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Can I help you?

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I have to go back a bit.

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I was 12 years old

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and on a school trip
in the hills.

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Are you making fun of me?

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What do you mean?

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You have this orgasm,
not only an orgasm,

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- but a spontaneous orgasm.
- Yes, it was an orgasm,

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though the doctor
described it as a...

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An epileptic seizure.

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And during that orgasm,

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you have this vision

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of these two women
on each side of you?

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Was she holding the veil
with two fingers like this?

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What's the matter?

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You don't even know who
these women were, do you?

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No, but one of them did
look like the virgin Mary,

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now that you mention it.

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Well, it wasn't the virgin Mary,
I can tell you that.

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From your description,
it must've been

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Valeria Messalina,

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the wife
of emperor claudius,

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the most notorious
nymphomaniac in history.

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And the other woman,

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the one astride the creature,

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that was no one else but
the great Whore of Babylon

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riding on nimrod
in the form of a bull.

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Your story is like a...

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Blasphemous retelling

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of the transfiguration
of Jesus on the mount...

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Which is one
of the eastern church's

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holiest passages.

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It's when
the humanity of Christ

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is illuminated by
the divine light of eternity.

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If anyone else would have
told me that story,

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I would've seen it
as a blasphemous joke,

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spiced up
with a biblical light

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emanating from nothing less
than a spontaneous orgasm.

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And then later, you lost
your orgasm altogether.

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Wagner.
"Das Rheingold,

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the descent
into nibelheim."

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Was it that bad?

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Try to imagine
that in one fell swoop,

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you lost
all desire to read

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and all your love and passion
for books and letters.

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I don't even know
if I can imagine that.

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This is nothing
less than zeno's paradox.

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You are achilles

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and the tortoise
is the orgasm.

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Oh, come on.

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Because you were
giving chase,

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you couldn't reach satisfaction.
That's the paradox.

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I'm sorry, but it seems as if

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you're not taking this
very seriously.

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I'm telling you about the worst
thing that's happened to me,

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that I, at that point
within seconds,

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lost all sexual sensation.

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My cunt simply went numb!

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And immediately
we have to hear

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about this ridiculous
mathematical problem.

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In fact,
I'm in doubt whether

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you're even listening.

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Why do you doubt that?

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Whenever I've told other men
about experiences,

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episodes in my sex life,

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it was easy to see that
they became quite excited.

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I got excited.

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Yes, about
the mathematical crap,

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not about the story.

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What kind of a person
are you actually?

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I...

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You wouldn't know.

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No, but I can guess.

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Why didn't I
get that earlier?

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The fact you don't get excited
over my dirty stories

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is because you can't
relate to them.

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You've never been
with a woman.

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That's quite accurate.

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Not with a man either.

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Are you sorry about that?

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Well yeah, but...

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Out of curiosity.

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Not out of lust,
as you would think.

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I consider myself...
Asexual.

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Of course I...
Experimented

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with masturbation when
I was a teenager, but...

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It didn't
do much for me.

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So there's nothing
sexual about me.

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It's not as uncommon
as you would think.

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And of course I've...

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I've read a lot
about sexual subjects:

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"Canterbury Tales,"
"Decameron,"

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"thousand and one nights."

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You name it

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and I've read it with
great interest and enjoyment...

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But only literary enjoyment.

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But I... but I think
maybe it makes me

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a better listener
to your story.

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I have no
preconceived notions or...

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Or preferences.

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I'm actually the best judge
you could give your story to.

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And when it comes
to deciding whether you're

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a bad human being
or not, I'm...

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I have no problems
with that.

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Because I don't look
at you through the glasses

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coloured by sexuality

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or sexual experience.

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I'm a virgin.

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I'm innocent.

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She's looking at me.

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Yes.

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It's an icon.

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Is it Russian?

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Yes, it's...

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It's a skilled copy,

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maybe in the manner
of rublev.

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Icons are usually connected

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to the eastern church.

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The eastern church?

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I might become
a bit theoretical.

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You may.

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I'd like you to tell me
about your picture.

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Although
the Christian church

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was split up in 1054 because
of differences in opinion

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between the eastern church
and the Western church...

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What we today call
the orthodox church

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and the Roman catholic
church.

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This is a typical
eastern church icon.

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And it usually
depicts the virgin Mary

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and the infant Jesus,
and more rarely,

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for instance,
the crucifixion,

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which in the Western church
was much more prevalent.

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If you generalise,
you could say that

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the Western church
is the church of suffering,

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and the eastern church is
the church of happiness.

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If you imagine a mental journey
from Rome eastward,

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you feel how you move away

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from guilt and pain
towards joy and light.

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But you say you didn't
believe in God.

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No, but the concept
of religion is interesting...

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Like the concept of sex.

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But you won't
find me on my knees

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with the regards to either.

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Let's call this chapter,

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um, "The Eastern Church
and the Western Church."

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But it won't be...
It won't be a story

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about travelling
east from Rome

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towards the light,
but rather the opposite.

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So in order not
to make it too sad,

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I've pepped up the name of the
chapter with an extra title.

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In spite
of my tireless efforts,

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my cunt totally
failed to respond.

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I have to admit
there came a time

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when we had fun together.

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I'll give you a fiver...

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Uh-huh.

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...if you can put this

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up inside your cunt.

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A fiver?

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Right.

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Shit.

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Thank you.

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You're welcome.

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- Didn't get any spoons?
- No, we didn't.

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The most grotesque thing was
that it was during that period

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where every sexual sensation
was denied me...

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A period,
I must admit,

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of secure and restful
domestic comfort...

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We had moved in
together and so on...

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That I became pregnant,

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because I was careless about
my birth control pills.

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Consciously
or unconsciously,

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it was important for me
to have a caesarean.

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I mean,
I was hoping that

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my cunt was going
to fucking work again,

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and I had a feeling that

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a haphazard birth wouldn't
make things better.

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I may have been
imagining things,

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but as I lay there the noise
from the instruments

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rang out in a chord like

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the one from
the little flock.

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Yes.

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And it wasn't fear.

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More like a kind
of disgust.

