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Can I help you?

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<i>I have to go back a bit.</i>

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<i>I was 12 years old</i>

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<i>and on a school trip in the hills.</i>

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Are you making fun of me?

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What do you mean?

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You have this orgasm,
not only an orgasm,

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- but a spontaneous orgasm.
- Yes, it was an orgasm,

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though the doctor described it as a...

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an epileptic seizure.

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And during that orgasm,

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you have this vision

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<i>of these two women
on each side of you?</i>

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Was she holding the veil
with two fingers like this?

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What's the matter?

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You don't even--
you don't even know who these women were, do you?

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No, but one of them
did look like the Virgin Mary,

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<i>now that you mention it.</i>

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Well, it wasn't the Virgin Mary,
I can tell you that.

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<i>From your description, it must've been</i>

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<i>Valeria Messalina,</i>

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<i>the wife of Emperor Claudius,</i>

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the most notorious nymphomaniac in history.

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<i>And the other woman,</i>

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<i>the one astride the creature,</i>

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<i>that was no one else
but the great whore of Babylon</i>

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<i>riding on Nimrod in the form of a bull.</i>

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Your story is like a...

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blasphemous retelling

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of the transfiguration of Jesus on the mount...

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<i>which is one of the Eastern Church's</i>

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<i>holiest passages.</i>

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It's when the humanity of Christ

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is illuminated by the divine light of eternity.

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If anyone else would have told me that story,

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I would've seen it as a blasphemous joke,

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spiced up with a biblical light

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emanating from nothing less
than a spontaneous orgasm.

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And then later,
you lost your orgasm altogether.

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<i>Wagner.</i> "Das Rheingold,

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<i>the descent into Nibelheim."</i>

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<i>Was it that bad?</i>

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<i>Try to imagine that in one fell swoop,</i>

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<i>you lost all desire to read</i>

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<i>and all your love and passion
for books and letters.</i>

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<i>I don't even know
if I can imagine that.</i>

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<i>This is nothing less than Zeno's paradox.</i>

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<i>You are Achilles</i>

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<i>and the tortoise is the orgasm.</i>

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Oh, come on.

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Because you were giving chase,

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you couldn't reach satisfaction.
That's the paradox.

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I'm sorry, but it seems as if
you're not taking this very seriously.

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<i>I'm telling you about the worst thing
that's happened to me,</i>

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<i>that I, at that point within seconds,</i>

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<i>lost all sexual sensation.</i>

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<i>My cunt simply went numb!</i>

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And immediately we have to hear

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about this ridiculous mathematical problem.

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<i>In fact, I'm in doubt whether</i>

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you're even listening.

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Why do you doubt that?

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Whenever I've told other men
about experiences,

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episodes in my sex life,

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it was easy to see
that they became quite excited.

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I got excited.

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Yes, about the mathematical crap,

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not about the story.

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What kind of a person are you actually?

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I...

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You wouldn't know.

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No, but I can guess.

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<i>Why didn't I get that earlier?</i>

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The fact you don't get excited
over my dirty stories

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is because you can't relate to them.

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<i>You've never been with a woman.</i>

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That's quite accurate.

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Not with a man either.

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Are you sorry about that?

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Well, yeah, but...

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out of curiosity.

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Not out of lust, as you would think.

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I consider myself... asexual.

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Of course I... experimented

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with masturbation when I was a teenager, but...

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it didn't do much for me.

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So there's nothing sexual about me.

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<i>It's not as uncommon
as you would think.</i>

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And of course I've...

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I've read a lot about sexual subjects:

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<i>"Canterbury Tales," "Decameron,"</i>

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<i>"Thousand and One Nights."</i>

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<i>You name it</i>

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and I've read it with great
interest and enjoyment...

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but only literary enjoyment.

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<i>But I... But I think
maybe it makes me</i>

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<i>a better listener to your story.</i>

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I have no preconceived notions or...

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or preferences.

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I'm actually the best judge
you could give your story to.

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And when it comes to deciding
whether you're

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a bad human being or not, I'm...

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<i>I have no problems with that.</i>

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<i>Because I don't look at you
through the glasses</i>

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<i>colored by sexuality</i>

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or sexual experience.

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I'm a virgin.

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I'm innocent.

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She's looking at me.

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Yes.

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<i>It's an icon.</i>

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<i>Is it Russian?</i>

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Yes, it's...

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it's a skilled copy,

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maybe in the manner of Rublev.

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<i>Icons are usually connected
to the Eastern Church.</i>

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<i>The Eastern Church?</i>

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I might become a bit theoretical.

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You may.

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I'd like you to tell me about your picture.

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Although the Christian Church

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was split up in 1054
because of differences in opinion

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between the Eastern Church
and the Western Church...

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What we today call the Orthodox Church

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and the Roman Catholic Church.

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This is a typical Eastern Church icon.

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And it usually depicts the Virgin Mary

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and the infant Jesus, and more rarely,

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for instance, the crucifixion,

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which in the Western Church
was much more prevalent.

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If you generalize, you could say that

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the Western Church
is the Church of suffering,

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and the Eastern Church
is the Church of happiness.

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If you imagine a mental journey
from Rome eastward,

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you feel how you move away

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from guilt and pain
towards joy and light.

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But you say you didn't believe in God.

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No, but the concept of religion is interesting...

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like the concept of sex.

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But you won't find me on my knees
with the regards to either.

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Let's call this chapter...

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"the Eastern Church and the Western Church."

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<i>But it won't be...
It won't be a story</i>

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about traveling east from Rome

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towards the light,
but rather the opposite.

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<i>So in order not to make it too sad,</i>

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<i>I've pepped up the name of the chapter
with an extra title.</i>

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<i>In spite of my tireless efforts,</i>

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<i>my cunt totally failed to respond.</i>

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<i>I have to admit there came a time</i>

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<i>when we had fun together.</i>

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I'll give you a fiver...

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if you can put this

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<i>up inside your cunt.</i>

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A fiver?

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Right.

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Shit.

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Thank you.

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You're welcome.

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- Didn't get any spoons?
- No, we didn't.

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The most grotesque thing was
that it was during that period

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where every sexual sensation was denied me...

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A period, I must admit,

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of secure and restful domestic comfort...

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We had moved in together and so on...

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That I became pregnant,

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because I was careless
about my birth control pills.

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<i>Consciously or unconsciously,</i>

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<i>it was important for me
to have a caesarean.</i>

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<i>I mean, I was hoping that my cunt
was going to fucking work again,</i>

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<i>and I had a feeling that</i>

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<i>a haphazard birth
wouldn't make things better.</i>

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<i>I may have been imagining things,</i>

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<i>but as I lay there
the noise from the instruments</i>

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<i>rang out in a chord like</i>

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<i>the one from the little flock.</i>

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<i>Yes.</i>

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<i>And it wasn't fear.</i>

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<i>More like a kind of disgust.</i>

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<i>I could've sworn I saw him laughing.</i>

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A laughing son?

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In "Doctor Faustus," Thomas Mann
describes the birth of Noah's son Ham,

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who was laughing when he was born.

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Another satanic omen.

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Incidentally, the innocent child
was named Marcel,

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after Mars, the Roman God of war.

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And motherhood?

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I assume maternal love

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didn't quite live up to its expectations.

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No, I didn't have any expectations.

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And maternal love wasn't a problem.

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It was just that each time

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I looked into the child's eyes,

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I had this unsettling feeling

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of having been found out.

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<i>I know it's probably a strange thing</i>

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<i>to say about a child...</i>

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<i>That my love wasn't being returned...</i>

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<i>But it was my perception.</i>

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<i>If Jerome had hoped for a break</i>

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<i>from what was for him
now mostly strenuous work,</i>

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<i>he could forget about it.</i>

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Fill all my holes.

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I can't, Joe.

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I'm sorry.

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I'm sorry.

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Can we talk about it?

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Of course.

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I love you, I love your wildness
and your desire.

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I love you, Joe.

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At the moment I don't seem to satisfy you
in the way that I'd like to.

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Don't get upset, Joe.
It doesn't mean we won't continue with our sex life,

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which is very important to me.

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<i>Very important to me.</i>

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When you buy a tiger,

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right?
You also have to feed it.

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Satisfy it,

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<i>right?</i>

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Long story short:

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I have a tiger on my hands.

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- You mean I'm too much for you.
- No.

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You're just the way you should be.

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I was just thinking if you would consider

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that I get a little help
with the feeding, that's all.

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You're saying I should have sex
with others as well.

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That's a rather cruel way
of putting it, Joe, but...

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- But exact.
- Exact.

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<i>For a long time I'd been playing around</i>

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<i>with the idea that the concept
of the fuck-me-now clothes</i>

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<i>could be improved...</i>

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You look nice.

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<i>and became the piano teacher.</i>

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You okay?

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No.

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What's the matter?

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Well, I'm such an idiot with cars.

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I don't really know what to do.
Do you mind helping me?

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<i>Well, of course it won't work.</i>

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Sparkplug caps have been removed.

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Yes, I did that.

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Was that wrong?

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<i>For the first time I had</i>

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<i>the pleasure of having an 8-cylinder car.</i>

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<i>The possible combinations
of eight spark-plug caps</i>

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<i>on eight spark plugs are 40,320,</i>

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<i>if I remembered my math correctly.</i>

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<i>And only one of these</i>

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<i>will make the car run,</i>

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<i>which gave me all the time I needed.</i>

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<i>Beethoven, huh?</i>

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He was certainly very good,
but, you know,

252
00:19:50,057 --> 00:19:52,457
- he couldn't write a fugue.
- You think so?

253
00:19:52,459 --> 00:19:54,726
Well...

254
00:19:54,728 --> 00:19:56,429
Yeah, I think so.

255
00:20:12,013 --> 00:20:14,848
It would be more precise
to say that Beethoven

256
00:20:14,850 --> 00:20:17,084
renewed the fugue...

257
00:20:18,720 --> 00:20:22,356
But he was such a visionary
that the old Bach purists,

258
00:20:22,358 --> 00:20:24,759
they accused him of not mastering it.

259
00:20:47,684 --> 00:20:49,151
Good day?

260
00:21:21,754 --> 00:21:23,589
<i>And now to reach the heart</i>

261
00:21:23,591 --> 00:21:25,557
<i>of your suffering Western Church,</i>

262
00:21:25,559 --> 00:21:28,126
<i>I have to jump ahead
three years in the story</i>

263
00:21:28,128 --> 00:21:30,597
<i>and talk about my meeting</i>

264
00:21:30,599 --> 00:21:32,499
<i>with what I would call</i>

265
00:21:32,501 --> 00:21:34,267
<i>"the dangerous men."</i>

266
00:21:39,640 --> 00:21:42,642
<i>I was alone with Marcel a lot
during this period,</i>

267
00:21:42,644 --> 00:21:45,613
<i>as Jerome was traveling
most of the time.</i>

268
00:21:45,615 --> 00:21:47,815
<i>And when he was finally home,</i>

269
00:21:47,817 --> 00:21:51,018
<i>he spent most of the time
accusing me of neglecting Marcel,</i>

270
00:21:51,020 --> 00:21:53,053
<i>which in my opinion</i>

271
00:21:53,055 --> 00:21:56,690
<i>was just a cover for his anger
over my lovers.</i>

272
00:21:56,692 --> 00:22:00,462
<i>Any sexual satisfaction,
let alone orgasm,</i>

273
00:22:00,464 --> 00:22:03,064
<i>was further away than ever before.</i>

274
00:22:12,776 --> 00:22:15,011
<i>I had to make a change.</i>

275
00:22:15,013 --> 00:22:18,014
<i>And somehow the inspiration
had been right there</i>

276
00:22:18,016 --> 00:22:21,217
<i>beneath my window the whole time.</i>

277
00:22:21,219 --> 00:22:24,153
<i>I could feel that it
turned me on enormously</i>

278
00:22:24,155 --> 00:22:27,157
<i>to imagine a sexual situation</i>

279
00:22:27,159 --> 00:22:31,094
<i>in which verbal communication
was impossible.</i>

280
00:22:34,499 --> 00:22:35,966
- Hello.
- Hello.

281
00:22:35,968 --> 00:22:37,768
I'm Tobias, the interpreter.

282
00:22:37,770 --> 00:22:40,572
Hello, I'm Joe. Come in.

283
00:22:40,574 --> 00:22:43,241
I understand that you master
the african languages.

284
00:22:43,243 --> 00:22:45,310
I do have a basis.

285
00:22:46,712 --> 00:22:48,613
Who and what needs interpretation?

