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What?
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I said you look beautiful tonight.
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I can't hear you!
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I said
you look beautiful tonight, baby!
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Whoo!
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Whoo!
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I'm a little wavy. But life is good.
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- Because we fucking did it!
- Did what?
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I wrote and directed and premiered a movie
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that knocked the audience
the fuck out tonight.
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Did you see that?
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- Did you see that audience?
- Hmm.
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- Baby, did you see that audience?
- Mm-hmm.
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I said, did you see the audience?
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Man, I delivered a fucking knockout punch.
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The last eight minutes straight,
they were sobbing
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and when the credits hit,
it was like a fucking bomb.
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It's like a bomb went off.
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It feels good.
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I cannot believe this is real.
Baby, I can't believe this is real.
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Afterwards, I talked to six critics.
Six or seven of 'em.
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They was all on a nigga.
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You feel me?
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The white guy from Variety loved it.
The white guy from IndieWire loved it.
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The white woman
from the LA Times, she really loved it.
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She kept saying
that I'm the next Spike Lee,
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the next Barry Jenkins,
the next John Singleton.
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I just looked at her, like,
"What about William Wyler?"
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You could tell, for three whole seconds,
she was like, "Was William Wyler Black?"
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Sh-yeah!
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And then she realized,
"Oh… shit. That's racist too."
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She got flushed. Face red.
That shit had me dying.
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Marie, that was hilarious.
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And she kept stumbling
over her words, saying shit like,
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"The movie was so emotional."
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"I... Malcolm, I couldn't even
think straight. Oh, my God, Malcolm."
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"Just, just, Malcolm. Malcolm."
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Yeah, it was like a super white moment.
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What was interesting, though,
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was that you can tell that
because I'm Black, as the director,
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and the woman
is a Black lead, stars in the film,
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she's already trying to frame it
through a political lens,
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when in reality, it's a film
about a girl trying to get clean.
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Now, are there certain obstacles,
because she's a Black woman?
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I mean, hell yeah.
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Right? That's reality, too,
but it's not a film about race.
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No. It's about shame, it's about guilt,
and how that shit is inescapable.
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And it annoys me
that so many of these journalists
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can't help but to flex
their college education.
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Malcolm, you have a college education.
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Yeah, but I'm not academic, baby.
I'm not elitist about my shit.
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I'm not trying to make a film
for the three people
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in my media studies class that I respect.
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- I am a filmmaker.
- Hmm.
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- Right?
- Mm-hmm.
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- Am I a filmmaker, baby? That's right.
- Mm-hmm.
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And I'm going to be part of the larger
conversation about filmmaking
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without always having
some white-ass writer
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making it about race
'cause it's fucking convenient.
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You know, I could see...
I could see the reviews now.
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It goes something like this.
This is how they be writin' and shit.
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"This film
is an acute study of the horrors…"
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They like to use words like that.
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"…the horrors of systemic racism
in this mental healthcare industry."
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Instead of it being a commercial film
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about a drug-addicted girl
trying to get her shit together.
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I mean, these people,
these fucking people are so pedantic.
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They are. I mean, we get it.
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You're smart. We get it.
You're woke. We get it.
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Let us, us artists,
have some fucking fun with the shit.
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Let us have fun with the art.
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Malcolm, you're writing
the Angela Davis biopic right now.
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Yeah, but that's different.
That's different.
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I'm choosing to make a film
that's fundamentally political,
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but not everything I do
is political because I'm Black.
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Yeah, I think Angela Davis
would disagree with you.
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- She... She would, huh?
- Mm-hmm.
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For real, though, like,
if I decide to make…
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A fucking LEGO movie,
it's not because I want to tell a story
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about how the building blocks
of the American empire was slave labor.
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I may just wanna make a LEGO movie.
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- You don't wanna make a LEGO movie.
- Yeah, that's true.
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But that LEGO movie was fire.
That shit was heat! Right?
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And you've never gotten
a good review in your life.
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Damn, baby, that's… You right, though.
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And you're complaining about reviews
that haven't yet been written.
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Right again.
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So, stop. Makes you sound like an asshole.
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Yeah.
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But shit,
you know what I'm saying, though.
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Yeah, but save it for another day.
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Yeah.
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You're complaining
about the white girl from LA Times
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'cause she gave you
a bad review that one time.
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Aw, she didn't just give a bad review.
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She gave a dumb-ass review.
There is a difference.
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Malcolm, you won. Okay?
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She's comparing you
to Spike Lee and Barry Jenkins.
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But she's such a mediocre-ass writer.
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Fine, you're not
the next Spike Lee or Barry Jenkins.
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- Doubt she knows who William Wyler is.
- I don't know William Wyler.
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- Is it ready, babe?
- Mm-hmm.
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Here comes the mac and cheese.
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- You don't know who William Wyler is?
- No.
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Oh, man.
He did The Best Years of Our Lives.
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Sh... Shit was heat. Ben-Hur?
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He's one of the most
versatile filmmakers of all time.
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I mean, Wuthering Heights.
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Heads-up.
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Roman Holiday.
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Yeah, some classics.
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It's different, though.
You don't work in film.
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You're right, Malcolm, I don't.
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Did you have fun tonight?
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It was nice.
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"Nice."
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The entire night while I was talking to
all those sweet, smiling, rich people who,
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a month ago, wouldn't give me the time
of day, I just kept looking at you.
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And I think to myself, "God, you're the
most gorgeous creature on planet Earth."
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And the sexiest too.
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I mean, there's nobody sexier.
Even Anthony said it.
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I mean, not in a bad way.
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- In a positive way.
- Hmm.
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When I'd see you…
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With your cranberry and soda…
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Smiling, chopping it up…
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And I'd think,
"God, how fucking lucky am I?"
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- I couldn't wait to get you home.
- Aww, that's so sweet.
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Hold your cute little ass and kiss it.
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Tell you that I love you.
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I love you, Marie.
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- Do you want salted or unsalted butter?
- I'll just have you.
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What was that?
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- What?
- That was a fake-ass smile.
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- No, it wasn't.
- Swear to God, it was.
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No, it wasn't. It was nothing.
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Bullshit, I can fucking read you.
I know when nothing is something.
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Well, maybe you can't read me.
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No, I can read you.
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- I haven't eaten all night.
- That's not what this is.
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It's 1:00 in the morning.
Can we eat and go to sleep?
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Please, Marie.
I really don't wanna fight tonight.
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Neither do I.
That is why I'm making you mac and cheese.
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So you are angry.
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No.
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- Was it the thing that Anthony said?
- No.
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- The joke about you being a model?
- No.
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Wouldn't take it seriously.
He's old and from a totally different era.
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I didn't take it personally.
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- Promise?
- Promise.
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- Was it Taylor?
- No.
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- You sure?
- Yes.
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- I know you get weird around Taylor.
- I do not get weird around Taylor.
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- You get meek.
- "Meek"? Huh, really?
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- Well, you don't talk a lot.
- Well, that's different from being meek.
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- I just mean...
- What?
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Meek implies that I'm shy or small.
That she's the queen of fucking England.
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- I didn't mean it like that. I meant...
- What?
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What?
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- She's a movie star.
- Hmm.
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- She's about to become a movie star.
- Don't jinx her, Malcolm.
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I have nothing nice to say to Taylor,
so I don't talk to Taylor.
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- It has nothing to do with being meek.
- It's just… she notices.
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Really?
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- Really.
- How do you know?
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- 'Cause I just do.
- Really?
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She sees how you are with other people.
You're talkative. You're funny.
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What can I say? I'm personable.
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Right.
Which is what makes her insecure.
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What does? Other fucking
human beings with personalities?
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No. The fact that
you're not yourself and she sees it.
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She'll survive.
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So why you angry?
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Marie, you're angry.
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Marie, what you angry about?
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Marie.
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Marie?
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Marie!
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Marie.
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Marie, talk to me.
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I promise you, it's not a good idea.
Let's just talk tomorrow.
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- But you're upset with me.
- It's not that big of a deal.
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I can't go to bed knowing you're angry.
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Malcolm, I promise you,
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nothing productive
is going to be said tonight.
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- How do you know?
- Because I know you.
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- What does that mean?
- And I love you.
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What does that mean?
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It means you are literally incapable
of de-escalating a situation
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unless it's work-related.
Even then, it's 50-50.
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Why is it
that anytime anything good happens,
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you have to find something, anything,
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the most minor fucking detail
to harp on, to make ugly,
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to ensure that there's no reason
to fucking celebrate.
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- Really? You wanna go there?
- Yes.
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- Okay.
- All right, then. What is it?
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- Your speech, Malcolm.
- Oh, give me a break.
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You're outside of your mind.
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When I said you find the most minor detail
to make it ugly, I meant it.
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You forgot to thank me, Malcolm.
It's not a minor detail. That's a big one.
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But I've thanked you
a million times before.
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You know that I'm thankful.
You know I'm appreciative.
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You know I made a mistake,
so why turn it into something more?
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Because it is more.
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What?
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It's our entire fucking
relationship in a nutshell.
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- Oh, you can't be serious.
- I'm dead serious.
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- You're psychotic.
- You're hyperbolic.
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I'm not. It's psychotic to think
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that forgetting to thank you
is symbolic of anything
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other than me legitimately
forgetting to fucking thank you.
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You thanked 112 fucking people tonight.
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You thanked your mother, your gaffer,
your agents, your third grade teacher,
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the usher at the theater when you were 12
and saw whatever the fuck.
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- Didn't thank the usher.
- You know what I mean.
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You don't have to be sarcastic,
petty and obnoxious about the shit.
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I'm sorry. I forgot to thank you.
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I am genuinely sorry,
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which is why I apologized to you
a thousand times during the movie.
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I felt so guilty,
I couldn't concentrate on the movie.
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Huh. That's a shame.
You've only seen it 7,000 times.
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Every time I'd lean over and said,
"I'm sorry," you said it was fine.
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You squeezed my hand and said it was fine.
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You said, "I love you.
Don't worry. It's fine."
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Well, Malcolm, I changed my mind.
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How can you just change your mind?
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Honestly, it's pretty fucking easy.
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That doesn't seem a little crazy to you?
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- Nope.
- It doesn't?
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- Nope.
- Why?
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Well, because when I was
in the theater, it didn't matter.
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Wasn't that big of a deal. It was fine.
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Until the after-party,
when every single person,
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from your mother to Taylor,
kept coming up to me and going,
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"You know, I bet you're probably
a little bit upset right now
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because he forgot to thank you,
but you know how much he depends on you."
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00:15:24,208 --> 00:15:25,666
Taylor said that?
238
00:15:25,750 --> 00:15:29,000
- Yeah. She told me not to read into it.
- What the hell does that mean?
239
00:15:29,083 --> 00:15:31,458
Funny you should say that.
That's the exact thought I had.
240
00:15:31,541 --> 00:15:33,125
- I didn't cheat on you.
- I didn't ask.
241
00:15:33,208 --> 00:15:34,208
- Just saying...
- Didn't ask.
242
00:15:34,291 --> 00:15:36,583
- Well, I'm just saying...
- I didn't ask.
243
00:15:41,666 --> 00:15:44,375
It's not just about
you forgetting to thank me, Malcolm.
244
00:15:44,458 --> 00:15:45,625
It's about how you see me.
245
00:15:45,708 --> 00:15:48,916
And how you view my contribution,
not just to this relationship,
246
00:15:49,000 --> 00:15:50,458
but to your work.
247
00:15:50,541 --> 00:15:53,791
Specifically in a movie
you made about my life.
248
00:17:00,291 --> 00:17:01,666
You know, Marie…
249
00:17:03,375 --> 00:17:04,958
You are genuinely…
250
00:17:05,750 --> 00:17:06,916
Unstable.
251
00:17:15,541 --> 00:17:16,750
I'm not kidding!
252
00:17:22,291 --> 00:17:25,916
I'm actually concerned
for your mental well-being!
253
00:17:33,791 --> 00:17:35,791
Obviously, there are certain similarities.
254
00:17:36,708 --> 00:17:38,708
But Imani's not based on you.
255
00:17:41,666 --> 00:17:43,416
You're fucking delusional!
256
00:17:52,875 --> 00:17:56,083
In what fucking universe
is Imani's character based on you?
257
00:17:56,666 --> 00:17:57,500
Really?
258
00:17:58,250 --> 00:18:01,500
Are you actually yelling and belittling me
from across this house
259
00:18:01,583 --> 00:18:04,250
because you are too busy
eating mac and cheese?
260
00:18:04,333 --> 00:18:06,000
- What?
- "What?"
261
00:18:06,833 --> 00:18:08,416
- I'm not.
- Don't fucking lie!
262
00:18:08,500 --> 00:18:10,666
- You literally just got seconds.
- No, I didn't.
263
00:18:10,750 --> 00:18:12,125
Do you know how disturbing it is
264
00:18:12,208 --> 00:18:14,166
that you can compartmentalize
to such a degree
265
00:18:14,250 --> 00:18:16,500
that you can abuse me
while eating mac and cheese?
266
00:18:16,583 --> 00:18:18,625
- Abuse you?
- Mac and cheese I fucking made you.
267
00:18:18,708 --> 00:18:20,375
- Abuse you?
- Verbally abuse me.
268
00:18:20,458 --> 00:18:22,875
Thanks for the clarification.
It's kind of an important one.
269
00:18:22,958 --> 00:18:24,791
But verbally abuse you? Get out of here.
270
00:18:24,875 --> 00:18:27,916
If you're gonna treat me
like an insane person and call me crazy,
271
00:18:28,000 --> 00:18:31,708
the least you could do is do it without
casually eating macaroni and cheese.
272
00:18:31,791 --> 00:18:33,166
How does that work for you?
273
00:18:33,250 --> 00:18:36,041
What does that sound like
in your fucking brain?
274
00:18:36,125 --> 00:18:38,666
"What a cunt! Mmm.
This macaroni and cheese is delicious."
275
00:18:38,750 --> 00:18:40,541
"What a cunt. I wonder if there's more."
276
00:18:40,625 --> 00:18:43,583
"What a cunt. If I could direct
commercials for Kraft, I would."
277
00:18:43,666 --> 00:18:44,708
Say whatever you want.
278
00:18:44,791 --> 00:18:47,958
Get pissed off I didn't thank you, Anthony
said that joke about you being a model,
279
00:18:48,041 --> 00:18:50,791
that Taylor said
whatever the fuck Taylor said...
280
00:18:50,875 --> 00:18:52,833
- It was mean.
- Well, she's an actor.
281
00:18:52,916 --> 00:18:55,500
All night I had to watch you two
smile and take pictures together.
282
00:18:55,583 --> 00:18:58,208
- She's the lead in my film!
- I know. I don't care.
283
00:18:58,291 --> 00:18:59,958
It's my job to make her feel comfortable.
284
00:19:00,041 --> 00:19:01,791
- Not at my expense.
- Actually, it is.
285
00:19:01,875 --> 00:19:03,916
Despite how you fucking
feel about it, it is my job.
286
00:19:04,000 --> 00:19:06,000
- You'd never forget to thank her.
- Jesus Christ!
287
00:19:06,083 --> 00:19:08,041
- You wouldn't.
