1 00:00:01,000 --> 00:00:05,559 http://subscene.com/u/659433 Improved by: @Ivandrofly 2 00:00:05,561 --> 00:00:07,762 (BIRDS CHIRPING) 3 00:00:10,799 --> 00:00:12,667 (KNOCKING) 4 00:00:18,841 --> 00:00:21,676 - (KNOCKS) - Can I help you? 5 00:00:21,678 --> 00:00:23,311 (PHONE RINGING) 6 00:00:29,184 --> 00:00:31,252 - (RINGS) - (SIGHS) 7 00:00:41,764 --> 00:00:43,798 (SOFT MOANING) 8 00:00:43,800 --> 00:00:45,667 JOE'S VOICE: I have to go back a bit. 9 00:00:45,669 --> 00:00:47,802 I was 12 years old 10 00:00:47,805 --> 00:00:50,005 and on a school trip in the hills. 11 00:00:50,941 --> 00:00:53,009 (BIRDS CHIRPING) 12 00:01:20,812 --> 00:01:23,246 (FAINT CONVERSATION) 13 00:01:40,803 --> 00:01:43,338 (LOW RUMBLING) 14 00:01:51,383 --> 00:01:53,752 (SHUDDERING) 15 00:02:22,388 --> 00:02:24,256 (RAGGED BREATHING) 16 00:02:43,514 --> 00:02:45,849 Are you making fun of me? 17 00:02:45,852 --> 00:02:47,251 What do you mean? 18 00:02:47,253 --> 00:02:49,420 You have this orgasm, not only an orgasm, 19 00:02:49,423 --> 00:02:52,758 - but a spontaneous orgasm. - Yes, it was an orgasm, 20 00:02:52,761 --> 00:02:55,261 though the doctor described it as a... 21 00:02:55,263 --> 00:02:56,830 an epileptic seizure. 22 00:02:56,833 --> 00:02:58,265 And during that orgasm, 23 00:02:58,267 --> 00:02:59,900 you have this vision 24 00:02:59,902 --> 00:03:03,270 of these two women on each side of you? 25 00:03:03,273 --> 00:03:06,908 Was she holding the veil with two fingers like this? 26 00:03:12,550 --> 00:03:15,152 What's the matter? 27 00:03:15,155 --> 00:03:18,489 You don't even... you don't even know who these women were, do you? 28 00:03:20,060 --> 00:03:23,796 No, but one of them did look like the virgin Mary, 29 00:03:23,799 --> 00:03:25,565 now that you mention it. 30 00:03:25,568 --> 00:03:28,302 Well, it wasn't the virgin Mary, I can tell you that. 31 00:03:28,304 --> 00:03:30,838 From your description, it must've been 32 00:03:30,841 --> 00:03:32,574 valeria messalina, 33 00:03:32,576 --> 00:03:35,177 the wife of emperor claudius, 34 00:03:35,180 --> 00:03:38,581 the most notorious nymphomaniac in history. 35 00:03:38,584 --> 00:03:40,384 And the other woman, 36 00:03:40,386 --> 00:03:42,820 the one astride the creature, 37 00:03:42,823 --> 00:03:46,124 that was no one else but the great whore of Babylon 38 00:03:46,127 --> 00:03:48,661 riding on nimrod in the form of a bull. 39 00:03:52,567 --> 00:03:54,902 Your story is like a... 40 00:03:54,905 --> 00:03:58,039 Blasphemous retelling 41 00:03:58,042 --> 00:04:00,676 of the transfiguration of Jesus on the mount... 42 00:04:02,213 --> 00:04:04,514 Which is one of the eastern church's 43 00:04:04,516 --> 00:04:06,449 holiest passages. 44 00:04:07,853 --> 00:04:10,054 It's when the humanity of Christ 45 00:04:10,056 --> 00:04:12,957 is illuminated by the divine light of eternity. 46 00:04:15,896 --> 00:04:18,398 If anyone else would have told me that story, 47 00:04:18,400 --> 00:04:21,467 I would've seen it as a blasphemous joke, 48 00:04:21,470 --> 00:04:23,637 spiced up with a biblical light 49 00:04:23,640 --> 00:04:27,709 emanating from nothing less than a spontaneous orgasm. 50 00:04:30,882 --> 00:04:34,117 And then later, you lost your orgasm altogether. 51 00:04:35,387 --> 00:04:37,956 (OPERA MUSIC PLAYING) 52 00:04:40,193 --> 00:04:42,494 Wagner. "Das rheingold", 53 00:04:42,496 --> 00:04:44,663 the descent into nibelheim." 54 00:04:44,666 --> 00:04:46,900 Was it that bad? 55 00:04:46,902 --> 00:04:50,270 Try to imagine that in one fell swoop, 56 00:04:50,273 --> 00:04:52,640 you lost all desire to read 57 00:04:52,643 --> 00:04:55,644 and all your love and passion for books and letters. 58 00:04:55,647 --> 00:04:58,748 (SCOFFS) I don't even know if I can imagine that. 59 00:05:11,164 --> 00:05:13,132 (SIGHS) 60 00:05:13,135 --> 00:05:15,068 (SOFT MOANING) 61 00:05:23,580 --> 00:05:25,447 (SOBBING) 62 00:05:30,989 --> 00:05:34,125 (WAILS) 63 00:05:34,128 --> 00:05:37,396 SELIGMAN'S VOICE: This is nothing less than zeno's paradox. 64 00:05:38,599 --> 00:05:40,633 You are achilles 65 00:05:40,636 --> 00:05:43,370 and the tortoise is the orgasm. 66 00:05:43,372 --> 00:05:44,671 Oh, come on. 67 00:05:44,674 --> 00:05:46,708 Because you were giving chase, 68 00:05:46,710 --> 00:05:49,511 you couldn't reach satisfaction. That's the paradox. 69 00:05:49,514 --> 00:05:53,115 I'm sorry, but it seems as if you're not taking this very seriously. 70 00:05:53,118 --> 00:05:56,219 I'm telling you about the worst thing that's happened to me, 71 00:05:56,221 --> 00:05:58,522 that I, at that point within seconds, 72 00:05:58,525 --> 00:06:01,059 lost all sexual sensation. 73 00:06:01,062 --> 00:06:03,996 My cunt simply went numb! 74 00:06:03,998 --> 00:06:05,764 And immediately we have to hear 75 00:06:05,767 --> 00:06:08,701 about this ridiculous mathematical problem. 76 00:06:08,703 --> 00:06:11,504 In fact, I'm in doubt whether 77 00:06:11,507 --> 00:06:12,807 you're even listening. 78 00:06:14,210 --> 00:06:16,078 Why do you doubt that? 79 00:06:16,080 --> 00:06:19,781 Whenever I've told other men about experiences, 80 00:06:19,784 --> 00:06:22,718 episodes in my sex life, 81 00:06:22,721 --> 00:06:26,757 it was easy to see that they became quite excited. 82 00:06:27,693 --> 00:06:29,127 I got excited. 83 00:06:29,129 --> 00:06:31,429 Yes, about the mathematical crap, 84 00:06:31,432 --> 00:06:33,132 not about the story. 85 00:06:40,809 --> 00:06:43,878 What kind of a person are you actually? 86 00:06:49,487 --> 00:06:51,221 I... 87 00:06:52,724 --> 00:06:54,592 You wouldn't know. 88 00:06:58,198 --> 00:07:00,199 No, but I can guess. 89 00:07:03,505 --> 00:07:05,472 Why didn't I get that earlier? 90 00:07:07,243 --> 00:07:10,612 The fact you don't get excited over my dirty stories 91 00:07:11,848 --> 00:07:14,150 is because you can't relate to them. 92 00:07:16,354 --> 00:07:18,288 You've never been with a woman. 93 00:07:30,404 --> 00:07:32,939 That's quite accurate. 94 00:07:34,276 --> 00:07:36,177 Not with a man either. 95 00:07:38,648 --> 00:07:40,615 (SIGHS) 96 00:07:44,889 --> 00:07:46,957 Are you sorry about that? 97 00:07:51,665 --> 00:07:54,233 Well yeah, but... 98 00:07:54,235 --> 00:07:57,269 Out of curiosity. 99 00:07:58,606 --> 00:08:01,374 Not out of lust, as you would think. 100 00:08:07,618 --> 00:08:11,421 I consider myself... Asexual. 101 00:08:13,191 --> 00:08:15,626 Of course I... Experimented 102 00:08:15,629 --> 00:08:18,697 with masturbation when I was a teenager, but... 103 00:08:19,800 --> 00:08:21,467 It didn't do much for me. 104 00:08:24,505 --> 00:08:27,874 So there's nothing sexual about me. 105 00:08:33,883 --> 00:08:36,285 It's not as uncommon as you would think. 106 00:08:37,221 --> 00:08:38,855 And of course I've... 107 00:08:38,857 --> 00:08:41,925 I've read a lot about sexual subjects: 108 00:08:41,928 --> 00:08:44,562 "Canterbury tales," "decameron," 109 00:08:44,565 --> 00:08:46,231 "thousand and one nights." 110 00:08:46,233 --> 00:08:48,600 You name it 111 00:08:48,603 --> 00:08:52,472 and I've read it with great interest and enjoyment... 112 00:08:53,742 --> 00:08:56,410 But only literary enjoyment. 113 00:08:58,414 --> 00:09:00,649 But I... but I think maybe it makes me 114 00:09:00,652 --> 00:09:03,052 a better listener to your story. 115 00:09:05,223 --> 00:09:07,858 I have no preconceived notions or... 116 00:09:07,860 --> 00:09:10,427 or preferences. 117 00:09:10,430 --> 00:09:13,965 I'm actually the best judge you could give your story to. 118 00:09:13,968 --> 00:09:16,302 And when it comes to deciding whether you're 119 00:09:16,304 --> 00:09:17,836 a bad human being or not, I'm... 120 00:09:17,839 --> 00:09:20,540 I have no problems with that. 121 00:09:20,542 --> 00:09:23,510 Because I don't look at you through the glasses 122 00:09:23,513 --> 00:09:26,013 colored by sexuality 123 00:09:26,016 --> 00:09:28,550 or sexual experience. 124 00:09:30,487 --> 00:09:32,455 I'm a virgin. 125 00:09:33,992 --> 00:09:36,093 I'm innocent. 126 00:09:39,598 --> 00:09:42,634 (ORGAN MUSIC PLAYING) 127 00:09:50,512 --> 00:09:52,914 (TRAIN RUMBLING PAST) 128 00:09:57,320 --> 00:09:58,821 She's looking at me. 129 00:10:00,057 --> 00:10:02,058 Yes. 130 00:10:02,061 --> 00:10:04,295 It's an icon. 131 00:10:04,297 --> 00:10:06,063 Is it Russian? 132 00:10:06,066 --> 00:10:07,999 Yes, it's... 133 00:10:08,001 --> 00:10:09,668 it's a skilled copy, 134 00:10:09,670 --> 00:10:12,738 maybe in the manner of rublev. 135 00:10:18,547 --> 00:10:21,783 SELIGMAN: Icons are usually connected to the eastern church. 136 00:10:21,785 --> 00:10:23,618 JOE: The eastern church? 137 00:10:23,621 --> 00:10:26,689 I might become a bit theoretical. 138 00:10:28,092 --> 00:10:29,926 You may. 139 00:10:29,928 --> 00:10:32,662 I'd like you to tell me about your picture. 140 00:10:33,732 --> 00:10:35,967 Although the Christian church 141 00:10:35,970 --> 00:10:39,972 was split up in 1054 because of differences in opinion 142 00:10:39,975 --> 00:10:42,675 between the eastern church and the Western church... 143 00:10:42,677 --> 00:10:45,478 what we today call the orthodox church 144 00:10:45,481 --> 00:10:47,648 and the Roman catholic church. 145 00:10:49,118 --> 00:10:53,422 This is a typical eastern church icon. 146 00:10:53,425 --> 00:10:56,526 And it usually depicts the virgin Mary 147 00:10:56,529 --> 00:10:58,662 and the infant Jesus, and more rarely, 148 00:10:58,664 --> 00:11:00,831 for instance, the crucifixion, 149 00:11:00,834 --> 00:11:03,902 which in the Western church was much more prevalent. 150 00:11:03,905 --> 00:11:06,505 If you generalize, you could say that 151 00:11:06,507 --> 00:11:09,408 the Western church is the church of suffering, 152 00:11:09,411 --> 00:11:13,380 and the eastern church is the church of happiness. 153 00:11:13,383 --> 00:11:16,484 If you imagine a mental journey from Rome eastward, 154 00:11:16,487 --> 00:11:19,421 you feel how you move away 155 00:11:19,423 --> 00:11:22,791 from guilt and pain towards joy and light. 156 00:11:22,794 --> 00:11:25,595 But you say you didn't believe in God. 157 00:11:25,598 --> 00:11:29,934 No, but the concept of religion is interesting... 158 00:11:30,870 --> 00:11:33,171 Like the concept of sex. 159 00:11:33,174 --> 00:11:37,677 But you won't find me on my knees with the regards to either. 160 00:11:39,013 --> 00:11:41,615 Let's call this chapter, 161 00:11:41,618 --> 00:11:45,520 um, "the eastern church and the Western church." 162 00:11:45,523 --> 00:11:48,924 But it won't be... it won't be a story 163 00:11:48,927 --> 00:11:51,027 about traveling east from Rome 164 00:11:51,029 --> 00:11:54,030 towards the light, but rather the opposite. 165 00:11:55,434 --> 00:11:57,969 So in order not to make it too sad, 166 00:11:57,972 --> 00:12:01,974 I've pepped up the name of the chapter with an extra title. 167 00:12:08,784 --> 00:12:11,453 In spite of my tireless efforts, 168 00:12:11,455 --> 00:12:13,855 my cunt totally failed to respond. 169 00:12:13,858 --> 00:12:15,925 I have to admit there came a time 170 00:12:15,927 --> 00:12:18,194 when we had fun together. 171 00:12:20,532 --> 00:12:22,266 I'll give you a fiver... 172 00:12:23,669 --> 00:12:25,069 Uh-huh. 173 00:12:25,072 --> 00:12:27,006 If you can put this 174 00:12:28,475 --> 00:12:30,075 up inside your cunt. 175 00:12:30,078 --> 00:12:32,512 (LAUGHS) A fiver? 176 00:12:32,514 --> 00:12:33,847 Right. 177 00:12:45,497 --> 00:12:47,531 (SPOONS CLATTER) 178 00:12:47,533 --> 00:12:49,733 (LAUGHS) Shit. 179 00:13:23,711 --> 00:13:25,044 Thank you. 180 00:13:25,046 --> 00:13:26,913 You're welcome. 