286
00:22:49,915 --> 00:22:51,015
That man...

287
00:22:52,185 --> 00:22:54,053
<i>The one with the green jacket?</i>

288
00:22:54,055 --> 00:22:58,057
You are to ask him
if he wants to have sex with me.

289
00:22:59,159 --> 00:23:00,259
Yeah?

290
00:23:25,721 --> 00:23:27,588
Is it a go?

291
00:23:27,590 --> 00:23:29,790
It's hard to say.

292
00:23:29,792 --> 00:23:32,661
I've written down the time and the place,

293
00:23:32,663 --> 00:23:33,762
but...

294
00:23:35,798 --> 00:23:38,100
Honestly I wouldn't like
to take responsibility

295
00:23:38,102 --> 00:23:40,268
for the precise wording in this case,

296
00:23:40,270 --> 00:23:42,337
which I think, uh,

297
00:23:42,339 --> 00:23:44,706
accidentally may belong

298
00:23:44,708 --> 00:23:46,976
to a grey zone in my profession.

299
00:23:49,680 --> 00:23:52,348
<i>It was the address of a cheap hotel.</i>

300
00:24:00,959 --> 00:24:02,660
<i>Why were there two?</i>

301
00:24:02,662 --> 00:24:04,361
<i>My words exactly.</i>

302
00:24:04,363 --> 00:24:08,132
<i>Apparently N had brought his brother along.</i>

303
00:24:08,134 --> 00:24:10,067
Very sorry. Sorry sorry sorry.

304
00:26:16,304 --> 00:26:18,472
<i>Why was he so angry?</i>

305
00:26:18,474 --> 00:26:21,842
<i>Clearly it was something personal
between them,</i>

306
00:26:21,844 --> 00:26:24,511
<i>but later I heard
that performing a sandwich</i>

307
00:26:24,513 --> 00:26:27,048
<i>requires great sensitivity,</i>

308
00:26:27,050 --> 00:26:30,218
<i>since the men apparently can feel
each other through the tissue.</i>

309
00:26:30,220 --> 00:26:33,288
<i>I imagine the quarrel
had already started</i>

310
00:26:33,290 --> 00:26:36,891
<i>on the stairs and that one
or the other party</i>

311
00:26:36,893 --> 00:26:39,828
<i>had laid claim to one
or the other of my holes</i>

312
00:26:39,830 --> 00:26:42,565
<i>in conflict with his negro
brother's interests.</i>

313
00:26:43,800 --> 00:26:45,501
You shouldn't use that word.

314
00:26:45,503 --> 00:26:48,237
It's not what you call politically correct...

315
00:26:48,239 --> 00:26:51,473
- <i>"Negro."</i>
- Well, excuse me,

316
00:26:51,475 --> 00:26:53,542
but in my circles

317
00:26:53,544 --> 00:26:56,446
it's always been a mark of honor
to call a spade a spade.

318
00:26:57,782 --> 00:27:00,350
Each time a word becomes prohibited,

319
00:27:00,352 --> 00:27:03,386
you remove a stone
from the democratic foundation.

320
00:27:03,388 --> 00:27:06,256
<i>Society demonstrates its impotence</i>

321
00:27:06,258 --> 00:27:08,292
in the face of a concrete problem

322
00:27:08,294 --> 00:27:10,361
by removing words from the language.

323
00:27:10,363 --> 00:27:12,563
I think society would claim that...

324
00:27:12,565 --> 00:27:15,833
that politically correctness
is a very precise expression

325
00:27:15,835 --> 00:27:18,502
of democratic concern for minorities.

326
00:27:18,504 --> 00:27:21,173
And I say that society

327
00:27:21,175 --> 00:27:23,809
is as cowardly as the people in it,

328
00:27:23,811 --> 00:27:27,613
who in my opinion are also
too stupid for democracy.

329
00:27:29,515 --> 00:27:32,918
I understand your point,
but I totally disagree.

330
00:27:32,920 --> 00:27:35,154
I have no doubt in the human qualities.

331
00:27:36,156 --> 00:27:37,957
The human qualities

332
00:27:37,959 --> 00:27:40,059
can be expressed in one word:

333
00:27:40,061 --> 00:27:42,228
Hypocrisy.

334
00:27:42,230 --> 00:27:45,531
We elevate those who say "right"
but mean "wrong"

335
00:27:45,533 --> 00:27:49,203
and mock those who say "wrong"
but mean "right."

336
00:27:54,876 --> 00:27:56,977
<i>By the way, I can assure you</i>

337
00:27:56,979 --> 00:28:00,314
that women who claim
that negros don't turn them on,

338
00:28:00,316 --> 00:28:03,118
- they're lying.
- So did they satisfy you?

339
00:28:04,220 --> 00:28:06,187
Those ne-negros?

340
00:28:07,256 --> 00:28:09,257
No.

341
00:28:09,259 --> 00:28:11,293
But they showed me
that there was a world

342
00:28:11,295 --> 00:28:13,561
far from mine I had to explore.

343
00:28:15,065 --> 00:28:18,100
And there, or perhaps on the other side,

344
00:28:18,102 --> 00:28:20,636
get my life back.

345
00:29:00,046 --> 00:29:01,714
<i>Who are you?</i>

346
00:29:03,984 --> 00:29:05,684
I know what you do.

347
00:29:05,686 --> 00:29:07,953
I'd like to be

348
00:29:07,955 --> 00:29:09,689
one of the women you see.

349
00:29:13,694 --> 00:29:15,462
That's of no interest.

350
00:29:21,702 --> 00:29:23,170
Madame.

351
00:30:06,251 --> 00:30:08,085
Princess,

352
00:30:08,087 --> 00:30:10,054
I specifically said five days,

353
00:30:10,056 --> 00:30:12,156
and five days haven't gone yet.

354
00:30:13,224 --> 00:30:15,259
So...

355
00:30:15,261 --> 00:30:17,228
you'll have to leave.

356
00:30:17,230 --> 00:30:18,329
I'm sorry.

357
00:30:29,509 --> 00:30:30,610
I...

358
00:30:31,412 --> 00:30:34,313
I don't think this is for you.

359
00:30:43,424 --> 00:30:45,592
<i>How mysterious.</i>

360
00:30:47,295 --> 00:30:49,463
<i>Will you give me
a reasonable explanation now</i>

361
00:30:49,465 --> 00:30:52,165
<i>or shall we wait?</i>

362
00:30:53,501 --> 00:30:55,602
I can't give you an explanation,

363
00:30:55,604 --> 00:30:57,738
and certainly not a reasonable...

364
00:30:59,208 --> 00:31:01,676
What exactly were the rumors about him?

365
00:31:03,512 --> 00:31:05,046
That he was violent.

366
00:31:05,048 --> 00:31:07,181
How can that be inciting?

367
00:31:11,454 --> 00:31:14,056
I think the easiest way to understand it

368
00:31:14,058 --> 00:31:16,859
is to refer to my rebellious nature.

369
00:31:18,228 --> 00:31:20,562
This business of K's was

370
00:31:20,564 --> 00:31:23,366
something I was completely against.

371
00:31:23,368 --> 00:31:26,469
So the fact that
I was now contacting him was

372
00:31:26,471 --> 00:31:28,538
a last, desperate attempt

373
00:31:28,540 --> 00:31:30,607
to rehabilitate my sexuality.

374
00:31:32,643 --> 00:31:35,612
The system was the overriding factor with K.

375
00:31:37,082 --> 00:31:38,449
A system of violence?

376
00:31:39,784 --> 00:31:42,820
Well, you were the one

377
00:31:42,822 --> 00:31:46,390
who insisted on the Western Church, right?

378
00:31:46,392 --> 00:31:49,326
And I... I seem to remember

379
00:31:49,328 --> 00:31:52,430
that the systematic approach

380
00:31:52,432 --> 00:31:55,367
to the crucifixion is of a violent

381
00:31:55,369 --> 00:31:57,469
and not to say sadistic nature.

382
00:31:57,471 --> 00:31:59,337
Oh yes, the passion of Christ

383
00:31:59,339 --> 00:32:01,339
is full of systematic violence...

384
00:32:01,341 --> 00:32:02,741
The Via Dolorosa,

385
00:32:02,743 --> 00:32:04,510
the nine stations of the cross

386
00:32:04,512 --> 00:32:05,945
and the 39 lashes.

387
00:32:30,238 --> 00:32:31,973
You are beginning to irritate me.

388
00:32:42,751 --> 00:32:44,320
Stand up.

389
00:32:56,399 --> 00:32:58,535
<i>I just want you to sit</i>

390
00:32:58,537 --> 00:33:01,004
<i>completely relaxed...</i>

391
00:33:02,640 --> 00:33:04,808
<i>while I hit you in the face.</i>

392
00:33:04,810 --> 00:33:07,310
<i>Nothing special.</i>

393
00:33:07,312 --> 00:33:09,346
<i>It's just a...</i>

394
00:33:09,348 --> 00:33:11,582
<i>It's just a slap.</i>

395
00:33:16,388 --> 00:33:18,389
Are you ready?

396
00:33:39,580 --> 00:33:41,347
Let me tell you the rules then.

397
00:33:44,318 --> 00:33:46,719
The first rule is that I don't fuck you

398
00:33:46,721 --> 00:33:49,789
and that there isn't
any discussions about that.

399
00:33:51,492 --> 00:33:53,994
Then what do you get out of it?

400
00:33:53,996 --> 00:33:55,696
That's my business

401
00:33:55,698 --> 00:33:58,999
<i>and I don't want you
to mention it again.</i>

402
00:33:59,001 --> 00:34:01,735
The second rule is that
we have no safe word.

403
00:34:03,605 --> 00:34:06,508
<i>Meaning that if you, uh,
go inside with me,</i>

404
00:34:06,510 --> 00:34:08,943
<i>there is nothing that you can say</i>

405
00:34:08,945 --> 00:34:10,712
<i>that will make me stop</i>

406
00:34:10,714 --> 00:34:13,348
<i>any plan or procedure.</i>

407
00:34:14,750 --> 00:34:18,587
You must bring a brown used
leather riding crop.

408
00:34:20,657 --> 00:34:23,859
<i>And not one from a shop
selling sex toys.</i>

409
00:34:24,995 --> 00:34:26,962
<i>It's not a masquerade.</i>

410
00:34:28,965 --> 00:34:31,667
Third rule:

411
00:34:31,669 --> 00:34:34,037
If I choose to let you in,

412
00:34:34,039 --> 00:34:37,040
you have to be sitting out here.

413
00:34:37,042 --> 00:34:39,343
In other words, you...

414
00:34:39,345 --> 00:34:41,478
you won't know when.

415
00:34:41,480 --> 00:34:43,046
<i>Only that it will be</i>

416
00:34:43,048 --> 00:34:44,781
<i>sometime between...</i>

417
00:34:45,884 --> 00:34:47,618
2:00 and 6:00 at night.

418
00:34:47,620 --> 00:34:49,754
I can't stay here that late.

419
00:34:49,756 --> 00:34:52,590
My babysitter's not reliable and...

420
00:34:52,592 --> 00:34:54,125
I can't leave my child.

421
00:34:56,495 --> 00:34:58,563
You don't even know my name!

422
00:34:58,565 --> 00:35:00,566
I'm not interested in your name.

423
00:35:02,335 --> 00:35:04,136
Here your name is...

424
00:35:06,940 --> 00:35:08,440
Fido.

425
00:35:22,857 --> 00:35:24,591
<i>Marcel's awake.</i>

426
00:35:24,593 --> 00:35:26,761
<i>Do you want to say goodbye to your mom?</i>

427
00:35:27,463 --> 00:35:29,530
Goodbye.

428
00:35:40,777 --> 00:35:42,577
I'll take your coat.

429
00:36:02,966 --> 00:36:05,067
I'd like you to have your hair up.

430
00:36:06,738 --> 00:36:08,071
You can use this.

431
00:36:09,574 --> 00:36:11,442
Just in case it becomes necessary for me

432
00:36:11,444 --> 00:36:12,810
to hit you in the face.

433
00:36:14,078 --> 00:36:15,746
Should I take my clothes off?

434
00:36:17,482 --> 00:36:19,416
I'll tell you what to do...

435
00:36:19,418 --> 00:36:21,152
and when.

436
00:36:24,390 --> 00:36:25,790
<i>Now you may bend down.</i>

437
00:36:25,792 --> 00:36:27,459
How?

438
00:36:29,395 --> 00:36:31,062
Approach the chair.