- 'Cause she's psychotic.
288
00:19:08,125 --> 00:19:09,750
No, because she would flip the fuck out
289
00:19:09,833 --> 00:19:13,875
and spend the night making you pay for it
so you'd never let that shit happen again.
290
00:19:13,958 --> 00:19:15,833
You're saying you're not nuts enough.
291
00:19:15,916 --> 00:19:18,333
No. What I'm saying is
you spend your entire life
292
00:19:18,416 --> 00:19:22,166
catering to the feelings and the whims
of literally everyone but me.
293
00:19:22,958 --> 00:19:26,458
Agents, producers, crew members, actors,
294
00:19:26,541 --> 00:19:29,625
fucking fictional characters
get more respect
295
00:19:29,708 --> 00:19:31,500
and empathy from you than I do.
296
00:19:32,875 --> 00:19:36,333
And… That's what's so odd
about this whole fucking situation,
297
00:19:36,416 --> 00:19:39,166
because I get it.
Taylor is wonderful in the film.
298
00:19:39,250 --> 00:19:41,166
But when you get up there
and you talk about
299
00:19:41,250 --> 00:19:43,625
her ability to breathe life
into the character of Imani
300
00:19:43,708 --> 00:19:49,083
without ever mentioning that if
I didn't live my life, she wouldn't exist,
301
00:19:49,166 --> 00:19:50,541
it's kind of fucking weird.
302
00:19:50,625 --> 00:19:52,083
Imani is not based on you.
303
00:19:52,166 --> 00:19:55,375
She's a 20-year-old drug addict trying
to get clean. Just a fucking coincidence?
304
00:19:55,458 --> 00:19:57,875
Obviously, you getting clean
was a part of the inspiration.
305
00:19:57,958 --> 00:19:59,000
- At 20?
- Yes.
306
00:19:59,083 --> 00:20:01,000
And you provide genuine insight into that.
307
00:20:01,083 --> 00:20:03,375
What that was like.
But Imani is not based on you.
308
00:20:03,458 --> 00:20:06,416
It's an amalgamation
of different things, a bunch of things.
309
00:20:06,500 --> 00:20:07,500
Who?
310
00:20:09,708 --> 00:20:10,541
People!
311
00:20:10,625 --> 00:20:12,083
What people?
312
00:20:13,375 --> 00:20:15,250
A lot of different people.
313
00:20:17,291 --> 00:20:19,500
- Like my cousin. Rick, for one.
- Okay.
314
00:20:19,583 --> 00:20:22,041
- A lot of different people and things.
- Your cousin.
315
00:20:25,333 --> 00:20:27,833
You know what, Malcolm?
316
00:20:29,958 --> 00:20:33,833
I feel like once you know someone is there
for you and once you know they love you,
317
00:20:34,666 --> 00:20:36,666
you never actually think of them again.
318
00:20:37,916 --> 00:20:39,125
That's not true.
319
00:20:39,958 --> 00:20:42,833
It's not until you're about to lose
someone that you pay attention.
320
00:20:43,916 --> 00:20:45,875
- Is that what this is?
- What?
321
00:20:45,958 --> 00:20:47,791
Is what you're threatening…
322
00:20:47,875 --> 00:20:50,000
If I don't apologize,
I'm going to lose you?
323
00:20:50,708 --> 00:20:52,250
I'm not looking for an apology.
324
00:20:52,333 --> 00:20:55,125
- What do you want? A screenplay credit?
- Don't be cruel.
325
00:20:55,208 --> 00:20:57,625
I'm serious.
I know we talk for hours about work.
326
00:20:57,708 --> 00:21:00,458
Is it so much of a nuisance
that you'd like compensation?
327
00:21:00,541 --> 00:21:03,166
I had a draft of the script
before you ever came into my life.
328
00:21:04,041 --> 00:21:06,291
It's not about credit.
I don't want fucking credit.
329
00:21:06,375 --> 00:21:08,625
Well, what is it, Marie? What do you want?
330
00:21:11,291 --> 00:21:12,625
The film is beautiful.
331
00:21:13,958 --> 00:21:15,041
I'm proud of you.
332
00:21:15,125 --> 00:21:18,083
Took forever to make and it was tough,
but I have one question.
333
00:21:18,166 --> 00:21:22,916
Do you think that the movie would be
as good as it is if we weren't together?
334
00:21:28,541 --> 00:21:29,375
No.
335
00:21:33,375 --> 00:21:35,500
And that's all I wish you would have said.
336
00:21:44,041 --> 00:21:44,875
Great.
337
00:21:46,208 --> 00:21:47,875
Are we no longer fighting?
338
00:21:51,625 --> 00:21:52,625
That depends.
339
00:21:54,083 --> 00:21:55,083
On what?
340
00:21:55,166 --> 00:21:57,375
On whether you can manage
to not say something hurtful
341
00:21:57,458 --> 00:21:58,666
for the rest of the night.
342
00:22:02,416 --> 00:22:03,791
I mean, I'm not that bad.
343
00:22:05,000 --> 00:22:06,875
Fuck you aren't.
344
00:22:11,791 --> 00:22:12,791
Can I kiss you?
345
00:22:13,583 --> 00:22:14,583
No.
346
00:22:17,250 --> 00:22:20,125
- Are you sure?
- Mm-hmm.
347
00:22:23,250 --> 00:22:26,125
But I really, really wanna kiss you.
348
00:22:28,375 --> 00:22:29,541
I don't care.
349
00:22:40,708 --> 00:22:42,291
Just don't take me for granted.
350
00:22:45,333 --> 00:22:46,333
I don't.
351
00:22:52,958 --> 00:22:53,958
You did.
352
00:22:56,541 --> 00:22:57,541
I'm sorry.
353
00:23:05,791 --> 00:23:06,791
You can kiss me now.
354
00:23:07,541 --> 00:23:09,000
Yes!
355
00:23:18,375 --> 00:23:20,708
I'm the only person who tells you
you're being an asshole
356
00:23:20,791 --> 00:23:22,250
when you're being an asshole.
357
00:23:24,416 --> 00:23:25,416
I know.
358
00:23:27,500 --> 00:23:28,875
And now…
359
00:23:29,875 --> 00:23:33,541
That you've made a movie
that everybody loves…
360
00:23:34,958 --> 00:23:37,375
The world's gonna be kissing your ass.
361
00:23:37,875 --> 00:23:39,208
- You think so?
- Mm-hmm.
362
00:23:40,125 --> 00:23:41,125
Yep.
363
00:23:41,791 --> 00:23:45,791
I heard that shit all night.
"Oh, he's so sensitive."
364
00:23:45,875 --> 00:23:49,083
"He's so in tune to emotion.
He's romantic."
365
00:23:49,166 --> 00:23:50,541
"I bet he's sweet, right?"
366
00:23:51,375 --> 00:23:54,916
- What did you say?
- I said, "Well, I mean, yeah."
367
00:23:55,000 --> 00:23:57,666
"When he's not being
an emotional fucking terrorist."
368
00:24:01,958 --> 00:24:03,250
Yes.
369
00:24:05,208 --> 00:24:06,166
- Yes.
- No.
370
00:24:10,000 --> 00:24:11,750
You think you're tough,
skinny-bones Jones?
371
00:24:11,833 --> 00:24:12,916
I am tough.
372
00:24:13,000 --> 00:24:16,333
Nah, I'll eat your ass for breakfast.
You light work.
373
00:24:30,166 --> 00:24:33,958
You know, life is gonna get
easier, but it's also gonna get harder.
374
00:24:36,083 --> 00:24:37,500
What do you mean?
375
00:24:40,833 --> 00:24:42,750
Just don't believe the hype, Malcolm.
376
00:24:46,916 --> 00:24:49,583
And don't push away
the people who ground you.
377
00:24:52,333 --> 00:24:53,916
- Yeah.
- Yeah.
378
00:25:00,416 --> 00:25:02,833
You're gonna
start making fake movies
379
00:25:02,916 --> 00:25:07,291
about fake people with fake emotions.
380
00:25:10,291 --> 00:25:14,041
Then you'll start having dinner
with the white girl from LA Times.
381
00:25:15,750 --> 00:25:18,291
- Yeah. Mm-hmm.
- No! Not the white girl.
382
00:25:18,375 --> 00:25:22,791
You'll be talking about
this one-take and… and that one-take,
383
00:25:22,875 --> 00:25:23,958
and how the camera…
384
00:25:24,041 --> 00:25:26,458
You know you do that, right?
385
00:25:26,541 --> 00:25:28,416
Literally.
386
00:25:28,500 --> 00:25:33,833
Next thing you know, you'll be on
your press tour for your new LEGO film.
387
00:25:33,916 --> 00:25:37,833
Talk about how it's an allegory
for the failures of reconstruction.
388
00:25:39,916 --> 00:25:42,041
"Well,
the original working title was…
389
00:25:42,125 --> 00:25:45,625
Forty LEGOs And A Mule, but the…"
390
00:25:45,708 --> 00:25:48,375
"The studio got a little, uh…"
391
00:25:53,291 --> 00:25:55,500
Malcolm, you laugh, but I can see it.
392
00:25:55,583 --> 00:25:58,083
I'm serious, I can see that shit.
393
00:25:58,166 --> 00:26:01,458
All your new Twitter friends
will be quote-tweeting your ass,
394
00:26:01,541 --> 00:26:05,458
handclaps and shit, talkin' 'bout,
"This is what change looks like."
395
00:26:05,541 --> 00:26:06,666
"Yes, king!"
396
00:26:06,750 --> 00:26:08,250
- Oh, brutal.
- Mm-hmm.
397
00:26:08,333 --> 00:26:09,916
But the rest of America will be like,
398
00:26:10,000 --> 00:26:13,500
"What the fuck is this Negro doing
selling us some shit with these LEGOs?"
399
00:26:13,583 --> 00:26:15,416
"I'm not seein' that shit."
400
00:26:17,625 --> 00:26:20,125
Then there's
gonna be boycotts, fucking protests
401
00:26:20,208 --> 00:26:21,875
because you're politicizing these LEGOs,
402
00:26:21,958 --> 00:26:26,541
but thankfully, you'll have your new
white girlfriend from the LA Times.
403
00:26:26,625 --> 00:26:30,041
I mean, she's gonna come ridin' in
with her SPF-50 brigade
404
00:26:30,125 --> 00:26:32,375
on some real soccer mom shit…
405
00:26:32,458 --> 00:26:34,833
…tweetin' at people left and right.
406
00:26:34,916 --> 00:26:37,541
"Well, this is literally censorship!"
407
00:26:37,625 --> 00:26:39,208
"Who is in charge here?"
408
00:26:39,291 --> 00:26:42,416
"It is our moral obligation
to go and see this movie
409
00:26:42,500 --> 00:26:47,041
written and directed by a real Bla…
I mean, person of color."
410
00:26:47,125 --> 00:26:48,958
"We are gonna make history, okay?"
411
00:26:49,041 --> 00:26:52,916
"We're going to make it
the biggest box office ever."
412
00:26:53,000 --> 00:26:54,458
And the next thing you know,
413
00:26:54,541 --> 00:26:58,666
you will have made
a toy company a billion dollars.
414
00:26:58,750 --> 00:27:01,291
- Yes!
- Yes!
415
00:27:01,375 --> 00:27:04,041
"Congratulations, Malcolm Elliot!
You fucking did it!"
416
00:27:05,625 --> 00:27:08,416
"Here's a couple million dollars
and a fuckin' fruit basket."
417
00:27:08,500 --> 00:27:10,666
"But just as a thought,
have you ever considered
418
00:27:10,750 --> 00:27:13,458
doing the Angela Davis biopic,
but with LEGOs?"
419
00:27:16,416 --> 00:27:19,375
You know
your white voice is crazy.
420
00:27:20,166 --> 00:27:22,125
- You laugh, but…
- That's funny.
421
00:27:23,375 --> 00:27:25,125
You could change the world.
422
00:27:25,625 --> 00:27:28,000
You should've
never given up acting, baby.
423
00:27:28,083 --> 00:27:30,125
Why, Malcolm?
424
00:27:30,208 --> 00:27:32,208
I always believed
if you found a character
425
00:27:32,291 --> 00:27:35,958
that actually allowed you
to be yourself, you'd be astonishing.
426
00:27:38,708 --> 00:27:39,833
Well, Malcolm…
427
00:27:41,166 --> 00:27:43,750
Unfortunately no one
can really write me except you.
428
00:29:12,666 --> 00:29:13,583
Marie!
429
00:29:31,416 --> 00:29:32,250
Marie.
430
00:29:41,333 --> 00:29:42,166
Marie!
431
00:29:46,875 --> 00:29:47,708
Marie!
432
00:29:52,833 --> 00:29:54,291
Marie, stop playin'.
433
00:30:06,291 --> 00:30:07,166
Marie!
434
00:30:09,125 --> 00:30:09,958
Shit.
435
00:30:14,125 --> 00:30:15,000
Marie!
436
00:30:24,500 --> 00:30:26,041
Marie, stop playin'.
437
00:30:31,541 --> 00:30:32,375
Marie!
438
00:30:41,000 --> 00:30:42,000
Marie!
439
00:30:45,041 --> 00:30:45,916
Marie!
440
00:30:47,541 --> 00:30:48,375
Shit.
441
00:31:12,250 --> 00:31:13,083
Marie.
442
00:31:29,291 --> 00:31:30,208
Marie!
443
00:31:43,458 --> 00:31:44,750
Oh, my God!
444
00:31:47,791 --> 00:31:50,416
- Where the fuck did you go?
- To pee.
445
00:31:50,500 --> 00:31:52,750
- To pee... Where?
- Outside.
446
00:31:53,708 --> 00:31:55,791
Why didn't you just use the bathroom?
447
00:31:55,875 --> 00:31:57,958
Because I didn't grow up with a backyard.
448
00:31:58,041 --> 00:32:00,125
- The novelty hasn't worn off yet.
- Jesus!
449
00:32:04,333 --> 00:32:07,666
You know, you are
the neediest man I have ever dated.
450
00:32:08,500 --> 00:32:13,500
But at the same time, you are also
the least jealous man I have ever dated.
451
00:32:13,583 --> 00:32:17,125
I mean, I could literally be hanging
on some random guy's arm
452
00:32:17,208 --> 00:32:19,208
and you would never think it's sexual.
453
00:32:19,291 --> 00:32:22,875
You'd just come up to me and be like,
"Hey, babe. What the hell are you doing?"
454
00:32:22,958 --> 00:32:26,041
"I need your help. I can't remember
anybody's name here. Let's go."
455
00:32:26,125 --> 00:32:28,916
- But whose arm are you hanging on?
- That's it. Doesn't matter.
456
00:32:29,000 --> 00:32:30,791
- Is this about tonight?
- Mmm.
457
00:32:32,041 --> 00:32:32,875
Kinda.
458
00:32:36,875 --> 00:32:38,083
- "Kinda"?
- Hmm.
459
00:32:41,375 --> 00:32:43,666
I was outside smoking and you were in here
460
00:32:43,750 --> 00:32:47,958
apologizing in whatever
emotionally obtuse way made sense to you.
