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That was my husband's
Ford galaxy.
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We drove Jamie home from
the hospital in that car.
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My mom was 40
when she had me.
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Everyone told her she
was too old to be a mother.
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I put my hand
through the little window,
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and he'd squeeze my finger,
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and I'd tell him
life was very big...
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...and unknown.
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And she told me that
there were animals
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and sky and cities...
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...music, movies.
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He'd fall in love,
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have his own children,
have passions, have meaning,
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have his mom and dad.
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When they got divorced,
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my father moved back east
and left the car with us.
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He calls on birthdays
and Christmas.
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Last time I felt close to him
was on my birthday in 1974.
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He bought me
mirrored sunglasses.
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I saw the president
fall down the stairs...
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...and I threw up
on the carpet.
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Since then
it's just been us.
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I don't understand.
What about you?
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I'm staying here with him
'til the plane
gets safely away.
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No, Richard, no.
What has happened to you?
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Last night we--
- last night we said
a great many things.
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Listen, captain,
i am having a party tonight,
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it's my birthday actually,
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and I would like you to drop by
so I can feed you.
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It's not necessary,
Mrs. fields.
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No, dorothea.
No, i-i insist.
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Please?
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That way i-i can thank you.
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That was a beautiful car.
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Mom, it...
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...smelled like gas
and overheated all the time...
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...and it was just old.
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What?
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Well it wasn't always old.
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It just got that way
all of a sudden.
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You know...
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...when the firemen come...
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...people don't usually
invite them over for dinner.
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Yeah? Why not?
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Why can't she just move on
and be happy with me
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rather than...
Lingering on him?
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My mom just makes me feel
like I'm not good enough.
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It's just, I'm constantly
being compared to my dad.
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Oh, hey, sorry.
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Uh, Jamie's not here right now.
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They're not home.
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Don't.
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I'm taking a picture
of everything that happens
to me in a day.
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I don't like
having my pictures taken.
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I didn't happen to you.
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Hello?
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- Hey.
- Hi.
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Hi. Here.
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You okay?
- You aren't gonna believe
what happened.
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What?
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Our car burst into flames
in the parking lot.
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- It wh--
- seriously?
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- Are you okay?
- Yeah.
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You know, we're okay.
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How did it happen?
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Well I don't know.
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They-they said it was probably
just something electrical.
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We walked out and it was
just sitting there on fire.
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Oh, man.
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- Yeah.
- I'm sorry.
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So... what happened?
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They never tell you anything,
i-- they won't--
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I won't know anything
for like a week.
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Oh.
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And I'm-I'm gonna be late
on rent.
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That's okay.
Don't worry about that.
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Thanks.
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Oh, god.
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What if you had been
in the car?
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I wouldn't be here.
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You would've missed me?
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Don't joke.
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It was so much easier
before you got all horny.
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It-it's not like you don't...
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Do it?
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Friends can't have sex
and still be friends.
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I like us like we are, okay?
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Okay.
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Jamie!
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Could you come help me
set up, please?
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Can my mom just chill out?
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She's compensating
for her loneliness.
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Dorothea, all that is really
beautiful molding there.
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- It is.
- I want to continue that
around the side.
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Right so we're gonna
have to re-match that.
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Now is that-
is that actually wood...
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- That is wood.
- ...Or is that plaster?
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No, the plaster
is underneath it.
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The molding on the outside
there is wood. So...
- Okay.
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It's gonna take
a little bit of time, but...
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Well, we've got...
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Okay, no, it's good.
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Actually, it was, it was built
in 1905,
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and the same family
had it forever,
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but they lost all their money
during the war,
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and then there was a fire and--
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you should've been here
for that.
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Anyway, so, it was just a mess.
They let it fall apart.
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Then a bohemian inherited it
in the '60s,
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then a bunch of free spirits
moved in,
and they lost it to the bank.
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It's beautiful.
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Oh, i-i completely
fell in love with it.
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We're connected to the dirt
'cause we came from the dirt.
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The dirt is made of stars
and stardust
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in the same way we are,
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so when you put your hands
into that dirt
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and feel the earth mother...
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- Uh, William?
- Mm-hmm?
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It looks as though I'm gonna be
in need of a car.
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Do you think you have something
for me out there, cheap?
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Maybe that '49 deluxe?
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I think we can
work something out.
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Maybe we'll trade for rent
or something.
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- Thank you.
- Sure.
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Okay.
Got through that one.
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All right.
Just, um...
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...give me a minute
and then come out.
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My mom was born in 1924.
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When she was my age
people drove in sad cars
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to sad houses
with old phones,
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no money, or food,
or televisions...
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...but the people were real.
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When she was 16,
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the war broke out
and she had to leave school.
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Her dream was to be a pilot
in the air force.
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She actually went
to flight school.
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But the war ended
before she was done.
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She became the first woman
to work
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in the continental can company
drafting room.
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Then she met my dad...
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...and then I came.
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Then they got divorced.
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But people from her time
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never admit
anything went wrong.
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- What do you mean?
- I'm sorry.
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He's too young to have
an account in his name only,
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little guy.
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No. He-he's a person.
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He's not half a person, and
he's not some cute little guy.
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He has volition and autonomy
and privacy.
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He needs a bank account.
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Can you do that for us?
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Now, Jamie, you can't
just keep skipping school
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and making excuses.
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Well wait a minute, why not?
Why can't he just skip school
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if he-if he has a legitimate
need to be away?
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Well, then I need a legitimate
real note from you...
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- Okay.
- ...With your real signature.
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00:11:08,869 --> 00:11:13,805
Wow, how did you forge
my signature so well?
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That is ingenious!
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But you should never
forge someone's signature
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or do anything
behind someone's back.
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Please excuse Jamie
from school this morning.
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He was doing volunteer work
for the sandinistas.
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Please excuse Jamie
from school this morning.
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He was involved in
a small plane accident.
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Fortunately he was not hurt.
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You're gonna be in for
a legendary surprise.
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It's mahogany underneath.
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She's always trying to bring
a man into my life.
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This is probably
Honduran mahogany.
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Really fine, very...
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This is, like,
really, really boring.
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- Hey, watch it.
- He's talking about, like,
wood and stuff.
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He's helping me out.
Restore the house, okay?
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IBM?
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She writes down her stocks
every morning.
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213.2.
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Ge?
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Um, 51.62.
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She smokes salems
because they're healthier,
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wears birkenstocks
because she's contemporary.
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She read watership down
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and learned how to
carve rabbits out of wood.
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And she never dates a man
for very long.
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Thank you, bye bye.
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Good night, dorothea.
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- Good night.
- Bye.
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So, I'll see ya later.
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Just don't hang out with
that Chris guy anymore, okay?
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- Good night.
- He's a skeez
and he's kinda dumb.
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- Exactly.
- Good night, dorothea.
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- Happy birthday.
- Bye, Julie.
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Stop.
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What?
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Thinking that you know
everything that's going on.
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No, I don--
i just think that, you know,
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having your heart broken
is a tremendous way
to learn about the world.
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Okay.
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Do you think you're happy?
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Like...
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...as happy as you thought
you'd be when you were my age?
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Seriously?
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You don't ask people
questions like that.
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You're my mom.
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Especially your mom.
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00:13:21,034 --> 00:13:22,534
Look, wondering if you're happy
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is a great shortcut
to just being depressed.
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Give me that.
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00:14:08,180 --> 00:14:09,781
What is that?
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It's the raincoats.
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Can't things... just be pretty?
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00:14:23,329 --> 00:14:28,066
"Pretty" music is used
to hide how unfair and corrupt
society is.
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Ah.
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Okay, so,
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they're not very good,
and they know that, right?
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Yeah, it's...
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It's like they got all this,
this feeling,
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and they don't have any skill,
and they don't want skill,
220
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because it's really interesting
221
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what happens when your passion
is bigger than the tools
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you have to deal with it.
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It creates this energy
that's-that's-that's raw.
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Isn't it great?
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My son was born in 1964.
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He grew up
with a meaningless war...
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...with protests,
with Nixon...
228
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...with nice cars
and nice houses...
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...computers, drugs, boredom.
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I know him less every day.
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He said it was just a game.
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You breathe real hard
and another kid
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pulls on your diaphragm
and you faint.
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00:16:05,931 --> 00:16:09,701
He said you're supposed
to come to
a few seconds later...
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Hey, can I try?
236
00:16:10,937 --> 00:16:15,473
But it took Jamie almost
a half an hour to wake up.
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Going to get help!
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00:16:48,107 --> 00:16:50,108
You all right?
He's fine.
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Can you tell me your name?
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Jamie fields.
241
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You got lucky this time.
242
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Lack of oxygen to the brain
can cause brain damage,
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comas... even death.
244
00:17:31,150 --> 00:17:35,753
Jamie, why would you
do something so dangerous?
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I don't know. Um...
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I mean, everyone was doing it.
247
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So you just went along with it?
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- It looked like fun.
- That's just dumb.
249
00:17:49,269 --> 00:17:51,469
Why would you do something
so stupid?
250
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Just following along?
251
00:17:53,206 --> 00:17:55,840
You-you know
you almost died, right?
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- You don't need to worry
about me.
- Why didn't you think?
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00:17:59,612 --> 00:18:01,479
Jamie! Hey!
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00:18:03,782 --> 00:18:04,916
Jamie...
255
00:18:05,717 --> 00:18:09,387
What-what is going on?
What, why--
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00:18:09,389 --> 00:18:11,823
what? You're not
gonna talk to me now?
257
00:18:14,259 --> 00:18:16,294
I'm not the one
who doesn't talk.
258
00:18:16,296 --> 00:18:18,830
What? Come on.
259
00:18:18,832 --> 00:18:21,232
You scared the hell out of me!
260
00:18:22,134 --> 00:18:24,435
Why-why did you hurt yourself
like that?
261
00:18:24,437 --> 00:18:26,304
Why do you smoke yourself
to death?
262
00:18:26,306 --> 00:18:27,572
Hey!
263
00:18:28,507 --> 00:18:31,909
Why are you fine
being sad and alone?
264
00:18:34,113 --> 00:18:35,613
I, uh...
265
00:18:35,615 --> 00:18:39,817
I... you... you c--
266
00:18:39,819 --> 00:18:41,586
you can't talk to me
like that.
We don't--
267
00:18:41,588 --> 00:18:43,688
you don't say that to me.
268
00:19:40,113 --> 00:19:42,880
I think history has
been tough on men.
269
00:19:42,882 --> 00:19:44,949
I mean, they can't be
what they were,
270
00:19:44,951 --> 00:19:47,084
and they can't figure out
what's next.
271
00:19:47,086 --> 00:19:48,553
What are we talking about?
272
00:19:48,555 --> 00:19:50,154
Men?
273
00:19:50,156 --> 00:19:51,956
I think history and men?
274
00:19:51,958 --> 00:19:54,592
I mean who are
your heroes nowadays?
275
00:19:54,594 --> 00:19:56,460
A bunch of privileged
drug addicts?
276
00:19:56,462 --> 00:19:59,430
I think maybe you guys
can help me with Jamie.
277
00:19:59,432 --> 00:20:02,867
I think...
He needs help...
278
00:20:02,869 --> 00:20:05,403
...in figuring out
how to be himself
279
00:20:05,405 --> 00:20:06,604
in all this mess.
280
00:20:06,606 --> 00:20:08,973
And I can't be there.
281
00:20:08,975 --> 00:20:12,143
I can't be there with him.
I have to let go.
282
00:20:12,145 --> 00:20:14,579
Is this because of
the fainting thing?
283
00:20:14,581 --> 00:20:16,581
He's fine.
- No.
284
00:20:16,583 --> 00:20:18,249
It's because of everything.
285
00:20:20,219 --> 00:20:23,387
I don't understand what--
what are you asking?
286
00:20:23,389 --> 00:20:26,290
Well, how do you be a good man?
287
00:20:26,292 --> 00:20:29,126
What does that
even mean nowadays?
288
00:20:29,128 --> 00:20:31,696
He's-he's only got me.
It's just--
289
00:20:31,698 --> 00:20:33,764
think about it.
It's not enough.
290
00:20:33,766 --> 00:20:35,633
- You're serious?
- Yeah.
291
00:20:35,635 --> 00:20:38,469
What about William?
William's a guy. That's--
292
00:20:38,471 --> 00:20:41,105
he can talk to him
about guy things.
293
00:20:41,107 --> 00:20:43,074
Have you ever seen them
have a conversation?
294
00:20:43,076 --> 00:20:45,376
They have nothing in common.
They don't connect.
295
00:20:45,378 --> 00:20:47,778
This is not working.
I mean, I thought about that.
296
00:20:47,780 --> 00:20:50,014
He...
297
00:20:50,016 --> 00:20:53,618
Well, he likes you and you.
He likes you a lot.
298
00:20:53,620 --> 00:20:57,255
That-that's...
- He's my friend.
I don't want to be his mom.
299
00:20:57,257 --> 00:20:59,190
Yeah, no.
I'm his mom.
300
00:20:59,192 --> 00:21:03,027
I mean don't you need a man
to raise a man?
301
00:21:04,596 --> 00:21:06,330
No. I don't think so.
302
00:21:06,999 --> 00:21:08,499
I mean,
303
00:21:08,501 --> 00:21:11,469
I think you're
what's gonna work for him.
304
00:21:14,906 --> 00:21:18,943
I mean you know him
better than anyone.
305
00:21:18,945 --> 00:21:23,414
You know that, and...
You care about him.
306
00:21:23,416 --> 00:21:25,349
You can watch out for him.
307
00:21:25,351 --> 00:21:30,254
And you just share your life.
You're a talented person.
308
00:21:30,256 --> 00:21:31,622
Show him
what you're interested in.
309
00:21:31,624 --> 00:21:33,791
You know, he would be lucky
to have that.
310
00:21:51,877 --> 00:21:53,477
Help me with what?
311
00:21:53,479 --> 00:21:56,180
Oh, go through
this part of your life.
312
00:21:56,182 --> 00:21:59,684
It's not easy.
It's not easy for anybody.
313
00:21:59,686 --> 00:22:02,019
- You asked them to help me?
- Yeah.
314
00:22:02,021 --> 00:22:04,388
No, they-they get it.
315
00:22:06,024 --> 00:22:07,491
So they said yes?
316
00:22:07,493 --> 00:22:08,826
Yeah.
