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Tell me when you're gonna come.
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-Are you coming? You're coming?
-Yeah.
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Hello.
4
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Hey, bro, what's up?
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l'm crashed out.
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What are you doing?
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What party?
What are you talking about?
8
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Are you fucking kidding me?
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Are you fucking kidding me?
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Where?
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Fuck!
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Fuck!
13
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The number you have reached has
been disconnected. If you feel you--
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No fucking way!
15
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Where's the phone? Payphone.
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Straight to the back,
past the bathrooms, on the left.
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Hey, Mallory.
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Oh, hey, Syd, what's up?
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You gonna go
to Becca's thing tonight?
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Yeah, you know, l was gonna go
and say goodbye.
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Why, you going?
22
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Yeah, l think so.
Thinking about it. Yeah.
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So you still talk to London?
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Yeah, you know,
here and there. Why?
25
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Oh, you know, l was just a little
surprised to hear she was moving.
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Did she get a place out there?
ls she staying with somebody?
27
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She didn't tell you where
she was staying? Come on, Mal.
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l mean, she said something
about moving in with her boyfriend...
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...or something, but, l mean,
that's pretty much all l know.
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-Can l get you a drink?
-Yeah.
31
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Can l have a vodka? A large one.
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Naked, please.
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Excuse me. One second here.
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Here you go.
35
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Thanks. Hey, look, l didn't--
l didn't mean to be rude.
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lt's okay.
37
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-Hey, Syd, l gotta go cash out, so....
-Yeah.
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-See you tonight.
-Yeah.
39
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Listen, l'm gonna get a bit of sniff,
so if you want some, just let me know.
40
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-Oh, really?
-Yeah.
41
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How much is it?
42
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Oh, no, don't worry. Just find me.
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Don't tell London.
You know she hates that shit.
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Yeah, like l'm gonna say something.
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-All right, well, see you later.
-Yeah, l'll see you.
46
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Your name wouldn't happen
to be Bateman, would it?
47
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-Unfortunately, yes.
-Hey. Syd.
48
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Nice to meet you.
Thank you for coming down.
49
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l know you don't deliver this far down.
l just had a shitty day.
50
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l have to clear my head out.
51
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No worries, mate.
52
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So where do you wanna do this?
53
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We don't want to go in the bathroom.
lt's horrendous in there.
54
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l drove. You wanna use my car?
55
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Your car? Why not?
56
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So how is this shit? lt's pretty good?
57
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Can't say l've sampled
any of this batch...
58
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...but considering the source,
l imagine it to be pretty clean, yeah.
59
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So is this like a full-time gig for you?
A full-time job?
60
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No, mate, l'm a banker.
61
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Foreign exchange dealer.
Currency trader.
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-Currency trader?
-Euros, pounds, arbitrage, yeah.
63
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Okay, so you're not a dealer.
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Mate, l ain't a fucking dealer.
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Strictly a buyer.
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l was uptown, you were on my way.
lt's just a favor.
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Gotcha. Well, whatever it is,
l really appreciate it, man.
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Here we go.
69
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So a currency trader, huh?
70
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How's the money in that, good?
71
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Not if you get stuck on this shit, no.
72
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Yeah, l know.
God, what a stupid fucking drug.
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l don't know what you're doing after
this, if you got plans or anything...
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...but a friend is having a party two
blocks from here, if you're interested.
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No, thanks, mate,
but l've had a shit day, believe me.
76
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l just figured, you know,
you came down this whole way.
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lt'll probably be pretty good.
78
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What kind of party is it, exactly?
79
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Actually, it's a....
80
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lt's a going-away party for this girl,
for my ex-chick.
81
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But it'll be good, you know,
free booze, free food, hot chicks.
82
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l really shouldn't. Thanks anyway.
l appreciate the offer.
83
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Fuck it, Syd. l'm gonna go.
Take it easy.
84
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Why are you gonna go?
Don't go. You just got here.
85
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You walked all the way down here.
Why leave?
86
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Because l've had a horrendous day.
87
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l've decided not to go because l don't
want to meet a loft full of strangers.
88
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-You enjoy yourself.
-Come in for five minutes.
89
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-Get a drink.
-No, man. You go, fuck it.
90
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What do you got
that's better than this?
91
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Girls, free booze, do a line.
92
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l've just come out of the most
psychotic therapy session...
93
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...l've had in fucking years.
Almost smacked some cunt for a taxi.
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l really don't know
if l'm ready for this shit.
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Just come in for five minutes.
You don't like it, you can leave.
96
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One fucking drink, bro.
97
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Mallory will be here.
98
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One drink?
99
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One fucking drink.
100
00:10:01,465 --> 00:10:03,558
-How you doing, man?
-Evening.
101
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-What is it, 501 1 ?
-Yes.
102
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Thanks, man.
103
00:10:10,741 --> 00:10:12,333
-Hey, Maya.
-Hi, Syd.
104
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-How you doing?
-Good.
105
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-lt's been a while.
-Yeah. How you doing?
106
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l'm good.
Bateman, this is Maya. Sorry.
107
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-Maya, Bateman.
-Nice to meet you.
108
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How you been?
What you been up to?
109
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ln hell, man. l fucked up on the SATs,
l gotta retake them.
110
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-That's it, you know?
-Right.
111
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Just wanna kill myself. Yeah.
112
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Well, you know, if you want to get out
of SAT mode, l picked up a lot of:
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-You know, so....
-Are you dealing now?
114
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Yes, l'm dealing. No, l'm not dealing.
l got more than l need, so if you're....
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-All right, man, thanks.
-Just come find me.
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-l might take you up on that.
-Did anybody--?
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Coming.
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-Hello.
-Hello.
119
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-Hey, baby.
-How are you?
120
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-l'm good. Hey, Syd, how are you?
-This, my darling, is for you.
121
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Oh, you guys, shut up. Thank you.
122
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-You know you are the best.
-Nobody's here yet.
123
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Grab a drink.
Make yourself at home.
124
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Hello? Syd and London.
125
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-Don't disrespect them in public.
-ln public.
126
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Let's go upstairs.
127
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Why? Who's upstairs?
128
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Very bad. Catch me.
129
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You're crazy.
130
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What is this?
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lt's for you.
132
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-For me? For me?
-For you.
133
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Oh, my God, Syd, l love it.
134
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Thank you.
135
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l love you.
136
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l love you.
137
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Come on, ''l love you too, London,''
you fucker.
138
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You can say it.
l'm not gonna tell anybody.
139
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-London, don't.
-What? What am l doing?
140
00:13:03,913 --> 00:13:05,574
-This.
-What am l doing wrong?
141
00:13:05,748 --> 00:13:09,514
Whatever this is, this obsession
to put a verbal label on everything.
142
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-lt's not about words.
-No, it is about words.
143
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Because if we didn't have words,
we'd be living in caves...
144
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-...and still talking with our hands.
-Stop.
145
00:13:18,161 --> 00:13:19,958
We haven't even
come close to a fight.
146
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lf we can avoid that first fight,
by theory we'll never fight.
147
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Okay? Please.
148
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lt's been so perfect till now.
Don't do this.
149
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lt's been perfect for you. For you.
150
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London.
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Coming.
152
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Wait a minute,
someone's at the door.
153
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-Hello.
-Hi.
154
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Wow, you look beautiful.
155
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You look hot.
Nice hat, nice boots.
156
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Thanks.
157
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-Hey.
-Hey, Becca.
158
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-Rebecca.
-Bateman. Friend of Syd's.
159
00:14:02,806 --> 00:14:04,899
-Nice to meet you.
-Nobody's here yet, guys.
160
00:14:05,108 --> 00:14:07,303
So just come on in
and make yourself at home.
161
00:14:13,750 --> 00:14:16,913
Okay, so you're not gonna believe
who's just fucking shown up.
162
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Great party, mate.
163
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Oh, it'll be better. lt'll be better.
Trust me. l promise you.
164
00:14:22,926 --> 00:14:24,553
Okay, l've gotta go.
165
00:14:27,063 --> 00:14:30,499
Please tell me
you did not bring Syd here.
166
00:14:30,667 --> 00:14:33,158
Oh, my God, l just rode up
in the elevator with him.
167
00:14:33,336 --> 00:14:35,668
-Why? He's not invited?
-He's so not invited.
168
00:14:38,241 --> 00:14:40,436
He's fucking touching
my Buddha's head.
169
00:14:40,644 --> 00:14:42,236
Hey, London, it's me.
170
00:14:42,412 --> 00:14:46,508
Give me a call as soon
as you get this, okay? Okay, bye.
171
00:14:47,450 --> 00:14:48,917
Fuck it.
172
00:14:49,085 --> 00:14:52,577
Hey, Syd. Do us a favor, yeah?
Don't touch the Buddha.
173
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Okay?
174
00:14:56,226 --> 00:14:58,751
He's a fucking cocksucker.
175
00:14:58,929 --> 00:15:00,624
Where did you get your hat?
176
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lt's so cute on you.
177
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He's fucked.
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To show up at someone's party.
He isn't even fucking invited.
179
00:15:29,726 --> 00:15:32,251
Did they just go upstairs?
180
00:15:32,429 --> 00:15:34,863
Right. Nice. Nice of them to ask.
181
00:15:43,006 --> 00:15:46,237
Wait, l'm confused, did you say
you do believe in God or you don't?
182
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''God'' might not be
the appropriate word for it, actually.
183
00:15:51,648 --> 00:15:53,138
lt's more of an epiphany.
184
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Epiphany?
What was your epiphany?
185
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Well, for me, an epiphany
is when you really see the universe...
186
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...in all it's splendor and beauty...
187
00:16:00,423 --> 00:16:02,653
...and you suddenly
understand everything.
188
00:16:02,825 --> 00:16:04,816
-What does that mean?
-Fucking everything.
189
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Everything you can imagine. You don't
know what ''everything'' means?
190
00:16:08,498 --> 00:16:11,695
l know what it means. l don't know
what you mean by ''everything.''
191
00:16:11,868 --> 00:16:15,133
lt means everything, doesn't it?
You know, everything.
192
00:16:15,305 --> 00:16:18,468
-So, what's your problem?
-For someone who's seen the infinite...
193
00:16:18,641 --> 00:16:21,838
...you're vague. You'd think
with someone who's had a revelation...
194
00:16:22,011 --> 00:16:24,878
-...you'd be more specific.
-lt's not about specifics.
195
00:16:25,048 --> 00:16:28,381
lt's an energy that hits you between
the eyes and you're enlightened.
196
00:16:28,551 --> 00:16:30,815
-You see everything?
-You don't see everything.
197
00:16:30,987 --> 00:16:33,387
You see nothing.
But you understand everything.
198
00:16:33,790 --> 00:16:36,122
And you know what
got me the most?
199
00:16:36,326 --> 00:16:40,160
-ls that l understood time horizons.
-What's a time horizon?
200
00:16:46,202 --> 00:16:48,898
lt's like this. l understood
where l stood in relation...
201
00:16:49,072 --> 00:16:51,870
...to where the Romans and the Jews
were 2000 years ago...
202
00:16:52,041 --> 00:16:54,009
...and why l was here now.
203
00:16:54,177 --> 00:16:56,008
Then l felt this enormous
compassion...
204
00:16:56,179 --> 00:16:59,740
...for the struggle of the human race
and what it had to go through for us.
205
00:16:59,916 --> 00:17:02,680
You know, for life as we know it
to come to this point.
206
00:17:02,852 --> 00:17:07,016
lt's truly remarkable, but at the same
time, it's utterly fucking disturbing.
207
00:17:07,190 --> 00:17:10,216
l mean, we're the same people
that were living in Roman times...
208
00:17:10,393 --> 00:17:14,261
...throwing boiling oil on each other
and crucifying Christians.
209
00:17:14,430 --> 00:17:16,830
Not that that's entirely a bad thing.
210
00:17:16,999 --> 00:17:18,830
Hey, Syd, are you in there?
lt's Maya.
211
00:17:19,602 --> 00:17:21,331
Oh, fuck! Fuck me.
212
00:17:21,504 --> 00:17:25,702
-Fuck, fuck. Give me one second.
-What the fuck have you done?
213
00:17:25,875 --> 00:17:27,502
-Sorry. Fuck.
-You clumsy bastard.
214
00:17:27,677 --> 00:17:29,412
-What have you fucking done?
-Shit.
215
00:17:32,581 --> 00:17:34,014
Look at that.
216
00:17:34,216 --> 00:17:36,013
lt's covered in fucking beer.
217
00:17:36,185 --> 00:17:37,618
-Fuck.
-Oh, my God.
218
00:17:37,820 --> 00:17:39,583
What are you gonna do?
219
00:17:39,755 --> 00:17:42,553
-Goddamn it, Syd.
-lnstant karma.
220
00:17:42,725 --> 00:17:44,249
-l got it.
-That's enough to give up blasphemy.
221
00:17:44,427 --> 00:17:46,520
-Get up here.
-No, we can totally save this.
222
00:17:46,695 --> 00:17:49,027
What are you gonna do,
eat food off the floor?
223
00:17:49,198 --> 00:17:50,722
-Fucking gross.
-Do me a favor.
224
00:17:50,900 --> 00:17:54,097
-God fucking damn it.
-God, is this it?
225
00:17:54,270 --> 00:17:55,897
-Yes.
-Are you kidding?
226
00:17:56,071 --> 00:17:58,972
-No, it's my fucking fault too.
-Just snort it off the floor.
227
00:17:59,141 --> 00:18:02,633
You don't wanna do that. l shouldn't
have put it by the fucking sink.
228
00:18:09,652 --> 00:18:11,552
What are you doing?
229
00:18:23,265 --> 00:18:26,496
-What's that?
-As l said, all is not lost.
230
00:18:26,669 --> 00:18:30,833
-Bateman, Jesus Christ.
-Oh, my God, you fucking rock.
231
00:18:31,006 --> 00:18:32,837
-Do you know this painting?
-No.
232
00:18:33,008 --> 00:18:34,908
lt's Van Gogh's
Wheatfield with Crows.
233
00:18:35,077 --> 00:18:37,568
The most significant painting
the man's ever painted.
234
00:18:37,746 --> 00:18:39,475
-Oh, well, then.
-Fuck, it's true.
235
00:18:40,483 --> 00:18:42,314
That'll do for starters, won't it?
236
00:18:42,485 --> 00:18:46,114
Look, this is the last painting
the man did before he killed himself.