439
00:36:32,932 --> 00:36:34,200
Now bend from the hips.

440
00:36:37,971 --> 00:36:39,772
Look forward. Look forward.

441
00:36:39,774 --> 00:36:42,007
With your head up. Head up.

442
00:36:42,009 --> 00:36:43,909
Keep looking forward.

443
00:36:50,519 --> 00:36:52,652
Keep looking forward.

444
00:36:57,458 --> 00:36:58,758
You may stand up.

445
00:37:00,863 --> 00:37:02,497
We have to use the couch.

446
00:37:05,501 --> 00:37:06,501
Come this way.

447
00:37:09,705 --> 00:37:11,639
Take it easy, take it easy.

448
00:37:13,743 --> 00:37:15,177
Bend over.

449
00:37:17,947 --> 00:37:19,915
Lay your arms out straight.

450
00:37:30,629 --> 00:37:31,995
Take it easy.

451
00:37:31,997 --> 00:37:33,297
Take it easy.

452
00:37:57,823 --> 00:37:59,691
Take it easy.

453
00:38:31,993 --> 00:38:33,694
Next time don't wear knickers.

454
00:38:59,756 --> 00:39:01,357
Your ass is not high enough.

455
00:39:02,827 --> 00:39:04,628
I don't think we can do this today.

456
00:39:04,630 --> 00:39:06,262
What?

457
00:39:12,937 --> 00:39:15,172
I'd like to see you again on Thursday.

458
00:39:22,147 --> 00:39:24,348
What's wrong?

459
00:39:24,350 --> 00:39:26,884
I think we should see
how it goes on Thursday.

460
00:39:39,733 --> 00:39:42,168
<i>Hi, I can't come to the phone right now.</i>

461
00:39:42,170 --> 00:39:44,037
<i>Please leave a message.</i>

462
00:39:44,039 --> 00:39:47,273
Yes, this is Marcel's mother again.

463
00:39:47,275 --> 00:39:49,876
Uh, it's now 1:30.

464
00:39:49,878 --> 00:39:52,278
We had an agreement.

465
00:39:52,280 --> 00:39:56,050
I hope you get this message
and come as quickly as you can.

466
00:39:58,086 --> 00:40:00,888
Uh, Marcel is sleeping.

467
00:40:02,825 --> 00:40:04,825
I have to go now.

468
00:41:00,719 --> 00:41:02,320
Better.

469
00:41:22,143 --> 00:41:23,977
Also so much better.

470
00:41:23,979 --> 00:41:26,045
So much better.

471
00:41:33,088 --> 00:41:35,422
I am now going to hit you 12 times...

472
00:41:35,424 --> 00:41:36,958
no matter how much you scream...

473
00:41:37,960 --> 00:41:40,194
<i>'cause no one can hear you down here.</i>

474
00:41:47,371 --> 00:41:49,137
That's, uh...

475
00:41:49,139 --> 00:41:51,573
That's not how it goes.

476
00:41:53,442 --> 00:41:55,977
Most people don't scream until I hit them.

477
00:42:57,511 --> 00:42:59,312
That's it.

478
00:43:03,351 --> 00:43:04,619
Thank you.

479
00:43:05,954 --> 00:43:07,154
You're very welcome.

480
00:43:13,128 --> 00:43:16,497
<i>I don't know where we get our sexuality from</i>

481
00:43:16,499 --> 00:43:19,902
or where tendencies of this kind come from.

482
00:43:21,604 --> 00:43:24,840
Probably a perversion created in our childhood

483
00:43:24,842 --> 00:43:27,342
that never manifested itself before.

484
00:43:27,344 --> 00:43:29,378
Well, oddly enough,

485
00:43:29,380 --> 00:43:31,948
Freud says the opposite.

486
00:43:31,950 --> 00:43:35,385
He talks about the polymorphic perversion
of a child.

487
00:43:35,387 --> 00:43:37,854
Meaning that in a child,

488
00:43:37,856 --> 00:43:40,290
all kinds of perversions exist.

489
00:43:41,458 --> 00:43:43,493
<i>And then we use the childhood</i>

490
00:43:43,495 --> 00:43:45,596
<i>to diminish or remove some of them.</i>

491
00:43:47,132 --> 00:43:50,200
Basically a child is sexually polymorphic

492
00:43:50,202 --> 00:43:53,237
and everything is sexuality in an infant.

493
00:43:55,140 --> 00:43:57,341
And yet it was deeply bizarre

494
00:43:57,343 --> 00:43:59,477
to lie there

495
00:43:59,479 --> 00:44:01,613
and especially to want to lie there.

496
00:44:01,615 --> 00:44:05,183
It is an interesting point
that you actually lubricated

497
00:44:05,185 --> 00:44:08,153
in expectation for a pain

498
00:44:08,155 --> 00:44:10,188
that you hadn't experienced.

499
00:44:11,625 --> 00:44:14,093
Your body prepared itself

500
00:44:14,095 --> 00:44:17,096
for an intercourse that
you knew wouldn't happen.

501
00:44:19,533 --> 00:44:22,368
<i>I can only describe the mood as sexual.</i>

502
00:44:23,937 --> 00:44:26,106
<i>As I twisted and turned</i>

503
00:44:26,108 --> 00:44:28,208
<i>while he was whipping me,</i>

504
00:44:28,210 --> 00:44:30,644
<i>I could feel how clever
his knots were.</i>

505
00:44:32,246 --> 00:44:35,015
If I fought them,
they would get tighter,

506
00:44:35,017 --> 00:44:37,351
and as I relaxed,

507
00:44:37,353 --> 00:44:39,120
it seemed they did too.

508
00:44:40,322 --> 00:44:42,557
I don't know what kind of knot

509
00:44:42,559 --> 00:44:45,293
K used...

510
00:44:46,261 --> 00:44:48,162
but I know of a knot

511
00:44:48,164 --> 00:44:51,466
that tightens when force is exerted

512
00:44:51,468 --> 00:44:54,236
<i>and vice versa.
It's called a Prusik knot.</i>

513
00:44:56,006 --> 00:44:59,375
It's after a man called Prusik.
He was a mountain climber.

514
00:44:59,377 --> 00:45:01,577
And he and a friend were out climbing

515
00:45:01,579 --> 00:45:04,079
and they had an accident

516
00:45:04,081 --> 00:45:06,016
and his friend died.

517
00:45:06,018 --> 00:45:09,152
And he ended up hanging
at the end of a rope

518
00:45:09,154 --> 00:45:12,422
<i>with no possibility of getting up.</i>

519
00:45:12,424 --> 00:45:15,959
<i>You know, you can't climb up
a mountain-climber rope.</i>

520
00:45:15,961 --> 00:45:18,094
<i>It's too thin.</i>

521
00:45:18,096 --> 00:45:19,997
But he was an intelligent man,

522
00:45:19,999 --> 00:45:23,567
and with his back to the wall
he was a genius.

523
00:45:25,203 --> 00:45:28,305
And he took the shoelaces out of his boots

524
00:45:28,307 --> 00:45:32,744
and made two loops
and affixed them to the rope.

525
00:45:32,746 --> 00:45:34,713
<i>And he could move these up</i>

526
00:45:34,715 --> 00:45:36,681
<i>when they weren't under tension.</i>

527
00:45:36,683 --> 00:45:39,117
<i>And then he could step into them</i>

528
00:45:39,119 --> 00:45:41,353
<i>and climb the rope and save himself.</i>

529
00:45:43,223 --> 00:45:45,057
<i>Prusik.</i>

530
00:45:48,362 --> 00:45:51,464
I think this was one
of your weakest digressions.

531
00:45:55,669 --> 00:45:57,503
May I continue?

532
00:45:57,505 --> 00:45:59,840
Well, be my guest.

533
00:46:45,256 --> 00:46:48,258
I sometimes give a Christmas present.

534
00:46:49,594 --> 00:46:52,762
<i>But, uh, you have to do
the work yourself.</i>

535
00:47:07,780 --> 00:47:09,615
This is called a blood knot.

536
00:47:09,617 --> 00:47:12,417
You have to make nine ropes

537
00:47:12,419 --> 00:47:14,486
with three blood knots on each.

538
00:47:14,488 --> 00:47:16,488
<i>Let me see you do it.</i>

539
00:47:16,490 --> 00:47:19,158
You decide whether to make four,

540
00:47:19,160 --> 00:47:21,327
five or six turns

541
00:47:21,329 --> 00:47:22,896
in the various knots.

542
00:50:19,586 --> 00:50:21,120
Joe?

543
00:50:22,856 --> 00:50:24,757
Hello.

544
00:50:34,969 --> 00:50:36,603
Marcel?

545
00:50:39,874 --> 00:50:41,575
Marcel!

546
00:51:15,513 --> 00:51:17,547
Are you fond of me still?

547
00:51:17,549 --> 00:51:20,683
- Yes.
- More fond of me than the others?

548
00:51:23,655 --> 00:51:25,055
- Yes?
- Yes.

549
00:51:27,058 --> 00:51:29,178
You're not thinking of leaving again tonight, are you?

550
00:51:30,095 --> 00:51:31,762
- <i>No.</i>
- No?

551
00:51:31,764 --> 00:51:34,098
- <i>No no. Not at all.</i>
- Are you sure?

552
00:51:35,801 --> 00:51:37,135
<i>Yeah.</i>

553
00:51:37,137 --> 00:51:38,937
Are you lying to me, Joe?

554
00:51:39,872 --> 00:51:41,706
- No.
- Be honest.

555
00:51:41,708 --> 00:51:43,775
It's all right.

556
00:51:43,777 --> 00:51:47,112
Just fucking say it.

557
00:51:47,114 --> 00:51:49,382
No, I... I just want to be here.

558
00:51:49,384 --> 00:51:50,683
Why?

559
00:51:54,888 --> 00:51:56,689
I don't know.

560
00:52:02,864 --> 00:52:04,698
If you leave tonight...

561
00:52:06,534 --> 00:52:09,503
you'll never see me or Marcel
ever again in your life.

562
00:52:13,441 --> 00:52:15,075
Do you understand?

563
00:53:31,158 --> 00:53:33,293
Is this goodbye?

564
00:53:37,130 --> 00:53:38,866
Is that what you're saying?

565
00:53:38,868 --> 00:53:40,968
Marcel, get up.

566
00:53:40,970 --> 00:53:43,103
- Stop it.
- <i>Is that what you want?</i>

567
00:53:44,272 --> 00:53:46,707
Here, so you could see him.

568
00:53:46,709 --> 00:53:48,242
<i>Look at him, Joe.</i>

569
00:53:54,650 --> 00:53:56,718
Let's face it, Joe,
you're not a mother.

570
00:53:59,054 --> 00:54:00,855
<i>Let's wake him up.</i>

571
00:54:00,857 --> 00:54:03,658
Marcel, baby boy,

572
00:54:03,660 --> 00:54:05,362
say, "Bye, Mom."

573
00:54:06,164 --> 00:54:08,764
- Please put him back.
- Is this what you want?

574
00:54:11,002 --> 00:54:13,636
- Ma.
- <i>You see?</i>

575
00:54:13,638 --> 00:54:16,172
You see, he wants you.

576
00:54:16,174 --> 00:54:18,742
Come.

577
00:54:20,745 --> 00:54:22,879
It's Christmas. It's fucking Christmas.

578
00:54:46,239 --> 00:54:47,973
What is this?

579
00:54:49,843 --> 00:54:52,378
Today it's madame who must wait.

580
00:55:01,122 --> 00:55:03,256
Madame, I'm very sorry,

581
00:55:03,258 --> 00:55:06,693
but I have to have a few words
with Fido first.

582
00:55:26,282 --> 00:55:28,750
I really ought to send you home.

583
00:55:50,808 --> 00:55:52,376
Happy Christmas, Fido.

584
00:56:54,878 --> 00:56:57,078
I want your cock.

585
00:56:57,080 --> 00:56:58,479
What did you say?

586
00:56:59,481 --> 00:57:01,717
I want your cock.

587
00:57:01,719 --> 00:57:03,385
No. No, you don't.

588
00:57:03,387 --> 00:57:05,087
No, you don't. No.

589
00:57:08,458 --> 00:57:10,359
What's the matter with you today?

590
00:57:32,284 --> 00:57:34,852
On account of the holidays

591
00:57:34,854 --> 00:57:37,221
and your behavior today,

592
00:57:37,223 --> 00:57:40,392
I'm going to give you
the original Roman Maximum

593
00:57:40,394 --> 00:57:43,128
of 40 lashes. Are you ready, Fido?

