,760 --> 00:16:15,954 A piece of... ? Yeah. 220 00:16:25,240 --> 00:16:26,355 It's pretty good... 221 00:16:27,800 --> 00:16:29,119 what flavour is that? 222 00:16:30,280 --> 00:16:31,429 Ginger. 223 00:16:33,280 --> 00:16:34,315 It's pretty good. 224 00:16:36,200 --> 00:16:37,918 lt's a bit hot, but it's okay. 225 00:16:39,000 --> 00:16:41,958 l've... l've prepared some leaflets, which more or less 226 00:16:42,520 --> 00:16:43,953 explain everything, 227 00:16:44,400 --> 00:16:46,038 and some recipes 228 00:16:46,200 --> 00:16:47,474 to help ease the nausea, 229 00:16:47,680 --> 00:16:49,352 and l'd like to see you next week. 230 00:16:49,520 --> 00:16:51,556 I've given you an appointment and my direct line 231 00:16:51,720 --> 00:16:53,039 in case you need to call me. 232 00:16:55,760 --> 00:16:56,749 Yeah...Okay. 233 00:16:57,280 --> 00:16:59,316 Do you have another piece of candy? One for the road? 234 00:17:00,560 --> 00:17:02,278 I'm sorry, that was my last one... 235 00:17:07,440 --> 00:17:09,795 Next week l'll have more... candy. 236 00:17:10,520 --> 00:17:13,876 Your Dad used to drink a bottle of bourbon and call it breakfast. 237 00:17:14,040 --> 00:17:15,712 You get wired if you drink so much as a beer. 238 00:17:17,960 --> 00:17:19,791 You didn't even take drugs during high school, 239 00:17:20,840 --> 00:17:22,910 just the odd drag of Don's joint. 240 00:17:23,920 --> 00:17:27,071 Without inhaling, like that guy who used to be President of the United States, 241 00:17:27,760 --> 00:17:28,988 that guy Bill Clinton. 242 00:17:30,000 --> 00:17:31,513 So, were they waiting long? 243 00:17:32,880 --> 00:17:34,074 Oh, good. 244 00:17:34,440 --> 00:17:36,556 Good, thanks a lot, Mom. I owe you one. 245 00:17:37,440 --> 00:17:39,749 No, no, they're doing blood analysis. 246 00:17:39,920 --> 00:17:42,514 Apparently l've got anaemia... that's why l've been fainting. 247 00:17:45,280 --> 00:17:48,352 You know they're like, once they've got you, they don't want to let you go. 248 00:17:48,800 --> 00:17:51,268 Trying out some new machine, they're like little kids. 249 00:17:52,040 --> 00:17:52,677 You know, l should go, Mom, 250 00:17:52,840 --> 00:17:54,159 'cause the nurse is coming to get me, l've got to go. 251 00:17:55,160 --> 00:17:56,559 Okay, bye, thanks a lot. 252 00:17:58,880 --> 00:18:01,713 Now you feel like you want to take all the drugs in the world. 253 00:18:02,760 --> 00:18:05,149 But all the drugs in the world aren't going to change the feeling 254 00:18:05,320 --> 00:18:09,029 that your whole life's been a dream and it's only now that you're waking up. 255 00:18:29,840 --> 00:18:32,434 "But l like to eat cake in a tub", laughed the cat. 256 00:18:32,600 --> 00:18:35,398 "You should try it sometime", laughed the cat as he sat. 257 00:18:35,720 --> 00:18:37,551 And then l got mad, there was no time for fun. 258 00:18:37,720 --> 00:18:39,472 l said "Cat you get out!" 259 00:18:41,360 --> 00:18:42,031 Hi, Mommy. 260 00:18:44,560 --> 00:18:45,913 Hi. You've been good? 261 00:18:46,080 --> 00:18:49,117 Mom, can you tell us a story? Daddy says it too fast. 262 00:18:49,280 --> 00:18:52,033 Hey. Thanks a lot. You little monster. 263 00:18:53,000 --> 00:18:54,274 l don't read them too fast. 264 00:18:55,280 --> 00:18:57,635 -How are you? -Good. l've got anaemia, 265 00:18:57,800 --> 00:18:58,915 that's why l've been fainting, 266 00:18:59,080 --> 00:19:01,799 so they gave me some iron and vitamins. How did it go with Lance? 267 00:19:02,840 --> 00:19:04,193 l start on Monday. 268 00:19:04,560 --> 00:19:06,278 Hey, no way! That's so good. 269 00:19:06,440 --> 00:19:09,352 Yes. I know, and there's enough work for a year at least. 270 00:19:09,520 --> 00:19:12,159 -That's so great! -l know, it's great. 271 00:19:12,480 --> 00:19:15,995 -Did you give the girls something to eat? -Daddy gave us milk shakes and fries. 272 00:19:16,160 --> 00:19:18,833 He said we mustn't telI you. lt was so nice. 273 00:19:19,640 --> 00:19:22,712 Mommy, l ate all my fries and all my milk shake. 274 00:19:22,880 --> 00:19:25,713 Fries are vegetables, right? They're potatoes, which is a very good food. 275 00:19:25,880 --> 00:19:27,279 lt's one of the food groups. 276 00:19:27,440 --> 00:19:28,077 I'm sorry, 277 00:19:28,240 --> 00:19:29,878 it was a little treat. l just got a job. 278 00:19:30,040 --> 00:19:32,235 -What is wrong with you? -l'm sorry. 279 00:19:32,560 --> 00:19:36,235 -Okay. The rafters, in a second. -Can l stay, or should l go? 280 00:19:37,360 --> 00:19:38,588 You can stay. 281 00:19:39,640 --> 00:19:40,959 That's okay. Good night, you two. 282 00:19:44,000 --> 00:19:44,955 Close our eyes. 283 00:19:45,880 --> 00:19:48,030 Close our eyes. We're setting off. Okay? 284 00:19:49,360 --> 00:19:50,156 Oh, no! 285 00:19:50,440 --> 00:19:52,237 lt's getting wavier and wavier and we... 286 00:19:55,240 --> 00:19:56,878 and then we splash down in the water. 287 00:19:57,600 --> 00:19:58,430 No, 288 00:19:58,920 --> 00:20:00,831 -what's that? -ls that a shark? 289 00:20:01,000 --> 00:20:02,319 lt is a shark. 290 00:20:02,480 --> 00:20:03,595 They're really really mad at us. 291 00:20:03,760 --> 00:20:05,318 They thought that this river was the ocean. 292 00:20:05,480 --> 00:20:06,674 They're really mad! 293 00:20:21,880 --> 00:20:23,313 Here, l think you should eat those. 294 00:20:27,480 --> 00:20:28,469 Are you going to go to work? 295 00:20:29,360 --> 00:20:30,509 Yeah, l'll go in. 296 00:20:30,800 --> 00:20:33,519 Your mother said she could get a lift back if you want to rest. 297 00:20:34,680 --> 00:20:35,635 No, l should go in. 298 00:20:36,520 --> 00:20:37,839 l thought you were pregnant. 299 00:20:40,240 --> 00:20:41,514 Yeah. Me too. 300 00:20:43,840 --> 00:20:44,989 You sure you're all right? 301 00:20:45,200 --> 00:20:47,555 Yes, l'm good, l'm just a little bit tired, that's all. 302 00:20:53,040 --> 00:20:56,191 You know, next month when l get my paycheck we could go to Whalebay Beach. 303 00:20:56,760 --> 00:20:57,749 Would you like that? 304 00:20:58,200 --> 00:20:58,791 Yeah, 305 00:20:59,600 --> 00:21:00,635 that'd be nice. 306 00:21:01,120 --> 00:21:03,634 Patsy hasn't even been at the beach before. 307 00:21:05,680 --> 00:21:07,352 Yeah. l've got a good feeling about things, 308 00:21:08,000 --> 00:21:09,877 with the swimming pooIs, l mean. 309 00:21:10,280 --> 00:21:11,235 l really do. 310 00:21:17,920 --> 00:21:18,796 Thinking. 311 00:21:19,800 --> 00:21:21,597 You're not used to thinking. 312 00:21:22,400 --> 00:21:24,436 When you have your first kid at seventeen with the only man 313 00:21:24,600 --> 00:21:25,999 you've ever kissed in your life, 314 00:21:26,560 --> 00:21:28,869 and then another kid when you're nineteen, with the same man, 315 00:21:29,040 --> 00:21:31,429 and you live in a trailer in your Mom's backyard, 316 00:21:31,600 --> 00:21:33,636 and your Dad's been in jail for ten years, 317 00:21:33,800 --> 00:21:35,233 you never have time to think. 318 00:21:36,240 --> 00:21:39,596 Maybe you're so out of practice you've forgotten how. 319 00:21:49,880 --> 00:21:51,598 -What is this? -lt's coffee. 320 00:21:51,840 --> 00:21:55,913 -Yes. l asked for an espresso. -The espresso machine ain't working. 321 00:21:56,200 --> 00:21:57,713 So if the espresso machine wasn't working, 322 00:21:57,880 --> 00:21:59,836 then why didn't you tell me the espresso machine wasn't working? 323 00:22:00,000 --> 00:22:02,355 l figured you wanted coffee. 324 00:22:02,520 --> 00:22:04,715 You brought me a coffee. I asked for an espresso. 325 00:22:04,880 --> 00:22:06,393 Okay, just relax. 326 00:22:06,960 --> 00:22:08,518 Come back next week, we'll have espresso. 327 00:22:11,320 --> 00:22:13,834 -Hey, could you please lend me a pen? -Sure, honey, 328 00:22:14,000 --> 00:22:15,877 just tell me what you want first, so as l can write it down 329 00:22:16,040 --> 00:22:18,395 and then l can lend it to you, that way we'II aIl be happy. 330 00:22:18,560 --> 00:22:20,152 Okay, l'll have... 331 00:22:20,800 --> 00:22:23,394 Don't say espresso because the espresso machine ain't working... 332 00:22:23,560 --> 00:22:25,869 don't say cappuccino 'cause it's the same machine. 333 00:22:26,040 --> 00:22:27,189 Okay, l'll have a... 334 00:22:28,200 --> 00:22:29,189 a Danish. 335 00:22:29,360 --> 00:22:30,952 Got no more 'til tomorrow. 336 00:22:31,840 --> 00:22:33,876 Can l get then a coffee and 337 00:22:34,680 --> 00:22:37,069 just something sweet, like anything you have that's sweet. 338 00:22:37,720 --> 00:22:39,551 Pineapple cheesecake? 339 00:22:39,720 --> 00:22:41,676 lt's the sweetest thing we got. Actually it's the only thing we've got. 340 00:22:41,840 --> 00:22:43,558 That's fine, that's great. Pineapple cheesecake. 341 00:22:43,720 --> 00:22:44,630 Okay. 342 00:23:54,200 --> 00:23:57,033 There you go, the world's sweetest cheesecake. 343 00:23:57,320 --> 00:23:59,311 You can keep the pen for as long as you need it. 344 00:23:59,480 --> 00:24:01,311 I already filled in the Iottery ticket earlier. 345 00:24:01,560 --> 00:24:03,755 What are you going to do if you win? Have you decided? 346 00:24:03,920 --> 00:24:05,512 Have l ever, honey. 347 00:24:08,760 --> 00:24:09,954 l want to be like her. 348 00:24:10,840 --> 00:24:12,751 l want her nose, 349 00:24:12,920 --> 00:24:14,876 her mouth, her eyes, 350 00:24:15,040 --> 00:24:16,792 her hair, her waist... 351 00:24:16,960 --> 00:24:18,552 l'm going to be so much like Cher 352 00:24:18,720 --> 00:24:21,075 that folks are gonna stop me in the supermarket and say 353 00:24:21,240 --> 00:24:23,549 "Wasn't it terrible what happened to dear old Sonny?" 354 00:24:24,080 --> 00:24:25,115 What do you think? 355 00:24:26,200 --> 00:24:28,316 l think that's a reaIly fucking stupid idea. 356 00:24:31,520 --> 00:24:32,350 l'm just kidding. 357 00:24:32,640 --> 00:24:33,834 I think Cher is great. 358 00:24:40,520 --> 00:24:43,796 Penny, Patsy, l'm making a big heap of pancakes. 359 00:24:43,960 --> 00:24:45,188 lf you don't come right this second 360 00:24:45,360 --> 00:24:46,918 l'm going to eat all of them all by myself. 361 00:24:47,120 --> 00:24:48,678 l'm coming, Mommy. 