237
00:18:46,288 --> 00:18:49,815
lt's his suicide note. He even put
his left ear in the fucking clouds.
238
00:18:49,992 --> 00:18:52,927
There is his mutilated left ear.
239
00:18:53,095 --> 00:18:56,428
Can you see it? Not everyone sees it,
of course, but there it is.
240
00:18:56,599 --> 00:18:59,500
He mutilated his left ear
and put it in the fucking painting.
241
00:18:59,668 --> 00:19:01,135
What does that mean?
242
00:19:07,843 --> 00:19:10,141
Maya, l'm curious.
Do you believe in God?
243
00:19:10,312 --> 00:19:12,337
You guys have been doing
too many drugs.
244
00:19:12,515 --> 00:19:14,483
Answer the question. Yes or no?
245
00:19:15,217 --> 00:19:18,186
God, that's a really long
conversation...
246
00:19:18,354 --> 00:19:21,949
...but l will tell you something l read
the other day that freaked me out.
247
00:19:22,124 --> 00:19:23,557
l don't remember where it was.
248
00:19:23,726 --> 00:19:26,456
lt was like Russia or Germany
or one of these places...
249
00:19:26,629 --> 00:19:29,359
...but these scientists,
they took this pregnant rabbit...
250
00:19:31,567 --> 00:19:34,661
...and they hooked up to,
like, a heart monitor and an EE G...
251
00:19:34,837 --> 00:19:36,532
...which sensors your brain waves.
252
00:19:36,705 --> 00:19:40,163
And, like, the second after she gives
birth, they take these babies...
253
00:19:40,342 --> 00:19:43,709
...and they jump in a van
and they start shooting them...
254
00:19:44,146 --> 00:19:47,240
...one by one in the back of the head
with, like, a .22 rifle.
255
00:19:47,449 --> 00:19:49,314
From, like one mile away:
256
00:19:49,485 --> 00:19:51,817
Five miles away:
Twenty miles away--
257
00:19:51,987 --> 00:19:54,683
Don't tell me people are
killing little bunny rabbits.
258
00:19:54,857 --> 00:19:57,553
What's so interesting
is that every time they'd shoot...
259
00:19:57,726 --> 00:20:00,251
...one of these poor babies
in the back of the head...
260
00:20:00,462 --> 00:20:03,590
...the mother's heartbeat
and brain waves would go crazy.
261
00:20:03,766 --> 00:20:07,896
So l'm just saying there's,
you know, shit like that, and then--
262
00:20:08,070 --> 00:20:10,368
The mother knew the babies
were getting shot--
263
00:20:10,539 --> 00:20:13,838
Yes. Every fucking time. Exactly.
264
00:20:14,009 --> 00:20:18,002
l mean, there's all that stuff, you know,
like those weird identical twins, right?
265
00:20:18,180 --> 00:20:20,512
One of the brothers is
walking down the street...
266
00:20:20,683 --> 00:20:22,583
...gets stabbed
by some serial killer.
267
00:20:26,689 --> 00:20:29,214
Wait. So he gets stabbed, right?
268
00:20:29,391 --> 00:20:33,020
And then 900 miles away,
at the exact same time...
269
00:20:33,195 --> 00:20:35,925
...his twin brother falls down.
270
00:20:36,098 --> 00:20:37,759
Weird, it's very weird, yes.
271
00:20:37,933 --> 00:20:40,060
Do you want to let me finish
what l'm saying?
272
00:20:40,235 --> 00:20:42,465
-Please, please, finish.
-Okay, he falls down.
273
00:20:42,638 --> 00:20:45,106
Gets hospitalized
due to heart palpitations...
274
00:20:45,274 --> 00:20:47,469
...at the same time
his brother was stabbed.
275
00:20:47,643 --> 00:20:50,271
-Why are you shaking your head?
-You sound like London.
276
00:20:50,446 --> 00:20:52,971
-lt's coincidence.
-How is it a coincidence?
277
00:20:53,148 --> 00:20:55,946
l've had this conversation before.
l'm not having it here.
278
00:20:56,118 --> 00:21:00,248
Well, then, let's not. Then don't
ask me about God, okay, Syd?
279
00:21:04,059 --> 00:21:05,390
Hey, is London here yet?
280
00:21:07,262 --> 00:21:08,593
No, l don't think so.
281
00:21:08,764 --> 00:21:10,322
Did you meet her boyfriend?
282
00:21:10,532 --> 00:21:13,296
Yeah, a couple of times. He's nice.
283
00:21:16,105 --> 00:21:19,336
ls he, like, an attractive guy?
ls he good-looking?
284
00:21:19,908 --> 00:21:22,672
Are you asking me
if he's an attractive guy?
285
00:21:23,545 --> 00:21:24,512
l guess.
286
00:21:26,148 --> 00:21:28,639
You guess?
What do you mean, you guess?
287
00:21:28,817 --> 00:21:30,341
l mean, l guess.
288
00:21:30,552 --> 00:21:34,579
All right, so l'm curious. Do you think
he's more or less attractive than me?
289
00:21:35,257 --> 00:21:36,588
Syd, l don't know.
290
00:21:37,626 --> 00:21:40,618
Well, you do know.
You just aren't telling me.
291
00:21:41,563 --> 00:21:44,862
l don't know, Syd. You guys just--
You have totally different looks.
292
00:21:45,067 --> 00:21:47,160
All right, yes.
We have very different looks.
293
00:21:47,336 --> 00:21:49,702
But whose do you like more?
His or mine?
294
00:21:51,139 --> 00:21:53,573
This is stupid, Syd.
295
00:21:55,310 --> 00:21:57,141
Okay, fine.
296
00:21:57,312 --> 00:21:59,837
l guess, on some level,
l find him attractive.
297
00:22:00,015 --> 00:22:01,880
That doesn't mean that l find him...
298
00:22:02,084 --> 00:22:04,518
...any more or less attractive
than l find you.
299
00:22:07,289 --> 00:22:08,847
Okay?
300
00:22:09,524 --> 00:22:11,992
l won't lie to you.
Just because we're going out...
301
00:22:12,160 --> 00:22:13,957
...doesn't mean l'm gonna,
you know...
302
00:22:14,129 --> 00:22:17,462
...suddenly not be attracted
to the opposite sex.
303
00:22:19,201 --> 00:22:21,396
He's a friend
who happens to be attractive.
304
00:22:21,603 --> 00:22:24,868
lt was one lunch.
Why are you freaking out?
305
00:22:25,040 --> 00:22:28,806
You don't see me going to lunch
with a bunch of attractive people.
306
00:22:28,977 --> 00:22:34,142
Okay. First of all,
it was one guy, not a bunch.
307
00:22:34,316 --> 00:22:38,912
And it's really not my problem that
you don't have female friends, is it?
308
00:22:39,121 --> 00:22:43,023
Because no one's stopping you
from having female friends.
309
00:22:46,395 --> 00:22:48,158
l love this, by the way.
310
00:22:52,901 --> 00:22:56,701
-So for the sake of conversation....
-Syd.
311
00:22:56,872 --> 00:22:59,841
-Let's just pretend you and l...
-Please, can we just drop it?
312
00:23:00,008 --> 00:23:02,169
...don't know each other.
Just listen to me.
313
00:23:02,344 --> 00:23:06,110
Let's pretend for five minutes
you don't know me, l don't know you.
314
00:23:06,281 --> 00:23:08,112
Me and what's-his-name
are in the room.
315
00:23:08,283 --> 00:23:10,376
-Who do you pick?
-l do know you, Syd.
316
00:23:10,552 --> 00:23:12,019
Remove that from the equation.
317
00:23:12,187 --> 00:23:14,553
-You can't.
-Gun to your head. Who do you pick?
318
00:23:14,723 --> 00:23:18,215
l would pick you.
l would pick you in any equation.
319
00:23:18,660 --> 00:23:20,855
Are you all right in there?
320
00:23:21,029 --> 00:23:23,554
Everything is fine. Thank you.
321
00:23:25,667 --> 00:23:29,194
Syd, literally, this has got to be one
of the most insane conversations...
322
00:23:29,371 --> 00:23:31,168
...l've ever had with you.
323
00:23:31,673 --> 00:23:33,971
l don't want to fuck him. l don't.
324
00:23:34,176 --> 00:23:35,575
-Fuck him?
-lt was one lunch.
325
00:23:35,744 --> 00:23:37,405
Who said anything
about fucking him?
326
00:23:37,579 --> 00:23:40,742
-l didn't say fucking, l said attracted.
-That's what you meant.
327
00:23:40,916 --> 00:23:42,781
-lt's not.
-Please keep your voice down.
328
00:23:42,951 --> 00:23:44,748
l meant attracted, you said fuck.
329
00:23:44,920 --> 00:23:47,582
Can you just fucking
shut the fuck up?
330
00:23:48,590 --> 00:23:49,579
What do you want?
331
00:23:50,126 --> 00:23:53,095
l want you to answer
the fucking question.
332
00:23:56,599 --> 00:24:02,231
Syd, you're a cute guy. You are.
You really, really are, but l don't know.
333
00:24:02,405 --> 00:24:05,238
He has this angular, sexy,
Diesel-ad thing going on.
334
00:24:05,408 --> 00:24:06,841
But l don't even know him.
335
00:24:07,009 --> 00:24:09,068
-So maybe he's an asshole.
-You know what?
336
00:24:09,612 --> 00:24:12,581
Fuck you, Maya. lf you were my friend,
you would've lied.
337
00:24:12,748 --> 00:24:15,945
Syd. Syd, you are at
her going-away party.
338
00:24:16,119 --> 00:24:18,280
lf you don't calm down,
you'll drive me...
339
00:24:18,454 --> 00:24:23,949
...and you, and everyone else,
and her at this fucking party crazy.
340
00:24:24,127 --> 00:24:27,096
Just say goodbye and let her go,
because she's gone.
341
00:24:27,763 --> 00:24:30,323
She's gone, man.
342
00:24:34,337 --> 00:24:36,271
Line, anyone?
343
00:24:39,142 --> 00:24:42,043
No. No, thank you.
But do you have a cigarette?
344
00:24:42,245 --> 00:24:43,974
l'm sorry.
345
00:25:12,408 --> 00:25:16,174
Light. l'm sorry.
346
00:25:21,083 --> 00:25:24,211
All right, all right, you know what?
l'm gonna go.
347
00:25:24,387 --> 00:25:27,049
-Are you leaving?
-Thank you. Thank you for everything.
348
00:25:27,223 --> 00:25:28,986
-Really.
-Listen, do me a favor.
349
00:25:29,158 --> 00:25:32,525
Don't tell London l'm doing blow
in here. That'll really screw me.
350
00:25:32,695 --> 00:25:35,664
You know, Syd, yeah,
you know, l'll try to remember that.
351
00:25:35,831 --> 00:25:37,492
Maya, l'm serious. Please?
352
00:25:47,944 --> 00:25:51,277
Hey, please tell me you're not doing
coke in my parents' bathroom.
353
00:25:51,447 --> 00:25:53,415
-What?
-l saw you go upstairs.
354
00:25:53,583 --> 00:25:55,448
-Where did you go?
-To the bathroom.
355
00:25:55,618 --> 00:25:58,382
Swear to God, you're not doing coke
in my parents' house.
356
00:25:58,554 --> 00:25:59,919
Oh, my God, l swear to God...
357
00:26:00,089 --> 00:26:02,887
...l'm not doing coke
in your parents' house.
358
00:26:03,059 --> 00:26:04,390
Okay, l'm sorry, darling.
359
00:26:06,062 --> 00:26:09,395
All right.
Have a good time. l'm sorry.
360
00:26:16,205 --> 00:26:18,264
How long were you two together?
361
00:26:18,441 --> 00:26:22,070
Who? Me and London?
Two and a half years.
362
00:26:22,545 --> 00:26:24,877
-You split when?
-Six months and a few days ago.
363
00:26:25,047 --> 00:26:27,481
You're counting, Syd.
Not a good sign, mate.
364
00:26:28,084 --> 00:26:30,245
Why? Why do you say that?
365
00:26:31,787 --> 00:26:35,154
Joking.
l mean, what's the girl's name?
366
00:26:35,357 --> 00:26:37,757
-Maya. Can l have one of those?
-Maya.
367
00:26:37,927 --> 00:26:39,724
Maya.
368
00:26:39,895 --> 00:26:41,795
l'd do some terrible things to her.
369
00:26:42,231 --> 00:26:45,098
She's like an X-rated Barbie doll.
370
00:26:45,668 --> 00:26:47,966
-How old is she?
-l don't know, like 1 6, 1 7.
371
00:26:48,137 --> 00:26:49,468
Seventeen?
372
00:26:50,940 --> 00:26:54,000
-Now l really wanna fuck her.
-You'd fuck a 1 7-year-old?
373
00:26:54,677 --> 00:26:56,508
What, you wouldn't?
374
00:26:57,279 --> 00:26:59,747
lf it's not against the law,
what's the problem?
375
00:26:59,915 --> 00:27:01,974
You can fuck a 1 5-year-old
in France.
376
00:27:02,151 --> 00:27:03,914
Does that make them
all pedophiles?
377
00:27:04,086 --> 00:27:07,419
Right situation, right country,
you'd fuck one too, believe you me.
378
00:27:07,590 --> 00:27:11,458
Right, right. lnternational waters,
deserted island, shit can happen.
379
00:27:11,627 --> 00:27:14,994
But if any of my female friends
knew l fucked a 1 7-year-old...
380
00:27:15,164 --> 00:27:17,462
-...they'd lose it.
-What's the matter with you?
381
00:27:17,633 --> 00:27:20,329
lf we told women a tenth of
the things we think and do...
382
00:27:20,503 --> 00:27:22,164
...do you think we'd ever get laid?
383
00:27:22,338 --> 00:27:25,273
-Like when l asked a girl to piss on me.
-To piss on you?
384
00:27:27,276 --> 00:27:30,109
Yes, mate, but l was on
a horrible amount of X at the time.
385
00:27:30,279 --> 00:27:32,179
Did she piss on you?
386
00:27:34,016 --> 00:27:35,950
Actually, no...
387
00:27:37,286 --> 00:27:39,447
...she pissed in my mouth.
388
00:27:42,024 --> 00:27:43,651
She pissed in your mouth?
389
00:27:43,826 --> 00:27:45,953
lt was not a pleasant experience,
believe me.
390
00:27:48,029 --> 00:27:49,496
How the fuck does that happen?