317
00:22:09,294 --> 00:22:10,661
- Fuck.
- Hey!
318
00:22:11,697 --> 00:22:14,565
You just feel guilty
'cause it's just me and you.
319
00:22:17,502 --> 00:22:20,037
You don't know
what I'm feeling.
320
00:22:20,039 --> 00:22:21,339
Just tell me.
321
00:22:22,140 --> 00:22:23,274
Kid...
322
00:22:24,142 --> 00:22:26,177
You never tell me
what you're gonna do.
323
00:22:26,179 --> 00:22:27,611
You just do it.
324
00:22:43,061 --> 00:22:45,162
I got the keys
to my stepmom's car.
325
00:22:45,164 --> 00:22:46,464
I'm going to the starwood.
326
00:22:46,466 --> 00:22:47,465
Ow!
327
00:22:47,467 --> 00:22:50,935
Tanya and Michelle
are both gonna be there.
328
00:22:50,937 --> 00:22:53,404
Hey, you guys going to la?
329
00:22:53,406 --> 00:22:55,339
Yeah, I am.
330
00:22:56,942 --> 00:22:58,309
Can I come?
331
00:22:59,879 --> 00:23:01,912
...kissed a girl?
Are you ready?
332
00:23:03,048 --> 00:23:05,916
Are you gonna-are you gonna
get with some chick there?
333
00:23:29,442 --> 00:23:31,275
That was Jamie.
334
00:23:31,277 --> 00:23:34,111
He is in, uh, la.
335
00:23:34,113 --> 00:23:36,547
He and some friends
went to a show.
336
00:23:38,216 --> 00:23:39,483
- Oh.
- Yeah.
337
00:23:39,485 --> 00:23:41,285
He wanted me to tell you.
338
00:23:42,487 --> 00:23:43,888
Okay.
339
00:23:52,164 --> 00:23:53,964
Aren't you worried or--
340
00:23:57,135 --> 00:24:01,038
he's mad at me and this is
his way of dealing with it...
341
00:24:01,040 --> 00:24:03,107
...and he has every right
to be mad.
342
00:24:05,110 --> 00:24:07,011
Yeah, but if it
makes him this mad,
343
00:24:07,013 --> 00:24:09,547
then maybe it wasn't
a good idea.
344
00:24:46,251 --> 00:24:47,918
Maybe...
345
00:24:48,653 --> 00:24:50,521
Maybe I did the wrong thing.
346
00:24:51,823 --> 00:24:53,457
Oh, i--
347
00:24:54,359 --> 00:24:56,093
- with the kid, I mean.
- Yeah, I know.
348
00:24:56,095 --> 00:24:59,096
I think that Jamie's energy
is very...
349
00:25:01,700 --> 00:25:03,267
...unstable.
350
00:25:05,370 --> 00:25:07,071
Yeah. Well, you're right.
351
00:25:07,073 --> 00:25:08,806
Then, though,
there's an energy crisis.
352
00:25:08,808 --> 00:25:12,843
Maybe that plays into it
in some way.
353
00:25:15,748 --> 00:25:17,314
I'm sorry.
354
00:25:18,984 --> 00:25:21,785
You don't have very many
funny lines, do you?
355
00:25:25,190 --> 00:25:26,657
Okay.
356
00:25:54,486 --> 00:25:55,819
Jamie?
357
00:26:04,496 --> 00:26:05,963
Jamie?
358
00:26:29,422 --> 00:26:30,721
Hey.
359
00:26:31,256 --> 00:26:32,523
Hey.
360
00:26:33,425 --> 00:26:34,625
Everything okay?
361
00:26:34,627 --> 00:26:36,260
Yeah.
362
00:26:36,262 --> 00:26:37,661
Can I come in?
363
00:26:38,830 --> 00:26:40,064
Sure.
364
00:26:43,835 --> 00:26:46,737
So I had this new idea
for-for my photography
365
00:26:46,739 --> 00:26:51,342
that I was gonna take a picture
of everything that I owned
366
00:26:51,344 --> 00:26:53,844
so it would be
a self-portrait of myself
367
00:26:53,846 --> 00:26:56,747
through the stuff that I have.
368
00:27:00,418 --> 00:27:02,086
Can I show you?
369
00:27:02,088 --> 00:27:06,457
That's a bra, birth control,
370
00:27:06,459 --> 00:27:08,959
um, photography
by Susan sontag,
371
00:27:08,961 --> 00:27:12,129
shoes, underwear,
372
00:27:12,131 --> 00:27:14,832
a picture of a picture
of my mom.
373
00:27:14,834 --> 00:27:17,034
I'm gonna do a bunch of 'em.
374
00:27:18,670 --> 00:27:21,905
It's a little bit--
it's a little bit sad.
375
00:27:25,944 --> 00:27:27,745
You know,
all this stuff together.
376
00:27:28,880 --> 00:27:30,614
I don't know why that is.
377
00:27:31,950 --> 00:27:33,817
Not-- I mean...
378
00:27:33,819 --> 00:27:35,185
Do you know what I mean?
379
00:27:36,287 --> 00:27:38,188
It's really beautiful, Abbie.
380
00:27:39,024 --> 00:27:42,593
Do you want to fool around...
With me?
381
00:27:44,929 --> 00:27:46,263
Really?
382
00:27:47,799 --> 00:27:49,066
Yeah.
383
00:27:52,170 --> 00:27:53,570
Yeah.
384
00:27:55,106 --> 00:27:56,507
I do.
385
00:28:00,311 --> 00:28:03,814
You know, I'm recovering
from cervical cancer.
386
00:28:07,252 --> 00:28:08,719
I know.
387
00:28:25,336 --> 00:28:27,337
Your hair smells good.
388
00:28:31,376 --> 00:28:33,077
I make my own shampoo.
389
00:28:34,212 --> 00:28:35,846
Of course you do.
390
00:29:03,975 --> 00:29:05,442
Oh.
391
00:29:05,444 --> 00:29:07,945
It's okay, jeeves, he's back.
392
00:29:07,947 --> 00:29:09,980
You can relax now.
393
00:29:22,827 --> 00:29:24,294
Where were you?
394
00:29:25,396 --> 00:29:27,297
I went to the starwood.
395
00:29:27,299 --> 00:29:29,700
Saw a show in la.
396
00:29:29,702 --> 00:29:31,301
Had a lot of fun.
397
00:29:32,971 --> 00:29:34,471
Are you drunk?
398
00:29:42,747 --> 00:29:44,047
Don't.
399
00:29:48,186 --> 00:29:49,486
What's wrong?
400
00:29:52,323 --> 00:29:54,391
Tim trammer came inside me.
401
00:29:58,596 --> 00:30:00,764
I don't want to hear this shit.
402
00:30:02,534 --> 00:30:05,769
We broke into that old pool
at the rec center.
403
00:30:05,771 --> 00:30:07,437
Got loaded.
404
00:30:08,406 --> 00:30:10,073
Fucked around.
405
00:30:12,076 --> 00:30:14,912
And me and Tim ended up
in his mom's Maverick.
406
00:30:21,786 --> 00:30:24,021
Did you just cum?
407
00:30:24,023 --> 00:30:25,556
Yeah.
408
00:30:27,659 --> 00:30:29,426
You said you'd pull out.
409
00:30:32,297 --> 00:30:33,764
Yeah.
410
00:30:34,232 --> 00:30:35,766
Sorry.
411
00:30:37,702 --> 00:30:39,870
I thought we had a deal there.
412
00:30:42,373 --> 00:30:43,707
Fuck.
413
00:30:46,878 --> 00:30:48,545
What are you gonna do?
414
00:30:52,350 --> 00:30:54,151
It'll be fine.
415
00:31:10,702 --> 00:31:13,637
Your mom asked me to, like,
help raise you.
416
00:31:17,208 --> 00:31:19,243
Yeah, I know.
417
00:31:21,613 --> 00:31:24,281
She was raised
in the depression.
418
00:31:24,283 --> 00:31:26,216
Everyone helped raise everyone.
419
00:31:26,218 --> 00:31:29,953
You know,
the whole neighborhood
raised the kids.
420
00:31:29,955 --> 00:31:31,455
Sorry.
421
00:31:34,659 --> 00:31:36,793
Can we do therapy?
422
00:31:36,795 --> 00:31:39,296
Jesus, I don't want
to do therapy right now.
423
00:31:39,298 --> 00:31:40,797
- Let's just role play.
- Please, no.
424
00:31:40,799 --> 00:31:41,965
I'll be your mom,
425
00:31:41,967 --> 00:31:44,401
and you can tell her
what you want to tell her.
426
00:31:44,403 --> 00:31:45,669
Just do it.
427
00:31:47,372 --> 00:31:49,873
- I don't want to talk
to my mom right now.
- What would you say to her?
428
00:31:53,044 --> 00:31:54,645
Okay.
429
00:31:58,983 --> 00:32:02,319
I don't need your help, mom.
430
00:32:02,321 --> 00:32:04,054
I've got it.
431
00:32:04,555 --> 00:32:06,056
I'm okay.
432
00:32:09,861 --> 00:32:13,196
Um, I'm gonna need a story.
433
00:32:13,198 --> 00:32:14,598
What?
434
00:32:14,600 --> 00:32:16,199
A story.
435
00:32:16,201 --> 00:32:19,002
- What do you mean?
- Like a... a story.
436
00:32:19,004 --> 00:32:25,275
Um... where... I'm...
437
00:32:25,277 --> 00:32:28,111
I'm just a normal woman,
438
00:32:28,113 --> 00:32:30,948
and you're a photographer,
439
00:32:30,950 --> 00:32:32,683
and so you're photographing me,
440
00:32:32,685 --> 00:32:35,152
but while you're doing it...
441
00:32:36,688 --> 00:32:41,625
...you can't help yourself,
and you start touching me.
442
00:32:41,627 --> 00:32:45,028
And you touch me...
443
00:32:45,830 --> 00:32:48,966
...and you say...
444
00:32:48,968 --> 00:32:52,569
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry."
445
00:32:54,806 --> 00:32:56,206
Really?
446
00:32:57,508 --> 00:32:59,576
I can't just be myself?
447
00:33:03,348 --> 00:33:04,748
No.
448
00:33:06,384 --> 00:33:07,951
Okay, so-- do I just, uh...
- Okay.
449
00:33:07,953 --> 00:33:10,153
Hey, nice to meet you.
- Oh, hi.
450
00:33:10,155 --> 00:33:13,991
Do I just look in the camera,
or should I look...
Off to the side?
451
00:33:13,993 --> 00:33:16,093
Let's start that way,
looking at the camera.
452
00:33:16,095 --> 00:33:18,028
Okay.
Should I smile?
453
00:33:18,030 --> 00:33:19,896
- Do you like to smile?
- Yeah.
454
00:33:19,898 --> 00:33:21,865
- Okay.
- Okay.
455
00:33:22,667 --> 00:33:24,167
Uh, oh, you took it.
456
00:33:24,169 --> 00:33:26,003
I thought you were gonna
say like, "one, two, three..."
457
00:33:26,005 --> 00:33:27,237
- No.
- Okay.
458
00:33:27,239 --> 00:33:29,072
- I just wait for the moment.
- Okay.
459
00:33:29,074 --> 00:33:31,341
- I just have to fix something.
- Okay.
460
00:33:31,343 --> 00:33:33,377
- Just right here.
- Um, oh.
461
00:33:33,379 --> 00:33:35,379
- I'm sorry.
- Oh, god. No, it's all right.
462
00:33:35,381 --> 00:33:37,180
I don't mind.
I'm just--
463
00:33:37,182 --> 00:33:38,815
never done this before.
464
00:33:38,817 --> 00:33:42,552
I, um, so I'm just
a little bit nervous,
465
00:33:42,554 --> 00:33:44,388
but, um,
i can, um,
466
00:33:44,390 --> 00:33:47,090
wear my hair differently
if you want.
- Abbie...
467
00:33:48,659 --> 00:33:49,960
Yeah?
468
00:33:52,363 --> 00:33:53,930
I'm sorry.
469
00:33:58,903 --> 00:34:00,804
I'm really sorry.
470
00:34:18,524 --> 00:34:21,992
Julie and I have been friends
since we were little.
471
00:34:25,864 --> 00:34:28,532
She likes to say
she's self-destructive.
472
00:34:30,334 --> 00:34:31,968
Her mother is a therapist.
473
00:34:31,970 --> 00:34:34,237
We used to talk and I...
474
00:34:34,239 --> 00:34:38,041
...had a better sense
of what was going on with you.
I worry that...
475
00:34:38,043 --> 00:34:40,744
She makes Julie attend
her teen group sessions.
476
00:34:40,746 --> 00:34:43,747
How about the possibility...
477
00:34:43,749 --> 00:34:46,850
...that you're choosing boys
who are inappropriate...
478
00:34:46,852 --> 00:34:48,118
...unconsciously?
479
00:34:49,454 --> 00:34:51,521
When her mother remarried,
Julie changed.
480
00:34:51,523 --> 00:34:53,156
I love this shirt!
Don't get...
481
00:34:53,158 --> 00:34:54,491
When her half-sister Amanda
482
00:34:54,493 --> 00:34:57,861
was born with cerebral palsy,
she changed more.
483
00:35:00,064 --> 00:35:01,965
Wow, it looks really pretty
on you.
484
00:35:01,967 --> 00:35:05,669
Brings-- just-just makes
your whole face pop.
485
00:35:05,671 --> 00:35:07,504
Like soda. Like pop.
486
00:35:17,181 --> 00:35:19,382
She started fooling around.
487
00:35:21,185 --> 00:35:23,386
She started
sneaking into my house.
488
00:35:24,455 --> 00:35:25,922
Sleeping over.
489
00:35:27,458 --> 00:35:29,192
Why'd you do it?
490
00:35:29,194 --> 00:35:30,861
'Cause I'm crazy.
491
00:35:33,431 --> 00:35:35,332
You wish you were crazy.
492
00:35:39,337 --> 00:35:40,837
Scratch me.
493
00:35:44,275 --> 00:35:46,743
We should go
up the coast somewhere.
494
00:35:48,012 --> 00:35:49,846
Just me and you.
495
00:35:52,184 --> 00:35:54,885
Julie works
at the le cumbre Plaza mall.