362 00:24:52,520 --> 00:24:54,033 -Morning, buddy. -Hi, Mommy. 363 00:24:56,080 --> 00:24:58,150 l guess Patsy doesn't want any pancakes, eh? 364 00:24:58,320 --> 00:24:59,878 No pancakes for Patsy. 365 00:25:03,680 --> 00:25:06,353 ls it Sunday yet? ls it my birthday? 366 00:25:06,520 --> 00:25:07,794 No, but you know what? 367 00:25:07,960 --> 00:25:10,030 Last night l dreamt 368 00:25:10,200 --> 00:25:12,760 that you woke up like hungry lions 369 00:25:13,120 --> 00:25:15,315 and you ate lots of food. 370 00:25:23,920 --> 00:25:25,114 I'll cut it up for you. There you go. 371 00:25:28,360 --> 00:25:30,396 Are you going to take the kids to school? 372 00:25:37,800 --> 00:25:40,075 The biggest lion of them aIl. 373 00:25:40,240 --> 00:25:41,275 Go get him, Patsy. 374 00:25:43,760 --> 00:25:45,796 Bye. l Iove you, my little lions, 375 00:25:46,520 --> 00:25:47,669 l Iove you so much. 376 00:26:04,360 --> 00:26:05,588 l love you. 377 00:26:10,120 --> 00:26:11,439 l kind of want... 378 00:26:12,480 --> 00:26:13,674 something different. 379 00:26:15,160 --> 00:26:16,195 Different... 380 00:26:18,280 --> 00:26:20,032 To what l've got at the moment, l mean. 381 00:26:20,880 --> 00:26:23,713 l could do you braids, but it wouId take all day... 382 00:26:23,920 --> 00:26:25,672 and l'm on my own here on Wednesdays, so... 383 00:26:25,840 --> 00:26:27,512 Not braids. No way. 384 00:26:31,920 --> 00:26:33,751 Well, you've got good hair for braids. 385 00:26:34,640 --> 00:26:36,790 And you asked for something different, so... 386 00:26:37,080 --> 00:26:39,799 Braids are fine. They look great on you, but... 387 00:26:41,080 --> 00:26:42,593 l was thinking of something more... 388 00:26:44,600 --> 00:26:45,874 How about blonde? 389 00:26:46,280 --> 00:26:47,269 Blonde? 390 00:26:47,880 --> 00:26:49,029 Something to kind of... 391 00:26:49,760 --> 00:26:52,558 -brighten up my face a bit. -Something bright. 392 00:26:53,320 --> 00:26:53,991 Like this? 393 00:26:54,160 --> 00:26:56,151 l was also wondering about faIse nails. 394 00:26:56,320 --> 00:26:57,309 l don't have any nails and... 395 00:26:58,080 --> 00:27:00,992 The girI who does the nails doesn't come in Wednesdays. 396 00:27:01,200 --> 00:27:02,952 You what then, why l don't just come back tomorrow then. 397 00:27:03,120 --> 00:27:05,554 We can do it all at the same time, can't we? 398 00:27:05,800 --> 00:27:06,915 Braids as well? 399 00:27:08,120 --> 00:27:10,350 l'll think about it. Ok, l'll see you tomorrow. Bye. 400 00:27:14,240 --> 00:27:15,992 l had two conventions today 401 00:27:16,160 --> 00:27:18,993 and l had to make a cake for three hundred people 402 00:27:19,160 --> 00:27:20,798 in the shape of a tyre. 403 00:27:23,120 --> 00:27:24,394 I'm beat. 404 00:27:27,200 --> 00:27:28,633 Even my hips ache. 405 00:27:30,400 --> 00:27:32,914 l think l'm going to make an appointment to see the doctor tomorrow. 406 00:27:33,080 --> 00:27:34,718 My knee's acting up again as well. 407 00:27:36,640 --> 00:27:39,154 That damn cake must have weighed 30 pounds. 408 00:27:42,080 --> 00:27:44,036 How about you? You feeling any better? 409 00:27:44,520 --> 00:27:45,919 Yeah, I'm feeIing fine. 410 00:27:47,720 --> 00:27:50,518 They say it's going to snow this weekend, but l don't think so. 411 00:27:51,520 --> 00:27:52,714 l hate the snow. 412 00:27:54,600 --> 00:27:57,910 l like the snow even less than l like the rain. 413 00:28:01,560 --> 00:28:04,154 ...because you'll never be anything but a common frump 414 00:28:04,320 --> 00:28:06,117 whose father lived over a grocery store 415 00:28:06,280 --> 00:28:07,918 and whose mother took in washing. 416 00:28:08,080 --> 00:28:09,433 With this money, l can get away from 417 00:28:09,600 --> 00:28:12,797 every rotten stinking thing that makes me think of this place or you. 418 00:28:12,960 --> 00:28:16,111 You must think l'm on a string. 419 00:28:16,320 --> 00:28:17,878 Go away, Veda, come back, Veda . 420 00:28:18,360 --> 00:28:19,713 lt isn't that easy. 421 00:28:35,240 --> 00:28:36,195 Alone. 422 00:28:37,600 --> 00:28:38,715 You're alone. 423 00:28:40,120 --> 00:28:42,315 You've never been so alone in your live. 424 00:28:44,160 --> 00:28:45,912 Lies are your only company. 425 00:28:46,080 --> 00:28:48,992 GONE TO THE LAUNDROMAT. WE'RE OUT FO CLEAN CLOTHES. 426 00:29:04,920 --> 00:29:07,718 -Can l get you something? -Can l get a MoIson Canadian, pIease? 427 00:29:09,480 --> 00:29:10,310 Hi! 428 00:29:11,120 --> 00:29:12,075 Hi. 429 00:29:12,600 --> 00:29:14,989 -l haven't seen you here before. -No. 430 00:29:17,520 --> 00:29:19,715 l'm sorry about the thing with the braids this morning. 431 00:29:19,880 --> 00:29:21,677 l shouldn't really have suggested it, 432 00:29:22,240 --> 00:29:24,834 but l was having a kind of weird morning... 433 00:29:25,120 --> 00:29:26,314 you ever get those? 434 00:29:26,480 --> 00:29:28,391 You know, when youjust can't face the world? 435 00:29:28,560 --> 00:29:30,994 lt's very stressful being a hairdresser, 436 00:29:31,360 --> 00:29:33,112 people expect a lot from you 437 00:29:34,040 --> 00:29:36,270 and sometimes you can't stand the pressure. 438 00:29:36,440 --> 00:29:39,159 People want you to make them beautiful 439 00:29:39,320 --> 00:29:41,959 but sometimes it's just not possible. 440 00:29:42,120 --> 00:29:43,394 You know what? Don't worry about it, 441 00:29:43,560 --> 00:29:45,198 l wasn't having a great morning either, so... 442 00:29:47,040 --> 00:29:49,952 Now, can l ask you a personal question? 443 00:29:51,880 --> 00:29:53,313 Do you Iike Milli VaniIIi? 444 00:29:53,840 --> 00:29:56,434 You mean those guys in shorts who didn't sing. 445 00:29:56,600 --> 00:29:57,953 Oh, you're wrong there. 446 00:29:58,280 --> 00:30:00,919 They did sing, but their producer wouldn't let them. 447 00:30:01,320 --> 00:30:03,231 He practicaIly blackmailed them 448 00:30:03,400 --> 00:30:05,197 and said he would teII everyone their secret, 449 00:30:05,360 --> 00:30:07,351 and he got all the royalties. 450 00:30:08,160 --> 00:30:09,912 lt was so unfair. 451 00:30:10,520 --> 00:30:12,192 And later they showed that they could sing, 452 00:30:12,360 --> 00:30:14,555 but you know no one listened to them. 453 00:30:15,360 --> 00:30:18,352 They were too fragile for the music industry. 454 00:30:19,640 --> 00:30:22,074 -What kind of music do you like? -Music? 455 00:30:23,800 --> 00:30:26,109 God, l haven't Iistened to any music in so long. 456 00:30:27,120 --> 00:30:28,314 l used to like Nirvana. 457 00:30:28,640 --> 00:30:30,039 l went to one of their concerts... 458 00:30:30,200 --> 00:30:31,599 actually it was their last concert. 459 00:30:31,760 --> 00:30:35,548 That's actually where l met Don, my husband. 460 00:30:35,800 --> 00:30:36,710 He was... 461 00:30:36,880 --> 00:30:39,519 Hold that thought, Ijust got to get up and dance. 462 00:30:39,680 --> 00:30:41,636 The DJ's a friend of mine. l'll be back. 463 00:31:39,960 --> 00:31:42,349 l'm going to go get a cup coffee next door. 464 00:31:42,520 --> 00:31:45,318 l was wondering if maybe you wanted me to go and get you one too? 465 00:31:46,200 --> 00:31:47,235 No, thanks. 466 00:31:48,520 --> 00:31:50,317 Yeah, actually, please, yeah. 467 00:31:50,840 --> 00:31:52,637 Sure. Milk and sugar, please. 468 00:31:53,240 --> 00:31:54,275 Thanks. 469 00:33:18,240 --> 00:33:19,559 Your coffee's cold. 470 00:33:19,920 --> 00:33:21,273 l was kind of tired. 471 00:33:23,320 --> 00:33:25,914 l washed, folded your Iaundry. 472 00:33:27,640 --> 00:33:28,550 Thanks. 473 00:33:30,600 --> 00:33:32,158 l didn't forget the softener, did l? 474 00:33:32,320 --> 00:33:34,231 No, you forgot the soap. 475 00:33:43,800 --> 00:33:45,870 Were you watching me while l was asleep? 476 00:33:46,320 --> 00:33:48,390 Yeah, for a littIe whiIe. Sorry. 477 00:33:49,600 --> 00:33:50,555 Why? 478 00:33:52,000 --> 00:33:54,036 l was snoring or...? 479 00:33:54,200 --> 00:33:56,919 No, you were drooling. You drool when you sIeep. 480 00:33:59,760 --> 00:34:00,909 Are you that girl? That girl 481 00:34:01,960 --> 00:34:03,188 at the coffee shop 482 00:34:03,360 --> 00:34:05,476 that was writing in a journal the other day? 483 00:34:09,760 --> 00:34:11,239 Thanks for the jacket. 484 00:34:13,200 --> 00:34:14,189 lt's yours, isn't it? 485 00:34:14,360 --> 00:34:16,032 Yeah, you can keep it if you want. 486 00:34:16,200 --> 00:34:19,829 lt's mighty cold out there and l'm used to it. 487 00:34:20,000 --> 00:34:23,037 I was in Alaska for three years, l lived there, l mean, two and a half. 488 00:34:23,200 --> 00:34:24,155 It's all right. 489 00:34:25,320 --> 00:34:27,834 l really like the cold. lt makes me feel really alive. 490 00:34:31,240 --> 00:34:33,754 l've got to run. l've got two young kids. You know how it is. 491 00:34:36,120 --> 00:34:37,030 Sure. 492 00:34:45,160 --> 00:34:45,910 Thanks. 493 00:34:49,200 --> 00:34:50,918 -l'll see you around. -My name's Lee. 494 00:34:52,040 --> 00:34:52,916 Ann. 495 00:35:05,320 --> 00:35:06,992 Are you sure that you don't need the jacket? 496 00:35:07,440 --> 00:35:09,317 No, no. Go ahead, take it. 497 00:35:10,680 --> 00:35:13,638 Okay. l've never been to Alaska. l always really liked the sound of it. 498 00:35:15,040 --> 00:35:17,793 -l'll bring the jacket back, don't worry. -No. l want you to have it. 499 00:35:18,240 --> 00:35:19,878 l like the idea of you wearing it. 500 00:35:20,480 --> 00:35:21,549 That's nice. 501 00:35:23,320 --> 00:35:24,958 l'll bring it back, don't worry. 502 00:35:59,280 --> 00:36:01,077 You see things clearly now. 503 00:36:02,200 --> 00:36:05,272 You see all these all these barrelled lifes, barrelled voices. 504 00:36:06,160 --> 00:36:07,957 Milli Vanilli everywhere. 505 00:36:09,520 --> 00:36:11,795 You look at all the things you can't buy, 506 00:36:12,120 --> 00:36:14,270 now you don't even wanna buy. 507 00:36:14,840 --> 00:36:17,479 All the things that will still be here after you're gone. 508 00:36:18,040 --> 00:36:19,439 When you're dead. 509 00:36:20,400 --> 00:36:22,914 And then you realize that all the things 510 00:36:23,080 --> 00:36:24,718 in the bright window displays, 511 00:36:25,240 --> 00:36:27,151 all the models in the catalogues, 512 00:36:27,320 --> 00:36:29,834 all the colours, all the special offers, 513 00:36:30,000 --> 00:36:31,911 all the Martha Stewart recipes, 514 00:36:32,080 --> 00:36:34,469 all the piles of greasy food, 515 00:36:35,040 --> 00:36:37,235 it's just all thereto try and keep us away from death. 