391
00:27:49,664 --> 00:27:53,794
What is the conversation that leads to
a girl having to piss in your mouth?
392
00:27:53,968 --> 00:27:55,560
lt was a fucking mistress.
393
00:27:55,737 --> 00:27:59,195
-You paid an S & M chick?
-Many times.
394
00:28:00,541 --> 00:28:02,566
''Many times.''
395
00:28:03,444 --> 00:28:07,244
Listen, it's an expensive hobby,
both mentally and financially.
396
00:28:07,448 --> 00:28:09,848
So, what's the deal?
How does it work?
397
00:28:11,753 --> 00:28:13,880
l don't know if l want
to go there, you know?
398
00:28:14,055 --> 00:28:17,684
Come on, explain it. No one cares.
Did you get your shit wet? Me too.
399
00:28:17,859 --> 00:28:21,818
lt's my fucking Savile Row suit.
lt's fucking 5 G's.
400
00:28:21,996 --> 00:28:25,454
l've kept it out of the rain all day.
Look at the state of it.
401
00:28:26,067 --> 00:28:28,228
Look, l don't wanna go there.
All right, Syd?
402
00:28:28,403 --> 00:28:29,836
Come on. l'm not gonna tell.
403
00:28:30,004 --> 00:28:32,404
-Why the fuck do you wanna know?
-How does it work?
404
00:28:32,573 --> 00:28:36,031
-You just go over there?
-Look at you, you fucking dirtbag.
405
00:28:36,210 --> 00:28:38,371
-You brought it up.
-You wanna go there...
406
00:28:38,546 --> 00:28:41,879
...you fucking go there. Leave my
fucking demons to myself, mate.
407
00:28:42,050 --> 00:28:44,041
-Where is it?
-Tribeca, you cunt.
408
00:28:44,218 --> 00:28:46,550
Explain it. How does it work?
You just walk over?
409
00:28:48,489 --> 00:28:50,286
Look, you phone from downstairs...
410
00:28:50,491 --> 00:28:54,894
...and magically they let you in
through these enormous iron gates.
411
00:28:57,065 --> 00:28:58,089
You get all excited.
412
00:28:58,266 --> 00:29:01,201
You get all wrapped up.
You can't wait to get in there.
413
00:29:03,938 --> 00:29:06,930
The whole thought of it just
gets amongst your fucking veins.
414
00:29:07,108 --> 00:29:08,598
You're into it, you know?
415
00:29:08,776 --> 00:29:10,744
All of a sudden,
they give you a form.
416
00:29:10,912 --> 00:29:14,575
It's a five-page disclaimer
in fucking triplicate.
417
00:29:14,749 --> 00:29:18,048
And you're like, ''Hold on.
What is this? Paperwork?
418
00:29:18,219 --> 00:29:19,914
l've come here
to get my dick sucked.
419
00:29:20,088 --> 00:29:22,454
l didn't come here to sign forms.''
lt's hilarious.
420
00:29:22,623 --> 00:29:26,081
You don't pay them,
you give them a fucking donation.
421
00:29:26,260 --> 00:29:29,889
l mean, that is so American, isn't it?
Come on.
422
00:29:30,064 --> 00:29:33,556
And then they give you a list and
a little pencil, like in the sushi bar.
423
00:29:33,734 --> 00:29:36,726
You start checking off the
requirements. Whipping, spanking--
424
00:29:38,806 --> 00:29:42,833
Come on, you fucking dirty
shit-cunt whore. Fucking whip me!
425
00:29:43,044 --> 00:29:45,069
--nipple clamps, coprophilia.
426
00:29:45,246 --> 00:29:47,578
-What's coprophilia?
-When they shit on you.
427
00:29:47,982 --> 00:29:49,415
Shit in your mouth.
428
00:29:49,584 --> 00:29:52,849
You can have it in the mouth
or you can have it over a glass table.
429
00:29:53,054 --> 00:29:56,353
Can you imagine? They fucking
wheel out a glass table and they just...
430
00:29:56,557 --> 00:29:59,355
...shit all over it,
and you're just like:
431
00:29:59,560 --> 00:30:01,460
''You dirty bitch!''
432
00:30:01,629 --> 00:30:04,996
Who the fuck
asks for that fucking misery?
433
00:30:05,166 --> 00:30:07,532
l hope not you.
434
00:30:07,702 --> 00:30:09,135
Yeah, what about me?
435
00:30:11,506 --> 00:30:14,771
Anyway, you know, there's a lot--
l mean, the list is long, mate.
436
00:30:14,942 --> 00:30:17,376
-lnfantilism, you've got--
-What's infantilism?
437
00:30:17,578 --> 00:30:19,603
They make you a baby,
give you a bottle.
438
00:30:19,780 --> 00:30:22,772
Put you in diapers, nurse you,
turn you into an infant.
439
00:30:23,618 --> 00:30:27,520
l mean, it's the sickest,
most twisted place you'll ever go.
440
00:30:27,688 --> 00:30:29,121
l mean, they claw your balls.
441
00:30:29,290 --> 00:30:31,349
They'll tie your cock up
with a shoelace...
442
00:30:31,526 --> 00:30:36,589
...stick truncheons up your ass.
lt's twisted. lt's fucking twisted.
443
00:30:37,365 --> 00:30:39,629
But l'm telling you,
the moment you come....
444
00:30:39,800 --> 00:30:41,859
The moment you come,
you are so sober.
445
00:30:42,737 --> 00:30:46,537
I mean, so fucking sober.
446
00:30:46,707 --> 00:30:51,007
You're like, ''What have I just done?
What the fuck have I just done?
447
00:30:51,179 --> 00:30:54,808
I've just paid $2 7 5
for some stranger...
448
00:30:54,982 --> 00:30:57,644
...some chick I don't even know,
to, like, whip me...
449
00:30:57,818 --> 00:30:59,649
...and piss on my head. ''
450
00:31:00,688 --> 00:31:03,816
So where's the upside?
Why do you do it? l don't get it.
451
00:31:04,492 --> 00:31:08,223
Well, on a physical level,
it can be rather pleasurable.
452
00:31:09,130 --> 00:31:12,827
Psychologically-- This is without
getting too deep here.
453
00:31:13,000 --> 00:31:16,094
--l think it has a lot to do
with pain and self-flagellation...
454
00:31:16,270 --> 00:31:18,602
...both literally and metaphorically.
455
00:31:18,773 --> 00:31:21,435
l mean, l don't know whether
it's the culture or what...
456
00:31:21,642 --> 00:31:25,169
...but the English, in general,
are very into pain and spanking.
457
00:31:25,346 --> 00:31:27,211
The English? Really?
458
00:31:27,381 --> 00:31:30,009
Yeah, you're always reading
some story in the papers...
459
00:31:30,184 --> 00:31:32,778
...about some judge or vicar
bent over a hooker's knee.
460
00:31:35,089 --> 00:31:37,523
l didn't know the English
were so fucked up.
461
00:31:37,692 --> 00:31:40,217
Mate, the English are very...
462
00:31:40,394 --> 00:31:43,386
...l mean, very fucked up.
463
00:31:46,434 --> 00:31:48,402
Yeah, one sec.
464
00:31:50,805 --> 00:31:54,468
Sweating like a fucking rapist.
465
00:31:57,445 --> 00:31:58,969
Syd.
466
00:31:59,180 --> 00:32:00,909
Come and have a look at the view.
467
00:32:02,316 --> 00:32:06,082
Yeah. lt's Mallory,
the girl from the bar. l'll hook you up.
468
00:32:06,254 --> 00:32:07,653
-Come back in.
-Who?
469
00:32:07,822 --> 00:32:09,619
Mallory. The girl from the bar.
470
00:32:09,790 --> 00:32:12,156
-She's hot. l'll hook you up.
-No, no, mate, no.
471
00:32:12,326 --> 00:32:15,090
l'm too-- l'm wanked, mate.
l can't be fucking with girls.
472
00:32:15,263 --> 00:32:16,890
So what? So am l.
473
00:32:17,064 --> 00:32:19,464
l've been drinking this piss.
No, l can't, fuck it.
474
00:32:19,634 --> 00:32:21,465
-l can't operate like this.
-Who cares?
475
00:32:21,636 --> 00:32:24,127
-l'm fucking dizzy.
-She'll be in and out.
476
00:32:24,305 --> 00:32:26,398
You help yourself to that,
l'm gonna leave.
477
00:32:26,574 --> 00:32:28,769
-lt's been a fucking pleasure.
-Don't leave.
478
00:32:28,943 --> 00:32:31,673
Please don't fucking leave.
Go get a drink, come back.
479
00:32:31,846 --> 00:32:33,837
-No, mate, no.
-Bateman, one fucking drink.
480
00:32:34,015 --> 00:32:36,347
Come right back.
Work Mallory, she's hot.
481
00:32:36,517 --> 00:32:38,610
Fuck you. A drink of what?
What do you want?
482
00:32:38,786 --> 00:32:40,981
Anything. A bottle.
Jack, tequila, whiskey.
483
00:32:41,155 --> 00:32:42,986
You're staying, though, right?
484
00:32:43,724 --> 00:32:45,521
-One fucking drink.
-One fucking drink.
485
00:32:45,726 --> 00:32:49,628
Fine, fine, just don't go anywhere.
You'll fucking thank me.
486
00:33:00,108 --> 00:33:03,271
l haven't had a bump
in like three hours.
487
00:33:03,444 --> 00:33:05,275
Bateman, this is my friend Mallory.
488
00:33:05,446 --> 00:33:07,641
Mallory, this is Bateman.
489
00:33:07,815 --> 00:33:09,612
Hey.
490
00:33:09,784 --> 00:33:11,547
You're the guy from the bar, right?
491
00:33:11,753 --> 00:33:13,846
Mallory, yeah?
492
00:33:14,022 --> 00:33:15,489
Bateman.
493
00:33:15,657 --> 00:33:17,454
Nice to meet you.
494
00:33:17,625 --> 00:33:19,388
-Sorry.
-Excuse me.
495
00:33:19,560 --> 00:33:22,393
-What a clumsy idiot.
-Sorry.
496
00:33:24,032 --> 00:33:26,125
Well, how do you guys
know each other?
497
00:33:27,301 --> 00:33:29,064
A friend of a friend.
498
00:33:29,270 --> 00:33:30,897
What friend?
499
00:33:33,007 --> 00:33:36,033
l don't know, Mallory.
What's with the 20 Questions? Fuck.
500
00:33:36,210 --> 00:33:38,974
Just asking. So, what,
are you leaving or something?
501
00:33:39,147 --> 00:33:42,378
l'm just gonna grab us a drink
and then...
502
00:33:42,784 --> 00:33:45,810
...l'm coming back.
Do you want one?
503
00:33:47,088 --> 00:33:49,488
Sure, l'll have another one.
504
00:33:49,657 --> 00:33:51,352
-l'll see you in a minute.
-Good.
505
00:33:51,526 --> 00:33:53,084
l'll see you in a minute, Syd.
506
00:33:58,299 --> 00:34:01,063
Damn, kid.
507
00:34:04,739 --> 00:34:06,434
So how do you know that guy?
508
00:34:08,810 --> 00:34:11,608
He got this blow. He's not
a dealer, he just knew the guy.
509
00:34:11,813 --> 00:34:13,405
-Oh, yeah?
-Yeah. Good guy, right?
510
00:34:13,581 --> 00:34:16,846
-Yeah.
-Hey, you don't know if London's here.
511
00:34:17,018 --> 00:34:18,781
Yeah, she got here like a minute ago.
512
00:34:18,953 --> 00:34:21,683
What'd she say?
Does she know l'm here?
513
00:34:21,856 --> 00:34:24,950
No. She didn't say anything.
514
00:34:33,034 --> 00:34:36,697
l can't believe she's leaving tomorrow.
That's just so fucked up to me.
515
00:34:36,871 --> 00:34:41,137
Well, instead of staying here all night,
why don't you go out and talk to her.
516
00:34:41,342 --> 00:34:43,742
-l'm sure she'd love to talk to you.
-l doubt that.
517
00:34:43,911 --> 00:34:47,074
Why wouldn't she wanna talk to you?
You guys in a fight?
518
00:34:47,248 --> 00:34:49,739
A fight? Mallory, she hasn't
called me in two months.
519
00:34:49,917 --> 00:34:52,613
l wasn't invited tonight.
Don't you think it's odd...
520
00:34:52,787 --> 00:34:55,915
...she wouldn't tell me she's moving
across the fucking country?
521
00:34:56,090 --> 00:34:57,421
-She didn't call you?
-No.
522
00:34:57,592 --> 00:34:59,890
-That's fucked up.
-Didn't even leave a message.
523
00:35:00,061 --> 00:35:04,088
-l know that girl better than anybody.
-When's the last time you talked?
524
00:35:04,265 --> 00:35:07,393
-l don't know, two months.
-Really?
525
00:35:07,735 --> 00:35:11,227
-l'm sure she was gonna call you.
-When? l just checked my messages.
526
00:35:11,405 --> 00:35:15,466
-ls she gonna call me from LAX?
-Dude, l don't fucking know. Man.
527
00:35:15,643 --> 00:35:17,634
Fucked up!
528
00:35:19,647 --> 00:35:22,775
Hey, Syd, can l ask you
something personal?
529
00:35:22,950 --> 00:35:24,508
What?
530
00:35:24,986 --> 00:35:26,920
Well....
531
00:35:28,489 --> 00:35:32,289
lt's probably-- l don't know if it's true,
that's obviously why l'm asking...
532
00:35:32,460 --> 00:35:35,952
...and since we're cool and all,
l just figured-- l'm kind of concerned.
533
00:35:36,130 --> 00:35:40,123
But l-- Anyway, l kind of heard that--
534
00:35:40,301 --> 00:35:43,429
-What? Something about London?
-l heard-- lt's probably bullshit.
535
00:35:43,604 --> 00:35:46,334
-But l heard you--
-What, Mallory? Spit it out. Fuck.
536
00:35:46,507 --> 00:35:50,967
Dude, l kind of heard that
you tried to kill yourself.
537
00:35:51,312 --> 00:35:54,475
-What? Who told you that? London?
-No, it wasn't London.
538
00:35:54,649 --> 00:35:56,844
-Who told you that? Who?
-Dude, l don't know.
539
00:35:57,018 --> 00:35:58,383
l don't even remember.
540
00:35:58,553 --> 00:36:00,714
London's the only person
that knew about that.