181 00:13:29,985 --> 00:13:32,953 - Didn't get any spoons? - No, we didn't. 182 00:13:51,312 --> 00:13:53,279 (SPOONS CLATTER) 183 00:13:54,782 --> 00:13:56,349 (CLATTERS) 184 00:13:58,854 --> 00:14:00,688 (CLATTERING) 185 00:14:01,624 --> 00:14:03,125 (LAUGHING) 186 00:14:09,701 --> 00:14:12,970 The most grotesque thing was that it was during that period 187 00:14:12,973 --> 00:14:16,641 where every sexual sensation was denied me... 188 00:14:16,644 --> 00:14:18,978 a period, I must admit, 189 00:14:18,980 --> 00:14:21,681 of secure and restful domestic comfort... 190 00:14:21,684 --> 00:14:24,251 we had moved in together and so on... 191 00:14:24,254 --> 00:14:26,154 that I became pregnant, 192 00:14:26,156 --> 00:14:29,257 because I was careless about my birth control pills. 193 00:14:29,260 --> 00:14:32,127 Consciously or unconsciously, 194 00:14:32,130 --> 00:14:35,198 it was important for me to have a caesarean. 195 00:14:35,200 --> 00:14:38,835 I mean, I was hoping that my cunt was going to fucking work again, 196 00:14:38,838 --> 00:14:41,305 and I had a feeling that 197 00:14:41,308 --> 00:14:44,042 a haphazard birth wouldn't make things better. 198 00:14:45,713 --> 00:14:47,413 I may have been imagining things, 199 00:14:47,415 --> 00:14:51,117 but as I lay there the noise from the instruments 200 00:14:51,120 --> 00:14:52,953 rang out in a chord like 201 00:14:52,956 --> 00:14:54,856 the one from the little flock. 202 00:14:54,858 --> 00:14:57,659 - (CLANGS) - Yes. 203 00:14:57,662 --> 00:14:59,929 And it wasn't fear. 204 00:14:59,931 --> 00:15:02,732 More like a kind of disgust. 205 00:15:03,701 --> 00:15:05,068 (CLANGS) 206 00:15:05,071 --> 00:15:07,205 (SLOSHES) 207 00:15:13,013 --> 00:15:14,748 (CLANGS) 208 00:15:17,385 --> 00:15:20,121 JOE'S VOICE: I could've sworn I saw him laughing. 209 00:15:21,057 --> 00:15:23,091 A laughing son? 210 00:15:23,093 --> 00:15:27,262 In "doctor faustus," Thomas mann describes the birth of Noah's son ham, 211 00:15:27,265 --> 00:15:29,766 who was laughing when he was born. 212 00:15:31,302 --> 00:15:33,303 Another satanic omen. 213 00:15:36,776 --> 00:15:40,812 Incidentally, the innocent child was named marcel, 214 00:15:40,815 --> 00:15:43,482 after Mars, the Roman God of war. 215 00:15:43,485 --> 00:15:45,318 And motherhood? 216 00:15:45,321 --> 00:15:47,488 I assume maternal love 217 00:15:47,490 --> 00:15:50,224 didn't quite live up to its expectations. 218 00:15:50,227 --> 00:15:52,494 No, I didn't have any expectations. 219 00:15:52,496 --> 00:15:55,964 And maternal love wasn't a problem. 220 00:15:55,967 --> 00:15:58,301 It was just that each time 221 00:15:58,304 --> 00:16:00,437 I looked into the child's eyes, 222 00:16:00,439 --> 00:16:03,140 I had this unsettling feeling 223 00:16:03,143 --> 00:16:05,844 of having been found out. 224 00:16:05,847 --> 00:16:08,247 - (RATTLES) - (BABBLES) 225 00:16:08,249 --> 00:16:10,516 JOE'S VOICE: I know it's probably a strange thing 226 00:16:10,519 --> 00:16:12,352 to say about a child... 227 00:16:12,354 --> 00:16:14,855 that my love wasn't being returned... 228 00:16:14,858 --> 00:16:16,825 but it was my perception. 229 00:16:16,827 --> 00:16:19,027 (FUSSES) 230 00:16:19,030 --> 00:16:20,963 (PANTS) 231 00:16:26,405 --> 00:16:28,472 (MOANING) 232 00:16:35,449 --> 00:16:37,517 If Jerome had hoped for a break 233 00:16:37,519 --> 00:16:41,020 from what was for him now mostly strenuous work, 234 00:16:41,023 --> 00:16:43,290 he could forget about it. 235 00:16:51,035 --> 00:16:52,502 Fill all my holes. 236 00:16:52,504 --> 00:16:54,404 I can't, Joe. 237 00:16:55,341 --> 00:16:57,141 I'm sorry. 238 00:16:59,012 --> 00:17:00,546 I'm sorry. 239 00:17:05,586 --> 00:17:07,153 Can we talk about it? 240 00:17:07,156 --> 00:17:08,990 Of course. 241 00:17:14,230 --> 00:17:16,965 I love you, I love your wildness and your desire. 242 00:17:21,339 --> 00:17:24,174 At the moment I don't seem to satisfy you in the way that I'd like to. 243 00:17:26,327 --> 00:17:29,247 Don't get upset, Joe. It doesn't mean we won't continue with our sex life, 244 00:17:29,250 --> 00:17:31,117 which is very important to me. (SNIFFS) 245 00:17:32,620 --> 00:17:34,521 Very important to me. 246 00:17:36,425 --> 00:17:38,126 Mmm, when you buy a tiger, 247 00:17:39,261 --> 00:17:41,896 right? You also have to feed it. 248 00:17:41,899 --> 00:17:45,401 Um, satisfy it, 249 00:17:45,404 --> 00:17:47,337 right? (SNIFFS) 250 00:17:53,980 --> 00:17:55,580 Long story short: 251 00:17:55,582 --> 00:17:58,417 I have a tiger on my hands. 252 00:17:58,420 --> 00:18:00,219 - You mean I'm too much for you. - No. 253 00:18:01,656 --> 00:18:03,557 You're just the way you should be. 254 00:18:03,559 --> 00:18:05,526 I was just thinking if you would consider 255 00:18:05,529 --> 00:18:07,963 that I get a little help with the feeding, that's all. 256 00:18:10,534 --> 00:18:13,502 You're saying I should have sex with others as well. 257 00:18:20,245 --> 00:18:23,381 That's a rather cruel way of putting it, Joe, but... 258 00:18:24,952 --> 00:18:26,653 - But exact. - Exact. 259 00:18:32,227 --> 00:18:33,494 (SIGHS) 260 00:18:37,201 --> 00:18:39,235 (LAUGHS) 261 00:18:39,237 --> 00:18:41,337 JOE'S VOICE: For a long time I'd been playing around 262 00:18:41,340 --> 00:18:44,274 with the idea that the concept of the fuck-me-now clothes 263 00:18:44,276 --> 00:18:46,043 could be improved... 264 00:18:46,979 --> 00:18:48,480 You look nice. 265 00:18:48,482 --> 00:18:50,615 And became the piano teacher. 266 00:19:06,570 --> 00:19:08,371 DRIVER: You okay? 267 00:19:08,373 --> 00:19:09,706 No. 268 00:19:09,709 --> 00:19:11,175 What's the matter? 269 00:19:11,177 --> 00:19:12,710 Well, I'm such an idiot with cars. 270 00:19:12,712 --> 00:19:15,312 I don't really know what to do. Do you mind helping me? 271 00:19:17,150 --> 00:19:18,617 MAN: Well, of course it won't work. 272 00:19:18,620 --> 00:19:20,486 Sparkplug caps have been removed. 273 00:19:20,488 --> 00:19:22,355 Yes, I did that. 274 00:19:22,358 --> 00:19:24,425 Was that wrong? 275 00:19:24,427 --> 00:19:26,628 - (MAN SNORTS) - JOE'S VOICE: For the first time I had 276 00:19:26,630 --> 00:19:29,264 the pleasure of having an 8-cylinder car. 277 00:19:29,266 --> 00:19:32,567 The possible combinations of eight spark-plug caps 278 00:19:32,570 --> 00:19:37,039 on eight spark plugs are 40,320, 279 00:19:37,042 --> 00:19:39,242 if I remembered my math correctly. 280 00:19:40,179 --> 00:19:42,046 And only one of these 281 00:19:42,048 --> 00:19:43,781 will make the car run, 282 00:19:43,784 --> 00:19:46,218 which gave me all the time I needed. 283 00:19:46,220 --> 00:19:47,786 - ("FRELISE" PLAYING) - MAN: Beethoven, huh? 284 00:19:47,789 --> 00:19:49,756 He was certainly very good, but, you know, 285 00:19:49,758 --> 00:19:52,158 - he couldn't write a fugue. - You think so? 286 00:19:52,161 --> 00:19:54,428 Well... 287 00:19:54,430 --> 00:19:56,130 Yeah, I think so. 288 00:19:56,133 --> 00:19:58,533 ("FRELISE" CONTINUING) 289 00:20:11,718 --> 00:20:14,553 It would be more precise to say that Beethoven 290 00:20:14,555 --> 00:20:16,789 renewed the fugue... 291 00:20:18,426 --> 00:20:22,062 But he was such a visionary that the old bach purists, 292 00:20:22,065 --> 00:20:24,465 they accused him of not mastering it. 293 00:20:47,395 --> 00:20:48,862 Good day? 294 00:20:53,136 --> 00:20:54,770 (TILE SHATTERS) 295 00:20:57,375 --> 00:21:00,443 ("FRELISE" CONTINUING) 296 00:21:21,471 --> 00:21:23,306 JOE'S VOICE: And now to reach the heart 297 00:21:23,308 --> 00:21:25,274 of your suffering Western church, 298 00:21:25,277 --> 00:21:27,844 I have to jump ahead three years in the story 299 00:21:27,846 --> 00:21:30,314 and talk about my meeting 300 00:21:30,317 --> 00:21:32,217 with what I would call 301 00:21:32,219 --> 00:21:33,985 "the dangerous men." 302 00:21:39,360 --> 00:21:42,362 I was alone with marcel a lot during this period, 303 00:21:42,365 --> 00:21:45,333 as Jerome was traveling most of the time. 304 00:21:45,336 --> 00:21:47,536 And when he was finally home, 305 00:21:47,538 --> 00:21:50,739 he spent most of the time accusing me of neglecting marcel, 306 00:21:50,742 --> 00:21:52,775 which in my opinion 307 00:21:52,777 --> 00:21:56,412 was just a cover for his anger over my lovers. 308 00:21:56,415 --> 00:22:00,184 Any sexual satisfaction, let alone orgasm, 309 00:22:00,187 --> 00:22:02,787 was further away than ever before. 310 00:22:04,524 --> 00:22:06,259 (MEN SPEAKING FOREIGN LANGUAGE) 311 00:22:12,501 --> 00:22:14,736 I had to make a change. 312 00:22:14,739 --> 00:22:17,740 And somehow the inspiration had been right there 313 00:22:17,743 --> 00:22:20,944 beneath my window the whole time. 314 00:22:20,946 --> 00:22:23,880 I could feel that it turned me on enormously 315 00:22:23,883 --> 00:22:26,884 to imagine a sexual situation 316 00:22:26,887 --> 00:22:30,822 in which verbal communication was impossible. 317 00:22:34,229 --> 00:22:35,696 - Hello. - Hello. 318 00:22:35,698 --> 00:22:37,498 I'm Tobias, the interpreter. 319 00:22:37,500 --> 00:22:40,301 Hello, I'm Joe. Come in. 320 00:22:40,304 --> 00:22:42,971 I understand that you master the African languages. 321 00:22:42,974 --> 00:22:45,041 I do have a basis. 322 00:22:46,444 --> 00:22:48,345 Who and what needs interpretation? 323 00:22:48,347 --> 00:22:50,747 Um, that man... 324 00:22:51,917 --> 00:22:53,785 The one with the green jacket? 325 00:22:53,787 --> 00:22:57,789 You are to ask him if he wants to have sex with me. 326 00:22:58,893 --> 00:23:00,493 Yeah? Um... 327 00:23:05,667 --> 00:23:08,336 (NO DISCERNABLE DIALOG) 328 00:23:25,459 --> 00:23:27,326 Is it a go? 329 00:23:27,329 --> 00:23:29,529 TOBIAS: It's hard to say. 330 00:23:29,531 --> 00:23:32,399 I've written down the time and the place, 331 00:23:32,402 --> 00:23:34,001 but, um... 332 00:23:35,538 --> 00:23:37,840 Honestly I wouldn't like to take responsibility 333 00:23:37,842 --> 00:23:40,008 for the precise wording in this case, 334 00:23:40,011 --> 00:23:42,078 which I think, uh, 335 00:23:42,080 --> 00:23:44,447 accidentally may belong 336 00:23:44,450 --> 00:23:46,717 to a grey zone in my profession. 337 00:23:49,422 --> 00:23:52,090 JOE'S VOICE: It was the address of a cheap hotel. 338 00:23:52,093 --> 00:23:55,928 (MEN ARGUING IN FOREIGN LANGUAGE) 339 00:24:00,703 --> 00:24:02,404 SELIGMAN'S VOICE: Why were there two? 340 00:24:02,406 --> 00:24:04,105 JOE'S VOICE: My words exactly. 341 00:24:04,108 --> 00:24:07,877 Apparently n had brought his brother along. 342 00:24:07,879 --> 00:24:09,812 Very sorry. Sorry sorry sorry. 343 00:24:11,382 --> 00:24:13,583 (CHATTING) 344 00:24:41,787 --> 00:24:43,755 (ARGUING) 345 00:25:13,961 --> 00:25:15,161 (SIGHS) 346 00:25:21,536 --> 00:25:23,704 (GRUMBLING) 347 00:25:42,997 --> 00:25:45,732 - (MOANING) - (N SPEAKING) 348 00:25:52,008 --> 00:25:54,142 (MEN ARGUING) 349 00:26:01,953 --> 00:26:02,953 (GROANING) 350 00:26:06,025 --> 00:26:07,859 (ARGUING) 351 00:26:16,071 --> 00:26:18,239 SELIGMAN'S VOICE: Why was he so angry? 352 00:26:18,241 --> 00:26:21,609 JOE'S VOICE: Clearly it was something personal between them, 353 00:26:21,612 --> 00:26:24,279 but later I heard that performing a sandwich 354 00:26:24,282 --> 00:26:26,816 requires great sensitivity, 355 00:26:26,818 --> 00:26:29,986 since the men apparently can feel each other through the tissue. 356 00:26:29,989 --> 00:26:33,057 I imagine the quarrel had already started 357 00:26:33,060 --> 00:26:36,661 on the stairs and that one or the other party 358 00:26:36,664 --> 00:26:39,599 had laid claim to one or the other of my holes 359 00:26:39,602 --> 00:26:42,336 in conflict with his negro brother's interests. 360 00:26:43,572 --> 00:26:45,273 You shouldn't use that word. 361 00:26:45,275 --> 00:26:48,009 It's not what you call politically correct... 