516 00:36:38,040 --> 00:36:39,359 And it doesn't work. 517 00:36:41,560 --> 00:36:44,279 So, it turns out that she loved her daughter so much 518 00:36:44,440 --> 00:36:46,396 that she didn't tell her that she was her mother, 519 00:36:46,560 --> 00:36:47,879 because she didn't... 520 00:36:48,040 --> 00:36:50,031 she thought that would be better, 521 00:36:50,200 --> 00:36:52,156 the boy's parents would accept her better 522 00:36:52,320 --> 00:36:53,912 and the boy would ask her to marry him, 523 00:36:54,080 --> 00:36:56,036 which was what she wanted most in the whole world. 524 00:36:56,720 --> 00:36:58,278 But it was a huge sacrifice, 525 00:36:58,520 --> 00:37:00,590 and she suffered a whole lot, 526 00:37:03,120 --> 00:37:06,510 Mommy, Grandma toId us a beautiful story about a mom 527 00:37:06,680 --> 00:37:09,717 who has lots of bad things happen to her, and it's reaIIy sad. 528 00:37:09,880 --> 00:37:11,552 Goodness, how unusual. 529 00:37:13,760 --> 00:37:14,909 l bathed them 530 00:37:15,080 --> 00:37:17,036 and Penny ate three sIices of banana bread 531 00:37:17,200 --> 00:37:20,351 and Patsy drank some miIk. Lately she's been kind of off it. 532 00:37:21,400 --> 00:37:23,436 Grandma's story's a movie, 533 00:37:23,600 --> 00:37:25,272 Mommy, and she says she Iikes it a lot. 534 00:37:25,440 --> 00:37:27,795 -ReaIly? -Yeah, Joan Crawford. 535 00:37:28,040 --> 00:37:30,838 Joan Crawford, that's great! Okay, let's go, guys. 536 00:37:31,000 --> 00:37:34,072 Patsy, put that down. Patsy. We're going. 537 00:37:35,440 --> 00:37:38,796 l just wanted to keep them entertained, you know, so they don't watch so much TV. 538 00:37:39,120 --> 00:37:40,473 Next time l'll keep my mouth shut. 539 00:37:40,640 --> 00:37:42,949 Mommy, l don't want to go to school tomorrow. 540 00:37:43,120 --> 00:37:46,157 -l don't want to. -l know, I know. 541 00:37:46,840 --> 00:37:48,796 l said thanks, okay? So just drop it. 542 00:37:48,960 --> 00:37:51,997 -I don't need your thanks. -Okay, so l'll take them back then. 543 00:37:52,800 --> 00:37:55,917 All l did was watch your kids while you did your shopping. 544 00:37:56,080 --> 00:37:57,229 You asked me to. 545 00:37:57,400 --> 00:37:59,516 Yeah, l asked you to. l didn't ask you to fill their heads 546 00:37:59,680 --> 00:38:02,797 with stupid stories about mothers making dumb-ass sacrifices. 547 00:38:03,360 --> 00:38:05,237 What kind of stories do you want me to tell them? 548 00:38:05,400 --> 00:38:07,550 Cinderella? About murderous step-mothers? 549 00:38:07,720 --> 00:38:09,551 -ls that what you want? -Yes! 550 00:38:12,840 --> 00:38:15,195 There's times that you're just like your father, 551 00:38:15,360 --> 00:38:17,032 and let me tell you, it's not something I like. 552 00:38:17,200 --> 00:38:18,713 You're wrong, there's times that l'm just like you, 553 00:38:18,880 --> 00:38:20,472 and it's not something l like either. 554 00:38:31,520 --> 00:38:33,750 I'm sorry, it's just really tangled. 555 00:38:34,280 --> 00:38:35,998 Patsy's aIways whining. 556 00:38:36,200 --> 00:38:38,111 Penny, please don't pick on her. 557 00:38:38,280 --> 00:38:40,635 You always complain when l brush your hair too. 558 00:38:40,800 --> 00:38:42,677 -Why do you have to do that? -l wasn't picking on her. 559 00:38:42,840 --> 00:38:44,478 And telling me that she's always complaining, 560 00:38:44,640 --> 00:38:45,993 that's not picking on her? l think so. 561 00:38:46,160 --> 00:38:47,912 l wasn't picking on her. 562 00:38:49,280 --> 00:38:50,998 l'm not always complaining. 563 00:38:51,160 --> 00:38:52,912 Okay, that's enough, guys. 564 00:38:53,240 --> 00:38:54,753 Go to bed, okay? 565 00:38:57,880 --> 00:38:59,996 Okay, good night, monkey girl. You got kitty? 566 00:39:00,280 --> 00:39:02,874 -Yeah. -There you go. You've got some covers. 567 00:39:03,040 --> 00:39:05,600 'Night, buddy. You don't want me to kiss you? 568 00:39:05,760 --> 00:39:06,749 l wasn't picking on her. 569 00:39:06,920 --> 00:39:09,593 Penny, that is enough, l said, okay? 570 00:39:14,480 --> 00:39:16,436 lt's true you're just like Grandma. 571 00:39:22,600 --> 00:39:24,591 Hey. Do you want some leftover chicken? 572 00:39:26,840 --> 00:39:28,159 Aren't you going to say hello? 573 00:39:31,000 --> 00:39:32,638 How many beers have you had? 574 00:39:34,200 --> 00:39:36,031 WeII, one or two or... 575 00:39:37,160 --> 00:39:38,479 four. l don't know. 576 00:39:40,920 --> 00:39:44,117 -You want some chicken or don't you? -l want a kiss. 577 00:39:45,560 --> 00:39:48,233 l want a big, juicy kiss. 578 00:39:52,440 --> 00:39:53,759 Here's some chicken. 579 00:39:59,360 --> 00:40:01,157 Great. Chicken. 580 00:40:07,920 --> 00:40:09,114 lt's good. 581 00:40:09,840 --> 00:40:11,353 Have the girIs been in bed long? 582 00:40:11,760 --> 00:40:13,079 Yeah, a little while. 583 00:40:14,880 --> 00:40:16,393 Penny's was picking on Patsy again. 584 00:40:16,560 --> 00:40:18,516 l told her not to and she got kind of mad at me. 585 00:40:18,680 --> 00:40:20,238 -She did? -Yeah, a little bit. 586 00:40:21,240 --> 00:40:23,196 We started a pool out at Rushmore today. 587 00:40:23,360 --> 00:40:25,920 -Oh yeah? -Yeah. lt's crescent-shaped. 588 00:40:26,520 --> 00:40:27,919 lt's going to look wild. 589 00:40:28,120 --> 00:40:31,032 These people, they got a three-story house, 590 00:40:31,200 --> 00:40:33,668 a porch out of "Gone With the Wind" and everything. 591 00:40:34,240 --> 00:40:35,355 lt's beautiful. 592 00:40:35,840 --> 00:40:37,034 Are you happy? 593 00:40:38,120 --> 00:40:40,076 With the swimming pool thing, l mean. 594 00:40:40,240 --> 00:40:41,434 Yeah, it's good. 595 00:40:42,120 --> 00:40:45,715 lt's not like the factory but it's better than nothing. 596 00:40:46,360 --> 00:40:47,873 l'm going to get to work. 597 00:40:48,320 --> 00:40:50,880 You not just going to leave me here alone gnawing on a coId chicken bone, are you? 598 00:40:51,040 --> 00:40:54,510 lf you like you can always heat it up, but l thought you really loved cold food. 599 00:40:54,680 --> 00:40:56,636 Why don't you just eat it cold? 600 00:41:03,680 --> 00:41:05,033 Will you sing to me? 601 00:41:05,200 --> 00:41:06,519 No, l have to go to work. 602 00:41:06,680 --> 00:41:08,796 You know how much l love it when you sing to me. 603 00:41:09,120 --> 00:41:10,235 Please. 604 00:41:10,560 --> 00:41:11,834 Just sing to me. 605 00:41:43,200 --> 00:41:44,155 Hi. 606 00:41:44,760 --> 00:41:45,510 Hi. 607 00:41:46,720 --> 00:41:47,789 Bye... 608 00:41:48,920 --> 00:41:49,909 Bye... 609 00:42:09,400 --> 00:42:10,879 Hey, my buddy Penny. 610 00:42:13,040 --> 00:42:14,712 l'm not going to be at your birthday party, 611 00:42:14,880 --> 00:42:17,633 but there's nothing l'd like more in the whole, wide world. 612 00:42:19,440 --> 00:42:21,715 l bet Grandma's made a special birthday cake just for 613 00:42:21,880 --> 00:42:23,950 you with your name on it in big chocolate Ietters. 614 00:42:30,080 --> 00:42:32,992 Penny, l want you to know that the day that you were born 615 00:42:34,160 --> 00:42:35,593 I held you in my arms 616 00:42:35,760 --> 00:42:38,320 and that was the happiest day in my whole life. 617 00:42:40,760 --> 00:42:43,194 l was so happy l couIdn't even speak. 618 00:42:45,440 --> 00:42:48,477 l just stroked your tiny little feet and l cried with happiness. 619 00:42:49,360 --> 00:42:52,033 Without you l could have never found out that lions eat pancakes 620 00:42:52,200 --> 00:42:54,316 or that the bed could be a raft. 621 00:42:54,760 --> 00:42:56,910 Try and look after Patsy, okay? 622 00:43:01,240 --> 00:43:04,152 l know it's hard 'cause sometimes she makes you mad and everything. 623 00:43:05,640 --> 00:43:09,076 l know it's not easy being a big sister, but l know that you can do it, okay? 624 00:43:12,360 --> 00:43:14,669 Mommy sends you millions and millions of kisses. 625 00:43:30,280 --> 00:43:32,396 Happy birthday, my darling Iittle Patsy. 626 00:43:33,360 --> 00:43:34,839 Now you're five! 627 00:43:35,200 --> 00:43:37,270 I'II bet that Penny Iooks after you now. 628 00:43:37,840 --> 00:43:39,831 l bet that she doesn't pick on you anymore. 629 00:43:41,360 --> 00:43:44,238 Honey, l don't want you to be sad that l'm not at your birthday, okay? 630 00:43:44,400 --> 00:43:45,515 Promise? 631 00:43:46,520 --> 00:43:49,080 l remember your first birthday really well, you know? 632 00:43:49,280 --> 00:43:52,556 l remember how you started to cry 633 00:43:52,720 --> 00:43:55,996 and you wouldn't stop because you didn't like how we were singing "Happy Birthday". 634 00:43:56,800 --> 00:43:59,360 Every time we started to sing, you'd just scream and yell 635 00:43:59,520 --> 00:44:01,909 because you didn't Iike how we were singing. 636 00:44:06,040 --> 00:44:07,598 Happy birthday, my little buddy. 637 00:44:09,960 --> 00:44:11,552 Mommy loves you to bits. 638 00:44:18,920 --> 00:44:20,558 Buddy, I want you to be happy. 639 00:44:20,960 --> 00:44:22,951 l know sometimes it's not easy 'cause 640 00:44:23,840 --> 00:44:25,478 sometimes things happen 641 00:44:26,160 --> 00:44:28,151 and people aren't always like you want them to be. 642 00:44:28,320 --> 00:44:30,959 Talk to your Dad if there's things bothering you, okay? 643 00:44:31,120 --> 00:44:32,599 He knows more than you'd think, seriously, 644 00:44:32,760 --> 00:44:35,320 if there's something bothering you and you're not sure about something, 645 00:44:35,480 --> 00:44:38,836 just ask him and he'll tell you. Grandma knows a lot of things, too. 646 00:44:39,080 --> 00:44:41,116 l reaIIy hope she'll explain them to you. 647 00:44:41,560 --> 00:44:43,994 Try and be patient with her, OK? 648 00:44:44,240 --> 00:44:47,550 She is a good person, even if sometimes it doesn't always seem that way... 649 00:44:50,560 --> 00:44:53,552 None of the things she's aIways dreamed about ever came true, you know? 650 00:44:53,720 --> 00:44:56,518 Try and understand her. Don't let her make you mad. 651 00:45:01,960 --> 00:45:05,316 lf you get a new Mom, try and love her, okay? 652 00:45:06,080 --> 00:45:08,753 Don't make life impossibIe for her just out of some loyalty to me 653 00:45:08,920 --> 00:45:09,909 or something like that. 654 00:45:10,440 --> 00:45:11,236 Just l don't know... 655 00:45:12,800 --> 00:45:14,199 l know it's not the same. 656 00:45:20,280 --> 00:45:22,794 ...and whatever happens, you finish school, 657 00:45:23,280 --> 00:45:25,077 even if you think it sucks, and you don't know 658 00:45:25,360 --> 00:45:27,920 if you can take it anymore, you just finish school. 