541
00:36:00,922 --> 00:36:03,914
So any way you heard it,
it's pretty fucked up.
542
00:36:04,192 --> 00:36:08,458
-So, what? lt's not true?
-No, it's not fucking true.
543
00:36:09,163 --> 00:36:11,529
Dude, l don't get it.
What the fuck happened then?
544
00:36:11,699 --> 00:36:16,193
You tell me what you heard happened,
then l'll tell you what really happened.
545
00:36:17,438 --> 00:36:19,565
Just after this bump. Hold up.
546
00:36:21,509 --> 00:36:22,999
All right. Okay.
547
00:36:23,177 --> 00:36:26,977
l heard that, like, you guys had a fight
or something, and you broke out...
548
00:36:27,148 --> 00:36:29,673
...she drove to your place,
found you unconscious...
549
00:36:29,851 --> 00:36:33,378
...next to some sleeping pills, and you
had to get your stomach pumped.
550
00:36:33,554 --> 00:36:37,046
Okay, now do you wanna know
what really happened?
551
00:36:37,725 --> 00:36:39,522
Yeah. l mean, that's why l asked.
552
00:36:39,694 --> 00:36:41,525
-You know my dog, Toker?
-Yeah.
553
00:36:41,696 --> 00:36:44,324
-Yes, well, he's epileptic.
-Okay.
554
00:36:44,498 --> 00:36:48,264
-So the vet prescribed phenobarbital.
-Pheno--? What the fuck is that?
555
00:36:48,469 --> 00:36:50,994
They're barbiturates.
They're downers, for his fits.
556
00:36:51,172 --> 00:36:55,700
Wait a minute. Your dog has epilepsy
and got prescribed--?
557
00:36:55,877 --> 00:36:57,242
Let me finish. Anyway...
558
00:36:57,411 --> 00:37:00,380
...it was our two-year anniversary
and she thought l'd forget.
559
00:37:00,548 --> 00:37:02,573
-So--
-Syd, you always forget. Always.
560
00:37:04,485 --> 00:37:07,249
Oh, fuck.
561
00:37:09,123 --> 00:37:14,720
-l feel like such a bitch.
-Well, you are a bitch.
562
00:37:15,029 --> 00:37:17,088
Open it.
563
00:37:17,298 --> 00:37:20,028
-Open it.
-Okay.
564
00:37:30,812 --> 00:37:33,042
Oh, my God.
565
00:37:33,781 --> 00:37:36,545
This is so gorgeous. How did
you know l wanted this dress?
566
00:37:36,717 --> 00:37:41,120
l saw you drooling all over it
last time we were at Valentino.
567
00:37:41,289 --> 00:37:43,257
l love it!
568
00:37:43,891 --> 00:37:46,655
Oh, it's so beautiful.
569
00:37:48,663 --> 00:37:52,292
Thank you so much, baby.
570
00:37:58,039 --> 00:37:59,631
There's more.
571
00:37:59,807 --> 00:38:02,139
-What is that?
-lt's a basketball.
572
00:38:02,477 --> 00:38:07,938
What--? Oh, my God. Oh, my God.
573
00:38:10,551 --> 00:38:14,510
Hi, little guy. Hi, little guy.
574
00:38:14,689 --> 00:38:16,554
Oh, baby.
575
00:38:18,626 --> 00:38:22,687
-l love you so much.
-l love you.
576
00:38:22,864 --> 00:38:26,766
Look at him.
l can't believe you did this. l--
577
00:38:28,336 --> 00:38:31,601
Thank you. Okay. Okay.
578
00:38:32,773 --> 00:38:34,468
Hello?
579
00:38:35,276 --> 00:38:38,609
Hey. Can l just call you back?
580
00:38:38,946 --> 00:38:41,039
No, l'm just
in the middle of something.
581
00:38:41,215 --> 00:38:43,479
All right, bye.
582
00:38:43,784 --> 00:38:46,947
-Who was that?
-lt was Mallory.
583
00:38:47,455 --> 00:38:49,821
Look at his paws.
584
00:38:54,795 --> 00:38:58,458
-What? What is it? What's wrong?
-l heard a guy's voice on the phone.
585
00:39:00,334 --> 00:39:02,529
What? Are you fucking crazy?
That was Mallory.
586
00:39:02,703 --> 00:39:04,898
You swear to God?
587
00:39:05,406 --> 00:39:08,375
Yes, l swear to God.
588
00:39:09,610 --> 00:39:12,511
lf you don't fucking believe me,
go ahead and call her.
589
00:39:12,680 --> 00:39:16,172
Syd. Are you really gonna
fucking call her?
590
00:39:17,685 --> 00:39:19,710
Yeah, is Mallory there?
591
00:39:20,721 --> 00:39:23,246
This is London's boyfriend.
Who the fuck is this?
592
00:39:24,158 --> 00:39:27,150
London, what the fuck is this?
Who was that? Why did you lie?
593
00:39:27,328 --> 00:39:30,024
-Let me just explain.
-You better fucking explain.
594
00:39:30,198 --> 00:39:32,359
What? Why did you lie?
Are you cheating on me?
595
00:39:32,533 --> 00:39:34,660
No, no. Listen.
596
00:39:34,835 --> 00:39:37,167
l was really fucked up.
l was out with the girls.
597
00:39:37,338 --> 00:39:39,602
-Fucking perfect.
-Are you gonna let me explain?
598
00:39:39,774 --> 00:39:42,072
Yes, yes, you better
fucking explain, London.
599
00:39:42,243 --> 00:39:47,010
Okay, the clubs were closing, we went
back to Becca's boyfriend's loft.
600
00:39:47,181 --> 00:39:50,173
l fucking passed out.
l wake up the next morning...
601
00:39:50,351 --> 00:39:53,184
...and the guy-- There was someone
lying in bed next to me.
602
00:39:53,354 --> 00:39:54,685
Then he didn't try anything?
603
00:39:54,855 --> 00:39:57,346
You're fucked up in his bed,
he didn't try anything.
604
00:39:57,525 --> 00:40:00,221
l find that hard to believe.
And don't fucking lie to me.
605
00:40:00,394 --> 00:40:03,591
lf you fucking lie to me,
l'm walking out the fucking door.
606
00:40:03,764 --> 00:40:07,097
He tried to kiss me. But there was
nothing because l pushed him away.
607
00:40:07,268 --> 00:40:09,361
-lt was not a big deal--
-Define ''tried.''
608
00:40:09,537 --> 00:40:11,630
l wanna know
every single fucking detail.
609
00:40:11,806 --> 00:40:14,639
Were you on or under the covers?
Was his hand on your tit?
610
00:40:14,809 --> 00:40:17,801
No, Syd. He tries to kiss me
and l pushed him away.
611
00:40:17,979 --> 00:40:20,641
-You pushed him away?
-Yes. l walked outside.
612
00:40:20,815 --> 00:40:23,113
Mallory called me a cab,
and l went home.
613
00:40:23,284 --> 00:40:25,149
lf you went home,
why is he calling you?
614
00:40:25,319 --> 00:40:27,446
-How does he have your number?
-l don't know.
615
00:40:27,622 --> 00:40:30,785
Maybe Becca's boyfriend
gave him the number.
616
00:40:30,958 --> 00:40:33,324
But l definitely didn't give it to him.
617
00:40:33,928 --> 00:40:38,763
Nothing happened. l swear to God.
Don't you fucking believe me? Please.
618
00:40:38,933 --> 00:40:40,298
l don't know what to believe.
619
00:40:40,468 --> 00:40:42,459
You swore that was
Mallory on the phone...
620
00:40:42,637 --> 00:40:44,332
...and it wasn't.
So, what the fuck?
621
00:40:44,505 --> 00:40:47,770
We've dated for two years. l believed
everything you said until now.
622
00:40:47,942 --> 00:40:49,933
Now l don't know
what the fuck to believe.
623
00:40:50,111 --> 00:40:52,773
lt's like your words are meaningless.
624
00:40:53,281 --> 00:40:55,442
l just don't trust you anymore,
London.
625
00:40:55,616 --> 00:40:58,278
l made a mistake.
l made a fucking huge mistake.
626
00:40:58,452 --> 00:41:01,012
-l'm sorry.
-lf it was one fucking mistake...
627
00:41:01,222 --> 00:41:03,452
...why did you say
you were gonna call back?
628
00:41:03,624 --> 00:41:05,819
Why would you tell a guy
who you don't know...
629
00:41:05,993 --> 00:41:08,826
...whose number you don't have,
you're gonna call him back?
630
00:41:08,996 --> 00:41:10,327
What the fuck is that?
631
00:41:11,732 --> 00:41:14,758
So l took a couple
of Toker's phenobarbital.
632
00:41:16,336 --> 00:41:19,100
Wait, you took
your dog's medication?
633
00:41:19,273 --> 00:41:22,640
Phenobarbital is phenobarbital.
lt doesn't matter if it was for my dog.
634
00:41:22,810 --> 00:41:26,439
People have been taking it
recreationally for years.
635
00:41:26,613 --> 00:41:27,944
Smoke that.
636
00:41:28,115 --> 00:41:31,312
So wait a minute,
what does it do to you?
637
00:41:31,485 --> 00:41:33,646
They make you feel good.
They're like downers.
638
00:41:33,821 --> 00:41:35,618
-Okay.
-Anyway...
639
00:41:35,789 --> 00:41:38,519
...l was pretty drunk
and l took like five or six of them.
640
00:41:38,692 --> 00:41:41,684
-Five or six doggy downers?
-Toker's 50 pounds, he takes two.
641
00:41:41,862 --> 00:41:45,559
-l'm 1 70, five or six seems pretty good.
-Shit.
642
00:41:45,766 --> 00:41:48,894
The problem is that if you're drunk,
you can fall into a coma...
643
00:41:49,069 --> 00:41:51,560
-...if you're not careful.
-You went into a coma?
644
00:41:51,772 --> 00:41:55,173
-What's wrong with you?
-No, l didn't go into a fucking coma.
645
00:41:55,342 --> 00:41:57,537
London came back
to apologize or whatever.
646
00:41:58,145 --> 00:42:01,478
Syd? Syd!
647
00:42:03,050 --> 00:42:06,679
Syd! Somebody, please, help!
648
00:42:07,287 --> 00:42:10,916
lt's so fucked up. The fact she's telling
people that makes me so furious.
649
00:42:11,091 --> 00:42:13,855
l would never do that to anyone.
lt's just fucking rude.
650
00:42:14,027 --> 00:42:16,928
-They never pumped your stomach?
-No, l went to the hospital.
651
00:42:17,097 --> 00:42:20,157
l took a few coherency tests.
That's it. That's all.
652
00:42:20,334 --> 00:42:23,895
Do you see how reality gets twisted
when little fucking girls gossip?
653
00:42:24,071 --> 00:42:27,336
Yeah. Yeah, l mean, l guess.
654
00:42:28,575 --> 00:42:31,908
-What? Do you not believe me?
-No, of course l believe you, Syd.
655
00:42:32,079 --> 00:42:35,412
That's why l asked. l was concerned.
656
00:42:35,582 --> 00:42:37,516
Makes me so livid
that she's out there...
657
00:42:37,684 --> 00:42:40,676
...telling people this warped version
of what happened.
658
00:42:41,221 --> 00:42:45,214
You know what? Just please don't
go out there telling her l told you this.
659
00:42:45,392 --> 00:42:46,882
That's the last thing you need.
660
00:42:47,060 --> 00:42:49,585
The last thing l'm gonna do
is mention your name.
661
00:42:49,763 --> 00:42:53,290
Well, honestly, if l were you, l wouldn't
even bring the shit up, okay?
662
00:42:53,467 --> 00:42:56,027
lt's her last night here.
Focus on something positive.
663
00:42:56,203 --> 00:42:58,364
She don't wanna hear that shit.
664
00:43:01,341 --> 00:43:03,070
Fuck.
665
00:43:03,710 --> 00:43:05,803
What? What's wrong?
666
00:43:06,346 --> 00:43:07,779
l don't know, l don't know.
667
00:43:07,948 --> 00:43:11,714
Because l start sweating
and my heart starts pounding...
668
00:43:11,885 --> 00:43:14,877
...and l feel like my head's spinning
and the world's crashing.
669
00:43:15,055 --> 00:43:18,991
And l get pulled down,
further into, like, the darkest...
670
00:43:19,159 --> 00:43:23,152
...meanest places of my brain,
and l start suffocating.
671
00:43:23,363 --> 00:43:24,990
And you feel like you're dying.
672
00:43:29,469 --> 00:43:32,666
What? What? Say something.
673
00:43:33,006 --> 00:43:36,942
-What would you like me to say?
-Anything. Something. l don't care.
674
00:43:39,780 --> 00:43:41,111
l can't be your crutch, Syd.
675
00:43:41,281 --> 00:43:44,773
Oh, you are such a miserable
fucking human being.
676
00:43:44,951 --> 00:43:47,010
Miserable in what way?
677
00:43:47,254 --> 00:43:50,280
The way that you're sitting there,
taking my fucking money...
678
00:43:50,457 --> 00:43:53,984
...and l'm dying. Nothing you do
helps me. The Prozac doesn't help.
679
00:43:54,161 --> 00:43:57,653
The lithium doesn't help. The Zoloft
doesn't help. Nothing you do helps.
680
00:43:57,831 --> 00:44:00,493
You're kind of a fucking asshole.
681
00:44:04,504 --> 00:44:08,600
l just wanna fucking
turn the pain off, you know?
682
00:44:08,775 --> 00:44:12,142
Just give me something that
the pain can go away with, you know?
683
00:44:12,312 --> 00:44:15,281
Can you do that? Don?
684
00:44:17,551 --> 00:44:19,849
l think you're doing great.
685
00:44:20,987 --> 00:44:23,114
When that anxiety hits,
it's terrifying...
686
00:44:23,290 --> 00:44:25,815
...because you're like,
''Maybe l'm really going crazy.
687
00:44:25,992 --> 00:44:28,290
Maybe l've finally
fucked with my head enough...
688
00:44:28,462 --> 00:44:30,293
...that l just detached from reality.''
689
00:44:30,464 --> 00:44:32,796
-You have these horrible revelations.
-Like what?
690
00:44:32,966 --> 00:44:35,560
l started freaking out about death.
l became obsessed.
691
00:44:35,736 --> 00:44:38,728
l couldn't conceptualize not
being here. Just not being here.
692
00:44:38,939 --> 00:44:42,204
One day, Mallory, you and l
are gonna be dead. Buried. Gone.