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I could've sworn
I saw him laughing.

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A laughing son?

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In "Doctor Faustus,"
Thomas mann describes

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the birth of Noah's son ham,

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who was laughing
when he was born.

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Another satanic omen.

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Incidentally, the innocent
child was named marcel,

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after Mars,
the Roman God of war.

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And motherhood?

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I assume maternal love

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didn't quite live up
to its expectations.

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No, I didn't have
any expectations.

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And maternal love
wasn't a problem.

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It was just
that each time

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I looked
into the child's eyes,

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I had this
unsettling feeling

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of having
been found out.

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I know
it's probably a strange thing

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to say about a child...

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That my love
wasn't being returned...

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But it was my perception.

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If Jerome had hoped
for a break

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from what was for him
now mostly strenuous work,

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he could forget about it.

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Fill all my holes.

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I can't, Joe.

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I'm sorry.

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Can we talk about it?

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Of course.

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I love you, I love
your wildness and your desire.

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I love you, Joe.

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At the moment
I don't seem to satisfy you

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in the way that I'd like to.

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Don't get upset, Joe.

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It doesn't mean we won't
continue with our sex life,

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which is very important to me.

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Very important to me.

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Mmm, when you buy a tiger,

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right?
You also have to feed it.

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Um, satisfy it,

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right?

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Long story short:

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I have a tiger on my hands.

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- You mean I'm too much for you.
- No.

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You're just the way
you should be.

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I was just thinking
if you would consider

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that I get a little help
with the feeding, that's all.

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You're saying I should
have sex with others as well.

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That's a rather cruel way
of putting it, Joe, but...

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- But exact.
...Exact.

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For a long time
I'd been playing around

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with the idea that the concept
of the fuck-me-now clothes

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could be improved...

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You look nice.

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...and became
the piano teacher.

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You okay?

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No.

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What's the matter?

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Well, I'm such
an idiot with cars.

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I don't really know what to do.
Do you mind helping me?

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00:19:17,364 --> 00:19:18,823
Well, of course
it won't work.

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Sparkplug caps have
been removed.

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Yes, I did that.

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Was that wrong?

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For the first time I had

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the pleasure of having
an 8-cylinder car.

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The possible combinations
of eight spark-plug caps

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on eight spark plugs
are 40,320,

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if I remembered
my math correctly.

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And only one of these

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will make the car run,

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which gave me
all the time I needed.

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Beethoven, huh?

258
00:19:48,145 --> 00:19:49,979
He was certainly
very good, but, you know,

259
00:19:50,105 --> 00:19:52,231
- he couldn't write a fugue.
- You think so?

260
00:19:52,357 --> 00:19:54,567
Well...

261
00:19:54,693 --> 00:19:56,194
Yeah, I think so.

262
00:20:12,044 --> 00:20:14,712
It would be more precise
to say that Beethoven

263
00:20:14,838 --> 00:20:17,048
renewed the fugue...

264
00:20:18,675 --> 00:20:22,094
But he was such a visionary
that the old bach purists,

265
00:20:22,221 --> 00:20:24,639
they accused him
of not mastering it.

266
00:20:47,621 --> 00:20:49,121
Good day?

267
00:21:21,697 --> 00:21:23,364
And now to reach the heart

268
00:21:23,490 --> 00:21:25,324
of your suffering
Western church,

269
00:21:25,450 --> 00:21:28,035
I have to jump ahead
three years in the story

270
00:21:28,161 --> 00:21:30,371
and talk about my meeting

271
00:21:30,497 --> 00:21:32,248
with what I would call

272
00:21:32,374 --> 00:21:34,250
"The Dangerous Men."

273
00:21:39,548 --> 00:21:42,425
I was alone with marcel
a lot during this period,

274
00:21:42,551 --> 00:21:45,386
as Jerome was travelling
most of the time.

275
00:21:45,512 --> 00:21:47,430
And when he was finally home,

276
00:21:47,556 --> 00:21:49,140
he spent most of the time

277
00:21:49,266 --> 00:21:51,559
accusing me
of neglecting marcel,

278
00:21:51,685 --> 00:21:53,102
which in my opinion

279
00:21:53,228 --> 00:21:56,480
was just a cover
for his anger over my lovers.

280
00:21:56,606 --> 00:22:00,192
Any sexual satisfaction,
let alone orgasm,

281
00:22:00,319 --> 00:22:02,987
was further away
than ever before.

282
00:22:12,706 --> 00:22:14,874
I had to make a change.

283
00:22:15,000 --> 00:22:17,877
And somehow the inspiration
had been right there

284
00:22:18,003 --> 00:22:21,130
beneath my window
the whole time.

285
00:22:21,256 --> 00:22:24,050
I could feel that it
turned me on enormously

286
00:22:24,176 --> 00:22:27,053
to imagine
a sexual situation

287
00:22:27,179 --> 00:22:31,015
in which verbal communication
was impossible.

288
00:22:34,353 --> 00:22:35,811
- Hello.
- Hello.

289
00:22:35,937 --> 00:22:37,563
I'm Tobias,
the interpreter.

290
00:22:37,689 --> 00:22:40,316
Hello, I'm Joe.
Come in.

291
00:22:40,609 --> 00:22:43,152
I understand that you master
the African languages.

292
00:22:43,278 --> 00:22:45,279
I do have a basis.

293
00:22:46,615 --> 00:22:48,366
Who and what needs
interpretation?

294
00:22:48,492 --> 00:22:50,910
Um, that man...

295
00:22:52,204 --> 00:22:53,913
The one
with the green jacket?

296
00:22:54,206 --> 00:22:57,958
You are to ask him if
he wants to have sex with me.

297
00:22:59,169 --> 00:23:00,586
Yeah? Um...

298
00:23:25,612 --> 00:23:27,321
Is it a go?

299
00:23:27,447 --> 00:23:29,573
It's hard to say.

300
00:23:29,699 --> 00:23:32,410
I've written down
the time and the place,

301
00:23:32,536 --> 00:23:34,203
but, um...

