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Jared.
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Why are you upset, honey?
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I want my jersey.
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- Well, it's because it's dirty.
- I want it.
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You know, today is
your first day of school.
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What?
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You like to play
something in particular?
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- Uh, soccer!
- You like to play soccer. And?
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And basketball!
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What's your favorite color?
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Uh...
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Uh, blue and yellow.
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- Blue...
- And yellow.
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- and... yellow.
- Yellow.
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What would you like to be
when you grow up?
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Motorcycle driver!
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Bye! Hi!
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Jared?
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You should come down
for breakfast.
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I wish none of this
had ever happened.
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But sometimes
I thank God that it did.
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Just repeat after me.
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Let your light shine.
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Let your light shine.
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Now, let me see a show of hands
of those of you
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in this room who are imperfect.
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Everybody.
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That's right.
And a show of hands
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for everybody in this room
who is perfect.
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- Nobody.
- Amen.
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I am blessed
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with a beautiful
and deeply soulful wife,
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and with a fine...
upstanding...
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...and honest son.
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I'm a lucky man,
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and I'm grateful
for those blessings.
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Please don't do that.
You know that makes me nervous.
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What if a truck comes along
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- and hits your arm?
- It's never gonna happen.
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It's happened before.
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It has. It has.
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Morning.
Welcome to Love in Action.
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Hi.
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- Name?
- Uh, Nancy Eamons.
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Oh, um... the boy, I mean.
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- Unless you're the one checking in.
- Oh.
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- Jared Eamons.
- Jared Eamons.
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Jared. Got you right here.
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Great.
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Do you want to say
your good-byes?
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- Can I see the place?
- I'm afraid you won't be allowed
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- beyond the reception area, Mrs. Eamons.
- Oh.
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- But you can pick him up at 5:00 p.m.
- Okay.
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- It's okay, Mom.
- Mm.
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Well, call me anytime.
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I'll be at the hotel
on my cell phone.
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Uh, we will be holding
his cell phone.
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If there are any emergencies,
we will contact you,
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but otherwise, 5:00 p.m.
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Mm.
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You'll do great.
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Love you.
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Newbie. Eamons.
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Empty your pockets.
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Do you have
any numbers or photos
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we should be concerned about?
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We'll check it daily
and call any number at random,
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so you best be straight
with us on that.
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There's nothing. And, yeah,
call whatever numbers,
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if you need to.
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"Sobriety...
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no smoking,
no alcohol or drugs."
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"Off hours...
all clients to remain
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within a safe zone area
as designated."
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"Attire...
women's skirts must extend
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below the knee, and bras are
to be worn at all times."
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What's that?
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Oh, it-it's, um, I...
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I write, I write stories.
Uh, I'm studying it at college.
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No journaling.
We're gonna have to read that.
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"Confidentiality...
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"all m-matters
discussed in therapy
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are to remain private."
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"Restrooms... members
must be supervised by staff
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during restroom visits."
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- Your handbook.
- Oh. Yeah.
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- Good luck.
- Thank you.
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"No viewing
of pornographic material,
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"no masturbation,
no physical contact
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"with any member at any time
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apart from the briefest
of handshakes."
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Michael for Aaron.
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How many clients
are we expecting today?
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Copy, Michael. Hold, please.
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Uh, just one second, Jared.
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We should have 11 today.
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Well, we have
more in the lobby.
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It's okay. We should
have another five minutes.
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- All right.
- Copy.
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Jared, if you just want to go
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find yourself a seat and, uh,
make yourself comfortable.
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We'll get started soon.
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- Hi.
- Hi.
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- Morning.
- Hi.
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"...sinful, salacious,
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"and extraneous materials.
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"All reading material
and films and television
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are off limits
while inside the program."
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I am using sexual sin
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and homosexuality
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to fill a God-shaped void
in my life.
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I am using sexual sin
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and homosexuality to fill
a God-shaped void in my life.
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But I am not broken,
and God loves me.
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But I am not broken,
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- and God loves me.
- Good. That is very true.
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Now, somebody tell me
what this is.
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Dollar.
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A dollar.
Now, no matter how much
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you crumple up a dollar bill...
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you can never take away
its value.
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Now, even if you were
to rip it...
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which would represent
our being severed from Christ...
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well, guess what?
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You can always
tape it back together.
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Jesus puts us back together.
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And even though
there is a scar,
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our value does not change.
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- You are somebody.
- Sorry.
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You are worth something.
That's okay, Jon. Sit down.
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And that is a fact.
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Don't spend it
all at once, Phillip.
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Now, this may be the toughest
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but most rewarding 12 days that
many of you will ever face.
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But we have just one task:
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to bring ourselves back to God.
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To invite him back in.
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To understand how
he truly meant to create us
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before all those pieces
got torn away.
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Now, look, I know
the road here wasn't easy
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for many of you.
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But I promise a smoother ride
now that you're here,
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because we are about to go
on an amazing journey together.
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So who's ready?
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That was a question.
Who's ready? Say "amen."
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- Amen.
- Amen.
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If you know you're worth
a dollar, say "amen."
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Amen.
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Welcome to the Refuge program!
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Come on!
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That's right, great souls!
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Great!
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Now, I'm gonna tell you
something that's
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gonna make you immediately
feel a little better.
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People tell you you can be
born gay; that's not true.
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You cannot be born
a homosexual; this is a lie.
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Now, I'm a counselor
and a pastor,
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but was I born that way?
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No.
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It's behavioral. It's a choice.
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Cameron, you-you, uh,
play football?
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- Yeah?
- Yeah.
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Were you born that way?
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- No.
- No.
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Now, you chose to be
a football player, right?
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It's behavior.
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Now, if you... if Cameron
stops playing football,
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he no longer is
a football player.
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We got to learn for ourselves
where behavior comes from,
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so we can cut it out,
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and then we can no longer
be labeled that way.
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Now, who could tell us
what a genogram is?
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Phillip.
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Well, a genogram's
like a family tree,
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only one that shows patterns
of family behavior as well.
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Sort of like
an illustrated one.
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Yes. Now, we are going to draw
our family tree,
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and we're gonna list
next to these people
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their behavioral sin.
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So, they made us...
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and they labeled us,
so we're gonna label them.
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Michael, can you read
the behavioral sins?
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We use the letters "SSA" or "H"
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to label same sex attraction
or homosexuality.
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"D" for drugs.
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A dollar sign for gambling.
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"A," alcoholism.
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"P," promiscuity.
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"M," mental illness.
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Capital "A" lowercase "B"
for abortion.
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Capital "P" lowercase "O"
for pornography.
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And "C" or "G,"
criminal or gang affiliation.
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Forgetting "DV,"
domestic violence.
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Capital "D" lowercase
"V," domestic violence.
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Okay, guys,
let's dive right in.
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Let's grab some cards
and some markers.
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I want you to write 'em down...
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and put the letters
next to their name.
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I know they're family,
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but I can guarantee that one
or some of these people
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are the reason that
you're at Love in Action.
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So, Jared, you must be
the preacher's son.
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You know or you don't know.
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What's the question mark for?
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Uncle Chris is an alcoholic.
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Hmm.
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Well, this must be pretty tough
on your family, hmm?
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"Give ear,
O my people, to my law.
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"Incline your ears
to the words of my mouth.
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"I will open my mouth
in a parable.
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I will utter dark sayings
which we have heard."
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- No.
- Sounds good, Dad.
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Are you ready?
We got to get going.
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Why are we going
to Dallas tomorrow?
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Architect's updated the, uh,
remodel plans for the ministry,
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and we're gonna take a tour
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of two similar churches
right there.
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Do you think
I could stay at Chloe's
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when you go, instead?
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It's okay,
I can stay at Wayne's.
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- Or-or I'll just...
- I am okay with that.
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In fact, I think
it is a great idea.
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You're both mature kids
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who know how
to conduct themselves,
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and who, by now,
know how the world works.
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You know, son,
small steps toward manhood.
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That's the way to learn.
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That way you don't
get all panicky
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when it suddenly arrives.
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You do know
what I'm saying, Romeo?
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- Yes, sir.
- Okay. Let's go. We're late.
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Dear Heavenly Father,
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we thank you
for this beautiful day.
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And, Lord, we pray
that you look over our shoulder
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as we march out onto the floor,
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and that we show our customers
the love and kindness
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that you show us.
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In Jesus Christ's name,
and for his sake...
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Morning! Let your light shine!
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- Amen.
- Amen.
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- All right!
- Have a great day.
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"Rebels" on three!
On three! One, two, three!
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Rebels!
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You did so good.
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Right, buddy? Assists,
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one of the most underrated
components of the game.
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- Congratulations.
- I saw you
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setting up all the points.
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- Oh! That's victory sweat.
- Dad, I... - Yeah.
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I-I played, like, five minutes.
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- I think you did more than that. How about you?
- Hey!
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- Another underrated component of the game.
- Thank you.
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- How are you?
- Congratulations, beautiful girl.
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I was worried about you.
I thought they were
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- gonna drop you. Oh.
- Oh, no, don't worry.
257
00:15:20,459 --> 00:15:22,559
- Are you kids gonna go celebrate?
- Yeah, some of us,
258
00:15:22,561 --> 00:15:24,061
- I think we're gonna go to the lake.
- Yeah.
259
00:15:24,063 --> 00:15:27,599
All right. The lake.
260
00:15:27,601 --> 00:15:29,234
All right.
261
00:15:29,236 --> 00:15:31,403
Dealership's gonna put me
in an Expedition,
262
00:15:31,405 --> 00:15:33,405
so it's yours.
263
00:15:33,407 --> 00:15:35,273
Wow. Dad.
264
00:15:35,275 --> 00:15:36,742
All right. All right.
It was gonna be
265
00:15:36,744 --> 00:15:39,078
for your birthday, but, you
know, tonight's a good night,
266
00:15:39,080 --> 00:15:40,414
- so congratulations.
- Thank you so much.
267
00:15:40,416 --> 00:15:42,948
- Thank you.
- Go and have fun.
268
00:15:42,950 --> 00:15:44,950
I want to see if your mama
wants to go to the lake.
269
00:16:22,128 --> 00:16:23,662
They're still up.
270
00:16:41,551 --> 00:16:43,052
What?
271
00:16:48,057 --> 00:16:50,758
I-If it's not hard,
I can make it hard.
272
00:16:50,760 --> 00:16:54,029
Don't you think
we should wait until,
273
00:16:54,031 --> 00:16:56,432
- you know...
- Until...
274
00:16:56,434 --> 00:17:00,503
- You know?
- Until what? We get married?
275
00:17:02,541 --> 00:17:06,744
That's what my parents
think we should do.
276
00:17:06,746 --> 00:17:09,849
To keep us together
through college.
277
00:17:15,723 --> 00:17:17,424
Hey.
278
00:17:19,861 --> 00:17:22,227
Is something wrong?
279
00:17:22,229 --> 00:17:24,365
No.
280
00:17:26,701 --> 00:17:29,202
Jared.
281
00:17:29,204 --> 00:17:32,038
Ready to pack it up?
We're about done for the day.
282
00:17:32,040 --> 00:17:34,708
Looks nice.
283
00:17:34,710 --> 00:17:37,311
5:00, everyone.
It's home time.
284
00:17:37,313 --> 00:17:40,551
- Bye.
- 5:00. Let's go.
285
00:17:43,387 --> 00:17:45,588
All right, everybody,
286
00:17:45,590 --> 00:17:47,489
pack it up.
287
00:17:47,491 --> 00:17:50,091
Name tag.
288
00:17:50,093 --> 00:17:53,265
- Thanks.
- 9:00 a.m. tomorrow.
289
00:18:00,239 --> 00:18:02,006
Uh...
290
00:18:02,008 --> 00:18:04,910
hey, y-you tore out the pages.
291
00:18:04,912 --> 00:18:07,178
- Mm.
- They're just stories.
292
00:18:07,180 --> 00:18:08,747
Mr. Sykes will decide that.
293
00:18:08,749 --> 00:18:11,584
...to Michael.
294
00:18:11,586 --> 00:18:15,524
- Go for Michael.
- Are you still in the office?
295
00:18:35,813 --> 00:18:37,613
Are you, are you a soldier?
296
00:18:37,615 --> 00:18:39,616
Were you in the military,
or some...?
297
00:18:39,618 --> 00:18:42,318
- I saw you salute earlier. I thought...
- No.
298
00:18:42,320 --> 00:18:45,788
I'm trying zero contact
whatsoever.
299
00:18:45,790 --> 00:18:49,059
- Mm.
- 23 days now.
300
00:18:49,061 --> 00:18:53,033
So... I salute instead.
301
00:18:54,568 --> 00:18:58,135
This group seems good.
302
00:18:58,137 --> 00:18:59,471
Have you been here before?
303
00:18:59,473 --> 00:19:02,674
Yeah, it's my second time
in the Refuge program.
304
00:19:02,676 --> 00:19:04,644
I started a couple days late
last time,
305
00:19:04,646 --> 00:19:06,980
and actually I'm waiting
for a place to open
306
00:19:06,982 --> 00:19:08,982
in one of the houses.