693
00:44:42,376 --> 00:44:45,641
You think about religion. People are
just swallowing these concepts.
694
00:44:45,812 --> 00:44:48,542
Like God and heaven,
just to suppress our deepest fears...
695
00:44:48,715 --> 00:44:51,479
...that we don't know why we're here.
lt makes no sense.
696
00:44:51,651 --> 00:44:53,016
lt totally makes sense, okay?
697
00:44:53,186 --> 00:44:57,350
At the same time it allows people
to go on living their everyday lives...
698
00:44:57,524 --> 00:45:00,823
...without constantly obsessing over
these things. These realities.
699
00:45:00,994 --> 00:45:04,430
Life, death, heaven, hell.
Existence, why we're here.
700
00:45:04,598 --> 00:45:08,398
You know, who knows,
it's possible that a god does exist.
701
00:45:08,568 --> 00:45:12,004
Energy, force, spirit, whatever
you wanna call it. l believe that.
702
00:45:12,172 --> 00:45:14,436
Fair enough.
So, what happens when you die?
703
00:45:14,608 --> 00:45:18,169
l don't know. You fucking die. Why
does there have to be an answer?
704
00:45:18,345 --> 00:45:21,405
Why can't there just be mysteries?
l don't know. Your body dies.
705
00:45:21,581 --> 00:45:26,041
Your actual physical being dies,
but your spirit, l do believe, lives on.
706
00:45:26,219 --> 00:45:30,019
lt lives on in the world. Man, it's this
continuing thing of existence.
707
00:45:30,190 --> 00:45:32,351
lt doesn't have to have
a perfect answer why.
708
00:45:32,526 --> 00:45:35,086
l buy that a little bit more
than an invisible guy...
709
00:45:35,262 --> 00:45:37,628
...taking checks and balances
on 6 million people.
710
00:45:37,798 --> 00:45:39,789
That sounds like Santa Claus to me.
711
00:45:40,000 --> 00:45:43,197
lt's like a fairy tale for adults
who can't handle death.
712
00:45:46,072 --> 00:45:48,267
Yeah, because if you think about it...
713
00:45:48,441 --> 00:45:51,774
...there was a time that we didn't know
that the world was round...
714
00:45:51,945 --> 00:45:54,812
...or that the atom existed
or whatever, right...
715
00:45:55,014 --> 00:45:57,608
...because we didn't have
the technology to observe it.
716
00:45:57,784 --> 00:46:00,753
And then...one day we do, right?
717
00:46:00,920 --> 00:46:04,754
So, l mean, it's totally
conceivably possible...
718
00:46:04,924 --> 00:46:10,624
...that in our lifetime, we will have
the technology to observe God...
719
00:46:10,797 --> 00:46:15,166
...or whatever it is that created us
and the planets...
720
00:46:15,335 --> 00:46:18,429
...and the universe
and everything else. Right?
721
00:46:18,605 --> 00:46:21,733
lt's important to at least have faith
in the possibility...
722
00:46:21,908 --> 00:46:25,002
...of a higher being
or something, or whatever...
723
00:46:25,178 --> 00:46:26,839
...because otherwise, you're just--
724
00:46:27,046 --> 00:46:29,674
You're gonna drive yourself
completely fucking insane.
725
00:46:29,849 --> 00:46:32,647
Right, but that really is
the operative word isn't it?
726
00:46:32,819 --> 00:46:34,844
What do you mean? What word?
727
00:46:35,054 --> 00:46:38,683
''Faith.'' Because without faith,
what do you have? You have nothing.
728
00:46:38,858 --> 00:46:42,259
You got a few stories written 1 00
years ago, thousands of years ago...
729
00:46:42,428 --> 00:46:44,623
...by people who are more
clueless than we are.
730
00:46:44,798 --> 00:46:48,256
The same people who were crucifying
people who said the world was round.
731
00:46:48,434 --> 00:46:52,530
So, you know. l just need more proof.
l need logic to support this religion.
732
00:46:52,705 --> 00:46:55,469
Okay, if you want proof,
l will give you proof.
733
00:46:55,642 --> 00:46:59,009
There was a study that was done
in Japan with physicists, okay?
734
00:46:59,179 --> 00:47:02,148
They took two vats of rice...
735
00:47:02,849 --> 00:47:05,340
...they put one in one room,
and one in another room.
736
00:47:05,518 --> 00:47:09,716
They put a time-lapse camera on it
so they could observe it for a month.
737
00:47:10,089 --> 00:47:13,547
They let all these people
come into one room...
738
00:47:13,726 --> 00:47:18,288
...and they would say, ''I love you,
rice. You are the best rice.
739
00:47:18,464 --> 00:47:22,161
You are the most beautiful,
most gorgeous, sexy rice there is.''
740
00:47:22,335 --> 00:47:25,327
And in the other room,
they say, ''l fucking hate you, rice.
741
00:47:25,505 --> 00:47:29,566
I hate you. You're the worst rice.
Fuck you, rice, you're the worst rice. ''
742
00:47:29,742 --> 00:47:35,180
After a month, the rice that they
said ''l love you'' to? Still edible.
743
00:47:35,348 --> 00:47:38,545
The other rice looks like
fucking black sludge.
744
00:47:39,319 --> 00:47:43,380
l saw the pictures. l saw, you know,
the time-lapse video.
745
00:47:43,556 --> 00:47:45,990
lt's a study. lt's real.
l saw it with my own eyes.
746
00:47:46,159 --> 00:47:49,925
That's your proof right there. l mean,
it's energy. We're affecting something.
747
00:47:50,129 --> 00:47:53,997
-God is energy.
-London, you're talking about rice.
748
00:47:54,167 --> 00:47:57,398
Rice. lt has nothing to do with religion.
Nothing to do with God.
749
00:47:57,570 --> 00:48:01,870
-l gave you proof.
-l'm sorry, l don't find proof in that.
750
00:48:14,587 --> 00:48:18,182
You know what your problem is?
You're so undyingly convinced...
751
00:48:18,358 --> 00:48:21,350
...that everything your parents
and teachers taught you...
752
00:48:21,527 --> 00:48:24,587
...you hold it as
this indisputable, almighty truth.
753
00:48:24,764 --> 00:48:27,858
Syd, can we please just drop it?
Can we just fucking drop it?
754
00:48:28,034 --> 00:48:30,867
You wanna drop it because
you know l'm right. Admit that...
755
00:48:31,037 --> 00:48:33,369
-...we'll talk about whatever you want.
-Shut up.
756
00:48:33,539 --> 00:48:35,370
-Shut the fuck up.
-Just admit it.
757
00:48:35,541 --> 00:48:38,704
You're scared to question authority
because what if they're wrong?
758
00:48:38,878 --> 00:48:41,073
What if all your parents
and all your elders...
759
00:48:41,247 --> 00:48:44,444
...were as scared of death as you,
and brainwashed just like you?
760
00:48:44,617 --> 00:48:46,778
You're just blind to see it.
761
00:48:48,588 --> 00:48:50,556
Okay, so l'm brainwashed...
762
00:48:50,723 --> 00:48:53,556
...because l happen to think
that believing in something...
763
00:48:53,726 --> 00:48:58,789
...other than meaninglessness
and nonexistence is a positive thing?
764
00:48:58,965 --> 00:49:02,594
-Okay. That's really smart, Syd.
-l'm glad you agree with me.
765
00:49:02,769 --> 00:49:05,499
l was being facetious, you dipshit.
766
00:49:05,705 --> 00:49:08,139
Why are you calling me a dipshit?
767
00:49:12,779 --> 00:49:14,940
Why are you calling me a dipshit?
768
00:49:15,114 --> 00:49:16,911
Because...
769
00:49:17,650 --> 00:49:21,677
...you always have to be right.
Why do you always have to be right?
770
00:49:21,854 --> 00:49:24,118
And your ego.
Your ego, it's just huge.
771
00:49:24,290 --> 00:49:27,817
-lt's just out of fucking control.
-There's no need to freak out.
772
00:49:27,994 --> 00:49:29,985
Syd, because you don't know
when to stop.
773
00:49:30,163 --> 00:49:32,927
You keep going
and going and going...
774
00:49:33,099 --> 00:49:37,160
...until people just wanna
smash your face in.
775
00:49:37,337 --> 00:49:41,000
Okay, okay.
Maybe God doesn't exist.
776
00:49:41,174 --> 00:49:45,873
l guess me and the billions upon
billions and billions of other people...
777
00:49:46,045 --> 00:49:49,139
...who actually pray to something
are completely deluded...
778
00:49:49,315 --> 00:49:52,944
...and you are right.
You are all-knowing.
779
00:49:53,119 --> 00:49:56,111
You're God, Syd. lsn't that what
you wanna fucking hear anyway?
780
00:49:56,289 --> 00:49:59,520
-That everyone else is wrong and--?
-Doesn't everybody?
781
00:49:59,692 --> 00:50:02,058
And l'm deluded?
And l am fucking deluded?
782
00:50:02,261 --> 00:50:04,957
You are-- You're sick.
You're sick, Syd.
783
00:50:05,131 --> 00:50:07,622
You need fucking mental help.
784
00:50:07,800 --> 00:50:11,634
God, you make everybody crazy.
You're making me fucking crazy.
785
00:50:11,804 --> 00:50:16,798
You just-- You blanket people with
your pseudo-intellectual bullshit...
786
00:50:16,976 --> 00:50:20,139
...and then they can't fucking breathe.
You just suffocate people.
787
00:50:20,313 --> 00:50:22,304
You don't talk to people.
You talk at them.
788
00:50:22,482 --> 00:50:25,815
At least l talk about real shit.
We've been going out for two years.
789
00:50:25,985 --> 00:50:28,510
What's the most intelligent
conversation we've had?
790
00:50:28,688 --> 00:50:31,384
How many grams of fat
are in a slice of vegetarian pizza?
791
00:50:31,557 --> 00:50:35,152
-Fuck you! You're so annoying.
-No, fuck you, London!
792
00:50:35,328 --> 00:50:36,761
You are more annoying than me.
793
00:50:36,929 --> 00:50:39,022
You get away with it
because no one listens.
794
00:50:39,198 --> 00:50:42,599
They stare at your tits,
thinking of ways to fuck you.
795
00:50:42,802 --> 00:50:47,068
l can't fucking believe that l ever fell
in love with a fucking asshole like you!
796
00:50:47,240 --> 00:50:49,208
-You're such a fucking asshole!
-Stop!
797
00:50:49,375 --> 00:50:52,902
-l fucking hate you!
-London. Take it easy.
798
00:50:53,079 --> 00:50:55,445
Stop, stop, stop.
799
00:50:57,517 --> 00:51:00,213
Stop. Stop.
800
00:51:14,267 --> 00:51:15,598
Stop.
801
00:51:34,253 --> 00:51:37,347
Baby. Come on, now.
802
00:51:52,005 --> 00:51:54,565
l'm not gonna get her back, am l?
803
00:52:04,751 --> 00:52:06,446
l don't know.
804
00:52:07,487 --> 00:52:09,182
Why don't you go talk to her.
805
00:52:12,592 --> 00:52:13,923
Are you leaving?
806
00:52:14,093 --> 00:52:16,823
l'm getting really claustrophobic.
l need to get some air.
807
00:52:16,996 --> 00:52:20,454
-l'm not freaking you out, am l?
-No, l'm so high right now.
808
00:52:20,633 --> 00:52:22,464
l need a drink.
809
00:52:22,635 --> 00:52:26,799
-Here, let me give you some of this.
-Can you bring that purse over?
810
00:52:26,973 --> 00:52:29,168
-Yeah, of course.
-Thanks.
811
00:52:29,342 --> 00:52:31,037
Here.
812
00:52:33,980 --> 00:52:35,948
-Oh, thanks, man.
-Here, this is for you.
813
00:52:36,115 --> 00:52:39,312
-That's way too much.
-No, please, take it.
814
00:52:39,485 --> 00:52:41,544
-You sure?
-Yeah.
815
00:52:41,721 --> 00:52:45,282
Thanks, man. That's really sweet.
816
00:52:53,633 --> 00:52:55,897
So you--? Do you wanna
come out there or what?
817
00:52:56,069 --> 00:52:59,038
Yeah, l'll be out there in a minute.
l'm gonna...
818
00:52:59,305 --> 00:53:01,967
-...just hang here for a minute or two.
-All right.
819
00:53:02,141 --> 00:53:04,371
See you out there, okay?
820
00:53:15,087 --> 00:53:17,385
You gotta come out.
821
00:53:22,695 --> 00:53:26,028
Hello, girls. What's your name?
822
00:53:26,199 --> 00:53:29,532
We're at a party, come on.
What are you reading a book for?
823
00:53:29,969 --> 00:53:32,062
Fancy a smoke in the little room?
824
00:53:32,238 --> 00:53:35,002
We're reading, actually,
about robopathology.
825
00:53:35,174 --> 00:53:37,267
Complicated little thing, aren't you?
826
00:53:37,476 --> 00:53:40,206
l was gonna leave,
then l had to make a beeline to you.
827
00:53:40,379 --> 00:53:42,609
Like l feel l know you
or something like that.
828
00:53:42,782 --> 00:53:45,182
On a one-to-ten scale...
829
00:53:45,551 --> 00:53:47,212
...you're a four. ln dim light.
830
00:53:47,386 --> 00:53:50,844
One lantern so l wouldn't have to
see your heinous, disfigured face.
831
00:53:51,023 --> 00:53:53,184
You are absolutely--
You're beautiful.
832
00:53:53,559 --> 00:53:55,925
l have to go.
That's my chopper. But before l do--
833
00:53:56,095 --> 00:53:57,562
-lt's picking you up?
-Yeah.
834
00:53:57,730 --> 00:53:59,561
l invented this move:
835
00:54:00,499 --> 00:54:01,864
She likes me. She's laughing.
836
00:54:02,034 --> 00:54:05,731
-How old are you?
-Eighteen.
837
00:54:07,273 --> 00:54:09,002
Eighteen.
838
00:54:11,911 --> 00:54:13,708
Let me just get another drink now.
839
00:54:21,621 --> 00:54:23,987
Stop. l'm not hitting on you.
840
00:54:24,156 --> 00:54:26,624
-l like your shoes.
-You do?
841
00:54:26,792 --> 00:54:29,226
-Excuse me. Hey, girl, l'm out of here.
-Already?
842
00:54:29,395 --> 00:54:31,590
-l'm gonna miss you.