496
00:35:54,887 --> 00:35:57,621
Spring rain
features cinnamon, Jasmine,
497
00:35:57,623 --> 00:35:59,956
Lily of the valley and rose.
498
00:36:01,392 --> 00:36:02,993
"Sex is a commitment.
499
00:36:02,995 --> 00:36:05,562
Once you're there, you can't
go back to holding hands,
500
00:36:05,564 --> 00:36:08,598
and when you give yourself,
both mentally and physically,
501
00:36:08,600 --> 00:36:10,367
well,
you're completely vulnerable."
502
00:36:10,369 --> 00:36:11,902
All he cares about
is his new wife,
503
00:36:11,904 --> 00:36:13,503
and her birthday,
504
00:36:13,505 --> 00:36:16,540
and Christmas with her
and her family,
505
00:36:16,542 --> 00:36:18,875
and inviting all
of her family to our--
506
00:36:18,877 --> 00:36:21,711
spring rain features
cinnamon, Jasmine,
507
00:36:21,713 --> 00:36:24,548
Lily of the valley and rose.
508
00:36:25,816 --> 00:36:28,285
"Of all the misconceptions
about love,
509
00:36:28,287 --> 00:36:30,253
the most powerful
and persuasive
510
00:36:30,255 --> 00:36:34,024
is the belief that
falling in love is love,
511
00:36:34,026 --> 00:36:37,994
or at least one of the
manifestations of love."
512
00:36:37,996 --> 00:36:40,864
Love is supposed to be
a feeling that you feel.
513
00:36:40,866 --> 00:36:42,666
People say that
they're falling in love,
514
00:36:42,668 --> 00:36:44,801
but they're not actually
falling in love.
515
00:36:45,970 --> 00:36:49,306
It's a fake connection
that you feel with someone...
516
00:36:49,308 --> 00:36:51,508
...and marriage
should never happen.
517
00:36:51,510 --> 00:36:54,945
You should have died.
It should have been you!
518
00:36:56,314 --> 00:36:57,747
Die!
519
00:37:40,324 --> 00:37:42,225
Hey, Julie.
520
00:37:42,227 --> 00:37:44,661
- Hey.
- Hi.
521
00:37:44,663 --> 00:37:48,064
So come on in.
It's okay. Come in.
522
00:37:48,066 --> 00:37:51,101
He's not up yet. He, uh...
- Yeah.
523
00:37:51,103 --> 00:37:53,370
Yeah, he got in kinda late.
524
00:37:53,372 --> 00:37:55,205
Okay, you wanna help me
bring this stuff in?
525
00:38:01,078 --> 00:38:03,680
So is, uh, Jamie okay?
526
00:38:03,682 --> 00:38:06,082
Yeah, he's okay.
527
00:38:07,151 --> 00:38:09,552
Yeah, i-i heard him come in
last night.
528
00:38:09,554 --> 00:38:12,255
- Oh.
- I was-i was awake.
529
00:38:12,257 --> 00:38:13,456
Right.
530
00:38:13,458 --> 00:38:16,726
Yeah, I was just--
couldn't sleep, so I was...
531
00:38:18,462 --> 00:38:20,664
...you know, listening for him.
532
00:38:34,845 --> 00:38:36,413
How was the show?
533
00:38:37,348 --> 00:38:38,648
It was good.
534
00:38:39,684 --> 00:38:42,752
Next time you take a trip
just let me know, okay?
535
00:38:42,754 --> 00:38:45,121
I won't make too much dinner.
536
00:38:54,298 --> 00:38:56,366
Hey, do the stocks with me?
537
00:38:59,537 --> 00:39:00,770
Here.
538
00:39:06,010 --> 00:39:07,777
Okay. IBM?
539
00:39:09,847 --> 00:39:12,816
IBM, 69.73.
540
00:39:13,384 --> 00:39:15,051
Xerox?
541
00:39:15,053 --> 00:39:16,453
You okay?
542
00:39:18,889 --> 00:39:21,424
Xerox, 53.92.
543
00:39:21,426 --> 00:39:23,059
- Stop.
- Okay.
544
00:39:23,061 --> 00:39:25,528
53.92.
545
00:39:26,097 --> 00:39:27,263
Listen.
546
00:39:27,265 --> 00:39:29,432
Abbie has her appointment today
and I can't be here.
547
00:39:29,434 --> 00:39:30,567
I have to go to work,
548
00:39:30,569 --> 00:39:33,103
so I was hoping that maybe
you could be here
549
00:39:33,105 --> 00:39:36,639
when she gets back
in case she needs some support.
550
00:39:36,641 --> 00:39:38,341
She's going through a lot.
551
00:39:39,410 --> 00:39:41,911
Okay, well, like, what if it's,
552
00:39:41,913 --> 00:39:44,280
like, bad news or something?
553
00:39:44,282 --> 00:39:45,949
Well, you can handle it.
554
00:39:45,951 --> 00:39:49,319
Or if you can't,
you have to start somewhere.
555
00:39:51,088 --> 00:39:53,623
Men always feel like
they have to fix things
556
00:39:53,625 --> 00:39:55,625
for women
or they're not doing anything,
557
00:39:55,627 --> 00:39:58,828
but some things
just can't be fixed.
558
00:39:58,830 --> 00:40:00,130
Just be there.
559
00:40:00,998 --> 00:40:03,433
Somehow that's hard
for all of you.
560
00:40:05,136 --> 00:40:09,806
Mom, I'm not "all men."
Okay? I'm just me.
561
00:40:09,808 --> 00:40:12,175
Well, yes and no.
562
00:40:15,880 --> 00:40:18,348
What if I have to have
full-on chemo...
563
00:40:19,417 --> 00:40:21,384
...or get a hysterectomy?
564
00:40:22,353 --> 00:40:24,120
Do you know what that is?
565
00:40:26,223 --> 00:40:28,792
Look, I should just
go with you, you know? I mean...
566
00:40:34,899 --> 00:40:38,001
Your mom did tell me
to share my life with you.
567
00:40:39,370 --> 00:40:41,037
Yeah, I know.
568
00:40:42,072 --> 00:40:44,407
You don't--
569
00:40:44,409 --> 00:40:45,975
don't worry about her.
She's-
570
00:40:45,977 --> 00:40:47,710
she's from
the depression.
571
00:40:51,182 --> 00:40:52,515
Yeah.
572
00:40:57,521 --> 00:40:59,823
It's good news, Abbie.
573
00:41:01,525 --> 00:41:03,827
There were no malignant cells.
574
00:41:03,829 --> 00:41:05,595
Your biopsy's benign.
575
00:41:09,467 --> 00:41:12,469
And in the future?
576
00:41:13,804 --> 00:41:15,839
There was damage
to the muscle wall,
577
00:41:15,841 --> 00:41:17,106
from the surgery.
578
00:41:19,343 --> 00:41:21,711
You have an incompetent cervix.
579
00:41:30,621 --> 00:41:32,255
Incompetent?
580
00:41:33,591 --> 00:41:37,260
It may not be strong enough to
go full term during pregnancy.
581
00:41:37,262 --> 00:41:41,464
As the baby grows,
the cervix widens.
582
00:41:41,466 --> 00:41:44,767
If it's weakened, it's likely
to open prematurely.
583
00:41:50,207 --> 00:41:51,941
I'm gonna be okay.
584
00:41:56,146 --> 00:41:59,082
He said that I probably
can't have kids.
585
00:42:05,723 --> 00:42:07,657
Was having Jamie, like...
586
00:42:08,659 --> 00:42:11,094
...the biggest thing
that ever happened to you?
587
00:42:15,966 --> 00:42:17,600
I guess so.
588
00:42:19,770 --> 00:42:22,005
Sorry.
- It's okay.
589
00:42:27,344 --> 00:42:29,445
You'll get through this.
590
00:42:31,382 --> 00:42:33,349
You will get through it.
591
00:42:34,518 --> 00:42:36,286
You will do it.
592
00:42:39,890 --> 00:42:42,325
You'll-- this is
the really hard part.
593
00:42:42,327 --> 00:42:43,960
And then what happens is,
594
00:42:43,962 --> 00:42:46,996
there's a hard part
and then it gets better.
595
00:42:48,332 --> 00:42:50,600
And then it gets hard again,
but never mind.
596
00:42:53,971 --> 00:42:56,472
I shouldn't have told you
that part.
597
00:42:56,474 --> 00:43:00,977
I should have just said
it gets better
and then that's it, but...
598
00:43:00,979 --> 00:43:02,779
You got birds?
599
00:43:02,781 --> 00:43:04,147
Is that okay?
600
00:43:04,149 --> 00:43:05,481
Yeah.
601
00:43:08,219 --> 00:43:10,286
So did you name them?
602
00:43:10,288 --> 00:43:11,988
Not yet.
603
00:43:11,990 --> 00:43:14,123
They're a boy and a girl,
and...
604
00:43:14,125 --> 00:43:18,394
...that they're monogamous
for life, so if...
605
00:43:18,396 --> 00:43:21,431
...one of them dies,
then the other one...
606
00:43:21,433 --> 00:43:23,866
...will die
like a week later.
607
00:43:23,868 --> 00:43:25,635
Wow.
608
00:43:27,137 --> 00:43:30,340
Well how 'bout
Maximilian and carlotta?
609
00:43:30,342 --> 00:43:32,208
I-i--
610
00:43:32,210 --> 00:43:33,876
you know,
they deserve something grand
611
00:43:33,878 --> 00:43:37,213
if they're gonna be monogamous
their whole lives.
612
00:43:37,215 --> 00:43:38,681
Right?
613
00:43:44,222 --> 00:43:45,822
Aw.
614
00:43:48,692 --> 00:43:52,261
Max and carlotta
are really good names.
615
00:43:53,998 --> 00:43:57,166
So, um, you-
616
00:43:57,168 --> 00:44:00,336
you went to the doctor's
and you waited with her.
617
00:44:01,872 --> 00:44:03,239
Yeah.
618
00:44:04,608 --> 00:44:07,210
But i-i told you to wait here.
619
00:44:07,212 --> 00:44:08,745
I, um,
620
00:44:08,747 --> 00:44:11,681
I thought it'd be better
to, uh, go and...
621
00:44:11,683 --> 00:44:13,516
...really be there.
622
00:44:13,518 --> 00:44:15,051
Wow.
623
00:44:17,321 --> 00:44:19,322
She's really upset.
624
00:44:22,026 --> 00:44:24,494
That must have been
a lot to deal with.
625
00:44:24,496 --> 00:44:26,062
I'm fine.
626
00:44:26,463 --> 00:44:27,930
I'm good.
627
00:44:28,966 --> 00:44:31,834
I-i learned a lot.
628
00:44:35,040 --> 00:44:36,939
Abigail Porter?
629
00:44:43,013 --> 00:44:44,514
"Home pregnancy tests
630
00:44:44,516 --> 00:44:47,583
that women can do
safely and easily.
631
00:44:47,585 --> 00:44:49,218
A small revolution
for women
632
00:44:49,220 --> 00:44:51,888
seeking to take control
of their lives."
633
00:45:11,642 --> 00:45:14,143
What the fuck is this?
634
00:45:14,145 --> 00:45:16,846
It's a pregnancy test.
635
00:45:22,252 --> 00:45:23,653
Um,
636
00:45:23,655 --> 00:45:26,222
Abbie's doctor
said that, uh,
637
00:45:26,224 --> 00:45:28,691
she wouldn't be able
to have kids.
638
00:45:31,061 --> 00:45:33,129
Why'd she take you?
639
00:45:37,534 --> 00:45:39,435
- Is that all of it?
- Yeah.
640
00:45:40,804 --> 00:45:42,205
That's a lot.
641
00:45:42,773 --> 00:45:44,974
- Now what?
- Um...
642
00:45:45,709 --> 00:45:47,777
"Shake for 10 seconds."
643
00:45:56,553 --> 00:45:58,321
Okay, um...
644
00:46:03,527 --> 00:46:04,560
Um...
645
00:46:04,562 --> 00:46:07,330
"Leave undisturbed
for two hours."
646
00:46:09,099 --> 00:46:11,134
Two hours?
647
00:46:12,503 --> 00:46:14,170
That's what it says.
648
00:46:18,108 --> 00:46:21,277
Okay, if it appears,
then you're positive,
649
00:46:21,279 --> 00:46:24,680
and if no ring appears here,
then the test is negative.
650
00:46:30,120 --> 00:46:32,288
What do we do for two hours?
651
00:46:36,927 --> 00:46:38,561
Guys don't smoke like that.
652
00:46:38,563 --> 00:46:39,862
Don't hold it like that.
653
00:46:39,864 --> 00:46:43,132
Like... this,
654
00:46:43,134 --> 00:46:44,700
between your two fingers.
655
00:46:44,702 --> 00:46:46,702
- That?
- Yeah. That's better.
656
00:46:50,974 --> 00:46:53,042
Okay now walk.
Do like a...
657
00:46:53,044 --> 00:46:55,244
...a cool cigarette walk.
658
00:47:03,987 --> 00:47:05,321
Guys aren't supposed
to look like
659
00:47:05,323 --> 00:47:07,824
they're thinking about
what they look like.
660
00:47:09,660 --> 00:47:11,227
Watch me.
661
00:47:19,069 --> 00:47:20,403
See?
662
00:47:22,940 --> 00:47:24,507
Smoking's gross.
663
00:47:24,509 --> 00:47:26,108
No, it's not.
664
00:47:27,711 --> 00:47:29,212
It gives you cancer.
665
00:47:31,249 --> 00:47:32,515
This is just my opinion.
666
00:47:32,517 --> 00:47:35,017
I think being strong
is the most important quality.
667
00:47:35,019 --> 00:47:38,721
It's not being vulnerable,
it's not being sensitive.
668
00:47:38,723 --> 00:47:39,889
It's not even--
669
00:47:39,891 --> 00:47:42,458
honestly, it's not even
being happy.
670
00:47:42,460 --> 00:47:44,293
It's about strength
671
00:47:44,295 --> 00:47:47,563
and your durability
against the other emotions.
672
00:47:57,975 --> 00:47:59,575
No ring.
673
00:48:00,911 --> 00:48:02,612
No ring.
674
00:48:11,088 --> 00:48:13,256
- Hey.
- Hey.
675
00:48:15,459 --> 00:48:17,260
Thanks for coming with me.