307
00:19:08,984 --> 00:19:11,550
- What houses?
- The-the houses. The...
308
00:19:11,552 --> 00:19:13,820
They have a few houses
behind the property
309
00:19:13,822 --> 00:19:15,489
for the long stayers.
310
00:19:15,491 --> 00:19:18,325
Meanwhile,
I'm stuck at the Baybrook
311
00:19:18,327 --> 00:19:21,364
with my dad,
which is interesting.
312
00:19:23,533 --> 00:19:27,002
Are you in one of
the local hotels, too?
313
00:19:27,004 --> 00:19:28,673
Yeah.
314
00:19:30,508 --> 00:19:33,511
So, like, how-how long
will you stay for?
315
00:19:35,113 --> 00:19:37,113
It's not really up to me.
316
00:19:37,115 --> 00:19:39,517
Mr. Sykes decides.
317
00:19:39,519 --> 00:19:43,286
- No one explained that to you?
- No, no.
318
00:19:43,288 --> 00:19:45,923
This is just
an assessment program,
319
00:19:45,925 --> 00:19:49,694
until they know
what to do with you.
320
00:19:49,696 --> 00:19:51,863
Hey. Listen.
321
00:19:51,865 --> 00:19:53,866
Just lean into it, man.
322
00:19:53,868 --> 00:19:55,467
Yeah.
323
00:19:55,469 --> 00:19:58,938
Do the work,
and trust me, man...
324
00:19:58,940 --> 00:20:01,473
you're gonna love it here.
325
00:20:01,475 --> 00:20:04,310
Aren't you gonna tell me
about your day?
326
00:20:04,312 --> 00:20:07,781
We're not meant to talk
about it outside of group.
327
00:20:07,783 --> 00:20:09,116
I don't need gossip.
328
00:20:09,118 --> 00:20:12,953
I just...
I just mean generally.
329
00:20:12,955 --> 00:20:14,957
I'm gonna lean into it.
330
00:20:14,959 --> 00:20:17,059
And there are some good people.
331
00:20:17,061 --> 00:20:19,729
And, yeah, I like it.
332
00:20:19,731 --> 00:20:21,664
I'm excited to be here.
333
00:20:21,666 --> 00:20:24,102
That's good.
334
00:20:30,142 --> 00:20:32,609
Do we have people in the family
335
00:20:32,611 --> 00:20:35,814
who had issues
with any of this stuff?
336
00:20:46,861 --> 00:20:48,861
Pornography?
337
00:20:48,863 --> 00:20:51,433
Mom.
338
00:20:55,937 --> 00:20:57,804
Drugs?
339
00:20:57,806 --> 00:20:59,006
Gang affiliat...
340
00:20:59,008 --> 00:21:01,274
Gang affiliations?
What is this?
341
00:21:01,276 --> 00:21:03,145
I need to know for homework.
342
00:21:03,147 --> 00:21:06,148
Why do they need to know
about the family?
343
00:21:06,150 --> 00:21:08,819
Our family is so normal.
344
00:21:35,816 --> 00:21:39,084
Big day tomorrow, hmm?
345
00:21:39,086 --> 00:21:41,556
You get some good sleep, now.
346
00:21:45,560 --> 00:21:48,663
Oh, um, I filled out
your homework for you.
347
00:21:51,835 --> 00:21:55,503
I was only in a gang
for a year or so, until I...
348
00:21:55,505 --> 00:22:00,242
went down for drugs,
got sent to prison.
349
00:22:00,244 --> 00:22:01,709
Ha-ha.
350
00:22:07,685 --> 00:22:10,619
I put your Uncle Vincent
down there.
351
00:22:10,621 --> 00:22:13,555
You've never met him, 'cause
he, uh, moved to Louisiana
352
00:22:13,557 --> 00:22:17,962
when you were little, so...
we just never see him.
353
00:22:17,964 --> 00:22:20,600
We always figured that he...
354
00:22:26,707 --> 00:22:31,043
He was very feminine-like,
you might say.
355
00:22:31,045 --> 00:22:33,478
All right.
356
00:22:33,480 --> 00:22:36,317
Oh. I'm tired.
357
00:22:37,552 --> 00:22:39,722
- Night-night.
- Good night.
358
00:22:47,330 --> 00:22:50,665
What is... a real man?
359
00:22:50,667 --> 00:22:54,236
And what does
a real man look like?
360
00:22:54,238 --> 00:22:56,406
Does anybody know?
361
00:22:57,942 --> 00:22:59,909
Guys, uncross your legs.
362
00:22:59,911 --> 00:23:01,510
Posture. Come on.
363
00:23:01,512 --> 00:23:04,447
Now, perhaps being close
364
00:23:04,449 --> 00:23:08,919
to the flames of hell
and finding your way back
365
00:23:08,921 --> 00:23:11,088
shows a great strength.
366
00:23:11,090 --> 00:23:15,160
And if that were so, then...
if this isn't a real man,
367
00:23:15,162 --> 00:23:17,162
then I don't know what is.
368
00:23:17,164 --> 00:23:18,462
This is Brandon Ellis, guys.
369
00:23:18,464 --> 00:23:20,332
- I want you to say hello.
- Thanks, Sykes.
370
00:23:20,334 --> 00:23:22,267
Make him welcome.
Over to you, Brandon.
371
00:23:22,269 --> 00:23:23,604
Thank you.
372
00:23:24,538 --> 00:23:27,440
God bless. God bless.
373
00:23:27,442 --> 00:23:28,942
A real man, to me,
374
00:23:28,944 --> 00:23:31,678
is a man of God,
first and foremost.
375
00:23:31,680 --> 00:23:34,681
And I'm a man of God, no doubt.
376
00:23:34,683 --> 00:23:37,952
I guess that counts me in.
377
00:23:37,954 --> 00:23:40,121
But I wasn't once.
378
00:23:40,123 --> 00:23:43,524
If I was ever listed
on my own son's genograms,
379
00:23:43,526 --> 00:23:45,961
there'd be so many of these
letters next to my name,
380
00:23:45,963 --> 00:23:48,331
it would look
like qualifications
381
00:23:48,333 --> 00:23:50,633
for some fancy university.
382
00:23:50,635 --> 00:23:53,002
Drugs, violence, gang crime,
383
00:23:53,004 --> 00:23:55,205
prison time,
but I actually believe
384
00:23:55,207 --> 00:23:57,007
I'm qualified to be here.
385
00:23:57,009 --> 00:24:00,210
Not because I've ever had the
types of thoughts and feelings
386
00:24:00,212 --> 00:24:01,912
that y'all are wrestling with
387
00:24:01,914 --> 00:24:03,547
or that your other
guidance counselors
388
00:24:03,549 --> 00:24:05,515
have overcome righteously.
389
00:24:05,517 --> 00:24:07,752
But I've had all sorts
of my own trials
390
00:24:07,754 --> 00:24:10,321
that took me so far away
from the Lord
391
00:24:10,323 --> 00:24:12,424
that it is a true miracle
392
00:24:12,426 --> 00:24:14,996
that I'm standing here
before you today.
393
00:24:16,331 --> 00:24:18,231
But I am.
394
00:24:18,233 --> 00:24:20,335
I am.
395
00:24:24,840 --> 00:24:28,342
Standing, leaning, sitting.
396
00:24:28,344 --> 00:24:30,044
All the same idea.
397
00:24:30,046 --> 00:24:33,514
Triangles are
the strongest shape.
398
00:24:33,516 --> 00:24:36,451
Hand or hands on hips. Go!
399
00:24:36,453 --> 00:24:38,889
Save yourself.
400
00:24:40,724 --> 00:24:43,525
Fingers forward, not back.
401
00:24:43,527 --> 00:24:45,228
Just the way it is.
402
00:24:45,230 --> 00:24:49,065
Think of the shapes
you're making and ask yourself:
403
00:24:49,067 --> 00:24:51,602
Is this a manly shape
I'm making,
404
00:24:51,604 --> 00:24:55,373
or is it a girly
or feminine shape?
405
00:24:55,375 --> 00:24:56,907
Sarah, come on up here.
406
00:24:56,909 --> 00:25:00,111
Come on,
you delicate flower, you.
407
00:25:00,113 --> 00:25:01,545
Okay.
408
00:25:01,547 --> 00:25:05,384
I want you to arrange
these guys into a line
409
00:25:05,386 --> 00:25:08,089
in terms of masculinity,
if you will.
410
00:25:09,290 --> 00:25:11,589
Go on, you can do it.
411
00:25:11,591 --> 00:25:13,928
Follow your instincts.
412
00:25:16,298 --> 00:25:18,632
Myself and other addicts
and alcoholics
413
00:25:18,634 --> 00:25:20,734
put our faith in AA.
414
00:25:20,736 --> 00:25:23,237
- Get familiar with this phrase:
- Knees up!
415
00:25:23,239 --> 00:25:26,140
- Fake it till you make it.
- Knees up! Body up! Push!
416
00:25:26,142 --> 00:25:30,145
And y'all folks and kids, being
what you're afflicted with,
417
00:25:30,147 --> 00:25:31,747
better learn how to survive.
418
00:25:31,749 --> 00:25:33,916
When you're in prison,
419
00:25:33,918 --> 00:25:37,152
you'd surprise yourself
what you could do to fit in.
420
00:25:37,154 --> 00:25:38,320
Come on, Phillip.
421
00:25:38,322 --> 00:25:40,491
Eye on the ball.
422
00:25:40,493 --> 00:25:41,858
Come on! Okay, next!
423
00:25:41,860 --> 00:25:44,295
Fake it till you make it.
424
00:25:44,297 --> 00:25:45,529
Become the man you are not.
425
00:25:45,531 --> 00:25:46,629
So you think Cameron here
426
00:25:46,631 --> 00:25:48,832
is the big winner, huh?
427
00:25:48,834 --> 00:25:51,369
You think being big and tall
428
00:25:51,371 --> 00:25:53,939
and overeating
429
00:25:53,941 --> 00:25:56,274
immediately puts a guy
at the front of the line.
430
00:25:56,276 --> 00:25:58,643
But it's more than triangles
or postures
431
00:25:58,645 --> 00:26:00,278
and genetics.
432
00:26:00,280 --> 00:26:01,980
Firm handshake!
433
00:26:01,982 --> 00:26:04,485
Let's go! Do it!
434
00:26:04,487 --> 00:26:06,054
You got to pick up the bat.
435
00:26:07,055 --> 00:26:08,455
Hold the bat up!
436
00:26:08,457 --> 00:26:09,822
- Ow!
- Ooh! -
437
00:26:09,824 --> 00:26:12,126
Get back up on that horse!
438
00:26:12,128 --> 00:26:15,029
All right,
just get him out of there.
439
00:26:15,031 --> 00:26:17,799
- Lee, you're gonna be okay.
- Come on.
440
00:26:17,801 --> 00:26:20,971
Jared, you're up next.
441
00:26:22,005 --> 00:26:23,707
That's good.
442
00:26:28,380 --> 00:26:30,045
Military man.
443
00:26:30,047 --> 00:26:31,814
God bless, son.
444
00:26:31,816 --> 00:26:35,818
Who you are on the inside
can be affected by the outside.
445
00:26:35,820 --> 00:26:39,323
Outside in.
Fake it till you make it.
446
00:26:39,325 --> 00:26:40,491
Adapt to survive.
447
00:26:40,493 --> 00:26:43,327
Ah, see,
that's a batting stance.
448
00:26:43,329 --> 00:26:44,563
That's what I'm talking about.
449
00:26:44,565 --> 00:26:46,500
Boom!
450
00:26:57,846 --> 00:27:00,747
Lesbian, gay, bisexual,
451
00:27:00,749 --> 00:27:02,883
transsexual...
whatever that is...
452
00:27:02,885 --> 00:27:05,953
multisexual,
intellectual sexual.
453
00:27:05,955 --> 00:27:07,955
I mean, what else do you want?
454
00:27:07,957 --> 00:27:10,024
Unicorns? Squirrels?
455
00:27:10,026 --> 00:27:12,594
Cupcakes? I mean, rainbows?
456
00:27:12,596 --> 00:27:15,864
There's so much choice
in this group,
457
00:27:15,866 --> 00:27:18,034
but, hey, think about this.
458
00:27:18,036 --> 00:27:23,539
What are the consequences
to those choices?
459
00:27:23,541 --> 00:27:25,408
Have a look at this.
460
00:27:25,410 --> 00:27:27,778
Rape, abuse, AIDS.
461
00:27:27,780 --> 00:27:31,884
What sinful things
have y'all done?
462
00:27:36,223 --> 00:27:38,256
Moral inventory.
463
00:27:38,258 --> 00:27:43,730
Catalog your sins
and ask God's forgiveness.
464
00:27:46,167 --> 00:27:48,570
Who is ready?
465
00:27:51,240 --> 00:27:53,242
Sarah.
466
00:28:06,090 --> 00:28:07,823
"I would look at other girls
467
00:28:07,825 --> 00:28:10,259
"in the changing rooms
before gym
468
00:28:10,261 --> 00:28:11,927
"and in the showers.