-l'm gonna miss you too.
843
00:54:31,764 --> 00:54:34,062
-Thank you so much for coming.
-You're welcome.
844
00:54:34,233 --> 00:54:36,929
-Don't get shallow on me.
-l promise. Are you kidding me?
845
00:54:37,103 --> 00:54:39,503
-l'm sorry. l'll see you later.
-Nice to meet you.
846
00:54:39,672 --> 00:54:42,300
Call us when you get home.
Let us know you're okay.
847
00:54:47,480 --> 00:54:50,415
All right, all right, all right, come on.
848
00:54:50,583 --> 00:54:52,414
Come on, Syd.
849
00:54:53,185 --> 00:54:57,918
You gotta mellow out.
You gotta mellow out.
850
00:54:58,124 --> 00:55:01,355
You need a beer.
You need a bottle.
851
00:55:02,962 --> 00:55:04,623
Okay.
852
00:55:07,133 --> 00:55:09,624
Stop doing blow.
You gotta stop doing coke.
853
00:55:11,137 --> 00:55:15,130
Don't grind your teeth. lf she sees
you grind your teeth, you're fucked.
854
00:55:18,344 --> 00:55:20,778
Come on, Syd.
Mellow out, mellow out.
855
00:55:21,147 --> 00:55:23,081
Be a man. Be a man.
856
00:55:23,616 --> 00:55:25,982
There. Get a drink.
Go out there, get a drink.
857
00:55:26,152 --> 00:55:29,349
What's the worst that can happen?
What's the worst that can happen?
858
00:55:30,022 --> 00:55:32,013
l can see London. So what?
859
00:55:32,191 --> 00:55:35,285
Fuck. Fuck.
860
00:55:37,296 --> 00:55:40,493
Okay. You fuck up tonight, it's over.
861
00:55:52,678 --> 00:55:54,168
Okay.
862
00:56:04,023 --> 00:56:05,820
Come on.
863
00:56:07,526 --> 00:56:09,426
You know l do.
864
00:56:09,628 --> 00:56:12,688
Well, if you do, if you love me,
why don't you just say it?
865
00:56:12,865 --> 00:56:17,564
Why can't you just fucking say it?
Why is it so impossible for you?
866
00:56:17,737 --> 00:56:20,399
lt's-- lt's three words.
867
00:56:20,573 --> 00:56:24,270
lt's-- L-O-V-E Y--
lt's eight fucking letters.
868
00:56:24,443 --> 00:56:26,604
You can't say eight fucking letters?
869
00:56:26,779 --> 00:56:29,213
lt's not a lot of letters.
870
00:57:03,716 --> 00:57:05,547
Say it.
871
00:57:18,731 --> 00:57:21,757
Tell me you were not doing
cocaine in my parents' bathroom.
872
00:57:21,934 --> 00:57:24,402
-What are you talking about?
-Don't ''what are you talking about'' me.
873
00:57:24,570 --> 00:57:28,267
-l saw you go upstairs.
-Yeah, l went to the fucking bathroom.
874
00:57:28,441 --> 00:57:29,772
-Really?
-Yeah, l had to pee.
875
00:57:29,942 --> 00:57:32,775
Well, swear to God
you're not doing cocaine.
876
00:57:35,614 --> 00:57:37,479
Who the fuck is Bateman?
877
00:57:37,650 --> 00:57:40,278
That's his friend or some shit.
l don't know.
878
00:57:40,453 --> 00:57:42,080
He's hot.
879
00:57:42,254 --> 00:57:45,087
l think l want to have
hot coke sex with him.
880
00:57:45,257 --> 00:57:49,091
You fucking did cocaine!
Don't fuck with me. Are you?
881
00:57:49,261 --> 00:57:52,424
Yeah, man, he's hot.
l like guys with accents.
882
00:57:52,598 --> 00:57:54,623
Oh, my God.
883
00:57:55,801 --> 00:57:57,666
l gotta go.
884
00:58:03,008 --> 00:58:06,341
-So l met your girl, mate.
-What do you mean, you met her?
885
00:58:06,745 --> 00:58:10,442
Mallory, she introduced us.
886
00:58:10,782 --> 00:58:13,444
l didn't say l knew you.
l didn't wanna blow your cover.
887
00:58:13,952 --> 00:58:17,149
But, my God,
she is painfully gorgeous.
888
00:58:17,322 --> 00:58:18,653
Yeah, no shit.
889
00:58:18,824 --> 00:58:20,985
l'd go out there
and speak to her immediately.
890
00:58:21,159 --> 00:58:24,151
l can't go out there like this.
l'm not thinking right.
891
00:58:24,329 --> 00:58:27,196
lf she knows l'm on blow,
she won't even talk to me.
892
00:58:27,366 --> 00:58:30,392
Fuck! How do l look?
Do l look like l'm on blow?
893
00:58:30,569 --> 00:58:33,561
-No, you're fine.
-No, look at me. Look at my eyes.
894
00:58:37,642 --> 00:58:39,803
A bit, yeah.
895
00:58:40,912 --> 00:58:43,142
Come on. Drink some more booze.
You'll be fine.
896
00:58:43,348 --> 00:58:47,409
What was l thinking,
getting these tonight? So stupid, Syd.
897
00:58:47,586 --> 00:58:51,181
l just wanted to clear my head out.
Try and think a little bit clearer.
898
00:58:51,356 --> 00:58:54,723
Now l'm so fucking spun
l can't even think straight.
899
00:58:55,060 --> 00:58:57,756
-Fuck.
-Happens, mate.
900
00:58:57,929 --> 00:59:01,592
l've never been particularly social
on this shit, anyway.
901
00:59:01,800 --> 00:59:05,429
lt's a lonely, lonely drug.
902
00:59:06,171 --> 00:59:07,604
This is fucking crazy.
903
00:59:08,940 --> 00:59:10,430
l should bail. l can't do this.
904
00:59:10,609 --> 00:59:12,702
-Should l bail?
-You could.
905
00:59:14,679 --> 00:59:17,671
-l think you'd regret it.
-Why? Why do you say that?
906
00:59:17,849 --> 00:59:20,249
Personally, l'd rather
regret something l'd done...
907
00:59:20,419 --> 00:59:23,013
...than something
l was too afraid to do.
908
00:59:24,356 --> 00:59:26,381
No shit.
909
00:59:27,259 --> 00:59:29,921
But l haven't talked to this girl
in two fucking months.
910
00:59:30,095 --> 00:59:33,587
Everybody here hates me.
These are all her friends.
911
00:59:34,232 --> 00:59:40,137
lf l go out there, it is gonna get
fucking ugly. Fucking ugly.
912
00:59:48,280 --> 00:59:52,376
You'd think they'd have something to
take the edge off a chick leaving you.
913
00:59:52,551 --> 00:59:56,385
That'd be nice.
Look, they have this theory.
914
00:59:56,555 --> 00:59:58,284
Maybe it'll help. l don't know.
915
00:59:59,224 --> 01:00:02,159
Fuck knows where it comes from.
The broad strokes of it are...
916
01:00:02,360 --> 01:00:04,328
...that it takes a third of the time...
917
01:00:04,496 --> 01:00:08,057
...to recover from a relationship
as the relationship was long.
918
01:00:08,233 --> 01:00:11,259
So, for example,
if the relationship lasted a year...
919
01:00:11,436 --> 01:00:13,233
...you'll be good in four months.
920
01:00:13,405 --> 01:00:16,772
-Two years, you'll be clean in eight.
-lt's not a third, it's a half.
921
01:00:18,577 --> 01:00:22,172
-Mate, it's a third. Trust me.
-No, mate, it's a half.
922
01:00:22,380 --> 01:00:24,905
Maybe in England it's a third.
ln America it's a half.
923
01:00:25,083 --> 01:00:28,519
l dated her for two years. lt's been
six months and it's getting worse.
924
01:00:28,687 --> 01:00:32,817
Six months? Come on.
What are you complaining about?
925
01:00:32,991 --> 01:00:34,754
You've got two months to go.
926
01:00:34,926 --> 01:00:36,450
Good behavior, maybe a month.
927
01:00:36,761 --> 01:00:38,956
Bro, l appreciate the pep talk...
928
01:00:39,131 --> 01:00:41,827
...but if you haven't noticed,
l'm trying to get this girl back.
929
01:00:43,468 --> 01:00:47,097
Look, l don't know if first love
applies to that theory, anyway.
930
01:00:48,173 --> 01:00:52,769
lt's been years, l still have these
horribly lucid dreams about Helen.
931
01:00:52,944 --> 01:00:57,313
lt's almost like your brain is trying
to compensate for the absence.
932
01:00:58,016 --> 01:01:01,850
You know, you think you're
still married, you're still in love...
933
01:01:02,454 --> 01:01:05,116
...life's just beautiful.
934
01:01:05,290 --> 01:01:08,691
All of a sudden, you wake up, look
over and she's been gone for years.
935
01:01:08,860 --> 01:01:12,728
-Fucking horrendous.
-Yeah, no shit.
936
01:01:16,435 --> 01:01:18,630
So you were married before?
937
01:01:19,204 --> 01:01:21,172
How long ago?
938
01:01:21,340 --> 01:01:23,535
Divorced three years ago.
939
01:01:24,543 --> 01:01:28,206
-Who divorced who?
-lt's not that simple.
940
01:01:29,247 --> 01:01:31,340
Well, what happened?
Why did you guys split?
941
01:01:31,516 --> 01:01:36,215
-Long story, mate.
-Give me the abridged version.
942
01:01:36,388 --> 01:01:39,585
''The abridged version.''
Look, l don't know.
943
01:01:39,758 --> 01:01:43,057
The relationship just didn't work
on so many levels.
944
01:01:43,362 --> 01:01:45,728
We both had one foot out the door
for two years...
945
01:01:45,897 --> 01:01:48,263
...of our two-and-a-half-year
marriage.
946
01:01:49,000 --> 01:01:53,437
You know, but it's weird. You know,
when they tell you they're leaving...
947
01:01:53,605 --> 01:01:55,903
...it's like you don't even
feel the hollowness.
948
01:01:56,074 --> 01:01:57,939
lt's an emptiness
within an emptiness...
949
01:01:58,110 --> 01:02:00,874
...and you're left with
slightly less than nothing.
950
01:02:01,613 --> 01:02:06,209
The person you were when you met
doesn't exist anymore. You're gone.
951
01:02:08,854 --> 01:02:13,587
-So she left you?
-Syd, it's very fucking complicated.
952
01:02:14,292 --> 01:02:16,453
What happened?
Did you cheat on her?
953
01:02:16,628 --> 01:02:20,394
-No, no. lt's irrelevant.
-lrrelevant? How is it irrelevant?
954
01:02:20,565 --> 01:02:24,228
Besides money, infidelity's the most
relevant reason why people split up.
955
01:02:24,403 --> 01:02:26,303
Yeah, yeah. True, true.
956
01:02:26,938 --> 01:02:28,872
Come on, man.
l thought we were talking.
957
01:02:29,040 --> 01:02:32,032
Let's talk, let's talk.
Why did your wife leave you?
958
01:02:32,210 --> 01:02:34,906
Syd, it's not a pleasant scene
for me, please.
959
01:02:35,080 --> 01:02:37,742
Oh, my scene's pleasant?
960
01:02:38,016 --> 01:02:40,416
Mate, l've been 2 1 before.
l know your pain.
961
01:02:40,585 --> 01:02:43,418
But where you're pushing me now
is not a place you wanna go.
962
01:02:43,588 --> 01:02:46,716
Wait. Are you trying to say
that since you're older than me...
963
01:02:46,892 --> 01:02:49,156
-...your pain is somehow more?
-That's the case.
964
01:02:49,327 --> 01:02:50,658
Listen, first of all...
965
01:02:50,829 --> 01:02:53,957
...you don't have the slightest clue
what pain l've been through.
966
01:02:54,132 --> 01:02:56,123
Just since you're
a couple decades older...
967
01:02:56,301 --> 01:02:59,236
...doesn't mean that your pain is more
than mine. lt doesn't.
968
01:02:59,404 --> 01:03:01,304
Secondly, don't make
blind comparisons...
969
01:03:01,473 --> 01:03:04,101
...when you have no fucking clue
what you're comparing.
970
01:03:04,276 --> 01:03:08,804
You think having your heart broken
is pain? You think losing God is pain?
971
01:03:08,980 --> 01:03:11,505
Mate, l went through that trivial shit
when l was 20.
972
01:03:11,683 --> 01:03:13,981
l'm 40 now, mate.
973
01:03:14,252 --> 01:03:17,483
Where you're trying to push me now
is not a place you wanna go.
974
01:03:17,656 --> 01:03:22,184
So why don't you do yourself a favor,
and don't fucking go there with me.
975
01:03:23,929 --> 01:03:25,920
You're a fucking child.
You're just a kid.
976
01:03:26,097 --> 01:03:27,428
A kid?
977
01:03:27,599 --> 01:03:29,260
Listen, you pompous, limey fuck...
978
01:03:29,434 --> 01:03:32,835
...if you had one tenth my pain,
you'd be psychologically crippled.
979
01:03:33,004 --> 01:03:36,838
Mate, seriously, fuck off.
All we're doing is projecting shit here.
980
01:03:37,008 --> 01:03:39,636
Look, take a step back.
Let's relax, shall we?
981
01:03:39,811 --> 01:03:43,178
-Do a bit of gear. Come on.
-Fuck the gear. l don't want that shit.
982
01:03:45,484 --> 01:03:47,714
-More for me.
-lt's Bateman, right?
983
01:03:47,886 --> 01:03:50,719
-Nice to see your memory is still intact.
-Well, Bateman...
984
01:03:50,889 --> 01:03:55,121
...let me give you a glimpse into
my life, insight into my fucking pain.
985
01:03:55,293 --> 01:03:58,729
-Mate, it's not necessary. Truly.
-No, it is necessary.
986
01:03:58,897 --> 01:04:02,162
And if you didn't think it was,
you wouldn't have pushed my buttons.
987
01:04:02,334 --> 01:04:04,495
But you did.
And if you don't wanna hear it...
988
01:04:04,669 --> 01:04:07,638
...stop snorting my shit
and get the fuck out of the bathroom.
989
01:04:07,873 --> 01:04:11,570
Technically, it's my shit,
but l can see you're passionate, so go.
990
01:04:11,743 --> 01:04:13,904
So this fucker...