659 00:45:30,280 --> 00:45:32,714 l'd like to be able to tell you stuff about boys 660 00:45:33,840 --> 00:45:37,469 and boyfriends and relationships and that kind of stuff, 661 00:45:38,400 --> 00:45:41,278 l think l wouldn't be much heIp. 662 00:45:41,880 --> 00:45:44,155 l was seventeen when you were born, Penny, 663 00:45:45,000 --> 00:45:46,911 exactly how old you are right now. 664 00:45:48,000 --> 00:45:49,797 You have to have faith in yourself. 665 00:45:50,440 --> 00:45:52,829 You have to have faith in your ability to do things, 666 00:45:53,000 --> 00:45:54,353 to just make a go of it. 667 00:45:56,040 --> 00:45:57,871 Lots of kisses and cuddles, 668 00:45:59,640 --> 00:46:02,108 even though l know you're not a small little thing anymore. 669 00:46:42,720 --> 00:46:43,789 Ann, is something wrong? 670 00:46:46,320 --> 00:46:47,435 What is it? 671 00:46:48,480 --> 00:46:50,038 ls it that diet you're on? 672 00:47:06,520 --> 00:47:08,112 How come you're throwing up? 673 00:47:09,280 --> 00:47:11,236 You're not taking those slimming pills, are you? 674 00:47:12,640 --> 00:47:13,959 You want to know why l'm throwing up? 675 00:47:18,280 --> 00:47:19,713 You really want to know? 676 00:47:22,960 --> 00:47:24,791 l'm throwing up because when l was eight years old 677 00:47:24,960 --> 00:47:28,430 the girl who was supposed to be my best friend toId everyone l was a slut. 678 00:47:29,800 --> 00:47:31,518 I'm throwing up 'cause when l was fifteen years oId 679 00:47:31,680 --> 00:47:35,070 l didn't get invited to the only party l ever wanted to go to in my entire life. 680 00:47:36,240 --> 00:47:38,117 l'm throwing up because when l was seventeen l had my first kid 681 00:47:38,280 --> 00:47:40,350 and l had to grow up overnight. 682 00:47:40,640 --> 00:47:42,232 And l've got no more dreams. 683 00:47:42,800 --> 00:47:45,155 Without dreams you can't fucking live. 684 00:47:47,880 --> 00:47:50,997 l'm throwing up because since they put my dad in jail l haven't seen him. 685 00:47:51,720 --> 00:47:52,948 l don't have anything from him, 686 00:47:53,120 --> 00:47:54,951 I don't even have a single fucking postcard. 687 00:47:57,280 --> 00:48:00,317 And in all the commercials everybody is so fucking happy 688 00:48:00,480 --> 00:48:03,438 and all day long my two littIe daughters sing those stupid fucking songs 689 00:48:03,600 --> 00:48:05,670 from those stupid fucking commercials. 690 00:48:12,680 --> 00:48:13,999 lf l beg you, 691 00:48:14,640 --> 00:48:17,074 if l get down on my knees to beg you... 692 00:48:20,080 --> 00:48:23,709 please, don't give me the name of that diet you're on. 693 00:48:35,080 --> 00:48:37,548 l didn't wake you up, did I? 694 00:48:39,000 --> 00:48:40,274 lt's Ann. 695 00:48:42,560 --> 00:48:44,198 Can l bring you back your book now? 696 00:48:46,560 --> 00:48:47,879 Yeah, right now. 697 00:48:49,280 --> 00:48:51,077 Yeah, okay, l know where that is. 698 00:49:00,160 --> 00:49:02,151 l should have given you a raincoat. Come on in. 699 00:49:06,520 --> 00:49:09,353 -lt's got a bit wet. -Don't worry about it. 700 00:49:15,080 --> 00:49:16,354 What happened? 701 00:49:17,560 --> 00:49:20,358 You didn't keep up the payments on your furniture and they took it all away? 702 00:49:22,640 --> 00:49:23,550 No. 703 00:49:24,960 --> 00:49:26,632 Well, actuaIIy, I was 704 00:49:28,360 --> 00:49:30,828 pIanning on getting some furniture one day, 705 00:49:31,000 --> 00:49:32,558 l just didn't really have the time. 706 00:49:36,040 --> 00:49:39,749 Sorry, l'd offer you something, but l don't have anything. 707 00:49:41,080 --> 00:49:42,877 l don't even have any glasses. 708 00:49:43,920 --> 00:49:46,115 Not even like a cookie or something? 709 00:49:47,240 --> 00:49:48,389 Nothing. 710 00:49:50,640 --> 00:49:53,438 if I knew you were coming, l would have bought something. 711 00:49:56,000 --> 00:49:57,752 l can live without cookies. 712 00:50:00,080 --> 00:50:01,479 Who took all your furniture? 713 00:50:04,400 --> 00:50:05,515 Someone... 714 00:50:07,240 --> 00:50:08,389 took it... yeah. 715 00:50:09,200 --> 00:50:12,431 You don't want to get anymore because you think she might come back? 716 00:50:24,400 --> 00:50:25,674 You wanna sit down? 717 00:50:32,680 --> 00:50:33,317 Thanks. 718 00:50:37,520 --> 00:50:38,873 Are they okay? 719 00:50:45,080 --> 00:50:46,593 What did you do in Alaska? 720 00:50:48,120 --> 00:50:49,269 l'm a surveyor. 721 00:50:49,440 --> 00:50:53,149 l survey land for building highways, bridges and things like that. 722 00:50:54,640 --> 00:50:56,312 Before that l was in 723 00:50:57,200 --> 00:50:58,110 Chile. 724 00:50:59,000 --> 00:51:01,070 And before that l was in 725 00:51:01,680 --> 00:51:03,113 North Carolina, 726 00:51:03,640 --> 00:51:05,596 and before that Halifax. 727 00:51:11,280 --> 00:51:12,759 What are your daughters caII? 728 00:51:13,120 --> 00:51:14,348 Penny and Patsy. 729 00:51:16,120 --> 00:51:17,633 Would you Iike to see a photograph? 730 00:51:20,240 --> 00:51:21,150 Okay. 731 00:51:32,160 --> 00:51:33,593 They look happy. 732 00:51:34,880 --> 00:51:36,233 They look like you. 733 00:51:37,440 --> 00:51:38,759 Do l look happy? 734 00:51:39,440 --> 00:51:40,509 Not happy. 735 00:51:41,640 --> 00:51:42,834 You look beautiful. 736 00:51:44,000 --> 00:51:45,479 You look like your girls. 737 00:51:51,600 --> 00:51:52,999 You've been thinking about me? 738 00:51:57,920 --> 00:51:58,830 Yeah. 739 00:52:00,520 --> 00:52:02,431 I've been thinking about you a lot. 740 00:52:04,760 --> 00:52:05,829 Too much. 741 00:52:23,560 --> 00:52:26,438 l've got a sister, you know, who... 742 00:52:27,680 --> 00:52:30,148 she works for this radio company up north. 743 00:52:32,520 --> 00:52:35,557 And she makes these tapes for me that she sends to me, 744 00:52:35,720 --> 00:52:38,996 music that she likes and 745 00:52:39,720 --> 00:52:41,233 l've got the latest one 746 00:52:41,400 --> 00:52:43,231 out in my car right now. 747 00:52:44,840 --> 00:52:46,558 We could go listen to it, 748 00:52:47,320 --> 00:52:48,469 if you want... 749 00:53:52,600 --> 00:53:55,194 lf you don't kiss me right now, l'm going to scream. 750 00:54:05,160 --> 00:54:05,956 Shut up! 751 00:54:27,800 --> 00:54:30,439 lf you don't kiss me right now, l'm goinna fucking scream. 752 00:54:53,720 --> 00:54:54,550 Hello, Ann. 753 00:54:55,160 --> 00:54:57,754 This some kind of therapy to get over your shyness? 754 00:54:57,920 --> 00:54:59,035 Something like that. 755 00:55:00,720 --> 00:55:02,312 So you didn't come Iast week. 756 00:55:03,760 --> 00:55:05,591 There didn't seem to be a Iot of point. 757 00:55:06,640 --> 00:55:10,155 l have to give you a further scan and a fuller biopsy. 758 00:55:10,760 --> 00:55:11,954 No, l'm sorry. 759 00:55:12,520 --> 00:55:14,397 l don't want any of those things, okay? 760 00:55:14,840 --> 00:55:17,912 I need to feel like l've got some control. 761 00:55:19,800 --> 00:55:21,916 So l don't want any more tests if they're not going to save me. 762 00:55:22,080 --> 00:55:23,832 l don't want to die here. 763 00:55:24,000 --> 00:55:26,798 l will not have the only thing my kids remember about me be a hospital ward. 764 00:55:27,880 --> 00:55:29,393 So why are you here? 765 00:55:33,040 --> 00:55:34,678 lt's this package. 766 00:55:36,400 --> 00:55:38,118 l want you to Iook after it for me. 767 00:55:38,400 --> 00:55:39,628 l don't know. What is it? 768 00:55:39,960 --> 00:55:42,633 l've recorded birthday messages for both of my daughters, 769 00:55:42,800 --> 00:55:44,597 for every birthday till they're eighteen. 770 00:55:45,240 --> 00:55:47,037 And you want me to give these, don't you? 771 00:55:49,880 --> 00:55:51,438 Why don't you ask your husband? 772 00:55:51,840 --> 00:55:52,795 'Cause... 773 00:55:54,680 --> 00:55:57,148 'cause Don, you know, he'd Iose them 774 00:55:57,760 --> 00:56:00,433 or maybe he'd give them to them next year, and maybe the year after that, 775 00:56:00,600 --> 00:56:02,511 or maybe he'd give them to them all at once. 776 00:56:02,800 --> 00:56:05,030 They wouldn't understand a thing if he did that, 777 00:56:05,200 --> 00:56:06,952 so... please tell me you'll do it, please. 778 00:56:08,640 --> 00:56:10,437 l'll only do it if you promise to come here 779 00:56:10,600 --> 00:56:12,795 every week and l have to give you medication. 780 00:56:12,960 --> 00:56:16,316 l would imagine that the nausea's got worse, you're not eating. 781 00:56:16,480 --> 00:56:18,789 Dying's not as easy as it looks. 782 00:56:18,960 --> 00:56:22,669 But there's no need for you to have to feel terrible all the time. 783 00:56:23,960 --> 00:56:24,836 lt's just... 784 00:56:26,080 --> 00:56:27,149 lt's just l'm kind of afraid 785 00:56:27,320 --> 00:56:29,788 I'm going to come in here one day and l'm never gonna leave... 786 00:56:31,720 --> 00:56:34,234 and l've got to so much I have to do before l die, 787 00:56:34,400 --> 00:56:36,118 l have so many things l have to do. 788 00:56:36,280 --> 00:56:37,474 l have to do them, or... 789 00:56:38,080 --> 00:56:40,036 lt'Il only bejust some painkillers. 790 00:56:40,320 --> 00:56:43,869 l promise we won't do any more tests, just something to ease the pain. 791 00:56:44,920 --> 00:56:46,035 And anyway... 792 00:56:48,680 --> 00:56:50,238 l brought you some candies. 793 00:56:52,040 --> 00:56:54,634 -So you'll look after it for me? -Of course. 794 00:56:55,160 --> 00:56:58,152 Let's just say it's part of your therapy. 