594
00:57:45,064 --> 00:57:47,032
I'm ready.

595
00:57:53,207 --> 00:57:54,507
One.

596
00:57:56,777 --> 00:57:57,910
<i>Two.</i>

597
00:58:00,079 --> 00:58:01,180
<i>Three.</i>

598
00:58:03,784 --> 00:58:05,151
<i>Four.</i>

599
00:58:06,186 --> 00:58:07,521
<i>Five.</i>

600
00:58:09,891 --> 00:58:11,225
<i>Six.</i>

601
00:58:24,440 --> 00:58:27,075
<i>I'd seen through K's knot technique,</i>

602
00:58:27,077 --> 00:58:30,945
<i>so I was able to loosen my position a bit
to move my pelvis,</i>

603
00:58:30,947 --> 00:58:34,650
<i>and thereby stimulate my clitoris
against the cover of the book.</i>

604
00:59:12,891 --> 00:59:14,993
And when you came home,

605
00:59:14,995 --> 00:59:17,396
Jerome and the child were gone?

606
00:59:24,537 --> 00:59:27,105
I haven't seen Marcel since.

607
00:59:31,346 --> 00:59:33,413
The sentimentality of...

608
00:59:33,415 --> 00:59:35,214
I hate it.

609
00:59:39,053 --> 00:59:40,286
Why?

610
00:59:40,288 --> 00:59:42,623
Because it's a lie.

611
00:59:46,528 --> 00:59:48,395
Are you sure?

612
00:59:55,438 --> 00:59:58,006
<i>Jerome understood that he couldn't prioritize</i>

613
00:59:58,008 --> 01:00:01,242
his life according to a child either.

614
01:00:02,678 --> 01:00:04,980
So he put him in a foster home.

615
01:00:08,685 --> 01:00:11,487
My only contact to the boy
is the thousand pounds

616
01:00:11,489 --> 01:00:13,456
I put in his account every month.

617
01:00:14,391 --> 01:00:16,425
<i>Anonymously.</i>

618
01:00:18,562 --> 01:00:20,596
<i>As a penance.</i>

619
01:00:38,417 --> 01:00:40,752
After all this sadness, may I ask...

620
01:00:43,622 --> 01:00:45,623
what happened to the silent duck?

621
01:00:45,625 --> 01:00:47,992
Oh, shit.

622
01:00:47,994 --> 01:00:52,231
The silent duck.
I'd forgotten all about it.

623
01:00:54,401 --> 01:00:56,969
<i>One night K had been
in what was for him</i>

624
01:00:56,971 --> 01:00:58,737
<i>an unusually good mood.</i>

625
01:00:58,739 --> 01:01:01,407
<i>I don't know what caused it,
but he didn't hit hard</i>

626
01:01:01,409 --> 01:01:04,077
<i>and he joked that he would introduce me</i>

627
01:01:04,079 --> 01:01:07,247
<i>to the concept of the silent duck.</i>

628
01:01:25,767 --> 01:01:28,069
<i>One hardly dare imagine</i>

629
01:01:28,071 --> 01:01:30,205
<i>"the quacking duck."</i>

630
01:01:43,087 --> 01:01:47,490
Well, deep down, little K seems to have been

631
01:01:47,492 --> 01:01:51,127
a jolly man with versatile talents.

632
01:01:51,129 --> 01:01:54,563
<i>But he got that bit about
Roman punishment</i>

633
01:01:54,565 --> 01:01:56,333
and the 40 lashes wrong.

634
01:01:56,335 --> 01:02:00,204
Because it's true that the highest punishment
was 40 lashes,

635
01:02:00,206 --> 01:02:02,773
but it had to be delivered in series of three.

636
01:02:04,476 --> 01:02:06,577
<i>That's why Jesus only got 39 lashes,</i>

637
01:02:06,579 --> 01:02:08,545
because three goes into 39

638
01:02:08,547 --> 01:02:11,516
but not into 40.

639
01:02:16,622 --> 01:02:17,856
You have a mirror.

640
01:02:18,791 --> 01:02:20,458
Yes.

641
01:02:20,460 --> 01:02:22,695
<i>It's like a thought, isn't it?</i>

642
01:02:27,400 --> 01:02:29,735
Are you ready for another chapter?

643
01:02:29,737 --> 01:02:31,470
Go on.

644
01:02:57,199 --> 01:02:59,467
<i>Some years later, the bodily abuse</i>

645
01:02:59,469 --> 01:03:01,502
<i>began to have an effect.</i>

646
01:03:01,504 --> 01:03:05,140
<i>First, rare bleedings from my clitoris,</i>

647
01:03:05,142 --> 01:03:07,943
<i>but then they became
more and more frequent.</i>

648
01:03:17,721 --> 01:03:19,289
<i>Come in.</i>

649
01:03:20,824 --> 01:03:23,660
Have you heard any of the rumors
about yourself?

650
01:03:27,731 --> 01:03:30,401
They say you see men every evening.

651
01:03:34,272 --> 01:03:36,140
And spend all night with them.

652
01:03:36,142 --> 01:03:38,876
They say you can't be trusted...
all of them.

653
01:03:42,214 --> 01:03:44,282
Why do they say that?

654
01:03:46,619 --> 01:03:48,820
I suppose they're afraid that I...

655
01:03:48,822 --> 01:03:51,690
I can't keep away from their men.

656
01:03:54,827 --> 01:03:56,795
Right.

657
01:03:56,797 --> 01:03:59,532
- And can you?
- No.

658
01:04:03,437 --> 01:04:05,571
I've spoken with a psychologist.

659
01:04:07,507 --> 01:04:09,742
He says you're addicted,
but that it's not

660
01:04:09,744 --> 01:04:12,346
the kind of addiction that can't be treated.

661
01:04:12,348 --> 01:04:14,314
They have some groups.

662
01:04:15,483 --> 01:04:18,185
I know about these kinds of groups.

663
01:04:18,187 --> 01:04:21,521
I don't have anything to say to a psychologist.

664
01:04:21,523 --> 01:04:23,992
I'm not suggesting therapy.
I'm demanding it.

665
01:04:25,961 --> 01:04:28,429
Even if you leave us,
it'll be the same at your next job

666
01:04:28,431 --> 01:04:30,298
and the one after that.

667
01:04:38,575 --> 01:04:39,842
My name is Joe...

668
01:04:39,844 --> 01:04:41,477
Hi, Joe.

669
01:04:41,479 --> 01:04:43,279
and I'm a nymphomaniac.

670
01:04:43,281 --> 01:04:45,314
<i>Sex addict.</i>

671
01:04:45,316 --> 01:04:47,783
My name is Joe and I'm a nymphomaniac.

672
01:04:47,785 --> 01:04:49,685
We say sex addict.

673
01:04:49,687 --> 01:04:51,388
Here everyone's the same.

674
01:04:54,358 --> 01:04:56,826
You should only speak
when you feel you have to.

675
01:04:59,397 --> 01:05:01,231
What you're saying is that

676
01:05:01,233 --> 01:05:03,700
no one can remove their sexuality

677
01:05:03,702 --> 01:05:06,370
even though it's destroying everything for them.

678
01:05:06,372 --> 01:05:08,539
<i>I wouldn't say no one.</i>

679
01:05:08,541 --> 01:05:10,908
But let's say, at most,
one in a million

680
01:05:10,910 --> 01:05:13,577
manage to live a life without sexuality.

681
01:05:14,713 --> 01:05:16,647
But you can't be basing your therapy

682
01:05:16,649 --> 01:05:18,617
- on that one in a million.
- <i>No.</i>

683
01:05:18,619 --> 01:05:21,720
<i>The first and most important step</i>

684
01:05:21,722 --> 01:05:24,990
is to remove incentive and to reduce exposure.

685
01:05:27,427 --> 01:05:30,429
You have to ask yourself
what kind of incentives you have

686
01:05:30,431 --> 01:05:34,300
and then make it difficult for yourself
to come into contact with them.

687
01:05:34,302 --> 01:05:36,869
<i>Basically anything that makes you
think about sex.</i>

688
01:07:50,781 --> 01:07:52,815
Joe has something she'd like to share.

689
01:07:54,785 --> 01:07:56,519
My name is Joe...

690
01:07:56,521 --> 01:07:57,620
<i>Hi, Joe.</i>

691
01:07:57,622 --> 01:07:59,923
and I'm a sex addict,

692
01:07:59,925 --> 01:08:03,427
but I haven't had sex
for three weeks and five days.

693
01:08:06,665 --> 01:08:08,432
<i>Tell us how you did it, Joe.</i>

694
01:08:08,434 --> 01:08:10,934
- You brought notes?
- Yes.

695
01:08:16,575 --> 01:08:18,476
"Dear everyone,

696
01:08:18,478 --> 01:08:20,812
don't think it's been easy,

697
01:08:20,814 --> 01:08:24,983
but I understand now
that we are all alike."

698
01:08:40,868 --> 01:08:42,102
<i>Are you okay, Joe?</i>

699
01:08:42,104 --> 01:08:44,137
Yes yes.

700
01:08:46,173 --> 01:08:48,008
<i>Would you like a glass of water?</i>

701
01:08:50,244 --> 01:08:51,545
Thank you.

702
01:08:57,853 --> 01:08:59,820
Would you rather share another time?

703
01:09:05,961 --> 01:09:07,763
No, I'd like to speak.

704
01:09:13,503 --> 01:09:15,604
Dear everyone,

705
01:09:15,606 --> 01:09:18,574
don't think it's been easy,

706
01:09:18,576 --> 01:09:20,944
but I understand now

707
01:09:20,946 --> 01:09:22,879
that we're not

708
01:09:22,881 --> 01:09:25,348
and never will be alike.

709
01:09:27,985 --> 01:09:29,819
I'm not like you,

710
01:09:29,821 --> 01:09:32,155
who fucks to be validated

711
01:09:32,157 --> 01:09:35,059
and might just as well
give up putting cocks inside you.

712
01:09:35,061 --> 01:09:37,127
And I'm not like you.

713
01:09:37,129 --> 01:09:39,663
All you want is to be filled up,

714
01:09:39,665 --> 01:09:42,166
and whether it's by a man or by tons

715
01:09:42,168 --> 01:09:46,003
of disgusting slop makes no difference.

716
01:09:47,206 --> 01:09:49,941
And I'm definitely not like you.

717
01:09:49,943 --> 01:09:52,310
<i>That empathy you claim</i>

718
01:09:52,312 --> 01:09:54,179
<i>is a lie,</i>

719
01:09:54,181 --> 01:09:58,016
because all you are
is society's morality police,

720
01:09:58,018 --> 01:10:01,787
whose duty is to erase my obscenity

721
01:10:01,789 --> 01:10:03,322
from the surface of the earth

722
01:10:03,324 --> 01:10:05,958
so that the bourgeoisie won't feel sick.

723
01:10:07,160 --> 01:10:09,195
I'm not like you.

724
01:10:09,197 --> 01:10:12,598
I am a nymphomaniac,

725
01:10:12,600 --> 01:10:15,168
and I love myself for being one.

726
01:10:15,170 --> 01:10:17,270
<i>But above all,</i>

727
01:10:17,272 --> 01:10:19,239
I love my cunt

728
01:10:19,241 --> 01:10:22,309
and my filthy, dirty lust.

729
01:10:27,783 --> 01:10:29,884
<i>Watch out</i>

730
01:10:29,886 --> 01:10:32,120
<i>You might get what you're after</i>

731
01:10:32,122 --> 01:10:33,988
<i>Cool, babies</i>

732
01:10:33,990 --> 01:10:36,858
<i>Strange, but not a stranger</i>

733
01:10:36,860 --> 01:10:41,330
<i>I'm an ordinary guy</i>

734
01:10:41,332 --> 01:10:43,432
<i>Burning down the house!</i>

735
01:10:46,002 --> 01:10:48,604
What just happened?

736
01:10:48,606 --> 01:10:50,239
I didn't get that...

737
01:10:50,241 --> 01:10:52,141
with the car that burned.

738
01:10:52,143 --> 01:10:54,611
No, I'm sorry.

739
01:10:54,613 --> 01:10:58,014
I was just in too much of a hurry
to get to the last chapter.

740
01:11:05,156 --> 01:11:08,726
I understood that society
had no room for me,

741
01:11:08,728 --> 01:11:11,662
and I had no room for society

742
01:11:11,664 --> 01:11:13,431
and never had.