991
01:04:14,112 --> 01:04:18,048
...this fucking guy out in L.A.,
who my chick is now in love with...
992
01:04:18,216 --> 01:04:21,014
...he's, you know, endowed.
993
01:04:21,186 --> 01:04:24,246
-She told you that?
-Yeah. So l needed to know how big.
994
01:04:24,422 --> 01:04:26,720
Not that l give a fuck
about another guy's dick.
995
01:04:26,892 --> 01:04:29,554
lt's one of those things
you feel like you need to know.
996
01:04:29,728 --> 01:04:31,923
So we're in an argument,
and l was pushing her.
997
01:04:32,130 --> 01:04:33,427
l was like, ''How big is he?''
998
01:04:33,632 --> 01:04:37,398
She was like, ''Let's not make an issue
out of it.'' And l said, ''No, fuck that.''
999
01:04:37,569 --> 01:04:40,868
And she says,
''Ten and a half inches.''
1000
01:04:41,039 --> 01:04:43,564
-Jesus.
-Yeah, you believe that shit?
1001
01:04:43,742 --> 01:04:46,404
She could have at least
rounded it down.
1002
01:04:46,578 --> 01:04:49,513
-The girl's trying to hurt you, mate.
-Yeah, no shit.
1003
01:04:49,681 --> 01:04:53,549
But it really fucked with me, you know.
Knowing that this guy is in L.A...
1004
01:04:53,718 --> 01:04:57,051
...with the only woman l love,
fucking her with 1 0 and a half inches.
1005
01:04:57,222 --> 01:05:01,352
l'm chasing her around like a puppy,
doing anything l can to get her back.
1006
01:05:01,693 --> 01:05:05,686
And it crushed me!
lt still fucking crushes me!
1007
01:05:09,768 --> 01:05:11,599
Sorry, mate.
1008
01:05:13,104 --> 01:05:16,039
-How exactly do you deal with that?
-You don't deal with it.
1009
01:05:16,207 --> 01:05:18,198
lt deals with you.
1010
01:05:19,911 --> 01:05:23,312
God, it eats at you
and it eats at you, you know?
1011
01:05:24,482 --> 01:05:27,940
We'd get in these fights,
and l'd say the most horrible things.
1012
01:05:28,253 --> 01:05:31,984
l'd be like, ''You just want a fat cock
in your fat snatch, you fucking whore.''
1013
01:05:32,190 --> 01:05:34,556
You know, l'd--
Just mean, horrible things.
1014
01:05:34,726 --> 01:05:37,456
l'd be so fucking angry, you know?
1015
01:05:40,465 --> 01:05:44,492
l used to say the same shit, mate. l
used to say the most horrendous shit.
1016
01:05:44,703 --> 01:05:46,762
Why? What'd she do?
1017
01:05:49,708 --> 01:05:51,733
She didn't really do anything.
1018
01:05:51,910 --> 01:05:55,004
You know, l imagine that
a lot of it had to do with me.
1019
01:05:55,213 --> 01:05:58,011
A lot of it had to with my hang-ups
and depression and shit.
1020
01:05:58,216 --> 01:06:02,915
But, my God, l used to say the worst
shit to her. l tormented that girl.
1021
01:06:03,088 --> 01:06:06,353
l lived with her for three and a half
fucking years and l hated her.
1022
01:06:06,524 --> 01:06:07,855
So, what was the final snap?
1023
01:06:08,026 --> 01:06:10,586
Did you cheat on her?
Did she cheat on you?
1024
01:06:10,762 --> 01:06:12,093
No, no. God, no.
1025
01:06:12,263 --> 01:06:15,255
-How do you know?
-Because l didn't, you know? l didn't.
1026
01:06:15,433 --> 01:06:18,960
-How do you know she didn't?
-l know she didn't. lt wasn't her thing.
1027
01:06:19,137 --> 01:06:20,468
How do you know?
1028
01:06:20,639 --> 01:06:23,130
l was with the most beautiful girl
in the universe.
1029
01:06:23,308 --> 01:06:25,970
She didn't fuck me
for two fucking years!
1030
01:06:26,144 --> 01:06:27,941
-Why?
-l don't know.
1031
01:06:28,113 --> 01:06:30,638
Because we fought. l was in therapy.
1032
01:06:30,815 --> 01:06:34,182
l don't-- l don't-- Look, l don't know.
1033
01:06:36,621 --> 01:06:38,646
lf you wanna know it is, l'll tell you.
1034
01:06:38,823 --> 01:06:40,984
You remember sentences
that people say to you.
1035
01:06:41,159 --> 01:06:44,651
They stick in your mind like gunshot
wounds that never fucking heal.
1036
01:06:46,164 --> 01:06:49,190
l remember what my ex-wife
said to me when we started dating.
1037
01:06:49,367 --> 01:06:53,895
She said, ''l love it when a guy
fucks me four, five times a night.''
1038
01:06:54,072 --> 01:06:56,973
-Four, five times a night?
-Yeah. Truly.
1039
01:06:57,142 --> 01:06:58,769
l was like, ''You was with some guy...
1040
01:06:58,943 --> 01:07:02,037
...who fucked you
four, five times a night?''
1041
01:07:03,148 --> 01:07:05,216
-You wanna know what pain is?
-What?
1042
01:07:05,216 --> 01:07:07,185
-l'll tell you what pain is, you fuck.
-Why you calling me a fuck?
1043
01:07:07,185 --> 01:07:08,413
-l'll tell you what pain is, you fuck.
-Why you calling me a fuck?
1044
01:07:08,586 --> 01:07:10,918
Because, my friend,
you brought me here...
1045
01:07:11,088 --> 01:07:14,421
...and l didn't particularly
wanna go here, but now l am.
1046
01:07:14,592 --> 01:07:16,753
lf you don't wanna go
where l'm about to go...
1047
01:07:16,928 --> 01:07:19,829
...then tell me right now
and l'll walk out the door...
1048
01:07:19,997 --> 01:07:22,864
...l'll phone my therapist
and that will be it, okay?
1049
01:07:23,034 --> 01:07:26,003
No, fuck that, l wanna hear this.
You're not going anywhere.
1050
01:07:26,170 --> 01:07:29,264
-You wanna know what it is?
-Yes, l wanna know what it is.
1051
01:07:29,440 --> 01:07:32,841
Motherfucker, you wanna know
what it is? Pain, my friend...
1052
01:07:33,010 --> 01:07:35,740
...is when the woman you love
wants to fuck you...
1053
01:07:35,913 --> 01:07:38,609
...four, five times a night,
and you can't!
1054
01:07:38,816 --> 01:07:42,377
-Why?
-Why? Why?
1055
01:07:42,553 --> 01:07:45,716
l'll tell you why.
Because l'm an impotent man!
1056
01:07:45,890 --> 01:07:48,950
Motherfucker, that's pain!
1057
01:07:49,126 --> 01:07:51,287
That's fucking pain!
1058
01:07:51,462 --> 01:07:54,625
When your wife wants
to fuck you four times a night...
1059
01:07:54,832 --> 01:07:56,459
...and you fucking can't!
1060
01:07:56,634 --> 01:07:58,625
You know that some fucker
before you could.
1061
01:07:58,836 --> 01:08:03,239
And you know that some fucker
after you will!
1062
01:08:05,343 --> 01:08:07,868
Well, l couldn't
cope with that, could l?
1063
01:08:08,045 --> 01:08:10,309
That sense of ruination...
1064
01:08:10,481 --> 01:08:13,416
...that insolvency
that burns in your soul.
1065
01:08:13,584 --> 01:08:15,779
l couldn't fuck my wife!
1066
01:08:15,953 --> 01:08:17,978
Do know what
that fucking means, mate?
1067
01:08:18,155 --> 01:08:22,251
Do you understand
what impotent rage really is?!
1068
01:08:22,426 --> 01:08:25,259
-l'm sorry.
-You have no fucking idea, mate!
1069
01:08:28,466 --> 01:08:30,730
-l'm sorry.
-Oh, you're sorry?
1070
01:08:30,901 --> 01:08:32,266
Oh, you're sorry, are you?
1071
01:08:33,271 --> 01:08:37,571
You dare, you fucking dare
ask me if there's a God?
1072
01:08:37,742 --> 01:08:42,839
Well, man, l feel forsaken.
l feel cheated, you cunt!
1073
01:08:43,014 --> 01:08:49,180
l've lost in the big game,
and nothing else fucking matters.
1074
01:08:49,387 --> 01:08:53,187
lt doesn't matter what you do.
lf you can't hack it in the sack, mate...
1075
01:08:53,391 --> 01:08:56,656
...if you can't hack it
in the game of love and sex...
1076
01:08:56,827 --> 01:08:58,454
...you are shit, my friend.
1077
01:08:58,829 --> 01:09:03,289
Because you can't do what the other
man can do to your fucking wife, mate!
1078
01:09:10,341 --> 01:09:12,036
l know what you mean.
1079
01:09:12,209 --> 01:09:15,645
No, motherfucker,
you do not know what l mean!
1080
01:09:15,980 --> 01:09:20,314
You couldn't possibly know
what the fuck l mean!
1081
01:09:25,356 --> 01:09:27,449
l failed.
1082
01:09:27,625 --> 01:09:30,059
l fucking failed, mate.
1083
01:09:31,996 --> 01:09:35,625
And l'm still failing
every fucking day of my life!
1084
01:09:35,800 --> 01:09:37,927
Every day.
1085
01:09:40,037 --> 01:09:42,505
Every fucking day.
1086
01:09:57,388 --> 01:09:58,855
You know....
1087
01:09:59,190 --> 01:10:01,488
Thought you were gonna
clock me for a minute.
1088
01:10:01,692 --> 01:10:04,820
l wasn't gonna hit you.
l'm projecting.
1089
01:10:04,995 --> 01:10:08,522
You should see my group therapy
sessions. They're fucking psychotic.
1090
01:10:09,100 --> 01:10:11,034
Yeah, l'll bet.
1091
01:10:11,235 --> 01:10:15,672
Mate, do yourself a favor,
please, for me.
1092
01:10:15,840 --> 01:10:18,001
Go and talk to your chick.
1093
01:10:19,043 --> 01:10:22,206
l can't. To be honest, l'm thinking
about making for the elevator.
1094
01:10:22,380 --> 01:10:25,508
l can't go out like this.
She doesn't even want me here.
1095
01:10:26,083 --> 01:10:28,711
Look, l hate to break it to you, mate...
1096
01:10:29,220 --> 01:10:31,586
...but by now
she knows you're here...
1097
01:10:31,756 --> 01:10:34,247
...and, unfortunately,
time is not on your side.
1098
01:10:34,425 --> 01:10:37,394
What are you gonna do,
wait outside like a fucking stalker?
1099
01:10:37,561 --> 01:10:39,529
Wouldn't be the first time.
1100
01:10:41,265 --> 01:10:45,201
-Go, man, go. Come on.
-No, l can't, l can't, l can't.
1101
01:10:45,603 --> 01:10:47,935
Listen to me. God.
1102
01:10:48,439 --> 01:10:51,374
Listen to me, you might not have
a 1 0-and-a-half-inch cock...
1103
01:10:51,542 --> 01:10:53,601
...but at least you can still fuck her.
1104
01:10:53,778 --> 01:10:56,246
So quit worrying about
all the bullshit.
1105
01:10:57,948 --> 01:11:00,439
The fact is, she's here, you're here.
1106
01:11:00,618 --> 01:11:04,520
Life's too short
to be a pussy, mate. Truly.
1107
01:11:07,224 --> 01:11:08,748
Come on.
1108
01:11:37,921 --> 01:11:41,618
l think l would love to do that. l don't
really know a lot of people there.
1109
01:11:41,792 --> 01:11:44,693
Not a whole lot going on in L.A.,
but we'll find something.
1110
01:11:44,862 --> 01:11:47,626
Hey, London.
Could l talk to you for a second?
1111
01:11:47,798 --> 01:11:49,459
Yeah. What is it?
What do you want?
1112
01:11:53,337 --> 01:11:56,500
l wanna know if we can go somewhere
and talk for a second, please.
1113
01:11:58,642 --> 01:12:01,475
You don't wanna talk here?
We can't just talk right here?
1114
01:12:02,679 --> 01:12:04,010
Please.
1115
01:12:04,181 --> 01:12:06,479
Syd,
A, this is my going-away party...
1116
01:12:06,650 --> 01:12:10,313
...and l think it would be pretty uncool
to the people who threw it for me...
1117
01:12:10,487 --> 01:12:13,320
...if l left just because
you wanted to talk.
1118
01:12:13,490 --> 01:12:16,186
And, B, l don't know
if you noticed...
1119
01:12:16,393 --> 01:12:19,294
...but we were kind of
in the middle of a conversation...
1120
01:12:19,463 --> 01:12:21,328
...so l don't know what to tell you.
1121
01:12:24,635 --> 01:12:28,469
Listen, l'm gonna grab another drink.
Can l--? Can l get you something?
1122
01:12:30,040 --> 01:12:31,530
Actually, yeah.
1123
01:12:31,708 --> 01:12:34,142
l'd love something.
Something strong.
1124
01:12:34,311 --> 01:12:35,869
-Fuck me up.
-All right.
1125
01:12:37,614 --> 01:12:40,640
What about you, bruiser?
What are you drinking?
1126
01:12:42,719 --> 01:12:44,812
ls that a bottle of cockblocker?
1127
01:12:54,865 --> 01:12:56,492
So....
1128
01:12:56,867 --> 01:13:00,098
l heard you've been snorting drugs
all night. Really productive.
1129
01:13:00,270 --> 01:13:02,670
l heard you told people
l tried to kill myself.
1130
01:13:02,839 --> 01:13:05,706
That's really fucking great of you.
l really appreciate it.
1131
01:13:05,876 --> 01:13:08,367
Who the fuck told you that?
l would never say that.
1132
01:13:08,545 --> 01:13:10,877
-You know that.
-The fact is, l have known you...
1133
01:13:11,048 --> 01:13:13,710
...since you were 1 0.
We have been through everything.
1134
01:13:13,884 --> 01:13:15,784
And you don't have
the decency to call--
1135
01:13:16,019 --> 01:13:18,544
-Please keep your voice down?
-What the fuck is that?!
1136
01:13:18,755 --> 01:13:21,553
-You wanna talk? Fine, let's go.
-Get the fuck off me.
1137
01:13:22,693 --> 01:13:24,593
l'm sorry, excuse me.