362 00:26:48,012 --> 00:26:51,246 - "negro." - Well, excuse me, 363 00:26:51,248 --> 00:26:53,315 but in my circles 364 00:26:53,318 --> 00:26:56,219 it's always been a mark of honor to call a spade a spade. 365 00:26:57,556 --> 00:27:00,124 Each time a word becomes prohibited, 366 00:27:00,127 --> 00:27:03,161 you remove a stone from the Democratic foundation. 367 00:27:03,163 --> 00:27:06,031 Society demonstrates its impotence 368 00:27:06,034 --> 00:27:08,067 in the face of a concrete problem 369 00:27:08,070 --> 00:27:10,137 by removing words from the language. 370 00:27:10,139 --> 00:27:12,339 I think society would claim that... 371 00:27:12,342 --> 00:27:15,610 that politically correctness is a very precise expression 372 00:27:15,612 --> 00:27:18,279 of Democratic concern for minorities. 373 00:27:18,282 --> 00:27:20,950 And I say that society 374 00:27:20,953 --> 00:27:23,587 is as cowardly as the people in it, 375 00:27:23,589 --> 00:27:27,391 who in my opinion are also too stupid for democracy. 376 00:27:29,295 --> 00:27:32,698 I understand your point, but I totally disagree. 377 00:27:32,701 --> 00:27:34,934 I have no doubt in the human qualities. 378 00:27:34,936 --> 00:27:37,737 (SCOFFS) The human qualities 379 00:27:37,740 --> 00:27:39,840 can be expressed in one word: 380 00:27:39,842 --> 00:27:42,009 Hypocrisy. 381 00:27:42,012 --> 00:27:45,313 We elevate those who say "right" but mean "wrong" 382 00:27:45,316 --> 00:27:48,985 and mock those who say "wrong" but mean "right." 383 00:27:54,660 --> 00:27:56,761 By the way, I can assure you 384 00:27:56,763 --> 00:28:00,098 that women who claim that negros don't turn them on, 385 00:28:00,101 --> 00:28:02,902 - they're lying. - So did they satisfy you? 386 00:28:04,005 --> 00:28:05,972 Those ne-negros? 387 00:28:07,042 --> 00:28:09,043 No. 388 00:28:09,045 --> 00:28:11,079 But they showed me that there was a world 389 00:28:11,082 --> 00:28:13,348 far from mine I had to explore. 390 00:28:14,852 --> 00:28:17,887 And there, or perhaps on the other side, 391 00:28:17,890 --> 00:28:20,424 get my life back. 392 00:28:20,426 --> 00:28:22,493 (FOOTSTEPS) 393 00:28:50,730 --> 00:28:52,898 (DOOR OPENS) 394 00:28:59,841 --> 00:29:01,509 Who are you? 395 00:29:03,780 --> 00:29:05,480 I know what you do. 396 00:29:05,482 --> 00:29:07,749 I'd like to be 397 00:29:07,752 --> 00:29:09,485 one of the women you see. 398 00:29:13,491 --> 00:29:15,259 That's of no interest. 399 00:29:21,501 --> 00:29:22,968 Madame. 400 00:29:28,377 --> 00:29:30,278 (DOOR CLOSES) 401 00:29:50,404 --> 00:29:53,072 (FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING) 402 00:29:56,512 --> 00:29:58,379 (DOOR OPENS) 403 00:30:06,057 --> 00:30:07,891 Princess, 404 00:30:07,894 --> 00:30:09,861 I specifically said five days, 405 00:30:09,863 --> 00:30:11,963 and five days haven't gone yet. 406 00:30:13,032 --> 00:30:15,067 So... 407 00:30:15,069 --> 00:30:17,035 You'll have to leave. 408 00:30:17,038 --> 00:30:18,137 I'm sorry. 409 00:30:29,319 --> 00:30:31,220 I, um... 410 00:30:31,222 --> 00:30:34,123 I don't think this is for you. 411 00:30:43,236 --> 00:30:45,404 SELIGMAN'S VOICE: How mysterious. 412 00:30:47,108 --> 00:30:49,276 Will you give me a reasonable explanation now 413 00:30:49,279 --> 00:30:51,979 or shall we wait? 414 00:30:53,316 --> 00:30:55,417 I can't give you an explanation, 415 00:30:55,419 --> 00:30:57,552 and certainly not a reasonable... 416 00:30:59,023 --> 00:31:01,491 What exactly were the rumors about him? 417 00:31:03,328 --> 00:31:04,862 That he was violent. 418 00:31:04,864 --> 00:31:06,997 How can that be inciting? 419 00:31:11,271 --> 00:31:13,873 I think the easiest way to understand it 420 00:31:13,876 --> 00:31:16,677 is to refer to my rebellious nature. 421 00:31:18,047 --> 00:31:20,381 This business of k's was 422 00:31:20,383 --> 00:31:23,184 something I was completely against. 423 00:31:23,187 --> 00:31:26,288 So the fact that I was now contacting him was 424 00:31:26,291 --> 00:31:28,358 a last, desperate attempt 425 00:31:28,360 --> 00:31:30,427 to rehabilitate my sexuality. 426 00:31:32,464 --> 00:31:35,433 The system was the overriding factor with k. 427 00:31:36,903 --> 00:31:38,270 A system of violence? 428 00:31:39,606 --> 00:31:42,642 Well, you were the one 429 00:31:42,645 --> 00:31:46,213 who insisted on the Western church, right? 430 00:31:46,216 --> 00:31:49,150 And I... I seem to remember 431 00:31:49,152 --> 00:31:52,253 that the systematic approach 432 00:31:52,256 --> 00:31:55,191 to the crucifixion is of a violent 433 00:31:55,194 --> 00:31:57,294 and not to say sadistic nature. 434 00:31:57,296 --> 00:31:59,162 Oh yes, the passion of Christ 435 00:31:59,165 --> 00:32:01,165 is full of systematic violence... 436 00:32:01,167 --> 00:32:02,567 the via dolorosa, 437 00:32:02,570 --> 00:32:04,336 the nine stations of the cross 438 00:32:04,338 --> 00:32:05,771 and the 39 lashes. 439 00:32:23,595 --> 00:32:26,730 (DOOR OPENS, CLOSES) 440 00:32:30,069 --> 00:32:31,803 You are beginning to irritate me. 441 00:32:42,584 --> 00:32:44,152 Stand up. 442 00:32:56,235 --> 00:32:58,370 I just want you to sit 443 00:32:58,372 --> 00:33:00,839 completely relaxed... 444 00:33:02,476 --> 00:33:04,644 While I hit you in the face. 445 00:33:04,647 --> 00:33:07,147 Nothing special. 446 00:33:07,149 --> 00:33:09,183 It's just a... 447 00:33:09,186 --> 00:33:11,419 it's just a slap. 448 00:33:16,227 --> 00:33:18,228 Are you ready? 449 00:33:21,467 --> 00:33:22,834 (GRUNTS) 450 00:33:30,077 --> 00:33:31,544 - (GRUNTS) - (YELPS) 451 00:33:39,422 --> 00:33:41,189 Let me tell you the rules then. 452 00:33:41,192 --> 00:33:42,725 (SNIFFS) 453 00:33:44,161 --> 00:33:46,562 The first rule is that I don't fuck you 454 00:33:46,565 --> 00:33:49,633 and that there isn't any discussions about that. 455 00:33:51,337 --> 00:33:53,838 Then what do you get out of it? 456 00:33:53,841 --> 00:33:55,541 That's my business 457 00:33:55,543 --> 00:33:58,844 and I don't want you to mention it again. 458 00:33:58,847 --> 00:34:01,581 The second rule is that we have no safe word. 459 00:34:03,452 --> 00:34:06,354 Meaning that if you, uh, go inside with me, 460 00:34:06,357 --> 00:34:08,790 there is nothing that you can say 461 00:34:08,792 --> 00:34:10,559 that will make me stop 462 00:34:10,562 --> 00:34:13,196 any plan or procedure. 463 00:34:14,599 --> 00:34:18,435 You must bring a brown used leather riding crop. 464 00:34:20,506 --> 00:34:23,708 And not one from a shop selling sex toys. 465 00:34:24,845 --> 00:34:26,812 It's not a masquerade. 466 00:34:28,816 --> 00:34:31,518 Third rule: 467 00:34:31,521 --> 00:34:33,888 If I choose to let you in, 468 00:34:33,891 --> 00:34:36,892 you have to be sitting out here. 469 00:34:36,894 --> 00:34:39,195 In other words, you... 470 00:34:39,198 --> 00:34:41,331 you won't know when. 471 00:34:41,333 --> 00:34:42,899 Only that it will be 472 00:34:42,902 --> 00:34:44,635 sometime between... 473 00:34:45,738 --> 00:34:47,472 2:00 and 6:00 at night. 474 00:34:47,474 --> 00:34:49,608 I can't stay here that late. 475 00:34:49,610 --> 00:34:52,444 My babysitter's not reliable and... 476 00:34:52,447 --> 00:34:53,980 I can't leave my child. 477 00:34:56,351 --> 00:34:58,419 You don't even know my name! 478 00:34:58,422 --> 00:35:00,422 I'm not interested in your name. 479 00:35:02,192 --> 00:35:03,993 Here your name is... 480 00:35:06,798 --> 00:35:08,298 Fido. 481 00:35:16,409 --> 00:35:18,544 (BABY FUSSING) 482 00:35:22,718 --> 00:35:24,452 BABYSITTER: Marcel's awake. 483 00:35:24,454 --> 00:35:26,621 D'you want to say goodbye to your mom? 484 00:35:27,624 --> 00:35:29,391 (KISSES) Goodbye. 485 00:35:31,929 --> 00:35:33,396 (KISSES) 486 00:35:40,640 --> 00:35:42,440 I'll take your coat. 487 00:36:02,833 --> 00:36:04,934 I'd like you to have your hair up. 488 00:36:06,605 --> 00:36:07,938 You can use this. 489 00:36:09,442 --> 00:36:11,310 Just in case it becomes necessary for me 490 00:36:11,312 --> 00:36:12,678 to hit you in the face. 491 00:36:13,947 --> 00:36:15,615 Should I take my clothes off? 492 00:36:17,352 --> 00:36:19,286 I'll tell you what to do... 493 00:36:19,288 --> 00:36:21,021 And when. 494 00:36:24,261 --> 00:36:25,661 Now you may bend down. 495 00:36:25,663 --> 00:36:27,330 How? 496 00:36:29,267 --> 00:36:30,934 Approach the chair. 497 00:36:32,805 --> 00:36:34,072 Now bend from the hips. 498 00:36:37,844 --> 00:36:39,645 Look forward. Look forward. 499 00:36:39,647 --> 00:36:41,880 With your head up. Head up. 500 00:36:41,883 --> 00:36:43,783 Keep looking forward. 501 00:36:48,290 --> 00:36:50,391 (BANGING) 502 00:36:50,394 --> 00:36:52,527 Keep looking forward. 503 00:36:57,335 --> 00:36:58,635 You may stand up. 504 00:37:00,740 --> 00:37:02,374 We have to use the couch. 505 00:37:02,376 --> 00:37:03,942 (GRUNTS) 506 00:37:05,379 --> 00:37:06,379 Come this way. 507 00:37:09,584 --> 00:37:11,518 Take it easy, take it easy. 508 00:37:13,622 --> 00:37:15,056 Bend over. 509 00:37:17,827 --> 00:37:19,795 Lay your arms out straight. 510 00:37:28,373 --> 00:37:30,508 (HEAVY BREATHING) 511 00:37:30,511 --> 00:37:31,877 Take it easy. 512 00:37:31,879 --> 00:37:34,179 - Take it easy. - (METAL CLICKS) 513 00:37:41,957 --> 00:37:44,092 (PANTING) 514 00:37:57,709 --> 00:37:59,577 (WHISPERS) Take it easy. 515 00:38:31,886 --> 00:38:33,587 Next time don't wear knickers. 516 00:38:51,110 --> 00:38:53,645 (RAGGED BREATHING) 517 00:38:56,850 --> 00:38:58,518 (SOBS) 518 00:38:59,654 --> 00:39:01,255 Your ass is not high enough. 519 00:39:02,724 --> 00:39:04,525 I don't think we can do this today. 520 00:39:04,528 --> 00:39:06,160 What? 521 00:39:12,837 --> 00:39:15,071 I'd like to see you again on Thursday. 522 00:39:22,048 --> 00:39:24,249 What's wrong? 523 00:39:24,252 --> 00:39:26,786 I think we should see how it goes on Thursday. 524 00:39:33,896 --> 00:39:35,897 (BANGS) 525 00:39:35,899 --> 00:39:39,634 (DIALS, RINGS) 526 00:39:39,637 --> 00:39:42,071 BABYSITTER'S VOICE: Hi, I can't come to the phone right now. 527 00:39:42,074 --> 00:39:43,941 Please leave a message. (BEEPS) 528 00:39:43,943 --> 00:39:47,177 Yes, this is marcel's mother again. 529 00:39:47,180 --> 00:39:49,781 Uh, it's now 1:30. 530 00:39:49,784 --> 00:39:52,184 We had an agreement. 531 00:39:52,186 --> 00:39:55,955 I hope you get this message and come as quickly as you can. 532 00:39:57,993 --> 00:40:00,795 Uh, marcel is sleeping. 533 00:40:00,798 --> 00:40:02,731 Um... 534 00:40:02,733 --> 00:40:04,733 I have to go now. 535 00:41:00,637 --> 00:41:02,238 Better. 536 00:41:22,064 --> 00:41:23,898 Also so much better. 537 00:41:23,901 --> 00:41:25,967 So much better. 538 00:41:33,011 --> 00:41:35,345 I am now going to hit you 12 times 539 00:41:35,348 --> 00:41:37,882 - no matter how much you scream... - (TAPS CROP) 540 00:41:37,884 --> 00:41:40,118 'cause no one can hear you down here. 541 00:41:45,193 --> 00:41:47,294 (SCREAMS, GASPS) 542 00:41:47,297 --> 00:41:49,063 That's, uh... 543 00:41:49,065 --> 00:41:51,499 that's not how it goes. 544 00:41:53,369 --> 00:41:55,904 Most people don't scream until I hit them. 545 00:42:08,055 --> 00:42:09,455 (GULPS) 546 00:42:09,457 --> 00:42:11,190 - (BLOW STRIKES) - (WHIMPERS) 547 00:42:13,394 --> 00:42:14,995 (BLOW STRIKES) 548 00:42:14,997 --> 00:42:17,331 (BREATHING HEAVILY) 549 00:42:23,775 --> 00:42:25,041 (MOANS) 550 00:42:34,354 --> 00:42:36,455 Oh! 551 00:42:45,134 --> 00:42:47,936 (SNIFFLING) 552 00:42:57,449 --> 00:42:59,250 That's it. 553 00:43:03,290 --> 00:43:04,557 Thank you. 554 00:43:05,893 --> 00:43:07,093 You're very welcome. 