302
00:23:35,705 --> 00:23:37,957
Honestly I wouldn't like
to take responsibility

303
00:23:38,083 --> 00:23:40,167
for the precise wording
in this case,

304
00:23:40,293 --> 00:23:42,253
which I think, uh,

305
00:23:42,379 --> 00:23:44,463
accidentally may belong

306
00:23:44,589 --> 00:23:46,841
to a grey zone
in my profession.

307
00:23:49,553 --> 00:23:52,263
It was the address
of a cheap hotel.

308
00:24:00,897 --> 00:24:02,398
Why were there two?

309
00:24:02,524 --> 00:24:04,275
My words exactly.

310
00:24:04,401 --> 00:24:07,987
Apparently N had brought
his brother along.

311
00:24:08,113 --> 00:24:09,947
Very sorry.
Sorry, sorry, sorry.

312
00:26:16,283 --> 00:26:18,534
Why was he so angry?

313
00:26:18,660 --> 00:26:20,202
Clearly it was

314
00:26:20,328 --> 00:26:22,246
something personal
between them,

315
00:26:22,372 --> 00:26:25,040
but later I heard that
performing a sandwich

316
00:26:25,166 --> 00:26:28,210
requires great sensitivity,
since the men apparently

317
00:26:28,336 --> 00:26:30,879
can feel each other
through the tissue.

318
00:26:31,006 --> 00:26:33,632
I imagine the quarrel
had already started

319
00:26:33,758 --> 00:26:36,635
on the stairs and that one
or the other party

320
00:26:36,761 --> 00:26:39,555
had laid claim to one
or the other of my holes

321
00:26:39,681 --> 00:26:42,516
in conflict with his negro
brother's interests.

322
00:26:43,643 --> 00:26:45,394
You shouldn't use that word.

323
00:26:45,520 --> 00:26:48,063
It's not what you call
politically correct...

324
00:26:48,189 --> 00:26:51,358
- "Negro."
- Well, excuse me,

325
00:26:51,484 --> 00:26:53,444
but in my circles

326
00:26:53,570 --> 00:26:56,488
it's always been a mark of
honour to call a spade a spade.

327
00:26:57,616 --> 00:27:00,200
Each time a word
becomes prohibited,

328
00:27:00,327 --> 00:27:03,245
you remove a stone from
the Democratic foundation.

329
00:27:03,371 --> 00:27:06,081
Society demonstrates
its impotence

330
00:27:06,207 --> 00:27:08,125
in the face
of a concrete problem

331
00:27:08,251 --> 00:27:10,210
by removing words
from the language.

332
00:27:10,337 --> 00:27:12,463
I think society
would claim that...

333
00:27:12,589 --> 00:27:15,549
That politically correctness
is a very precise expression

334
00:27:15,675 --> 00:27:18,385
of Democratic concern
for minorities.

335
00:27:18,511 --> 00:27:20,971
And I say that society

336
00:27:21,097 --> 00:27:23,515
is as cowardly
as the people in it,

337
00:27:23,642 --> 00:27:27,561
who in my opinion are also
too stupid for democracy.

338
00:27:29,522 --> 00:27:32,650
I understand your point,
but I totally disagree.

339
00:27:32,776 --> 00:27:34,943
I have no doubt
in the human qualities.

340
00:27:35,070 --> 00:27:37,696
The human qualities

341
00:27:37,822 --> 00:27:39,823
can be expressed
in one word:

342
00:27:39,949 --> 00:27:42,034
Hypocrisy.

343
00:27:42,160 --> 00:27:45,412
We elevate those who say
"right" but mean "wrong"

344
00:27:45,538 --> 00:27:49,041
and mock those who
say "wrong" but mean "right."

345
00:27:54,714 --> 00:27:56,715
By the way,
I can assure you

346
00:27:56,841 --> 00:28:00,135
that women who claim that
negros don't turn them on,

347
00:28:00,261 --> 00:28:02,930
- they're lying.
- So did they satisfy you?

348
00:28:04,140 --> 00:28:06,016
Those ne-negros?

349
00:28:07,185 --> 00:28:09,061
No.

350
00:28:09,187 --> 00:28:11,105
But they showed me
that there was a world

351
00:28:11,231 --> 00:28:13,482
far from mine
I had to explore.

352
00:28:14,943 --> 00:28:17,861
And there, or perhaps
on the other side,

353
00:28:17,987 --> 00:28:20,531
get my life back.

354
00:28:59,904 --> 00:29:01,655
Who are you?

355
00:29:03,825 --> 00:29:05,576
I know what you do.

356
00:29:05,702 --> 00:29:07,661
I'd like to be

357
00:29:07,787 --> 00:29:09,621
one of the women
you see.

358
00:29:13,710 --> 00:29:15,335
That's of no interest.

359
00:29:21,718 --> 00:29:22,968
Madame.

360
00:30:06,137 --> 00:30:07,805
Princess,

361
00:30:07,931 --> 00:30:09,765
I specifically
said five days,

362
00:30:09,891 --> 00:30:11,934
and five days
haven't gone yet.

363
00:30:13,102 --> 00:30:15,020
So...

364
00:30:15,146 --> 00:30:16,980
You'll have
to leave.

365
00:30:17,106 --> 00:30:18,148
I'm sorry.

366
00:30:29,452 --> 00:30:31,203
I, um...

367
00:30:31,329 --> 00:30:34,122
I don't think
this is for you.

368
00:30:43,341 --> 00:30:45,467
How mysterious.

369
00:30:47,178 --> 00:30:49,263
Will you give me
a reasonable explanation now

370
00:30:49,389 --> 00:30:51,932
or shall we wait?

371
00:30:53,434 --> 00:30:55,435
I can't give you
an explanation,

372
00:30:55,562 --> 00:30:57,646
and certainly not
a reasonable...

373
00:30:59,065 --> 00:31:01,567
What exactly were
the rumours about him?

374
00:31:03,444 --> 00:31:04,736
That he was violent.

375
00:31:04,863 --> 00:31:06,947
How can that be
inciting?

376
00:31:11,369 --> 00:31:13,745
I think the easiest way
to understand it

377
00:31:13,872 --> 00:31:16,790
is to refer
to my rebellious nature.