743
01:11:21,874 --> 01:11:24,042
<i>I'm sure it was quite natural for you</i>

744
01:11:24,044 --> 01:11:26,344
<i>to furnish your room
as a monk's cell,</i>

745
01:11:26,346 --> 01:11:30,716
<i>but as an inspiration
for the story chapter headings,</i>

746
01:11:30,718 --> 01:11:32,951
<i>it hasn't been easy.</i>

747
01:11:32,953 --> 01:11:36,956
There's simply nothing left
for me to use.

748
01:11:38,092 --> 01:11:40,760
Well, I'm sorry about that.

749
01:11:40,762 --> 01:11:43,796
But if I may, I can give you a tip.

750
01:11:44,898 --> 01:11:46,766
Yes, please.

751
01:11:46,768 --> 01:11:50,404
You know, I occupy myself mostly with text,

752
01:11:50,406 --> 01:11:53,040
but sometimes the text can seem so...

753
01:11:54,175 --> 01:11:58,045
so empty, so unfathomably empty.

754
01:11:58,047 --> 01:12:02,150
It could be the best text
by the most famous author.

755
01:12:02,152 --> 01:12:05,386
The solution might be to change
your point of view.

756
01:12:07,289 --> 01:12:08,990
I-I don't get that.

757
01:12:08,992 --> 01:12:11,226
Things hide...

758
01:12:12,228 --> 01:12:14,195
when they become familiar.

759
01:12:14,197 --> 01:12:17,133
But if you look at them from another angle,

760
01:12:18,902 --> 01:12:21,203
<i>they might take on a new meaning.</i>

761
01:12:32,917 --> 01:12:34,451
You're right.

762
01:12:34,453 --> 01:12:36,920
Before this was just

763
01:12:36,922 --> 01:12:39,222
the stain from the tea I threw.

764
01:12:41,259 --> 01:12:43,494
<i>Can you see what it could be?</i>

765
01:12:45,764 --> 01:12:47,131
<i>A revolver.</i>

766
01:12:47,133 --> 01:12:50,401
No, a revolver has a drum that revolves.

767
01:12:50,403 --> 01:12:53,104
It's a pistol.

768
01:12:53,106 --> 01:12:55,173
<i>Can you see what kind it could be?</i>

769
01:12:55,175 --> 01:12:57,009
<i>No, I don't remember</i>

770
01:12:57,011 --> 01:12:58,977
anything like that from my literature.

771
01:12:58,979 --> 01:13:01,513
Oh, but it's something I can remember from mine.

772
01:13:01,515 --> 01:13:02,581
Ian Fleming.

773
01:13:03,750 --> 01:13:05,517
Not familiar.

774
01:13:05,519 --> 01:13:09,021
If you haven't read that,
you haven't read anything at all.

775
01:13:10,891 --> 01:13:13,893
This could be, with a little imagination,

776
01:13:13,895 --> 01:13:17,130
a Walther P.P.K. automatic,

777
01:13:17,132 --> 01:13:19,866
the same gun that was issued to Bond

778
01:13:19,868 --> 01:13:23,337
<i>after his preferred pistol,
the Beretta, had jammed.</i>

779
01:13:25,173 --> 01:13:27,074
Is that something you can use?

780
01:13:28,877 --> 01:13:31,045
Oh yes, it is.

781
01:13:31,047 --> 01:13:32,479
<i>Burning down the house!</i>

782
01:13:34,182 --> 01:13:36,218
<i>Hold tight</i>

783
01:13:36,220 --> 01:13:38,553
<i>Wait till the party's over</i>

784
01:13:38,555 --> 01:13:40,155
<i>Hold tight...</i>

785
01:13:40,157 --> 01:13:41,990
<i>Whether I left society,</i>

786
01:13:41,992 --> 01:13:44,392
<i>or it left me, I cannot say.</i>

787
01:13:44,394 --> 01:13:47,562
<i>I suppose you could make
an argument for both sides.</i>

788
01:13:47,564 --> 01:13:49,497
<i>Burning down the house!</i>

789
01:13:49,499 --> 01:13:51,567
<i>I was on my way to the shady side</i>

790
01:13:51,569 --> 01:13:53,469
<i>of the debt-collecting business,</i>

791
01:13:53,471 --> 01:13:56,305
<i>which among other things
involved stuff</i>

792
01:13:56,307 --> 01:13:58,407
<i>like burning people's cars.</i>

793
01:14:00,410 --> 01:14:04,014
<i>I had for a long time
known about this man, L.</i>

794
01:14:09,487 --> 01:14:11,255
Hi, my name is Joe.

795
01:14:12,190 --> 01:14:14,124
I know that.

796
01:14:14,126 --> 01:14:16,193
Come in.

797
01:14:20,165 --> 01:14:22,333
I'm looking for a job.

798
01:14:24,103 --> 01:14:25,970
I've been working in an office,

799
01:14:25,972 --> 01:14:27,906
and I was never really good at it.

800
01:14:27,908 --> 01:14:30,209
I can understand that. I mean,

801
01:14:30,211 --> 01:14:32,244
what's the point?

802
01:14:32,246 --> 01:14:34,914
I believe I possess some qualifications

803
01:14:34,916 --> 01:14:37,583
and that I'm rather unscrupulous.

804
01:14:37,585 --> 01:14:39,451
<i>I know all about your qualifications</i>

805
01:14:39,453 --> 01:14:41,186
and they're excellent.

806
01:14:41,188 --> 01:14:43,255
<i>I would suggest</i>

807
01:14:43,257 --> 01:14:46,393
that you start your own little business

808
01:14:46,395 --> 01:14:48,194
with my help.

809
01:14:48,196 --> 01:14:49,963
<i>I understand</i>

810
01:14:49,965 --> 01:14:52,866
<i>you possess a great deal of insight</i>

811
01:14:52,868 --> 01:14:55,335
<i>about a rather broad spectrum of men.</i>

812
01:14:57,039 --> 01:15:00,174
This could be...
or should be capitalized on.

813
01:15:01,376 --> 01:15:03,277
<i>I need sub-contractors who can put</i>

814
01:15:03,279 --> 01:15:05,446
<i>moderate pressure on individuals</i>

815
01:15:05,448 --> 01:15:09,482
<i>with whom my clients, rightly or wrongly,
have a bone to pick.<i>

816
01:15:09,584 --> 01:15:10,652
Understand?

817
01:15:10,654 --> 01:15:12,487
Extortion.

818
01:15:12,489 --> 01:15:13,722
No. No no no no.

819
01:15:15,291 --> 01:15:17,926
<i>I always prefer the term</i>

820
01:15:17,928 --> 01:15:19,494
"debt collection."

821
01:15:21,064 --> 01:15:22,631
- Yeah.
- I refrain from judging

822
01:15:22,633 --> 01:15:24,600
whether my clients' wishes

823
01:15:24,602 --> 01:15:27,036
are legitimate or otherwise.

824
01:15:27,038 --> 01:15:28,938
A point of view

825
01:15:28,940 --> 01:15:31,741
I strongly recommend you follow.

826
01:15:33,610 --> 01:15:35,411
<i>My main qualification of course</i>

827
01:15:35,413 --> 01:15:38,182
<i>was my considerable experience
with men and sex.</i>

828
01:15:38,184 --> 01:15:41,752
<i>But even my more specialized skills
came in handy.</i>

829
01:16:04,946 --> 01:16:07,980
No, now this is not how it goes.

830
01:16:07,982 --> 01:16:10,316
You have to wait until you're hit.

831
01:16:13,554 --> 01:16:16,689
<i>The two helpers that L had recommended
were okay,</i>

832
01:16:16,691 --> 01:16:20,394
<i>but they were predisposed to a
rather repetitive technique,</i>

833
01:16:20,396 --> 01:16:24,564
<i>which consisted of creating
as much havoc as possible</i>

834
01:16:24,566 --> 01:16:26,700
<i>with a pair of iron bars.</i>

835
01:16:42,284 --> 01:16:45,654
Destroying your things doesn't seem
to have much effect on you.

836
01:16:45,656 --> 01:16:48,090
<i>Here was a man</i>

837
01:16:48,092 --> 01:16:50,192
<i>I was unable to read sexually,</i>

838
01:16:50,194 --> 01:16:52,194
<i>so I became persistent.</i>

839
01:16:53,129 --> 01:16:54,830
Tie him to the chair.

840
01:16:56,466 --> 01:16:58,535
Don't hurt him.

841
01:17:02,039 --> 01:17:04,040
I can't find a stain on you,

842
01:17:04,042 --> 01:17:08,178
but my experience tells me
that no man is spotless.

843
01:17:08,180 --> 01:17:10,213
<i>Luckily, you're equipped</i>

844
01:17:10,215 --> 01:17:12,783
with a very reliable truth-detector.

845
01:17:23,196 --> 01:17:26,231
I'm going to tell you a few stories.

846
01:17:26,233 --> 01:17:28,667
All you have to do is listen.

847
01:17:30,470 --> 01:17:34,506
You're in a bar watching a couple...

848
01:17:34,508 --> 01:17:36,808
<i>I now meticulously went
through the catalog</i>

849
01:17:36,810 --> 01:17:39,745
<i>of sexual deviations in fictional form.</i>

850
01:17:39,747 --> 01:17:43,349
<i>Stories about sadomasochism,</i>

851
01:17:43,351 --> 01:17:46,219
<i>fetishism, homosexuality,</i>

852
01:17:46,221 --> 01:17:48,087
<i>you name it.</i>

853
01:17:48,089 --> 01:17:49,689
<i>But he didn't react.</i>

854
01:17:49,691 --> 01:17:52,493
<i>And I'd almost given up
when I said:</i>

855
01:17:52,495 --> 01:17:56,230
On your way home,
you walk through the park.

856
01:18:01,636 --> 01:18:03,437
<i>And something makes you stop.</i>

857
01:18:04,739 --> 01:18:06,674
You hear something.

858
01:18:20,657 --> 01:18:22,391
Yes, that's it.

859
01:18:22,393 --> 01:18:25,227
You can hear the children in the playground.

860
01:18:27,264 --> 01:18:29,098
<i>You sit on a bench nearby</i>

861
01:18:29,100 --> 01:18:31,333
<i>and watch them play.</i>

862
01:18:32,502 --> 01:18:34,604
There's a little boy in shorts.

863
01:18:36,340 --> 01:18:38,542
He's playing in the sandpit.

864
01:18:40,611 --> 01:18:42,479
He looks at you

865
01:18:42,481 --> 01:18:45,315
with his blue eyes.

866
01:18:47,152 --> 01:18:48,886
<i>He smiles at you.</i>

867
01:18:48,888 --> 01:18:51,422
<i>I think he comes to you.</i>

868
01:18:51,424 --> 01:18:54,458
<i>He sits on your lap</i>

869
01:18:54,460 --> 01:18:56,227
and looks up at your face.

870
01:18:57,329 --> 01:18:58,829
<i>He says</i>

871
01:18:58,831 --> 01:19:01,533
he'd like to come home with you.

872
01:19:05,171 --> 01:19:08,473
At home you can't fight the idea

873
01:19:08,475 --> 01:19:10,642
<i>of being naked together.</i>

874
01:19:10,644 --> 01:19:13,346
He crawls all over you.

875
01:19:13,348 --> 01:19:17,517
- <i>You get an erection.</i>
- Won't you please stop?

876
01:19:17,519 --> 01:19:21,187
He lies on his stomach.

877
01:19:21,189 --> 01:19:23,323
<i>You pull down his pants.</i>

878
01:19:24,325 --> 01:19:25,725
<i>I'll pay!</i>

879
01:19:58,562 --> 01:20:00,029
You did what?

880
01:20:00,964 --> 01:20:02,632
<i>I gave him a blowjob.</i>

881
01:20:02,634 --> 01:20:04,667
Why? That pig?!

882
01:20:04,669 --> 01:20:07,471
- I took pity on him.
- <i>Pity?</i>

883
01:20:07,473 --> 01:20:10,807
Yes. I had just destroyed his life.

884
01:20:10,809 --> 01:20:13,710
Nobody knew his secret,

885
01:20:13,712 --> 01:20:15,946
most probably not even himself.

886
01:20:17,415 --> 01:20:19,016
<i>He sat there with the shame.</i>

887
01:20:20,619 --> 01:20:23,521
<i>I suppose I sucked him off
as a kind of apology.</i>

888
01:20:23,523 --> 01:20:24,789
That's unbelievable.