795 00:57:04,200 --> 00:57:06,111 God. These candies are so good. 796 00:57:13,880 --> 00:57:14,995 l don't get it. 797 00:57:15,160 --> 00:57:18,357 I've been counting my caIories today, and l can't have eaten more than 1500, 798 00:57:18,520 --> 00:57:21,751 and in theory l need 2000, so in theory l shouId have lost weight, 799 00:57:21,960 --> 00:57:23,996 and l just weighed myself before l left the house 800 00:57:24,160 --> 00:57:26,469 and l weigh nearIy a pound more than l did yesterday. 801 00:57:26,800 --> 00:57:28,631 lt must be my metabolism. 802 00:57:28,920 --> 00:57:31,992 They should give us compensation for slow metabolisms, 803 00:57:32,960 --> 00:57:34,473 give us some kind of allowance. 804 00:57:36,160 --> 00:57:37,957 Laurie, you want to come over for dinner tomorrow night? 805 00:57:39,360 --> 00:57:40,509 Yeah, l'd love to. 806 00:57:41,120 --> 00:57:41,791 Great. 807 00:57:42,080 --> 00:57:43,149 Diet food, l hope. 808 00:57:43,560 --> 00:57:45,118 l don't want to ruin my diet. 809 00:57:52,920 --> 00:57:55,878 lt's cold in the supermarket, and you like it like that. 810 00:57:56,960 --> 00:57:59,997 People always read the labels of their favourite brands really really carefully 811 00:58:00,160 --> 00:58:02,196 just to see how many chemicals they have, 812 00:58:02,680 --> 00:58:04,830 and then they just sigh and they put them in their cartanyway, 813 00:58:05,000 --> 00:58:06,797 like they're saying sure it's bad for me, 814 00:58:06,960 --> 00:58:08,598 it's bad for my family but we like it. 815 00:58:09,680 --> 00:58:11,955 No one ever thinks about death in a supermarket. 816 00:58:44,040 --> 00:58:46,474 Sixty dollars and forty eight cents. 817 00:58:49,040 --> 00:58:51,429 Girls, you finish those mashed potatoes, okay? 818 00:58:53,320 --> 00:58:55,197 Oh, God. These ribs are so great. 819 00:58:55,720 --> 00:58:58,678 How did you get them so tender? 820 00:58:58,840 --> 00:59:01,752 l leave them soaking in my fridge in milk for a couple of hours. 821 00:59:01,920 --> 00:59:05,356 You leave them soaking in milk in the fridge for a couple of hours. 822 00:59:06,280 --> 00:59:07,838 l must try and remember that. 823 00:59:08,480 --> 00:59:10,516 Patsy, stop playing with your food. 824 00:59:12,680 --> 00:59:14,352 Ann, tell Patsy to stop playing with her food. 825 00:59:14,520 --> 00:59:17,398 You do what your Dad tells you to do, okay? Stop pIaying with your food. 826 00:59:17,560 --> 00:59:18,709 Try and eat a littIe more. 827 00:59:18,880 --> 00:59:20,916 lt's more fun playing with it than eating it. 828 00:59:21,360 --> 00:59:22,554 You know 829 00:59:22,720 --> 00:59:25,553 that eating food can be fun too? 830 00:59:25,760 --> 00:59:26,988 Why? 831 00:59:27,520 --> 00:59:28,919 Well because... 832 00:59:29,960 --> 00:59:32,315 because you're doing new things, 833 00:59:32,480 --> 00:59:35,119 you're trying new things and that's fun. 834 00:59:35,280 --> 00:59:37,669 Mashed potatoes isn't new. lt's more fun doing things with it. 835 00:59:37,840 --> 00:59:40,354 Laurie, why don't you have some more sauce? 836 00:59:40,520 --> 00:59:42,078 Here, Don made it himself. 837 00:59:42,440 --> 00:59:43,634 Goodness me. 838 00:59:43,800 --> 00:59:45,597 l didn't know your husband cooked. 839 00:59:47,680 --> 00:59:51,229 l didn't know there were husbands that cooked. 840 00:59:52,600 --> 00:59:54,033 lt wasn't really cooking. 841 00:59:54,200 --> 00:59:55,997 l just added honey to a bottle of barbecue sauce. 842 00:59:56,160 --> 00:59:57,957 Well that's better than nothing. 843 00:59:58,360 --> 01:00:01,238 You could have lied, said you made the whole thing. 844 01:00:02,120 --> 01:00:04,350 No, Don would never lie. He wouldn't even know how. 845 01:00:06,360 --> 01:00:07,998 How did you two guys meet? 846 01:00:09,000 --> 01:00:10,399 We met at a Nirvana concert. 847 01:00:10,800 --> 01:00:12,438 ActualIy it was the last Nirvana concert 848 01:00:12,600 --> 01:00:14,113 before Kurt Cobain... 849 01:00:14,280 --> 01:00:15,838 No, my God. 850 01:00:16,000 --> 01:00:19,470 Did you save the tickets? They must be worth a fortune by now. 851 01:00:19,920 --> 01:00:21,239 No, no we didn't save them. 852 01:00:21,400 --> 01:00:24,517 No, we were sort of too excited to keep them. 853 01:00:24,680 --> 01:00:26,511 Ann spent the whole concert crying. 854 01:00:27,840 --> 01:00:30,035 l didn't really like Nirvana back then, 855 01:00:30,320 --> 01:00:32,470 so I was this kind of bored and l was looking around, 856 01:00:33,480 --> 01:00:35,038 and that's when l saw Ann. 857 01:00:36,240 --> 01:00:39,073 She was this beautiful girl just crying her eyes out, 858 01:00:39,800 --> 01:00:42,234 so l went up to her and l offered her a handkerchief, 859 01:00:42,400 --> 01:00:43,958 but l didn't have a handkerchief, 860 01:00:44,480 --> 01:00:46,311 l didn't even have a paper one, so l just... 861 01:00:46,480 --> 01:00:49,597 l took off my T-shirt and I gave it to her. 862 01:00:51,560 --> 01:00:52,754 Thats how we met. 863 01:00:53,080 --> 01:00:54,433 That's really romantic. 864 01:00:57,080 --> 01:00:59,833 -Do you have any more mashed potato? -Yeah, sure. 865 01:01:04,720 --> 01:01:05,755 You're a pig. 866 01:01:08,720 --> 01:01:10,870 She's basically a nice person, you know? 867 01:01:11,040 --> 01:01:12,155 Oh Christ, Ann. 868 01:01:12,320 --> 01:01:13,833 Don't talk so Ioud. 869 01:01:14,000 --> 01:01:15,353 Penny's right. 870 01:01:16,040 --> 01:01:18,076 l mean, the woman ate eight ribs. 871 01:01:18,240 --> 01:01:21,038 And they were fucking huge ribs. Did you see those things? 872 01:01:21,200 --> 01:01:22,189 l know, but... 873 01:01:23,440 --> 01:01:24,759 Fucking huge. 874 01:01:24,920 --> 01:01:27,275 Her fianc� dumped her the day before her wedding, you know. 875 01:01:27,440 --> 01:01:30,716 He invited her to an All You Can Eat and they wanted to charge her triple? 876 01:01:31,680 --> 01:01:34,319 That's not funny, Don. That's not funny. 877 01:01:34,600 --> 01:01:37,319 Food can be fun. 878 01:01:38,520 --> 01:01:40,397 Food can be fun. 879 01:01:41,480 --> 01:01:44,153 She's a really nice person. 880 01:01:46,200 --> 01:01:48,077 Lately she's got this obsession. 881 01:01:49,960 --> 01:01:52,110 Yeah, lately you seem to have the opposite. 882 01:01:53,760 --> 01:01:54,556 lt's the anaemia. 883 01:01:54,720 --> 01:01:57,598 Gonna go get more vitamins this week, go to the hospital. 884 01:01:58,400 --> 01:01:59,799 Do you want me to come with you? 885 01:02:01,480 --> 01:02:03,232 No, don't worry, l can manage. 886 01:02:04,280 --> 01:02:05,235 Ok. 887 01:02:10,320 --> 01:02:13,790 Tonight l realized how lucky we were to meet that night. 888 01:02:15,360 --> 01:02:16,793 l mean, in spite of everything, 889 01:02:18,720 --> 01:02:20,756 in spite of living in this shit hole, 890 01:02:22,320 --> 01:02:24,276 in spite of never having anything new, 891 01:02:25,800 --> 01:02:27,916 in spite of never going on vacation. 892 01:02:31,920 --> 01:02:33,353 You never compIained once, 893 01:02:35,520 --> 01:02:36,589 not once. 894 01:02:44,080 --> 01:02:45,195 l would... 895 01:02:49,640 --> 01:02:51,358 l would like to be better for you. 896 01:03:04,040 --> 01:03:05,439 l love you, you know that? 897 01:03:08,280 --> 01:03:09,759 Don't you ever forget that. 898 01:03:13,880 --> 01:03:15,074 l love you. 899 01:03:21,120 --> 01:03:22,269 What are you doing? 900 01:03:22,880 --> 01:03:23,995 I'm sweeping up. 901 01:03:25,280 --> 01:03:27,510 -What are you doing? -l'm the queen witch 902 01:03:27,680 --> 01:03:30,319 and l'm teaching this little witch how to make spells. 903 01:03:30,480 --> 01:03:32,516 -I'm the little witch. -Really? 904 01:03:32,680 --> 01:03:34,636 And what kind of spells are you doing? 905 01:03:34,920 --> 01:03:36,478 Oh, just normal spells, 906 01:03:36,640 --> 01:03:40,189 turning frogs into cars and turning lizards into airplanes. 907 01:03:40,600 --> 01:03:42,158 You know how to do that? 908 01:03:42,320 --> 01:03:43,594 -Are you going to teach me? -Sure! 909 01:03:45,560 --> 01:03:46,310 Hi, there. 910 01:03:46,480 --> 01:03:47,549 l'm Ann. 911 01:03:47,880 --> 01:03:49,950 l see you've already met Penny and Patsy. 912 01:03:50,120 --> 01:03:51,678 -Yeah. l'm also Ann. -Oh yeah? 913 01:03:51,840 --> 01:03:53,717 There you go. Nice to meet you. 914 01:03:53,880 --> 01:03:56,553 -So you just moved in or..? -Yeah, a few days ago. 915 01:03:56,720 --> 01:03:59,234 l was just trying to do some gardening or something. 916 01:03:59,400 --> 01:04:01,277 -Looks great. -They're so sweet. 917 01:04:02,960 --> 01:04:04,518 Their little gets ups on. 918 01:04:04,680 --> 01:04:05,954 Listen, this is kind of a weird question 919 01:04:06,120 --> 01:04:07,519 since we just met and everything, but l was wondering, 920 01:04:07,680 --> 01:04:10,274 l'm just heading out for about half an hour'cause both my husband 921 01:04:10,640 --> 01:04:12,437 and my mom aren't back yet. 922 01:04:12,600 --> 01:04:13,953 l was wondering if there was any chance of you keeping an eye on them 923 01:04:14,120 --> 01:04:15,075 for the next half hour if you're around. 924 01:04:15,240 --> 01:04:16,559 -Of course. No problem. -Are you sure? 925 01:04:16,720 --> 01:04:18,358 Yeah, l'm going to be here all day 926 01:04:18,520 --> 01:04:20,112 and they were going to show me how to do some speIls, so... 927 01:04:20,280 --> 01:04:22,475 There you go. They're very good at speIIs, so... 928 01:04:22,640 --> 01:04:24,119 -Okay. -Thanks a lot. 929 01:04:24,280 --> 01:04:26,236 Bye, guys. You behave yourselves, okay? 930 01:04:26,880 --> 01:04:28,871 Ann's gonna watch you for a Iittle bit. 931 01:04:29,040 --> 01:04:31,076 -Thank you so much. -lt's okay. 932 01:04:33,320 --> 01:04:35,914 So, help me here. Who's Patsy and who's Penny? 933 01:04:50,200 --> 01:04:52,873 My body hurt thinking you weren't gonna come. 934 01:04:53,920 --> 01:04:55,148 l wasn't gonna come. 935 01:04:56,400 --> 01:04:58,356 l'm glad you did. 936 01:05:04,560 --> 01:05:05,913 ls this one of your sister's tapes? 937 01:05:06,080 --> 01:05:06,876 Yeah. 938 01:05:10,320 --> 01:05:11,548 Would you like to dance? 