378
00:31:18,084 --> 00:31:20,377
This business of k's was

379
00:31:20,503 --> 00:31:23,130
something I was
completely against.

380
00:31:23,256 --> 00:31:26,258
So the fact that I was
now contacting him was

381
00:31:26,384 --> 00:31:28,343
a last, desperate attempt

382
00:31:28,469 --> 00:31:30,470
to rehabilitate my sexuality.

383
00:31:32,599 --> 00:31:35,475
The system was
the overriding factor with K.

384
00:31:36,895 --> 00:31:38,270
A system of violence?

385
00:31:39,772 --> 00:31:42,691
Well, you were the one

386
00:31:42,817 --> 00:31:46,153
who insisted on
the Western church, right?

387
00:31:46,279 --> 00:31:49,072
And I...
I seem to remember

388
00:31:49,198 --> 00:31:52,200
that the systematic
approach

389
00:31:52,327 --> 00:31:55,120
to the crucifixion
is of a violent

390
00:31:55,246 --> 00:31:57,247
and not to say
sadistic nature.

391
00:31:57,373 --> 00:31:59,082
Oh yes,
the passion of Christ

392
00:31:59,208 --> 00:32:01,084
is full
of systematic violence...

393
00:32:01,210 --> 00:32:02,586
The Via Dolorosa,

394
00:32:02,712 --> 00:32:04,296
the nine stations
of the cross

395
00:32:04,422 --> 00:32:05,881
and the 39 lashes.

396
00:32:30,073 --> 00:32:31,907
You are beginning
to irritate me.

397
00:32:42,710 --> 00:32:44,086
Stand up.

398
00:32:56,265 --> 00:32:58,308
I just want you to sit

399
00:32:58,434 --> 00:33:00,936
completely relaxed...

400
00:33:02,563 --> 00:33:04,648
While I hit you
in the face.

401
00:33:04,774 --> 00:33:07,025
Nothing special.

402
00:33:07,151 --> 00:33:09,069
It's just a...

403
00:33:09,195 --> 00:33:11,405
It's just a slap.

404
00:33:16,244 --> 00:33:18,161
Are you ready?

405
00:33:39,475 --> 00:33:41,059
Let me tell you
the rules then.

406
00:33:44,147 --> 00:33:46,523
The first rule is
that I don't fuck you

407
00:33:46,649 --> 00:33:49,651
and that there isn't any
discussions about that.

408
00:33:51,362 --> 00:33:53,864
Then what do you
get out of it?

409
00:33:53,990 --> 00:33:55,490
That's my business

410
00:33:55,616 --> 00:33:58,869
and I don't want you
to mention it again.

411
00:33:58,995 --> 00:34:01,580
The second rule is that
we have no safe word.

412
00:34:03,499 --> 00:34:06,251
Meaning that if you, uh,
go inside with me,

413
00:34:06,377 --> 00:34:08,795
there is nothing
that you can say

414
00:34:08,921 --> 00:34:10,505
that will make me stop

415
00:34:10,631 --> 00:34:13,091
any plan or procedure.

416
00:34:14,677 --> 00:34:18,388
You must bring a brown
used leather riding crop.

417
00:34:20,558 --> 00:34:23,727
And not one from a shop
selling sex toys.

418
00:34:24,979 --> 00:34:26,855
It's not a masquerade.

419
00:34:28,941 --> 00:34:31,443
Third rule:

420
00:34:31,569 --> 00:34:33,904
If I choose to let you in,

421
00:34:34,030 --> 00:34:36,907
you have to be
sitting out here.

422
00:34:37,033 --> 00:34:39,034
In other words, you...

423
00:34:39,160 --> 00:34:41,203
You won't know when.

424
00:34:41,329 --> 00:34:42,913
Only that it will be

425
00:34:43,039 --> 00:34:44,623
sometime between...

426
00:34:45,833 --> 00:34:47,375
2:00 and 6:00 at night.

427
00:34:47,502 --> 00:34:49,544
I can't stay here
that late.

428
00:34:49,670 --> 00:34:52,339
My babysitter's
not reliable and...

429
00:34:52,465 --> 00:34:54,049
I can't leave my child.

430
00:34:56,344 --> 00:34:58,303
You don't even
know my name!

431
00:34:58,429 --> 00:35:00,347
I'm not interested
in your name.

432
00:35:02,141 --> 00:35:04,059
Here your name is...

433
00:35:06,896 --> 00:35:08,188
Fido.

434
00:35:22,787 --> 00:35:24,329
Marcel's awake.

435
00:35:24,455 --> 00:35:26,581
D'you want to say goodbye
to your mom?

436
00:35:27,667 --> 00:35:29,292
Goodbye.

437
00:35:40,680 --> 00:35:42,347
I'll take your coat.

438
00:36:02,910 --> 00:36:04,953
I'd like you to have
your hair up.

439
00:36:06,622 --> 00:36:07,956
You can use this.

440
00:36:09,417 --> 00:36:11,126
Just in case
it becomes necessary for me

441
00:36:11,252 --> 00:36:12,627
to hit you in the face.

442
00:36:14,046 --> 00:36:15,547
Should I take
my clothes off?

443
00:36:17,300 --> 00:36:19,092
I'll tell you
what to do...

444
00:36:19,218 --> 00:36:21,052
And when.

445
00:36:24,182 --> 00:36:25,557
Now you may bend down.

446
00:36:25,683 --> 00:36:27,184
How?

447
00:36:29,187 --> 00:36:30,937
Approach the chair.

448
00:36:32,857 --> 00:36:34,107
Now bend from the hips.

449
00:36:37,904 --> 00:36:39,529
Look forward.
Look forward.

450
00:36:39,655 --> 00:36:41,823
With your head up.
Head up.

451
00:36:41,949 --> 00:36:43,742
Keep looking forward.

452
00:36:50,333 --> 00:36:52,417
Keep looking forward.

453
00:36:57,465 --> 00:36:58,924
You may stand up.

454
00:37:00,760 --> 00:37:02,177
We have to use
the couch.