1138
01:13:25,562 --> 01:13:27,621
-l'm sorry, excuse me. l'm sorry.
-What?
1139
01:13:28,365 --> 01:13:30,595
-London, are you okay?
-Yeah.
1140
01:13:30,767 --> 01:13:32,894
We're just gonna--
We're gonna go and talk.
1141
01:13:33,070 --> 01:13:36,733
Yeah? Because if you want, l'll call
security and have him taken out.
1142
01:13:36,907 --> 01:13:39,569
Becca, could you do me a favor?
Stay out of this?
1143
01:13:39,776 --> 01:13:43,542
You've been doing coke in the
bathroom all night so don't tell me...
1144
01:13:43,713 --> 01:13:46,204
...what l can and can't do
in my own fucking house...
1145
01:13:46,383 --> 01:13:48,442
...considering you
weren't even invited.
1146
01:13:48,685 --> 01:13:51,245
lt's cool, Bec. We're gonna go.
lt's gonna be fine.
1147
01:13:51,421 --> 01:13:54,481
lt's not cool, London.
Baby, he wasn't invited.
1148
01:13:54,691 --> 01:13:56,784
You didn't want him here,
l didn't want him.
1149
01:13:56,960 --> 01:13:59,554
-No one wants him here.
-Becca, can you relax? Please?
1150
01:13:59,729 --> 01:14:02,721
-Don't tell me to relax.
-Why can't you relax for two seconds?
1151
01:14:02,899 --> 01:14:05,561
-We're leaving.
-You're shouting at my fucking party.
1152
01:14:05,735 --> 01:14:08,169
Also you're psychotic.
You couldn't take a hint...
1153
01:14:08,338 --> 01:14:11,501
...if it smashed you in the face.
She doesn't want to be with you.
1154
01:14:11,708 --> 01:14:14,006
-Not even 20 seconds.
-We're leaving. Let's go.
1155
01:14:14,211 --> 01:14:16,475
-Bec, we're leaving. l'm sorry.
-You know what?
1156
01:14:16,646 --> 01:14:19,638
l'm sorry, London, and l'm not
trying to be a bitch here...
1157
01:14:19,816 --> 01:14:22,148
...but when you come back,
you come back alone.
1158
01:14:22,319 --> 01:14:25,083
l don't want you
in my house again, all right?
1159
01:14:25,288 --> 01:14:26,619
Or l will call the cops.
1160
01:14:26,790 --> 01:14:29,657
Becca, l'm really trying
to be calm here, all right?
1161
01:14:29,860 --> 01:14:32,988
Fuck off. l'm so tired of you
and your psycho fucking shit.
1162
01:14:33,230 --> 01:14:34,629
You wanna talk about psycho?
1163
01:14:34,798 --> 01:14:37,266
-Let's talk about your fucked-up life.
-Stop it.
1164
01:14:37,534 --> 01:14:40,697
-Fuck you!
-Fuck this! You wanna fuck with me?
1165
01:14:40,871 --> 01:14:43,635
You wanna fuck with me?
Let's do it right fucking now.
1166
01:14:44,875 --> 01:14:46,968
Why don't you fuck off, alrighty?
1167
01:14:47,144 --> 01:14:49,339
You weren't even invited to this.
1168
01:14:49,513 --> 01:14:53,176
-You wanna fuck with me?
-Stop it. We're leaving right now!
1169
01:14:54,384 --> 01:14:57,114
How many friends did you fuck
freshman year? Fifteen, 20?
1170
01:14:57,287 --> 01:15:00,450
l think l lost count. Was it
the whole fucking pledge class?
1171
01:15:00,657 --> 01:15:02,648
Jay, you never really know
your girlfriend.
1172
01:15:02,826 --> 01:15:04,623
lsn't that a total mind-fuck?
1173
01:15:04,861 --> 01:15:06,692
You're a fucking bastard!
1174
01:15:07,397 --> 01:15:10,855
You fucking wanker! Get the fuck
out of my fucking house!
1175
01:15:12,335 --> 01:15:13,666
Hey!
1176
01:15:13,870 --> 01:15:15,701
-Fuck you.
-Come on, then!
1177
01:15:15,906 --> 01:15:18,670
Fucking prick.
You want some, you fucking slag?
1178
01:15:23,413 --> 01:15:24,812
Hey, Syd!
1179
01:15:27,384 --> 01:15:30,581
Here, you cunt.
Have some of that, you fuck.
1180
01:15:30,787 --> 01:15:32,186
Fuck off. Come on, then.
1181
01:15:39,062 --> 01:15:40,689
Hey, Syd!
1182
01:15:44,801 --> 01:15:46,928
Get off, you fucking asshole.
1183
01:15:47,170 --> 01:15:50,003
You fucker. Get the fuck off him.
1184
01:15:50,173 --> 01:15:52,038
Come on.
1185
01:15:52,375 --> 01:15:54,036
Wait a minute, l gotta get Bateman.
1186
01:15:54,211 --> 01:15:57,305
What? Who the fuck is Bateman?
1187
01:15:58,448 --> 01:16:01,940
Come on, you cunts!
You want some, do you? Do you?
1188
01:16:02,118 --> 01:16:04,814
Let's go, Bateman. Come on.
1189
01:16:07,624 --> 01:16:10,286
-My coat. My Burberry coat.
-Fuck it, leave the jacket.
1190
01:16:10,460 --> 01:16:12,587
-l've had it 1 0 fucking years.
-l'll get it.
1191
01:16:12,762 --> 01:16:15,356
-Are you fucking crazy?
-We'll be downstairs.
1192
01:16:15,532 --> 01:16:17,557
Guy's fucking nuts.
1193
01:16:19,202 --> 01:16:20,794
-You're bleeding.
-l am so sorry.
1194
01:16:20,971 --> 01:16:22,905
-Where?
-This is fucking insane.
1195
01:16:23,073 --> 01:16:25,098
-You are insane.
-l am so sorry.
1196
01:16:25,275 --> 01:16:27,106
lf you wanna go back, l understand.
1197
01:16:27,277 --> 01:16:30,906
-You don't wanna talk?
-Yeah, l wanna talk. l mean....
1198
01:16:31,081 --> 01:16:33,481
Well, where?
Where do you wanna go?
1199
01:16:33,717 --> 01:16:35,981
My car's two blocks away
if you want coffee.
1200
01:16:36,152 --> 01:16:39,121
-Yeah, okay.
-All right. Okay.
1201
01:16:56,172 --> 01:16:59,733
Look, you're probably not
gonna believe this at all...
1202
01:17:01,277 --> 01:17:05,236
...but l was kind of glad
when l heard you were at the party.
1203
01:17:13,823 --> 01:17:16,121
Ever since you and l broke up,
l've wanted...
1204
01:17:16,292 --> 01:17:20,695
...to have a normal conversation,
just a normal conversation with you.
1205
01:17:20,896 --> 01:17:25,265
And l just feel like every time
l see you, it just gets so, like....
1206
01:17:25,434 --> 01:17:29,530
Like, weird and chaotic and scrambled,
and l can't organize my thoughts...
1207
01:17:29,705 --> 01:17:33,607
...and l can't even express the most
basic things l want to say to you.
1208
01:17:33,776 --> 01:17:36,472
l know. Me too.
1209
01:17:38,614 --> 01:17:41,549
Whatever we had when we were
together, when we were in love...
1210
01:17:41,717 --> 01:17:46,882
...that feeling of just being able to lie in
bed with someone for days and days...
1211
01:17:47,056 --> 01:17:50,025
...and not give a fuck
about the outside world...
1212
01:17:52,662 --> 01:17:55,130
...is gone.
1213
01:17:55,665 --> 01:17:59,123
And l feel like there's nothing
l can do to ever get it back.
1214
01:17:59,835 --> 01:18:02,326
Do you know how painful that is?
1215
01:18:02,972 --> 01:18:04,872
Yeah. Yeah, l do.
1216
01:18:05,041 --> 01:18:07,066
l cried for weeks when we broke up.
1217
01:18:07,710 --> 01:18:09,405
You cried for weeks?
1218
01:18:09,578 --> 01:18:10,943
Yes.
1219
01:18:11,147 --> 01:18:15,311
The hardest thing
l've ever dealt with in my life.
1220
01:18:18,487 --> 01:18:20,751
How long did you go through that?
1221
01:18:22,024 --> 01:18:25,551
A long time. A long time.
1222
01:18:26,228 --> 01:18:30,824
l mean, the first month,
it was so fucking bad. And then...
1223
01:18:31,567 --> 01:18:35,401
...you know, slowly, it gets better.
1224
01:18:37,039 --> 01:18:40,372
That's the difference
between you and me, London.
1225
01:18:43,512 --> 01:18:45,002
l'm still going through it.
1226
01:18:48,851 --> 01:18:53,083
l tried to call you
a dozen times today.
1227
01:18:53,689 --> 01:18:56,351
l'm terrified. l'm-- l'm afraid.
1228
01:18:56,525 --> 01:18:58,254
Of what? What are you afraid of?
1229
01:18:58,427 --> 01:19:01,692
l'm afraid of falling in love
with you again.
1230
01:19:15,444 --> 01:19:17,742
-Sorry, Syd.
-Yeah, yeah, yeah.
1231
01:19:18,714 --> 01:19:20,944
Yeah, man, you fucked
your eye up.
1232
01:19:21,150 --> 01:19:23,710
Yeah, great party, mate.
1233
01:19:23,886 --> 01:19:25,979
lt was fucking insane.
1234
01:19:26,155 --> 01:19:29,716
-But good chat, seriously.
-Definitely.
1235
01:19:29,892 --> 01:19:32,918
You know, they say the greatest
conversation you'll ever have...
1236
01:19:33,095 --> 01:19:35,655
-...is with a stranger?
-Who says that?
1237
01:19:35,831 --> 01:19:37,230
Some useless cunt.
1238
01:19:39,068 --> 01:19:41,127
You guys need a ride?
We can go uptown.
1239
01:19:41,604 --> 01:19:43,799
Me and Mallory....
1240
01:19:45,608 --> 01:19:48,441
Don't know. We're gonna
catch a late drink...
1241
01:19:48,611 --> 01:19:52,445
...cup of tea, something or other.
1242
01:19:52,615 --> 01:19:54,549
Raise the flag, perhaps.
1243
01:19:54,750 --> 01:19:57,651
Good luck. Thank you.
1244
01:19:58,053 --> 01:20:00,419
That's it. Thank you, mate. Truly.
1245
01:20:07,997 --> 01:20:10,864
London, lovely name, darling.
1246
01:20:11,066 --> 01:20:12,363
-Thanks.
-Nice to meet you.
1247
01:20:12,568 --> 01:20:14,468
-Have a safe flight.
-Nice to meet you.
1248
01:20:14,870 --> 01:20:16,599
-Come by the bar, all right?
-l will.
1249
01:20:16,772 --> 01:20:19,206
London, call me. Have a safe flight.
1250
01:20:19,375 --> 01:20:21,104
We're gonna catch a little drink.
1251
01:20:21,277 --> 01:20:23,006
All right.
1252
01:20:39,228 --> 01:20:41,355
Can l ask you something?
1253
01:20:44,667 --> 01:20:46,362
Yeah.
1254
01:20:47,203 --> 01:20:48,966
You do love him?
1255
01:20:51,407 --> 01:20:53,238
l never said l was in love with him.
1256
01:20:56,145 --> 01:20:57,544
Listen, Syd.
1257
01:21:00,115 --> 01:21:02,083
lt's gonna be a really,
really long time...
1258
01:21:02,251 --> 01:21:05,084
...before, you know,
l fall in love with anybody...
1259
01:21:05,254 --> 01:21:07,552
...the way that l was in love with you.
1260
01:22:15,090 --> 01:22:17,183
What time is it?
1261
01:22:20,429 --> 01:22:23,660
lt's like 6:30.
1262
01:22:23,832 --> 01:22:25,891
Six-thirty? Fuck. Shit.
1263
01:22:26,068 --> 01:22:30,562
My plane leaves in like an hour.
Shit. Shit. Shit.
1264
01:23:33,502 --> 01:23:35,663
l will see you again.
1265
01:23:37,205 --> 01:23:39,070
l promise.
1266
01:23:42,344 --> 01:23:44,812
l'm gonna miss you so much.
1267
01:23:46,682 --> 01:23:49,014
l'm gonna miss you too.
1268
01:23:54,823 --> 01:23:56,882
l gotta go.
1269
01:24:09,671 --> 01:24:11,298
Sorry.
1270
01:24:15,110 --> 01:24:16,737
-Hello.
-Hi.
1271
01:24:16,912 --> 01:24:20,075
Sorry, l am-- l'm just really late.
1272
01:24:20,248 --> 01:24:23,081
-l don't even know my flight number.
-That's all right.
1273
01:24:23,251 --> 01:24:25,344
Just for one second, okay?
1274
01:24:27,556 --> 01:24:30,286
-Here's my lD.
-Thank you.
1275
01:24:30,459 --> 01:24:33,860
Just give me a few minutes
while l look for your information.
1276
01:24:35,430 --> 01:24:37,421
Okay. Bye.
1277
01:24:37,599 --> 01:24:39,567
Goodbye.
1278
01:25:00,088 --> 01:25:01,453
Bye.
1279
01:25:01,623 --> 01:25:03,284
Bye.
1280
01:25:03,959 --> 01:25:06,894
Okay, miss,
l have your flight information.
1281
01:25:07,062 --> 01:25:08,654
Sorry.
1282
01:25:08,997 --> 01:25:12,558
l think l might have missed my plane.
Can you make sure l'll be all right?
1283
01:25:12,734 --> 01:25:14,361
London?
1284
01:25:15,771 --> 01:25:17,398
l love you.
1285
01:25:21,810 --> 01:25:25,371
-Can you give me a second, please?
-Sure. No problem.
1286
01:25:39,494 --> 01:25:42,429
That's the first time you said it first.
1287
01:26:15,797 --> 01:26:18,493
-Here you go. You're all set.
-Sorry.
1288
01:26:18,667 --> 01:26:20,225
Okay.
1289
01:26:20,435 --> 01:26:22,198
-So l'm set? Great.
-Yeah.
1290
01:26:22,370 --> 01:26:24,702
-Here's your ticket.
-Thank you.
1291
01:26:24,873 --> 01:26:27,865
-l'm not really sure where to go.
-Gate 35. Upstairs.
1292
01:26:28,043 --> 01:26:30,671
Thank you and have a great flight.