461
00:32:48,041 --> 00:32:51,250
As if a song written 50 years ago
about a different fucking girl
462
00:32:51,333 --> 00:32:54,583
would somehow make me
feel better about our relationship.
463
00:32:54,666 --> 00:32:57,625
Some people would say
lack of jealousy is a good thing.
464
00:32:57,708 --> 00:33:01,875
- Not when it borders on indifference.
- What are you talkin' about, Marie?
465
00:33:03,208 --> 00:33:07,375
Malcolm, you can encourage me
to have a life of my own,
466
00:33:07,458 --> 00:33:09,708
but that's just… That's bullshit.
467
00:33:09,791 --> 00:33:12,833
You don't want me to have
a life that is separate from yours
468
00:33:12,916 --> 00:33:14,791
because you are too fucking needy.
469
00:33:14,875 --> 00:33:16,125
Thought we were done fighting.
470
00:33:16,208 --> 00:33:18,708
- Don't be sensitive. This isn't a fight.
- Yeah, right.
471
00:33:18,791 --> 00:33:20,416
It's not. It's an observation.
472
00:33:21,333 --> 00:33:23,208
- Tsk. Oh, you don't wanna go there.
- Why?
473
00:33:23,291 --> 00:33:24,750
- Trust me, you don't.
- Why?
474
00:33:24,833 --> 00:33:26,583
Even if you do,
you're not thinking clearly.
475
00:33:26,666 --> 00:33:29,458
- I think I'm thinking clearly.
- Trust me, you're not.
476
00:33:29,541 --> 00:33:33,083
- I do have a slightly masochistic streak.
- But you're not dumb.
477
00:33:33,166 --> 00:33:35,166
- Oh, my God. Thank you.
- Don't be a fucking brat.
478
00:33:35,250 --> 00:33:37,958
Don't patronize me
and tell me I gave up something
479
00:33:38,041 --> 00:33:40,875
when you know damn well
your work is all that you have time for
480
00:33:40,958 --> 00:33:42,125
and all you care about.
481
00:33:42,208 --> 00:33:46,041
Oh, so you gave up a career in acting
to be an emotional fucking support dog.
482
00:33:46,875 --> 00:33:48,500
- Fuck you, Malcolm!
- I get it now.
483
00:33:48,583 --> 00:33:50,833
- Fuck you!
- 'Cause you're scared, you didn't want it.
484
00:33:50,916 --> 00:33:51,750
You never wanted it.
485
00:33:51,833 --> 00:33:54,291
- 'Cause you're scared to try and fail.
- You are ugly inside.
486
00:33:54,375 --> 00:33:55,291
No, fuck you!
487
00:33:55,875 --> 00:33:58,791
Marie, when I met you,
you were a fucking pilled-out disaster.
488
00:33:58,875 --> 00:34:00,166
You were barely 20 years old.
489
00:34:00,250 --> 00:34:02,250
Couldn't hold a conversation
without noddin' off,
490
00:34:02,333 --> 00:34:03,750
or passin' out, or breaking down.
491
00:34:03,833 --> 00:34:08,041
Don't act like for the last five years
you became so enlightened that I fucking…
492
00:34:08,625 --> 00:34:10,083
Forgot the old you.
493
00:34:10,833 --> 00:34:12,583
Of course I want you to have a life.
494
00:34:12,666 --> 00:34:15,083
You know why?
Because I'm terrified that if you don't,
495
00:34:15,166 --> 00:34:16,750
you're gonna hang everything on mine.
496
00:34:16,833 --> 00:34:19,625
And when, God forbid,
I forget to thank you at a movie premiere,
497
00:34:19,708 --> 00:34:23,166
you come home, you start a fight,
and by morning you're drinking on Xannies,
498
00:34:23,250 --> 00:34:26,833
trying to fuckin' cut your wrists
with a pair of fucking nail scissors.
499
00:34:27,750 --> 00:34:30,250
Stupid motherf…
500
00:34:30,333 --> 00:34:31,958
Malcolm, I want you to leave this room.
501
00:34:32,041 --> 00:34:34,875
Oh, shut the fuck up, Marie.
You know, I get it. I really do.
502
00:34:34,958 --> 00:34:37,541
You have pain and fucking
disappointment and dreams
503
00:34:37,625 --> 00:34:39,500
like everybody else on planet Earth.
504
00:34:39,583 --> 00:34:41,916
You're mad you didn't get
the jobs you wish you'd got.
505
00:34:42,000 --> 00:34:44,541
You're embarrassed
you had to play "Skinny Girl In Alley"
506
00:34:44,625 --> 00:34:46,208
and "Concerned Nurse Number Two."
507
00:34:46,291 --> 00:34:50,000
Well, guess what? None of us
are proud of where we first start off.
508
00:34:50,083 --> 00:34:54,375
I started off, I had to do token fuckin'
punch up on straight to VOD rom-come,
509
00:34:54,458 --> 00:34:57,625
and under-the-table rewrites on films
that didn't wanna pay writers!
510
00:34:57,708 --> 00:34:59,041
But you keep working!
511
00:34:59,125 --> 00:35:01,541
You keep on trying!
You work harder and harder
512
00:35:01,625 --> 00:35:03,750
'cause even if
you're not talented, which you are,
513
00:35:03,833 --> 00:35:06,833
you can still get somewhere,
as long as you don't have an ego.
514
00:35:06,916 --> 00:35:10,125
You don't have to be proud
of everything you do!
515
00:35:10,208 --> 00:35:14,083
But you do have
to work harder than 99% of people.
516
00:35:16,083 --> 00:35:18,958
You know what's bullshit?
What's a fucking cop-out, Marie?
517
00:35:19,041 --> 00:35:22,791
Is you acting like my work
is so fucking suffocating
518
00:35:22,875 --> 00:35:26,041
that you can't even breathe,
that you don't have any fucking space.
519
00:35:26,125 --> 00:35:27,583
I mean, look around.
520
00:35:27,666 --> 00:35:31,166
Look at this fucking house
the production company put us up in.
521
00:35:31,250 --> 00:35:33,458
Pick a room, get to fucking work,
522
00:35:33,541 --> 00:35:37,625
and stop blaming me for your
inabilities to get your shit together!
523
00:35:40,333 --> 00:35:42,541
I checked you into rehab.
524
00:35:42,625 --> 00:35:45,250
I went to group therapy with you.
I've been with you.
525
00:35:45,333 --> 00:35:48,166
I fucking supported you
every single step of the way.
526
00:35:51,708 --> 00:35:53,208
When you were depressed,
527
00:35:53,291 --> 00:35:56,333
when you were on so many meds
that you couldn't fuck for half a year,
528
00:35:56,416 --> 00:35:57,625
I was there for you.
529
00:35:57,708 --> 00:35:59,791
When you relapsed, I was there for you.
530
00:35:59,875 --> 00:36:04,083
When we lived on 38th Street
and you went out to that meeting, right?
531
00:36:04,166 --> 00:36:06,458
And you went to the meeting
and you didn't come home
532
00:36:06,541 --> 00:36:08,791
because you were
fucking somebody else, right?
533
00:36:08,875 --> 00:36:10,458
Guess who was there for you?
534
00:36:10,541 --> 00:36:11,833
This nigga right here.
535
00:36:14,791 --> 00:36:17,500
So, don't go there.
536
00:36:17,583 --> 00:36:22,375
Do not fucking go there because
you are not gonna win this one, Marie.
537
00:36:22,458 --> 00:36:23,500
Trust me.
538
00:36:56,958 --> 00:36:59,416
All right, how about
we cut the bullshit, Malcolm?
539
00:37:00,333 --> 00:37:04,125
Since everybody's being honest tonight,
how about you be honest? Hmm?
540
00:37:04,625 --> 00:37:06,791
About the real reason
you were there for me.
541
00:37:11,291 --> 00:37:13,208
I was good fucking material.
542
00:37:15,958 --> 00:37:18,791
Hmm? That's why you stuck by me.
543
00:37:19,958 --> 00:37:21,375
Because I was a story.
544
00:37:21,458 --> 00:37:25,041
It was a world of emotions you weren't
used to seeing so fucking close.
545
00:37:25,125 --> 00:37:28,541
And because I was 20 years old and I'd
never been loved the way you loved me
546
00:37:28,625 --> 00:37:31,583
or thought you loved me,
I didn't realize what I was to you.
547
00:37:32,916 --> 00:37:35,750
A fucking movie. A tragedy.
548
00:37:35,833 --> 00:37:38,958
One that you could continue watching
for as long as you were there for me.
549
00:37:39,041 --> 00:37:42,250
And tonight, in that fucking audience,
I watched the whole shit play out.
550
00:37:42,333 --> 00:37:45,541
So don't pretend like it was
a selfless fucking act, Malcolm.
551
00:37:46,125 --> 00:37:49,208
It's literally the basis of your art
and it is the reason
552
00:37:49,291 --> 00:37:52,791
why all these people are calling you
brilliant and brave and fearless.
553
00:37:57,583 --> 00:37:59,166
"So tell us, Malcolm."
554
00:38:00,958 --> 00:38:03,583
"How were you able to breathe life
into the character of Imani?"
555
00:38:03,666 --> 00:38:06,625
"How were you able
to channel the voice of a young woman
556
00:38:06,708 --> 00:38:08,666
so well, so authentically?"
557
00:38:11,125 --> 00:38:15,500
"Well, Jennifer, that's a good question.
I guess you could say I stole it."
558
00:38:15,583 --> 00:38:17,000
"I ripped it off."
559
00:38:17,791 --> 00:38:20,166
"Not a literal theft, a spiritual one."
560
00:38:21,375 --> 00:38:22,625
You're a fucking fraud.
561
00:38:22,708 --> 00:38:26,208
The reason you didn't thank me tonight
is because you already know that.
562
00:38:26,291 --> 00:38:30,125
You have nothing new to say.
563
00:38:30,208 --> 00:38:33,250
All you can do is fuckin' mimic.
564
00:38:33,333 --> 00:38:35,541
Be a fucking parakeet, a goddamn cockatoo.
565
00:38:35,625 --> 00:38:38,333
I mean, God forbid you are ever alone,
566
00:38:38,416 --> 00:38:40,666
and have to dream up
another original idea.
567
00:38:40,750 --> 00:38:42,833
What are you going to write, Malcolm?
568
00:38:46,791 --> 00:38:47,625
Yourself?
569
00:38:49,458 --> 00:38:51,000
Give me a fucking break.
570
00:38:51,875 --> 00:38:54,041
You don't have the balls.
571
00:38:54,125 --> 00:38:57,958
You don't have the gravitas, the fucking
introspection to look at yourself
572
00:38:58,041 --> 00:38:59,958
and your flaws and your shortcomings
573
00:39:00,041 --> 00:39:02,791
and the fact that you may not be
the next Spike Lee or Barry Jenkins
574
00:39:02,875 --> 00:39:05,708
because those motherfuckers
had something new to say.
575
00:39:05,791 --> 00:39:09,291
Something true to themselves
and their fucking experience.
576
00:39:10,458 --> 00:39:13,500
You say the film is about shame and guilt.
577
00:39:13,583 --> 00:39:15,125
Correct?
578
00:39:15,958 --> 00:39:17,333
Your words, not mine.
579
00:39:18,333 --> 00:39:20,916
All right. Well, I have
a question for you, Malcolm.
580
00:39:21,000 --> 00:39:22,791
Whose fucking shame?
581
00:39:23,458 --> 00:39:25,166
Whose guilt?
582
00:39:25,250 --> 00:39:28,291
What the fuck do you know
about shame and guilt?
583
00:39:28,375 --> 00:39:31,458
You have two parents, no bad habits
other than being a fucking prick,
584
00:39:31,541 --> 00:39:32,666
and a college education.
585
00:39:32,750 --> 00:39:35,250
Your mother is a therapist.
Your father is a professor.
586
00:39:35,333 --> 00:39:38,000
Your sister works for a think tank in D.C.
587
00:39:38,083 --> 00:39:42,333
But out here, on these streets,
these smiling fucking rich people,
588
00:39:42,416 --> 00:39:44,916
they think you know
what it's like to scrap.
589
00:39:46,083 --> 00:39:49,375
Think you fucking lived it.
Give me a break.
590
00:39:50,666 --> 00:39:53,750
You're more privileged than the white girl
who works for the LA Times,
591
00:39:53,833 --> 00:39:57,083
who thinks she's doing a public service
by lifting up your mediocre ass.
592
00:39:57,875 --> 00:39:58,875
Now you're being cruel.
593
00:39:58,958 --> 00:40:01,750
Try slitting your wrists
with a pair of nail scissors.
594
00:40:04,541 --> 00:40:07,333
You're not gonna wanna survive it,
because it's embarrassing.
595
00:40:07,416 --> 00:40:08,250
Don't worry.
596
00:40:08,333 --> 00:40:11,291
I'm not so petty I throw it out
in argument because I'm angry.
597
00:40:11,375 --> 00:40:13,416
- I didn't mean it.
- Too late.
598
00:40:15,000 --> 00:40:16,958
It's embarrassing and it's cruel,
599
00:40:17,041 --> 00:40:19,416
and it makes me regret
sharing so much with you.
600
00:40:26,750 --> 00:40:29,000
Fucking calling me…
601
00:40:55,583 --> 00:40:59,375
I'm keeping you…
602
00:41:10,958 --> 00:41:11,791
Bullshit!
603
00:41:23,000 --> 00:41:26,541
How the fuck am I keeping you from a life?
604
00:41:26,625 --> 00:41:27,875
So stupid.
605
00:41:37,125 --> 00:41:38,083
Fucking bullshit.
606
00:41:55,166 --> 00:41:57,916
I know… I know what this is.
This is bullshit.
607
00:42:02,416 --> 00:42:03,583
Fuck Malibu.
608
00:42:11,000 --> 00:42:12,500
What do you mean, "mediocre"?
609
00:42:20,750 --> 00:42:22,583
Were you just trying to be mean?
610
00:42:23,208 --> 00:42:24,416
Is that why you said it?
611
00:42:32,166 --> 00:42:33,458
Out of everything I said,
612
00:42:34,791 --> 00:42:36,791
"mediocre" is what stuck with you?
613
00:42:37,458 --> 00:42:39,666
I just wanna know
if you actually believe it.
614
00:42:42,750 --> 00:42:43,583
Guess.
615
00:42:44,083 --> 00:42:47,333
- Answer the question.
- What is the question specifically?
616
00:42:47,416 --> 00:42:49,166
Do you not like the movie?
617
00:42:50,125 --> 00:42:51,166
I never said that.
618
00:42:53,791 --> 00:42:56,208
- So you don't like me and the movie.
- I never said that.
619
00:42:56,291 --> 00:42:58,125
That's literally
what you just fucking said.
620
00:42:59,083 --> 00:43:00,958
I feel like you're being a bit irrational.
621
00:43:01,041 --> 00:43:02,166
I'm being irrational?
622
00:43:02,958 --> 00:43:05,916
I'm being fucking irrational?
This is the biggest night of my life,
623
00:43:06,000 --> 00:43:09,041
and you're trying to turn it
into the worst and I'm being irrational.
624
00:43:09,750 --> 00:43:10,750
Look at you.