889
01:20:25,924 --> 01:20:27,792
No, listen to me. This is a man

890
01:20:27,794 --> 01:20:31,262
who'd succeeded in repressing
his own desire,

891
01:20:31,264 --> 01:20:33,631
<i>who had never before given into it</i>

892
01:20:33,633 --> 01:20:36,468
<i>right up until I forced it out.</i>

893
01:20:36,470 --> 01:20:38,871
He had lived a life full of denial

894
01:20:38,873 --> 01:20:41,273
and had never hurt a soul.

895
01:20:41,275 --> 01:20:43,008
I think that's laudable.

896
01:20:44,544 --> 01:20:45,978
No matter how hard I try,

897
01:20:45,980 --> 01:20:48,515
I can't find anything laudable in pedophilia.

898
01:20:48,517 --> 01:20:50,250
That's because you think about

899
01:20:50,252 --> 01:20:53,653
the perhaps 5% who actually hurt children.

900
01:20:53,655 --> 01:20:56,256
The remaining 95%

901
01:20:56,258 --> 01:20:59,259
never live out their fantasies.

902
01:20:59,261 --> 01:21:01,862
<i>Think about their suffering.</i>

903
01:21:01,864 --> 01:21:04,665
<i>Sexuality is the strongest force</i>

904
01:21:04,667 --> 01:21:06,534
<i>in human beings.</i>

905
01:21:06,536 --> 01:21:09,370
<i>To be born with a forbidden sexuality</i>

906
01:21:09,372 --> 01:21:10,605
<i>must be agonizing.</i>

907
01:21:12,541 --> 01:21:15,043
The pedophile who manages
to get through life

908
01:21:15,045 --> 01:21:17,713
with the shame of his desire

909
01:21:17,715 --> 01:21:21,650
while never acting on it
deserves a bloody medal.

910
01:21:26,723 --> 01:21:29,459
<i>But there was another reason
for my sympathy,</i>

911
01:21:29,461 --> 01:21:31,761
<i>which you find so mysterious.</i>

912
01:21:34,465 --> 01:21:37,567
<i>I saw a man who was carrying
the same cross as myself.</i>

913
01:21:40,704 --> 01:21:42,773
Loneliness.

914
01:21:45,810 --> 01:21:48,579
We were both sexual outcasts.

915
01:21:57,523 --> 01:22:00,024
<i>In any case, some years passed,</i>

916
01:22:00,026 --> 01:22:01,860
<i>during which my business grew,</i>

917
01:22:01,862 --> 01:22:05,397
<i>enabling me to step up
my anonymous deposits</i>

918
01:22:05,399 --> 01:22:06,965
<i>to Marcel.</i>

919
01:22:08,335 --> 01:22:11,070
Your business is doing great...

920
01:22:12,806 --> 01:22:15,908
You complete all the jobs I give you to perfection

921
01:22:15,910 --> 01:22:18,811
<i>and I hear only words of praise
from your other clients.</i>

922
01:22:18,813 --> 01:22:20,780
<i>But...</i>

923
01:22:20,782 --> 01:22:23,617
- But what?
- We aren't getting any younger.

924
01:22:24,619 --> 01:22:26,453
No, that's for sure.

925
01:22:26,455 --> 01:22:28,989
I think you're getting to that age

926
01:22:28,991 --> 01:22:31,858
where you have to start thinking
about a successor.

927
01:22:33,896 --> 01:22:36,197
- I don't need a fucking successor.
- <i>Listen.</i>

928
01:22:37,599 --> 01:22:40,802
A person should take their crime seriously.

929
01:22:40,804 --> 01:22:43,404
You need someone

930
01:22:43,406 --> 01:22:45,773
to be your right hand,
someone to help you.

931
01:22:45,775 --> 01:22:48,075
<i>A crown princess.</i>

932
01:22:50,046 --> 01:22:52,581
The normal process

933
01:22:52,583 --> 01:22:55,950
<i>is to find out what colleagues
are in prison</i>

934
01:22:55,952 --> 01:22:57,152
or are drug addicts,

935
01:22:57,154 --> 01:22:59,388
and thereby unable to fulfill

936
01:22:59,390 --> 01:23:00,956
their roles as parents.

937
01:23:02,660 --> 01:23:05,929
<i>Then you find out
where their kids play football...</i>

938
01:23:07,131 --> 01:23:09,032
<i>and you get involved.</i>

939
01:23:09,034 --> 01:23:11,067
<i>You cheer them on
for a couple of years</i>

940
01:23:11,069 --> 01:23:13,970
<i>no matter how bad they are.
Actually, the worse, the better.</i>

941
01:23:13,972 --> 01:23:16,040
<i>That way</i>

942
01:23:16,042 --> 01:23:18,943
gradually you take on the role of the parent

943
01:23:18,945 --> 01:23:21,078
<i>until in the end</i>

944
01:23:21,080 --> 01:23:24,782
<i>you have a loyal helper
that will walk through fire for you.</i>

945
01:23:26,184 --> 01:23:27,952
<i>Even do time for you.</i>

946
01:23:32,158 --> 01:23:33,758
It sounds like a...

947
01:23:33,760 --> 01:23:36,528
kind of an entrapment you're suggesting.

948
01:23:36,530 --> 01:23:39,698
- An unsavory entrapment.
- Call it what you want,

949
01:23:39,700 --> 01:23:42,100
but if you believe at all

950
01:23:42,102 --> 01:23:44,203
in the effects of good parenting,

951
01:23:44,205 --> 01:23:46,739
that kid will have much greater opportunities

952
01:23:46,741 --> 01:23:48,975
with you as a mentor than without.

953
01:23:50,477 --> 01:23:52,545
<i>And since I like you,</i>

954
01:23:52,547 --> 01:23:55,781
<i>I've been looking around
for a suitable subject.</i>

955
01:23:55,783 --> 01:23:58,752
<i>She's 15 years old</i>

956
01:23:58,754 --> 01:24:01,855
from a family of hardened criminals,

957
01:24:01,857 --> 01:24:04,157
and she's been through a lot.

958
01:24:04,159 --> 01:24:07,060
<i>Last couple of years
she's been institutionalized.</i>

959
01:24:07,062 --> 01:24:10,532
Her father is in prison
and her mother died of an overdose.

960
01:24:10,534 --> 01:24:12,100
She's a smart girl.

961
01:24:12,102 --> 01:24:15,535
<i>And although she doesn't play football,
she does play basketball...</i>

962
01:24:15,537 --> 01:24:16,804
Very badly.

963
01:24:18,040 --> 01:24:20,775
She's chosen a team sport

964
01:24:20,777 --> 01:24:22,777
because she's lonely.

965
01:24:23,980 --> 01:24:26,482
<i>I saved the best part for last:</i>

966
01:24:26,484 --> 01:24:29,785
<i>Her right ear is slightly deformed...</i>

967
01:24:30,954 --> 01:24:33,923
<i>Which she's very ashamed of,</i>

968
01:24:33,925 --> 01:24:36,993
<i>and of course this serves
to isolate her even more.</i>

969
01:24:36,995 --> 01:24:38,929
It makes her an easy target

970
01:24:38,931 --> 01:24:42,098
<i>for even the slightest bit of attention</i>

971
01:24:42,100 --> 01:24:45,869
or sign of empathy from you.

972
01:24:50,242 --> 01:24:52,510
<i>Despite my protests,</i>

973
01:24:52,512 --> 01:24:54,178
<i>the clever L somehow talked me</i>

974
01:24:54,180 --> 01:24:56,047
<i>into actually having a look at P.</i>

975
01:24:58,585 --> 01:25:01,586
<i>The longer I watched the poor girl
with the deformed ear,</i>

976
01:25:01,588 --> 01:25:04,723
<i>the more repulsive I found
the whole plan.</i>

977
01:25:32,087 --> 01:25:34,655
<i>But as if L had foreseen this,</i>

978
01:25:34,657 --> 01:25:38,626
<i>the meeting with P filled me
with pity and emotion.</i>

979
01:25:40,028 --> 01:25:42,096
<i>And without wanting to,</i>

980
01:25:42,098 --> 01:25:44,966
<i>I found myself, weekend after weekend,</i>

981
01:25:44,968 --> 01:25:48,670
<i>at her games supporting the poor player.</i>

982
01:26:04,187 --> 01:26:05,855
Thanks for cheering me on.

983
01:26:05,857 --> 01:26:07,390
You're welcome.

984
01:26:08,759 --> 01:26:10,761
You played really well today.

985
01:26:12,797 --> 01:26:15,666
- No, I didn't.
- You did.

986
01:26:15,668 --> 01:26:18,035
You really improved yourself lately.

987
01:26:21,372 --> 01:26:23,774
<i>I was proud to introduce P</i>

988
01:26:23,776 --> 01:26:25,943
<i>to my father's passion...</i>

989
01:26:25,945 --> 01:26:27,712
<i>and to his world.</i>

990
01:26:32,184 --> 01:26:33,885
It's actually...

991
01:26:35,754 --> 01:26:37,321
the souls of the trees

992
01:26:37,323 --> 01:26:39,258
<i>that we see in the winter.</i>

993
01:26:46,266 --> 01:26:48,267
I think they look like human souls.

994
01:26:52,740 --> 01:26:54,374
You're right.

995
01:26:54,376 --> 01:26:57,377
They do look like human souls.

996
01:26:58,746 --> 01:27:00,413
<i>Twisted souls,</i>

997
01:27:00,415 --> 01:27:02,782
<i>regular souls, crazy souls.</i>

998
01:27:04,318 --> 01:27:07,088
All depending on the kind of lives
human beings lead.

999
01:27:12,260 --> 01:27:13,961
I found my tree,

1000
01:27:13,963 --> 01:27:16,063
my soul tree.

1001
01:27:18,935 --> 01:27:20,769
This is my tree.

1002
01:27:24,307 --> 01:27:26,441
<i>It's not an ash tree.</i>

1003
01:27:26,443 --> 01:27:28,276
<i>No, it's an oak tree.</i>

1004
01:27:39,256 --> 01:27:41,891
<i>My father found his soul tree,</i>

1005
01:27:41,893 --> 01:27:44,227
but I've... I've never found mine.

1006
01:27:45,697 --> 01:27:47,865
"You will know it when you see it,"

1007
01:27:47,867 --> 01:27:50,033
that's what he said.

1008
01:27:55,907 --> 01:27:57,975
<i>When P reached the age of majority</i>

1009
01:27:57,977 --> 01:28:00,478
<i>and I became her personal advisor,</i>

1010
01:28:00,480 --> 01:28:03,081
<i>I asked her to move in with me.</i>

1011
01:28:09,955 --> 01:28:11,790
I've never seen you with your hair up.

1012
01:28:12,726 --> 01:28:14,827
It's so pretty.

1013
01:28:27,242 --> 01:28:30,510
<i>All this time all my sexual activity
had stopped.</i>

1014
01:28:30,512 --> 01:28:34,080
<i>My groin was one big sore from my abuse</i>

1015
01:28:34,082 --> 01:28:35,916
<i>that wouldn't heal</i>

1016
01:28:35,918 --> 01:28:38,285
<i>and made even masturbation impossible.</i>

1017
01:28:42,891 --> 01:28:45,927
<i>I experienced definite abstinence symptoms:</i>

1018
01:28:45,929 --> 01:28:47,995
<i>Fever and cramps.</i>

1019
01:29:02,478 --> 01:29:04,046
Joe, what's going on?

1020
01:29:06,483 --> 01:29:09,252
- Careful.
- We need to clear this up.

1021
01:29:18,929 --> 01:29:20,931
I just get this sometimes.

1022
01:29:24,502 --> 01:29:26,136
It's okay, it's okay.

1023
01:29:27,505 --> 01:29:29,506
<i>Perhaps she really loved you.</i>

1024
01:29:31,243 --> 01:29:33,278
I couldn't accept it.

1025
01:29:33,280 --> 01:29:36,481
Perhaps because you really wanted it
to be true.

1026
01:29:38,885 --> 01:29:41,052
Perhaps I hoped it.

1027
01:29:41,054 --> 01:29:43,488
<i>It's very touching,
all this about P.</i>

1028
01:29:46,293 --> 01:29:48,961
Then you've probably misunderstood
the whole thing.

1029
01:30:17,927 --> 01:30:19,560
Don't.

1030
01:30:21,130 --> 01:30:22,463
I wanna see you.

1031
01:30:22,465 --> 01:30:24,365
- Don't.
- Why?

1032
01:30:24,367 --> 01:30:26,134
- Please don't.
- Why not?

1033
01:30:26,136 --> 01:30:29,204
No. No, I have a wound.