676
00:48:17,895 --> 00:48:20,229
Yeah, totally.
677
00:48:20,231 --> 00:48:21,797
I made you this.
678
00:48:23,066 --> 00:48:25,434
- It's a mix tape.
- Yep.
679
00:48:25,436 --> 00:48:28,137
These were
a bunch of songs that...
680
00:48:28,139 --> 00:48:31,407
...i think my life
would have been better
681
00:48:31,409 --> 00:48:35,411
if they had been around
when I was a teenager.
682
00:48:35,413 --> 00:48:39,115
So I'm hoping that
if you listen to them now,
683
00:48:39,117 --> 00:48:42,151
you will be a happier
and more realized person
684
00:48:42,153 --> 00:48:44,587
than I could ever hope to be.
685
00:48:51,596 --> 00:48:53,262
From that night on...
686
00:48:53,264 --> 00:48:55,698
...Abbie started
telling me everything.
687
00:48:56,800 --> 00:48:58,701
She grew up in Santa Barbara
688
00:48:58,703 --> 00:49:00,236
where everyone is happy,
689
00:49:00,238 --> 00:49:02,672
but that just
made her feel crazy.
690
00:49:04,442 --> 00:49:08,878
In 1973, she moved
to New York City
and went to art school.
691
00:49:08,880 --> 00:49:11,647
New York City
made her feel sane.
692
00:49:11,649 --> 00:49:13,482
It was so fucked up.
693
00:49:14,351 --> 00:49:16,552
She fell in love
with photography.
694
00:49:17,621 --> 00:49:21,057
She learned to dance
when she got sad.
695
00:49:21,059 --> 00:49:23,059
She saw the man
who fell to earth
696
00:49:23,061 --> 00:49:24,794
and dyed her hair red.
697
00:49:24,796 --> 00:49:27,730
I figured out
how to be looked at
698
00:49:27,732 --> 00:49:29,799
by men,
699
00:49:29,801 --> 00:49:34,637
and how to make them excited,
700
00:49:34,639 --> 00:49:37,406
and uncomfortable.
701
00:49:37,408 --> 00:49:39,008
I am so cocky,
702
00:49:39,010 --> 00:49:41,210
and I was so angry
703
00:49:41,212 --> 00:49:44,046
and I was so happy.
704
00:49:47,184 --> 00:49:49,618
She fell in love
with her teacher.
705
00:49:56,460 --> 00:49:58,761
Then she went
to planned parenthood.
706
00:49:58,763 --> 00:50:00,363
Abigail Porter?
707
00:50:03,834 --> 00:50:07,069
Her friends couldn't deal
with her having cancer,
708
00:50:07,071 --> 00:50:09,071
so she went home
to her mom.
709
00:50:09,073 --> 00:50:10,172
Hey, mom...
710
00:50:10,974 --> 00:50:12,575
Gail, did you ever take...
711
00:50:12,577 --> 00:50:16,712
...d.E.S. When you were
pregnant with Abbie?
712
00:50:16,714 --> 00:50:18,080
Yes.
713
00:50:19,082 --> 00:50:21,751
I had two miscarriages
before Abbie.
714
00:50:21,753 --> 00:50:23,819
The doctor told me to take it.
715
00:50:25,022 --> 00:50:28,524
D.E.S. Was
a fertility medication.
716
00:50:28,526 --> 00:50:31,494
Doctors prescribed it
to women.
717
00:50:31,496 --> 00:50:34,263
Later they found out
that the daughters
718
00:50:34,265 --> 00:50:38,200
of the women who took it
got cervical cancer.
719
00:50:38,202 --> 00:50:41,270
I didn't know that
you had miscarriages.
720
00:50:43,641 --> 00:50:44,774
When her mom found out
721
00:50:44,776 --> 00:50:47,143
it was because
she took that drug,
722
00:50:47,145 --> 00:50:49,478
she wouldn't talk about it.
723
00:50:49,480 --> 00:50:53,716
And everything Abbie did
made her mad.
724
00:50:53,718 --> 00:50:56,285
So Abbie looked
for another place to live.
725
00:50:58,422 --> 00:50:59,955
- Hi.
- Hi. Hello...
726
00:50:59,957 --> 00:51:03,492
And she started renting
the room upstairs.
727
00:51:03,494 --> 00:51:04,260
I'm Abbie.
728
00:51:05,529 --> 00:51:07,596
And she got a job
at the news press.
729
00:51:07,598 --> 00:51:08,998
...the landslide.
730
00:51:09,000 --> 00:51:11,467
It shows how erosion
along the bluff,
731
00:51:11,469 --> 00:51:14,637
it causes instantaneous
loss of oceanfront property
732
00:51:14,639 --> 00:51:16,806
and-and construction.
733
00:51:16,808 --> 00:51:18,741
Over time, it gradually...
734
00:51:30,287 --> 00:51:31,787
Hi, dorothea.
735
00:51:32,289 --> 00:51:33,989
Hey, Charlie.
736
00:51:40,063 --> 00:51:42,832
Hey... um...
737
00:51:44,935 --> 00:51:47,136
You wanna go out some time?
738
00:51:47,138 --> 00:51:48,671
Get a drink?
739
00:51:49,406 --> 00:51:51,607
Oh, um...
740
00:51:54,044 --> 00:51:55,644
Yeah.
741
00:51:57,114 --> 00:51:59,748
What the heck, Charlie?
742
00:51:59,750 --> 00:52:01,984
Sure. Okay.
743
00:52:01,986 --> 00:52:04,186
I wasn't sure.
744
00:52:04,188 --> 00:52:06,355
Uh...
- What?
745
00:52:06,357 --> 00:52:09,391
Some-some of the guys
thought you were a lesbian.
746
00:52:09,393 --> 00:52:13,729
You know, which, look, I don't
have a problem with if you are,
747
00:52:13,731 --> 00:52:15,564
but you're not.
748
00:52:16,133 --> 00:52:18,167
Yeah, no, I am not.
749
00:52:22,272 --> 00:52:24,173
Um, should we go out then?
750
00:52:26,309 --> 00:52:28,310
Okay, yeah. Sure.
751
00:52:28,312 --> 00:52:32,381
You wanna come to dinner
at my house again some time?
752
00:52:33,917 --> 00:52:35,117
You could...
753
00:52:35,552 --> 00:52:37,052
We could do that.
754
00:53:10,954 --> 00:53:12,421
Shit.
755
00:53:12,423 --> 00:53:13,656
Julie.
756
00:53:27,304 --> 00:53:29,238
It's really-it's nothing.
757
00:53:29,240 --> 00:53:31,273
I just end up there sometimes.
758
00:53:32,509 --> 00:53:34,109
What do you guys do?
759
00:53:34,811 --> 00:53:36,278
I just sleep.
760
00:53:36,746 --> 00:53:37,980
We talk.
761
00:53:44,554 --> 00:53:45,955
Can I have one?
762
00:53:47,257 --> 00:53:49,925
No, they're really bad for you.
763
00:53:49,927 --> 00:53:51,126
You smoke all the time.
764
00:53:52,162 --> 00:53:54,363
You know when I started,
they weren't bad for you.
765
00:53:54,365 --> 00:53:56,665
They were just stylish,
sort of edgy,
766
00:53:56,667 --> 00:53:59,602
so it's different for me.
767
00:54:05,742 --> 00:54:07,276
Okay.
768
00:54:16,419 --> 00:54:19,355
You're good at hiding stuff,
huh?
769
00:54:19,357 --> 00:54:22,458
My mom calls it
compartmentalizing.
770
00:54:22,460 --> 00:54:24,360
Apparently I do that a lot.
771
00:54:28,898 --> 00:54:30,566
Are you helping him?
772
00:54:33,103 --> 00:54:35,471
- I'm trying.
- Really?
773
00:54:37,574 --> 00:54:39,141
What about you?
774
00:54:39,143 --> 00:54:41,844
Have you thought about
your impact on him?
775
00:54:43,246 --> 00:54:45,381
It's always about the mother.
776
00:54:47,083 --> 00:54:48,484
Like...
777
00:54:48,486 --> 00:54:51,353
...do you think you've moved on
since his dad?
778
00:54:52,589 --> 00:54:56,125
You know that you're
not actually a therapist?
779
00:54:58,595 --> 00:55:00,829
I've had new guys, okay?
780
00:55:03,166 --> 00:55:05,167
No one appropriate.
781
00:55:06,736 --> 00:55:08,304
Appropriate?
782
00:55:10,774 --> 00:55:13,609
Guys you're not
gonna risk anything with...
783
00:55:15,578 --> 00:55:18,347
...men you don't even
really like.
784
00:55:18,349 --> 00:55:20,983
Listen, you're 17, okay?
785
00:55:20,985 --> 00:55:23,686
Maybe you don't know
what's good about these guys
786
00:55:23,688 --> 00:55:25,454
that I really like.
787
00:55:27,457 --> 00:55:29,792
I'm talking about you.
788
00:55:29,794 --> 00:55:32,027
You never seem into it...
789
00:55:33,029 --> 00:55:34,997
...except for with William.
790
00:55:36,900 --> 00:55:38,467
But...
791
00:55:39,235 --> 00:55:41,103
...he's inappropriate.
792
00:55:43,673 --> 00:55:46,909
Okay, Jesus.
Uh, yeah.
793
00:55:49,846 --> 00:55:52,314
It's hard to find someone
that I like.
794
00:55:54,184 --> 00:55:56,118
I-i had my chance twice,
795
00:55:56,120 --> 00:55:59,555
but that part of life
just didn't work out for me.
796
00:56:09,566 --> 00:56:11,567
- Bye.
- Bye.
797
00:56:47,937 --> 00:56:49,471
Where were you?
798
00:56:51,541 --> 00:56:53,342
I had some errands.
799
00:56:56,246 --> 00:56:58,580
You did the whole list.
800
00:56:58,582 --> 00:57:00,449
You know all the stocks?
801
00:57:00,451 --> 00:57:01,683
Yeah.
802
00:57:03,586 --> 00:57:06,321
IBM is down, huh?
803
00:57:06,323 --> 00:57:09,158
Sorry. I'll fix it next time.
804
00:57:09,160 --> 00:57:11,693
That--
good job on that.
805
00:57:27,644 --> 00:57:29,812
- William?
- Yes?
806
00:57:31,581 --> 00:57:33,582
Do I seem stuck to you?
807
00:57:37,287 --> 00:57:38,854
How do you mean?
808
00:57:42,859 --> 00:57:45,661
Well, I, I guess
i wouldn't know, would I?
809
00:57:51,801 --> 00:57:53,735
Abbie?
- Yes?
810
00:57:54,804 --> 00:57:57,105
Let's go out tonight.
811
00:57:57,874 --> 00:58:00,876
I want to see
this modern world.
812
00:58:03,980 --> 00:58:05,247
Can I come?
813
00:58:25,468 --> 00:58:29,838
I don't know if I'm gonna find
an appropriate man here.
814
00:58:29,840 --> 00:58:31,240
Thank you.
815
00:58:41,885 --> 00:58:43,619
What?
816
00:58:54,764 --> 00:58:56,632
What was that?
817
00:58:56,634 --> 00:58:58,166
What does that mean?
818
00:58:59,002 --> 00:59:03,438
Uh... um... uh...
819
00:59:03,440 --> 00:59:05,040
I mean you don't kiss a woman
820
00:59:05,042 --> 00:59:07,242
unless you know
what you mean by it.
821
00:59:13,182 --> 00:59:15,117
Weren't you sleeping
with Abbie?
822
00:59:17,253 --> 00:59:20,589
That's not something serious.
It's...
823
00:59:22,559 --> 00:59:24,092
Then why do it?
824
00:59:56,994 --> 00:59:58,961
It's 1979.
825
00:59:58,963 --> 01:00:01,129
I'm 55 years old.
826
01:00:01,131 --> 01:00:04,099
This is what my son
believes in.
827
01:00:04,101 --> 01:00:06,034
These people...
828
01:00:06,036 --> 01:00:08,103
...with this hair...
829
01:00:08,105 --> 01:00:09,871
...and these clothes...
830
01:00:09,873 --> 01:00:13,141
...making these gestures,
making these sounds.
831
01:00:14,877 --> 01:00:18,180
It's 1979.
I'm 55 years old,
832
01:00:18,182 --> 01:00:19,648
and in 1999,
833
01:00:19,650 --> 01:00:22,718
I will die of cancer
from the smoking.
834
01:00:26,657 --> 01:00:29,524
Hey. Are you going?
835
01:00:29,526 --> 01:00:30,926
Yeah.
836
01:00:31,894 --> 01:00:35,731
Do me a favor.
Just take care of Abbie.
837
01:00:38,901 --> 01:00:42,037
They don't know
this is the end of punk.
838
01:00:42,039 --> 01:00:45,207
They don't know
that Reagan's coming.
839
01:00:45,209 --> 01:00:46,942
It's impossible to imagine
840
01:00:46,944 --> 01:00:50,712
that kids will stop
dreaming about nuclear war,
841
01:00:50,714 --> 01:00:53,882
and have nightmares
about the weather.
842
01:00:53,884 --> 01:00:57,819
It's impossible
to imagine HIV,
843
01:00:57,821 --> 01:01:01,023
what will happen
with skateboard tricks,
844
01:01:01,025 --> 01:01:02,858
the Internet.
845
01:01:03,393 --> 01:01:05,027
You have a good time?
846
01:01:05,029 --> 01:01:06,895
Yeah, it was interesting.
847
01:01:09,332 --> 01:01:11,299
So Abbie has your number,
right?
848
01:01:11,301 --> 01:01:12,200
Yeah.
849
01:01:12,202 --> 01:01:14,703
You're gonna get calls
for dinner.
850
01:01:14,705 --> 01:01:15,871
I'd like that.
851
01:01:23,780 --> 01:01:25,280
Kid.
852
01:01:28,317 --> 01:01:29,618
It's late.
853
01:01:31,421 --> 01:01:32,354
How was it?
854
01:01:33,089 --> 01:01:37,059
It was... life-changing.
855
01:01:50,707 --> 01:01:54,176
Before I die,
I will prepare for y2k.
856
01:01:54,178 --> 01:01:57,779
I put canned food and water
in the garage.
857
01:01:57,781 --> 01:02:01,216
I put $16,000 dollars'
worth of gold coins
858
01:02:01,218 --> 01:02:05,120
into a safe deposit box
at the bank of Montecito.