555 00:43:13,069 --> 00:43:16,438 I don't know where we get our sexuality from 556 00:43:16,440 --> 00:43:19,842 or where tendencies of this kind come from. 557 00:43:21,546 --> 00:43:24,782 Probably a perversion created in our childhood 558 00:43:24,784 --> 00:43:27,284 that never manifested itself before. 559 00:43:27,287 --> 00:43:29,321 Well, oddly enough, 560 00:43:29,324 --> 00:43:31,891 Freud says the opposite. 561 00:43:31,893 --> 00:43:35,328 He talks about the polymorphic perversion of a child. 562 00:43:35,331 --> 00:43:37,798 Meaning that in a child, 563 00:43:37,801 --> 00:43:40,235 all kinds of perversions exist. 564 00:43:41,404 --> 00:43:43,439 And then we use the childhood 565 00:43:43,441 --> 00:43:45,541 to diminish or remove some of them. 566 00:43:47,078 --> 00:43:50,146 Basically a child is sexually polymorphic 567 00:43:50,149 --> 00:43:53,184 and everything is sexuality in an infant. 568 00:43:55,088 --> 00:43:57,289 And yet it was deeply bizarre 569 00:43:57,291 --> 00:43:59,424 to lie there 570 00:43:59,427 --> 00:44:01,561 and especially to want to lie there. 571 00:44:01,563 --> 00:44:05,131 It is an interesting point that you actually lubricated 572 00:44:05,134 --> 00:44:08,102 in expectation for a pain 573 00:44:08,105 --> 00:44:10,138 that you hadn't experienced. 574 00:44:11,575 --> 00:44:14,043 Your body prepared itself 575 00:44:14,046 --> 00:44:17,047 for an intercourse that you knew wouldn't happen. 576 00:44:19,485 --> 00:44:22,320 JOE'S VOICE: I can only describe the mood as sexual. 577 00:44:23,890 --> 00:44:26,058 As I twisted and turned 578 00:44:26,060 --> 00:44:28,160 while he was whipping me, 579 00:44:28,163 --> 00:44:30,597 I could feel how clever his knots were. 580 00:44:32,200 --> 00:44:34,969 If I fought them, they would get tighter, 581 00:44:34,972 --> 00:44:37,306 and as I relaxed, 582 00:44:37,308 --> 00:44:39,074 it seemed they did too. 583 00:44:40,277 --> 00:44:42,512 I don't know what kind of knot 584 00:44:42,514 --> 00:44:45,248 k used... 585 00:44:46,217 --> 00:44:48,118 But I know of a knot 586 00:44:48,121 --> 00:44:51,423 that tightens when force is exerted 587 00:44:51,426 --> 00:44:54,193 and vice versa. It's called a prusik knot. 588 00:44:55,964 --> 00:44:59,333 It's after a man called prusik. He was a Mountain climber. 589 00:44:59,336 --> 00:45:01,536 And he and a friend were out climbing 590 00:45:01,538 --> 00:45:04,038 and they had an accident 591 00:45:04,041 --> 00:45:05,975 and his friend died. 592 00:45:05,977 --> 00:45:09,111 And he ended up hanging at the end of a rope 593 00:45:09,114 --> 00:45:12,382 with no possibility of getting up. 594 00:45:12,385 --> 00:45:15,920 You know, you can't climb up a Mountain-climber rope. 595 00:45:15,923 --> 00:45:18,056 It's too thin. 596 00:45:18,058 --> 00:45:19,958 But he was an intelligent man, 597 00:45:19,961 --> 00:45:23,529 and with his back to the wall he was a genius. 598 00:45:25,166 --> 00:45:28,268 And he took the shoelaces out of his boots 599 00:45:28,271 --> 00:45:32,707 and made two loops and affixed them to the rope. 600 00:45:32,710 --> 00:45:34,677 And he could move these up 601 00:45:34,679 --> 00:45:36,645 when they weren't under tension. 602 00:45:36,648 --> 00:45:39,082 And then he could step into them 603 00:45:39,084 --> 00:45:41,318 and climb the rope and save himself. 604 00:45:41,321 --> 00:45:43,187 (PEBBLES CLATTERING) 605 00:45:43,189 --> 00:45:45,023 Prusik. 606 00:45:48,329 --> 00:45:51,431 I think this was one of your weakest digressions. 607 00:45:55,637 --> 00:45:57,471 May I continue? 608 00:45:57,474 --> 00:45:59,808 Well, be my guest. 609 00:46:05,617 --> 00:46:08,752 (COINS CLINKING) 610 00:46:29,447 --> 00:46:31,147 (EXHALES) 611 00:46:45,233 --> 00:46:48,235 I sometimes give a Christmas present. 612 00:46:49,572 --> 00:46:52,740 But, uh, you have to do the work yourself. 613 00:47:07,760 --> 00:47:09,595 This is called a blood knot. 614 00:47:09,597 --> 00:47:12,397 You have to make nine ropes 615 00:47:12,400 --> 00:47:14,467 with three blood knots on each. 616 00:47:14,470 --> 00:47:16,470 Let me see you do it. 617 00:47:16,472 --> 00:47:19,140 You decide whether to make four, 618 00:47:19,143 --> 00:47:21,309 five or six turns 619 00:47:21,311 --> 00:47:22,878 in the various knots. 620 00:48:11,473 --> 00:48:14,309 (RAGGED BREATHING) 621 00:48:42,678 --> 00:48:44,813 (PLOW BEEPING) 622 00:48:59,799 --> 00:49:01,567 (TICKING) 623 00:49:02,970 --> 00:49:05,538 - (MARCEL COOS) - (TRUCK ENGINE STOPS) 624 00:49:06,742 --> 00:49:09,944 (BEEPING, ENGINE STARTS) 625 00:49:12,483 --> 00:49:15,351 (GRUNTING) 626 00:49:23,229 --> 00:49:25,563 (BABBLING) 627 00:49:28,335 --> 00:49:30,636 (OPERA MUSIC PLAYING) 628 00:49:49,395 --> 00:49:51,430 (COOS) 629 00:50:19,599 --> 00:50:21,133 Joe? 630 00:50:22,870 --> 00:50:24,771 Hello. 631 00:50:34,985 --> 00:50:36,619 Marcel? 632 00:50:39,891 --> 00:50:41,592 Marcel! 633 00:50:45,097 --> 00:50:48,400 (MARCEL CRYING) 634 00:50:50,671 --> 00:50:52,773 (WAILING) 635 00:51:09,494 --> 00:51:11,862 (SCRATCHES) 636 00:51:15,536 --> 00:51:17,570 Are you fond of me still? 637 00:51:17,572 --> 00:51:20,706 - Yes. - More fond of me than the others? 638 00:51:23,679 --> 00:51:25,079 - Yes? - JOE: Yes. 639 00:51:27,082 --> 00:51:29,202 You're not thinking of leaving again tonight, are you? 640 00:51:30,120 --> 00:51:31,787 - No. - No? 641 00:51:31,790 --> 00:51:34,124 - No no. Not at all. - Are you sure? 642 00:51:35,828 --> 00:51:37,161 Yeah. 643 00:51:37,163 --> 00:51:38,963 Are you lying to me, Joe? 644 00:51:39,899 --> 00:51:41,733 - No. - Be honest. 645 00:51:41,735 --> 00:51:43,802 It's all right. 646 00:51:43,805 --> 00:51:47,140 Just fucking say it. 647 00:51:47,142 --> 00:51:49,409 No, I... I just want to be here. 648 00:51:49,412 --> 00:51:50,711 Why? 649 00:51:54,917 --> 00:51:56,718 I don't know. 650 00:52:02,894 --> 00:52:04,728 If you leave tonight... 651 00:52:06,565 --> 00:52:09,534 You'll never see me or marcel ever again in your life. 652 00:52:13,474 --> 00:52:15,108 Do you understand? 653 00:53:13,014 --> 00:53:15,616 (SOBBING) 654 00:53:31,204 --> 00:53:33,339 Is this goodbye? 655 00:53:36,177 --> 00:53:38,912 - (CONTINUES SOBBING) - Is that what you're saying? 656 00:53:38,915 --> 00:53:41,015 Marcel, get up. 657 00:53:41,017 --> 00:53:43,150 - JOE: Stop it. - Is that what you want? 658 00:53:44,320 --> 00:53:46,755 Here, so you could see him. 659 00:53:46,758 --> 00:53:48,291 Look at him, Joe. 660 00:53:54,700 --> 00:53:56,768 Let's face it, Joe, you're not a mother. 661 00:53:58,104 --> 00:54:00,905 - (SOBBING) - Let's wake him up. 662 00:54:00,908 --> 00:54:03,709 Marcel, baby boy, 663 00:54:03,712 --> 00:54:06,213 - say, "bye, mom." - (FUSSING) 664 00:54:06,215 --> 00:54:08,815 - Please put him back. - Is this what you want? 665 00:54:08,818 --> 00:54:11,052 - Hmm? - (MARCEL CRIES) 666 00:54:11,055 --> 00:54:13,689 - Ma. - You see? 667 00:54:13,691 --> 00:54:16,225 You see, he wants you. 668 00:54:16,228 --> 00:54:18,795 Come. 669 00:54:20,799 --> 00:54:22,933 It's Christmas. It's fucking Christmas. 670 00:54:40,290 --> 00:54:42,358 (FOOTSTEPS) 671 00:54:42,360 --> 00:54:44,727 (DOOR OPENS) 672 00:54:46,297 --> 00:54:48,031 What is this? 673 00:54:49,902 --> 00:54:52,437 Today it's madame who must wait. 674 00:55:01,183 --> 00:55:03,317 Madame, I'm very sorry, 675 00:55:03,319 --> 00:55:06,754 but I have to have a few words with fido first. 676 00:55:26,347 --> 00:55:28,815 I really ought to send you home. 677 00:55:50,878 --> 00:55:52,445 Happy Christmas, fido. 678 00:56:52,487 --> 00:56:54,956 (PANTS) 679 00:56:54,959 --> 00:56:57,159 (WHISPERS) I want your cock. 680 00:56:57,161 --> 00:56:58,560 What did you say? 681 00:56:58,563 --> 00:57:01,798 (INHALES) I want your cock. 682 00:57:01,800 --> 00:57:03,466 No. No, you don't. 683 00:57:03,469 --> 00:57:05,369 - No, you don't. No. - (SOBS) 684 00:57:08,541 --> 00:57:10,442 What's the matter with you today? 685 00:57:32,371 --> 00:57:34,939 On account of the holidays 686 00:57:34,941 --> 00:57:37,308 and your behavior today, 687 00:57:37,311 --> 00:57:40,479 I'm going to give you the original Roman maximum 688 00:57:40,482 --> 00:57:43,216 of 40 lashes. Are you ready, fido? 689 00:57:45,153 --> 00:57:47,121 I'm ready. 690 00:57:53,297 --> 00:57:54,597 One. 691 00:57:56,868 --> 00:57:58,001 Two. 692 00:57:58,970 --> 00:58:01,271 - (YELPS) - Three. 693 00:58:03,877 --> 00:58:05,244 Four. 694 00:58:06,279 --> 00:58:07,613 Five. 695 00:58:09,984 --> 00:58:11,318 Six. 696 00:58:13,055 --> 00:58:15,323 (PANTING) 697 00:58:24,536 --> 00:58:27,171 JOE'S VOICE: I'd seen through k's knot technique, 698 00:58:27,173 --> 00:58:31,041 so I was able to loosen my position a bit to move my pelvis, 699 00:58:31,044 --> 00:58:34,746 and thereby stimulate my clitoris against the cover of the book. 700 00:58:51,102 --> 00:58:53,303 (GASPING) 701 00:59:01,548 --> 00:59:03,349 (LOUD MOANING) 702 00:59:12,995 --> 00:59:15,096 And when you came home, 703 00:59:15,099 --> 00:59:17,500 Jerome and the child were gone? 704 00:59:24,643 --> 00:59:27,211 I haven't seen marcel since. 705 00:59:29,750 --> 00:59:31,451 (SHATTERS) 706 00:59:31,453 --> 00:59:33,520 The sentimentality of... 707 00:59:33,522 --> 00:59:35,321 I hate it. 708 00:59:39,162 --> 00:59:40,395 Why? 709 00:59:40,397 --> 00:59:42,731 Because it's a lie. 710 00:59:46,638 --> 00:59:48,505 Are you sure? 711 00:59:51,444 --> 00:59:53,545 (POTTERY SCRAPES) 712 00:59:55,549 --> 00:59:58,117 Jerome understood that he couldn't prioritize 713 00:59:58,119 --> 01:00:01,353 his life according to a child either. 714 01:00:02,791 --> 01:00:05,093 So he put him in a foster home. 715 01:00:08,798 --> 01:00:11,600 My only contact to the boy is the thousand pounds 716 01:00:11,603 --> 01:00:13,570 I put in his account every month. 717 01:00:14,505 --> 01:00:16,539 Anonymously. 718 01:00:18,677 --> 01:00:20,711 As a penance. 719 01:00:38,535 --> 01:00:40,870 After all this sadness, may I ask... 720 01:00:43,742 --> 01:00:45,743 What happened to the silent duck? 721 01:00:45,745 --> 01:00:48,112 Oh shit. 722 01:00:48,115 --> 01:00:52,351 The silent duck. I'd forgotten all about it. 723 01:00:54,522 --> 01:00:57,090 One night k had been in what was for him 724 01:00:57,093 --> 01:00:58,859 an unusually good mood. 725 01:00:58,861 --> 01:01:01,529 I don't know what caused it, but he didn't hit hard 726 01:01:01,532 --> 01:01:04,199 and he joked that he would introduce me 727 01:01:04,202 --> 01:01:07,370 to the concept of the silent duck. 728 01:01:07,372 --> 01:01:10,206 (SILENT) 729 01:01:25,894 --> 01:01:28,196 SELIGMAN'S VOICE: One hardly dare imagine 730 01:01:28,198 --> 01:01:30,331 "the quacking duck." 731 01:01:30,334 --> 01:01:32,901 (LOUD QUACKING) 732 01:01:39,144 --> 01:01:40,978 Oh. 733 01:01:43,216 --> 01:01:47,619 Well, deep down, little k seems to have been 734 01:01:47,622 --> 01:01:51,257 a jolly man with versatile talents. 735 01:01:51,260 --> 01:01:53,694 But he got that bit about 736 01:01:53,697 --> 01:01:56,464 Roman punishment and the 40 lashes wrong. 737 01:01:56,466 --> 01:02:00,335 Because it's true that the highest punishment was 40 lashes, 738 01:02:00,338 --> 01:02:02,905 but it had to be delivered in series of three. 739 01:02:04,609 --> 01:02:06,710 That's why Jesus only got 39 lashes, 740 01:02:06,713 --> 01:02:08,679 because three goes into 39 741 01:02:08,681 --> 01:02:11,649 but not into 40. 742 01:02:16,757 --> 01:02:17,991 You have a mirror. 743 01:02:18,927 --> 01:02:20,594 Yes. 744 01:02:20,596 --> 01:02:22,830 It's like a thought, isn't it? 745 01:02:27,537 --> 01:02:29,872 Are you ready for another chapter? 746 01:02:29,875 --> 01:02:31,608 Go on. 747 01:02:33,544 --> 01:02:35,612 (RATTLING) 748 01:02:57,341 --> 01:02:59,609 JOE'S VOICE: Some years later, the bodily abuse 749 01:02:59,612 --> 01:03:01,645 began to have an effect. 