939 01:06:00,960 --> 01:06:03,952 ...and then the Little Mermaid said to the Taxi Driver 940 01:06:04,120 --> 01:06:06,759 "l wanna see New York City. Please, show me New York." 941 01:06:06,920 --> 01:06:09,753 'Cause it's so big. You can't... you can't just walk around New York. 942 01:06:10,200 --> 01:06:12,839 So the taxi driver took her to the Empire State Building, 943 01:06:13,360 --> 01:06:15,635 and you know it's so high it has two elevators 944 01:06:15,800 --> 01:06:18,155 because they couldn't find just one cable to build one, you know? 945 01:06:18,320 --> 01:06:21,437 They had to build two. So he got on the first elevator 946 01:06:21,680 --> 01:06:24,877 and then on the second elevator that's as fast as a space rocket, 947 01:06:25,680 --> 01:06:27,955 and they got to the top of the Empire State building 948 01:06:28,360 --> 01:06:30,715 and the Little Mermaid was looking down and she said 949 01:06:30,880 --> 01:06:33,474 "Oh, my God. People look like ants, they're so small..." 950 01:06:33,640 --> 01:06:35,631 Hey, guys. Hello, there. 951 01:06:35,800 --> 01:06:38,633 We pIayed witches and princesses. 952 01:06:39,200 --> 01:06:41,236 And Ann did our braids. 953 01:06:41,400 --> 01:06:44,073 Oh, they look beautiful. Thank you, Ann. l'm sorry l took so long. 954 01:06:44,240 --> 01:06:46,879 No, that was fine. We had a great time. 955 01:06:47,040 --> 01:06:48,951 -Were you guys good? -Yeah. 956 01:06:51,040 --> 01:06:52,678 Good. Want your witches hats? 957 01:06:53,240 --> 01:06:56,073 Tomorrow can you finish the story about the mermaid 958 01:06:56,240 --> 01:06:58,595 -and the taxi driver? -Of course. My pleasure. 959 01:06:59,040 --> 01:07:00,712 Give Ann a kiss goodbye. 960 01:07:02,360 --> 01:07:03,759 We have to go have bath and supper time now, 961 01:07:03,920 --> 01:07:06,639 but maybe we can come back and hear the end of that story, okay? 962 01:07:06,800 --> 01:07:09,109 Thank you so much, Ann. Let's go. 963 01:07:20,320 --> 01:07:22,151 -Hey, Ann? -Yeah? 964 01:07:22,320 --> 01:07:24,880 l was just going to make some coffee. Do you want to come over? 965 01:07:25,040 --> 01:07:25,916 Great. 966 01:07:26,720 --> 01:07:27,789 Just let me finish doing this. 967 01:07:28,040 --> 01:07:28,950 Okay. 968 01:07:34,440 --> 01:07:36,795 -Do you take sugar? -No, no it's alright. 969 01:07:39,120 --> 01:07:40,678 You're not on a diet, are you? 970 01:07:41,160 --> 01:07:42,878 No. Why? ShouId I? 971 01:07:43,040 --> 01:07:46,476 No. l just have this friend who's obsessed with diets 972 01:07:46,640 --> 01:07:48,710 and calories and... 973 01:07:48,880 --> 01:07:50,029 Boring. 974 01:07:50,640 --> 01:07:53,950 No, and I've seen too many people sick with anorexia and bulimia. 975 01:07:54,840 --> 01:07:56,398 -l'm a nurse. That's why. -ls that so? 976 01:07:57,120 --> 01:07:59,076 So l'm not reaIIy bothered. 977 01:08:01,640 --> 01:08:03,119 You know, you've got really cute kids. 978 01:08:03,480 --> 01:08:05,232 Yeah, they're great, aren't they? 979 01:08:06,840 --> 01:08:08,796 What about you? You want kids? 980 01:08:09,040 --> 01:08:10,553 No, l don't think so. 981 01:08:12,560 --> 01:08:14,471 Why not? l mean, 982 01:08:14,840 --> 01:08:17,400 you think it's stupid to bring them into the world, or...? 983 01:08:17,560 --> 01:08:19,630 Just haven't found the right guy, or...? 984 01:08:20,640 --> 01:08:21,959 No, l haven't. 985 01:08:22,640 --> 01:08:24,358 No, but it's not that either, no. 986 01:08:25,280 --> 01:08:27,111 Do you think you can't? 987 01:08:28,120 --> 01:08:30,839 No. Well, 988 01:08:31,960 --> 01:08:32,870 l don't know, actually. 989 01:08:39,880 --> 01:08:40,915 But... 990 01:08:43,920 --> 01:08:45,911 l was in my last year of nursing college. 991 01:08:46,080 --> 01:08:48,878 We were doing some work experience in a paediatric hospital. 992 01:08:50,040 --> 01:08:53,191 l'd decided to specialize in kids, because l've always liked them. 993 01:08:55,600 --> 01:08:57,875 Maybe because l was an only child. 994 01:08:59,040 --> 01:09:00,109 l don't know. Anyway, 995 01:09:01,760 --> 01:09:02,829 one night l was on duty, 996 01:09:03,000 --> 01:09:04,991 and they called me in to heIp with a birth. 997 01:09:05,160 --> 01:09:07,196 This woman was overdue, 998 01:09:07,360 --> 01:09:10,079 she was expecting twins, and the babies were in danger. 999 01:09:11,600 --> 01:09:15,388 So they decided to do a caesarean 1000 01:09:15,960 --> 01:09:18,793 and the mother was put under a general anaesthetic. 1001 01:09:20,720 --> 01:09:21,789 And... 1002 01:09:24,160 --> 01:09:26,515 it turned out they were Siamese twins. 1003 01:09:27,480 --> 01:09:30,597 They were born without one torso... one set of lungs... 1004 01:09:30,760 --> 01:09:31,988 they hardly cried. 1005 01:09:33,520 --> 01:09:35,351 They weren't horrible to look at. 1006 01:09:35,760 --> 01:09:38,035 No, they were just Iike any other baby. 1007 01:09:40,840 --> 01:09:41,636 But 1008 01:09:42,520 --> 01:09:44,636 there was no way they were going to survive. 1009 01:09:45,440 --> 01:09:46,475 lt's impossible. 1010 01:09:50,200 --> 01:09:52,316 So we put them in an incubator while the doctors talked to the father 1011 01:09:52,480 --> 01:09:53,879 about what they shouId do. 1012 01:09:55,360 --> 01:09:57,191 The father didn't even wanna see them. 1013 01:09:59,800 --> 01:10:03,588 So they decided to take them out of the incubator 1014 01:10:06,560 --> 01:10:07,993 and wait for them to die. 1015 01:10:08,760 --> 01:10:10,193 And l offered 1016 01:10:10,600 --> 01:10:12,477 to be with them until they... 1017 01:10:12,640 --> 01:10:15,074 l couldn't bear the thought of them dying alone 1018 01:10:15,240 --> 01:10:16,832 in a cold hospital room. 1019 01:10:20,600 --> 01:10:22,113 They lived thirty hours. 1020 01:10:25,120 --> 01:10:27,429 l held them in my arms thirty hours. 1021 01:10:30,200 --> 01:10:32,555 l sang every song l knew, 1022 01:10:32,960 --> 01:10:36,236 songs from the world they could never see, but... 1023 01:10:39,760 --> 01:10:42,228 Anyway, they just grew smaller and smaIIer in my arms. 1024 01:10:42,680 --> 01:10:44,193 First the boy died, and... 1025 01:10:47,800 --> 01:10:49,711 six hours later the girl died. 1026 01:10:54,520 --> 01:10:57,637 So... since then l've specialized in geriatric nursing. 1027 01:11:04,440 --> 01:11:05,759 l'm so sorry, Ann. 1028 01:11:07,760 --> 01:11:09,990 l don't know why l told you this story. 1029 01:11:10,160 --> 01:11:11,798 Thanks for the coffee. 1030 01:11:11,960 --> 01:11:14,394 You know what? l better be going. No, l'm sorry. 1031 01:11:14,560 --> 01:11:16,869 Do you want to come over for dinner next week? 1032 01:11:18,720 --> 01:11:21,712 -Are you sure? -Yeah, no, l would realIy love you to. 1033 01:11:22,680 --> 01:11:24,591 l know the girls would reaIIy love it too, 1034 01:11:25,080 --> 01:11:26,877 because you have to tell them the end of that mermaid story, 1035 01:11:27,040 --> 01:11:28,234 they love that story. 1036 01:11:31,280 --> 01:11:32,679 I'd love to, Ann. 1037 01:11:33,240 --> 01:11:34,992 And you know, that story is happy. 1038 01:11:37,080 --> 01:11:39,640 Thank you so much, l'd love to. 1039 01:11:44,440 --> 01:11:45,589 Read me something. 1040 01:11:45,800 --> 01:11:47,836 Read me something that you're reading right now. 1041 01:11:48,000 --> 01:11:50,798 I'm reading a very sad book at the moment. 1042 01:11:52,520 --> 01:11:53,919 Beautiful, but sad. 1043 01:11:55,560 --> 01:11:57,869 It can't be as sad as the story l heard today. 1044 01:11:58,480 --> 01:11:59,515 Tell it to me. 1045 01:12:00,320 --> 01:12:01,275 l can't. 1046 01:12:01,640 --> 01:12:02,959 It'll make me too sad. 1047 01:12:03,120 --> 01:12:06,032 You don't wanna teII it to me because its part of your Iife, 1048 01:12:07,160 --> 01:12:09,628 and you don't want me to know anything about your Iife. 1049 01:12:09,800 --> 01:12:12,394 I like it that you don't ask me anything about my life. 1050 01:12:13,760 --> 01:12:16,479 l don't ask you anything because l've learned not to. 1051 01:12:19,320 --> 01:12:20,878 When you look at somebody, 1052 01:12:22,480 --> 01:12:23,469 you might see 1053 01:12:24,720 --> 01:12:27,188 fifty per cent 1054 01:12:28,800 --> 01:12:29,915 of who they are, 1055 01:12:31,600 --> 01:12:34,910 and wanting to know the rest, that's what destroys everything. 1056 01:12:35,960 --> 01:12:37,359 That's what l learnt. 1057 01:12:37,520 --> 01:12:40,637 Whoever took away your furniture really taught you a lesson, eh? 1058 01:12:41,600 --> 01:12:43,397 That's all she left me. 1059 01:12:48,240 --> 01:12:50,959 -You really want me to read you something? -Please. 1060 01:12:52,160 --> 01:12:53,388 Read me something. 1061 01:12:53,800 --> 01:12:54,755 Okay. 1062 01:12:57,320 --> 01:12:58,435 Pick something. 1063 01:13:00,560 --> 01:13:02,710 "To the Wedding" by John Berger. 1064 01:13:19,680 --> 01:13:23,116 "Her capacities go out one by one, 1065 01:13:24,520 --> 01:13:26,158 and there's no night, 1066 01:13:26,760 --> 01:13:28,113 no stars, 1067 01:13:29,440 --> 01:13:32,159 onIy a cellar from which she can never walk 1068 01:13:32,400 --> 01:13:34,789 and which nobody else can stay. 1069 01:13:36,680 --> 01:13:39,478 She's given medicines which make her ill, 1070 01:13:40,280 --> 01:13:42,271 but would stop her dying. 1071 01:13:42,960 --> 01:13:44,109 For a little while. 1072 01:13:44,640 --> 01:13:46,710 They're scared. l'm scared." 1073 01:13:53,200 --> 01:13:54,997 You know, I don't think it was that bad. 1074 01:13:55,840 --> 01:13:57,239 No, I like it. 1075 01:13:58,560 --> 01:14:00,278 ljust don't want to read right now. 1076 01:14:14,280 --> 01:14:15,508 l lied. 1077 01:14:17,800 --> 01:14:21,270 When l said that when you look at somebody you know fifty per cent. 1078 01:14:23,680 --> 01:14:25,796 l guess when l look at you l see, 1079 01:14:26,760 --> 01:14:29,274 l don't know, maybe ten per cent... 1080 01:14:31,840 --> 01:14:34,479 and that ten per cent is... 1081 01:14:43,240 --> 01:14:44,468 lt's not so bad. ls it? 1082 01:15:03,560 --> 01:15:06,074 lt's my birthday today. Wish me a happy birthday. 1083 01:15:06,600 --> 01:15:07,874 Happy birthday, mom. 1084 01:15:13,560 --> 01:15:15,152 Aren't you going to start the car? 1085 01:15:16,640 --> 01:15:18,198 l've got something to tell you, Mom. 1086 01:15:19,440 --> 01:15:22,830 lt must be serious, otherwise you'd tell me while you were driving. 