469
00:28:11,929 --> 00:28:15,164
"My biggest sin is one
that I am also thankful for,
470
00:28:15,166 --> 00:28:19,002
because it has led me
to Love in Action."
471
00:28:19,004 --> 00:28:21,674
Doing well, Sarah. Carry on.
472
00:28:24,710 --> 00:28:27,279
"I had run away
from my uncle's house
473
00:28:27,281 --> 00:28:29,614
"and stayed
with some girls I knew
474
00:28:29,616 --> 00:28:31,950
"whose parents were away.
475
00:28:31,952 --> 00:28:33,952
"It was there
that I finally acted
476
00:28:33,954 --> 00:28:36,724
on my homosexual thoughts."
477
00:28:38,960 --> 00:28:41,127
Come on, Sarah.
478
00:28:41,129 --> 00:28:43,796
"I let a girl touch my...
479
00:28:43,798 --> 00:28:45,532
"kiss m-my...
480
00:28:47,069 --> 00:28:50,003
...my vagina..."
481
00:28:50,005 --> 00:28:52,140
Nobody's judging. Come on.
482
00:28:52,142 --> 00:28:55,376
"...and put
her fingers inside me,
483
00:28:55,378 --> 00:28:58,179
"and I did the same.
484
00:28:58,181 --> 00:29:01,082
"I renounce these
sinful thoughts and actions,
485
00:29:01,084 --> 00:29:04,989
and ask God to forgive me
all these things."
486
00:29:05,990 --> 00:29:07,990
Very good.
487
00:29:07,992 --> 00:29:09,892
We love you, Sarah.
488
00:29:09,894 --> 00:29:12,495
All right, repeat after me.
We love you, Sarah.
489
00:29:12,497 --> 00:29:14,665
We love you, Sarah.
490
00:29:14,667 --> 00:29:16,336
Very good.
491
00:29:35,557 --> 00:29:37,557
Do you want some water?
492
00:29:37,559 --> 00:29:40,562
I'm fine, thanks.
493
00:29:40,564 --> 00:29:45,265
- Can I get you anything else?
- I'm... I'm fine, thank you.
494
00:29:45,267 --> 00:29:48,403
How dare you
humiliate a child like that?!
495
00:29:48,405 --> 00:29:51,039
Is that what you guys...
you like that?
496
00:29:51,041 --> 00:29:52,541
Do you like doing that?!
497
00:29:52,543 --> 00:29:54,543
You like humiliating
and abusing children?!
498
00:29:54,545 --> 00:29:57,613
- It's not easy...
- What do you mean it's not easy?!
499
00:29:57,615 --> 00:29:59,548
- Lee's parents.
- His parents are here.
500
00:29:59,550 --> 00:30:01,718
- Listen to yourself!
- With respect,
501
00:30:01,720 --> 00:30:05,422
- we are not running a holiday camp here.
- We paid you $3,000.
502
00:30:05,424 --> 00:30:07,991
I should report you. You could
have given him a concussion!
503
00:30:07,993 --> 00:30:09,293
David, let's go.
504
00:30:09,295 --> 00:30:11,462
That change doesn't come easy.
505
00:30:11,464 --> 00:30:13,464
Unbelievable!
506
00:30:26,013 --> 00:30:28,416
Y'all find the reason
507
00:30:28,418 --> 00:30:30,751
y'all are here is funny?
508
00:30:30,753 --> 00:30:32,586
Look at y'all!
509
00:30:32,588 --> 00:30:34,588
People!
510
00:30:34,590 --> 00:30:36,690
I'm trying to help you.
511
00:30:36,692 --> 00:30:38,427
So do not waste my time.
512
00:30:38,429 --> 00:30:41,663
Nobody is to discuss the
therapy outside these walls!
513
00:30:41,665 --> 00:30:43,532
Do I make myself clear?!
514
00:31:35,325 --> 00:31:37,826
Yo, I got your back. Whoa!
515
00:31:37,828 --> 00:31:39,329
- Oh, sorry, sorry.
- I got that.
516
00:31:39,331 --> 00:31:40,763
Thank you so much.
517
00:31:40,765 --> 00:31:43,399
Which, uh, which room you in?
518
00:31:43,401 --> 00:31:45,702
I'm in, uh, 317.
519
00:31:45,704 --> 00:31:47,403
Oh, I'm in 237.
520
00:31:47,405 --> 00:31:48,839
You run?
521
00:31:48,841 --> 00:31:50,174
- Yeah.
- I figure.
522
00:31:50,176 --> 00:31:52,042
People who run
know about ASICS, right?
523
00:31:52,044 --> 00:31:53,678
Oh, yeah.
524
00:31:53,680 --> 00:31:55,414
Here, this is me.
525
00:32:04,526 --> 00:32:07,760
First one in gets to choose.
526
00:32:10,866 --> 00:32:12,900
You got a girl?
527
00:32:12,902 --> 00:32:14,903
If so, you might want to think
528
00:32:14,905 --> 00:32:17,572
about applying for a room
without bunks.
529
00:32:17,574 --> 00:32:19,641
Just broke up.
530
00:32:19,643 --> 00:32:22,710
Oh. That's perfect timing.
531
00:32:22,712 --> 00:32:25,380
Before college.
532
00:32:25,382 --> 00:32:27,583
We're a good fit.
533
00:32:27,585 --> 00:32:29,385
Hate running with slowpokes.
534
00:32:29,387 --> 00:32:32,388
I'll tell you what,
I'll race you on the way back.
535
00:32:32,390 --> 00:32:35,391
Last one back has to go
to the other one's church.
536
00:32:35,393 --> 00:32:37,560
Why? What kind of church is it?
537
00:32:37,562 --> 00:32:39,429
You game or not?
538
00:32:39,431 --> 00:32:41,999
- All right.
- All right, one,
539
00:32:42,001 --> 00:32:43,968
- two, three, go!
- Two, three, go!
540
00:33:07,296 --> 00:33:10,798
- Ben. This is Jared.
- Hey, man, nice to meet you.
541
00:33:57,252 --> 00:34:00,087
Did you say your roommate's
not back till tomorrow?
542
00:34:00,089 --> 00:34:02,158
He's on some golf trip.
543
00:34:05,829 --> 00:34:07,598
Do you want to crash?
544
00:34:09,933 --> 00:34:12,168
Maybe.
545
00:34:31,024 --> 00:34:32,624
Night.
546
00:34:32,626 --> 00:34:34,628
Good night.
547
00:35:25,918 --> 00:35:28,255
Can't sleep, huh?
548
00:35:42,605 --> 00:35:45,541
Probably shouldn't run
so late at night.
549
00:36:03,962 --> 00:36:06,198
Are you okay?
550
00:36:07,966 --> 00:36:09,735
Yeah.
551
00:36:11,737 --> 00:36:13,739
Yeah, just...
552
00:37:07,033 --> 00:37:09,033
It's okay.
553
00:37:26,622 --> 00:37:31,158
Hey. It's okay. It's okay.
554
00:37:31,160 --> 00:37:34,262
- Wait, wait.
- Shh, shh, shh.
555
00:37:34,264 --> 00:37:36,831
Wait. Wait, wait, wait.
556
00:37:36,833 --> 00:37:39,235
Shh.
557
00:37:39,237 --> 00:37:41,403
- Shh.
- Stop, stop, stop.
558
00:37:41,405 --> 00:37:43,973
Stop, stop, stop,
stop, stop, stop!
559
00:37:55,655 --> 00:37:57,523
Ow!
560
00:37:59,625 --> 00:38:04,796
Ow! Ow! Ow! Ow! Ow!
561
00:38:06,000 --> 00:38:08,267
Ow! Ow!
562
00:38:27,959 --> 00:38:29,693
Oh.
563
00:38:45,577 --> 00:38:48,914
What the hell is wrong with me?
564
00:38:50,918 --> 00:38:52,920
I'm so sorry.
565
00:38:57,490 --> 00:38:59,925
I'm gonna be
in so much trouble.
566
00:39:05,600 --> 00:39:09,071
I need to confess.
567
00:39:14,444 --> 00:39:17,714
I need to confess.
Will you hear me?
568
00:39:20,183 --> 00:39:22,919
- Please.
- Uh-huh.
569
00:39:28,293 --> 00:39:31,529
Do you remember
the kid from church?
570
00:39:33,865 --> 00:39:36,402
The one in front of us.
571
00:39:39,773 --> 00:39:43,374
Something happened
with me and him.
572
00:39:43,376 --> 00:39:46,480
Something pretty bad.
573
00:39:51,752 --> 00:39:55,754
You wouldn't dare tell anyone,
would you?
574
00:39:55,756 --> 00:39:57,893
Please.
575
00:39:59,660 --> 00:40:02,564
Keep it between us.
576
00:40:25,123 --> 00:40:28,928
Start with chapter six, please.
577
00:41:30,663 --> 00:41:33,398
What-what a surprise.
578
00:41:33,400 --> 00:41:35,033
Oh!
579
00:41:53,456 --> 00:41:55,690
- Hello.
- Is this Mrs. Nancy Eamons?
580
00:41:55,692 --> 00:41:57,125
This is she.
581
00:41:57,127 --> 00:41:59,060
I'm a counselor
at Danton College.
582
00:41:59,062 --> 00:42:02,064
And I'm afraid I have
some disturbing news
583
00:42:02,066 --> 00:42:04,200
about your son's behavior
at school.
584
00:42:04,202 --> 00:42:05,368
What?
585
00:42:05,370 --> 00:42:07,970
What about him?
586
00:42:07,972 --> 00:42:09,606
- Did he give you a name?
- I need you to answer
587
00:42:09,608 --> 00:42:10,941
- my question.
- If-if he gave you a name...
588
00:42:10,943 --> 00:42:11,975
- Please, Jared, just answer me.
- I'm just saying...
589
00:42:11,977 --> 00:42:13,376
Have you been doing
the things he says?
590
00:42:13,378 --> 00:42:15,379
- Why wouldn't he give you a name?
- Come on, son, enough.
591
00:42:15,381 --> 00:42:17,882
- Tell me the truth.
- I'm asking the questions, too.
592
00:42:17,884 --> 00:42:20,218
He didn't, um,
give me a name. I don't...
593
00:42:20,220 --> 00:42:22,220
The guy's full of shit.
He's telling a bunch of lies.
594
00:42:22,222 --> 00:42:23,455
Now you will not talk
like that in this house
595
00:42:23,457 --> 00:42:24,922
in front of your mother.
You just watch your mouth.
596
00:42:24,924 --> 00:42:26,925
Nancy, if-if you could
just give us a moment,
597
00:42:26,927 --> 00:42:28,894
- you know, just to...
- I'm-I'm leaving.
598
00:42:28,896 --> 00:42:30,829
- I'm-I'm...
- Sit down. You will not leave the room.
599
00:42:30,831 --> 00:42:32,298
You will sit down, boy.
600
00:42:32,300 --> 00:42:34,067
- You will sit down.
- It's bullshit, Dad.
601
00:42:34,069 --> 00:42:37,571
- It's bullshit.
- I just asked you to watch your mouth!
602
00:42:37,573 --> 00:42:42,644
I think, um,
he said he was a counselor.
603
00:42:42,646 --> 00:42:44,745
And then...
and I asked for his name,
604
00:42:44,747 --> 00:42:46,080
- and then I asked for...
- Nancy.
605
00:42:46,082 --> 00:42:48,115
- You see?
- ...his number and he didn't...
606
00:42:48,117 --> 00:42:49,251
Nancy, please.
607
00:42:49,253 --> 00:42:51,254
Dad, I-I...
608
00:42:51,256 --> 00:42:53,422
He's made all of this up.
609
00:42:53,424 --> 00:42:56,492
Let's just sit here.
We're just gonna talk calmly.
610
00:42:56,494 --> 00:42:58,794
All right. All right.
611
00:42:58,796 --> 00:43:00,630
No, Dad.
612
00:43:00,632 --> 00:43:02,835
Jared.
613
00:43:05,304 --> 00:43:08,305
I just need you to tell me
the truth, that's all.
614
00:43:08,307 --> 00:43:12,976
What this man says of you...
Jared.
615
00:43:12,978 --> 00:43:16,150
Are you a homosexual?
616
00:43:20,454 --> 00:43:23,355
Jared. We are not finished!
617
00:43:23,357 --> 00:43:26,126
- I am, because you won't listen!
- Honey. Honey.
618
00:43:26,128 --> 00:43:28,328
What this man says,
is it true?
619
00:43:28,330 --> 00:43:29,229
What this full-of-shit guy,
620
00:43:29,231 --> 00:43:31,231
- who is not a counselor...
- Answer me!
621
00:43:31,233 --> 00:43:35,236
...who raped a kid
at-at his own church,
622
00:43:35,238 --> 00:43:37,506
and God knows who else!
623
00:43:37,508 --> 00:43:40,142
- Dad, you're hurting me.
- Marshall.
624
00:43:40,144 --> 00:43:42,577
His name is Henry Wallace.
He's-he's not a counselor.