625
00:43:10,833 --> 00:43:13,625
You're so solipsistic
that you see yourself in everything.
626
00:43:13,708 --> 00:43:15,708
Even in things you had nothing to do with.
627
00:43:15,791 --> 00:43:17,375
You notice the way Imani walks.
628
00:43:17,458 --> 00:43:20,333
You turn to me and say,
"I wonder where you got that walk from."
629
00:43:20,416 --> 00:43:22,458
I don't say shit.
I actually smile, don't I?
630
00:43:22,541 --> 00:43:25,333
Keep that shit light
because I don't wanna hurt your feelings,
631
00:43:25,416 --> 00:43:27,541
but you tally that shit up, Marie.
632
00:43:27,625 --> 00:43:30,083
While I'm actually
doing something, creating something,
633
00:43:30,166 --> 00:43:33,791
you're on the sidelines trying to justify
your motherfucking existence.
634
00:43:34,750 --> 00:43:39,791
"I know that line." "I said that."
"I did that." "You got that from me."
635
00:43:39,875 --> 00:43:43,250
Shit, even feedback from you
comes with an IOU, Marie.
636
00:43:43,333 --> 00:43:45,500
You wanna play fucking dirty?
637
00:43:46,083 --> 00:43:47,291
Well, let's fucking go.
638
00:43:48,833 --> 00:43:50,208
You wanna hurt me, Marie.
639
00:43:51,500 --> 00:43:54,166
I promise you,
I can hurt you ten times worse.
640
00:43:55,166 --> 00:43:57,791
You're a fucking featherweight,
a level-one boss.
641
00:43:57,875 --> 00:43:59,833
I can snap you like a twig.
642
00:44:01,875 --> 00:44:04,291
Imani is based on you
as much as she is on me.
643
00:44:04,375 --> 00:44:05,625
What she says to the nurse,
644
00:44:05,708 --> 00:44:09,833
that's what I said to the doctor
when my dad was in the ICU.
645
00:44:11,000 --> 00:44:13,375
You noticed the way
Imani walks, didn't you?
646
00:44:14,083 --> 00:44:15,166
It's a good walk.
647
00:44:15,916 --> 00:44:18,208
That was my ex-girlfriend, Jess.
648
00:44:19,708 --> 00:44:21,708
So was the scene
on the bicycle in the rain.
649
00:44:21,791 --> 00:44:23,916
It wasn't based on the trip
you and I took to Barcelona.
650
00:44:24,000 --> 00:44:27,833
That's Jess and I
on the Citi Bike in Brooklyn.
651
00:44:28,541 --> 00:44:31,083
The way she ties her shoes with two loops…
652
00:44:32,083 --> 00:44:33,291
That was Jayla.
653
00:44:34,250 --> 00:44:35,416
You weren't the first.
654
00:44:35,500 --> 00:44:38,041
The joke about
how she doesn't give handjobs.
655
00:44:38,125 --> 00:44:41,666
Well, that's an old played-out line
that every nigga done heard before.
656
00:44:42,750 --> 00:44:46,125
The joke she makes
about how quickly she orgasms.
657
00:44:47,583 --> 00:44:48,583
That was Kiki.
658
00:44:49,416 --> 00:44:50,666
Kiki.
659
00:44:51,708 --> 00:44:53,083
She's a dancer.
660
00:44:54,958 --> 00:44:56,833
Dancer. We'll call her a dancer.
661
00:44:58,333 --> 00:45:00,833
Who I met
outside of St. Louis on a road trip.
662
00:45:00,916 --> 00:45:04,375
I fucked the shit out of her
in the penthouse suite of a Marriott.
663
00:45:04,458 --> 00:45:07,083
Once on the bed, once in the shower.
664
00:45:07,166 --> 00:45:09,916
We might've even fucked
in the closet or some shit too.
665
00:45:10,875 --> 00:45:12,166
I got a Polaroid of her.
666
00:45:13,666 --> 00:45:16,583
Sitting naked in a heart-shaped tub.
667
00:45:16,666 --> 00:45:19,416
It's in a photo album
at home in our closet.
668
00:45:22,083 --> 00:45:23,500
But you're an addict, right?
669
00:45:24,500 --> 00:45:26,500
That's what makes you so unique, right?
670
00:45:26,583 --> 00:45:29,958
That's what makes your contribution
so much more significant, right?
671
00:45:31,000 --> 00:45:33,833
Get the entire fuck out of here.
672
00:45:33,916 --> 00:45:37,500
You're not the first broken girl
I've known, fucked or dated.
673
00:45:38,125 --> 00:45:41,208
I wrote my first script
in a one-bedroom apartment with Leah,
674
00:45:41,291 --> 00:45:43,625
who I thought loved hour-long showers
675
00:45:43,708 --> 00:45:47,291
until I found her passed out
with a fucking needle in her arm.
676
00:45:47,958 --> 00:45:50,708
Two years ago,
I got an email from her sister
677
00:45:50,791 --> 00:45:53,958
saying she took a whole bottle
of Tylenol to the head and passed away
678
00:45:54,041 --> 00:45:55,333
and asked if I had any pictures
679
00:45:55,416 --> 00:45:57,833
'cause she was putting together
a slideshow on her behalf.
680
00:45:57,916 --> 00:46:00,291
Now that I think about it,
I should've thanked her tonight.
681
00:46:00,375 --> 00:46:01,500
She deserves it.
682
00:46:08,250 --> 00:46:09,375
Same with Tasha.
683
00:46:10,791 --> 00:46:13,000
First girl I actually loved,
I truly loved.
684
00:46:13,083 --> 00:46:14,750
The first girl who truly broke my heart.
685
00:46:14,833 --> 00:46:17,208
She never cheated on me.
She's got that going for her.
686
00:46:17,291 --> 00:46:19,708
She found Jesus,
got married, got divorced.
687
00:46:19,791 --> 00:46:23,000
She constantly DMs me
pictures of her daughter
688
00:46:23,083 --> 00:46:25,500
saying she wished she had a child with me.
689
00:46:26,291 --> 00:46:30,333
I send her heart emojis because I honestly
don't know how to respond to that.
690
00:46:31,916 --> 00:46:33,000
Are you done?
691
00:46:35,541 --> 00:46:37,291
Not even fucking close.
692
00:46:39,333 --> 00:46:40,916
Why, would you like me to stop?
693
00:46:43,583 --> 00:46:46,125
No, Malcolm. Keep going.
694
00:46:46,208 --> 00:46:47,875
- Why?
- Hmm.
695
00:46:49,625 --> 00:46:50,958
'Cause you like that shit?
696
00:46:52,541 --> 00:46:55,041
You know how disturbed you are, Marie?
697
00:46:55,125 --> 00:46:58,083
You may have gotten clean, but
you still haven't figured this part out.
698
00:46:58,166 --> 00:47:01,916
Why you love being hurt,
traumatized and fucking eviscerated?
699
00:47:03,791 --> 00:47:04,625
It's not normal.
700
00:47:04,708 --> 00:47:08,125
It's not healthy, and it permeates
every aspect of our relationship.
701
00:47:08,208 --> 00:47:12,541
The way we talk,
the way we fight, the way we fuck.
702
00:47:12,625 --> 00:47:15,541
I've dated some
damaged people in my life, Marie.
703
00:47:15,625 --> 00:47:19,500
But none of them wanted to be
debased and degraded like you.
704
00:47:20,458 --> 00:47:22,041
And honestly, Marie…
705
00:47:24,125 --> 00:47:25,833
It's nothing to be proud of.
706
00:47:30,000 --> 00:47:35,000
So stop fucking smiling,
'cause you look like a clown.
707
00:47:38,750 --> 00:47:40,500
Now there's some material for you.
708
00:48:03,875 --> 00:48:06,750
You know what I just realized, Marie?
709
00:48:09,333 --> 00:48:11,541
It's not about justifying your existence.
710
00:48:12,916 --> 00:48:13,916
It's not.
711
00:48:15,208 --> 00:48:17,458
It's about you
being so scared and so selfish
712
00:48:17,541 --> 00:48:19,333
that you have to break me down.
713
00:48:20,875 --> 00:48:22,708
Second guess everything I do.
714
00:48:23,375 --> 00:48:24,916
"Am I mediocre?"
715
00:48:25,625 --> 00:48:27,541
"Can I do this without her?"
716
00:48:27,625 --> 00:48:31,500
"I don't know. I better ask Marie.
Maybe Marie will know the answer."
717
00:48:31,583 --> 00:48:33,458
"Where's Marie?
I need Marie." That's a cut.
718
00:48:33,541 --> 00:48:34,916
"Marie, where did you go?"
719
00:48:35,000 --> 00:48:36,958
"Did you see that performance?
What'd you think?"
720
00:48:37,041 --> 00:48:38,958
"You liked it? Yeah, me too."
721
00:48:39,833 --> 00:48:44,125
God forbid I'm secure enough
in my opinion that I don't need you.
722
00:48:45,541 --> 00:48:47,333
That's what this all is about.
723
00:48:47,958 --> 00:48:50,166
Your whole speech about fake films.
724
00:48:52,125 --> 00:48:54,625
You just need a reason to be needed
725
00:48:54,708 --> 00:48:59,000
because if I don't need you, then
what the hell am I doing with you, Marie?
726
00:49:00,875 --> 00:49:02,208
You want control
727
00:49:02,291 --> 00:49:06,333
because you can't imagine the reason
I'm with you is because I love you.
728
00:49:08,416 --> 00:49:10,291
I just love you, baby.
729
00:49:11,791 --> 00:49:13,041
I don't need you.
730
00:49:14,000 --> 00:49:17,625
But I love you. That there's somebody
on this planet that just loves you.
731
00:49:19,333 --> 00:49:21,958
I love the way your mind works, Marie.
732
00:49:23,208 --> 00:49:24,083
I do.
733
00:49:24,625 --> 00:49:27,375
I love the way you see the world.
734
00:49:28,291 --> 00:49:30,500
I love the way you think.
735
00:49:31,250 --> 00:49:32,125
Your instincts.
736
00:49:32,208 --> 00:49:36,375
And I'm so fucking grateful
737
00:49:36,458 --> 00:49:39,916
because everything
that you've been through, everything…
738
00:49:42,166 --> 00:49:44,500
That's what made you you.
That's what made you you.
739
00:49:44,583 --> 00:49:46,541
The girl that I love,
the girl that I fuck with,
740
00:49:46,625 --> 00:49:48,958
the girl that I'm up
at 2:00 a.m. in the morning
741
00:49:49,041 --> 00:49:54,125
on the biggest night of my life
because she's relentless.
742
00:49:57,041 --> 00:49:58,250
And crazy.
743
00:50:00,708 --> 00:50:03,750
And I'm sorry, though. I'm sorry.
744
00:50:04,875 --> 00:50:07,875
I apologized, you know, and…
745
00:50:09,375 --> 00:50:11,750
A thousand times. I know I fucked up.
746
00:50:12,625 --> 00:50:15,916
But honestly, the second we got home,
747
00:50:16,500 --> 00:50:18,916
all I wanted to do
was celebrate with you, baby.
748
00:50:19,750 --> 00:50:22,458
Marie, my girl, the love of my life.
749
00:50:26,875 --> 00:50:30,333
You wanna know the part
of Imani that's based on you?
750
00:50:33,833 --> 00:50:34,833
It's the end.
751
00:50:36,250 --> 00:50:38,833
The part that makes it
such a tragedy. The part…
752
00:50:39,791 --> 00:50:40,916
That she…
753
00:50:41,000 --> 00:50:45,833
Where she loathes herself so much
because of all the guilt and the shame.
754
00:50:47,875 --> 00:50:49,666
That she can't let the good in.
755
00:50:52,833 --> 00:50:54,875
That's the part that's based on you.
756
00:50:57,666 --> 00:50:59,916
Her inability to fathom
757
00:51:00,000 --> 00:51:03,291
that there's someone
on this planet Earth that just loves her.
758
00:51:06,541 --> 00:51:08,625
Despite her not loving herself.
759
00:51:13,333 --> 00:51:14,333
That's you.
760
00:51:19,750 --> 00:51:21,583
That's the part that isn't fiction.
761
00:53:59,708 --> 00:54:01,375
You gonna start smoking again?
762
00:56:41,625 --> 00:56:42,458
Fuck!
763
00:56:44,833 --> 00:56:46,791
That fucking piece of shit!
764
00:56:49,541 --> 00:56:53,416
Fuck you! Fuck you!
Fuck you! Fuck you! Fuck you!
765
00:56:54,208 --> 00:56:56,458
Fucking piece of shit! Fuck you!
766
00:56:56,541 --> 00:56:59,083
- What's going on?
- Fuckin' LA Times review's up.
767
00:56:59,166 --> 00:57:01,791
- Oh, shit. What does it say?
- I don't know. Fucking Internet.
768
00:57:01,875 --> 00:57:03,166
- Is it good?
- Hold on.
769
00:57:03,250 --> 00:57:05,208
- Who sent it to you?
- No one. I found it.
770
00:57:05,291 --> 00:57:08,000
- How come no one sent it?
- Marie, stop. It's loading.
771
00:57:08,083 --> 00:57:09,750
All right. What's the headline?
772
00:57:09,833 --> 00:57:13,708
Oh, gotta pay a fucking paywall now?
A fucking paywall? Really?
773
00:57:13,791 --> 00:57:14,833
When was it posted?
774
00:57:14,916 --> 00:57:18,458
Dollar-ninety-nine a fucking month.
Twenty minutes ago.
775
00:57:18,541 --> 00:57:21,750
And no one sent it to you?
How come no one sent it to you?
776
00:57:21,833 --> 00:57:23,666
Shit. Where's my fucking wallet?
777
00:57:23,750 --> 00:57:25,875
You don't have your credit card
saved in your phone?
778
00:57:25,958 --> 00:57:27,041
- No!
- Why?
779
00:57:27,125 --> 00:57:29,958
- Because I don't trust that shit.
- Really?
780
00:57:30,041 --> 00:57:33,083
- Marie, stop.
- I'm sorry. Okay. Okay.
781
00:57:34,750 --> 00:57:36,208
Did what's-her-name write it?
782
00:57:36,291 --> 00:57:37,583
- The white girl?
- Yeah.
783
00:57:37,666 --> 00:57:40,083
- Yeah.
- Then it's gotta be positive.
784
00:57:40,166 --> 00:57:43,000
Shit, I hope so.
Where's my motherfuckin' wallet?
785
00:57:43,083 --> 00:57:44,791
Did you check the bedroom?
786
00:57:47,625 --> 00:57:49,083
- What?
- Check the bedroom?
787
00:57:49,166 --> 00:57:52,708
- Yeah, I checked the fucking bedroom!
- Okay. Well, then did you check the bar?
788
00:57:54,125 --> 00:57:56,958
I checked the fucking bar too, Marie!
Where the fuck is the…
789
00:57:57,041 --> 00:57:59,333
Where the fuck is the…
Oh, I got it. I got it.
790
00:57:59,416 --> 00:58:02,708
- Got it? Where was it?
- Doesn't matter.
791
00:58:08,083 --> 00:58:11,916
Oh, shit! Where the fuck is my phone?
792
00:58:12,000 --> 00:58:13,333
- Malcolm.