859
01:02:09,592 --> 01:02:12,527
I died before the new year,
860
01:02:12,529 --> 01:02:16,231
dolphin shaped balloons
floated over my head.
861
01:02:16,233 --> 01:02:18,266
They were playing
Louis Armstrong
862
01:02:18,268 --> 01:02:20,368
on a boom box.
863
01:02:33,616 --> 01:02:34,816
Jamie?
864
01:02:37,587 --> 01:02:39,354
Hey, sorry. Are you awake?
865
01:02:40,523 --> 01:02:42,891
I just wanted to tell you...
866
01:02:42,893 --> 01:02:46,194
...that you have to
get out of this town
867
01:02:46,196 --> 01:02:48,096
if you want to have any chance
868
01:02:48,098 --> 01:02:50,298
of an interesting life
moving forward.
869
01:02:50,300 --> 01:02:52,134
What happened?
870
01:02:54,604 --> 01:02:56,505
Sorry. Shit.
871
01:02:57,273 --> 01:02:59,007
We don't have sex.
872
01:03:00,076 --> 01:03:01,676
I just sleep here.
873
01:03:04,113 --> 01:03:05,580
Okay.
874
01:03:07,216 --> 01:03:09,017
Can I lay down?
875
01:03:09,019 --> 01:03:10,619
- We were sleeping.
- Just scoot over.
876
01:03:10,621 --> 01:03:13,722
It's okay. I'm just gonna
talk to Jamie for a second.
877
01:03:16,425 --> 01:03:19,928
So Lynette winters spit on me,
878
01:03:19,930 --> 01:03:21,396
so then I hit her.
879
01:03:21,398 --> 01:03:22,798
Why'd she spit on you?
880
01:03:22,800 --> 01:03:24,332
Because I spit on her,
881
01:03:24,334 --> 01:03:25,867
right before
I was going to New York
882
01:03:25,869 --> 01:03:28,036
and I thought I was never
gonna come back.
883
01:03:28,038 --> 01:03:29,771
It felt very liberating
at the time.
884
01:03:29,773 --> 01:03:31,106
- Fucking bitch!
- All right.
885
01:03:31,108 --> 01:03:33,308
And somehow I ended up
breaking a chair.
886
01:03:35,711 --> 01:03:37,879
Hey, Julian, I'm sorry.
887
01:03:37,881 --> 01:03:40,115
- You okay?
- Yeah, yeah, I'm fine.
888
01:03:42,351 --> 01:03:43,718
And then William told me
889
01:03:43,720 --> 01:03:45,954
he didn't want
to sleep with me anymore.
890
01:03:45,956 --> 01:03:48,423
What are you saying?
I don't like you!
891
01:03:48,425 --> 01:03:50,091
I don't like you!
I don't like--
892
01:03:51,394 --> 01:03:55,263
just, just, I'm just gonna
talk to Jamie for a second.
893
01:03:55,265 --> 01:03:59,601
Um, you cannot
let her sleep here
894
01:03:59,603 --> 01:04:02,370
if she's not having sex
with you.
895
01:04:02,372 --> 01:04:04,773
It's disempowering.
896
01:04:05,808 --> 01:04:09,177
Also, you need to get
out of this town
897
01:04:09,179 --> 01:04:12,247
before you start working
at a sunglasses shop.
898
01:04:15,219 --> 01:04:17,219
I mean, that goes for you, too.
899
01:04:33,436 --> 01:04:37,005
Jamie, um, here's some books
from a feminism class I took.
900
01:04:37,007 --> 01:04:38,540
I thought it would be helpful
901
01:04:38,542 --> 01:04:40,308
for you to get
a woman's perspective.
902
01:04:40,310 --> 01:04:41,610
What happened to your lip?
903
01:04:41,612 --> 01:04:43,278
Oh, I got in a fight.
904
01:04:43,280 --> 01:04:44,713
- You want some apples?
- What?!
905
01:04:44,715 --> 01:04:47,215
There was a fight.
It was-it was ridiculous.
906
01:04:47,217 --> 01:04:49,584
Hold on, is that
our bodies, ourselves?
907
01:04:49,586 --> 01:04:50,752
Yes, it is.
908
01:04:50,754 --> 01:04:53,488
This was a really good book.
909
01:04:53,490 --> 01:04:59,527
There's a really good chapter
on home... childbirths.
910
01:04:59,529 --> 01:05:03,498
Home birth actually stunts
the baby's growth personality.
911
01:05:03,500 --> 01:05:06,101
What is a growth personality?
912
01:05:06,103 --> 01:05:07,435
It's a real term.
913
01:05:07,437 --> 01:05:10,872
"And who knows what it means
for a newborn
914
01:05:10,874 --> 01:05:14,376
to see wood walls
and carpeted floor
915
01:05:14,378 --> 01:05:17,112
and to smell real human smells
916
01:05:17,114 --> 01:05:20,482
and to feel of wool
and cotton and flannel clothes
917
01:05:20,484 --> 01:05:24,586
instead of starchy,
white, deodorized"
918
01:05:24,588 --> 01:05:25,921
dot, dot, dot.
919
01:05:25,923 --> 01:05:28,056
To me, that meant, like,
"and what else?"
920
01:05:36,699 --> 01:05:38,366
Women's sexuality,
921
01:05:38,368 --> 01:05:40,635
defined by men
to benefit men,
922
01:05:40,637 --> 01:05:43,138
has been downgraded
and perverted,
923
01:05:43,140 --> 01:05:45,507
repressed and channeled.
924
01:05:45,509 --> 01:05:48,910
Anatomically, all orgasms
are centered in the clitoris,
925
01:05:48,912 --> 01:05:50,912
whether they result
from direct manual pressure
926
01:05:50,914 --> 01:05:52,580
applied to the clitoris,
927
01:05:52,582 --> 01:05:54,249
indirect pressure
resulting from--
928
01:05:54,251 --> 01:05:55,884
last night,
i fucked Heather so hard,
929
01:05:55,886 --> 01:05:57,419
she came like three times.
930
01:05:58,854 --> 01:06:01,356
How did you stimulate
her clitoris?
931
01:06:02,291 --> 01:06:04,025
With my dick.
932
01:06:05,928 --> 01:06:08,863
Women need
direct clitoral stimulation,
933
01:06:08,865 --> 01:06:13,601
like with fingers or a vibrator
or something.
934
01:06:13,603 --> 01:06:15,103
She probably faked it.
935
01:06:15,105 --> 01:06:17,205
Women fake it all the time.
936
01:06:17,207 --> 01:06:19,341
Talking heads're a bunch
of fags.
937
01:06:21,110 --> 01:06:22,877
Actually, there's a girl
in their band,
938
01:06:22,879 --> 01:06:25,914
and she's dating the drummer,
so...
939
01:06:28,085 --> 01:06:30,385
Your name's Jamie, right?
940
01:06:32,522 --> 01:06:34,055
Fuckin' art fag.
941
01:06:43,000 --> 01:06:45,233
So what was the fight about?
942
01:06:48,204 --> 01:06:50,438
Clitoral stimulation.
943
01:06:53,843 --> 01:06:55,777
Why do you need to fight
about that?
944
01:06:57,046 --> 01:06:58,446
I, I don't know. I...
945
01:06:58,448 --> 01:07:01,016
I wanna be a good guy, okay?
946
01:07:01,018 --> 01:07:06,087
I just... want to be able
to satisfy a woman.
947
01:07:13,396 --> 01:07:15,764
Kid, I'm sure you will.
948
01:07:31,113 --> 01:07:32,480
Shit.
949
01:07:33,983 --> 01:07:35,583
Jamie!
950
01:07:36,285 --> 01:07:37,685
That's not cool.
951
01:07:37,687 --> 01:07:39,687
Yeah.
That's what Matt called me
952
01:07:39,689 --> 01:07:41,823
for liking the talking heads.
953
01:07:43,125 --> 01:07:44,426
Uh-huh.
954
01:07:45,194 --> 01:07:48,563
And what is "black flag?"
955
01:07:48,565 --> 01:07:50,365
It's a hard core band,
956
01:07:50,367 --> 01:07:52,801
so the people
who love black flag
957
01:07:52,803 --> 01:07:55,270
hate the talking heads.
958
01:07:55,838 --> 01:07:56,871
What?!
959
01:07:57,606 --> 01:08:01,342
The punk scene
is very divisive.
960
01:08:01,344 --> 01:08:02,143
Hey!
961
01:08:03,079 --> 01:08:05,947
You're all so advanced,
aren't you?
962
01:08:07,249 --> 01:08:10,151
The next time
a dude tells you a sex story,
963
01:08:10,153 --> 01:08:13,655
you just have to agree
with everything he says
964
01:08:13,657 --> 01:08:16,758
and act like it's right,
even if it's not,
965
01:08:16,760 --> 01:08:18,827
because they don't
wanna be contradicted.
966
01:08:18,829 --> 01:08:21,696
They just wanna live
in their fantasy lands.
967
01:08:23,899 --> 01:08:27,168
How are you doing...
With everything?
968
01:08:43,152 --> 01:08:45,453
Whatever you think your life
is going to be like,
969
01:08:45,455 --> 01:08:49,357
just know it's not gonna be
anything like that.
970
01:08:53,195 --> 01:08:54,329
Right.
971
01:09:09,845 --> 01:09:11,746
Take me to that club.
972
01:09:17,019 --> 01:09:18,353
Tonight?
973
01:09:19,722 --> 01:09:21,322
Hey.
974
01:09:21,324 --> 01:09:22,190
Hey.
975
01:09:23,025 --> 01:09:26,060
Wow, you look amazing.
Where you going?
976
01:09:26,062 --> 01:09:28,229
We're just gonna go out.
Is that okay?
977
01:09:28,231 --> 01:09:30,932
Well yeah, of course.
And, uh, where?
978
01:09:30,934 --> 01:09:32,066
Just goin' out.
979
01:09:35,104 --> 01:09:36,871
- Bye.
- Bye!
980
01:09:55,257 --> 01:09:56,724
Put that down.
981
01:09:57,526 --> 01:10:00,094
Hey, could I get a beer?
982
01:10:02,965 --> 01:10:06,434
Now say,
"i-I'm into older women."
983
01:10:06,436 --> 01:10:08,136
Just say it.
984
01:10:08,737 --> 01:10:10,538
I'm into older women.
985
01:10:10,540 --> 01:10:11,706
Oh...
986
01:10:13,143 --> 01:10:14,976
How old are you?
987
01:10:14,978 --> 01:10:16,978
Age is a bourgeois construct.
988
01:10:18,347 --> 01:10:20,648
Age is a bourgeois construct.
989
01:10:21,317 --> 01:10:22,750
That's a good answer.
990
01:10:23,586 --> 01:10:25,353
Age is a bourgeois construct.
991
01:10:25,355 --> 01:10:26,788
Okay, okay.
You get it.
992
01:10:26,790 --> 01:10:29,857
Um, so now
if she asks you any questions,
993
01:10:29,859 --> 01:10:32,860
you just say as little
as possible, okay?
994
01:10:33,796 --> 01:10:36,431
Now show me
your most inscrutable face.
995
01:10:48,245 --> 01:10:50,645
I don't really
make choices, when they...
996
01:10:50,647 --> 01:10:51,879
...about...
997
01:10:52,581 --> 01:10:55,116
...about women.
They just...
998
01:10:55,118 --> 01:10:56,351
They come to you.
999
01:10:57,386 --> 01:11:00,388
That-that's--
you could have more than that.
1000
01:11:03,325 --> 01:11:05,026
But what about you? Why--
1001
01:11:05,928 --> 01:11:08,663
I mean, what happened
to Jamie's dad?
1002
01:11:11,333 --> 01:11:14,068
Well...
1003
01:11:15,404 --> 01:11:19,040
He just, no--
he just didn't turn out
like I thought he would.
1004
01:11:21,277 --> 01:11:23,144
I guess that happens.
1005
01:11:23,146 --> 01:11:25,480
There must have been
something good about him.
1006
01:11:28,417 --> 01:11:31,586
Um, he was left-handed.
1007
01:11:32,454 --> 01:11:35,490
That's it? That's it?
1008
01:11:35,492 --> 01:11:37,692
Yes, and I was right-handed.
1009
01:11:38,360 --> 01:11:41,129
And so in the morning,
1010
01:11:41,131 --> 01:11:44,198
we would look at
the stock reports together,
1011
01:11:44,200 --> 01:11:47,201
and...
1012
01:11:47,203 --> 01:11:48,703
...he could write
with his left-hand
1013
01:11:48,705 --> 01:11:51,272
and scratch my back
with his right.
1014
01:11:54,777 --> 01:11:56,411
And that's it?
1015
01:11:58,047 --> 01:11:59,447
I loved that.
1016
01:12:04,019 --> 01:12:05,553
Do you ever meditate?
1017
01:12:08,558 --> 01:12:10,591
Uh...
1018
01:12:10,593 --> 01:12:12,160
I feel the air,
1019
01:12:12,162 --> 01:12:15,596
coolness of the air
go through my nose.
1020
01:12:15,598 --> 01:12:17,699
All I'm really doing is...
1021
01:12:19,335 --> 01:12:21,769
...bringing my attention
1022
01:12:21,771 --> 01:12:24,105
back to my breath.
1023
01:12:24,107 --> 01:12:26,741
So when I take a breath in...
1024
01:12:27,643 --> 01:12:29,344
...there's a feeling.
1025
01:12:30,045 --> 01:12:31,913
It's air going in.
1026
01:12:33,482 --> 01:12:35,149
It's air going out.
1027
01:12:35,851 --> 01:12:37,418
It's a good feeling.
1028
01:12:43,692 --> 01:12:45,927
No, it's okay. Go ahead.
I'm just gonna...
1029
01:12:49,298 --> 01:12:50,865
Go ahead.
1030
01:12:50,867 --> 01:12:52,700
I'm just gonna smoke.
1031
01:12:53,902 --> 01:12:55,403
I'm listening.
1032
01:12:57,039 --> 01:12:59,273
All right, I wanna get
on the same page.
1033
01:13:00,376 --> 01:13:01,809
You are such--
1034
01:13:01,811 --> 01:13:05,113
how did you get to be
this person that you are?