750 01:03:01,647 --> 01:03:05,282 First, rare bleedings from my clitoris, 751 01:03:05,285 --> 01:03:08,086 but then they became more and more frequent. 752 01:03:17,866 --> 01:03:19,434 WOMAN: Come in. 753 01:03:20,970 --> 01:03:23,806 Have you heard any of the rumors about yourself? 754 01:03:27,879 --> 01:03:30,548 They say you see men every evening. 755 01:03:34,420 --> 01:03:36,288 And spend all night with them. 756 01:03:36,291 --> 01:03:39,025 They say you can't be trusted... all of them. 757 01:03:42,364 --> 01:03:44,431 Why do they say that? 758 01:03:46,769 --> 01:03:48,970 I suppose they're afraid that I... 759 01:03:48,973 --> 01:03:51,841 I can't keep away from their men. 760 01:03:54,979 --> 01:03:56,947 Right. 761 01:03:56,950 --> 01:03:59,684 - And can you? - No. 762 01:04:03,591 --> 01:04:05,725 I've spoken with a psychologist. 763 01:04:07,662 --> 01:04:09,897 He says you're addicted, but that it's not 764 01:04:09,899 --> 01:04:12,500 the kind of addiction that can't be treated. 765 01:04:12,503 --> 01:04:14,469 They have some groups. 766 01:04:15,638 --> 01:04:18,340 I know about these kinds of groups. 767 01:04:18,343 --> 01:04:21,677 I don't have anything to say to a psychologist. 768 01:04:21,680 --> 01:04:24,148 I'm not suggesting therapy. I'm demanding it. 769 01:04:26,118 --> 01:04:28,586 Even if you leave us, it'll be the same at your next job 770 01:04:28,589 --> 01:04:30,456 and the one after that. 771 01:04:38,734 --> 01:04:40,001 My name is Joe... 772 01:04:40,003 --> 01:04:41,636 GROUP: Hi, Joe. 773 01:04:41,639 --> 01:04:43,439 And I'm a nymphomaniac. 774 01:04:43,441 --> 01:04:45,474 THERAPIST: Sex addict. 775 01:04:45,477 --> 01:04:47,944 My name is Joe and I'm a nymphomaniac. 776 01:04:47,946 --> 01:04:49,846 We say sex addict. 777 01:04:49,849 --> 01:04:51,549 Here everyone's the same. 778 01:04:54,520 --> 01:04:56,988 THERAPIST: You should only speak when you feel you have to. 779 01:04:59,560 --> 01:05:01,394 What you're saying is that 780 01:05:01,397 --> 01:05:03,864 no one can remove their sexuality 781 01:05:03,866 --> 01:05:06,533 even though it's destroying everything for them. 782 01:05:06,536 --> 01:05:08,703 I wouldn't say no one. 783 01:05:08,705 --> 01:05:11,072 But let's say, at most, one in a million 784 01:05:11,075 --> 01:05:13,742 manage to live a life without sexuality. 785 01:05:14,879 --> 01:05:16,813 But you can't be basing your therapy 786 01:05:16,815 --> 01:05:18,782 - on that one in a million. - No. 787 01:05:18,785 --> 01:05:21,886 The first and most important step 788 01:05:21,889 --> 01:05:25,157 is to remove incentive and to reduce exposure. 789 01:05:27,595 --> 01:05:30,597 You have to ask yourself what kind of incentives you have 790 01:05:30,600 --> 01:05:34,468 and then make it difficult for yourself to come into contact with them. 791 01:05:34,471 --> 01:05:37,038 Basically anything that makes you think about sex. 792 01:07:50,973 --> 01:07:53,007 Joe has something she'd like to share. 793 01:07:54,978 --> 01:07:56,712 My name is Joe... 794 01:07:56,715 --> 01:07:57,814 GROUP: Hi, Joe. 795 01:07:57,816 --> 01:08:00,116 And I'm a sex addict, 796 01:08:00,118 --> 01:08:03,620 but I haven't had sex for three weeks and five days. 797 01:08:03,623 --> 01:08:06,857 (APPLAUSE) 798 01:08:06,860 --> 01:08:08,627 Tell us how you did it, Joe. 799 01:08:08,629 --> 01:08:11,129 - You brought notes? - Yes. 800 01:08:16,771 --> 01:08:18,672 "Dear everyone," 801 01:08:18,675 --> 01:08:21,009 don't think it's been easy, 802 01:08:21,011 --> 01:08:25,180 "but I understand now that we are all alike." 803 01:08:41,068 --> 01:08:42,302 Are you okay, Joe? 804 01:08:42,305 --> 01:08:44,338 Yes yes. 805 01:08:46,375 --> 01:08:48,210 Would you like a glass of water? 806 01:08:50,447 --> 01:08:51,748 Thank you. 807 01:08:58,057 --> 01:09:00,024 Would you rather share another time? 808 01:09:06,167 --> 01:09:07,968 No, I'd like to speak. 809 01:09:13,709 --> 01:09:15,810 Dear everyone, 810 01:09:15,813 --> 01:09:18,781 don't think it's been easy, 811 01:09:18,784 --> 01:09:21,151 but I understand now 812 01:09:21,153 --> 01:09:23,086 that we're not 813 01:09:23,089 --> 01:09:25,556 and never will be alike. 814 01:09:28,194 --> 01:09:30,028 I'm not like you, 815 01:09:30,030 --> 01:09:32,364 who fucks to be validated 816 01:09:32,367 --> 01:09:35,268 and might just as well give up putting cocks inside you. 817 01:09:35,271 --> 01:09:37,337 And I'm not like you. 818 01:09:37,339 --> 01:09:39,873 All you want is to be filled up, 819 01:09:39,876 --> 01:09:42,377 and whether it's by a man or by tons 820 01:09:42,379 --> 01:09:46,214 of disgusting slop makes no difference. 821 01:09:47,418 --> 01:09:50,153 And I'm definitely not like you. 822 01:09:50,155 --> 01:09:52,522 That empathy you claim 823 01:09:52,525 --> 01:09:54,392 is a lie, 824 01:09:54,394 --> 01:09:58,229 because all you are is society's morality police, 825 01:09:58,232 --> 01:10:02,000 whose duty is to erase my obscenity 826 01:10:02,003 --> 01:10:03,536 from the surface of the earth 827 01:10:03,539 --> 01:10:06,173 so that the bourgeoisie won't feel sick. 828 01:10:07,376 --> 01:10:09,411 I'm not like you. 829 01:10:09,413 --> 01:10:12,814 I am a nymphomaniac, 830 01:10:12,817 --> 01:10:15,384 and I love myself for being one. 831 01:10:15,386 --> 01:10:17,486 But above all, 832 01:10:17,489 --> 01:10:19,456 I love my cunt 833 01:10:19,458 --> 01:10:22,526 and my filthy, dirty lust. 834 01:10:28,002 --> 01:10:30,103 ♪ Watch out ♪ 835 01:10:30,105 --> 01:10:32,339 ♪ you might get ♪ ♪ what you're after ♪ 836 01:10:32,342 --> 01:10:34,208 ♪ cool, babies ♪ 837 01:10:34,210 --> 01:10:37,078 ♪ strange, but not a stranger ♪ 838 01:10:37,081 --> 01:10:41,550 ♪ I'm an ordinary guy ♪ 839 01:10:41,553 --> 01:10:43,653 ♪ burning down the house! ♪ 840 01:10:46,224 --> 01:10:48,826 What just happened? 841 01:10:48,829 --> 01:10:50,462 I didn't get that... 842 01:10:50,464 --> 01:10:52,364 with the car that burned. 843 01:10:52,367 --> 01:10:54,834 No, I'm sorry. 844 01:10:54,836 --> 01:10:58,237 I was just in too much of a hurry to get to the last chapter. 845 01:11:05,382 --> 01:11:08,951 I understood that society had no room for me, 846 01:11:08,954 --> 01:11:11,888 and I had no room for society 847 01:11:11,890 --> 01:11:13,657 and never had. 848 01:11:22,102 --> 01:11:24,270 I'm sure it was quite natural for you 849 01:11:24,272 --> 01:11:26,572 to furnish your room as a monk's cell, 850 01:11:26,575 --> 01:11:30,945 but as an inspiration for the story chapter headings, 851 01:11:30,948 --> 01:11:33,181 it hasn't been easy. 852 01:11:33,183 --> 01:11:37,185 There's simply nothing left for me to use. 853 01:11:38,323 --> 01:11:40,991 Well, I'm sorry about that. 854 01:11:40,993 --> 01:11:44,027 But if I may, I can give you a tip. 855 01:11:45,130 --> 01:11:46,998 Yes, please. 856 01:11:47,001 --> 01:11:50,636 You know, I occupy myself mostly with text, 857 01:11:50,639 --> 01:11:53,273 but sometimes the text can seem so... 858 01:11:54,409 --> 01:11:58,279 So empty, so unfathomably empty. 859 01:11:58,282 --> 01:12:02,384 It could be the best text by the most famous author. 860 01:12:02,387 --> 01:12:05,621 The solution might be to change your point of view. 861 01:12:07,525 --> 01:12:09,226 I-I don't get that. 862 01:12:09,228 --> 01:12:11,462 Things hide... 863 01:12:12,465 --> 01:12:14,432 When they become familiar. 864 01:12:14,435 --> 01:12:17,370 But if you look at them from another angle, 865 01:12:19,140 --> 01:12:21,441 they might take on a new meaning. 866 01:12:33,157 --> 01:12:34,691 You're right. 867 01:12:34,694 --> 01:12:37,161 Before this was just 868 01:12:37,163 --> 01:12:39,463 the stain from the tea I threw. 869 01:12:41,501 --> 01:12:43,735 Can you see what it could be? 870 01:12:46,006 --> 01:12:47,373 SELIGMAN: A revolver. 871 01:12:47,376 --> 01:12:50,644 No, a revolver has a drum that revolves. 872 01:12:50,646 --> 01:12:53,347 It's a pistol. 873 01:12:53,350 --> 01:12:55,417 Can you see what kind it could be? 874 01:12:55,420 --> 01:12:57,253 No, I don't remember 875 01:12:57,255 --> 01:12:59,221 anything like that from my literature. 876 01:12:59,224 --> 01:13:01,758 Oh, but it's something I can remember from mine. 877 01:13:01,760 --> 01:13:02,826 Ian Fleming. 878 01:13:03,996 --> 01:13:05,763 Not familiar. 879 01:13:05,765 --> 01:13:09,267 If you haven't read that, you haven't read anything at all. 880 01:13:11,137 --> 01:13:14,139 This could be, with a little imagination, 881 01:13:14,142 --> 01:13:17,377 a walther p.P.K. Automatic, 882 01:13:17,380 --> 01:13:20,114 the same gun that was issued to bond 883 01:13:20,117 --> 01:13:23,585 after his preferred pistol, the beretta, had jammed. 884 01:13:25,422 --> 01:13:27,323 Is that something you can use? 885 01:13:29,127 --> 01:13:31,295 Oh yes, it is. 886 01:13:31,297 --> 01:13:32,729 ♪ Burning down the house! ♪ 887 01:13:34,433 --> 01:13:36,468 ♪ Hold tight ♪ 888 01:13:36,471 --> 01:13:38,804 ♪ wait till the party's over ♪ 889 01:13:38,806 --> 01:13:40,406 ♪ hold tight... ♪ 890 01:13:40,409 --> 01:13:42,242 JOE'S VOICE: Whether I left society, 891 01:13:42,244 --> 01:13:44,644 or it left me, I cannot say. 892 01:13:44,647 --> 01:13:47,815 I suppose you could make an argument for both sides. 893 01:13:47,817 --> 01:13:49,750 ♪ Burning down the house! ♪ 894 01:13:49,753 --> 01:13:51,820 I was on my way to the shady side 895 01:13:51,822 --> 01:13:53,722 of the debt-collecting business, 896 01:13:53,725 --> 01:13:56,559 which among other things involved stuff 897 01:13:56,562 --> 01:13:58,662 like burning people's cars. 898 01:14:00,666 --> 01:14:04,269 I had for a long time known about this man, I. 899 01:14:09,744 --> 01:14:11,512 Hi, my name is Joe. 900 01:14:12,447 --> 01:14:14,381 I know that. 901 01:14:14,384 --> 01:14:16,451 Come in. 902 01:14:20,423 --> 01:14:22,591 I'm looking for a job. 903 01:14:24,362 --> 01:14:26,229 I've been working in an office, 904 01:14:26,232 --> 01:14:28,166 and I was never really good at it. 905 01:14:28,168 --> 01:14:30,468 I can understand that. I mean, 906 01:14:30,471 --> 01:14:32,504 what's the point? 907 01:14:32,506 --> 01:14:35,174 I believe I possess some qualifications 908 01:14:35,177 --> 01:14:37,844 and that I'm rather unscrupulous. 909 01:14:37,847 --> 01:14:39,713 I know all about your qualifications 910 01:14:39,715 --> 01:14:41,448 and they're excellent. 911 01:14:41,451 --> 01:14:43,518 I would suggest 912 01:14:43,520 --> 01:14:46,655 that you start your own little business 913 01:14:46,658 --> 01:14:48,457 with my help. 914 01:14:48,459 --> 01:14:50,226 I understand 915 01:14:50,229 --> 01:14:53,130 you possess a great deal of insight 916 01:14:53,132 --> 01:14:55,599 about a rather broad spectrum of men. 917 01:14:57,303 --> 01:15:00,438 This could be... or should be capitalized on. 918 01:15:01,641 --> 01:15:03,542 I need sub-contractors who can put 919 01:15:03,545 --> 01:15:05,712 moderate pressure on individuals 920 01:15:05,714 --> 01:15:08,548 with whom my clients rightly or wrongly 921 01:15:08,551 --> 01:15:10,918 have a bone to pick. Understand? 922 01:15:10,921 --> 01:15:12,754 Extortion. 923 01:15:12,756 --> 01:15:13,989 No. No no no no. 924 01:15:15,559 --> 01:15:18,194 I always prefer the term 925 01:15:18,197 --> 01:15:19,763 "debt collection." 926 01:15:21,333 --> 01:15:22,900 - Yeah. - I refrain from judging 927 01:15:22,903 --> 01:15:24,869 whether my clients' wishes 928 01:15:24,871 --> 01:15:27,305 are legitimate or otherwise. 929 01:15:27,308 --> 01:15:29,208 A point of view 930 01:15:29,210 --> 01:15:32,011 I strongly recommend you follow. 