- Where's my phone?
793
00:58:13,416 --> 00:58:14,791
- Malcolm. Malcolm?
- What?
794
00:58:14,875 --> 00:58:16,666
It's right here. It's right here.
795
00:58:16,750 --> 00:58:17,708
Calm down.
796
00:58:21,458 --> 00:58:23,041
"Imani review."
797
00:58:23,125 --> 00:58:24,750
"A cinematic tour de force
798
00:58:24,833 --> 00:58:28,125
takes aim at the twin horrors
of healthcare and racism,
799
00:58:28,208 --> 00:58:32,166
in Malcolm Elliot's rebellious,
jazzy directorial debut."
800
00:58:33,083 --> 00:58:34,833
I fucking hate this woman.
801
00:58:34,916 --> 00:58:36,250
Who wants to see that film?
802
00:58:36,333 --> 00:58:38,125
"Cinematic tour de force" is all I heard.
803
00:58:38,208 --> 00:58:41,166
- You didn't hear "jazzy"?
- No, I heard "jazzy," too.
804
00:58:41,250 --> 00:58:44,333
"Like the opening Steadicam shot."
It's a dolly, you fucking idiot.
805
00:58:44,416 --> 00:58:46,458
"Through the streets of Bed-Stuy,
we know one thing
806
00:58:46,541 --> 00:58:49,458
about our slender protagonist Imani.
She marches to her own beat."
807
00:58:49,541 --> 00:58:51,791
"She sets the tone,
the atmosphere, the vibe."
808
00:58:51,875 --> 00:58:54,875
"She may slink and slide through
halfway houses and in-patient hospitals,
809
00:58:54,958 --> 00:58:57,333
but make no mistake,
as the title suggests,
810
00:58:57,416 --> 00:59:00,833
this is her film, her world, her turf.
Until it's not."
811
00:59:00,916 --> 00:59:03,208
"If you can't tell
by the rhythm of my white girl words,
812
00:59:03,291 --> 00:59:04,750
you are in for a Black film."
813
00:59:04,833 --> 00:59:07,458
The synopsis.
Boring, boring, boring.
814
00:59:07,541 --> 00:59:11,500
The only reason you know it's 2-perf 35 is
because I said it at the premier, dipshit.
815
00:59:11,583 --> 00:59:12,666
"Positive…"
816
00:59:12,750 --> 00:59:14,708
"Leading to a harrowing
and indelible scene
817
00:59:14,791 --> 00:59:17,083
where Imani overdoses
at a Chinatown market,
818
00:59:17,166 --> 00:59:19,458
and that's where Elliot's
true target becomes clear."
819
00:59:19,541 --> 00:59:22,833
"This is a film about how the American
healthcare system treats women of color."
820
00:59:22,916 --> 00:59:24,208
And at this precise moment,
821
00:59:24,291 --> 00:59:26,791
every Negro who subscribes
to the LA Times just said,
822
00:59:26,875 --> 00:59:28,750
"Then why the fuck
do I need to see this film?"
823
00:59:28,833 --> 00:59:31,333
Just 'cause the film doesn't star
anybody that looks like her
824
00:59:31,416 --> 00:59:32,833
doesn't mean it's political.
825
00:59:32,916 --> 00:59:36,333
- What's wrong with being political?
- Political films are exhausting.
826
00:59:36,416 --> 00:59:37,958
You love political films.
827
00:59:38,041 --> 00:59:40,958
Not the ones the white woman
from the LA Times calls political.
828
00:59:41,041 --> 00:59:42,583
I'm sure she loves Do The Right Thing.
829
00:59:42,666 --> 00:59:46,416
Made at a time when politics weren't cool.
That's what made it so revolutionary.
830
00:59:46,500 --> 00:59:48,541
"When Imani is placed under 5150,
831
00:59:48,625 --> 00:59:50,541
a term for people
being held against their will
832
00:59:50,625 --> 00:59:52,416
and being a danger
to themselves and others,
833
00:59:52,500 --> 00:59:55,875
after a harrowing scene
with a pair of nail scissors, she…"
834
00:59:55,958 --> 00:59:58,916
"She's placed
under the care of friendly doctor
835
00:59:59,000 --> 01:00:02,458
played by… TV show fame…"
836
01:00:02,541 --> 01:00:05,125
"But Elliot knows
the waters he's wading into,
837
01:00:05,208 --> 01:00:09,291
and carefully, brilliantly subverts
the white savior trope."
838
01:00:09,375 --> 01:00:11,625
Oh, she's on one now. This fucking stupid…
839
01:00:11,708 --> 01:00:14,666
"Later, when Imani finds herself, uh…
840
01:00:14,750 --> 01:00:17,750
At her ex-boyfriend's house
begging for a fix,
841
01:00:17,833 --> 01:00:21,083
Elliot uses tight lenses."
It's the fucking same lens.
842
01:00:21,166 --> 01:00:22,833
"Claustrophobia…"
843
01:00:22,916 --> 01:00:25,125
"One begins to question his intentions
844
01:00:25,208 --> 01:00:28,375
in reveling in the trauma
of his Black female heroine for so long."
845
01:00:28,458 --> 01:00:30,208
"It's a scene
better implied than depicted."
846
01:00:30,291 --> 01:00:32,416
"If not for the restraint
of his own picture,
847
01:00:32,500 --> 01:00:34,833
then merely to separate itself
from an exhaustive history
848
01:00:34,916 --> 01:00:37,583
that depicts gendered violence
against women of fucking color."
849
01:00:37,666 --> 01:00:40,583
Are you fucking kidding me?
Are you kidding me, ma'am?
850
01:00:40,666 --> 01:00:44,125
Are you fucking... In the next line!
Oh, shit! Oh, shit!
851
01:00:44,208 --> 01:00:47,041
She says it's a "genuine masterwork."
A genuine fucking...
852
01:00:47,125 --> 01:00:50,416
I can't read this fucking shit anymore.
It's too fucking moronic.
853
01:00:50,500 --> 01:00:54,416
The fact that the LA Times will
hire such a fucking halfwit is beyond me.
854
01:00:54,500 --> 01:00:57,791
First she says that I brilliantly
subvert the white savior trope.
855
01:00:57,875 --> 01:00:59,000
She is a savior.
856
01:00:59,083 --> 01:01:00,791
She's trying to save her,
857
01:01:00,875 --> 01:01:03,333
so how the fuck
did I subvert it, lady? How?
858
01:01:03,416 --> 01:01:05,416
You wanna know how?
It's because I'm Black!
859
01:01:05,500 --> 01:01:08,041
If I was white,
she would've said I fell for the trope.
860
01:01:08,125 --> 01:01:10,708
But because I'm a man,
she can question my intention
861
01:01:10,791 --> 01:01:13,250
saying that I'm reveling
in the trauma of a woman.
862
01:01:13,333 --> 01:01:14,625
"Better implied than depicted."
863
01:01:14,708 --> 01:01:17,791
The fuck out of here! Why?
Because Taylor took her shirt off?
864
01:01:17,875 --> 01:01:21,083
I'm sure she just doesn't think
that the nudity was necessary.
865
01:01:21,166 --> 01:01:22,625
None of it is necessary, Marie.
866
01:01:22,708 --> 01:01:24,416
None of this shit is necessary.
867
01:01:24,500 --> 01:01:28,833
Movement, blocking, lighting,
fucking digital versus film.
868
01:01:28,916 --> 01:01:31,625
This cut here, that cut here.
Let's pan. Two-shot.
869
01:01:31,708 --> 01:01:33,916
None of this shit matters.
It's all about what you want.
870
01:01:34,000 --> 01:01:36,833
But my fucking problem with her
before she even wrote this dumb-ass,
871
01:01:36,916 --> 01:01:40,000
bitch-ass, pussy-ass review is
the same after readin' this cock-sucking,
872
01:01:40,083 --> 01:01:42,041
motherfucking, dog-dick review.
873
01:01:42,125 --> 01:01:45,083
She's not looking at the film.
The ideas in it,
874
01:01:45,166 --> 01:01:46,875
the emotions, or the craft.
875
01:01:46,958 --> 01:01:49,375
Cinema doesn't need
to have a fucking message.
876
01:01:49,458 --> 01:01:51,833
It needs to have a heart and electricity.
877
01:01:51,916 --> 01:01:54,791
Morons like this
sap the world of its mystery
878
01:01:54,875 --> 01:01:58,000
because they need everything
spelled out with fucking A-B-C blocks.
879
01:01:58,083 --> 01:02:01,500
And they're terrified to embrace
anything potentially dangerous
880
01:02:01,583 --> 01:02:03,750
because they're trying
to predict the culture.
881
01:02:03,833 --> 01:02:07,750
This fucking bobblehead shouldn't be
writing for the LA fucking Times.
882
01:02:07,833 --> 01:02:11,000
She should be holding
smiling sun placards for the local news
883
01:02:11,083 --> 01:02:13,958
because all she is,
is a motherfucking weatherman!
884
01:02:16,125 --> 01:02:17,583
Or weatherwoman.
885
01:02:18,916 --> 01:02:20,041
Whatever.
886
01:02:21,333 --> 01:02:24,250
Fucking… Dorothy-ass…
887
01:02:28,000 --> 01:02:29,166
Malcolm.
888
01:02:30,000 --> 01:02:31,000
What?
889
01:02:32,083 --> 01:02:34,791
She did call it a genuine masterwork.
890
01:02:37,666 --> 01:02:38,958
I don't give a fuck!
891
01:02:39,500 --> 01:02:41,625
Unlike her, at least I'm consistent.
892
01:02:42,166 --> 01:02:43,916
You can't hang everything on identity.
893
01:02:44,000 --> 01:02:47,333
You can't say that I brilliantly
subverted this trope 'cause I'm Black,
894
01:02:47,416 --> 01:02:50,000
but I fell into this one
because I'm a fucking man!
895
01:02:50,083 --> 01:02:51,750
Identities are constantly shifting.
896
01:02:51,833 --> 01:02:54,958
Does the male gaze exist
if the filmmaker's gay and not straight?
897
01:02:55,041 --> 01:02:57,208
And to what degree?
What if they're asexual?
898
01:02:57,291 --> 01:02:59,666
What if they're transitioning
and you don't even know it?
899
01:02:59,750 --> 01:03:03,125
You can only look back at things
and wonder what the fuck it all means!
900
01:03:03,791 --> 01:03:07,750
I mean, why did Ben Hecht and Selznick,
two fucking Jewish men,
901
01:03:07,833 --> 01:03:10,916
spend so much time on Gone With the Wind?
902
01:03:11,000 --> 01:03:12,125
To this day,
903
01:03:12,208 --> 01:03:16,083
no one can explain to me why the fuck
Billy Wilder made Spirit of St. Louis
904
01:03:16,166 --> 01:03:19,208
and lionized
that Nazi bastard Lindbergh, huh?
905
01:03:19,291 --> 01:03:22,708
Or why Ida Lupino loved film noir
and fucking violent men.
906
01:03:22,791 --> 01:03:24,833
Why Ed Wood wore fucking panties?
907
01:03:24,916 --> 01:03:29,208
He wore panties and made B films
about fucking space aliens.
908
01:03:29,291 --> 01:03:32,458
Or Elaine May was fascinated
with emotionally stunted men.
909
01:03:32,541 --> 01:03:34,541
I mean, did she see herself in them?
910
01:03:35,208 --> 01:03:38,625
Did she hate them in real life, but wanted
to get to know them through the work?
911
01:03:38,708 --> 01:03:42,875
The fact that Barry Jenkins isn't gay,
is that what made Moonlight so universal?
912
01:03:42,958 --> 01:03:46,041
Or was being gay the reason Cukor
empathized with women more than men?
913
01:03:46,125 --> 01:03:47,750
It's all a mystery is the point!
914
01:03:47,833 --> 01:03:50,625
What drives a filmmaker?
What drives an artist?
915
01:03:52,541 --> 01:03:56,625
I mean, why did Pontecorvo,
a fucking rich Italian Jewish man…
916
01:03:56,708 --> 01:04:00,708
Why did he fucking feel such a kinship
to Algerian Muslim guerrilla fighters
917
01:04:00,791 --> 01:04:02,916
that he fucking made Battle of Algiers?
918
01:04:03,000 --> 01:04:05,416
A fucking classic! Tell me that!
919
01:04:05,500 --> 01:04:07,625
Can you tell me that? Fucking Karen!
920
01:04:07,708 --> 01:04:11,666
Can you tell me that? You can't, can you?
Because why? 'Cause nobody knows!
921
01:04:11,750 --> 01:04:15,750
Who the fuck knows? Who the fuck knows?
Why did I shoot the scene the way I did?
922
01:04:15,833 --> 01:04:17,791
Is it because I'm a man,
because I'm straight?
923
01:04:17,875 --> 01:04:19,708
Is it because I'm desensitized to violence
924
01:04:19,791 --> 01:04:23,000
or is it because I believe that
if you witness trauma onscreen,
925
01:04:23,083 --> 01:04:25,750
the audience should also
feel that fucking trauma?
926
01:04:25,833 --> 01:04:27,833
That is the mystery of art. Of film.
927
01:04:27,916 --> 01:04:31,125
What drives someone to make something
and fucking say something.
928
01:04:31,208 --> 01:04:34,750
Now, you can criticize this system,
which, like every fucking system,
929
01:04:34,833 --> 01:04:36,041
is white as fuck,
930
01:04:36,125 --> 01:04:38,750
and in our business,
fucking male and white as fuck!
931
01:04:38,833 --> 01:04:40,500
I mean, goddamn!
932
01:04:40,583 --> 01:04:42,583
I've been waiting my whole life,
I've been askin',
933
01:04:42,666 --> 01:04:44,375
"Where the fuck
are all the Black filmmakers,
934
01:04:44,458 --> 01:04:46,916
'cause I'm gettin' sick and tired
of these little British boys
935
01:04:47,000 --> 01:04:50,750
runnin' around here all in they feelings
trying to overcome a fucking birth defect
936
01:04:50,833 --> 01:04:52,875
to save the fucking Queen from Hitler."
937
01:04:52,958 --> 01:04:55,416
Just do me a fucking favor, all right?
938
01:04:55,500 --> 01:04:58,666
Ban every fucking film
with a postscript, and we'll be good.
939
01:04:59,583 --> 01:05:02,125
We'll be fucking great!
940
01:05:02,208 --> 01:05:06,625
But to write shit like this?
To write this bullshit?
941
01:05:06,708 --> 01:05:09,708
To box people in
because you don't have the love of film,
942
01:05:09,791 --> 01:05:12,916
because you don't have the mind
to critique the form, medium, technique.
943
01:05:13,000 --> 01:05:15,291
You don't have the words
to describe the emotions
944
01:05:15,375 --> 01:05:17,708
or too much fear
that you're not gonna get clicks,
945
01:05:17,791 --> 01:05:20,291
or too much fear
that the mob's gonna turn on you.
946
01:05:20,375 --> 01:05:23,416
Fuck you for inhibiting
the ability for artists to dream about
947
01:05:23,500 --> 01:05:25,666
what life may be like
for other fucking people.