455
00:37:05,306 --> 00:37:06,473
Come this way.

456
00:37:09,560 --> 00:37:11,394
Take it easy,
take it easy.

457
00:37:13,606 --> 00:37:15,065
Bend over.

458
00:37:17,860 --> 00:37:19,736
Lay your arms
out straight.

459
00:37:30,456 --> 00:37:31,790
Take it easy.

460
00:37:31,916 --> 00:37:34,209
Take it easy.

461
00:37:57,692 --> 00:37:59,442
Take it easy.

462
00:38:31,892 --> 00:38:33,435
Next time
don't wear knickers.

463
00:38:59,587 --> 00:39:01,254
Your ass is
not high enough.

464
00:39:02,673 --> 00:39:04,299
I don't think
we can do this today.

465
00:39:04,425 --> 00:39:06,134
What?

466
00:39:12,808 --> 00:39:15,018
I'd like to see you again
on Thursday.

467
00:39:22,068 --> 00:39:24,194
What's wrong?

468
00:39:24,320 --> 00:39:26,654
I think we should
see how it goes on Thursday.

469
00:39:39,543 --> 00:39:41,961
Hi, I can't
come to the phone right now.

470
00:39:42,088 --> 00:39:43,797
Please leave a message.

471
00:39:43,923 --> 00:39:47,092
Yes, this is
marcel's mother again.

472
00:39:47,218 --> 00:39:49,594
Uh, it's now 1:30.

473
00:39:49,720 --> 00:39:52,097
We had an agreement.

474
00:39:52,223 --> 00:39:55,850
I hope you get this message
and come as quickly as you can.

475
00:39:57,978 --> 00:40:00,605
Uh, marcel is sleeping.

476
00:40:00,731 --> 00:40:02,524
Um...

477
00:40:02,650 --> 00:40:04,567
I have to go now.

478
00:41:00,499 --> 00:41:02,167
Better.

479
00:41:22,021 --> 00:41:23,855
Also so much better.

480
00:41:23,981 --> 00:41:25,815
So much better.

481
00:41:32,698 --> 00:41:34,949
I am now going
to hit you 12 times

482
00:41:35,075 --> 00:41:36,784
no matter how much
you scream...

483
00:41:38,245 --> 00:41:41,206
...'cause no one can
hear you down here.

484
00:41:47,296 --> 00:41:48,880
That's, uh...

485
00:41:49,006 --> 00:41:51,466
That's not how it goes.

486
00:41:53,385 --> 00:41:55,720
Most people don't scream
until I hit them.

487
00:42:34,343 --> 00:42:36,386
Oh!

488
00:42:57,449 --> 00:42:59,117
That's it.

489
00:43:03,247 --> 00:43:04,497
Thank you.

490
00:43:05,749 --> 00:43:06,916
You're very welcome.

491
00:43:12,965 --> 00:43:16,301
I don't know where we get
our sexuality from

492
00:43:16,427 --> 00:43:19,596
or where tendencies
of this kind come from.

493
00:43:21,557 --> 00:43:24,475
Probably a perversion
created in our childhood

494
00:43:24,602 --> 00:43:27,103
that never manifested
itself before.

495
00:43:27,229 --> 00:43:29,480
Well, oddly enough,

496
00:43:29,607 --> 00:43:32,859
Freud says the opposite.
He talks about

497
00:43:32,985 --> 00:43:35,153
the polymorphic perversion
of a child.

498
00:43:35,279 --> 00:43:37,488
Meaning that in a child,

499
00:43:37,615 --> 00:43:40,074
all kinds
of perversions exist.

500
00:43:41,368 --> 00:43:43,286
And then we use
the childhood

501
00:43:43,412 --> 00:43:45,455
to diminish or remove
some of them.

502
00:43:46,957 --> 00:43:49,917
Basically a child is
sexually polymorphic

503
00:43:50,044 --> 00:43:53,004
and everything is sexuality
in an infant.

504
00:43:54,965 --> 00:43:57,091
And yet it was
deeply bizarre

505
00:43:57,217 --> 00:43:59,260
to lie there

506
00:43:59,386 --> 00:44:01,429
and especially to want
to lie there.

507
00:44:01,555 --> 00:44:04,891
It is an interesting point
that you actually lubricated

508
00:44:05,017 --> 00:44:07,852
in expectation for a pain

509
00:44:07,978 --> 00:44:09,937
that you hadn't
experienced.

510
00:44:11,565 --> 00:44:13,775
Your body prepared itself

511
00:44:13,901 --> 00:44:16,819
for an intercourse that
you knew wouldn't happen.

512
00:44:19,448 --> 00:44:22,158
I can only describe
the mood as sexual.

513
00:44:23,702 --> 00:44:25,787
As I twisted and turned

514
00:44:25,913 --> 00:44:27,914
while he was whipping me,

515
00:44:28,040 --> 00:44:30,500
I could feel how clever
his knots were.

516
00:44:32,086 --> 00:44:34,671
If I fought them,
they would get tighter,

517
00:44:34,797 --> 00:44:37,090
and as I relaxed,

518
00:44:37,216 --> 00:44:38,841
it seemed they did too.

519
00:44:40,177 --> 00:44:42,345
I don't know
what kind of knot

520
00:44:42,471 --> 00:44:45,056
k used...

521
00:44:46,100 --> 00:44:47,850
But I know of a knot

522
00:44:47,976 --> 00:44:51,229
that tightens when
force is exerted

523
00:44:51,355 --> 00:44:53,981
and vice versa.
It's called a Prusik Knot.

524
00:44:55,776 --> 00:44:59,112
It's after a man called Prusik.
He was a Mountain climber.

525
00:44:59,238 --> 00:45:01,364
And he and a friend
were out climbing

526
00:45:01,490 --> 00:45:03,741
and they had an accident

527
00:45:03,867 --> 00:45:05,660
and his friend died.

528
00:45:05,786 --> 00:45:08,830
And he ended up hanging
at the end of a rope

529
00:45:08,956 --> 00:45:12,166
with no possibility
of getting up.

530
00:45:12,292 --> 00:45:15,586
You know, you can't climb up
a Mountain-climber rope.