931 01:15:33,881 --> 01:15:35,682 JOE'S VOICE: My main qualification of course 932 01:15:35,685 --> 01:15:38,453 was my considerable experience with men and sex. 933 01:15:38,455 --> 01:15:42,023 But even my more specialized skills came in handy. 934 01:15:54,374 --> 01:15:56,275 (MAN PANTING) 935 01:16:03,219 --> 01:16:05,220 (SCREAMS) 936 01:16:05,222 --> 01:16:08,256 No, now this is not how it goes. 937 01:16:08,259 --> 01:16:10,593 You have to wait until you're hit. 938 01:16:11,963 --> 01:16:13,830 (CRACKS) 939 01:16:13,832 --> 01:16:16,967 The two helpers that I had recommended were okay, 940 01:16:16,970 --> 01:16:20,672 but they were predisposed to a rather repetitive technique, 941 01:16:20,675 --> 01:16:24,843 which consisted of creating as much havoc as possible 942 01:16:24,846 --> 01:16:26,980 with a pair of iron bars. 943 01:16:34,524 --> 01:16:35,757 (SHARDS CLATTER) 944 01:16:42,567 --> 01:16:45,936 Destroying your things doesn't seem to have much effect on you. 945 01:16:45,939 --> 01:16:48,373 JOE'S VOICE: Here was a man. 946 01:16:48,376 --> 01:16:50,476 I was unable to read sexually, 947 01:16:50,478 --> 01:16:52,478 so I became persistent. 948 01:16:53,414 --> 01:16:55,115 Tie him to the chair. 949 01:16:56,752 --> 01:16:58,820 Don't hurt him. 950 01:16:58,822 --> 01:17:00,488 (TAPE RIPPING) 951 01:17:02,325 --> 01:17:04,326 I can't find a stain on you, 952 01:17:04,328 --> 01:17:08,464 but my experience tells me that no man is spotless. 953 01:17:08,468 --> 01:17:10,501 Luckily, you're equipped 954 01:17:10,503 --> 01:17:13,070 with a very reliable truth-detector. 955 01:17:21,516 --> 01:17:23,484 (MAN GRUNTS) 956 01:17:23,486 --> 01:17:26,520 I'm going to tell you a few stories. 957 01:17:26,523 --> 01:17:28,957 All you have to do is listen. 958 01:17:30,761 --> 01:17:34,797 You're in a bar watching a couple... 959 01:17:34,800 --> 01:17:37,100 JOE'S VOICE: I now meticulously went through the catalog 960 01:17:37,103 --> 01:17:40,037 of sexual deviations in fictional form. 961 01:17:40,039 --> 01:17:43,641 Stories about sadomasochism, 962 01:17:43,644 --> 01:17:46,512 fetishism, homosexuality, 963 01:17:46,515 --> 01:17:48,381 you name it. 964 01:17:48,383 --> 01:17:49,983 But he didn't react. 965 01:17:49,986 --> 01:17:52,787 And I'd almost given up when I said: 966 01:17:52,789 --> 01:17:56,524 On your way home, you walk through the park. 967 01:18:01,933 --> 01:18:03,734 And something makes you stop. 968 01:18:05,036 --> 01:18:06,970 You hear something. 969 01:18:06,973 --> 01:18:09,174 (SILENT) 970 01:18:20,956 --> 01:18:22,690 Yes, that's it. 971 01:18:22,693 --> 01:18:25,527 You can hear the children on the playground. 972 01:18:27,565 --> 01:18:29,399 You sit on a bench nearby 973 01:18:29,401 --> 01:18:31,634 and watch them play. 974 01:18:32,804 --> 01:18:34,905 There's a little boy in shorts. 975 01:18:36,642 --> 01:18:38,844 He's playing in the sandpit. 976 01:18:40,914 --> 01:18:42,782 He looks at you 977 01:18:42,785 --> 01:18:45,619 with his blue eyes. 978 01:18:47,456 --> 01:18:49,190 He smiles at you. 979 01:18:49,192 --> 01:18:51,726 I think he comes to you. 980 01:18:51,729 --> 01:18:54,763 He sits on your lap 981 01:18:54,766 --> 01:18:56,533 and looks up at your face. 982 01:18:57,635 --> 01:18:59,135 He says 983 01:18:59,138 --> 01:19:01,839 he'd like to come home with you. 984 01:19:05,478 --> 01:19:08,780 At home you can't fight the idea 985 01:19:08,783 --> 01:19:10,950 of being naked together. 986 01:19:10,952 --> 01:19:13,653 He crawls all over you. 987 01:19:13,656 --> 01:19:17,825 - You get an erection. - Won't you please stop? 988 01:19:17,828 --> 01:19:21,496 He lies on his stomach. 989 01:19:21,499 --> 01:19:23,633 You pull down his pants. 990 01:19:24,636 --> 01:19:26,036 I'll pay! 991 01:19:33,079 --> 01:19:35,247 (SOBBING) 992 01:19:58,878 --> 01:20:00,345 You did what? 993 01:20:01,281 --> 01:20:02,949 I gave him a blowjob. 994 01:20:02,951 --> 01:20:04,984 ♪ Why That pig?! ♪ 995 01:20:04,987 --> 01:20:07,788 - I took pity on him. - Pity? 996 01:20:07,790 --> 01:20:11,124 Yes. I had just destroyed his life. 997 01:20:11,127 --> 01:20:14,028 Nobody knew his secret, 998 01:20:14,031 --> 01:20:16,265 most probably not even himself. 999 01:20:17,735 --> 01:20:19,336 He sat there with the shame. 1000 01:20:20,939 --> 01:20:23,841 I suppose I sucked him off as a kind of apology. 1001 01:20:23,843 --> 01:20:25,109 That's unbelievable. 1002 01:20:26,245 --> 01:20:28,113 No, listen to me. This is a man 1003 01:20:28,115 --> 01:20:31,583 who'd succeeded in repressing his own desire, 1004 01:20:31,586 --> 01:20:33,953 who had never before given into it 1005 01:20:33,956 --> 01:20:36,790 right up until I forced it out. 1006 01:20:36,792 --> 01:20:39,193 He had lived a life full of denial 1007 01:20:39,196 --> 01:20:41,596 and had never hurt a soul. 1008 01:20:41,599 --> 01:20:43,332 I think that's laudable. 1009 01:20:44,868 --> 01:20:46,302 No matter how hard I try, 1010 01:20:46,305 --> 01:20:48,839 I can't find anything laudable in pedophilia. 1011 01:20:48,841 --> 01:20:50,574 That's because you think about 1012 01:20:50,577 --> 01:20:53,978 the perhaps 5% who actually hurt children. 1013 01:20:53,981 --> 01:20:56,582 The remaining 95% 1014 01:20:56,584 --> 01:20:59,585 never live out their fantasies. 1015 01:20:59,588 --> 01:21:02,188 Think about their suffering. 1016 01:21:02,191 --> 01:21:04,992 Sexuality is the strongest force 1017 01:21:04,994 --> 01:21:06,861 in human beings. 1018 01:21:06,864 --> 01:21:09,698 To be born with a forbidden sexuality 1019 01:21:09,701 --> 01:21:11,434 must be agonizing. 1020 01:21:12,870 --> 01:21:15,371 The pedophile who manages to get through life 1021 01:21:15,374 --> 01:21:18,042 with the shame of his desire 1022 01:21:18,045 --> 01:21:21,980 while never acting on it deserves a bloody medal. 1023 01:21:27,055 --> 01:21:29,790 But there was another reason for my sympathy, 1024 01:21:29,792 --> 01:21:32,092 which you find so mysterious. 1025 01:21:34,798 --> 01:21:37,900 I saw a man who was carrying the same cross as myself. 1026 01:21:41,038 --> 01:21:43,106 Loneliness. 1027 01:21:46,144 --> 01:21:48,913 We were both sexual outcasts. 1028 01:21:57,859 --> 01:22:00,360 In any case, some years passed, 1029 01:22:00,363 --> 01:22:02,197 during which my business grew, 1030 01:22:02,199 --> 01:22:05,734 enabling me to step up my anonymous deposits 1031 01:22:05,737 --> 01:22:07,303 to marcel. 1032 01:22:08,673 --> 01:22:11,408 Your business is doing great... 1033 01:22:13,145 --> 01:22:16,247 You complete all the jobs I give you to perfection 1034 01:22:16,250 --> 01:22:19,151 and I hear only words of praise from your other clients. 1035 01:22:19,154 --> 01:22:21,121 But... 1036 01:22:21,123 --> 01:22:23,957 - But what? - We aren't getting any younger. 1037 01:22:23,960 --> 01:22:26,794 Oh. No, that's for sure. 1038 01:22:26,796 --> 01:22:29,330 I think you're getting to that age 1039 01:22:29,333 --> 01:22:32,200 where you have to start thinking about a successor. 1040 01:22:32,203 --> 01:22:34,237 Ohhh. 1041 01:22:34,239 --> 01:22:36,539 - I don't need a fucking successor. - Listen. 1042 01:22:37,942 --> 01:22:41,145 A person should take their crime seriously. 1043 01:22:41,148 --> 01:22:43,748 You need someone 1044 01:22:43,751 --> 01:22:46,118 to be your right hand, someone to help you. 1045 01:22:46,120 --> 01:22:48,420 A crown princess. 1046 01:22:50,391 --> 01:22:52,926 The normal process 1047 01:22:52,929 --> 01:22:55,096 is to find out what colleagues 1048 01:22:55,098 --> 01:22:57,498 are in prison or are drug addicts, 1049 01:22:57,501 --> 01:22:59,735 and thereby unable to fulfill 1050 01:22:59,737 --> 01:23:01,303 their roles as parents. 1051 01:23:03,007 --> 01:23:06,276 Then you find out where their kids play football... 1052 01:23:07,479 --> 01:23:09,380 And you get involved. 1053 01:23:09,383 --> 01:23:11,416 You cheer them on for a couple of years 1054 01:23:11,418 --> 01:23:14,319 no matter how bad they are. Actually, the worse, the better. 1055 01:23:14,322 --> 01:23:16,389 That way 1056 01:23:16,392 --> 01:23:19,293 gradually you take on the role of the parent 1057 01:23:19,295 --> 01:23:21,428 until in the end 1058 01:23:21,431 --> 01:23:25,133 you have a loyal helper that will walk through fire for you. 1059 01:23:26,536 --> 01:23:28,304 Even do time for you. 1060 01:23:32,510 --> 01:23:34,110 It sounds like a... 1061 01:23:34,113 --> 01:23:36,881 Kind of an entrapment you're suggesting. 1062 01:23:36,884 --> 01:23:40,052 - An unsavory entrapment. - Call it what you want, 1063 01:23:40,054 --> 01:23:42,454 but if you believe at all 1064 01:23:42,457 --> 01:23:44,557 in the effects of good parenting, 1065 01:23:44,559 --> 01:23:47,093 that kid will have much greater opportunities 1066 01:23:47,096 --> 01:23:49,330 with you as a mentor than without. 1067 01:23:50,833 --> 01:23:52,901 And since I like you, 1068 01:23:52,903 --> 01:23:56,137 I've been looking around for a suitable subject. 1069 01:23:56,140 --> 01:23:59,108 She's 15 years old 1070 01:23:59,111 --> 01:24:02,212 from a family of hardened criminals, 1071 01:24:02,215 --> 01:24:04,515 and she's been through a lot. 1072 01:24:04,517 --> 01:24:07,418 Last couple of years she's been institutionalized. 1073 01:24:07,421 --> 01:24:10,890 Her father is in prison and her mother died of an overdose. 1074 01:24:10,893 --> 01:24:12,459 She's a smart girl. 1075 01:24:12,461 --> 01:24:14,594 And although she doesn't play football, 1076 01:24:14,597 --> 01:24:17,164 she does play basketball... very badly. 1077 01:24:18,401 --> 01:24:21,136 She's chosen a team sport 1078 01:24:21,138 --> 01:24:23,138 because she's lonely. 1079 01:24:24,341 --> 01:24:26,843 I saved the best part for last: 1080 01:24:26,846 --> 01:24:30,147 Her right ear is slightly deformed... 1081 01:24:31,317 --> 01:24:34,286 Which she's very ashamed of, 1082 01:24:34,289 --> 01:24:37,356 and of course this serves to isolate her even more. 1083 01:24:37,358 --> 01:24:39,292 It makes her an easy target 1084 01:24:39,295 --> 01:24:42,462 for even the slightest bit of attention 1085 01:24:42,465 --> 01:24:46,234 or sign of empathy from you. 1086 01:24:50,608 --> 01:24:52,876 JOE'S VOICE: Despite my protests, 1087 01:24:52,878 --> 01:24:54,544 the clever I somehow talked me 1088 01:24:54,547 --> 01:24:56,414 into actually having a look at p. 1089 01:24:56,416 --> 01:24:58,950 (CHEERING) 1090 01:24:58,953 --> 01:25:01,954 The longer I watched the poor girl with the deformed ear, 1091 01:25:01,956 --> 01:25:05,090 the more repulsive I found the whole plan. 1092 01:25:06,660 --> 01:25:08,528 - (SHOUTS) - (APPLAUSE) 1093 01:25:32,460 --> 01:25:35,028 JOE'S VOICE: But as if I had foreseen this, 1094 01:25:35,030 --> 01:25:38,999 the meeting with p filled me with pity and emotion. 1095 01:25:40,403 --> 01:25:42,471 And without wanting to, 1096 01:25:42,473 --> 01:25:45,340 I found myself, weekend after weekend, 1097 01:25:45,343 --> 01:25:49,045 at her games supporting the poor player. 1098 01:26:04,566 --> 01:26:06,234 Thanks for cheering me on. 1099 01:26:06,236 --> 01:26:07,769 You're welcome. 1100 01:26:09,139 --> 01:26:11,140 You played really well today. 1101 01:26:13,177 --> 01:26:16,046 - No, I didn't. - You did. 1102 01:26:16,048 --> 01:26:18,415 You really improved yourself lately. 1103 01:26:21,754 --> 01:26:24,156 JOE'S VOICE: I was proud to introduce p 1104 01:26:24,158 --> 01:26:26,324 to my father's passion... 1105 01:26:26,327 --> 01:26:28,094 And to his world. 1106 01:26:32,568 --> 01:26:34,269 It's actually... 1107 01:26:36,138 --> 01:26:37,705 The souls of the trees 1108 01:26:37,708 --> 01:26:39,642 that we see in the winter. 