948
01:05:25,750 --> 01:05:28,541
Fuck you! Twice! With a sick cactus dick!
949
01:05:28,625 --> 01:05:31,791
Even if you come up short,
even if you could do better, fuck you!
950
01:05:31,875 --> 01:05:33,666
You're the reason they make this stale,
951
01:05:33,750 --> 01:05:35,833
safe, stagnant turgid shit
in the first place!
952
01:05:35,916 --> 01:05:38,375
You're the reason! Not me!
You're the reason!
953
01:05:39,875 --> 01:05:43,666
I mean, you should be fucking bold!
You should be fucking reckless!
954
01:05:43,750 --> 01:05:45,958
People should be fucking reckless!
955
01:05:46,041 --> 01:05:48,208
They should be yelling
at the top of their lungs!
956
01:05:48,291 --> 01:05:52,375
Hey, Karen! Hey, Al!
957
01:05:52,458 --> 01:05:55,666
I hear you, and I don't give a fuck!
958
01:05:56,291 --> 01:05:58,166
Because they're not gonna get any better
959
01:05:58,250 --> 01:06:02,083
until they start rebelling against this
purist, moralistic, academic nonsense
960
01:06:02,166 --> 01:06:04,916
in the same way Spike Lee
rebelled against the white system
961
01:06:05,000 --> 01:06:06,541
when he made Do the Right Thing.
962
01:06:06,625 --> 01:06:08,833
Normally, I wish death
upon someone like this.
963
01:06:08,916 --> 01:06:11,541
Someone who lacks
the fucking imagination like this.
964
01:06:11,625 --> 01:06:14,416
But instead, I'm gonna pray fucking hard,
965
01:06:14,500 --> 01:06:17,625
the way my mama taught me,
that she gets fucking carpal tunnel,
966
01:06:17,708 --> 01:06:19,541
until her hands atrophy and cramp
967
01:06:19,625 --> 01:06:24,833
and she can no longer write nonsensical
fucking garbage like this anymore!
968
01:06:31,375 --> 01:06:33,083
Oh, my God.
969
01:06:36,625 --> 01:06:39,666
So this is what happens
when you get a good review?
970
01:06:43,583 --> 01:06:45,708
You're fucking crazy.
971
01:06:45,791 --> 01:06:47,666
I'm ser... You're delirious.
972
01:06:50,291 --> 01:06:53,125
Honestly, Malcolm,
you are a true insane person.
973
01:06:54,333 --> 01:06:56,916
I know. I know. I just…
I'm tired of fighting, Marie.
974
01:06:57,000 --> 01:06:59,625
That was a fight
you had entirely with yourself.
975
01:07:02,833 --> 01:07:04,500
You think you're the first writer
976
01:07:04,583 --> 01:07:07,666
in the history of writing
to have this issue with critics?
977
01:07:07,750 --> 01:07:08,666
'Course not.
978
01:07:08,750 --> 01:07:11,458
Of course not,
'cause it's all the same bullshit.
979
01:07:11,541 --> 01:07:14,291
So, what, Malcolm? You wanna make movies,
980
01:07:14,375 --> 01:07:17,333
and no one's allowed to say
anything bad about them?
981
01:07:17,416 --> 01:07:20,083
Give me a break.
982
01:07:20,166 --> 01:07:22,583
"Oh, no!
Someone attacked my movie."
983
01:07:22,666 --> 01:07:24,750
Well, fuck these lazy-ass critics.
984
01:07:24,833 --> 01:07:30,000
Malcolm, you are not making pottery
for a living, okay?
985
01:07:30,083 --> 01:07:34,708
You are a filmmaker,
and filmmaking is the most capitalistic,
986
01:07:34,791 --> 01:07:37,708
mainstream fucking art form
on the planet Earth.
987
01:07:37,791 --> 01:07:40,083
No matter how many times
Taylor told E! News
988
01:07:40,166 --> 01:07:41,916
that she was a fucking communist.
989
01:07:42,000 --> 01:07:44,000
- She what?
- Or a Maoist.
990
01:07:44,083 --> 01:07:45,708
- Come on.
- It was something like that.
991
01:07:45,791 --> 01:07:48,208
She might've talked about
the redistribution of wealth,
992
01:07:48,291 --> 01:07:49,333
lack of social programs.
993
01:07:49,416 --> 01:07:51,916
- While selling a film?
- The mental healthcare industry...
994
01:07:52,000 --> 01:07:53,583
- For $15 a ticket?
- I'm just saying...
995
01:07:53,666 --> 01:07:54,791
On E! News.
996
01:07:55,458 --> 01:07:56,875
It was Entertainment Tonight.
997
01:07:58,250 --> 01:08:00,416
And you wonder
why the white girl's talking about
998
01:08:00,500 --> 01:08:02,458
the mental healthcare system
in her review.
999
01:08:03,958 --> 01:08:04,875
Because…
1000
01:08:06,625 --> 01:08:09,416
Oh, she… Oh, shit, you're right.
1001
01:08:09,500 --> 01:08:10,333
Right?
1002
01:08:12,708 --> 01:08:14,458
Yep.
1003
01:08:14,541 --> 01:08:16,625
I hate to break it to you, but uh…
1004
01:08:17,583 --> 01:08:19,708
No one in this game is a radical.
1005
01:08:19,791 --> 01:08:23,333
- Oh, Taylor's pretty radical.
- Bullshit. She likes to play one on TV.
1006
01:08:23,416 --> 01:08:24,416
What do you mean?
1007
01:08:25,750 --> 01:08:27,541
All of y'all are
a bunch of hookers and hoes.
1008
01:08:27,625 --> 01:08:30,083
- You calling me a ho?
- Yes, I am calling you a ho.
1009
01:08:30,166 --> 01:08:31,916
Fuck you.
1010
01:08:32,000 --> 01:08:34,583
'Cause you're a ho!
What? You are. That's fine.
1011
01:08:35,375 --> 01:08:37,416
That's why you're hell-bent
on sounding smart,
1012
01:08:37,500 --> 01:08:40,000
'cause you're compensating
for the fact that you're a ho.
1013
01:08:40,083 --> 01:08:42,625
Instead of just understanding that…
1014
01:08:42,708 --> 01:08:45,583
This is just how
the world of ho-dom turns.
1015
01:08:45,666 --> 01:08:49,250
You know, you got an actress
in a $2,000 dress,
1016
01:08:49,333 --> 01:08:51,083
talkin' about socialism on a red carpet
1017
01:08:51,166 --> 01:08:53,625
because she's too afraid
to admit that, guess what,
1018
01:08:53,708 --> 01:08:55,708
she's just… she's just a fuckin' actor.
1019
01:08:56,375 --> 01:08:57,750
There's no shame in that.
1020
01:08:58,333 --> 01:09:00,875
And then you got
every entertainment outlet
1021
01:09:00,958 --> 01:09:04,625
running with her call to arms,
her viva la revolution.
1022
01:09:04,708 --> 01:09:07,708
Not because they actually care
or want to spread the message.
1023
01:09:07,791 --> 01:09:12,250
But because they know that there's
nothing that sells more than disgust.
1024
01:09:14,000 --> 01:09:16,000
That's what gets the clicks.
1025
01:09:16,083 --> 01:09:19,041
And you dumbasses
fall for that shit every time.
1026
01:09:20,208 --> 01:09:22,666
Honestly, nobody cares
what you have to say.
1027
01:09:23,625 --> 01:09:24,625
They don't.
1028
01:09:25,208 --> 01:09:27,166
You guys play fucking dress-up
for a living.
1029
01:09:28,708 --> 01:09:33,916
This is some only-in-America, ho-ass shit.
1030
01:09:35,416 --> 01:09:37,875
And all of you are guilty.
1031
01:09:38,833 --> 01:09:42,791
You know? So just stay in your lane.
Keep doing your ho shit. It's fine.
1032
01:09:45,208 --> 01:09:48,416
Malcolm, you got
a great review with an asterisk.
1033
01:09:50,416 --> 01:09:53,041
Boo-fucking-hoo.
1034
01:09:57,500 --> 01:09:58,708
I'm a ho, huh?
1035
01:09:58,791 --> 01:10:01,125
Mm-hmm. Most definitely.
1036
01:10:03,416 --> 01:10:06,333
- I love you.
- Don't manipulate me.
1037
01:10:47,958 --> 01:10:49,250
- Okay.
- Okay.
1038
01:10:49,333 --> 01:10:51,583
- Okay. I got a gameplan.
- Okay.
1039
01:10:52,333 --> 01:10:54,333
I love what's happening.
1040
01:10:55,208 --> 01:10:57,250
Oh, my God. And thank God. I just…
1041
01:10:57,333 --> 01:10:59,333
Been wanting to do this all night.
1042
01:10:59,416 --> 01:11:00,416
Here's the gameplan.
1043
01:11:01,000 --> 01:11:02,250
I'm gonna go from here…
1044
01:11:03,375 --> 01:11:04,458
To the bathroom.
1045
01:11:05,291 --> 01:11:06,833
- Because I have to pee.
- Okay.
1046
01:11:06,916 --> 01:11:08,333
- Okay. Is it okay?
- That's fine.
1047
01:11:08,416 --> 01:11:12,083
And let's just keep it positive.
Happy thoughts.
1048
01:11:12,791 --> 01:11:14,958
You stay right here.
Don't move. You look beautiful.
1049
01:11:15,041 --> 01:11:16,791
- Stay right here. Okay?
- Okay.
1050
01:11:16,875 --> 01:11:19,083
- You stay right here.
- Okay.
1051
01:11:21,875 --> 01:11:22,833
Hey.
1052
01:11:24,333 --> 01:11:26,375
Oh, my God. Oh, my…
1053
01:12:17,833 --> 01:12:18,833
Malcolm?
1054
01:12:23,458 --> 01:12:24,291
Yeah?
1055
01:12:27,958 --> 01:12:30,291
Can I ask you a question
and you promise to answer
1056
01:12:30,375 --> 01:12:32,125
without making me feel like shit?
1057
01:12:35,583 --> 01:12:36,500
Yeah.
1058
01:12:45,208 --> 01:12:46,708
Why didn't you cast me?
1059
01:12:57,500 --> 01:12:59,791
When you first wrote it,
you wrote it for me.
1060
01:13:02,916 --> 01:13:04,666
So why didn't you cast me?
1061
01:13:11,666 --> 01:13:14,208
So that's what this whole thing
has been about tonight?
1062
01:13:15,916 --> 01:13:16,791
No.
1063
01:13:16,875 --> 01:13:18,500
- Bullshit, Marie.
- It's not.
1064
01:13:18,583 --> 01:13:21,458
- You're lying. Yes, it is.
- I'm not lying.
1065
01:13:24,041 --> 01:13:27,875
At some point, Malcolm, this was
something that we were gonna do together.
1066
01:13:30,041 --> 01:13:32,083
And I don't know when that changed.
1067
01:13:33,541 --> 01:13:37,375
I don't know when, I don't know how,
I just know that I was in that audience…
1068
01:13:38,791 --> 01:13:40,625
And I thought to myself, "Wow."
1069
01:13:44,083 --> 01:13:46,583
"I did not mean to give all that away."
1070
01:13:50,125 --> 01:13:53,250
And I don't wanna get
into all the reasons why you cast Taylor,
1071
01:13:54,833 --> 01:13:56,833
but you're so good at fighting.
1072
01:13:57,666 --> 01:14:00,041
You're so good at fighting.
You fought to make the movie,
1073
01:14:00,125 --> 01:14:03,750
to make it the way you wanted to make it.
So why didn't you fight for me?
1074
01:14:08,750 --> 01:14:11,208
Because I would have been good.
1075
01:14:12,916 --> 01:14:14,166
I would have.
1076
01:14:16,125 --> 01:14:17,500
Maybe even better.
1077
01:14:20,166 --> 01:14:21,166
So there it is.
1078
01:14:22,333 --> 01:14:25,083
- What?
- The fucking truth.
1079
01:14:25,166 --> 01:14:28,583
Leave it to you to spend the entire night
burning it all to the ground
1080
01:14:28,666 --> 01:14:32,708
only to reveal that in the end,
you're just jealous.
1081
01:14:32,791 --> 01:14:34,291
- I'm not jealous.
- Yes, you are.
1082
01:14:34,375 --> 01:14:36,208
- I'm not jealous.
- Of course you are.
1083
01:14:36,291 --> 01:14:39,250
The feeling that I'm feeling right now
is deeper than that.
1084
01:14:40,541 --> 01:14:42,333
It's not jealousy.
1085
01:14:42,416 --> 01:14:44,250
Oh, come on. Give me a break, Marie.
1086
01:14:44,333 --> 01:14:46,750
It's the fact that
I can't tell my story anymore.
1087
01:14:47,833 --> 01:14:52,958
I can't articulate all the fucking chaos
that's going on in here
1088
01:14:53,041 --> 01:14:54,250
because you already did.
1089
01:14:55,541 --> 01:14:57,583
You already did and Taylor already did.
1090
01:14:58,833 --> 01:15:00,875
I know it's not solely mine.
1091
01:15:01,583 --> 01:15:02,708
I know that.
1092
01:15:03,500 --> 01:15:05,875
I know it happened to both of us.
1093
01:15:05,958 --> 01:15:09,083
But the difference is you were able
to take all the ugly shit
1094
01:15:09,166 --> 01:15:10,791
and make it something beautiful.
1095
01:15:13,500 --> 01:15:14,833
Something good.
1096
01:15:15,708 --> 01:15:16,916
Something that…
1097
01:15:18,541 --> 01:15:20,250
That could move people.
1098
01:15:21,916 --> 01:15:23,875
But, Malcolm, I'm stuck with it.
1099
01:15:33,083 --> 01:15:34,125
Yeah.
1100
01:15:34,208 --> 01:15:37,041
I just wish it was something
we could have done together.
1101
01:15:37,541 --> 01:15:39,916
And to be brutally honest, yes…
1102
01:15:41,375 --> 01:15:42,833
I would have been better.
1103
01:15:44,666 --> 01:15:46,166
Because I experienced it.
1104
01:15:47,541 --> 01:15:48,625
I lived it.
1105
01:15:52,541 --> 01:15:56,000
Not only would I have been better,
I would have made your film better.
1106
01:15:58,250 --> 01:15:59,541
You gave up acting.
1107
01:15:59,625 --> 01:16:02,291
When I got the film financed,
I asked you to audition.
1108
01:16:02,375 --> 01:16:06,416
You said yes, but you were reluctant.
You have talent, but that's not enough.
1109
01:16:07,250 --> 01:16:09,416
It's not enough.
You have to want it, Marie.
1110
01:16:10,125 --> 01:16:13,333
- Trust me, Malcolm, I wanted this one.
- That's fuckin' bullshit.
1111
01:16:13,416 --> 01:16:16,375
You didn't try, and that's
the harsh reality of all of this.
1112
01:16:16,458 --> 01:16:18,833
That same instinct
that exists in Imani, in you,
1113
01:16:18,916 --> 01:16:22,291
that instinct to fucking self-sabotage,
1114
01:16:22,375 --> 01:16:23,500
that didn't go away.
1115
01:16:24,041 --> 01:16:27,916
- I didn't try because you didn't want me.