1087 01:15:25,320 --> 01:15:27,470 l need to know where my Dad is. 1088 01:15:28,320 --> 01:15:29,594 Are you going to go and see him? 1089 01:15:31,920 --> 01:15:33,148 Because that bugs you? 1090 01:15:35,920 --> 01:15:36,750 No, 1091 01:15:38,640 --> 01:15:40,471 not even that can make me mad anymore. 1092 01:15:46,480 --> 01:15:47,959 This time last year, 1093 01:15:48,520 --> 01:15:50,078 this very same day, my birthday, 1094 01:15:50,720 --> 01:15:53,553 l thought l should do something, l don't know why. 1095 01:15:54,800 --> 01:15:57,109 So l... l put on some makeup 1096 01:15:57,480 --> 01:15:59,675 and the least old cIothes l could find 1097 01:15:59,840 --> 01:16:01,273 and l went to a bar. 1098 01:16:02,320 --> 01:16:03,992 And l ordered a whisky 1099 01:16:05,080 --> 01:16:07,230 and started talking to the bartender. 1100 01:16:08,760 --> 01:16:10,432 He was just a kid, 1101 01:16:11,080 --> 01:16:14,629 he'd just started at the hotel, it was his first job, 1102 01:16:17,560 --> 01:16:19,630 and we chatted about this and that, 1103 01:16:19,800 --> 01:16:21,631 and l told him it was my birthday. 1104 01:16:24,000 --> 01:16:25,592 About five minutes later 1105 01:16:26,920 --> 01:16:30,310 he presented me with a bowl of peanuts with a candle in. 1106 01:16:31,880 --> 01:16:32,915 And l... 1107 01:16:33,720 --> 01:16:35,199 l started to cry. 1108 01:16:36,480 --> 01:16:38,630 I cried so hard the kid got scared, 1109 01:16:40,560 --> 01:16:43,677 and he blew out the candle, and hid the bowl of peanuts, 1110 01:16:44,520 --> 01:16:47,512 and l said "No, don't blow out the candle. 1111 01:16:47,680 --> 01:16:49,238 Don't hide the peanuts." 1112 01:16:49,440 --> 01:16:52,000 And all this year, all l could think about was 1113 01:16:52,240 --> 01:16:55,312 that bowl of peanuts and how l started to cry. 1114 01:16:56,080 --> 01:16:59,550 So this year, l baked myself a cake. 1115 01:17:01,120 --> 01:17:04,396 'Cause l knew if l went back to that bar, l'd give that kid a heart attack. 1116 01:17:15,440 --> 01:17:16,589 Start the car. 1117 01:17:26,680 --> 01:17:27,556 Five minutes. 1118 01:17:29,200 --> 01:17:30,758 You're almost done, too. 1119 01:17:31,880 --> 01:17:34,235 -Am l hurting you? -No, not at all. 1120 01:17:34,400 --> 01:17:35,674 She's great with nails. 1121 01:17:35,840 --> 01:17:38,798 Now, don't you ask her to give you a perm or braids or anything, 1122 01:17:38,960 --> 01:17:41,030 but with naiIs, she's the best. 1123 01:17:42,080 --> 01:17:44,355 l've got a manicure diploma 1124 01:17:45,320 --> 01:17:47,880 and everything. l'm not interested in hair or heads. 1125 01:17:48,280 --> 01:17:49,872 Give me hands every time. 1126 01:17:50,440 --> 01:17:52,396 So do you like Milli Vanilli as weII? 1127 01:17:52,920 --> 01:17:56,595 l'm from Segovia. We don't have any Mili Vanilli in Segovia. 1128 01:17:57,480 --> 01:17:59,391 Milli Vanilli is universal. 1129 01:18:00,400 --> 01:18:02,072 -Thank you very much. -Thanks. 1130 01:18:03,160 --> 01:18:04,718 So, see you soon. 1131 01:18:05,920 --> 01:18:06,875 No. 1132 01:18:07,600 --> 01:18:08,476 No? 1133 01:18:10,400 --> 01:18:11,276 You know, 1134 01:18:11,800 --> 01:18:14,314 braids realIy suit you. They look really great on you. 1135 01:18:16,040 --> 01:18:17,155 You think so? 1136 01:18:17,880 --> 01:18:18,756 Yeah. 1137 01:18:20,560 --> 01:18:22,198 Bye. 1138 01:19:09,480 --> 01:19:10,310 Hi... 1139 01:19:13,280 --> 01:19:14,156 Hi. 1140 01:19:15,440 --> 01:19:16,839 How are you, Ann? 1141 01:19:24,760 --> 01:19:26,318 This is Penny and this is Patsy. 1142 01:19:27,200 --> 01:19:29,111 Penny's six and Patsy's four. 1143 01:19:30,800 --> 01:19:32,392 They're very pretty young girls. 1144 01:19:32,880 --> 01:19:34,552 You haven't been wasting your time. 1145 01:19:35,280 --> 01:19:36,554 You could say that. 1146 01:19:38,080 --> 01:19:39,433 What about your husband? 1147 01:19:40,000 --> 01:19:40,955 Don? 1148 01:19:42,240 --> 01:19:43,912 Ah, he builds swimming pools. 1149 01:19:44,080 --> 01:19:45,559 Swimming pools, no less? 1150 01:19:45,880 --> 01:19:47,279 Yeah, he's doing pretty good. 1151 01:19:48,680 --> 01:19:50,238 l got work here, you know. 1152 01:19:52,360 --> 01:19:54,078 Sewing sports shoes together. 1153 01:19:54,560 --> 01:19:58,348 You know, a sports shoe can take up to 86 different pieces. Did you know that? 1154 01:19:58,840 --> 01:19:59,511 No. 1155 01:20:00,040 --> 01:20:02,349 We sew the side pieces on here, and then 1156 01:20:02,560 --> 01:20:04,596 in another jail they finish them off. 1157 01:20:06,880 --> 01:20:07,869 lt's good work. 1158 01:20:08,520 --> 01:20:09,475 Sure. 1159 01:20:10,480 --> 01:20:12,152 People are always gonna want to need shoes, huh? 1160 01:20:19,080 --> 01:20:21,150 Ann, l suppose your mother still hates me. 1161 01:20:21,800 --> 01:20:23,552 Dad, Mom hates everyone. 1162 01:20:23,720 --> 01:20:25,836 Yeah, l bet she hates me the most. 1163 01:20:26,200 --> 01:20:27,428 Sometimes, yeah. 1164 01:20:31,880 --> 01:20:33,074 Some of us... 1165 01:20:35,000 --> 01:20:38,151 just can't live the kind of life that other peopIe want us to live. 1166 01:20:43,920 --> 01:20:45,751 No matter how hard you try, 1167 01:20:47,440 --> 01:20:48,429 you just can't do it. 1168 01:20:48,960 --> 01:20:49,995 l guess. 1169 01:20:51,560 --> 01:20:53,676 -You believe me, don't you? -Yeah. 1170 01:20:54,880 --> 01:20:55,835 l believe you. 1171 01:20:56,840 --> 01:20:57,875 lt's hard. 1172 01:21:02,560 --> 01:21:03,675 Like you know 1173 01:21:04,360 --> 01:21:06,874 you love someone and you can't make them happy. 1174 01:21:10,640 --> 01:21:13,438 lt's kind of like you love them, but... 1175 01:21:16,560 --> 01:21:19,028 you can't Iove them the way they wanna be loved, 1176 01:21:19,200 --> 01:21:19,871 you know what l mean? 1177 01:21:21,400 --> 01:21:24,790 lf you send me the kids' shoes sizes, l can make some shoes for them. 1178 01:21:26,120 --> 01:21:27,109 Okay. 1179 01:21:32,440 --> 01:21:33,839 I want to touch your face. 1180 01:21:37,600 --> 01:21:40,319 I remember how it used to feel. 1181 01:21:41,920 --> 01:21:44,354 l've forgotten a lot of things. l remember that. 1182 01:21:44,800 --> 01:21:46,028 l remember, 1183 01:21:46,960 --> 01:21:50,714 you used to before you'd leave the house you'd put on this record of ringing bells 1184 01:21:52,080 --> 01:21:53,832 and then you'd just leave the house like right away. 1185 01:21:55,880 --> 01:21:57,791 l used to like to hear the music from the house 1186 01:21:57,960 --> 01:21:59,632 as l was walking down the street. 1187 01:22:01,320 --> 01:22:02,753 lt was really pretty. 1188 01:22:03,680 --> 01:22:04,590 It was? 1189 01:22:05,400 --> 01:22:06,913 lt was aIways the same record. 1190 01:22:07,360 --> 01:22:09,078 lt was the Mule Serenade. 1191 01:22:11,400 --> 01:22:12,719 lt was really pretty. 1192 01:22:20,320 --> 01:22:22,072 Take care of yourseIf, Dad, okay? 1193 01:22:23,960 --> 01:22:24,995 Yeah, you too. 1194 01:22:26,840 --> 01:22:29,559 And remember to send me the girIs' shoe sizes, okay? 1195 01:22:30,160 --> 01:22:31,229 Yeah, l will. 1196 01:22:58,880 --> 01:23:01,189 Going to have a good day at school? Give me a kiss. 1197 01:23:02,720 --> 01:23:04,392 Okay, have a good day. 1198 01:23:05,480 --> 01:23:08,916 l hope you feel better, Mommy. l want you to feel better, yeah. 1199 01:23:09,840 --> 01:23:12,115 -Okay. You have a good day, all right? -Bye. 1200 01:23:14,040 --> 01:23:15,075 Hey, Patsy. 1201 01:23:16,440 --> 01:23:19,352 -Give me a cuddle, Mommy. -I'II give you a cuddle. 1202 01:23:20,040 --> 01:23:22,190 -How's that for a cuddle? -Okay. 1203 01:23:23,120 --> 01:23:25,793 -l need to go now. -You have to go to schooI now? 1204 01:23:25,960 --> 01:23:28,554 Okay. l know, you're in a bit of a hurry. 1205 01:23:34,840 --> 01:23:36,592 Are you sure this is anaemia? 1206 01:23:37,360 --> 01:23:39,078 Maybe we should go see another doctor? 1207 01:23:39,240 --> 01:23:41,913 No, l know it's anaemia. They did Iike a million tests 1208 01:23:42,520 --> 01:23:45,432 and l've been taking all the vitamins. They just told me l need to rest. 1209 01:23:46,360 --> 01:23:48,396 l took care of all of you guys when you were sick, 1210 01:23:48,560 --> 01:23:49,993 it's your turn to take care of me. 1211 01:23:50,320 --> 01:23:51,150 Okay. 1212 01:23:51,440 --> 01:23:53,351 l think l'm going to like taking care of you. 1213 01:23:53,520 --> 01:23:55,750 Yeah? Let's see if you're any good at it. 1214 01:24:04,920 --> 01:24:05,909 Okay. Bye. 1215 01:24:11,000 --> 01:24:11,989 Don, 1216 01:24:13,280 --> 01:24:16,192 l want you to understand why l didn't tell you l was goinna die. 1217 01:24:18,840 --> 01:24:19,909 lt was like... 1218 01:24:22,880 --> 01:24:26,156 lt was like the only present l could give you and the girls, 1219 01:24:26,960 --> 01:24:30,157 to save you all the trips to the hospital and all the stress 1220 01:24:30,520 --> 01:24:32,954 and the waiting around in waiting rooms and l know if you think about it, 1221 01:24:33,120 --> 01:24:34,155 you'II know that l'm right. 1222 01:24:36,280 --> 01:24:37,759 Now you have to be happy, 1223 01:24:40,200 --> 01:24:43,112 and you have to look after the girls, you have to make them happy too. 1224 01:24:46,720 --> 01:24:48,551 Dream up a heaven for me. 1225 01:24:50,800 --> 01:24:53,234 Don't let them be sad when they remember me. 1226 01:24:53,720 --> 01:24:56,712 You just remind them of all the great things we did together. 1227 01:25:01,080 --> 01:25:02,274 l Iove you, Don. 1228 01:25:03,960 --> 01:25:07,919 You'll always be the guy who took off his T-shirt to wipe away my tears... 1229 01:25:37,200 --> 01:25:38,713 Sorry it's so out of key. 1230 01:25:38,880 --> 01:25:41,155 It always kind of was, though. 1231 01:25:48,040 --> 01:25:49,075 Hi, Mom. 1232 01:25:50,280 --> 01:25:52,077 Well, l guess you're never going to forgive me 1233 01:25:52,240 --> 01:25:53,798 for not telling you l was going to die. 1234 01:25:56,160 --> 01:25:59,072 So, it's just one more thing to blame the world for, I guess. 