531
00:45:15,713 --> 00:45:17,755
It's too thin.

532
00:45:17,881 --> 00:45:19,632
But he was
an intelligent man,

533
00:45:19,758 --> 00:45:23,386
and with his back to the wall
he was a genius.

534
00:45:25,013 --> 00:45:28,015
And he took the shoelaces
out of his boots

535
00:45:28,142 --> 00:45:32,562
and made two loops
and affixed them to the rope.

536
00:45:32,688 --> 00:45:34,522
And he could move these up

537
00:45:34,648 --> 00:45:36,482
when they weren't
under tension.

538
00:45:36,608 --> 00:45:38,776
And then he could
step into them

539
00:45:38,902 --> 00:45:41,070
and climb the rope
and save himself.

540
00:45:43,031 --> 00:45:44,741
Prusik.

541
00:45:48,203 --> 00:45:51,247
I think this was one
of your weakest digressions.

542
00:45:55,586 --> 00:45:57,253
May I continue?

543
00:45:57,379 --> 00:45:59,714
Well, be my guest.

544
00:46:45,052 --> 00:46:47,970
I sometimes give
a Christmas present.

545
00:46:49,473 --> 00:46:52,600
But, uh, you have to do
the work yourself.

546
00:47:07,699 --> 00:47:09,367
This is called
a blood knot.

547
00:47:09,493 --> 00:47:12,119
You have to make
nine ropes

548
00:47:12,246 --> 00:47:14,205
with three blood knots
on each.

549
00:47:14,331 --> 00:47:16,207
Let me see you do it.

550
00:47:16,333 --> 00:47:18,793
You decide
whether to make four,

551
00:47:18,919 --> 00:47:21,003
five or six turns

552
00:47:21,129 --> 00:47:22,755
in the various knots.

553
00:50:19,391 --> 00:50:20,975
Joe?

554
00:50:22,728 --> 00:50:24,520
Hello.

555
00:50:34,865 --> 00:50:36,323
Marcel?

556
00:50:39,745 --> 00:50:41,287
Marcel!

557
00:51:15,447 --> 00:51:18,532
- Are you fond of me still?
- Yes.

558
00:51:18,658 --> 00:51:21,327
More fond of me
than the others?

559
00:51:23,455 --> 00:51:24,872
- Yes?
- Yes.

560
00:51:26,958 --> 00:51:29,877
You're not thinking of leaving
again tonight, are you?

561
00:51:30,003 --> 00:51:31,462
- No.
- No?

562
00:51:31,588 --> 00:51:33,923
- No, no. Not at all.
- Are you sure?

563
00:51:35,634 --> 00:51:36,926
Yeah.

564
00:51:37,052 --> 00:51:38,719
Are you lying
to me, Joe?

565
00:51:39,721 --> 00:51:41,388
- No.
- Be honest.

566
00:51:41,515 --> 00:51:43,474
It's all right.

567
00:51:43,600 --> 00:51:46,894
Just fucking say it.

568
00:51:47,020 --> 00:51:48,979
No, I... I just
want to be here.

569
00:51:49,106 --> 00:51:50,397
Why?

570
00:51:54,736 --> 00:51:56,403
I don't know.

571
00:52:02,702 --> 00:52:04,411
If you leave tonight...

572
00:52:06,289 --> 00:52:09,166
You'll never see me or marcel
ever again in your life.

573
00:52:13,171 --> 00:52:14,880
Do you understand?

574
00:53:31,041 --> 00:53:33,125
Is this goodbye?

575
00:53:36,004 --> 00:53:38,547
Is that what you're saying?

576
00:53:38,673 --> 00:53:40,674
Marcel, get up.

577
00:53:40,800 --> 00:53:42,885
- Stop it.
- Is that what you want?

578
00:53:44,179 --> 00:53:46,347
Here, so you could see him.

579
00:53:46,473 --> 00:53:48,057
Look at him, Joe.

580
00:53:54,397 --> 00:53:56,398
Let's face it, Joe,
you're not a mother.

581
00:53:57,901 --> 00:54:00,527
Let's wake him up.

582
00:54:00,654 --> 00:54:03,280
Marcel, baby boy,

583
00:54:03,406 --> 00:54:05,908
say, "bye, mom."

584
00:54:06,034 --> 00:54:08,410
- Please put him back.
- Is this what you want?

585
00:54:08,536 --> 00:54:10,704
Hmm?

586
00:54:10,830 --> 00:54:13,249
- Ma.
- You see?

587
00:54:13,375 --> 00:54:15,918
You see,
he wants you.

588
00:54:16,044 --> 00:54:18,420
Come.

589
00:54:20,507 --> 00:54:22,591
It's Christmas.
It's fucking Christmas.

590
00:54:46,116 --> 00:54:47,700
What is this?

591
00:54:49,619 --> 00:54:52,204
Today it's Madame
who must wait.

592
00:55:00,964 --> 00:55:03,007
Madame, I'm very sorry,

593
00:55:03,133 --> 00:55:06,343
but I have to have
a few words with fido first.

594
00:55:26,156 --> 00:55:28,407
I really ought to
send you home.

595
00:55:50,555 --> 00:55:52,181
Happy Christmas, fido.

596
00:56:54,619 --> 00:56:56,745
I want your cock.

597
00:56:56,871 --> 00:56:58,247
What did you say?

598
00:56:58,373 --> 00:57:01,291
I want your cock.

599
00:57:01,418 --> 00:57:03,127
No. No, you don't.

600
00:57:03,253 --> 00:57:05,045
No, you don't. No.

601
00:57:08,341 --> 00:57:10,134
What's the matter
with you today?

602
00:57:32,115 --> 00:57:34,450
On account of the holidays

603
00:57:34,576 --> 00:57:36,910
and your behaviour today,

604
00:57:37,036 --> 00:57:40,122
I'm going to give you
the original Roman maximum

605
00:57:40,248 --> 00:57:42,833
of 40 lashes.
Are you ready, fido?

606
00:57:44,836 --> 00:57:46,712
I'm ready.

607
00:57:53,011 --> 00:57:54,303
One.