- Now you wanna play the victim.
1116
01:16:30,458 --> 01:16:33,916
Now you wanna say you felt like
I didn't want you so you didn't try.
1117
01:16:41,333 --> 01:16:43,041
You are fucking intolerable.
1118
01:17:08,083 --> 01:17:12,000
Fucking… You fake-ass,
fraudulent, thievin' fuckin' con man!
1119
01:17:12,083 --> 01:17:15,708
You didn't want me because if you did,
you would have to share the stage.
1120
01:17:15,791 --> 01:17:18,250
You wouldn't be
the sole author of this film.
1121
01:17:18,333 --> 01:17:21,833
It would have a lineage that extended
beyond you and your brilliance,
1122
01:17:21,916 --> 01:17:26,166
because people would ask me and I'd say,
"Yes, this shit happened to me."
1123
01:17:26,250 --> 01:17:29,875
Then all of a sudden everyone would go,
"Is it him or her that's talented?"
1124
01:17:29,958 --> 01:17:33,041
If that's what you have
to tell yourself, then be my guest.
1125
01:17:33,125 --> 01:17:34,375
It's about ownership.
1126
01:17:34,458 --> 01:17:36,291
It's about the illusion you wanna create
1127
01:17:36,375 --> 01:17:38,333
that filmmaking
isn't a collaborative effort.
1128
01:17:38,416 --> 01:17:41,000
It's you, and everybody else
is just following directions.
1129
01:17:41,083 --> 01:17:43,166
Because if it were me…
1130
01:17:43,250 --> 01:17:46,541
If it were authentic 'cause of me,
you couldn't swing your dick around!
1131
01:17:46,625 --> 01:17:48,375
That's why you didn't thank me tonight.
1132
01:17:48,458 --> 01:17:51,000
- That's also why you didn't cast me.
- Authenticity.
1133
01:17:51,083 --> 01:17:53,166
- Yeah. Mm-hmm.
- Ain't that the word of the day?
1134
01:17:53,250 --> 01:17:56,208
It's all I heard tonight.
"He's such an authentic filmmaker."
1135
01:17:56,291 --> 01:17:59,125
"The movie is authentic."
"He channeled his voice authentically."
1136
01:17:59,208 --> 01:18:00,833
- Know why people love that word?
- Why?
1137
01:18:00,916 --> 01:18:02,625
They don't know what makes something good.
1138
01:18:02,708 --> 01:18:03,916
I think authenticity is key.
1139
01:18:04,000 --> 01:18:06,208
Of course,
because that's all you have to offer.
1140
01:18:06,291 --> 01:18:08,833
- Anyone, all they have to say.
- It's all I have to offer.
1141
01:18:08,916 --> 01:18:11,416
The only word that people
that don't know shit about film
1142
01:18:11,500 --> 01:18:13,208
feels like they got something to offer…
1143
01:18:13,291 --> 01:18:14,833
No, I have nothing to offer.
1144
01:18:14,916 --> 01:18:18,458
They can't say anything about film,
but they love to talk about authenticity.
1145
01:18:18,541 --> 01:18:19,875
They don't know dick about film.
1146
01:18:19,958 --> 01:18:22,541
About fucking Citizen Kane
or Best Years of Our Lives...
1147
01:18:22,625 --> 01:18:24,625
No one fucking cares about that shit!
1148
01:18:24,708 --> 01:18:28,041
Authenticity. Oh, shit!
They know that shit through and through.
1149
01:18:28,125 --> 01:18:30,875
Authenticity does not matter,
your perspective doesn't...
1150
01:18:30,958 --> 01:18:32,416
You don't fucking have any!
1151
01:18:32,500 --> 01:18:34,833
Recreating reality
doesn't make something interesting.
1152
01:18:34,916 --> 01:18:37,458
It's about your interpretation
about reality.
1153
01:18:37,541 --> 01:18:39,833
- What you feel about reality.
- You're full of shit.
1154
01:18:39,916 --> 01:18:41,250
What you reveal about reality.
1155
01:18:41,333 --> 01:18:43,166
Perspective, your perspective.
1156
01:18:43,250 --> 01:18:46,541
Transcribing a conversation or holding
a camera up and pressing record,
1157
01:18:46,625 --> 01:18:48,541
that's a fucking YouTube video.
1158
01:18:48,625 --> 01:18:50,333
- That's a confession or memoir.
- Okay.
1159
01:18:50,416 --> 01:18:52,500
- We've seen and heard it a thousand times.
- All right.
1160
01:18:52,583 --> 01:18:56,125
Your experience, your life,
your fucking struggle, doesn't matter.
1161
01:18:56,208 --> 01:18:59,791
You've been an addict, boring!
You overdosing, not fucking interesting.
1162
01:18:59,875 --> 01:19:01,875
It's about transferring your emotions
1163
01:19:01,958 --> 01:19:04,583
and all those moments
into something cinematic and moving.
1164
01:19:04,666 --> 01:19:06,416
So, you know what? Good luck, Marie.
1165
01:19:07,958 --> 01:19:09,458
- I hate you!
- I hate you hate too!
1166
01:19:09,541 --> 01:19:11,416
- I hate you more!
- I hate you the most!
1167
01:19:11,500 --> 01:19:13,083
I fucking hate you!
1168
01:19:18,208 --> 01:19:19,541
Fuckin' asshole!
1169
01:19:22,791 --> 01:19:24,625
Fucking mental patient.
1170
01:20:39,541 --> 01:20:41,333
Marie, what are you doing?
1171
01:20:41,416 --> 01:20:44,291
Put the knife down please. Marie?
1172
01:20:46,708 --> 01:20:49,208
Do you remember
those antidepressants I was on?
1173
01:20:51,875 --> 01:20:53,875
I'm not on them anymore.
1174
01:20:57,125 --> 01:21:00,750
I'm not doing well.
I'm really, really not doing well.
1175
01:21:05,166 --> 01:21:06,833
I've never been clean.
1176
01:21:08,708 --> 01:21:10,875
And I don't plan on getting clean.
1177
01:21:15,208 --> 01:21:16,541
I'm a piece of shit.
1178
01:21:17,500 --> 01:21:19,625
I'm a liar.
1179
01:21:21,166 --> 01:21:22,583
I cheated on you.
1180
01:21:28,958 --> 01:21:30,625
I fucked your friends.
1181
01:21:38,708 --> 01:21:40,125
I fucked your friends.
1182
01:21:41,416 --> 01:21:43,833
God, I feel like I'm crazy.
1183
01:21:54,583 --> 01:21:56,583
I've stolen from your mother.
1184
01:21:58,291 --> 01:22:00,916
And you know what
the fucked up thing is?
1185
01:22:01,000 --> 01:22:02,375
I don't even care.
1186
01:22:03,375 --> 01:22:04,416
I don't mind.
1187
01:22:05,833 --> 01:22:07,166
Because I deserve it.
1188
01:22:16,041 --> 01:22:18,000
Tell me where the fucking pills are.
1189
01:22:22,083 --> 01:22:23,750
Tell me where the pills are.
1190
01:22:23,833 --> 01:22:25,916
Um…
1191
01:22:37,791 --> 01:22:40,500
And that, Malcolm,
is what authenticity buys you.
1192
01:22:51,125 --> 01:22:53,708
Well, damn!
Why didn't you do that in the audition?
1193
01:23:09,083 --> 01:23:12,916
You are, by far, the most excruciating,
difficult, stubbornly obnoxious woman
1194
01:23:13,000 --> 01:23:15,041
I've ever met in my entire life.
1195
01:23:15,125 --> 01:23:17,208
I go from wanting
to cut your head off one moment
1196
01:23:17,291 --> 01:23:20,208
to wanting to kiss your beautiful,
stupid little face the next.
1197
01:23:21,083 --> 01:23:22,208
I fucking love you.
1198
01:23:23,000 --> 01:23:23,833
I love you.
1199
01:23:24,750 --> 01:23:27,250
- Should we get married?
- Not in the mood.
1200
01:23:27,333 --> 01:23:29,458
I feel like we're gonna
get married and divorced
1201
01:23:29,541 --> 01:23:31,416
a couple times, might as well start now.
1202
01:23:31,500 --> 01:23:32,625
No.
1203
01:23:34,375 --> 01:23:37,208
- I'm so turned on right now.
- I'm not.
1204
01:23:39,333 --> 01:23:41,875
Fuckin' psychopath!
1205
01:23:41,958 --> 01:23:44,958
All this madness was about you,
and that scene,
1206
01:23:45,041 --> 01:23:47,166
sayin' to me
that you could do it better than Taylor
1207
01:23:47,250 --> 01:23:49,833
and seed doubt in my mind that,
for the rest of my life,
1208
01:23:49,916 --> 01:23:51,458
- the movie could've been better.
- Mm-mm.
1209
01:23:51,541 --> 01:23:53,541
- Yes. That's exactly what you doin'.
- Mm-mmm. No.
1210
01:23:53,625 --> 01:23:55,083
- That's bullshit.
- It's not!
1211
01:23:57,166 --> 01:23:58,166
Brilliant!
1212
01:24:12,083 --> 01:24:15,041
You know what's interesting
about the white girl from LA Times
1213
01:24:15,125 --> 01:24:16,916
calling out that scene in her review?
1214
01:24:17,000 --> 01:24:18,708
Marie, who cares?
1215
01:24:18,791 --> 01:24:22,500
I mean, I've always said,
it was my least favorite in the film.
1216
01:24:23,416 --> 01:24:24,958
But my favorite in the script.
1217
01:24:25,666 --> 01:24:27,916
Can we talk about this later, please?
1218
01:24:28,000 --> 01:24:30,666
- I think it's important, you know?
- I beg you.
1219
01:24:31,666 --> 01:24:33,500
To look back and wonder why that is.
1220
01:24:36,125 --> 01:24:37,958
- Don't you?
- No.
1221
01:24:38,041 --> 01:24:42,333
Not to strip you of your mystery,
you know, just out of curiosity.
1222
01:24:43,291 --> 01:24:46,708
Out of pursuit of wanting to be,
I don't know, a better fucking artist.
1223
01:24:46,791 --> 01:24:50,000
Oh. You are exhausting.
1224
01:24:51,083 --> 01:24:54,000
You gonna be this exhausting at 70
or will you have exhausted yourself?
1225
01:24:54,083 --> 01:24:55,541
That depends where you are.
1226
01:24:55,625 --> 01:24:57,833
Living with the white girl
from the LA Times
1227
01:24:57,916 --> 01:25:00,583
because at least I can
win an argument against her.
1228
01:25:00,666 --> 01:25:05,166
But, you know. It just made me wonder,
why did I see that scene so differently?
1229
01:25:05,250 --> 01:25:08,166
I don't know. How did you see the scene?
1230
01:25:08,250 --> 01:25:09,458
It was less graphic.
1231
01:25:09,541 --> 01:25:12,416
So what? He doesn't attack Imani?
That's what it was on the page.
1232
01:25:12,500 --> 01:25:16,375
No, he attacks her. I just never thought
that you'd shoot it with her top off.
1233
01:25:16,916 --> 01:25:18,750
- What's the difference?
- Her tits were out.
1234
01:25:18,833 --> 01:25:21,208
- So?
- So, I just feel like you sexualized her.
1235
01:25:21,291 --> 01:25:23,916
If I rolled a camera on you
right now, am I sexualizing you,
1236
01:25:24,000 --> 01:25:26,166
or is this what you have on,
on a Friday night?
1237
01:25:26,250 --> 01:25:27,291
My tits aren't out.
1238
01:25:27,375 --> 01:25:30,083
If you were in a Chuck E. Cheese,
they'd throw your ass out.
1239
01:25:30,166 --> 01:25:32,583
- It was Taylor's idea anyway.
- I'm sure it was.
1240
01:25:33,083 --> 01:25:36,166
Look, it just made
everything more graphic.
1241
01:25:36,666 --> 01:25:38,875
Okay? And I just thought…
1242
01:25:40,083 --> 01:25:42,875
Would the scene have been
a bit different if you were a woman?
1243
01:25:43,833 --> 01:25:46,916
Yes, but I also would have shot
the entire movie differently
1244
01:25:47,000 --> 01:25:49,458
because I wouldn't have been me,
I would've been a woman.
1245
01:25:49,541 --> 01:25:51,500
I would've had
a totally different sensibility.
1246
01:25:51,583 --> 01:25:53,583
But that's not how
you judge film intelligently,
1247
01:25:53,666 --> 01:25:57,916
by the 600 trillion different choices
not made due to an intangible
1248
01:25:58,000 --> 01:26:00,416
yet purely hypothetical
assessment of one's identity.
1249
01:26:00,500 --> 01:26:02,791
But rather the choices
actually being fucking made.
1250
01:26:02,875 --> 01:26:05,583
Look, I'm not defending her
as a great fuckin' thinker.
1251
01:26:05,666 --> 01:26:07,333
Good. 'Cause she's an idiot.
1252
01:26:07,416 --> 01:26:10,291
I'm just saying… would the movie
have been a little better
1253
01:26:10,375 --> 01:26:12,000
if you had a dash of femininity?
1254
01:26:12,083 --> 01:26:13,666
- Who gives a fuck?
- I do.
1255
01:26:13,791 --> 01:26:15,750
- Fuck.
- I do. I do.
1256
01:26:15,833 --> 01:26:18,208
I do, Malcolm,
because it just made me wonder
1257
01:26:18,291 --> 01:26:20,166
if the problem
she has with you as a filmmaker
1258
01:26:20,250 --> 01:26:22,416
is the same problem
I have with you as a partner.
1259
01:26:23,166 --> 01:26:24,000
Well…
1260
01:26:26,000 --> 01:26:30,583
All that being said and done,
Karen thinks I'm a fucking tour-de-force.
1261
01:26:30,666 --> 01:26:32,833
Now you like her review?
1262
01:26:32,916 --> 01:26:36,125
Fucking masterwork is
what you're looking at right now, girl.
1263
01:26:36,208 --> 01:26:38,583
You're joking, but I'm not.
1264
01:26:38,666 --> 01:26:42,291
That's unfortunate, because I really
can't keep arguing about this shit.
1265
01:26:42,375 --> 01:26:45,041
The more I think about it,
her problem is my problem.
1266
01:26:45,125 --> 01:26:48,666
- Which is what?
- That I'm with you. I haven't walked out.
1267
01:26:48,750 --> 01:26:50,875
I'm not wondering
what other movies are playing.
1268
01:26:50,958 --> 01:26:53,250
I got you. I'm on your side,
and then you just…
1269
01:26:53,333 --> 01:26:55,375
You gotta fucking take shit too far.
1270
01:26:55,458 --> 01:26:56,583
Come on.
1271
01:26:56,666 --> 01:26:59,833
No, we're in a fight,
maybe the worst fight we've ever been in,
1272
01:26:59,916 --> 01:27:03,291
but instead of just making your point
and saying it's not about you,
1273
01:27:03,375 --> 01:27:04,958
it's an amalgamation of people,
1274
01:27:05,041 --> 01:27:08,125
you gotta fucking revel in it.
You gotta twist the knife
1275
01:27:08,208 --> 01:27:13,291
and put images in my head that you and I
both know will never fucking leave me.