1035
01:13:05,115 --> 01:13:07,615
It's so...
You're so unusual.
1036
01:13:10,787 --> 01:13:12,153
William's dad managed
1037
01:13:12,155 --> 01:13:15,390
an auto repair shop
in Cleveland.
1038
01:13:15,392 --> 01:13:18,626
Engines always made sense
to him.
1039
01:13:19,595 --> 01:13:21,629
He tried
to put himself through college,
1040
01:13:21,631 --> 01:13:23,564
but couldn't afford it.
1041
01:13:27,236 --> 01:13:30,304
He met Theresa in 1963.
1042
01:13:30,306 --> 01:13:33,274
She was smart, brave,
better off.
1043
01:13:33,276 --> 01:13:34,942
They were in love.
1044
01:13:34,944 --> 01:13:36,411
They'd move to Oakland,
1045
01:13:36,413 --> 01:13:38,746
then to a commune
in sebastopol.
1046
01:13:38,748 --> 01:13:40,915
Well, I learned
to be like them, you know?
1047
01:13:40,917 --> 01:13:43,651
And... as it turns out,
1048
01:13:43,653 --> 01:13:46,721
it's a lot easier
than I thought it would be.
1049
01:13:46,723 --> 01:13:50,124
But it wasn't really me
i was doing it for...
1050
01:13:50,126 --> 01:13:52,927
...so that
i wouldn't lose Theresa.
1051
01:13:54,062 --> 01:13:55,763
He started talking like them,
1052
01:13:55,765 --> 01:13:57,198
looking like them,
1053
01:13:57,200 --> 01:14:01,636
but they made him feel old
and uneducated and poor.
1054
01:14:01,638 --> 01:14:03,137
Theresa started thinking
1055
01:14:03,139 --> 01:14:07,208
William was uptight and
possessive and she left him.
1056
01:14:07,210 --> 01:14:08,409
After Theresa,
1057
01:14:08,411 --> 01:14:10,478
women didn't have to look
one way or the other,
1058
01:14:10,480 --> 01:14:12,447
or be a certain way.
1059
01:14:16,119 --> 01:14:18,352
I think that I just--
1060
01:14:18,354 --> 01:14:20,221
I want to win them over
1061
01:14:20,223 --> 01:14:22,457
so that I won't be lonely.
1062
01:14:22,459 --> 01:14:23,691
Do you live here?
1063
01:14:24,159 --> 01:14:25,326
I do.
1064
01:14:25,328 --> 01:14:27,962
But once I have them,
1065
01:14:27,964 --> 01:14:30,031
I don't really know
what to do with them.
1066
01:14:37,940 --> 01:14:39,707
You wanna do something later?
1067
01:14:40,676 --> 01:14:42,410
You're sweet.
1068
01:14:43,512 --> 01:14:45,012
I should go.
1069
01:14:46,515 --> 01:14:49,317
What he likes is making bowls.
1070
01:14:49,319 --> 01:14:51,219
He doesn't smell
like oil and grease.
1071
01:14:51,221 --> 01:14:54,222
His hands don't look like
dumb mechanic's hands.
1072
01:14:54,224 --> 01:14:56,157
I was using the smaller
bowls for a while.
1073
01:14:56,159 --> 01:14:58,759
Um, and then I was kind of
feeling like I needed
1074
01:14:58,761 --> 01:15:01,896
to beat the crap
out of some stuff, so...
1075
01:15:01,898 --> 01:15:05,500
And when it gets
a little bit drier,
1076
01:15:05,502 --> 01:15:07,235
you spray everything away.
1077
01:15:08,136 --> 01:15:09,537
Wow.
1078
01:15:10,038 --> 01:15:11,939
It's beautiful.
1079
01:15:17,246 --> 01:15:18,646
What?
1080
01:15:21,149 --> 01:15:22,683
Did you fix it?
1081
01:15:22,685 --> 01:15:23,784
Um...
1082
01:15:23,786 --> 01:15:25,486
Well, maybe...
1083
01:15:25,488 --> 01:15:28,189
It's, uh,
part vol-Volkswagen now.
1084
01:15:28,191 --> 01:15:29,957
I had to improvise.
1085
01:15:56,752 --> 01:16:00,888
And how are you gonna get to
know a person way over there?
1086
01:16:00,890 --> 01:16:03,925
What am--
what am I supposed to do?
1087
01:16:03,927 --> 01:16:06,727
Well, just make
a little small talk
1088
01:16:06,729 --> 01:16:08,296
and introduce yourself,
1089
01:16:08,298 --> 01:16:09,797
ask her to dance.
1090
01:16:10,766 --> 01:16:13,000
Okay.
Hello, I'm William.
1091
01:16:13,735 --> 01:16:15,469
- Hello.
- Hello.
1092
01:16:15,471 --> 01:16:17,638
- Um, I live downstairs.
- Oh, yeah.
1093
01:16:17,640 --> 01:16:19,874
I'm the one with the cars.
1094
01:16:19,876 --> 01:16:22,109
Would you like
to dance with me?
1095
01:16:22,111 --> 01:16:24,912
- Yes. Sure.
- Okay.
1096
01:16:24,914 --> 01:16:26,948
Put your hand out, right?
1097
01:16:26,950 --> 01:16:28,516
Put the other hand here.
1098
01:16:28,518 --> 01:16:30,618
And just be there.
1099
01:16:31,386 --> 01:16:33,220
She just wants
a little company.
1100
01:16:34,156 --> 01:16:35,556
Oh.
1101
01:16:36,692 --> 01:16:38,025
Okay.
1102
01:16:40,429 --> 01:16:42,129
That's nice.
1103
01:17:14,529 --> 01:17:17,832
I-i feel like
i-i understand you.
1104
01:17:19,635 --> 01:17:21,602
We should get away from here.
1105
01:17:21,604 --> 01:17:23,537
Just-just me and you,
you know?
1106
01:17:23,539 --> 01:17:26,407
Go up the coast,
be alone somewhere.
1107
01:17:28,143 --> 01:17:30,845
Jamie, you're in love
with Julie.
1108
01:17:35,484 --> 01:17:38,185
You can't let her
push you around.
1109
01:17:38,187 --> 01:17:40,354
You have to tell her
what you want.
1110
01:17:50,599 --> 01:17:54,435
- ...if you, if you were
to listen to it...
- Right.
1111
01:17:54,437 --> 01:17:56,370
What does-what does that mean?
1112
01:17:56,372 --> 01:17:58,305
"Art fag?" I mean what does--
1113
01:17:58,307 --> 01:18:00,541
if you were to think about it
1114
01:18:00,543 --> 01:18:03,177
from more like
a sociological perspective,
1115
01:18:03,179 --> 01:18:05,446
what does that come from?
"Art fag."
1116
01:18:05,448 --> 01:18:06,714
- I think we--
- what is that?
1117
01:18:06,716 --> 01:18:09,650
- Abbie understand it.
- Abbie does not understand it.
1118
01:18:09,652 --> 01:18:11,719
She's just a part of it.
1119
01:18:26,635 --> 01:18:28,436
You don't need to like it.
1120
01:18:29,037 --> 01:18:30,638
Okay, what is he saying?
1121
01:18:33,208 --> 01:18:35,342
"Head on my shoulders..."
1122
01:18:37,746 --> 01:18:39,547
"Going berserk..."
1123
01:18:39,549 --> 01:18:40,915
Right.
1124
01:18:40,917 --> 01:18:42,249
Is that interesting?
1125
01:18:42,251 --> 01:18:43,818
I don't know.
1126
01:18:43,820 --> 01:18:45,720
I don't know either.
1127
01:18:45,722 --> 01:18:47,655
I think we're maybe
over-thinking this.
1128
01:19:03,806 --> 01:19:05,773
Let's try the art fag one.
1129
01:19:08,244 --> 01:19:10,211
Here come the art fags.
1130
01:19:14,217 --> 01:19:15,282
Oh, yeah.
1131
01:19:32,934 --> 01:19:34,401
All right, you ready?
1132
01:19:37,072 --> 01:19:38,372
That's it.
1133
01:19:42,011 --> 01:19:44,512
I guess we're more
the art fag type.
1134
01:19:44,514 --> 01:19:45,780
Uh-huh.
1135
01:19:45,782 --> 01:19:47,181
I like that.
1136
01:20:25,254 --> 01:20:27,454
Come here, inscrutable boy.
1137
01:20:31,593 --> 01:20:33,294
I gave him beer,
1138
01:20:33,296 --> 01:20:35,162
and then i-i taught him
1139
01:20:35,164 --> 01:20:38,165
how to verbally
seduce women,
1140
01:20:38,167 --> 01:20:40,701
and we drove drunk,
1141
01:20:40,703 --> 01:20:42,236
but I stopped that,
1142
01:20:42,238 --> 01:20:45,172
and then he kissed Trish.
1143
01:20:45,174 --> 01:20:47,374
And then we walked home.
1144
01:20:49,778 --> 01:20:51,111
Ah.
1145
01:20:57,118 --> 01:20:58,719
You're not mad?
1146
01:21:00,021 --> 01:21:01,288
You're mad.
1147
01:21:07,829 --> 01:21:10,364
You get to see him
out in the world
1148
01:21:10,366 --> 01:21:12,066
as a person.
1149
01:21:12,934 --> 01:21:14,635
I never will.
1150
01:21:22,210 --> 01:21:23,510
Just--
1151
01:21:31,753 --> 01:21:33,087
there.
1152
01:22:05,020 --> 01:22:07,354
I can't believe Abbie
gave you this book.
1153
01:22:09,224 --> 01:22:10,557
It's interesting.
1154
01:22:13,395 --> 01:22:14,695
What's it like...
1155
01:22:15,397 --> 01:22:16,597
...for girls?
1156
01:22:16,599 --> 01:22:19,566
What? Sex?
1157
01:22:22,003 --> 01:22:23,404
Orgasms.
1158
01:22:26,608 --> 01:22:28,909
Do you really want to know
what it's like?
1159
01:22:32,147 --> 01:22:33,480
Yeah.
1160
01:22:34,783 --> 01:22:36,517
I don't have them.
1161
01:22:38,420 --> 01:22:39,887
What?
1162
01:22:41,189 --> 01:22:43,057
None of my friends do.
1163
01:22:45,728 --> 01:22:47,361
Then why do you do it?
1164
01:22:47,996 --> 01:22:50,431
There's other reasons.
1165
01:22:50,433 --> 01:22:53,033
You know, like the way
that he looks at you...
1166
01:22:56,304 --> 01:22:59,540
...or the way they get a little
bit desperate at some point.
1167
01:23:00,643 --> 01:23:03,577
And the little sounds
that they make.
1168
01:23:09,384 --> 01:23:10,584
Ah!
1169
01:23:17,125 --> 01:23:18,959
And their bodies...
1170
01:23:21,129 --> 01:23:24,264
...'cause you don't exactly know
what they're gonna look like...
1171
01:23:25,700 --> 01:23:28,369
...or smell or feel like...
1172
01:23:30,472 --> 01:23:32,373
...until you do it.
1173
01:23:35,844 --> 01:23:38,846
But, yeah...
Half the time I regret it.
1174
01:23:42,617 --> 01:23:44,651
Then why do you do it?
1175
01:23:46,888 --> 01:23:49,289
'Cause half the time,
i don't regret it.
1176
01:24:00,568 --> 01:24:02,369
"I am gregarious.
1177
01:24:02,371 --> 01:24:04,071
Interested in others.
1178
01:24:04,073 --> 01:24:06,073
And I think intelligent.
1179
01:24:10,245 --> 01:24:12,413
All I ask
is to get to know people
1180
01:24:12,415 --> 01:24:15,115
and to have them interested
in knowing me.
1181
01:24:15,117 --> 01:24:17,084
I doubt whether
I would marry again
1182
01:24:17,086 --> 01:24:19,720
and live that close
to another individual,
1183
01:24:19,722 --> 01:24:22,022
but I remain invisible.
1184
01:24:23,124 --> 01:24:25,926
Don't pretend for a minute
as you look at me,
1185
01:24:25,928 --> 01:24:28,695
that I am not as alive
as you are,
1186
01:24:28,697 --> 01:24:32,132
and I do not suffer
from the category
to which you are forcing me.
1187
01:24:36,071 --> 01:24:38,539
I think, stripped down,
i look more attractive
1188
01:24:38,541 --> 01:24:40,507
than my ex-husband...
1189
01:24:41,443 --> 01:24:43,744
...but I am sexually
and socially obsolete
1190
01:24:43,746 --> 01:24:45,712
and he is not.
1191
01:24:46,915 --> 01:24:49,650
I have a capacity now for
taking people as they are,
1192
01:24:49,652 --> 01:24:51,919
which I lacked at 20.
1193
01:24:51,921 --> 01:24:56,090
I reach orgasm in half the time
and I know how to please,
1194
01:24:56,092 --> 01:25:00,327
yet I do not even dare show a
man that I find him attractive.
1195
01:25:00,329 --> 01:25:03,797
If I do, he may react
as if I have insulted him.
1196
01:25:05,800 --> 01:25:08,669
I'm supposed to fulfill
my small functions
1197
01:25:08,671 --> 01:25:10,304
and vanish."
1198
01:25:15,977 --> 01:25:17,277
Well...
1199
01:25:17,946 --> 01:25:19,713
What do you think of all that?
1200
01:25:23,284 --> 01:25:26,186
I don't know.
Maybe I'm a feminist.
1201
01:25:31,893 --> 01:25:33,160
So...
1202
01:25:38,032 --> 01:25:40,067
You think that's me.
1203
01:25:40,802 --> 01:25:42,569
No, I don't know.
1204
01:25:43,905 --> 01:25:46,773
So you think you know me better
because you read that?
1205
01:25:46,775 --> 01:25:48,408
No, no.
1206
01:25:51,112 --> 01:25:53,347
Then why are you reading it
to me?
1207
01:25:57,085 --> 01:26:00,053
Um, I thought
it was interesting.
1208
01:26:05,960 --> 01:26:07,861
Okay, well...
1209
01:26:10,532 --> 01:26:13,734
I-i don't need a book
to know about myself.
1210
01:26:21,643 --> 01:26:23,043
Sorry.
1211
01:26:39,561 --> 01:26:42,029
I mean, I appreciate
you trying to help.
1212
01:26:42,031 --> 01:26:45,566
I do. I just think
you're taking it too far.