1034
01:30:29,206 --> 01:30:31,540
- I have a wound.
- It doesn't matter.

1035
01:30:31,542 --> 01:30:33,409
No, you don't understand.

1036
01:30:33,411 --> 01:30:36,111
I have that thing with my ear.

1037
01:30:36,113 --> 01:30:38,047
<i>I'm so ashamed.</i>

1038
01:31:15,922 --> 01:31:17,589
Do you like me?

1039
01:31:21,595 --> 01:31:23,329
You're so beautiful.

1040
01:32:54,194 --> 01:32:56,262
There's one thing I don't understand.

1041
01:32:58,032 --> 01:33:00,233
Did she know what you did for a living?

1042
01:33:01,368 --> 01:33:03,303
P was very discreet

1043
01:33:03,305 --> 01:33:05,572
and a girl of few words.

1044
01:33:07,074 --> 01:33:09,710
Oddly, although I worked strange hours,

1045
01:33:09,712 --> 01:33:12,179
she never asked about my work.

1046
01:33:13,815 --> 01:33:15,683
<i>But one day she had a question.</i>

1047
01:33:17,719 --> 01:33:19,687
Joe?

1048
01:33:24,627 --> 01:33:27,762
Why did you start coming
to my basketball matches?

1049
01:33:30,466 --> 01:33:32,567
It wasn't a coincidence, was it?

1050
01:33:39,076 --> 01:33:41,210
No, it wasn't a coincidence.

1051
01:33:45,449 --> 01:33:47,717
I didn't tell you because I...

1052
01:33:49,087 --> 01:33:51,388
I thought you'd be upset...

1053
01:33:52,724 --> 01:33:55,159
and that you'd get angry at me.

1054
01:33:56,094 --> 01:33:57,861
I won't get angry.

1055
01:34:02,635 --> 01:34:04,702
What I do...

1056
01:34:06,772 --> 01:34:09,107
My job isn't a normal job.

1057
01:34:09,109 --> 01:34:11,309
It's not legal.

1058
01:34:11,311 --> 01:34:14,179
No one in my family does anything legal.

1059
01:34:20,220 --> 01:34:22,421
<i>A man that's helped me in my business</i>

1060
01:34:22,423 --> 01:34:24,056
<i>suggested that I watched you.</i>

1061
01:34:27,494 --> 01:34:29,396
The plan was that I...

1062
01:34:29,398 --> 01:34:31,898
I should look at you

1063
01:34:31,900 --> 01:34:34,434
to see whether one day

1064
01:34:34,436 --> 01:34:35,936
I could use you in my work.

1065
01:34:36,904 --> 01:34:39,206
I should make friends with you,

1066
01:34:39,208 --> 01:34:42,677
because I knew you didn't have
a mother or a father.

1067
01:34:42,679 --> 01:34:44,345
What's wrong with that?

1068
01:34:45,514 --> 01:34:48,282
Don't you see how evil that plan was?

1069
01:34:48,284 --> 01:34:50,618
<i>I felt terrible.</i>

1070
01:34:50,620 --> 01:34:52,620
You shouldn't have.

1071
01:34:52,622 --> 01:34:54,488
Why not?

1072
01:34:57,227 --> 01:34:59,561
Because if you hadn't...

1073
01:35:01,497 --> 01:35:03,298
we'd never have met.

1074
01:35:08,938 --> 01:35:11,674
I'd like to go with you to work

1075
01:35:11,676 --> 01:35:13,876
- next time.
- No.

1076
01:35:22,920 --> 01:35:25,256
Will you think about it?

1077
01:35:25,258 --> 01:35:27,224
- No.
- Yes.

1078
01:35:27,326 --> 01:35:28,392
No.

1079
01:35:28,394 --> 01:35:31,195
She didn't take no for an answer.

1080
01:35:31,197 --> 01:35:33,230
No, of course not.

1081
01:35:33,232 --> 01:35:36,668
How do you keep a wave upon the sand?

1082
01:35:39,705 --> 01:35:42,674
With the risk of being too clever for myself,

1083
01:35:42,676 --> 01:35:45,277
social inheritance

1084
01:35:45,279 --> 01:35:47,679
is an irrefutable fact.

1085
01:35:47,681 --> 01:35:50,916
If anyone knew about the laws of the street,

1086
01:35:50,918 --> 01:35:52,618
it must've been P.

1087
01:35:54,755 --> 01:35:57,023
You're more right than you know.

1088
01:35:59,726 --> 01:36:01,460
Let's shoot the fucker.

1089
01:36:02,529 --> 01:36:04,498
Stop! Stop!

1090
01:36:08,936 --> 01:36:10,804
We don't use firearms.

1091
01:36:12,540 --> 01:36:16,510
- I'd like to have the gun.
- The others have weapons too.

1092
01:36:17,479 --> 01:36:19,447
Well, I didn't know that.

1093
01:36:19,449 --> 01:36:21,582
But in any case,
you're not to have one.

1094
01:36:21,584 --> 01:36:23,918
But guns aren't dangerous.

1095
01:36:23,920 --> 01:36:26,721
It depends on how you use them.

1096
01:36:26,723 --> 01:36:28,423
Yes, exactly.

1097
01:36:28,425 --> 01:36:30,358
<i>I wasn't going to shoot him.</i>

1098
01:36:30,360 --> 01:36:33,495
We wouldn't have gotten any money
out of him that way.

1099
01:36:33,497 --> 01:36:34,963
<i>Can I have the gun?</i>

1100
01:36:39,502 --> 01:36:41,437
Thank you.

1101
01:37:01,493 --> 01:37:02,827
You're evil.

1102
01:37:07,866 --> 01:37:11,403
<i>And now I'm afraid
one of those coincidences</i>

1103
01:37:11,405 --> 01:37:12,904
<i>that you have such a hard time with</i>

1104
01:37:12,906 --> 01:37:15,674
<i>occurred with a very special person.</i>

1105
01:37:17,577 --> 01:37:20,445
<i>It was P's job to take us
to the debtors,</i>

1106
01:37:20,447 --> 01:37:22,614
<i>so until I saw the name on the door,</i>

1107
01:37:22,616 --> 01:37:25,151
<i>I had no idea whose house we were at.</i>

1108
01:37:29,456 --> 01:37:31,491
Are you sure this is the right place?

1109
01:37:31,493 --> 01:37:32,892
<i>Yeah.</i>

1110
01:37:39,701 --> 01:37:41,869
I was thinking maybe it's time

1111
01:37:41,871 --> 01:37:45,472
for you to do this one on your own.

1112
01:37:45,474 --> 01:37:47,007
Yeah?

1113
01:37:49,043 --> 01:37:50,411
Thank you, Joe.

1114
01:37:50,413 --> 01:37:52,614
I don't want anything destroyed

1115
01:37:52,616 --> 01:37:54,816
and I don't want anybody hurt.

1116
01:37:54,818 --> 01:37:57,786
Okay? You just show yourself

1117
01:37:57,788 --> 01:38:00,688
and offer him a reasonable payment plan.

1118
01:38:01,690 --> 01:38:03,658
If you say so.

1119
01:38:03,660 --> 01:38:05,194
Of course that's how I'll do it.

1120
01:38:20,711 --> 01:38:23,146
<i>Whether the feeling
when I saw Jerome again</i>

1121
01:38:23,148 --> 01:38:24,948
<i>was love, I couldn't say.</i>

1122
01:38:28,019 --> 01:38:30,053
<i>But it was a feeling,</i>

1123
01:38:30,055 --> 01:38:32,890
<i>and far stronger than I liked.</i>

1124
01:38:44,903 --> 01:38:47,706
<i>I was actually walking home
through the alley here.</i>

1125
01:38:49,142 --> 01:38:51,810
<i>No two neighborhoods are totally different</i>

1126
01:38:51,812 --> 01:38:53,912
<i>but still so close together</i>

1127
01:38:53,914 --> 01:38:56,181
<i>that the shortest route
from Jerome's house</i>

1128
01:38:56,183 --> 01:38:59,018
<i>towards the center was through the alley.</i>

1129
01:39:06,161 --> 01:39:08,428
Hello!

1130
01:39:08,430 --> 01:39:10,430
How did it go?

1131
01:39:10,432 --> 01:39:12,533
Brilliant.

1132
01:39:12,535 --> 01:39:14,134
<i>Yeah, really well.</i>

1133
01:39:15,770 --> 01:39:18,572
I made a reasonable payment plan
like you told me to.

1134
01:39:18,574 --> 01:39:20,074
How did he look?

1135
01:39:21,443 --> 01:39:23,511
Scared.

1136
01:39:23,513 --> 01:39:26,047
How old did he look?

1137
01:39:26,549 --> 01:39:27,983
I dunno.

1138
01:39:27,985 --> 01:39:29,551
Ancient?

1139
01:39:48,939 --> 01:39:53,176
<i>Jerome was to pay off his debt
in six payments.</i>

1140
01:39:53,178 --> 01:39:56,079
<i>Every time P went to Jerome to collect,</i>

1141
01:39:56,081 --> 01:39:58,215
<i>I paced around restlessly</i>

1142
01:39:58,217 --> 01:40:00,584
<i>until she was back home again.</i>

1143
01:40:02,787 --> 01:40:06,558
<i>I even had to find my mother's
sad old solitaire cards</i>

1144
01:40:06,560 --> 01:40:09,193
<i>in order to make the hours pass.</i>

1145
01:40:16,902 --> 01:40:19,872
<i>Each night I was less reassured
by her coming home</i>

1146
01:40:19,874 --> 01:40:21,707
<i>than the night before.</i>

1147
01:40:21,709 --> 01:40:25,110
<i>The question of whether jealousy
is the fear of sharing</i>

1148
01:40:25,112 --> 01:40:28,514
<i>or the fear of losing
was of little interest to me.</i>

1149
01:40:28,516 --> 01:40:30,783
<i>But yes, it was a fact</i>

1150
01:40:30,785 --> 01:40:34,654
<i>that this unworthy feeling I had
managed to suppress for so long</i>

1151
01:40:34,656 --> 01:40:36,690
<i>was creeping up on me.</i>

1152
01:40:39,894 --> 01:40:42,629
<i>The evening she was to collect
the final payment</i>

1153
01:40:42,631 --> 01:40:44,531
<i>she didn't kiss me.</i>

1154
01:40:44,533 --> 01:40:46,901
<i>I took it to be forgetfulness,</i>

1155
01:40:46,903 --> 01:40:50,338
<i>but the hours passed
and she didn't return.</i>

1156
01:40:58,213 --> 01:41:00,582
<i>Every time I saw car lights,</i>

1157
01:41:00,584 --> 01:41:03,018
<i>I thought it was P being driven home.</i>

1158
01:42:05,352 --> 01:42:08,121
<i>I had decided to flee.</i>

1159
01:42:08,123 --> 01:42:11,725
<i>I couldn't stay in this town
with her and him.</i>

1160
01:42:13,327 --> 01:42:16,697
<i>I had cowardly made a plan
to escape and head south,</i>

1161
01:42:16,699 --> 01:42:20,033
<i>like from some ice age
I didn't have the guts</i>

1162
01:42:20,035 --> 01:42:22,704
<i>to turn around and face.</i>

1163
01:42:22,706 --> 01:42:27,008
<i>But the goodbye was sad
and strangely unfulfilling.</i>

1164
01:42:27,010 --> 01:42:29,210
<i>And something called me on</i>

1165
01:42:29,212 --> 01:42:31,412
<i>to seek further up the mountain.</i>

1166
01:43:45,927 --> 01:43:49,062
It's said to be difficult
to take someone's life.

1167
01:43:49,064 --> 01:43:53,066
<i>I would've said that
it's more difficult not to.</i>

1168
01:43:54,435 --> 01:43:56,104
For a human being,

1169
01:43:56,106 --> 01:43:58,540
killing is the most natural thing
in the world.

1170
01:43:59,842 --> 01:44:02,110
We're created for it.

1171
01:44:04,079 --> 01:44:06,114
Wonderful.

1172
01:44:56,903 --> 01:44:58,103
<i>No, get off!</i>

1173
01:44:59,705 --> 01:45:00,939
Sorry.

1174
01:45:07,982 --> 01:45:10,116
Fireman's grip.

1175
01:47:31,903 --> 01:47:33,370
Oh yeah.

1176
01:49:01,765 --> 01:49:05,169
Fill all my holes please.

1177
01:49:26,359 --> 01:49:29,227
I still don't know
why the gun didn't work.