1109 01:26:46,652 --> 01:26:48,653 I think they look like human souls. 1110 01:26:53,127 --> 01:26:54,761 You're right. 1111 01:26:54,763 --> 01:26:57,764 They do look like human souls. 1112 01:26:59,134 --> 01:27:00,801 Twisted souls, 1113 01:27:00,803 --> 01:27:03,170 regular souls, crazy souls. 1114 01:27:04,707 --> 01:27:07,476 All depending on the kind of lives human beings lead. 1115 01:27:12,650 --> 01:27:14,351 I found my tree, 1116 01:27:14,354 --> 01:27:16,454 my soul tree. 1117 01:27:19,326 --> 01:27:21,160 This is my tree. 1118 01:27:24,699 --> 01:27:26,833 YOUNG JOE: It's not an ash tree. 1119 01:27:26,836 --> 01:27:28,669 FATHER: No, it's an oak tree. 1120 01:27:35,412 --> 01:27:36,846 (CHUCKLES) 1121 01:27:39,651 --> 01:27:42,286 My father found his soul tree, 1122 01:27:42,289 --> 01:27:44,623 but I've... I've never found mine. 1123 01:27:46,092 --> 01:27:48,260 "You will know it when you see it," 1124 01:27:48,263 --> 01:27:50,429 that's what he said. 1125 01:27:56,305 --> 01:27:58,373 JOE'S VOICE: When p reached the age of majority 1126 01:27:58,375 --> 01:28:00,875 and I became her personal advisor, 1127 01:28:00,878 --> 01:28:03,479 I asked her to move in with me. 1128 01:28:10,355 --> 01:28:12,190 I've never seen you with your hair up. 1129 01:28:13,126 --> 01:28:15,227 It's so pretty. 1130 01:28:25,408 --> 01:28:27,642 (BREATHING HEAVILY) 1131 01:28:27,645 --> 01:28:30,913 JOE'S VOICE: All this time all my sexual activity had stopped. 1132 01:28:30,915 --> 01:28:34,483 My groin was one big sore from my abuse 1133 01:28:34,486 --> 01:28:36,320 that wouldn't heal 1134 01:28:36,323 --> 01:28:38,690 and made even masturbation impossible. 1135 01:28:43,296 --> 01:28:46,332 I experienced definite abstinence symptoms: 1136 01:28:46,335 --> 01:28:48,401 Fever and cramps. 1137 01:28:49,338 --> 01:28:50,805 (MOANS) 1138 01:28:54,510 --> 01:28:56,578 (GLASS SHATTERS) 1139 01:28:56,581 --> 01:28:58,581 (BREATHING HEAVILY) 1140 01:29:02,887 --> 01:29:04,455 Joe, what's going on? 1141 01:29:06,892 --> 01:29:09,661 - JOE: Careful. - We need to clear this up. 1142 01:29:19,341 --> 01:29:21,342 (WHISPERS) I just get this sometimes. 1143 01:29:24,915 --> 01:29:26,549 It's okay, it's okay. 1144 01:29:27,918 --> 01:29:29,919 SELIGMAN: Perhaps she really loved you. 1145 01:29:31,657 --> 01:29:33,691 I couldn't accept it. 1146 01:29:33,694 --> 01:29:36,895 Perhaps because you really wanted it to be true. 1147 01:29:39,300 --> 01:29:41,467 Perhaps I hoped it. 1148 01:29:41,470 --> 01:29:43,904 It's very touching, all this about p. 1149 01:29:46,709 --> 01:29:49,377 Then you've probably misunderstood the whole thing. 1150 01:29:50,314 --> 01:29:51,580 (PILLS RATTLE) 1151 01:30:18,349 --> 01:30:19,982 Don't. 1152 01:30:21,553 --> 01:30:22,886 I wanna see you. 1153 01:30:22,888 --> 01:30:24,788 - Don't. - Why? 1154 01:30:24,790 --> 01:30:26,557 - Please don't. - Why not? 1155 01:30:26,560 --> 01:30:29,627 No. No, I have a wound. 1156 01:30:29,629 --> 01:30:31,963 - I have a wound. - It doesn't matter. 1157 01:30:31,966 --> 01:30:33,833 No, you don't understand. 1158 01:30:33,836 --> 01:30:36,536 I have that thing with my ear. 1159 01:30:36,538 --> 01:30:38,472 I'm so ashamed. 1160 01:31:16,354 --> 01:31:18,021 D'you like me? 1161 01:31:22,027 --> 01:31:23,761 You're so beautiful. 1162 01:32:23,504 --> 01:32:25,538 (SOBBING) 1163 01:32:41,927 --> 01:32:44,095 (TRAIN PASSING) 1164 01:32:54,643 --> 01:32:56,710 There's one thing I don't understand. 1165 01:32:58,481 --> 01:33:00,682 Did she know what you did for a living? 1166 01:33:01,818 --> 01:33:03,753 P was very discreet 1167 01:33:03,755 --> 01:33:06,022 and a girl of few words. 1168 01:33:07,525 --> 01:33:10,160 Oddly, although I worked strange hours, 1169 01:33:10,163 --> 01:33:12,630 she never asked about my work. 1170 01:33:14,267 --> 01:33:16,135 But one day she had a question. 1171 01:33:18,172 --> 01:33:20,140 Joe? 1172 01:33:25,080 --> 01:33:28,215 Why did you start coming to my basketball matches? 1173 01:33:30,921 --> 01:33:33,022 It wasn't a coincidence, was it? 1174 01:33:39,532 --> 01:33:41,666 No, it wasn't a coincidence. 1175 01:33:45,907 --> 01:33:48,175 I didn't tell you because I... 1176 01:33:49,544 --> 01:33:51,845 I thought you'd be upset... 1177 01:33:53,182 --> 01:33:55,617 And that you'd get angry at me. 1178 01:33:56,553 --> 01:33:58,320 I won't get angry. 1179 01:34:03,095 --> 01:34:05,162 What I do... 1180 01:34:07,233 --> 01:34:09,568 My job isn't a normal job. 1181 01:34:09,570 --> 01:34:11,770 It's not legal. 1182 01:34:11,773 --> 01:34:14,641 No one in my family does anything legal. 1183 01:34:20,683 --> 01:34:22,884 A man that's helped me in my business 1184 01:34:22,887 --> 01:34:24,520 suggested that I watched you. 1185 01:34:27,959 --> 01:34:29,860 The plan was that I... 1186 01:34:29,862 --> 01:34:32,362 I should look at you 1187 01:34:32,365 --> 01:34:34,899 to see whether one day 1188 01:34:34,901 --> 01:34:36,401 I could use you in my work. 1189 01:34:37,370 --> 01:34:39,672 I should make friends with you, 1190 01:34:39,675 --> 01:34:43,143 because I knew you didn't have a mother or a father. 1191 01:34:43,146 --> 01:34:44,812 What's wrong with that? 1192 01:34:45,981 --> 01:34:48,749 Don't you see how evil that plan was? 1193 01:34:48,752 --> 01:34:51,086 I felt terrible. 1194 01:34:51,088 --> 01:34:53,088 You shouldn't have. 1195 01:34:53,091 --> 01:34:54,957 Why not? 1196 01:34:57,696 --> 01:35:00,030 Because if you hadn't... 1197 01:35:01,967 --> 01:35:03,768 We'd never have met. 1198 01:35:09,410 --> 01:35:12,145 I'd like to go with you to work 1199 01:35:12,148 --> 01:35:14,348 - next time. - No. 1200 01:35:23,394 --> 01:35:25,729 Will you think about it? 1201 01:35:25,732 --> 01:35:27,698 - No. - Yes. 1202 01:35:27,700 --> 01:35:28,866 (LAUGHS) No. 1203 01:35:28,869 --> 01:35:31,670 She didn't take no for an answer. 1204 01:35:31,672 --> 01:35:33,705 No, of course not. 1205 01:35:33,708 --> 01:35:37,143 How do you keep a wave upon the sand? 1206 01:35:40,181 --> 01:35:43,150 With the risk of being too clever for myself, 1207 01:35:43,153 --> 01:35:45,754 social inheritance 1208 01:35:45,757 --> 01:35:48,157 is an irrefutable fact. 1209 01:35:48,159 --> 01:35:51,393 If anyone knew about the laws of the street, 1210 01:35:51,396 --> 01:35:53,096 it must've been p. 1211 01:35:55,234 --> 01:35:57,502 You're more right than you know. 1212 01:35:59,706 --> 01:36:01,940 - (MAN YELLING) - Let's shoot the fucker. 1213 01:36:03,010 --> 01:36:04,978 Stop! Stop! 1214 01:36:09,418 --> 01:36:11,286 We don't use firearms. 1215 01:36:13,022 --> 01:36:16,992 - I'd like to have the gun. - The others have weapons too. 1216 01:36:17,962 --> 01:36:19,930 Well, I didn't know that. 1217 01:36:19,932 --> 01:36:22,065 But in any case, you're not to have one. 1218 01:36:22,068 --> 01:36:24,402 But guns aren't dangerous. 1219 01:36:24,404 --> 01:36:27,205 It depends on how you use them. 1220 01:36:27,208 --> 01:36:28,908 Yes, exactly. 1221 01:36:28,910 --> 01:36:30,843 I wasn't going to shoot him. 1222 01:36:30,846 --> 01:36:33,980 We wouldn't have gotten any money out of him that way. 1223 01:36:33,983 --> 01:36:35,449 Can I have the gun? 1224 01:36:39,989 --> 01:36:41,924 Thank you. 1225 01:37:01,983 --> 01:37:03,317 You're evil. 1226 01:37:08,358 --> 01:37:11,894 JOE'S VOICE: And now I'm afraid one of those coincidences 1227 01:37:11,897 --> 01:37:13,396 you have such a hard time with 1228 01:37:13,398 --> 01:37:16,166 occurred with a very special person. 1229 01:37:18,070 --> 01:37:20,938 It was p's job to take us to the debtors, 1230 01:37:20,941 --> 01:37:23,108 so until I saw the name on the door, 1231 01:37:23,111 --> 01:37:25,645 I had no idea whose house we were at. 1232 01:37:29,951 --> 01:37:31,986 Are you sure this is the right place? 1233 01:37:31,989 --> 01:37:33,388 P: Yeah. 1234 01:37:40,198 --> 01:37:42,366 I was thinking maybe it's time 1235 01:37:42,368 --> 01:37:45,969 for you to do this one on your own. 1236 01:37:45,972 --> 01:37:47,505 Yeah? 1237 01:37:49,542 --> 01:37:50,910 Thank you, Joe. 1238 01:37:50,912 --> 01:37:53,112 I don't want anything destroyed 1239 01:37:53,115 --> 01:37:55,315 and I don't want anybody hurt. 1240 01:37:55,318 --> 01:37:58,286 Okay? You just show yourself 1241 01:37:58,288 --> 01:38:01,188 and offer him a reasonable payment plan. 1242 01:38:02,191 --> 01:38:04,159 If you say so. 1243 01:38:04,162 --> 01:38:05,695 Of course that's how I'll do it. 1244 01:38:13,873 --> 01:38:15,974 (DOORBELL RINGS) 1245 01:38:21,215 --> 01:38:23,650 JOE'S VOICE: Whether the feeling when I saw Jerome again 1246 01:38:23,652 --> 01:38:25,452 was love, I couldn't say. 1247 01:38:28,525 --> 01:38:30,559 But it was a feeling, 1248 01:38:30,561 --> 01:38:33,395 and far stronger than I liked. 1249 01:38:45,412 --> 01:38:48,214 I was actually walking home through the alley here. 1250 01:38:49,651 --> 01:38:52,319 No two neighborhoods are totally different 1251 01:38:52,321 --> 01:38:54,421 but still so close together 1252 01:38:54,424 --> 01:38:56,691 that the shortest route from Jerome's house 1253 01:38:56,694 --> 01:38:59,528 towards the center was through the alley. 1254 01:39:02,133 --> 01:39:04,134 (RUSTLING) 1255 01:39:04,136 --> 01:39:06,670 (DOOR CLOSES) 1256 01:39:06,673 --> 01:39:08,940 Hello! 1257 01:39:08,943 --> 01:39:10,943 How did it go? 1258 01:39:10,945 --> 01:39:13,045 Brilliant. 1259 01:39:13,048 --> 01:39:14,647 Yeah, really well. 1260 01:39:16,283 --> 01:39:19,085 I made a reasonable payment plan like you told me to. 1261 01:39:19,088 --> 01:39:20,588 How did he look? 1262 01:39:21,958 --> 01:39:24,026 Scared. 1263 01:39:24,028 --> 01:39:26,561 How old did he look? 1264 01:39:26,564 --> 01:39:28,498 - (UNZIPPING) - I dunno. 1265 01:39:28,500 --> 01:39:30,066 Ancient? 1266 01:39:44,385 --> 01:39:45,819 (LAUGHS) 1267 01:39:49,458 --> 01:39:53,694 JOE'S VOICE: Jerome was to pay off his debt in six payments. 1268 01:39:53,697 --> 01:39:56,598 Every time p went to Jerome to collect, 1269 01:39:56,601 --> 01:39:58,735 I paced around restlessly 1270 01:39:58,738 --> 01:40:01,105 until she was back home again. 1271 01:40:03,309 --> 01:40:07,079 I even had to find my mother's sad old solitaire cards 1272 01:40:07,082 --> 01:40:09,715 in order to make the hours pass. 1273 01:40:17,426 --> 01:40:20,395 Each night I was less reassured by her coming home 1274 01:40:20,398 --> 01:40:22,231 than the night before. 1275 01:40:22,233 --> 01:40:25,634 The question of whether jealousy is the fear of sharing 1276 01:40:25,637 --> 01:40:29,039 or the fear of losing was of little interest to me. 1277 01:40:29,042 --> 01:40:31,309 But yes, it was a fact 1278 01:40:31,312 --> 01:40:35,180 that this unworthy feeling I had managed to suppress for so long 1279 01:40:35,183 --> 01:40:37,217 was creeping up on me. 1280 01:40:40,422 --> 01:40:43,157 The evening she was to collect the final payment 1281 01:40:43,160 --> 01:40:45,060 she didn't kiss me. 1282 01:40:45,062 --> 01:40:47,429 I took it to be forgetfulness, 1283 01:40:47,432 --> 01:40:50,867 but the hours passed and she didn't return. 1284 01:40:58,744 --> 01:41:01,112 Every time I saw car lights, 1285 01:41:01,115 --> 01:41:03,549 I thought it was p being driven home. 1286 01:41:11,494 --> 01:41:13,562 (CRICKETS CHIRPING) 1287 01:41:23,141 --> 01:41:25,342 (SOFT SNORING) 1288 01:42:05,895 --> 01:42:08,663 JOE'S VOICE: I had decided to flee. 1289 01:42:08,665 --> 01:42:12,267 I couldn't stay in this town with her and him. 1290 01:42:13,871 --> 01:42:17,241 I had cowardly made a plan to escape and head South, 1291 01:42:17,244 --> 01:42:20,578 like from some ice age I didn't have the guts 1292 01:42:20,580 --> 01:42:23,248 to turn around and face. 1293 01:42:23,251 --> 01:42:27,553 But the goodbye was sad and strangely unfulfilling. 