1213
01:26:45,568 --> 01:26:48,035
This stuff with,
1214
01:26:48,037 --> 01:26:50,170
you know, the women's movement
i respect,
1215
01:26:50,172 --> 01:26:52,539
but it's just,
it's complicated
1216
01:26:52,541 --> 01:26:54,541
and I think
it's too much for him.
1217
01:26:54,543 --> 01:26:56,944
What are-- I don't know what it
is that you're talking about.
1218
01:26:56,946 --> 01:26:59,713
- Okay. He's a 15-year-old boy.
- I know.
1219
01:26:59,715 --> 01:27:02,749
You're giving him hard core
feminism, and it-it--
1220
01:27:02,751 --> 01:27:04,551
but he really loves it,
and it's really--
1221
01:27:04,553 --> 01:27:07,054
it's helping him...
- Helping him what?
1222
01:27:07,056 --> 01:27:08,522
It's helping him
become a man, th--
1223
01:27:08,524 --> 01:27:09,923
what you were talking about.
It's like--
1224
01:27:09,925 --> 01:27:12,726
learning about a female orgasm
is helping him be a man?
1225
01:27:12,728 --> 01:27:15,429
Well, what man do you know
that cares anything about that?
1226
01:27:15,431 --> 01:27:17,264
- Look, he's--
- I mean that's a miracle.
1227
01:27:17,266 --> 01:27:19,266
But he is a high school kid,
okay?
1228
01:27:19,268 --> 01:27:21,301
It's too much.
I'm telling you.
1229
01:27:25,039 --> 01:27:27,507
I think he seems
really okay with it.
1230
01:27:28,876 --> 01:27:31,812
You know
you don't actually know
what you're doing with him?
1231
01:27:34,215 --> 01:27:38,652
Okay? So... just...
1232
01:27:41,389 --> 01:27:43,123
As you know,
1233
01:27:43,125 --> 01:27:47,527
there is a growing
disrespect for government,
1234
01:27:47,529 --> 01:27:49,930
for schools, the news media
1235
01:27:49,932 --> 01:27:51,265
and other institutions.
1236
01:27:52,400 --> 01:27:57,271
This is not a message
of happiness or reassurance.
1237
01:27:57,273 --> 01:27:59,473
But it is the truth
1238
01:27:59,475 --> 01:28:01,375
and it is a warning.
1239
01:28:02,577 --> 01:28:06,480
It is a crisis...
Of confidence.
1240
01:28:08,050 --> 01:28:10,050
We can see this crisis
1241
01:28:10,052 --> 01:28:13,387
in the growing doubt
about the meaning
of our own lives
1242
01:28:13,389 --> 01:28:16,189
and in the loss
of a unity of purpose
1243
01:28:16,191 --> 01:28:17,924
for our nation.
1244
01:28:19,494 --> 01:28:21,662
Too many of us now
1245
01:28:21,664 --> 01:28:24,564
tend to worship
self-indulgence
1246
01:28:24,566 --> 01:28:26,533
and consumption.
1247
01:28:27,302 --> 01:28:29,369
But we've discovered
1248
01:28:29,371 --> 01:28:33,974
that owning things
and consuming things...
1249
01:28:33,976 --> 01:28:36,143
...does not satisfy
1250
01:28:36,145 --> 01:28:39,079
our longing for meaning.
1251
01:28:40,882 --> 01:28:42,783
We always believed...
1252
01:28:43,751 --> 01:28:46,720
...that we were part
of a great movement
1253
01:28:46,722 --> 01:28:49,089
of humanity itself...
1254
01:28:49,091 --> 01:28:52,659
...involved in a search
for freedom.
1255
01:28:57,332 --> 01:29:00,767
We are at a turning point
in our history.
1256
01:29:03,071 --> 01:29:05,305
The path that leads
to fragmentation
1257
01:29:05,307 --> 01:29:07,240
and self-interest.
1258
01:29:08,643 --> 01:29:12,612
Down that road lies
a mistaken idea of freedom.
1259
01:29:14,515 --> 01:29:18,118
It is a certain route
to failure.
1260
01:29:20,722 --> 01:29:22,856
Thank you and good night.
1261
01:29:24,892 --> 01:29:28,128
Wow.
He is so screwed.
1262
01:29:28,130 --> 01:29:29,730
No shit.
1263
01:29:29,732 --> 01:29:31,431
It's over for him.
1264
01:29:32,533 --> 01:29:34,868
I thought that was beautiful.
1265
01:29:36,371 --> 01:29:40,907
Well, why didn't you just say,
"I'm sorry, I'm done?"
1266
01:29:40,909 --> 01:29:42,242
My pride.
1267
01:29:42,244 --> 01:29:43,677
- I know.
- Yeah, it's...
1268
01:29:43,679 --> 01:29:46,446
You didn't seem
like a prideful person.
You seem humble.
1269
01:29:46,448 --> 01:29:49,916
I left my pride outside today.
1270
01:29:50,918 --> 01:29:53,120
Jamie, would you please
wake up Abbie?
1271
01:29:55,223 --> 01:29:57,624
- Yeah. Abbie?
- No, stop it.
1272
01:29:57,626 --> 01:30:00,127
I'm menstruating.
1273
01:30:00,129 --> 01:30:01,795
Abbie, you know what?
1274
01:30:01,797 --> 01:30:03,463
You're menstruating.
Okay.
1275
01:30:03,465 --> 01:30:05,532
But do you have to say it?
1276
01:30:05,534 --> 01:30:07,033
Okay? And do we really
need to know
1277
01:30:07,035 --> 01:30:09,403
everything that's going on
with you?
1278
01:30:09,405 --> 01:30:12,105
What?
I'm menstruating.
1279
01:30:12,107 --> 01:30:13,306
Why is that a big deal?
1280
01:30:13,308 --> 01:30:14,941
We don't need
to hear about that.
1281
01:30:14,943 --> 01:30:16,076
Thank you.
1282
01:30:17,345 --> 01:30:19,913
If you ever want to have
an adult relationship
with a woman,
1283
01:30:19,915 --> 01:30:22,549
like if you want to have sex
with a woman's vagina,
1284
01:30:22,551 --> 01:30:24,050
you need to be comfortable
1285
01:30:24,052 --> 01:30:27,154
with the fact
that the vagina menstruates,
1286
01:30:27,156 --> 01:30:29,556
and just say menstruation.
It's not a big deal.
1287
01:30:29,558 --> 01:30:33,160
So start saying it now.
Menstruation.
1288
01:30:34,128 --> 01:30:37,097
- Now?
- Yes. Menstruation.
1289
01:30:37,799 --> 01:30:39,099
Menstruation.
1290
01:30:39,101 --> 01:30:41,635
Jamie, no, you don't have to.
1291
01:30:41,637 --> 01:30:42,903
You're saying it
like you're scared.
1292
01:30:42,905 --> 01:30:44,070
Don't say it
like you're scared.
- Abbie.
1293
01:30:44,072 --> 01:30:46,473
- Say it like it's normal.
- Menstruation.
1294
01:30:46,475 --> 01:30:48,008
- Menstruation.
- Menstruation.
1295
01:30:48,010 --> 01:30:50,444
Not bad.
Julian, menstruation.
1296
01:30:50,446 --> 01:30:52,846
You can say it.
Right now.
1297
01:30:52,848 --> 01:30:55,982
- I'm sorry.
- Uh, men-menstruation.
1298
01:30:55,984 --> 01:30:58,852
Just keep eye contact with me.
What-- who are you looking at?
1299
01:30:58,854 --> 01:31:01,087
- Menstruation.
- Menstruation.
1300
01:31:01,089 --> 01:31:02,989
Yeah, that's right.
Menstruation.
1301
01:31:02,991 --> 01:31:05,926
Charlie, you're quiet.
Menstruation?
1302
01:31:05,928 --> 01:31:07,160
Menstruation?
1303
01:31:07,162 --> 01:31:10,297
No, not like a question.
Menstruation.
1304
01:31:10,299 --> 01:31:11,498
Menstruation.
1305
01:31:11,500 --> 01:31:13,533
Now everybody say it together.
1306
01:31:13,535 --> 01:31:15,135
Menstruation.
1307
01:31:15,137 --> 01:31:18,839
Like gentle, happy, but casual.
And...
1308
01:31:18,841 --> 01:31:20,474
Menstruation.
1309
01:31:20,476 --> 01:31:21,675
It's gross, Abbie.
1310
01:31:21,677 --> 01:31:23,176
No, it's it's not gross.
1311
01:31:23,178 --> 01:31:25,812
It's a very
deep time creatively,
1312
01:31:25,814 --> 01:31:28,215
and it's
emotionally transformative.
1313
01:31:29,083 --> 01:31:31,151
And sex during menstruation
1314
01:31:31,153 --> 01:31:33,053
can be very pleasurable
for a woman.
1315
01:31:33,055 --> 01:31:36,189
It can even, like,
relieve some of the cramps.
1316
01:31:36,191 --> 01:31:39,392
Jamie, I also wanna say never
have sex with just the vagina.
1317
01:31:39,394 --> 01:31:41,027
You have to have sex
with the whole woman.
1318
01:31:42,797 --> 01:31:45,999
- That's slightly off topic
of what I'm talking about.
- You too? You too, William?
1319
01:31:46,001 --> 01:31:48,201
I mean... thank you.
- But that's okay.
1320
01:31:48,203 --> 01:31:50,670
The first time
that I got my period,
1321
01:31:50,672 --> 01:31:52,405
I was watching
1322
01:31:52,407 --> 01:31:54,040
one that flew
over the cuckoo's nest
1323
01:31:54,042 --> 01:31:55,642
with some guy.
1324
01:31:55,644 --> 01:31:56,610
And, um...
1325
01:31:57,545 --> 01:32:00,046
Yeah, I just told him
that I had to leave,
1326
01:32:00,048 --> 01:32:03,617
so I went to the market
and I bought a box of tampons,
1327
01:32:03,619 --> 01:32:06,486
and I read the instructions
on the box and I put one in...
1328
01:32:06,488 --> 01:32:08,054
- Julie?
- ..And I never
told my mom about it,
1329
01:32:08,056 --> 01:32:10,524
but she never asked,
so it didn't matter.
1330
01:32:11,592 --> 01:32:14,327
And I never saw the end
of the cuckoo's nest.
1331
01:32:16,864 --> 01:32:18,498
Jack Nicholson got a lobotomy,
1332
01:32:18,500 --> 01:32:20,500
and so the big Indian guy
1333
01:32:20,502 --> 01:32:22,402
smothered him with a pillow
so that he could,
1334
01:32:22,404 --> 01:32:23,904
you know, be free and...
1335
01:32:23,906 --> 01:32:25,639
- Okay, let's talk
about something else.
- Yeah. It was good.
1336
01:32:25,641 --> 01:32:27,073
- Would you mind?
- When I was 14,
1337
01:32:27,075 --> 01:32:28,675
I had sex
for the first time.
1338
01:32:28,677 --> 01:32:29,809
Julie!
1339
01:32:29,811 --> 01:32:31,912
Julie, please. You-- honey...
1340
01:32:31,914 --> 01:32:34,915
I decided one night that I was
just gonna lose my virginity.
1341
01:32:34,917 --> 01:32:36,516
I didn't care who it was to.
1342
01:32:36,518 --> 01:32:39,085
- Julie, you gotta calm down.
- Stop it. Let her talk.
1343
01:32:39,087 --> 01:32:42,122
I picked this guy that
i didn't know at a party...
1344
01:32:42,124 --> 01:32:46,293
...and we had fairly painful sex
in his Van.
1345
01:32:46,295 --> 01:32:48,495
It was just parked
on the street.
1346
01:32:48,497 --> 01:32:50,897
He just used spit
for lubrication.
1347
01:32:53,635 --> 01:32:55,735
I made it home on time
for curfew, though.
1348
01:32:55,737 --> 01:32:58,905
His carpet smelled like
spilled bong water.
1349
01:33:04,045 --> 01:33:06,279
Okay, um...
1350
01:33:06,281 --> 01:33:08,615
...let's call it a night.
All right?
1351
01:33:08,617 --> 01:33:12,152
Thanks all for coming.
Show's over, girls.
1352
01:33:12,154 --> 01:33:13,954
Thank you so much for coming.
1353
01:33:16,524 --> 01:33:18,892
Jamie, we need to talk.
1354
01:33:18,894 --> 01:33:21,595
There's a lot of stuff
happening, right?
1355
01:33:21,597 --> 01:33:26,166
And I just would like to know
what's going on with you.
1356
01:33:26,168 --> 01:33:30,604
I mean, I know this has all
been a lot for us to deal with.
1357
01:33:30,606 --> 01:33:33,807
Mom, I'm dealing
with everything right now.
1358
01:33:33,809 --> 01:33:36,509
You are dealing with nothing.
1359
01:33:49,423 --> 01:33:51,591
I can't believe you
told everyone all that.
1360
01:33:52,827 --> 01:33:54,894
I can say what I want to say.
1361
01:33:56,998 --> 01:33:59,532
They're gonna think
you're some--
1362
01:33:59,534 --> 01:34:01,735
they're gonna get
the wrong idea about you.
1363
01:34:01,737 --> 01:34:03,203
What?
1364
01:34:03,205 --> 01:34:04,871
That I'm a slut?
1365
01:34:07,274 --> 01:34:08,842
Is that what you think?
1366
01:34:13,047 --> 01:34:16,149
You can't sleep here anymore...
1367
01:34:16,151 --> 01:34:17,917
...and just want to talk.
1368
01:34:21,889 --> 01:34:23,289
Really?
1369
01:34:25,993 --> 01:34:27,394
Yeah.
1370
01:34:30,965 --> 01:34:32,532
Jamie.
1371
01:34:37,838 --> 01:34:39,305
I'm sorry.
1372
01:34:43,644 --> 01:34:46,079
I am sorry, okay?
1373
01:34:50,484 --> 01:34:53,453
Let's-let's just
get out of here.
1374
01:34:54,955 --> 01:34:58,725
Let's go up the coast like-
like you said that we would.
1375
01:35:00,795 --> 01:35:02,595
Just the two of us.
1376
01:35:10,504 --> 01:35:12,839
Mom...
1377
01:35:12,841 --> 01:35:14,507
Julie and I took the car.