625
00:43:42,579 --> 00:43:44,346
- He's a student.
- All right.
626
00:43:44,348 --> 00:43:47,816
And-and... he told me
he did some bad things.
627
00:43:47,818 --> 00:43:51,321
I think he thinks
I'm gonna tell on him.
628
00:43:51,323 --> 00:43:53,524
Honey.
629
00:43:53,526 --> 00:43:55,695
Son.
630
00:44:07,674 --> 00:44:09,441
Fight!
631
00:44:18,687 --> 00:44:20,855
Go to war!
632
00:44:31,534 --> 00:44:33,937
Your mother's making dinner.
633
00:44:35,740 --> 00:44:38,909
I'm okay, I'm not hungry.
634
00:44:43,047 --> 00:44:46,149
I want you to write down
this man's name,
635
00:44:46,151 --> 00:44:49,821
his church,
phone number if you have it.
636
00:44:49,823 --> 00:44:51,823
Any information at all.
637
00:44:51,825 --> 00:44:53,792
I don't want you
to talk to him.
638
00:44:53,794 --> 00:44:55,126
I ain't gonna talk to him.
639
00:44:55,128 --> 00:44:57,128
If he's been doing
what you say,
640
00:44:57,130 --> 00:44:59,767
then he needs to be reported.
641
00:45:02,737 --> 00:45:04,903
Okay.
642
00:45:04,905 --> 00:45:06,672
Now, you know what I did?
643
00:45:06,674 --> 00:45:09,142
I invited Chloe and her parents
for lunch tomorrow.
644
00:45:09,144 --> 00:45:12,145
And I was thinking it'd be fun
if you could join in.
645
00:45:12,147 --> 00:45:16,116
Missing one more day of class
ain't gonna end the world.
646
00:45:16,118 --> 00:45:18,520
You know, Jared...
647
00:45:18,522 --> 00:45:21,823
...far as I can tell,
648
00:45:21,825 --> 00:45:24,426
we've only got
one God-given right,
649
00:45:24,428 --> 00:45:28,364
and that is when a man
and a woman come together,
650
00:45:28,366 --> 00:45:32,168
they may create life.
651
00:45:32,170 --> 00:45:35,171
You think how much God
must love mankind
652
00:45:35,173 --> 00:45:37,373
to give us that
awesome responsibility.
653
00:45:37,375 --> 00:45:39,376
Dad.
654
00:45:39,378 --> 00:45:42,449
It's really not true.
655
00:45:48,188 --> 00:45:52,191
You know what I think about
these type of games, too.
656
00:45:52,193 --> 00:45:55,828
Be respectful to your mother
when she calls.
657
00:45:55,830 --> 00:45:58,499
You come down and eat.
658
00:46:32,103 --> 00:46:34,938
- Honey.
- All right.
659
00:46:34,940 --> 00:46:36,874
You want me to stop
with the games?
660
00:46:36,876 --> 00:46:38,576
I'll stop with them.
661
00:46:38,578 --> 00:46:40,445
I broke up with Chloe.
662
00:46:40,447 --> 00:46:43,049
Because...
663
00:46:48,221 --> 00:46:53,194
We broke up because
I think it's true, about me.
664
00:46:55,029 --> 00:46:57,099
God help me.
665
00:46:58,867 --> 00:47:01,604
I think about men.
666
00:47:13,752 --> 00:47:16,488
I don't know why.
667
00:47:18,823 --> 00:47:21,493
I'm so sorry.
668
00:48:11,984 --> 00:48:13,718
God bless you, Pastor.
669
00:48:13,720 --> 00:48:15,019
Thank you, guys, for coming.
670
00:48:20,360 --> 00:48:24,127
I've had better days,
I can tell you that.
671
00:48:30,638 --> 00:48:33,472
Just a minute. Just a minute.
672
00:48:33,474 --> 00:48:36,009
- Mom?
- Hold on.
673
00:48:36,011 --> 00:48:38,045
All right.
674
00:48:41,383 --> 00:48:46,487
Wh... Why are Pastor Wilkes
and Jim Picard here?
675
00:48:46,489 --> 00:48:50,394
Pastor Wilkes has dealt with
this kind of thing before.
676
00:48:51,996 --> 00:48:57,733
Jim has a son, Eddie, who, um...
y-you were a little boy, but...
677
00:48:57,735 --> 00:48:59,702
Anyway.
678
00:48:59,704 --> 00:49:01,237
What'd they do to him?
679
00:49:01,239 --> 00:49:04,273
Oh, no. You silly thing.
680
00:49:04,275 --> 00:49:06,275
They didn't do anything to him.
681
00:49:06,277 --> 00:49:11,415
They did things for him,
all right?
682
00:49:11,417 --> 00:49:14,852
Just like they're gonna
do things for you.
683
00:49:14,854 --> 00:49:18,023
Your father's wondering...
684
00:49:18,025 --> 00:49:20,627
he's wondering how to help.
685
00:49:23,064 --> 00:49:24,930
Come here.
686
00:49:24,932 --> 00:49:27,467
It's all gonna be all right.
687
00:49:29,738 --> 00:49:32,372
We've got one question
for you, son.
688
00:49:32,374 --> 00:49:34,040
And then we're gonna
let you sleep.
689
00:49:34,042 --> 00:49:37,478
It's been a big day.
690
00:49:37,480 --> 00:49:41,649
I have shared our conversations
691
00:49:41,651 --> 00:49:43,652
with these two
fine upstanding men,
692
00:49:43,654 --> 00:49:46,456
and I have asked them
for their guidance.
693
00:49:48,257 --> 00:49:50,126
I can tell you right now,
694
00:49:50,128 --> 00:49:51,794
we don't have all the answers.
695
00:49:51,796 --> 00:49:57,067
But I do know that you gonna
hold the key to the next step.
696
00:49:57,069 --> 00:50:01,338
Your mother and I,
we cannot see
697
00:50:01,340 --> 00:50:04,241
a way that you can live
under this roof,
698
00:50:04,243 --> 00:50:07,579
attend service
and work at the dealership
699
00:50:07,581 --> 00:50:09,581
if you're gonna fundamentally
700
00:50:09,583 --> 00:50:12,917
go against the grain
of our beliefs.
701
00:50:12,919 --> 00:50:15,454
And against God himself.
702
00:50:15,456 --> 00:50:19,794
I'm gonna ask you
that question now, son.
703
00:50:23,297 --> 00:50:25,601
In your heart...
704
00:50:28,104 --> 00:50:30,840
...do you want to change?
705
00:50:50,897 --> 00:50:53,396
Yes.
706
00:50:53,398 --> 00:50:55,835
Yes, I want to change.
707
00:50:59,405 --> 00:51:01,640
Come a little closer, son.
708
00:51:01,642 --> 00:51:04,543
Pastor Wilkes,
709
00:51:04,545 --> 00:51:08,747
could you ask Jesus
to shine his light
710
00:51:08,749 --> 00:51:12,484
on my boy at this time?
711
00:51:12,486 --> 00:51:15,989
Heavenly Father, I ask
your blessing for this family.
712
00:51:15,991 --> 00:51:17,658
Give them strength.
713
00:51:17,660 --> 00:51:23,330
Unleash your power
for one of your flock, Jared,
714
00:51:23,332 --> 00:51:25,433
who has lost his way.
715
00:51:25,435 --> 00:51:28,938
We pray, Lord,
that you make him pure
716
00:51:28,940 --> 00:51:32,208
and that you return him
safely back to us
717
00:51:32,210 --> 00:51:34,542
and see that the errors
of his way
718
00:51:34,544 --> 00:51:38,715
are nothing more than
a momentary straying.
719
00:51:38,717 --> 00:51:41,518
We pray that he see
the path of faith
720
00:51:41,520 --> 00:51:45,755
and that he strive to be honest
721
00:51:45,757 --> 00:51:49,962
and that he then find the joy
of a new life.
722
00:51:49,964 --> 00:51:52,064
In his name we pray.
723
00:51:52,066 --> 00:51:53,764
Amen.
724
00:51:53,766 --> 00:51:55,468
Jared.
725
00:52:00,541 --> 00:52:02,809
How's college treating you?
726
00:52:02,811 --> 00:52:05,211
Ah, it's going good. Yeah.
727
00:52:05,213 --> 00:52:07,947
- It's good.
- Your father's asked me
728
00:52:07,949 --> 00:52:10,253
to take some of your blood.
729
00:52:13,056 --> 00:52:17,393
He wants me to... to check
for testosterone levels.
730
00:52:20,130 --> 00:52:23,465
I'm in a bit of
a bind here, Jared,
731
00:52:23,467 --> 00:52:25,768
and I-I said this
to your mother, too.
732
00:52:25,770 --> 00:52:29,906
Now, I am a religious woman,
there's-there's no-no question,
733
00:52:29,908 --> 00:52:32,942
but I have also been
to medical school,
734
00:52:32,944 --> 00:52:37,447
and... well, you could say that
I hold science in one hand
735
00:52:37,449 --> 00:52:40,251
and God in the other,
and that is not always
736
00:52:40,253 --> 00:52:42,687
an easy balance.
737
00:52:42,689 --> 00:52:46,491
And I know that everybody would
like for me to say otherwise
738
00:52:46,493 --> 00:52:50,095
and send you down
to the pharmacy for a-a pill
739
00:52:50,097 --> 00:52:53,999
that would magically fix you,
but that's not gonna happen.
740
00:52:54,001 --> 00:52:56,269
But I'm gonna take your blood,
and I know,
741
00:52:56,271 --> 00:52:58,271
I know what it's gonna show me.
742
00:52:58,273 --> 00:53:00,606
That you are
a perfectly normal,
743
00:53:00,608 --> 00:53:03,010
very healthy teenage boy.
744
00:53:03,012 --> 00:53:06,347
Jared, it's-it's not my place
745
00:53:06,349 --> 00:53:09,283
to tell you
that your parents are wrong,
746
00:53:09,285 --> 00:53:12,687
but let's say
that they are wrong.
747
00:53:12,689 --> 00:53:14,690
I understand
your father signed you up
748
00:53:14,692 --> 00:53:17,626
for a program next month.
749
00:53:17,628 --> 00:53:23,866
Whatever happens next,
it is still your choice.
750
00:53:23,868 --> 00:53:27,972
It may not feel that way,
but it is.
751
00:53:27,974 --> 00:53:29,974
You're 18.
752
00:53:29,976 --> 00:53:34,478
Do you have anything
that you'd...
753
00:53:34,480 --> 00:53:38,016
you'd like to say to me?
754
00:53:38,018 --> 00:53:41,655
Any-any questions?
755
00:53:44,758 --> 00:53:46,660
No.
756
00:53:50,332 --> 00:53:52,432
Jared?
757
00:53:52,434 --> 00:53:54,370
Morning.
758
00:54:05,449 --> 00:54:11,186
So... I wanted to talk to you
about these.
759
00:54:11,188 --> 00:54:13,189
Uh, your writing?
760
00:54:13,191 --> 00:54:18,362
This, uh,
"Remy and Lucy met at midnight
761
00:54:18,364 --> 00:54:22,966
under the stars
on Willow Street."
762
00:54:22,968 --> 00:54:26,704
What-what...
tell me about these.
763
00:54:26,706 --> 00:54:29,910
Well, it's-it's just,
it's-it's a story.
764
00:54:31,712 --> 00:54:35,080
It's a love story about
a boy and a girl, correct?
765
00:54:35,082 --> 00:54:36,715
- Yeah.
- But were you
766
00:54:36,717 --> 00:54:41,120
thinking about two boys
when you wrote this?
767
00:54:41,122 --> 00:54:42,655
No.
768
00:54:42,657 --> 00:54:44,557
I mean, be honest.
769
00:54:44,559 --> 00:54:47,760
No. It's just a story.
770
00:54:47,762 --> 00:54:50,733
It's just an assignment
for college.
771
00:54:52,568 --> 00:54:54,903
Jared, I've seen your
reading list for college.
772
00:54:54,905 --> 00:54:56,838
I have it here, and listen,
773
00:54:56,840 --> 00:54:59,441
The Picture of Dorian Gray,
Lolita,
774
00:54:59,443 --> 00:55:01,911
I-I mean, some of
th-these books, Jared,
775
00:55:01,913 --> 00:55:03,846
considering everything that's
going on for you right now,
776
00:55:03,848 --> 00:55:05,915
I don't know that college
is really the best thing
777
00:55:05,917 --> 00:55:08,087
for you to be pursuing at all.
778
00:55:09,088 --> 00:55:10,753
A year with us may be
779
00:55:10,755 --> 00:55:13,759
a much, much better use
of your time.
780
00:55:15,594 --> 00:55:19,430
Given everything that I see.
781
00:55:19,432 --> 00:55:22,436
And everything that's at stake.
782
00:55:24,003 --> 00:55:28,607
And I'm willing to say that
to your parents.
783
00:55:28,609 --> 00:55:30,943
Listen, I've had many
wonderful conversations
784
00:55:30,945 --> 00:55:32,611
with your parents...
lovely people.