608
00:57:56,473 --> 00:57:57,556
Two.

609
00:57:58,725 --> 00:58:00,893
Three.

610
00:58:03,480 --> 00:58:04,855
Four.

611
00:58:05,982 --> 00:58:07,316
Five.

612
00:58:09,611 --> 00:58:10,944
Six.

613
00:58:24,292 --> 00:58:26,710
I'd seen through
k's knot technique,

614
00:58:26,836 --> 00:58:30,547
so I was able to loosen my
position a bit to move my pelvis,

615
00:58:30,673 --> 00:58:33,133
and thereby
stimulate my clitoris

616
00:58:33,259 --> 00:58:35,093
against the cover
of the book.

617
00:59:12,590 --> 00:59:14,591
And when you came home,

618
00:59:14,717 --> 00:59:17,135
Jerome and the child
were gone?

619
00:59:24,394 --> 00:59:26,770
I haven't seen marcel since.

620
00:59:31,150 --> 00:59:33,110
The sentimentality of...

621
00:59:33,236 --> 00:59:34,903
I hate it.

622
00:59:38,783 --> 00:59:39,950
Why?

623
00:59:40,076 --> 00:59:42,411
Because it's a lie.

624
00:59:46,374 --> 00:59:48,125
Are you sure?

625
00:59:55,258 --> 00:59:57,593
Jerome understood
that he couldn't prioritise

626
00:59:57,719 --> 01:00:00,929
his life according
to a child either.

627
01:00:02,557 --> 01:00:04,600
So he put him
in a foster home.

628
01:00:08,563 --> 01:00:11,189
My only contact to the boy
is the thousand pounds

629
01:00:11,316 --> 01:00:13,191
I put in his account
every month.

630
01:00:14,193 --> 01:00:16,153
Anonymously.

631
01:00:18,406 --> 01:00:20,365
As a penance.

632
01:00:38,217 --> 01:00:40,552
After all this sadness,
may I ask...

633
01:00:43,473 --> 01:00:45,349
What happened
to the silent duck?

634
01:00:45,475 --> 01:00:47,559
Oh shit.

635
01:00:47,685 --> 01:00:51,897
The silent duck.
I'd forgotten all about it.

636
01:00:54,192 --> 01:00:56,526
One night K had been in
what was for him

637
01:00:56,653 --> 01:00:58,487
an unusually good mood.

638
01:00:58,613 --> 01:01:01,073
I don't know what caused it,
but he didn't hit hard

639
01:01:01,199 --> 01:01:03,659
and he joked that
he would introduce me

640
01:01:03,785 --> 01:01:06,870
to the concept
of the silent duck.

641
01:01:25,640 --> 01:01:27,641
One hardly dare imagine

642
01:01:27,767 --> 01:01:29,810
"The Quacking Duck."

643
01:01:38,695 --> 01:01:40,654
Oh.

644
01:01:42,782 --> 01:01:47,160
Well, deep down,
little K seems to have been

645
01:01:47,286 --> 01:01:50,706
a jolly man
with versatile talents.

646
01:01:50,832 --> 01:01:53,250
But he got that bit about

647
01:01:53,376 --> 01:01:55,961
Roman punishment
and the 40 lashes wrong.

648
01:01:56,087 --> 01:01:58,839
Because it's true that
the highest punishment

649
01:01:58,965 --> 01:02:00,507
was 40 lashes,

650
01:02:00,633 --> 01:02:02,634
but it had to be delivered
in series of three.

651
01:02:04,262 --> 01:02:06,263
That's why Jesus
only got 39 lashes,

652
01:02:06,389 --> 01:02:08,223
because three goes into 39

653
01:02:08,349 --> 01:02:11,226
but not into 40.

654
01:02:16,441 --> 01:02:17,649
You have a mirror.

655
01:02:18,651 --> 01:02:20,110
Yes.

656
01:02:20,236 --> 01:02:22,446
It's like a thought,
isn't it?

657
01:02:27,160 --> 01:02:29,453
Are you ready
for another chapter?

658
01:02:29,579 --> 01:02:31,163
Go on.

659
01:02:56,898 --> 01:02:59,107
Some years later,
the bodily abuse

660
01:02:59,233 --> 01:03:01,151
began to have an effect.

661
01:03:01,277 --> 01:03:04,696
First, rare bleedings
from my clitoris,

662
01:03:04,822 --> 01:03:07,741
but then they became
more and more frequent.

663
01:03:17,543 --> 01:03:18,919
Come in.

664
01:03:20,671 --> 01:03:23,381
Have you heard any of
the rumours about yourself?

665
01:03:27,553 --> 01:03:30,055
They say you see men
every evening.

666
01:03:33,976 --> 01:03:35,685
And spend all night
with them.

667
01:03:35,812 --> 01:03:38,647
They say you can't be trusted...
All of them.

668
01:03:41,901 --> 01:03:43,902
Why do they say that?

669
01:03:46,405 --> 01:03:48,532
I suppose
they're afraid that I...

670
01:03:48,658 --> 01:03:51,409
I can't keep away
from their men.

671
01:03:54,664 --> 01:03:56,498
Right.

672
01:03:56,624 --> 01:03:59,209
- And can you?
- No.

673
01:04:03,172 --> 01:04:05,257
I've spoken
with a psychologist.

674
01:04:07,260 --> 01:04:09,427
He says you're addicted,
but that it's not

675
01:04:09,554 --> 01:04:11,930
the kind of addiction
that can't be treated.

676
01:04:12,056 --> 01:04:13,932
They have some groups.

677
01:04:15,226 --> 01:04:17,727
I know about
these kinds of groups.

678
01:04:17,854 --> 01:04:21,147
I don't have anything
to say to a psychologist.

679
01:04:21,274 --> 01:04:23,775
I'm not suggesting therapy.
I'm demanding it.

680
01:04:25,820 --> 01:04:28,029
Even if you leave us, it'll be
the same at your next job

681
01:04:28,155 --> 01:04:29,906
and the one after that.

682
01:04:38,332 --> 01:04:39,541
My name is Joe...