1378
01:35:16,544 --> 01:35:18,411
We're taking a trip
up the coast...
1379
01:35:19,547 --> 01:35:21,414
...just to get away.
1380
01:35:22,316 --> 01:35:24,117
You don't need to worry
about us.
1381
01:36:22,309 --> 01:36:25,445
Hey, do you think
that you could, um...
1382
01:36:25,447 --> 01:36:27,914
...buy us some, like,
wine coolers?
1383
01:36:27,916 --> 01:36:30,016
You can keep the change.
1384
01:36:30,018 --> 01:36:32,652
Strawberry or anything Berry,
really.
1385
01:36:42,763 --> 01:36:44,130
Hi. What's the matter?
1386
01:36:44,132 --> 01:36:45,398
Hi.
1387
01:36:45,400 --> 01:36:48,468
You changed lanes
in the intersection back there.
1388
01:36:48,470 --> 01:36:50,136
Seriously? That's all?
1389
01:36:51,071 --> 01:36:54,207
I need to see your license
and registration.
1390
01:36:54,209 --> 01:36:56,776
Well, what if I don't have
my license?
1391
01:36:58,412 --> 01:37:00,547
Okay, well what's your name,
address and date of birth?
1392
01:37:00,549 --> 01:37:01,915
Do you have that?
1393
01:37:01,917 --> 01:37:04,350
You know, those are
very personal questions,
1394
01:37:04,352 --> 01:37:06,319
and we've just met.
1395
01:37:06,321 --> 01:37:09,556
What's your name?
What's your address, right?
1396
01:37:09,558 --> 01:37:12,091
I mean, it's a little forward.
1397
01:37:38,853 --> 01:37:41,287
I, uh, I love you.
1398
01:37:49,230 --> 01:37:50,730
What's wrong?
1399
01:37:51,599 --> 01:37:52,966
Nothing.
1400
01:37:57,771 --> 01:37:59,105
Tell me.
1401
01:38:04,945 --> 01:38:07,580
I think that I'm too close
to you...
1402
01:38:08,682 --> 01:38:10,516
...to have sex with you.
1403
01:38:13,053 --> 01:38:14,787
I know it's confusing.
1404
01:38:16,957 --> 01:38:18,191
I'm sorry.
1405
01:38:22,930 --> 01:38:24,264
I can...
1406
01:38:25,032 --> 01:38:26,499
...i can help you get over that.
1407
01:38:29,837 --> 01:38:31,804
I don't want to get over that.
1408
01:38:34,642 --> 01:38:35,808
Yes, you do.
1409
01:38:37,611 --> 01:38:39,979
You're being
like the other guys.
1410
01:38:39,981 --> 01:38:42,181
I don't wanna
just have sex with you.
1411
01:38:43,117 --> 01:38:44,284
I want you.
1412
01:38:44,985 --> 01:38:47,053
But it's your version of me.
1413
01:38:49,089 --> 01:38:50,490
It's not me.
1414
01:38:52,593 --> 01:38:56,062
It would be a lot better
if you just wanted sex.
1415
01:38:56,064 --> 01:38:58,965
You are exactly like
the other guys.
1416
01:38:58,967 --> 01:39:01,367
You just seem
like you're all modern.
1417
01:39:14,248 --> 01:39:15,815
Jamie.
1418
01:39:17,418 --> 01:39:18,851
Jamie.
1419
01:39:19,653 --> 01:39:21,187
Jamie!
1420
01:39:51,986 --> 01:39:54,787
These people have no
sense of humor.
1421
01:40:12,973 --> 01:40:15,608
Having a kid seems like...
1422
01:40:17,011 --> 01:40:18,778
...the hardest thing.
1423
01:40:20,481 --> 01:40:21,814
Yeah.
1424
01:40:23,384 --> 01:40:25,385
How much you love the kid...
1425
01:40:29,690 --> 01:40:32,392
You're just
pretty much screwed.
1426
01:40:44,538 --> 01:40:46,639
- Well, it's good for you.
- Hi. Uh...
1427
01:40:46,641 --> 01:40:47,507
Hey.
1428
01:40:48,642 --> 01:40:51,044
Julie just called me.
They're in San Louis obispo.
1429
01:40:51,046 --> 01:40:52,512
She doesn't know where he is.
1430
01:40:52,514 --> 01:40:54,047
She can't find him.
1431
01:40:54,915 --> 01:40:57,216
I-- would you drive me...
- Yes, I will.
1432
01:40:57,218 --> 01:40:58,718
- ...up there?
- Yep. Let's go.
1433
01:40:58,720 --> 01:41:00,486
- Will you come?
- Yes.
1434
01:41:45,065 --> 01:41:46,632
I'm sorry.
1435
01:41:51,438 --> 01:41:52,972
He came back.
1436
01:41:54,007 --> 01:41:55,808
He's right there.
1437
01:41:57,644 --> 01:42:00,213
Okay. Okay.
1438
01:42:04,184 --> 01:42:05,585
It's okay.
1439
01:42:28,342 --> 01:42:29,308
Well...
1440
01:42:30,144 --> 01:42:33,146
Julie's a pretty
complicated woman.
1441
01:42:33,148 --> 01:42:34,881
It's a lot to take on,
1442
01:42:34,883 --> 01:42:36,849
but I'm impressed in a way.
1443
01:42:38,952 --> 01:42:40,286
Whatever.
1444
01:42:50,565 --> 01:42:52,698
Aren't you gonna get Julie...
1445
01:42:52,700 --> 01:42:54,467
...to come talk with me?
1446
01:42:54,469 --> 01:42:55,902
Jamie!
1447
01:42:56,170 --> 01:42:57,603
What?
1448
01:42:57,605 --> 01:42:59,305
I-i thought they'd help.
1449
01:43:00,607 --> 01:43:04,277
Well, it just seemed like you
couldn't deal with me anymore.
1450
01:43:06,413 --> 01:43:07,780
Look.
1451
01:43:08,549 --> 01:43:10,783
I wanted-- i--
1452
01:43:10,785 --> 01:43:12,418
I...
1453
01:43:13,220 --> 01:43:14,587
Look, i--
1454
01:43:15,889 --> 01:43:19,225
I don't want you to end up
in the same place as me.
1455
01:43:21,695 --> 01:43:23,329
What does that mean?
1456
01:43:24,097 --> 01:43:26,632
Well, I wanted you
to be happier.
1457
01:43:28,702 --> 01:43:31,370
And I just didn't think
i could do it by myself.
1458
01:43:31,372 --> 01:43:32,772
I--
1459
01:43:36,076 --> 01:43:37,510
okay.
1460
01:43:39,479 --> 01:43:42,615
I thought we were fine, though,
just me and you.
1461
01:43:48,755 --> 01:43:50,122
Yeah?
1462
01:43:52,559 --> 01:43:53,926
Yeah.
1463
01:44:27,227 --> 01:44:28,995
Okay. Come on.
1464
01:44:28,997 --> 01:44:31,264
Come on.
Dance with your mom.
1465
01:45:29,691 --> 01:45:31,223
- Bye.
- Bye.
1466
01:45:31,225 --> 01:45:32,558
Bye.
1467
01:45:34,394 --> 01:45:35,661
- Be safe.
- Bye.
1468
01:45:35,663 --> 01:45:37,463
Bye. Bye.
1469
01:45:46,940 --> 01:45:49,475
So maybe we don't go back yet.
1470
01:45:52,179 --> 01:45:53,479
Okay.
1471
01:46:03,690 --> 01:46:05,825
Were you and dad ever in love?
1472
01:46:06,493 --> 01:46:07,893
Sure.
1473
01:46:13,233 --> 01:46:14,967
Or, um...
1474
01:46:16,336 --> 01:46:19,672
Maybe I was just...
1475
01:46:19,674 --> 01:46:21,841
I felt I was
supposed to be in love.
1476
01:46:22,843 --> 01:46:25,978
Or I was...
1477
01:46:25,980 --> 01:46:28,748
I was scared I'd never
be in love...
1478
01:46:30,751 --> 01:46:32,852
...so i-i...
1479
01:46:34,254 --> 01:46:37,189
...i just picked
the best solution at the time.
1480
01:46:48,101 --> 01:46:49,869
I wanna bleach my hair.
1481
01:46:50,470 --> 01:46:53,305
Kid... really?
1482
01:46:54,374 --> 01:46:55,775
Yeah.
1483
01:47:04,351 --> 01:47:05,718
Okay.
1484
01:47:10,791 --> 01:47:12,458
Are you lonely?
1485
01:47:13,593 --> 01:47:15,294
Well...
1486
01:47:15,296 --> 01:47:18,931
...i might marry bogart
in my next life.
1487
01:47:18,933 --> 01:47:20,132
We'll see.
1488
01:47:20,134 --> 01:47:22,334
I'm thinking about it.
1489
01:47:22,336 --> 01:47:24,503
Uh, he's dead.
1490
01:47:25,639 --> 01:47:27,106
Well...
1491
01:47:27,741 --> 01:47:30,009
This is my next life, right?
1492
01:47:30,011 --> 01:47:31,577
So...
1493
01:47:32,345 --> 01:47:33,679
...he may be there.
1494
01:47:33,681 --> 01:47:36,882
He may be around
and we might meet and...
1495
01:47:38,084 --> 01:47:40,753
...something might happen
between us.
1496
01:47:42,155 --> 01:47:44,356
Okay, um...
1497
01:47:45,392 --> 01:47:47,793
...you can't have it
in the real world?
1498
01:47:47,795 --> 01:47:50,796
Hey. This is no time
to be rational, sweetie.
1499
01:47:50,798 --> 01:47:53,499
Can you just go with this?
1500
01:47:53,501 --> 01:47:55,034
Yeah. Keep going.
1501
01:47:55,036 --> 01:47:56,569
Okay.
1502
01:47:57,437 --> 01:48:00,873
So he-he knows
what I'm thinking,
1503
01:48:00,875 --> 01:48:02,908
and he makes me laugh...
1504
01:48:04,010 --> 01:48:06,445
...and he really sees me...
1505
01:48:07,848 --> 01:48:11,817
...and you know that he's gonna
do what he says he's gonna do,
1506
01:48:11,819 --> 01:48:14,286
so that's easy.
1507
01:48:15,188 --> 01:48:17,122
He sounds nice.
1508
01:48:18,291 --> 01:48:19,825
Yeah.
1509
01:48:27,134 --> 01:48:28,334
I thought that was
just the beginning
1510
01:48:28,336 --> 01:48:31,070
of a new relationship
with her...
1511
01:48:31,072 --> 01:48:32,471
..Where she'd really
tell me stuff...
1512
01:48:36,676 --> 01:48:39,545
...but maybe it was
never really like that again.
1513
01:48:41,081 --> 01:48:42,882
Maybe that was it.
1514
01:48:44,618 --> 01:48:47,019
N march of 1999,
1515
01:48:47,021 --> 01:48:50,356
I'll start to feel tired
and confused.
1516
01:48:50,358 --> 01:48:52,157
When I finally
go to the doctor,
1517
01:48:52,159 --> 01:48:54,827
he will say that the cancer
in my lungs
1518
01:48:54,829 --> 01:48:59,265
had already traveled
to my breast and brain.
1519
01:48:59,267 --> 01:49:02,234
I'll try to teach Jamie
what to do with my stocks,
1520
01:49:02,236 --> 01:49:07,273
but my instructions will be
impossible to understand.
1521
01:49:11,811 --> 01:49:13,412
See you later.
1522
01:49:19,886 --> 01:49:23,789
Abbie will take me
to planned parenthood...
1523
01:49:23,791 --> 01:49:25,758
...and I will go on the pill.
1524
01:49:29,696 --> 01:49:31,797
I will go to nyu
1525
01:49:31,799 --> 01:49:35,467
and lose touch with Jamie
and dorothea...
1526
01:49:35,469 --> 01:49:38,003
...and I will stop talking
to my mom.
1527
01:49:39,372 --> 01:49:42,341
I will fall in love
with Nicholas...
1528
01:49:42,343 --> 01:49:44,310
...and we'll move to Paris...
1529
01:49:45,345 --> 01:49:47,846
...and choose
not to have children.
1530
01:49:49,584 --> 01:49:52,251
I will stay in Santa Barbara.
1531
01:49:52,253 --> 01:49:55,955
In just two years,
I'll marry Dave.
1532
01:49:55,957 --> 01:49:58,257
A month after I get married,
1533
01:49:58,259 --> 01:50:00,225
carlotta will die.
1534
01:50:02,395 --> 01:50:06,231
A week later,
Max will die, too.
1535
01:50:07,767 --> 01:50:09,602
I will work out of my garage
1536
01:50:09,604 --> 01:50:12,338
and show in local galleries.
1537
01:50:13,440 --> 01:50:15,341
Against my doctor's advice,
1538
01:50:15,343 --> 01:50:17,343
I will get pregnant.
1539
01:50:17,345 --> 01:50:19,211
By the time I'm 34,
1540
01:50:19,213 --> 01:50:21,647
I'll have two boys.
1541
01:50:25,119 --> 01:50:27,586
I'll live with dorothea
for another year...
1542
01:50:29,990 --> 01:50:34,426
...and then I'll open
a pottery store
in sedona, Arizona.
1543
01:50:37,330 --> 01:50:40,366
I'll marry Laurie,
a singer-songwriter.
1544
01:50:40,368 --> 01:50:43,002
We'll get divorced in a year.
1545
01:50:43,004 --> 01:50:45,337
Then I'll meet Sandy...
1546
01:50:45,339 --> 01:50:47,873
...and continue
to do my pottery.
1547
01:50:50,211 --> 01:50:54,046
My mom will meet Jim in 1983.
1548
01:50:54,048 --> 01:50:57,383
They will stay a couple
until she dies.
1549
01:50:57,385 --> 01:50:59,485
On her birthday each year,
1550
01:50:59,487 --> 01:51:02,454
he will buy her a trip
on a biplane.
1551
01:51:05,091 --> 01:51:07,493
Years after she's gone,
I will finally get married
1552
01:51:07,495 --> 01:51:09,395
and have a son.
1553
01:51:11,164 --> 01:51:12,865
I will try to explain to him
1554
01:51:12,867 --> 01:51:15,034
what his grandmother
was like...
1555
01:51:16,369 --> 01:51:18,671
...but it will be impossible.