785
00:55:32,613 --> 00:55:35,515
So, I know some of the story,
786
00:55:35,517 --> 00:55:39,186
and I know that there is
quite a discrepancy
787
00:55:39,188 --> 00:55:43,824
between what they were told
and what you said.
788
00:55:43,826 --> 00:55:46,727
And you got to understand that
789
00:55:46,729 --> 00:55:48,696
they don't know
what to believe,
790
00:55:48,698 --> 00:55:51,633
and that's very troubling
for them.
791
00:55:51,635 --> 00:55:54,836
But I think that you and I know
792
00:55:54,838 --> 00:55:57,907
that there is a whole lot more
to the story,
793
00:55:57,909 --> 00:56:02,548
and, you know, we're not here
on mere thoughts alone.
794
00:56:05,985 --> 00:56:09,153
Jared, the-the people who get
the most out of this place
795
00:56:09,155 --> 00:56:13,425
are the people that are just
really brave and-and honest
796
00:56:13,427 --> 00:56:17,096
and-and lay everything on
the table, ugly as it seems,
797
00:56:17,098 --> 00:56:20,234
and-and fess up
to what God already sees.
798
00:56:22,403 --> 00:56:25,405
And then I can
really truly assess
799
00:56:25,407 --> 00:56:27,943
what is the best future
for you.
800
00:56:30,946 --> 00:56:32,948
Okay, son?
801
00:56:35,418 --> 00:56:39,288
Yeah. Yeah.
802
00:56:40,624 --> 00:56:43,258
Dear Heavenly Father,
803
00:56:43,260 --> 00:56:46,962
today I ask your forgiveness
for my sins.
804
00:56:46,964 --> 00:56:49,533
For a year, we lived together
under the cover
805
00:56:49,535 --> 00:56:50,869
of being roommates.
806
00:56:51,703 --> 00:56:54,103
But in reality, the whole time,
807
00:56:54,105 --> 00:56:56,940
I was committing
the sin of sodomy.
808
00:56:56,942 --> 00:56:58,875
And then my family
discovered the truth
809
00:56:58,877 --> 00:57:00,811
and brought me back
to my senses.
810
00:57:00,813 --> 00:57:04,149
They helped me realize
that I was fooling myself.
811
00:57:04,151 --> 00:57:07,719
That I was being fooled.
812
00:57:07,721 --> 00:57:09,955
That I was seduced
into a life of sin
813
00:57:09,957 --> 00:57:11,890
by all sorts of sinful people.
814
00:57:11,892 --> 00:57:14,060
And I knew in my heart
815
00:57:14,062 --> 00:57:16,597
that I had forsaken Jesus
for Satan.
816
00:57:16,599 --> 00:57:18,231
But now...
817
00:57:21,604 --> 00:57:23,503
...I am awake to my sins.
818
00:57:23,505 --> 00:57:25,473
I'm enlightened.
819
00:57:25,475 --> 00:57:27,575
I'm here with all of you.
820
00:57:27,577 --> 00:57:31,948
And I am disgusted at
the person that I once was.
821
00:57:33,783 --> 00:57:37,786
I want to ask God
for his forgiveness,
822
00:57:37,788 --> 00:57:40,290
and I want to thank
all of you guys,
823
00:57:40,292 --> 00:57:41,857
especially you, Mr. Sykes,
824
00:57:41,859 --> 00:57:45,428
for helping me get back
on the path to righteousness.
825
00:57:45,430 --> 00:57:47,497
We love you, Gary.
826
00:57:47,499 --> 00:57:50,434
We love you, Gary.
827
00:58:03,851 --> 00:58:07,220
Please don't do that, honey.
You know I don't...
828
00:58:07,222 --> 00:58:10,223
Mom, who did that happen to
and when? Seriously.
829
00:58:10,225 --> 00:58:11,790
Do you know?
830
00:58:11,792 --> 00:58:13,827
Do you actually know
who that happened to?
831
00:58:16,733 --> 00:58:20,968
It never happened.
832
00:58:23,039 --> 00:58:25,807
Parents want to
protect their kids.
833
00:58:25,809 --> 00:58:27,543
So they feed them lies.
834
00:58:27,545 --> 00:58:29,145
I think that they're okay lies.
835
00:58:29,147 --> 00:58:33,549
What? Like not telling me
how long I might be here for?
836
00:58:33,551 --> 00:58:37,054
You know, the whole thing
you and Dad are paying for here
837
00:58:37,056 --> 00:58:40,357
is all about how messed up
we are by our parents.
838
00:58:40,359 --> 00:58:41,391
They want to know about you.
839
00:58:41,393 --> 00:58:43,393
That's why you can't know
all about it,
840
00:58:43,395 --> 00:58:45,829
'cause then they wouldn't
get their money out of you.
841
00:58:45,831 --> 00:58:49,000
What have I ever
done to you? Hmm?
842
00:58:49,002 --> 00:58:53,038
Talk about me all you want.
My conscience is clean.
843
00:59:00,581 --> 00:59:03,784
Honey.
844
00:59:20,871 --> 00:59:24,272
I'm gonna go for a run.
Is that okay, Mom?
845
00:59:24,274 --> 00:59:26,044
Mm-hmm.
846
01:00:21,873 --> 01:00:23,375
Fuck you!
847
01:00:26,512 --> 01:00:28,512
Fuck you!
848
01:00:36,122 --> 01:00:37,989
Fuck you!
849
01:00:41,995 --> 01:00:43,962
Please, please
give me strength.
850
01:00:43,964 --> 01:00:46,332
I need your help.
851
01:00:46,334 --> 01:00:49,405
Amen.
852
01:01:04,822 --> 01:01:08,324
I'm reading it. No debate.
853
01:01:08,326 --> 01:01:10,827
I have a right to know
what they're teaching you.
854
01:01:10,829 --> 01:01:12,696
I don't see why anyone
would read it
855
01:01:12,698 --> 01:01:14,331
unless you absolutely had to.
856
01:01:14,333 --> 01:01:17,033
I need to know what's inside.
857
01:01:17,035 --> 01:01:20,270
There are tons of
spelling errors in it.
858
01:01:20,272 --> 01:01:23,574
I almost want to mark up
a copy for them.
859
01:01:23,576 --> 01:01:25,878
But that would take away
the only real enjoyment
860
01:01:25,880 --> 01:01:27,613
you get from reading it,
861
01:01:27,615 --> 01:01:33,254
'cause I guess it's... actually
not much fun to be there.
862
01:01:36,123 --> 01:01:37,925
And I'm starting to wonder
863
01:01:37,927 --> 01:01:40,426
whether it's really
gonna change me.
864
01:02:01,052 --> 01:02:06,291
"We always come back
to Dog's true design."
865
01:02:11,897 --> 01:02:14,501
Almighty Dog.
866
01:02:46,537 --> 01:02:49,005
Welcome to God Versus Science.
867
01:02:53,210 --> 01:02:55,112
Thank you.
868
01:02:59,952 --> 01:03:01,619
Look up there...
869
01:03:01,621 --> 01:03:04,457
Welcome to this exhibit.
870
01:03:38,062 --> 01:03:40,663
Where are you from, Xavier?
871
01:03:40,665 --> 01:03:43,198
I was born in Vienna.
872
01:03:43,200 --> 01:03:48,203
I ended up in Canada,
and now I'm here.
873
01:03:55,915 --> 01:03:57,915
Do you believe in God?
874
01:03:57,917 --> 01:04:01,420
I do, yeah.
875
01:04:01,422 --> 01:04:03,755
Wow.
876
01:04:03,757 --> 01:04:08,195
I question it, but I still
believe in God, yeah.
877
01:04:15,137 --> 01:04:18,539
Who created the Earth?
878
01:04:18,541 --> 01:04:20,710
You like a little
small talk, huh?
879
01:04:22,812 --> 01:04:25,480
Do you believe in the Devil?
880
01:04:28,986 --> 01:04:31,755
Does he look like me?
881
01:04:32,924 --> 01:04:34,726
I don't know.
882
01:04:50,944 --> 01:04:53,511
Do you know Job from the Bible?
883
01:04:53,513 --> 01:04:56,414
Not personally.
884
01:04:56,416 --> 01:04:59,785
I hear he's not great company,
always complaining.
885
01:05:03,759 --> 01:05:05,759
I-I imagine I'm him sometimes.
886
01:05:05,761 --> 01:05:10,330
And that God and the Devil
are having a bet over me.
887
01:05:10,332 --> 01:05:12,800
That one day
God will let-let me in
888
01:05:12,802 --> 01:05:16,807
on the experiment
he was having to test me.
889
01:05:18,842 --> 01:05:21,544
I think we're our own God.
890
01:05:23,346 --> 01:05:26,549
I mean, I think he's in us.
891
01:05:26,551 --> 01:05:33,225
In all of us, not... you know,
somewhere hiding and watching.
892
01:05:44,871 --> 01:05:47,739
Stay with me.
893
01:05:47,741 --> 01:05:50,876
Nothing needs to happen.
894
01:05:50,878 --> 01:05:52,880
I swear.
895
01:05:55,650 --> 01:05:59,085
I'll prove to you
that God won't strike you down.
896
01:06:35,862 --> 01:06:38,197
You wronged me, Dad, and I...
897
01:06:38,199 --> 01:06:41,033
- and I hate the way that...
- Louder, Cameron.
898
01:06:41,035 --> 01:06:42,534
Can't hear you.
899
01:06:42,536 --> 01:06:46,038
Come on. I'll bring him closer.
There he is.
900
01:06:46,040 --> 01:06:47,606
You wronged me, Dad,
901
01:06:47,608 --> 01:06:50,376
and I hate you for the way
that you, that you treated me
902
01:06:50,378 --> 01:06:52,246
since you found out
about my problems.
903
01:06:52,248 --> 01:06:55,415
No, about your sin. Say that.
904
01:06:55,417 --> 01:06:58,652
"About my sins." Go!
905
01:07:02,559 --> 01:07:05,363
"About my sins."
Come on, Cameron.
906
01:07:07,497 --> 01:07:12,235
"My homosexual sins."
Come on, Cameron!
907
01:07:12,237 --> 01:07:14,503
- Cameron!
- I can go.
908
01:07:14,505 --> 01:07:16,573
- I don't, I don't mind...
- No, no, no, no.
909
01:07:16,575 --> 01:07:19,242
Jared, everybody gets a turn.
This is Cameron's turn.
910
01:07:19,244 --> 01:07:21,411
"About my sins!" Come on!
911
01:07:21,413 --> 01:07:23,613
Found out about my sins.
912
01:07:23,615 --> 01:07:27,685
I hate that you never listen
to me or acknowledge me.
913
01:07:27,687 --> 01:07:29,420
And when you do acknowledge me,
914
01:07:29,422 --> 01:07:31,522
it's to make fun of me
in front of my friends.
915
01:07:31,524 --> 01:07:33,759
"It's to make fun of me."
916
01:07:33,761 --> 01:07:35,928
To make fun of me
in front of my friends.
917
01:07:35,930 --> 01:07:38,665
And that, and that time
that you told me
918
01:07:38,667 --> 01:07:40,867
that you wished
I'd never been born?
919
01:07:40,869 --> 01:07:43,438
That really hurt me.
920
01:07:48,278 --> 01:07:51,046
Cameron...
921
01:07:51,048 --> 01:07:54,115
now, you say that you're angry,
922
01:07:54,117 --> 01:07:59,521
but, quite frankly,
I don't really see it.
923
01:07:59,523 --> 01:08:01,991
Well, what's going on
in there, Cameron?
924
01:08:01,993 --> 01:08:04,060
Huh?
925
01:08:04,062 --> 01:08:06,062
Do you want to change?
926
01:08:06,064 --> 01:08:09,065
Now, you're gonna wish
you hadn't have been born, son,
927
01:08:09,067 --> 01:08:14,671
because God will not love you
the way that you are right now.
928
01:08:14,673 --> 01:08:18,009
Unless you really
want to change.
929
01:08:18,011 --> 01:08:20,680
Well? Come on.
930
01:08:28,155 --> 01:08:30,022
Well, I guess not.
931
01:08:30,024 --> 01:08:31,657
I guess not. Okay.
932
01:08:31,659 --> 01:08:34,827
Let's take a break.
933
01:08:34,829 --> 01:08:38,332
And you are gonna stay here
until you're ready to go!
934
01:08:38,334 --> 01:08:42,203
Everybody but Cameron,
take a break.
935
01:08:45,608 --> 01:08:48,846
I don't care
if you sit there all day, son.
936
01:09:07,467 --> 01:09:09,467
Is this all a game to you?
937
01:09:09,469 --> 01:09:11,371
What do you mean?
938
01:09:12,373 --> 01:09:14,139
Listen, man.
939
01:09:14,141 --> 01:09:16,208
You got to think about
why you went there.
940
01:09:16,210 --> 01:09:19,711
You're trying to bail him out?
Seriously?
941
01:09:19,713 --> 01:09:21,546
And touching him like that?
942
01:09:21,548 --> 01:09:23,715
Do you think no one saw?
943
01:09:23,717 --> 01:09:26,653
You saw him.