1178
01:49:29,229 --> 01:49:30,762
<i>I did check to make sure</i>

1179
01:49:30,764 --> 01:49:32,798
<i>that there were bullets in the magazine.</i>

1180
01:49:34,101 --> 01:49:36,269
<i>It simply malfunctioned,</i>

1181
01:49:36,271 --> 01:49:39,472
<i>just like Bond's Beretta.</i>

1182
01:49:39,474 --> 01:49:41,507
<i>I think I know enough to say that</i>

1183
01:49:41,509 --> 01:49:44,744
<i>even if you had rounds in the magazine
of the Walther P.P.K.,</i>

1184
01:49:44,746 --> 01:49:47,181
and you'd taken off the safety...

1185
01:49:48,449 --> 01:49:51,418
you cannot shoot until you rack the gun.

1186
01:49:51,420 --> 01:49:55,589
You pull and release the sliding mechanism.

1187
01:49:57,225 --> 01:49:59,527
And P hadn't done it because,
as she said,

1188
01:49:59,529 --> 01:50:02,197
she had no intention of shooting the man.

1189
01:50:04,266 --> 01:50:07,202
I don't know about Bond,
but I assume it has to be apparent

1190
01:50:07,204 --> 01:50:09,470
from his books and his films that

1191
01:50:09,472 --> 01:50:12,474
you have to rack an automatic pistol.

1192
01:50:13,543 --> 01:50:15,811
Of course, you're right.

1193
01:50:17,380 --> 01:50:20,382
I've seen it in films a thousand times.

1194
01:50:25,655 --> 01:50:26,890
It's morning.

1195
01:50:29,727 --> 01:50:31,428
And the snow is gone.

1196
01:50:31,430 --> 01:50:33,597
So the sun must be out?

1197
01:50:33,599 --> 01:50:35,899
Yes, there is sun.

1198
01:50:41,840 --> 01:50:44,609
I've never managed to figure out
where it comes from.

1199
01:50:46,245 --> 01:50:48,346
<i>It must be some interplay</i>

1200
01:50:48,348 --> 01:50:50,948
<i>between windows</i>

1201
01:50:50,950 --> 01:50:53,952
<i>and towers and high buildings.</i>

1202
01:50:57,490 --> 01:50:59,258
It's not much,

1203
01:50:59,260 --> 01:51:02,294
but it's the sun you get
here at my place.

1204
01:51:06,700 --> 01:51:08,268
It's beautiful.

1205
01:51:18,846 --> 01:51:21,348
<i>In the beginning you said that</i>

1206
01:51:21,350 --> 01:51:24,551
<i>your only sin was that
you asked more of the sunset.</i>

1207
01:51:26,454 --> 01:51:28,422
Meaning, I suppose, that you wanted

1208
01:51:28,424 --> 01:51:30,524
more from life than was good for you.

1209
01:51:33,663 --> 01:51:36,564
<i>You were a human being
demanding your right.</i>

1210
01:51:36,566 --> 01:51:39,301
<i>And more than that,</i>

1211
01:51:39,303 --> 01:51:42,437
<i>you were a woman
demanding her right.</i>

1212
01:51:45,474 --> 01:51:47,777
Does that pardon everything?

1213
01:51:49,579 --> 01:51:51,280
Do you think if two men

1214
01:51:51,482 --> 01:51:53,616
<i>would've walked down a train
looking for women,</i>

1215
01:51:53,618 --> 01:51:56,819
<i>do you think anybody
would have raised an eyebrow?</i>

1216
01:51:58,255 --> 01:52:01,024
<i>Or if a man had led the life you had?</i>

1217
01:52:02,694 --> 01:52:05,462
<i>And the story about Mrs. H</i>

1218
01:52:05,464 --> 01:52:08,899
<i>would've been extremely banal
if you'd been a man</i>

1219
01:52:08,901 --> 01:52:11,802
and your conquest would have been a woman.

1220
01:52:13,338 --> 01:52:15,807
When a man leaves his children

1221
01:52:15,809 --> 01:52:18,476
<i>because of desire,</i>

1222
01:52:18,478 --> 01:52:21,279
<i>we accept it with a shrug,
but you as a woman,</i>

1223
01:52:21,281 --> 01:52:25,416
<i>you had to take on a...
a guilt, a burden of guilt</i>

1224
01:52:25,418 --> 01:52:27,453
<i>that could never be alleviated.</i>

1225
01:52:30,957 --> 01:52:33,959
<i>And all in all,
all the blame and guilt</i>

1226
01:52:33,961 --> 01:52:37,563
that piled up over the years
became too much for you,

1227
01:52:37,565 --> 01:52:38,794
you reacted aggressively...

1228
01:52:38,919 --> 01:52:40,967
<i>almost like a man I have to say...</i>

1229
01:52:41,036 --> 01:52:42,802
<i>And you fought back.</i>

1230
01:52:44,071 --> 01:52:46,606
You fought back against the gender that had been

1231
01:52:46,608 --> 01:52:48,608
oppressing and mutilating

1232
01:52:48,610 --> 01:52:51,144
and killing you and billions of women.

1233
01:52:53,414 --> 01:52:56,150
But I wanted to kill a human being.

1234
01:52:59,588 --> 01:53:01,722
<i>But you didn't.</i>

1235
01:53:03,625 --> 01:53:05,793
<i>Because of a chance event.</i>

1236
01:53:05,795 --> 01:53:08,663
<i>You call it a chance event.</i>

1237
01:53:09,732 --> 01:53:12,734
I call it subconscious resistance.

1238
01:53:12,736 --> 01:53:15,570
On the surface you wanted to kill,

1239
01:53:15,572 --> 01:53:18,707
but deep down you celebrated human worth

1240
01:53:18,709 --> 01:53:21,477
and a veil of forgetfulness

1241
01:53:21,479 --> 01:53:24,781
draped itself over your knowledge
of how to rack a gun.

1242
01:53:27,752 --> 01:53:31,921
<i>Although all this sounds frighteningly close
to the clich�s of our times...</i>

1243
01:53:33,758 --> 01:53:35,592
And I'm predisposed

1244
01:53:35,594 --> 01:53:37,828
to knock holes in your arguments...

1245
01:53:40,432 --> 01:53:42,366
<i>I'm too tired.</i>

1246
01:53:42,368 --> 01:53:44,435
Well, that's good.

1247
01:53:46,905 --> 01:53:49,007
Why don't you lay down?

1248
01:53:51,577 --> 01:53:53,745
Yes.

1249
01:54:04,724 --> 01:54:08,060
Let me just say that telling my story

1250
01:54:08,062 --> 01:54:10,496
as you insisted...

1251
01:54:10,498 --> 01:54:12,865
or permitted...

1252
01:54:12,867 --> 01:54:15,569
<i>has put me at ease.</i>

1253
01:54:17,438 --> 01:54:19,773
At this moment

1254
01:54:19,775 --> 01:54:23,510
my addiction is very clear to me...

1255
01:54:25,813 --> 01:54:28,114
and I've come to a decision.

1256
01:54:30,152 --> 01:54:34,021
<i>Even though only one in a million,</i>

1257
01:54:34,023 --> 01:54:37,492
as my dubious therapist said,

1258
01:54:37,494 --> 01:54:39,494
succeed in...

1259
01:54:40,829 --> 01:54:43,999
mentally, bodily...

1260
01:54:45,201 --> 01:54:47,836
and in her heart

1261
01:54:47,838 --> 01:54:51,940
of ridding herself of her sexuality,

1262
01:54:51,942 --> 01:54:54,743
this is now my goal.

1263
01:54:56,046 --> 01:54:58,748
<i>But is that a life worth living?</i>

1264
01:55:01,585 --> 01:55:04,220
<i>It's the only way I can live it.</i>

1265
01:55:08,459 --> 01:55:12,263
I will stand up against all odds...

1266
01:55:16,801 --> 01:55:20,304
just like a deformed tree on a hill.

1267
01:55:28,114 --> 01:55:30,782
I will muster

1268
01:55:30,784 --> 01:55:33,151
all my stubbornness...

1269
01:55:36,223 --> 01:55:38,157
my strength...

1270
01:55:40,827 --> 01:55:43,195
my masculine aggression.

1271
01:55:45,632 --> 01:55:49,836
<i>But most of all I want to say thanks</i>

1272
01:55:49,838 --> 01:55:53,340
<i>to my new, and maybe first friend.</i>

1273
01:55:54,842 --> 01:55:56,977
Thank you, Seligman...

1274
01:55:58,780 --> 01:56:02,951
who perhaps is happy
when all is said and done.

1275
01:56:09,058 --> 01:56:11,859
I'm happy at any rate

1276
01:56:11,861 --> 01:56:14,862
that the shot didn't go off

1277
01:56:14,864 --> 01:56:17,099
<i>and made me a murderer.</i>

1278
01:56:22,772 --> 01:56:26,208
If I may, I'd like to sleep now.

1279
01:56:30,047 --> 01:56:32,382
I'll make sure you won't be disturbed.

1280
01:56:43,161 --> 01:56:44,996
Good night, Joe.

1281
01:56:45,998 --> 01:56:48,265
Good night, Seligman.

1282
01:58:14,792 --> 01:58:16,293
No!

1283
01:58:19,365 --> 01:58:22,200
<i>But you... you've fucked thousands of men.</i>

1284
01:59:07,916 --> 01:59:09,917
<i>Hey, Joe</i>

1285
01:59:11,788 --> 01:59:15,290
<i>Where are you going
With that gun in your hand?</i>

1286
01:59:21,297 --> 01:59:23,965
<i>Hey, Joe</i>

1287
01:59:23,967 --> 01:59:29,038
<i>I said where are you going
With that gun in your hand?</i>

1288
01:59:35,112 --> 01:59:37,446
<i>I'm going down to shoot my old lady</i>

1289
01:59:39,384 --> 01:59:43,320
<i>You know I caught her
Messing around with another man</i>

1290
01:59:48,760 --> 01:59:51,930
<i>I'm going down to shoot my old lady</i>

1291
01:59:53,833 --> 01:59:57,602
<i>You know I caught her
Messing around with another man</i>

1292
01:59:59,471 --> 02:00:01,606
<i>And that ain't too cool</i>

1293
02:00:03,843 --> 02:00:05,978
<i>Hey, Joe</i>

1294
02:00:07,948 --> 02:00:10,482
<i>I heard you shot your woman down</i>

1295
02:00:10,484 --> 02:00:13,185
<i>You shot her down now</i>

1296
02:00:17,090 --> 02:00:19,593
<i>Hey, Joe</i>

1297
02:00:21,863 --> 02:00:24,531
<i>I heard you shot your lady down</i>

1298
02:00:24,533 --> 02:00:27,934
<i>You shot her down to the ground</i>

1299
02:00:31,239 --> 02:00:33,908
<i>Yes, I did, I shot her</i>

1300
02:00:35,444 --> 02:00:38,913
<i>You know I caught her
Messing around town</i>

1301
02:00:44,920 --> 02:00:47,522
<i>Yes, I did, I shot her</i>

1302
02:00:49,425 --> 02:00:53,829
<i>You know I caught my old lady
Messing around town</i>

1303
02:00:53,831 --> 02:00:56,164
<i>And I gave her the gun</i>

1304
02:00:56,166 --> 02:00:58,500
<i>I shot her</i>

1305
02:01:26,165 --> 02:01:28,633
<i>Hey, Joe</i>

1306
02:01:30,569 --> 02:01:33,705
<i>Where you gonna go to now?</i>

1307
02:01:39,479 --> 02:01:42,148
<i>Hey, Joe</i>

1308
02:01:44,351 --> 02:01:47,420
<i>Where you gonna go to now?</i>

1309
02:01:53,027 --> 02:01:55,495
<i>I'm going way down south</i>

1310
02:01:57,432 --> 02:02:00,500
<i>Way down to Mexico way</i>

1311
02:02:06,408 --> 02:02:08,977
<i>I'm going way down south</i>

1312
02:02:10,612 --> 02:02:13,715
<i>Way down where I can be free</i>

1313
02:02:18,587 --> 02:02:21,623
<i>Ain't no hangman gonna</i>

1314
02:02:23,426 --> 02:02:26,762
<i>He ain't gonna put a rope around me</i>

1315
02:02:32,168 --> 02:02:34,771
<i>Hey, Joe</i>

1316
02:02:36,507 --> 02:02:39,042
<i>You'd better run on down</i>

1317
02:02:39,977 --> 02:02:42,078
<i>Good night.</i>