1276
01:27:13,375 --> 01:27:14,333
What?
1277
01:27:15,291 --> 01:27:16,666
- Kiki.
- Oh!
1278
01:27:16,750 --> 01:27:17,583
Kiki.
1279
01:27:17,666 --> 01:27:20,000
- I was angry. What the fuck!
- From outside of St. Louis.
1280
01:27:20,083 --> 01:27:23,291
- A heart-shaped bathtub?
- I was angry.
1281
01:27:23,375 --> 01:27:25,583
You're a cheeseball. Ugh! Malcolm!
1282
01:27:25,666 --> 01:27:27,625
Ew! Ew!
1283
01:27:29,375 --> 01:27:33,291
You're a fucking moron, honestly.
You could've won without all that shit.
1284
01:27:33,375 --> 01:27:35,791
You could've won
with 20% of what you said,
1285
01:27:35,875 --> 01:27:38,708
but you cannot help yourself.
It is just who you are.
1286
01:27:38,791 --> 01:27:42,500
'Cause if I were ever fucked
in a penthouse suite of a Marriott,
1287
01:27:42,583 --> 01:27:45,000
in or around a heart-shaped bathtub,
1288
01:27:45,083 --> 01:27:49,250
I would never fucking
utter a word about it aloud.
1289
01:27:49,333 --> 01:27:51,708
I would never tell my friends about it,
1290
01:27:51,791 --> 01:27:53,875
I would never wield it
in a fight as a weapon.
1291
01:27:53,958 --> 01:27:55,791
You know why?
Because I know it would hurt me
1292
01:27:55,875 --> 01:27:57,541
way more than it would hurt you.
1293
01:27:58,916 --> 01:28:01,791
And it's a bummer,
Malcolm, you know?
1294
01:28:02,333 --> 01:28:05,708
I really enjoyed having sex with you.
Up until about 15 minutes ago,
1295
01:28:05,791 --> 01:28:09,666
it was an aspect of our relationship
that I genuinely had no complaints about.
1296
01:28:11,750 --> 01:28:14,500
It was also my only remaining vice,
that and cigarettes.
1297
01:28:15,875 --> 01:28:19,500
But, well, lo and behold,
you had to take shit too far…
1298
01:28:19,583 --> 01:28:20,500
Come on.
1299
01:28:20,583 --> 01:28:24,916
And obliterate any and all joy
there was to be found in fucking you.
1300
01:28:25,000 --> 01:28:27,875
The gloves were off, okay?
We were in a fight, like…
1301
01:28:27,958 --> 01:28:32,750
Oh, it didn't support your argument.
It just grossed me the fuck out.
1302
01:28:32,833 --> 01:28:36,916
It made me go,
"I cannot believe I have unprotected sex
1303
01:28:37,000 --> 01:28:40,875
with this nasty-ass,
grimy-dicked fuckin' brute,
1304
01:28:40,958 --> 01:28:44,750
a fuckin' animal,
a fuckin' barnyard animal."
1305
01:28:44,833 --> 01:28:47,125
That's what you are. A fuckin' hog.
1306
01:28:47,208 --> 01:28:50,750
You are a shit-where-you-eat hog.
Hog of a human being.
1307
01:28:53,833 --> 01:28:55,541
Yeah, you fuckin' think it's funny.
1308
01:28:55,625 --> 01:28:57,833
- You're being dramatic.
- I'm not being dramatic.
1309
01:28:57,916 --> 01:29:00,875
You think 'cause we had a common enemy
in Karen from the LA Times,
1310
01:29:00,958 --> 01:29:02,916
all shit is sweet. We good now?
1311
01:29:03,625 --> 01:29:05,791
Think again, motherfucker. We ain't good.
1312
01:29:07,125 --> 01:29:09,708
She's my spiritual sister. I mean that.
1313
01:29:09,791 --> 01:29:11,375
We're both seeking refuge
1314
01:29:11,458 --> 01:29:14,541
from your assaultive,
battering ram of a fucking personality.
1315
01:29:14,625 --> 01:29:18,250
Because of your limitations
as a partner, and a filmmaker,
1316
01:29:18,333 --> 01:29:20,333
we are both ducking for cover.
1317
01:29:20,833 --> 01:29:24,750
We may not have a lot in common,
but sis and I are in the fucking foxhole.
1318
01:29:24,833 --> 01:29:27,083
Oh, you are
the last person to talk, Marie.
1319
01:29:27,166 --> 01:29:29,875
You have fucked,
dated some of the wildest,
1320
01:29:29,958 --> 01:29:32,833
strangest human beings
that ever walked this planet Earth.
1321
01:29:32,916 --> 01:29:36,833
You have, one, no fucking standards,
which is a red flag.
1322
01:29:36,916 --> 01:29:39,833
Two, no fucking type,
which is also a red flag.
1323
01:29:39,916 --> 01:29:41,291
And three, no discretion.
1324
01:29:41,375 --> 01:29:43,958
Which means everyone who knows you,
knows you're a red flag
1325
01:29:44,041 --> 01:29:45,916
and talks about you're a red fucking flag.
1326
01:29:46,000 --> 01:29:47,833
Well, Malcolm, here's the difference.
1327
01:29:47,916 --> 01:29:53,458
I'm not lugging my balls around this house
bragging about the places they've been.
1328
01:29:54,333 --> 01:29:55,666
I don't need to know the details.
1329
01:29:55,750 --> 01:29:59,958
I don't need to know all the…
the moves and the steps
1330
01:30:00,041 --> 01:30:03,166
and the places that brought you
to my doorstep. You're here.
1331
01:30:04,791 --> 01:30:07,416
I loved you unconditionally. Why?
1332
01:30:08,625 --> 01:30:10,833
Because I value mystery.
1333
01:30:11,500 --> 01:30:14,875
The unknown. It's what supports
the tension of a relationship
1334
01:30:14,958 --> 01:30:18,291
and forces us to be the best version
of ourselves. The what-if factor.
1335
01:30:18,916 --> 01:30:22,333
What if there's someone
who loved him better?
1336
01:30:23,958 --> 01:30:26,291
Who was smarter, nicer.
1337
01:30:26,375 --> 01:30:29,291
Woke him up every day
with breakfast and a blowjob.
1338
01:30:30,583 --> 01:30:33,041
What if I'm not
the best girlfriend he's ever had?
1339
01:30:33,833 --> 01:30:36,041
What if he dreams of someone else?
1340
01:30:36,125 --> 01:30:39,458
Better conversations,
a girl with hips and an actual ass
1341
01:30:39,541 --> 01:30:42,625
instead of this string bean body?
1342
01:30:42,708 --> 01:30:45,500
Look, I know a little bit about your type.
1343
01:30:45,583 --> 01:30:49,458
Not so much that I'm paralyzed
with insecurity and doubt.
1344
01:30:50,875 --> 01:30:53,208
So that every single day when I get up,
1345
01:30:54,041 --> 01:30:57,041
and I talk to you,
and I wear this fancy fuckin' dress,
1346
01:30:57,125 --> 01:30:58,708
and I hold your hand,
1347
01:30:58,791 --> 01:31:02,708
I'm trying to be the best girlfriend
you have ever had.
1348
01:31:04,625 --> 01:31:07,625
So, when you tell me
that who I'm up against is Kiki…
1349
01:31:07,708 --> 01:31:10,708
- Here we go with the bullshit. Here we go.
- …from St. Louis,
1350
01:31:10,791 --> 01:31:15,041
in a heart-shaped bathtub,
it makes me give a lot less of a fuck.
1351
01:31:15,125 --> 01:31:16,750
You gotta bring up all the shit.
1352
01:31:16,833 --> 01:31:19,666
I don't know where you're going,
but I'm not done.
1353
01:31:21,250 --> 01:31:23,750
I'm not even fucking close to being done.
1354
01:31:26,708 --> 01:31:30,333
But what it also makes me realize,
the reason you don't get jealous
1355
01:31:30,416 --> 01:31:33,041
is because you don't
value that mystery, do you?
1356
01:31:33,625 --> 01:31:35,125
The reason you don't value it,
1357
01:31:35,958 --> 01:31:39,000
the reason why you never wonder
if you're the best fuck I've ever had,
1358
01:31:39,083 --> 01:31:41,666
or the most talented person
I've ever been with,
1359
01:31:41,750 --> 01:31:43,791
or the kindest, or the smartest,
1360
01:31:44,500 --> 01:31:46,458
it's because it is inconceivable to you
1361
01:31:46,541 --> 01:31:50,291
that there is anybody on this planet
that is more interesting than you are.
1362
01:31:52,250 --> 01:31:56,416
Your lack of curiosity is merely
an extension of your narcissism,
1363
01:31:56,500 --> 01:31:59,791
your megalomania,
your egotistical view of the world.
1364
01:32:00,666 --> 01:32:02,250
As a result of never doubting yourself,
1365
01:32:02,333 --> 01:32:07,208
you never stopped to ask yourself,
"How can I be a better partner?"
1366
01:32:11,666 --> 01:32:15,000
You're good. You are set.
1367
01:32:16,541 --> 01:32:20,041
The man I'm looking at right now
is as good as he's gonna get.
1368
01:32:24,166 --> 01:32:25,708
You yelling at me in a bathtub
1369
01:32:25,791 --> 01:32:28,333
about how you're
gonna snap me like a twig,
1370
01:32:29,208 --> 01:32:32,916
is the best and worst of who
you will be in this relationship.
1371
01:32:37,625 --> 01:32:40,625
And that's why you can forget
to thank me in your speech.
1372
01:32:42,458 --> 01:32:46,458
Because you're not afraid that I'm gonna
come home and go…
1373
01:32:46,583 --> 01:32:50,791
"You know what? You lost me tonight.
Fuck this shit. I am out."
1374
01:32:53,500 --> 01:32:57,875
But if you steamroll every single person
in your midst, day in and day out,
1375
01:32:57,958 --> 01:33:02,458
you are going to end up living
in a fictional fucking reality.
1376
01:33:05,583 --> 01:33:06,666
Look at me.
1377
01:33:09,833 --> 01:33:11,750
I'm the last person standing.
1378
01:33:13,125 --> 01:33:18,875
I'm the last person to look at you and go,
"You know what? Up your fucking game."
1379
01:33:19,500 --> 01:33:21,541
"If not for me, then for your work."
1380
01:33:23,791 --> 01:33:27,458
Malcolm, if this is a movie,
you hold on to me for dear fucking life.
1381
01:33:29,000 --> 01:33:31,250
Because that's who
we've been for one another.
1382
01:33:31,958 --> 01:33:36,333
That's who you've been for me
and I've been for you from the day we met.
1383
01:33:38,416 --> 01:33:42,250
From the day I overdosed in that market,
from the day you drove me to rehab.
1384
01:33:42,833 --> 01:33:44,750
From the first day I read your script
1385
01:33:44,833 --> 01:33:48,958
about me, about us,
about our relationship.
1386
01:33:50,666 --> 01:33:53,333
About how drugs
were destroying my ability to love you
1387
01:33:53,416 --> 01:33:55,375
and your ability to love me.
1388
01:34:02,541 --> 01:34:05,791
All I wanted tonight
was a "thank you," Malcolm. That is it.
1389
01:34:07,500 --> 01:34:08,500
That's all.
1390
01:34:11,000 --> 01:34:14,125
"Thank you, Marie.
Thank you for loving me."
1391
01:34:14,958 --> 01:34:18,375
"Thank you for making my life better,
for getting your life together."
1392
01:34:19,000 --> 01:34:22,833
"Thank you for watching 100 cuts
and reading 100 fucking drafts."
1393
01:34:22,916 --> 01:34:26,333
"Thank you for your notes,
your experience, your patience,
1394
01:34:26,416 --> 01:34:30,625
your authen-fucking-ticity
you bring to this film. Thank you."
1395
01:34:32,375 --> 01:34:35,500
"Thank you for being a drug addict.
Thank you for being clean."
1396
01:34:36,250 --> 01:34:40,125
"Thank you for dumb shit,
like buying toilet paper and milk
1397
01:34:40,208 --> 01:34:43,291
and organizing
the shit with the movers. Thank you."
1398
01:34:43,375 --> 01:34:45,541
"Thank you for doing
the shit I don't wanna think about."
1399
01:34:45,625 --> 01:34:48,666
"Thank you for making me coffee.
Thank you for making me smile."
1400
01:34:49,416 --> 01:34:52,708
"Thank you for the good sex
and the cuddles."
1401
01:34:56,333 --> 01:34:59,875
"Thank you for doing the laundry
and picking out my suit tonight
1402
01:34:59,958 --> 01:35:03,083
and making my ungrateful ass
some mac and cheese
1403
01:35:03,166 --> 01:35:05,416
after I forgot to fuckin' thank you."
1404
01:35:11,750 --> 01:35:14,666
"Thank you for the mistakes you've made…
1405
01:35:18,500 --> 01:35:21,041
For the charm you bring,
the life you bring."
1406
01:35:21,125 --> 01:35:22,791
"Thank you for loving me."
1407
01:35:25,166 --> 01:35:29,166
"Thank you for getting over this,
for moving forward, for being you."
1408
01:35:30,958 --> 01:35:33,875
"Thank you for all the shit
I forget to thank you for…
1409
01:35:35,041 --> 01:35:38,916
And thank you for looking
so goddamn sexy in that dress tonight."
1410
01:35:43,708 --> 01:35:45,083
"You make me look good."
1411
01:35:46,375 --> 01:35:48,083
"You make me a better person."
1412
01:35:53,041 --> 01:35:54,583
"Thank you for understanding
1413
01:35:55,333 --> 01:35:58,041
that I'm not always great
at expressing how I feel
1414
01:35:58,791 --> 01:36:01,458
and it comes out in my work
more than in real life."
1415
01:36:03,166 --> 01:36:04,458
"Thank you because…
1416
01:36:07,708 --> 01:36:11,583
I know it doesn't always feel good,
so I hope you can live with that."
1417
01:36:16,291 --> 01:36:18,166
"Thank you."
1418
01:36:18,250 --> 01:36:20,500
"I know I'm emotionally obtuse sometimes,
1419
01:36:20,583 --> 01:36:23,041
but I'm grateful
you don't hold it against me."
1420
01:36:24,166 --> 01:36:25,166
"Thank you…
1421
01:36:27,416 --> 01:36:29,041
For assuming the best."
1422
01:36:31,833 --> 01:36:35,958
"I love you, Marie.
I'll always love you, my Marie."
1423
01:36:37,625 --> 01:36:38,625
"Thank you."
1424
01:36:40,333 --> 01:36:43,083
"From the bottom of my heart, thank you."
1425
01:36:52,375 --> 01:36:53,750
I love you, Marie.
1426
01:40:06,791 --> 01:40:08,041
I'm sorry.
1427
01:40:18,125 --> 01:40:19,291
Thank you.
1428
01:40:21,458 --> 01:40:22,875
You're welcome.
1429
01:40:46,916 --> 01:40:47,958
Marie?
1430
01:40:53,583 --> 01:40:54,666
Marie?
1431
01:41:20,541 --> 01:41:21,625
Marie!
1432
01:41:37,791 --> 01:41:39,291
Marie!