He was very upset.
944
01:09:26,655 --> 01:09:29,823
- I didn't mean anything by it.
- I should report you.
945
01:09:29,825 --> 01:09:32,893
True ownership, man. Okay?
946
01:09:32,895 --> 01:09:35,996
This is what moral inventory
is all about.
947
01:09:35,998 --> 01:09:39,600
And you got to quit
staring at me all the time.
948
01:09:39,602 --> 01:09:42,304
These are the urges
that we got to stamp out.
949
01:09:42,306 --> 01:09:45,941
Okay? You got to control this.
950
01:09:45,943 --> 01:09:48,912
- Do you even want this to work?
- Of course I do.
951
01:09:48,914 --> 01:09:50,847
We're all trying
to make this work.
952
01:09:50,849 --> 01:09:53,517
I'm having a tough time, too,
just like you are.
953
01:09:53,519 --> 01:09:55,519
Listen, I'm fine.
954
01:10:03,263 --> 01:10:05,532
Doesn't seem like it.
955
01:10:27,656 --> 01:10:29,491
Hey, what are you
doing in here alone?
956
01:10:29,493 --> 01:10:32,628
You're meant to attend bathroom
breaks with a staff member.
957
01:10:37,969 --> 01:10:40,638
What?
Now you don't have to pee?
958
01:10:44,809 --> 01:10:47,012
Or are you gonna do
something solo?
959
01:10:48,647 --> 01:10:51,151
That's why
they make them rules.
960
01:10:53,652 --> 01:10:56,320
Not to be trusted.
961
01:10:56,322 --> 01:10:58,825
Not at this stage of the game.
962
01:11:02,163 --> 01:11:04,364
Hmm.
963
01:11:04,366 --> 01:11:07,500
Sounds like Morse code.
964
01:11:07,502 --> 01:11:10,270
Sending me a message...
965
01:11:10,272 --> 01:11:12,339
faggot?
966
01:11:58,659 --> 01:12:01,563
Starting to see it
for what it is?
967
01:12:07,403 --> 01:12:09,403
Are you okay?
968
01:12:09,405 --> 01:12:13,475
I'm fine. I'm fine.
969
01:12:13,477 --> 01:12:16,146
I'm gonna give you some advice.
970
01:12:19,316 --> 01:12:21,683
Play the part.
971
01:12:21,685 --> 01:12:24,754
Show 'em it's working.
972
01:12:24,756 --> 01:12:26,958
You're getting better.
973
01:12:29,528 --> 01:12:32,929
Fake it until you make it,
right?
974
01:12:32,931 --> 01:12:34,764
You don't want to end up
975
01:12:34,766 --> 01:12:38,670
in one of those houses
for any length of time.
976
01:12:38,672 --> 01:12:41,306
I've heard the stories,
and they're not good.
977
01:12:41,308 --> 01:12:44,676
And that's where
you're likely gonna end up.
978
01:12:44,678 --> 01:12:47,279
Sarah's already there.
979
01:12:47,281 --> 01:12:49,784
So, play the part, man.
980
01:12:51,620 --> 01:12:53,720
And then, once you're home,
981
01:12:53,722 --> 01:12:56,456
you got to figure out
what to do next.
982
01:12:56,458 --> 01:12:58,791
If it comes down to it,
983
01:12:58,793 --> 01:13:01,795
you may have to walk away
from everything.
984
01:13:01,797 --> 01:13:04,165
Everyone.
985
01:13:07,370 --> 01:13:09,971
Thank you for today, Michael.
986
01:13:09,973 --> 01:13:12,209
- See you tomorrow.
- Mm-hmm.
987
01:13:17,982 --> 01:13:20,517
You're gonna be
on the podium any day now,
988
01:13:20,519 --> 01:13:23,988
so you should have a plan.
989
01:13:23,990 --> 01:13:26,893
Unless you really think
you can change.
990
01:13:28,695 --> 01:13:30,861
Or even want to.
991
01:13:37,572 --> 01:13:39,772
I don't want
to be here anymore.
992
01:13:39,774 --> 01:13:41,940
It's a trial. It...
993
01:13:41,942 --> 01:13:44,110
- I don't feel good here.
- Nobody feels good
994
01:13:44,112 --> 01:13:46,346
- about you being there, Jared.
- I-I don't, I don't...
995
01:13:46,348 --> 01:13:48,382
I'm not sure
if I feel any different.
996
01:13:48,384 --> 01:13:52,386
Son, son, you're...
you're not even halfway through.
997
01:13:52,388 --> 01:13:54,855
Why didn't you tell me
how long I might stay for?
998
01:13:54,857 --> 01:13:56,758
None of us knows
the answer to that, Jared.
999
01:13:56,760 --> 01:13:57,891
It's kind of up to you.
1000
01:13:57,893 --> 01:13:59,761
You know, you just got to
give it a chance.
1001
01:13:59,763 --> 01:14:01,196
This is like
the book of Matthew.
1002
01:14:01,198 --> 01:14:02,931
The Devil's not gonna
ask you once;
1003
01:14:02,933 --> 01:14:04,767
he's gonna ask you
over and over again, son.
1004
01:14:04,769 --> 01:14:06,268
And you have just got to find
1005
01:14:06,270 --> 01:14:08,870
the strength and commitment
inside you.
1006
01:14:08,872 --> 01:14:12,709
You can get through this, okay?
1007
01:14:12,711 --> 01:14:14,478
Okay?
1008
01:14:14,480 --> 01:14:17,481
- All right.
- It's late. Get some sleep.
1009
01:14:17,483 --> 01:14:20,052
- Good night.
- Good night.
1010
01:14:58,195 --> 01:15:01,931
Jared? You're gonna be late.
1011
01:15:32,801 --> 01:15:34,967
I had thoughts of men.
1012
01:15:34,969 --> 01:15:37,572
Boys at school.
1013
01:15:37,574 --> 01:15:39,809
At college, I...
1014
01:15:41,978 --> 01:15:43,978
My imagination.
1015
01:15:49,353 --> 01:15:51,554
Hey, what's going on?
1016
01:15:51,556 --> 01:15:53,558
I have no idea.
1017
01:15:57,596 --> 01:16:01,067
- Michael, what's going on?
- Just grab a tie.
1018
01:16:06,874 --> 01:16:09,206
Sadly, we are
gathered here today
1019
01:16:09,208 --> 01:16:13,345
to say farewell to our son,
1020
01:16:13,347 --> 01:16:15,113
- our friend and our brother...
- Okay.
1021
01:16:15,115 --> 01:16:17,115
...Cameron Van Heusen,
1022
01:16:17,117 --> 01:16:19,685
who, by his own making
last night,
1023
01:16:19,687 --> 01:16:22,056
fell prey to Satan's wishes.
1024
01:16:23,691 --> 01:16:28,228
Brother Van Heusen, is this
what you want for your son?
1025
01:16:28,230 --> 01:16:30,464
No.
1026
01:16:30,466 --> 01:16:33,868
Young man, is this you?
1027
01:16:33,870 --> 01:16:35,871
Brother Cameron,
is this what you want?
1028
01:16:35,873 --> 01:16:37,373
No.
1029
01:16:37,375 --> 01:16:41,042
Both of you, come on.
1030
01:16:41,044 --> 01:16:44,380
- Bring him down here.
- Let's go.
1031
01:16:44,382 --> 01:16:47,218
- Who's gonna strike this demon down?
- I will.
1032
01:16:50,455 --> 01:16:53,323
Out, you demon! Hit him!
1033
01:16:53,325 --> 01:16:54,959
Get out of him!
1034
01:16:54,961 --> 01:16:56,159
That's it.
1035
01:16:56,161 --> 01:16:58,930
- Out!
- Leave, demon! Leave!
1036
01:17:18,253 --> 01:17:20,421
Ow!
1037
01:18:47,353 --> 01:18:50,690
- Yeah. Wow.
- It wasn't so bad, actually.
1038
01:18:54,729 --> 01:18:56,597
Sarah, come on.
1039
01:19:31,336 --> 01:19:33,573
Stay with me.
1040
01:19:36,844 --> 01:19:40,247
I'll prove to you
that God won't strike you down.
1041
01:21:14,520 --> 01:21:17,222
All right, take your seat.
Welcome back, son.
1042
01:21:18,725 --> 01:21:21,525
Now, I don't know
about y'all, but today,
1043
01:21:21,527 --> 01:21:23,294
whew, I feel invigorated.
1044
01:21:23,296 --> 01:21:26,899
And I feel hopeful
and a true sense
1045
01:21:26,901 --> 01:21:32,371
that anything is possible today
in this room.
1046
01:21:32,373 --> 01:21:36,043
Cameron, how do you feel, son?
1047
01:21:36,045 --> 01:21:38,248
I feel great, sir.
1048
01:21:39,548 --> 01:21:42,382
Do you feel the true presence
of God in your heart?
1049
01:21:42,384 --> 01:21:44,285
Yes, sir.
1050
01:21:44,287 --> 01:21:46,921
And that feels great,
doesn't it?
1051
01:21:46,923 --> 01:21:49,325
Yes, sir, it-it does.
1052
01:21:49,327 --> 01:21:51,229
For sure.
1053
01:21:54,565 --> 01:21:56,565
Happy for you, son.
1054
01:21:58,336 --> 01:22:01,138
Moral inventory.
1055
01:22:04,509 --> 01:22:07,747
Jared, you're up, son.
1056
01:22:10,750 --> 01:22:12,684
Come on.
1057
01:22:12,686 --> 01:22:14,954
Come on, son.
1058
01:22:14,956 --> 01:22:17,024
All right. Michael.
1059
01:22:28,437 --> 01:22:31,705
And when you're ready.
1060
01:22:34,210 --> 01:22:37,880
I had thoughts of men.
1061
01:22:37,882 --> 01:22:41,082
Boys at school.
1062
01:22:41,084 --> 01:22:44,386
On TV, on the street,
in my imagination.
1063
01:22:44,388 --> 01:22:46,389
At college,
I held the hand of a boy,
1064
01:22:46,391 --> 01:22:48,561
and I stayed through the night
in his bed.
1065
01:22:51,897 --> 01:22:53,764
For these thoughts
and this action,
1066
01:22:53,766 --> 01:22:55,432
for which I felt regretful,
1067
01:22:55,434 --> 01:22:58,168
- I'd like to ask for God's...
- Wait. Wait. Hold on.
1068
01:22:58,170 --> 01:23:00,739
Jared.
1069
01:23:00,741 --> 01:23:02,942
Come on.
1070
01:23:02,944 --> 01:23:06,077
What else?
1071
01:23:06,079 --> 01:23:08,313
I never...
1072
01:23:08,315 --> 01:23:10,749
I-I stayed through the night
with the boy from college,
1073
01:23:10,751 --> 01:23:12,319
but we never did anything more.
1074
01:23:12,321 --> 01:23:15,622
Listen, don't even try
lying to God, Jared.
1075
01:23:15,624 --> 01:23:17,657
He already sees.
1076
01:23:17,659 --> 01:23:21,261
So, come on. What else?
1077
01:23:21,263 --> 01:23:23,097
Well...
1078
01:23:23,099 --> 01:23:25,000
I lied on my genogram.
1079
01:23:25,002 --> 01:23:26,534
My uncle Chris
wasn't an alcoholic.
1080
01:23:26,536 --> 01:23:30,173
Why don't you tell us
about this Henry boy?
1081
01:23:31,775 --> 01:23:33,875
That your daddy told me about.
1082
01:23:33,877 --> 01:23:36,446
That's not... that's not fair.
1083
01:23:36,448 --> 01:23:39,782
- Why not?
- That's-that's not my sin.
1084
01:23:39,784 --> 01:23:42,285
Do you want to waste
these people's time?
1085
01:23:42,287 --> 01:23:43,453
I'm not.
1086
01:23:43,455 --> 01:23:45,823
No, these people
who got up here honestly
1087
01:23:45,825 --> 01:23:47,191
and were brave and...
1088
01:23:47,193 --> 01:23:48,292
Well, I could
make something up.
1089
01:23:48,294 --> 01:23:49,293
I could make something up.
1090
01:23:49,295 --> 01:23:50,461
- Is that, is that what you...
- Yeah.
1091
01:23:50,463 --> 01:23:52,697
I-Is that what
you want me to do?
1092
01:23:52,699 --> 01:23:55,033
Isn't-isn't that a-a sin, too?
1093
01:23:55,035 --> 01:23:57,068
I mean,
if-if thoughts are a sin,
1094
01:23:57,070 --> 01:23:58,570
I ask God's forgiveness
for that,
1095
01:23:58,572 --> 01:24:01,409
but I'm not,
I'm not making anything up.
1096
01:24:05,647 --> 01:24:08,149
Okay, then. Okay.
1097
01:24:09,985 --> 01:24:11,487
Lie chair.
1098
01:24:12,656 --> 01:24:16,526
I just want to make use
of some of this anger.
1099
01:24:18,828 --> 01:24:21,262
Uh, wait.
Guys, just... just sit.