1235 01:26:00,560 --> 01:26:01,754 l love you. 1236 01:26:02,720 --> 01:26:04,073 l know you love me. 1237 01:26:05,240 --> 01:26:06,992 l know you adore the girls, 1238 01:26:09,240 --> 01:26:10,434 so please 1239 01:26:11,560 --> 01:26:12,675 tell them that. 1240 01:26:14,560 --> 01:26:17,916 Try and show like you love them just a little bit every day. 1241 01:26:18,560 --> 01:26:21,472 And try to enjoy life, 1242 01:26:21,640 --> 01:26:22,959 you know, a littIe, just a littIe bit. 1243 01:26:23,120 --> 01:26:26,476 l mean, maybe at some point you could go on a date. 1244 01:26:26,640 --> 01:26:27,709 That wouId be fun, 1245 01:26:27,880 --> 01:26:30,394 or you could put an ad in the paper or anything. 1246 01:26:30,560 --> 01:26:32,596 l just think you couId have a little fun. 1247 01:26:32,760 --> 01:26:35,274 You're really beautiful and you've got a great heart 1248 01:26:36,440 --> 01:26:37,839 and just try 1249 01:26:38,600 --> 01:26:40,318 and enjoy stuff more. 1250 01:26:41,800 --> 01:26:43,199 Please help Don. 1251 01:26:46,400 --> 01:26:48,868 You can tell the girls any stories you like, 1252 01:26:49,040 --> 01:26:50,871 even Joan Crawford movies. 1253 01:27:14,080 --> 01:27:16,389 Your sister really knows how to pick a song, hey. 1254 01:27:17,640 --> 01:27:19,835 -You like it? -Yeah, it's great. 1255 01:27:20,160 --> 01:27:22,116 lt's Blossom Dearie. You ever heard of her? 1256 01:27:22,280 --> 01:27:23,269 No. What's that? 1257 01:27:24,000 --> 01:27:26,594 Blossom Dearie? Oh, she's amazing. 1258 01:27:27,200 --> 01:27:29,236 She's still singing and she's 83 years oId. 1259 01:27:29,680 --> 01:27:30,795 83? 1260 01:27:30,960 --> 01:27:33,190 And she plays in this little club 1261 01:27:33,760 --> 01:27:36,320 behind a Chinese lounge 1262 01:27:36,760 --> 01:27:37,988 and 1263 01:27:38,320 --> 01:27:40,390 she has this tiny little voice, 1264 01:27:40,920 --> 01:27:43,559 this tiny little body and such personality and... 1265 01:27:43,720 --> 01:27:46,393 -83. -Yeah, she's 83. 1266 01:27:47,680 --> 01:27:49,318 l'd love to take you there. 1267 01:27:58,960 --> 01:28:01,235 Ann, there's so many places l'd Iike to take you. 1268 01:28:01,560 --> 01:28:03,710 TeII me about all the places you'd like to take me. 1269 01:28:05,360 --> 01:28:06,236 Okay. 1270 01:28:07,000 --> 01:28:09,116 ln the south of Chile, there's a desert, 1271 01:28:10,760 --> 01:28:12,193 it's stunning, 1272 01:28:12,520 --> 01:28:15,910 pure white and flat as far as the eye can see 1273 01:28:16,160 --> 01:28:19,072 and the only thing that breaks the line of the horizon 1274 01:28:19,440 --> 01:28:22,637 are these robin-egg blue little houses 1275 01:28:23,040 --> 01:28:25,270 and in the morning, the sky goes 1276 01:28:25,440 --> 01:28:26,919 completely green. 1277 01:28:27,680 --> 01:28:29,033 lt's unworldly. 1278 01:28:29,960 --> 01:28:32,554 And in Argentina, 1279 01:28:34,200 --> 01:28:35,349 a glacier lake, 1280 01:28:35,760 --> 01:28:38,672 and in the spring when the thaw comes on, 1281 01:28:40,440 --> 01:28:43,671 these huge blocks of ice, l mean huge, 1282 01:28:43,840 --> 01:28:45,239 the size of apartment buiIdings, 1283 01:28:45,400 --> 01:28:47,311 come sliding off the glacier into the lake 1284 01:28:48,560 --> 01:28:51,950 and then your heart is pounding out of your chest, it's terrifying. 1285 01:28:53,440 --> 01:28:55,874 And Mexico and Alaska... 1286 01:28:56,520 --> 01:28:57,475 Are you OK? 1287 01:28:59,160 --> 01:29:00,354 What's the matter? 1288 01:29:01,960 --> 01:29:03,598 I'm not going to see these pIaces. 1289 01:29:05,760 --> 01:29:06,715 What is it? 1290 01:29:06,880 --> 01:29:08,074 What's the matter? 1291 01:29:10,400 --> 01:29:11,594 You don't wanna tell me? 1292 01:29:12,120 --> 01:29:13,838 l'm so sorry, Lee. 1293 01:29:16,440 --> 01:29:18,317 -l really need to get out of here. -Okay. 1294 01:29:21,680 --> 01:29:23,875 Waiter! Can l get the check? 1295 01:29:24,760 --> 01:29:25,715 Thank you. 1296 01:29:26,960 --> 01:29:28,757 l always wanted to come here. 1297 01:29:31,360 --> 01:29:33,874 Could you get them to put this in a doggy bag for me? 1298 01:29:34,640 --> 01:29:35,629 Sure. 1299 01:29:36,000 --> 01:29:37,069 Thanks. 1300 01:29:39,080 --> 01:29:40,752 Okay, l'll meet you outside, okay? 1301 01:30:12,000 --> 01:30:13,479 You have to go. 1302 01:30:15,400 --> 01:30:18,358 He's gonna be here any minute. He works nearby. 1303 01:30:19,800 --> 01:30:23,236 lt's better if he comes and picks me up. This happens occasionally, so... 1304 01:30:28,040 --> 01:30:30,838 Ann, there's something that l have to tell you, and l have to tell you now. 1305 01:30:31,680 --> 01:30:32,590 l love you. 1306 01:30:35,080 --> 01:30:36,752 l'm in love with you... 1307 01:30:38,480 --> 01:30:41,517 and the world seems less terrible because you exist. 1308 01:30:43,600 --> 01:30:46,910 l feel like l wanna be with you for the rest of my life, 1309 01:30:47,080 --> 01:30:49,548 and all that, the palpitations, and the nerves, 1310 01:30:49,720 --> 01:30:53,030 and the pain, and the happiness, and the fear... 1311 01:30:56,200 --> 01:30:57,235 l wanna... 1312 01:30:57,640 --> 01:30:59,756 l wanna touch you all the time. 1313 01:31:00,360 --> 01:31:02,590 l wanna take care of you, and your girls and... 1314 01:31:02,760 --> 01:31:06,469 and even find your husband a decent job and get you a house 1315 01:31:06,640 --> 01:31:09,598 -that doesn't have wheels and... -Careful. 1316 01:31:10,720 --> 01:31:13,029 That sounds like a classic case of falling in love. 1317 01:31:13,760 --> 01:31:14,829 l am in love. 1318 01:31:16,400 --> 01:31:18,277 l'm classically in love. 1319 01:31:19,760 --> 01:31:22,718 The classic husband who's gonna be here any minute, 1320 01:31:23,200 --> 01:31:26,510 and the classic depression that sets in every time you go off with him, 1321 01:31:27,360 --> 01:31:28,713 and the crying 1322 01:31:28,920 --> 01:31:30,990 and the tears and everything. 1323 01:31:53,400 --> 01:31:54,469 l'll go. 1324 01:31:57,200 --> 01:32:00,237 Though I don't want to see you driving off with some guy, you know? 1325 01:32:00,400 --> 01:32:01,913 Someone you don't know. 1326 01:32:03,400 --> 01:32:04,674 So, l'll be watching. 1327 01:32:07,200 --> 01:32:09,111 Unless of course it's your husband. 1328 01:33:57,760 --> 01:33:59,193 Ann, l feel terrible. 1329 01:33:59,560 --> 01:34:01,949 l invited you over to dinner and now you have to do all the work. 1330 01:34:02,200 --> 01:34:04,350 That's okay, ljust have to heat up this. 1331 01:34:05,760 --> 01:34:06,476 So l still don't understand 1332 01:34:06,640 --> 01:34:08,232 why you had to go to the restaurant in your condition... 1333 01:34:08,440 --> 01:34:10,556 l told you l thought l was feeling better. 1334 01:34:10,920 --> 01:34:14,117 A bad case of anaemia isn't something you should take lightly. You should rest. 1335 01:34:14,280 --> 01:34:15,508 Yes, listen to Nurse Ann, Ann. 1336 01:34:20,320 --> 01:34:21,594 And you know what? 1337 01:34:23,040 --> 01:34:25,508 l think you couId go wash your hands, 'cause this is ready. 1338 01:34:25,760 --> 01:34:27,193 Go wash up, girls. 1339 01:34:31,000 --> 01:34:32,035 -Don... -Yeah? 1340 01:34:32,200 --> 01:34:35,317 -You too. -All right, yes ma'am. 1341 01:34:37,080 --> 01:34:39,719 You pray that this will be your life without you... 1342 01:34:39,880 --> 01:34:41,950 you pray that the girls will love this woman 1343 01:34:42,120 --> 01:34:43,235 who has the same name as you, 1344 01:34:44,400 --> 01:34:46,755 and that your husband will end up loving her too, 1345 01:34:47,080 --> 01:34:49,799 and that they can live in the house next door, and the girls can play 1346 01:34:49,960 --> 01:34:52,554 doll houses in the trailer, and barely remember their mother 1347 01:34:52,720 --> 01:34:56,030 who used to sleep during the day, and take them on raft rides in bed. 1348 01:34:56,880 --> 01:34:59,872 You pray that they will have moments of happiness so intense 1349 01:35:00,080 --> 01:35:03,231 that all of their problems will seem insignificant in comparison. 1350 01:35:04,040 --> 01:35:07,077 You don't know who or what you're praying to, but you pray. 1351 01:35:09,040 --> 01:35:11,918 You don't even regret the life that you're not gonna have, 1352 01:35:12,760 --> 01:35:14,318 because by then you'll be dead, 1353 01:35:15,040 --> 01:35:16,792 and the dead don't feel anything, 1354 01:35:17,040 --> 01:35:18,473 not even regret. 1355 01:35:28,120 --> 01:35:29,473 My darling Lee, 1356 01:35:31,040 --> 01:35:33,679 l guess by the time you get this tape you'll know that l'm dead 1357 01:35:36,320 --> 01:35:37,799 and, well, all that... 1358 01:35:39,720 --> 01:35:43,474 Maybe you're angry with me, or hurt or sad or upset 1359 01:35:43,680 --> 01:35:44,999 or maybe you're all of it together. 1360 01:35:47,280 --> 01:35:49,111 l just want you to know that l fell in love with you. 1361 01:35:51,360 --> 01:35:53,237 l didn't dare tell you 'cause 1362 01:35:54,720 --> 01:35:56,950 l thought you kind of knew, 1363 01:35:57,320 --> 01:35:59,993 and l didn't realize l had so little time. 1364 01:36:01,000 --> 01:36:04,470 Actually, time is the one thing l haven't had enough of recently. 1365 01:36:06,320 --> 01:36:08,276 Life is so much better than you think, my love. 1366 01:36:10,360 --> 01:36:11,634 l know, because 1367 01:36:12,360 --> 01:36:14,828 you managed to fall in love with me even though you saw, 1368 01:36:15,000 --> 01:36:17,514 what was it, you said ten per cent?. 1369 01:36:18,840 --> 01:36:20,034 Five maybe? 1370 01:36:22,600 --> 01:36:25,114 Maybe if you'd seen it all, you wouldn't have liked me. 1371 01:36:26,840 --> 01:36:29,354 Or you would have liked me in spite of everything. 1372 01:36:31,000 --> 01:36:32,479 l guess we'll never know. 1373 01:36:34,000 --> 01:36:36,355 Oh, and one last thing... Lee, for God's sake 1374 01:36:36,920 --> 01:36:40,117 just paint your walls and buy some furniture. 1375 01:36:40,720 --> 01:36:43,234 Alright? l don't want the next woman you take home 1376 01:36:43,400 --> 01:36:44,469 to get the wrong idea about you 1377 01:36:44,640 --> 01:36:46,915 and run off before she gets a chance to know you. 1378 01:36:48,760 --> 01:36:51,274 Not everyone's as crazy as l am. 1379 01:36:51,760 --> 01:36:53,352 l loved dancing with you.