1294 01:42:27,556 --> 01:42:29,756 And something called me on 1295 01:42:29,759 --> 01:42:31,959 to seek further up the Mountain. 1296 01:43:46,486 --> 01:43:49,621 It's said to be difficult to take someone's life. 1297 01:43:49,624 --> 01:43:53,626 I would've said that it's more difficult not to. 1298 01:43:54,997 --> 01:43:56,665 For a human being, 1299 01:43:56,667 --> 01:43:59,101 killing is the most natural thing in the world. 1300 01:44:00,404 --> 01:44:02,672 We're created for it. 1301 01:44:04,642 --> 01:44:06,677 Wonderful. 1302 01:44:38,418 --> 01:44:40,118 (JEROME LAUGHS) 1303 01:44:52,469 --> 01:44:54,837 (GROANING) 1304 01:44:57,475 --> 01:44:58,675 JEROME: No, get off! 1305 01:44:58,677 --> 01:45:01,511 - (P YELPS) - (LAUGHS) Sorry. 1306 01:45:01,514 --> 01:45:03,214 - (JEROME SIGHS) - (LAUGHS) 1307 01:45:08,555 --> 01:45:10,689 Fireman's grip. 1308 01:45:11,826 --> 01:45:14,461 (BOTH GRUNT) 1309 01:45:18,100 --> 01:45:20,235 - (P MOANS) (MUTTERS) 1310 01:46:24,116 --> 01:46:26,183 (RAGGED BREATHING) 1311 01:46:53,886 --> 01:46:56,254 - (BLOWS THUDDING) - (JOE WHIMPERS) 1312 01:47:29,230 --> 01:47:31,198 - (MOANS) - (PANTING) 1313 01:47:31,200 --> 01:47:33,967 Oh. Oh yeah. 1314 01:47:47,886 --> 01:47:49,253 (WHISPERING) 1315 01:47:53,994 --> 01:47:55,928 (SPITS) 1316 01:47:55,930 --> 01:47:58,097 (BOTH GROANING) 1317 01:49:02,379 --> 01:49:05,782 Fill all my holes please. 1318 01:49:26,977 --> 01:49:29,845 I still don't know why the gun didn't work. 1319 01:49:29,847 --> 01:49:31,380 I did check to make sure 1320 01:49:31,383 --> 01:49:33,416 that there were bullets in the magazine. 1321 01:49:34,720 --> 01:49:36,888 It simply malfunctioned, 1322 01:49:36,890 --> 01:49:40,091 just like bond's beretta. 1323 01:49:40,094 --> 01:49:42,127 I think I know enough to say that 1324 01:49:42,129 --> 01:49:45,364 even if you had rounds in the magazine of the walther p.P.K., 1325 01:49:45,367 --> 01:49:47,801 and you'd taken off the safety... 1326 01:49:49,070 --> 01:49:52,039 You cannot shoot until you rack the gun. 1327 01:49:52,042 --> 01:49:56,211 You pull and release the sliding mechanism. 1328 01:49:57,848 --> 01:50:00,149 And p hadn't done it because, as she said, 1329 01:50:00,152 --> 01:50:02,820 she had no intention of shooting the man. 1330 01:50:04,890 --> 01:50:07,826 I don't know about bond, but I assume it has to be apparent 1331 01:50:07,829 --> 01:50:10,095 from his books and his films that 1332 01:50:10,097 --> 01:50:13,098 you have to rack an automatic pistol. 1333 01:50:14,168 --> 01:50:16,436 Of course, you're right. 1334 01:50:18,006 --> 01:50:21,008 I've seen it in films a thousand times. 1335 01:50:26,283 --> 01:50:27,517 It's morning. 1336 01:50:30,355 --> 01:50:32,056 And the snow is gone. 1337 01:50:32,059 --> 01:50:34,226 So the sun must be out? 1338 01:50:34,228 --> 01:50:36,528 Yes, there is sun. 1339 01:50:42,470 --> 01:50:45,239 I've never managed to figure out where it comes from. 1340 01:50:46,876 --> 01:50:48,977 It must be some interplay 1341 01:50:48,980 --> 01:50:51,580 between windows 1342 01:50:51,582 --> 01:50:54,583 and towers and high buildings. 1343 01:50:58,123 --> 01:50:59,891 It's not much, 1344 01:50:59,893 --> 01:51:02,927 but it's the sun you get here at my place. 1345 01:51:07,334 --> 01:51:08,902 It's beautiful. 1346 01:51:19,483 --> 01:51:21,984 SELIGMAN'S VOICE: In the beginning you said that 1347 01:51:21,987 --> 01:51:25,188 your only sin was that you asked more of the sunset. 1348 01:51:27,092 --> 01:51:29,060 Meaning, I suppose, that you wanted 1349 01:51:29,063 --> 01:51:31,163 more from life than was good for you. 1350 01:51:34,302 --> 01:51:37,203 You were a human being demanding your right. 1351 01:51:37,206 --> 01:51:39,941 And more than that, 1352 01:51:39,943 --> 01:51:43,077 you were a woman demanding her right. 1353 01:51:46,116 --> 01:51:48,418 Does that pardon everything? 1354 01:51:50,221 --> 01:51:51,922 Do you think if two men 1355 01:51:51,924 --> 01:51:54,258 would've walked down a train looking for women, 1356 01:51:54,261 --> 01:51:57,462 do you think anybody would have raised an eyebrow? 1357 01:51:58,899 --> 01:52:01,667 Or if a man had led the life you had? 1358 01:52:03,338 --> 01:52:06,106 And the story about Mrs. h 1359 01:52:06,109 --> 01:52:09,544 would've been extremely banal if you'd been a man 1360 01:52:09,546 --> 01:52:12,447 and your conquest would have been a woman. 1361 01:52:13,985 --> 01:52:16,453 When a man leaves his children 1362 01:52:16,455 --> 01:52:19,122 because of desire, 1363 01:52:19,125 --> 01:52:21,926 we accept it with a shrug, but you as a woman, 1364 01:52:21,929 --> 01:52:26,064 you had to take on a... a guilt, a burden of guilt 1365 01:52:26,067 --> 01:52:28,101 that could never be alleviated. 1366 01:52:31,606 --> 01:52:34,608 And all in all, all the blame and guilt 1367 01:52:34,611 --> 01:52:38,213 that piled up over the years became too much for you, 1368 01:52:38,215 --> 01:52:41,683 you reacted aggressively... almost like a man I have to say... 1369 01:52:41,686 --> 01:52:43,452 and you fought back. 1370 01:52:44,722 --> 01:52:47,257 You fought back against the gender that had been 1371 01:52:47,260 --> 01:52:49,260 oppressing and mutilating 1372 01:52:49,262 --> 01:52:51,796 and killing you and billions of women. 1373 01:52:54,067 --> 01:52:56,802 But I wanted to kill a human being. 1374 01:53:00,242 --> 01:53:02,376 SELIGMAN'S VOICE: But you didn't. 1375 01:53:04,280 --> 01:53:06,448 JOE: Because of a chance event. 1376 01:53:06,450 --> 01:53:09,317 You call it a chance event. 1377 01:53:10,387 --> 01:53:13,389 I call it subconscious resistance. 1378 01:53:13,392 --> 01:53:16,226 On the surface you wanted to kill, 1379 01:53:16,229 --> 01:53:19,364 but deep down you celebrated human worth 1380 01:53:19,367 --> 01:53:22,134 and a veil of forgetfulness 1381 01:53:22,136 --> 01:53:25,438 draped itself over your knowledge of how to rack a gun. 1382 01:53:26,374 --> 01:53:28,408 (SNORTS) 1383 01:53:28,411 --> 01:53:32,580 Although all this sounds frighteningly close to the cliches of our times... 1384 01:53:32,583 --> 01:53:34,416 (CHUCKLES) 1385 01:53:34,418 --> 01:53:36,251 and I'm predisposed 1386 01:53:36,254 --> 01:53:38,488 to knock holes in your arguments... 1387 01:53:41,093 --> 01:53:43,027 I'm too tired. 1388 01:53:43,029 --> 01:53:45,096 Well, that's good. 1389 01:53:47,567 --> 01:53:49,668 Why don't you lay down? 1390 01:53:52,240 --> 01:53:54,408 Yes. 1391 01:54:05,389 --> 01:54:08,725 Let me just say that telling my story 1392 01:54:08,728 --> 01:54:11,162 as you insisted... 1393 01:54:11,164 --> 01:54:13,531 or permitted... 1394 01:54:13,534 --> 01:54:16,235 has put me at ease. 1395 01:54:18,105 --> 01:54:20,440 At this moment 1396 01:54:20,442 --> 01:54:24,177 my addiction is very clear to me... 1397 01:54:26,482 --> 01:54:28,783 And I've come to a decision. 1398 01:54:30,821 --> 01:54:34,690 Even though only one in a million, 1399 01:54:34,693 --> 01:54:38,162 as my dubious therapist said, 1400 01:54:38,165 --> 01:54:40,165 succeed in... 1401 01:54:41,501 --> 01:54:44,670 Mentally, bodily... 1402 01:54:45,873 --> 01:54:48,508 And in her heart 1403 01:54:48,510 --> 01:54:52,612 of ridding herself of her sexuality, 1404 01:54:52,615 --> 01:54:55,416 this is now my goal. 1405 01:54:56,719 --> 01:54:59,421 But is that a life worth living? 1406 01:55:02,260 --> 01:55:04,895 It's the only way I can live it. 1407 01:55:09,135 --> 01:55:12,938 I will stand up against all odds... 1408 01:55:17,478 --> 01:55:20,981 Just like a deformed tree on a hill. 1409 01:55:28,793 --> 01:55:31,461 I will muster 1410 01:55:31,464 --> 01:55:33,831 all my stubbornness... 1411 01:55:36,903 --> 01:55:38,837 My strength... 1412 01:55:41,508 --> 01:55:43,876 My masculine aggression. 1413 01:55:46,315 --> 01:55:50,518 But most of all I want to say thanks 1414 01:55:50,521 --> 01:55:54,023 to my new, and maybe first friend. 1415 01:55:55,526 --> 01:55:57,661 Thank you, seligman... 1416 01:55:59,465 --> 01:56:03,635 Who perhaps is happy when all is said and done. 1417 01:56:09,744 --> 01:56:12,545 I'm happy at any rate 1418 01:56:12,548 --> 01:56:15,549 that the shot didn't go off 1419 01:56:15,552 --> 01:56:17,786 and made me a murderer. 1420 01:56:23,461 --> 01:56:26,897 If I may, I'd like to sleep now. 1421 01:56:30,736 --> 01:56:33,071 I'll make sure you won't be disturbed. 1422 01:56:39,380 --> 01:56:41,515 (FOOTSTEPS) 1423 01:56:43,853 --> 01:56:45,688 Good night, Joe. 1424 01:56:46,690 --> 01:56:48,957 Good night, seligman. 1425 01:58:01,350 --> 01:58:04,652 (BREATHING HEAVILY) 1426 01:58:15,500 --> 01:58:17,001 No! 1427 01:58:18,103 --> 01:58:20,070 (GUN COCKS) 1428 01:58:20,072 --> 01:58:22,907 SELIGMAN: But you... you've fucked thousands of men. 1429 01:58:22,909 --> 01:58:24,408 (GUNSHOT) 1430 01:58:24,410 --> 01:58:26,210 - (BODY THUDS) (CLATTERS) 1431 01:58:27,512 --> 01:58:30,181 (RUSTLING) 1432 01:58:33,585 --> 01:58:35,453 (ZIPS) 1433 01:58:35,455 --> 01:58:38,889 - (SHOES CLATTER) (FOOTSTEPS) 1434 01:58:41,493 --> 01:58:44,061 - (DOOR CLOSES) (FOOTSTEPS DEPARTING) 1435 01:58:56,541 --> 01:58:58,809 (ROCK MUSIC PLAYING) 1436 01:59:08,620 --> 01:59:10,621 ♪ Hey, Joe ♪ 1437 01:59:12,491 --> 01:59:15,993 ♪ where are you going ♪ ♪ with that gun in your hand? ♪ 1438 01:59:22,000 --> 01:59:24,668 ♪ Hey, Joe ♪ 1439 01:59:24,670 --> 01:59:29,740 ♪ I said where are you going ♪ ♪ with that gun in your hand? ♪ 1440 01:59:35,814 --> 01:59:38,148 ♪ I'm going down ♪ ♪ to shoot my old lady ♪ 1441 01:59:40,085 --> 01:59:44,021 ♪ you know I caught her messing ♪ ♪ around with another man ♪ 1442 01:59:49,461 --> 01:59:52,630 ♪ I'm going down ♪ ♪ to shoot my old lady ♪ 1443 01:59:54,533 --> 01:59:58,302 ♪ you know I caught her messing ♪ ♪ around with another man ♪ 1444 02:00:00,171 --> 02:00:02,306 ♪ and that ain't too cool ♪ 1445 02:00:04,543 --> 02:00:06,677 ♪ hey, Joe ♪ 1446 02:00:08,647 --> 02:00:11,181 ♪ I heard you shot ♪ ♪ your woman down ♪ 1447 02:00:11,183 --> 02:00:13,884 ♪ you shot her down now ♪ 1448 02:00:17,789 --> 02:00:20,291 ♪ hey, Joe ♪ 1449 02:00:22,561 --> 02:00:25,229 ♪ I heard you shot ♪ ♪ your lady down ♪ 1450 02:00:25,231 --> 02:00:28,632 ♪ you shot her down ♪ ♪ to the ground ♪ 1451 02:00:31,937 --> 02:00:34,605 ♪ yes, I did, I shot her ♪ 1452 02:00:36,141 --> 02:00:39,610 ♪ you know I caught her ♪ ♪ messing around town ♪ 1453 02:00:45,617 --> 02:00:48,218 ♪ yes, I did, I shot her ♪ 1454 02:00:50,121 --> 02:00:54,525 ♪ you know I caught my old lady ♪ ♪ messing around town ♪ 1455 02:00:54,527 --> 02:00:56,860 ♪ and I gave her the gun ♪ 1456 02:00:56,862 --> 02:00:59,196 ♪ I shot her ♪ 1457 02:01:26,858 --> 02:01:29,326 ♪ hey, Joe ♪ 1458 02:01:31,262 --> 02:01:34,398 ♪ where you gonna go to now? ♪ 1459 02:01:40,171 --> 02:01:42,840 ♪ Hey, Joe ♪ 1460 02:01:45,043 --> 02:01:48,112 ♪ where you gonna go to now? ♪ 1461 02:01:53,718 --> 02:01:56,186 ♪ I'm going way down South ♪ 1462 02:01:58,123 --> 02:02:01,191 ♪ way down to Mexico way ♪ 1463 02:02:07,098 --> 02:02:09,667 ♪ I'm going way down South ♪ 1464 02:02:11,302 --> 02:02:14,405 ♪ way down ♪ ♪ where I can be free ♪ 1465 02:02:19,277 --> 02:02:22,312 ♪ ain't no hangman gonna ♪ 1466 02:02:24,115 --> 02:02:27,451 ♪ he ain't gonna put ♪ ♪ a rope around me ♪ 1467 02:02:32,857 --> 02:02:35,459 ♪ hey, Joe ♪ 1468 02:02:37,195 --> 02:02:39,730 ♪ you'd better run on down ♪ 1469 02:02:40,665 --> 02:02:42,766 ♪ good night. ♪ 1470 02:02:46,037 --> 02:02:49,006 (VOCALIZING) 1471 02:03:21,706 --> 02:03:26,343 (MUSIC FADES) 1472 02:03:26,443 --> 02:03:31,443 http://subscene.com/u/659433 Improved by: @Ivandrofly