1100
01:24:21,264 --> 01:24:23,666
Just stay where you are, okay?
1101
01:24:23,668 --> 01:24:25,434
Here he is, Jared.
1102
01:24:25,436 --> 01:24:27,670
Your father is sitting here,
and I want to,
1103
01:24:27,672 --> 01:24:31,273
I want you to tell him
how affected you are by him
1104
01:24:31,275 --> 01:24:33,910
and how angry you are.
1105
01:24:33,912 --> 01:24:35,445
Tell him how you hate him
1106
01:24:35,447 --> 01:24:37,347
for the things that's he's,
the way he...
1107
01:24:37,349 --> 01:24:39,517
- Sit down. Sit down.
- But I'm not angry.
1108
01:24:39,519 --> 01:24:41,786
- And-and he's done things that upset me, but...
- Yeah, I know.
1109
01:24:41,788 --> 01:24:43,187
But you are. You just...
1110
01:24:43,189 --> 01:24:44,722
- You're angry, but you don't...
- He's let me down,
1111
01:24:44,724 --> 01:24:47,426
but why-why...
why do I have to be angry?
1112
01:24:47,428 --> 01:24:49,394
Just sit.
1113
01:24:49,396 --> 01:24:51,363
- Sit down.
- I'm not a dog!
1114
01:24:51,365 --> 01:24:53,465
- I know.
- And I don't think anyone is responsible for me,
1115
01:24:53,467 --> 01:24:55,034
so I don't see
how it's gonna help
1116
01:24:55,036 --> 01:24:57,070
picking someone
to blame or hate.
1117
01:24:57,072 --> 01:24:58,438
If you don't hate
anyone, Jared,
1118
01:24:58,440 --> 01:25:00,607
then where is all this anger
coming from?
1119
01:25:00,609 --> 01:25:02,042
Because you're
making me angry!
1120
01:25:02,044 --> 01:25:04,278
There you go!
I want you to use that!
1121
01:25:04,280 --> 01:25:06,280
I'm not gonna pretend
I hate my father.
1122
01:25:06,282 --> 01:25:09,084
- I don't hate my father.
- Jared, you do.
1123
01:25:09,086 --> 01:25:11,653
You don't know me!
You're all crazy!
1124
01:25:11,655 --> 01:25:13,221
- Hey! I didn't...
- All of you!
1125
01:25:13,223 --> 01:25:15,057
Just... Jared.
1126
01:25:15,059 --> 01:25:18,094
You're in my chair!
There you go!
1127
01:25:18,096 --> 01:25:20,062
- Jared!
- I hate you!
1128
01:25:20,064 --> 01:25:23,767
- But how does that help?!
- Jared.
1129
01:25:33,579 --> 01:25:34,947
Jared!
1130
01:25:34,949 --> 01:25:38,150
Who's in the front office?
1131
01:25:41,922 --> 01:25:45,459
Jared? Son, let's talk. Son?
1132
01:25:47,696 --> 01:25:50,430
Hey. Michael.
1133
01:25:50,432 --> 01:25:52,799
Hey, hey! Give it to me!
1134
01:25:52,801 --> 01:25:54,601
Michael.
1135
01:25:54,603 --> 01:25:57,537
- I want my things and I want to go.
- Hey, Jared. Michael!
1136
01:25:57,539 --> 01:25:58,605
Hey!
1137
01:25:59,710 --> 01:26:03,178
Hey! Michael!
Get out of the room!
1138
01:26:03,180 --> 01:26:05,381
Come here, son.
1139
01:26:07,316 --> 01:26:10,051
Jared? Hey, hey. Hey, listen.
1140
01:26:10,053 --> 01:26:12,822
What you're having is
a natural response, okay?
1141
01:26:12,824 --> 01:26:14,659
Just-just breathe.
1142
01:26:22,903 --> 01:26:24,169
Jared?
1143
01:26:24,171 --> 01:26:26,204
Hey, I just need a minute!
1144
01:26:26,206 --> 01:26:27,472
Be strong.
1145
01:26:27,474 --> 01:26:29,643
- Just go away.
- Take a minute, okay?
1146
01:26:37,351 --> 01:26:40,352
Please pick up, Mom.
1147
01:26:40,354 --> 01:26:42,088
- Jared?
- Mom.
1148
01:26:42,090 --> 01:26:43,757
- Jared?
- Mom, I need you to...
1149
01:26:43,759 --> 01:26:46,392
- I need you to come get me, please.
- What's the matter?
1150
01:26:46,394 --> 01:26:48,729
- What's the matter? What?
- Please, I'm in trouble.
1151
01:26:48,731 --> 01:26:50,064
What's happened?
1152
01:26:50,066 --> 01:26:51,365
Best thing that we can do is
1153
01:26:51,367 --> 01:26:52,867
probably get these guys
back to a session...
1154
01:26:52,869 --> 01:26:56,771
- Hey, son.
- I called my mom and she's coming to get me.
1155
01:26:56,773 --> 01:26:58,740
Listen, you got to understand
1156
01:26:58,742 --> 01:27:00,742
what you're going through
right now is just a moment.
1157
01:27:00,744 --> 01:27:03,046
- A moment? A moment?
- Okay? And I-I feel exactly
1158
01:27:03,048 --> 01:27:04,848
what you're going through.
I think that you and I
1159
01:27:04,850 --> 01:27:06,683
should just get everybody gone,
we just talk.
1160
01:27:06,685 --> 01:27:08,251
I don't want to talk.
I want to go.
1161
01:27:08,253 --> 01:27:10,855
Well, Jared,
I don't want you to.
1162
01:27:10,857 --> 01:27:12,355
I want you to stay.
1163
01:27:12,357 --> 01:27:14,525
Well, I-I read the rules,
1164
01:27:14,527 --> 01:27:17,027
and none of them say
you can stop me from leaving.
1165
01:27:17,029 --> 01:27:18,896
I wouldn't... Can you just check
where Brandon is, please?
1166
01:27:18,898 --> 01:27:23,368
And if you or anyone puts their
hands on me, I have witnesses.
1167
01:27:23,370 --> 01:27:25,304
Nobody's gonna put
their hands on you.
1168
01:27:25,306 --> 01:27:28,373
Why-why would anybody do that?
Come and sit.
1169
01:27:28,375 --> 01:27:30,877
We're gonna wait
for your mom, okay?
1170
01:27:30,879 --> 01:27:33,646
Jesus, our savior,
please focus on Jared.
1171
01:27:33,648 --> 01:27:36,450
Let him see the strength
and courage that he needs.
1172
01:27:36,452 --> 01:27:38,452
I want you to fill him
right now with
1173
01:27:38,454 --> 01:27:39,786
all the wisdom
of everybody in this room
1174
01:27:39,788 --> 01:27:41,588
to show him
how much they love him
1175
01:27:41,590 --> 01:27:43,224
and how much
they care about him...
1176
01:27:43,226 --> 01:27:45,226
- Be strong!
- ...and his journey into
1177
01:27:45,228 --> 01:27:46,828
the fire that
he's walking into
1178
01:27:46,830 --> 01:27:49,131
- and what he's willing to face.
- You are a man.
1179
01:27:49,133 --> 01:27:51,499
Let him open his eyes to see
the wisdom that you have...
1180
01:27:51,501 --> 01:27:52,902
- Jared!
- Mom!
1181
01:27:52,904 --> 01:27:54,303
Jared, honey,
what's happening?
1182
01:27:54,305 --> 01:27:55,571
- Mom! - What?
- Hey, hey! Sit back down!
1183
01:27:55,573 --> 01:27:56,739
Mom, they're not letting me go!
1184
01:27:56,741 --> 01:27:58,975
It's not that
we're not letting him go.
1185
01:27:58,977 --> 01:28:01,411
- Come on. Open this door.
- Just hold on, okay?
1186
01:28:01,413 --> 01:28:03,647
- Who are you?
- Mrs. Eamons, my name is Victor Sykes.
1187
01:28:03,649 --> 01:28:05,349
We spoke on the telephone.
1188
01:28:05,351 --> 01:28:06,650
I don't remember that.
Open the door.
1189
01:28:06,652 --> 01:28:08,352
- Well, I spoke with your husband a couple times.
- No.
1190
01:28:08,354 --> 01:28:09,586
Jared's just having
a moment here,
1191
01:28:09,588 --> 01:28:10,788
born out of
a role-playing exercise.
1192
01:28:10,790 --> 01:28:12,423
- Now be still. - It's fine.
- No, no!
1193
01:28:12,425 --> 01:28:14,192
That's not true.
Mom, tell him to open the door.
1194
01:28:14,194 --> 01:28:15,827
- You settle down.
- No. Enough. -
1195
01:28:15,829 --> 01:28:17,963
- Open the door now, Mr. Sykes.
- Shut up, okay?
1196
01:28:17,965 --> 01:28:20,933
- Listen, can we just all...
- I said open the door now!
1197
01:28:20,935 --> 01:28:22,969
I'm gonna call the police
if you don't open this door.
1198
01:28:22,971 --> 01:28:25,471
- There is no need for that. Listen, please.
- Jared!
1199
01:28:25,473 --> 01:28:27,941
Let him go!
1200
01:28:27,943 --> 01:28:31,446
- You all right, honey?
- Just let him go.
1201
01:28:34,785 --> 01:28:37,451
I just... I just think that...
1202
01:28:37,453 --> 01:28:40,155
Jared, come on.
1203
01:28:40,157 --> 01:28:43,625
I just... I think
it's more important for his...
1204
01:28:43,627 --> 01:28:45,961
development right now
that he...
1205
01:28:45,963 --> 01:28:47,630
- he would've stayed.
- Don't even listen to him.
1206
01:28:47,632 --> 01:28:49,799
Get in the car.
Get in the car.
1207
01:28:52,237 --> 01:28:53,904
You're gonna ruin that child.
1208
01:28:53,906 --> 01:28:56,974
What are your actual
qualifications, Mr. Sykes?
1209
01:28:56,976 --> 01:28:59,476
I never asked. Hmm?
1210
01:28:59,478 --> 01:29:02,347
Are you a doctor? Are you?
Psychologist?
1211
01:29:02,349 --> 01:29:04,718
I mean, a proper one? Are you?
1212
01:29:06,653 --> 01:29:09,654
No. I didn't think so.
1213
01:29:09,656 --> 01:29:11,826
Oh.
1214
01:29:12,927 --> 01:29:14,361
Shame on you!
1215
01:29:15,563 --> 01:29:17,563
Shame on me, too.
1216
01:29:17,565 --> 01:29:19,835
Shame on you!
1217
01:29:47,199 --> 01:29:48,966
Can I help you?
1218
01:29:48,968 --> 01:29:51,469
Uh, I'm not sure
if I'm staying or going.
1219
01:29:51,471 --> 01:29:53,939
All right.
Well, let me know.
1220
01:30:04,485 --> 01:30:07,253
I talked to your father.
1221
01:30:07,255 --> 01:30:10,391
He wants you to go back.
1222
01:30:16,399 --> 01:30:18,665
I told him
we'll see him at home.
1223
01:30:18,667 --> 01:30:22,405
I told him you're not
going back.
1224
01:30:25,109 --> 01:30:28,110
You know that night...
1225
01:30:28,112 --> 01:30:31,747
when Pastor Wilkes and Jim
came to the house?
1226
01:30:31,749 --> 01:30:36,019
Those men decided what to do
with you, and I just...
1227
01:30:36,021 --> 01:30:40,426
I fell into line,
like I usually do.
1228
01:30:41,993 --> 01:30:44,594
They say sometimes
you got to hurt a child
1229
01:30:44,596 --> 01:30:46,764
in order to help them,
and that may be so
1230
01:30:46,766 --> 01:30:48,699
with some things, but...
1231
01:30:48,701 --> 01:30:52,437
a mother knows
when something isn't right.
1232
01:30:52,439 --> 01:30:56,174
And I knew in my bones...
1233
01:30:56,176 --> 01:30:58,880
this wasn't hurting to help.
1234
01:31:00,682 --> 01:31:05,454
I was just letting you down,
and I kept my mouth shut.
1235
01:31:09,125 --> 01:31:12,626
And I will always regret that.
1236
01:31:14,965 --> 01:31:18,199
But I can do
a different thing now,
1237
01:31:18,201 --> 01:31:20,670
now that I have a chance.
1238
01:31:25,676 --> 01:31:29,146
I'll handle your father.
1239
01:31:29,148 --> 01:31:32,885
He can fall into line with me
for a change.
1240
01:31:38,091 --> 01:31:41,593
Some folk,
they don't go to church
1241
01:31:41,595 --> 01:31:44,063
for the right reasons.
1242
01:31:46,834 --> 01:31:51,006
Now, you know the type
of person I'm talking about.
1243
01:31:53,542 --> 01:31:55,744
They just turn up.
1244
01:31:59,882 --> 01:32:05,186
They don't use every day
of their Christian life...
1245
01:32:05,188 --> 01:32:07,021
to praise the Lord
1246
01:32:07,023 --> 01:32:10,792
and to help bring others
to his word.
1247
01:32:10,794 --> 01:32:13,963
It might be your neighbor,
it might be your friend,
1248
01:32:13,965 --> 01:32:16,698
it might be just a face
you only ever see at church.
1249
01:32:16,700 --> 01:32:19,936
They just turn up.
1250
01:32:19,938 --> 01:32:21,537
I will tell you something
that I know.
1251
01:32:21,539 --> 01:32:25,209
Just turning up to church
does not make you a Christian!
1252
01:32:25,211 --> 01:32:27,711
- Yes, sir.
- Amen.
1253
01:32:27,713 --> 01:32:30,582
Study the Bible.
Study his word.
1254
01:32:30,584 --> 01:32:36,555
I guarantee you,
every question you have...
1255
01:32:36,557 --> 01:32:41,560
you gonna find an answer
in this book.
1256
01:32:41,562 --> 01:32:43,164
- Yes.
- Amen.
1257
01:32:51,441 --> 01:32:53,241
Honey,
1258
01:32:53,243 --> 01:32:58,346
um, do you know a boy,
um, Cameron Van Heusen?
1259
01:32:58,348 --> 01:33:00,983
Yeah. Is he here?
1260
01:33:00,985 --> 01:33:04,286
No. No, no.
That-That's the police.
1261
01:33:04,288 --> 01:33:07,756
Apparently,
this-this boy Cameron
1262
01:33:07,758 --> 01:33:09,960
killed himself last night.
1263
01:33:18,937 --> 01:33:22,775
They want to ask you
some questions.
1264
01:34:32,620 --> 01:34:35,122
Thank you.
1265
01:34:55,279 --> 01:34:56,780
- Hey!
- Hi!
1266
01:34:56,782 --> 01:34:58,949
- How are you?
- Hi. How you doing?
1267
01:34:58,951 --> 01:35:01,218
Yeah. Nice to see you!
1268
01:35:01,220 --> 01:35:02,820
I'm good.
1269
01:35:04,824 --> 01:35:07,392
Yeah, I think
they're in the dishwasher.
1270
01:35:07,394 --> 01:35:09,394
Come on, Chris.
1271
01:35:09,396 --> 01:35:11,096
Join us.
1272
01:35:19,073 --> 01:35:20,906
- Oh!
- Did you call it?
1273
01:35:20,908 --> 01:35:22,141
- I didn't hear you...
- Yes!
1274
01:35:22,143 --> 01:35:23,744
I didn't hear you call it.
1275
01:36:29,720 --> 01:36:31,520
- Mom...
- I gave it to him.
1276
01:36:31,522 --> 01:36:35,492
He has it and he'll read it.
He knows he has to.
1277
01:36:35,494 --> 01:36:37,894
M-Mom, it's important
he reads it.
1278
01:36:37,896 --> 01:36:39,562
Can you just put him on?
1279
01:36:39,564 --> 01:36:42,265
Well... I'm calling you
from Little Rock.
1280
01:36:42,267 --> 01:36:45,435
- I'm with Aunt Mary, so you...
- Wait. Why?
1281
01:36:45,437 --> 01:36:48,038
You should just
call him at home.
1282
01:36:48,040 --> 01:36:50,040
What happened?
1283
01:36:50,042 --> 01:36:52,376
Nothing. She just needed
some help with the shop,
1284
01:36:52,378 --> 01:36:55,680
so I came down here, and I'm
driving back tonight. I'm...
1285
01:36:55,682 --> 01:36:58,885
Nothing. Nothing is wrong.
1286
01:37:27,418 --> 01:37:29,986
Seriously, nothing is wrong.
1287
01:37:29,988 --> 01:37:33,322
Why didn't you tell me
you were coming?
1288
01:37:33,324 --> 01:37:34,892
Is he here?
1289
01:37:34,894 --> 01:37:37,662
He left. It is Sunday.
1290
01:37:37,664 --> 01:37:40,232
If it's urgent, you're
gonna have to go to church.
1291
01:37:41,634 --> 01:37:43,099
Why aren't you there?
1292
01:37:43,101 --> 01:37:45,338
Why aren't you at church?
1293
01:37:47,608 --> 01:37:49,441
I go, sometimes.
1294
01:37:49,443 --> 01:37:52,411
I-I support your dad,
and-and...
1295
01:37:52,413 --> 01:37:55,249
Mom, what's going on
with you two?
1296
01:37:57,184 --> 01:37:59,853
Jared, it's...
1297
01:37:59,855 --> 01:38:01,855
He knows.
1298
01:38:01,857 --> 01:38:04,927
I can't be around the...
1299
01:38:06,996 --> 01:38:09,163
I love God.
1300
01:38:09,165 --> 01:38:11,435
God loves me.
1301
01:38:13,437 --> 01:38:15,705
And I love my son.
1302
01:38:15,707 --> 01:38:17,607
That simple.
1303
01:38:17,609 --> 01:38:23,112
For your father,
it's a little more complicated.
1304
01:38:23,114 --> 01:38:26,016
I wish it wasn't, but it is.
1305
01:39:01,992 --> 01:39:03,825
Did you hear about
the article I've got
1306
01:39:03,827 --> 01:39:06,327
coming out in The Times?
1307
01:39:06,329 --> 01:39:09,097
Do you know what it's about?
1308
01:39:09,099 --> 01:39:12,101
I don't want to get
into a fight.
1309
01:39:12,103 --> 01:39:15,004
- Your mother told me, son.
- It's not a fight.
1310
01:39:15,006 --> 01:39:17,206
I'm just...
doing the right thing.
1311
01:39:17,208 --> 01:39:20,044
I'm letting you know.
1312
01:39:20,046 --> 01:39:22,781
I've written more,
and the publishers are
1313
01:39:22,783 --> 01:39:26,450
talking about me putting
together a whole book.
1314
01:39:26,452 --> 01:39:30,722
You don't need to read
any of it.
1315
01:39:30,724 --> 01:39:32,357
I just needed you to know
1316
01:39:32,359 --> 01:39:34,126
that-that it might
be out there.
1317
01:39:34,128 --> 01:39:37,396
Well... now I know.
1318
01:39:37,398 --> 01:39:40,433
But it might be good
for you to read.
1319
01:39:40,435 --> 01:39:45,304
Because you never really asked
what went on there.
1320
01:39:45,306 --> 01:39:48,576
You never really knew
the staff or...
1321
01:39:48,578 --> 01:39:51,211
- or...
- You're right. You're right.
1322
01:39:51,213 --> 01:39:54,382
When the situation came up,
1323
01:39:54,384 --> 01:39:58,220
I did what I've often done
in my life.
1324
01:39:58,222 --> 01:40:01,824
I sought the counsel
of wiser men,
1325
01:40:01,826 --> 01:40:04,293
and I followed their advice.
1326
01:40:04,295 --> 01:40:06,896
What would you do now?
1327
01:40:06,898 --> 01:40:08,898
Now that you're running things.
1328
01:40:08,900 --> 01:40:10,803
Enough.
1329
01:40:14,173 --> 01:40:16,576
Good night.
1330
01:40:45,608 --> 01:40:48,278
For me.
1331
01:41:38,367 --> 01:41:40,401
Is there something
you need help with?
1332
01:41:40,403 --> 01:41:42,771
'Cause, you know,
I got to make my flight.
1333
01:41:42,773 --> 01:41:45,340
Yeah, now, this was
gonna be for Christmas,
1334
01:41:45,342 --> 01:41:47,944
but, uh, well, you know,
your mother tells me
1335
01:41:47,946 --> 01:41:50,012
you like to drive upstate
sometimes to write.
1336
01:41:50,014 --> 01:41:52,684
Dad, I live in New York;
I don't need a car.
1337
01:41:53,685 --> 01:41:55,853
She also tells me...
1338
01:41:55,855 --> 01:41:59,290
you like to write by hand
before you use your computer.
1339
01:41:59,292 --> 01:42:01,393
Just like me.
1340
01:42:02,696 --> 01:42:04,229
This pen...
1341
01:42:04,231 --> 01:42:08,635
is made from a cedar tree
grown in Israel.
1342
01:42:10,071 --> 01:42:11,871
Guided me.
1343
01:42:11,873 --> 01:42:14,540
I've written every sermon
that I've ever delivered
1344
01:42:14,542 --> 01:42:17,645
in this new church
with this pen.
1345
01:42:21,083 --> 01:42:23,485
One writer to another.
1346
01:42:35,066 --> 01:42:37,635
I don't want
to pretend anymore.
1347
01:42:39,436 --> 01:42:41,436
We don't need
to spend time together.
1348
01:42:41,438 --> 01:42:43,273
We don't need to speak
1349
01:42:43,275 --> 01:42:46,343
unless we're gonna talk
to each other properly.
1350
01:42:46,345 --> 01:42:50,080
Like... you-you've done
some things
1351
01:42:50,082 --> 01:42:52,917
that have really hurt me.
1352
01:42:52,919 --> 01:42:55,586
Like-like you never,
you never asked
1353
01:42:55,588 --> 01:42:58,326
if there was more
to my story at college.
1354
01:43:00,128 --> 01:43:03,362
You never asked if I was okay.
1355
01:43:03,364 --> 01:43:06,868
You were too focused
on how it affected you.
1356
01:43:10,105 --> 01:43:15,175
There are so many things
that we've never spoken about.
1357
01:43:15,177 --> 01:43:18,212
And I don't know
if we ever will.
1358
01:43:18,214 --> 01:43:20,015
Yeah.
1359
01:43:25,957 --> 01:43:29,124
You know, all this
was gonna be yours.
1360
01:43:29,126 --> 01:43:32,460
I-I mean, it still will be,
but I meant to run and to...
1361
01:43:32,462 --> 01:43:34,833
make a living from.
1362
01:43:38,371 --> 01:43:40,971
I understand.
1363
01:43:40,973 --> 01:43:43,343
We all got our own paths.
1364
01:43:44,743 --> 01:43:49,547
The truth is
I want you to do well.
1365
01:43:49,549 --> 01:43:52,317
I want you to have
a great life.
1366
01:43:52,319 --> 01:43:53,988
I love you.
1367
01:43:55,689 --> 01:43:58,825
But I can't pretend, either.
1368
01:43:58,827 --> 01:44:01,428
There are things
I disagree with.
1369
01:44:01,430 --> 01:44:03,663
And I'll admit,
I'm gonna be honest,
1370
01:44:03,665 --> 01:44:06,333
I'm, you know...
I am being prideful
1371
01:44:06,335 --> 01:44:09,569
when I resent the fact that
I may never be a grandparent.
1372
01:44:09,571 --> 01:44:11,538
Now, that's just the truth.
1373
01:44:11,540 --> 01:44:14,878
It's hard for me to admit
that I have hurt you.
1374
01:44:16,680 --> 01:44:20,081
And that with my beliefs
and with all that's gone on,
1375
01:44:20,083 --> 01:44:24,454
I understand I-I may have
set myself up to lose you.
1376
01:44:24,456 --> 01:44:28,425
And I've had to ask myself,
and God,
1377
01:44:28,427 --> 01:44:30,628
if I'm ready for that.
1378
01:44:38,071 --> 01:44:42,474
I do not want to lose you.
1379
01:44:42,476 --> 01:44:44,542
Well, it doesn't feel like that.
1380
01:44:44,544 --> 01:44:46,545
I'm sick of avoiding you.
1381
01:44:46,547 --> 01:44:48,881
I'm sick of talking
about nothing.
1382
01:44:48,883 --> 01:44:51,418
I'm sick of it.
1383
01:44:51,420 --> 01:44:54,720
I'm gay, and I'm your son.
1384
01:44:54,722 --> 01:44:57,825
And neither of those things
are going to change.
1385
01:44:57,827 --> 01:45:00,061
Okay? So let's deal with that.
1386
01:45:00,063 --> 01:45:01,896
Or let's call it a day.
1387
01:45:01,898 --> 01:45:07,103
Both of us would be okay,
but that would be a shame.
1388
01:45:10,574 --> 01:45:15,078
I'm not changing.
There's no changing me.
1389
01:45:15,080 --> 01:45:17,180
God knows I tried.
1390
01:45:17,182 --> 01:45:21,619
So if you mean it...
if you really mean that...
1391
01:45:23,589 --> 01:45:28,292
...and you're not ready
to lose me...
1392
01:45:28,294 --> 01:45:29,793
then I'm sorry,
1393
01:45:29,795 --> 01:45:34,032
but you're gonna have to be
the one to change.
1394
01:45:34,034 --> 01:45:36,037
I understand.
1395
01:45:39,006 --> 01:45:41,008
I am gonna try.
1396
01:45:46,549 --> 01:45:48,784
I'll try.
1397
01:45:50,453 --> 01:45:52,654
I got to get going.
1398
01:46:18,151 --> 01:46:19,916
Dad...
1399
01:46:19,918 --> 01:46:23,188
I've invited Mom
to my place for Christmas.
1400
01:46:23,190 --> 01:46:25,423
Yeah.
1401
01:46:25,425 --> 01:46:28,495
You're welcome to come, too.
1402
01:48:32,659 --> 01:48:37,659
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