683
01:04:39,667 --> 01:04:41,084
Hi, Joe.

684
01:04:41,210 --> 01:04:42,836
...and I'm a nymphomaniac.

685
01:04:42,962 --> 01:04:44,880
Sex addict.

686
01:04:45,006 --> 01:04:47,465
My name is Joe
and I'm a nymphomaniac.

687
01:04:47,592 --> 01:04:49,342
We say sex addict.

688
01:04:49,468 --> 01:04:51,011
Here everyone's
the same.

689
01:04:54,056 --> 01:04:56,558
You should only speak
when you feel you have to.

690
01:04:59,103 --> 01:05:00,770
What you're saying
is that

691
01:05:00,897 --> 01:05:03,356
no one can remove
their sexuality

692
01:05:03,482 --> 01:05:05,942
even though it's destroying
everything for them.

693
01:05:06,068 --> 01:05:08,153
I wouldn't say no one.

694
01:05:08,279 --> 01:05:10,614
But let's say,
at most, one in a million

695
01:05:10,740 --> 01:05:13,241
manage to live a life
without sexuality.

696
01:05:14,493 --> 01:05:16,286
But you can't be
basing your therapy

697
01:05:16,412 --> 01:05:18,246
- on that one in a million.
- No.

698
01:05:18,372 --> 01:05:21,541
The first
and most important step

699
01:05:21,667 --> 01:05:24,753
is to remove incentive
and to reduce exposure.

700
01:05:27,131 --> 01:05:28,882
You have to ask yourself

701
01:05:29,008 --> 01:05:30,884
what kind of
incentives you have

702
01:05:31,010 --> 01:05:32,719
and then make it
difficult for yourself

703
01:05:32,845 --> 01:05:34,012
to come into contact
with them.

704
01:05:34,138 --> 01:05:36,598
Basically anything that
makes you think about sex.

705
01:07:50,524 --> 01:07:52,484
Joe has something
she'd like to share.

706
01:07:54,528 --> 01:07:56,071
My name is Joe...

707
01:07:56,197 --> 01:07:57,197
Hi, Joe.

708
01:07:57,323 --> 01:07:59,574
...and I'm a sex addict,

709
01:07:59,700 --> 01:08:02,952
but I haven't had sex
for three weeks and five days.

710
01:08:06,373 --> 01:08:07,957
Tell us
how you did it, Joe.

711
01:08:08,084 --> 01:08:10,627
- You brought notes?
- Yes.

712
01:08:16,258 --> 01:08:18,009
"Dear everyone,

713
01:08:18,135 --> 01:08:20,428
don't think it's been easy,

714
01:08:20,554 --> 01:08:24,682
but I understand now
that we are all alike."

715
01:08:40,616 --> 01:08:41,783
Are you okay, Joe?

716
01:08:41,909 --> 01:08:43,868
Yes, yes.

717
01:08:45,996 --> 01:08:47,705
Would you like
a glass of water?

718
01:08:50,084 --> 01:08:51,126
Thank you.

719
01:08:57,591 --> 01:08:59,467
Would you rather
share another time?

720
01:09:05,724 --> 01:09:07,392
No, I'd like to speak.

721
01:09:13,149 --> 01:09:15,150
Dear everyone,

722
01:09:15,276 --> 01:09:18,111
don't think it's been easy,

723
01:09:18,237 --> 01:09:20,572
but I understand now

724
01:09:20,698 --> 01:09:22,490
that we're not

725
01:09:22,616 --> 01:09:25,118
and never will be alike.

726
01:09:27,746 --> 01:09:29,414
I'm not like you,

727
01:09:29,540 --> 01:09:31,833
who fucks to be validated

728
01:09:31,959 --> 01:09:34,711
and might just as well give up
putting cocks inside you.

729
01:09:34,837 --> 01:09:36,796
And I'm not like you.

730
01:09:36,922 --> 01:09:39,215
All you want
is to be filled up,

731
01:09:39,341 --> 01:09:41,843
and whether
it's by a man or by tons

732
01:09:41,969 --> 01:09:45,680
of disgusting slop
makes no difference.

733
01:09:47,016 --> 01:09:49,559
And I'm definitely
not like you.

734
01:09:49,685 --> 01:09:52,020
That empathy you claim

735
01:09:52,146 --> 01:09:53,855
is a lie,

736
01:09:53,981 --> 01:09:57,650
because all you are is
society's morality police,

737
01:09:57,776 --> 01:10:01,362
whose duty is
to erase my obscenity

738
01:10:01,488 --> 01:10:03,031
from the surface
of the earth

739
01:10:03,157 --> 01:10:05,617
so that the bourgeoisie
won't feel sick.

740
01:10:06,952 --> 01:10:08,870
I'm not like you.

741
01:10:08,996 --> 01:10:12,123
I am a nymphomaniac,

742
01:10:12,249 --> 01:10:14,834
and I love myself
for being one.

743
01:10:14,960 --> 01:10:16,961
But above all,

744
01:10:17,087 --> 01:10:18,922
I love my cunt

745
01:10:19,048 --> 01:10:22,050
and my filthy,
dirty lust.

746
01:10:27,890 --> 01:10:29,474
♪ Watch out ♪

747
01:10:29,600 --> 01:10:31,768
♪ you might get
what you're after ♪

748
01:10:31,894 --> 01:10:33,603
♪ cool, babies ♪

749
01:10:33,729 --> 01:10:36,439
♪ strange,
but not a stranger ♪

750
01:10:36,565 --> 01:10:41,027
♪ I'm an ordinary guy ♪

751
01:10:41,153 --> 01:10:43,196
♪ burning down
the house! ♪

752
01:10:45,741 --> 01:10:48,117
What just happened?

753
01:10:48,244 --> 01:10:49,911
I didn't get that...

754
01:10:50,037 --> 01:10:52,247
With the car that burned.

755
01:10:52,373 --> 01:10:54,123
No, I'm sorry.

756
01:10:54,250 --> 01:10:56,209
I was just
in too much of a hurry

757
01:10:56,335 --> 01:10:58,127
to get to the last chapter.

758
01:11:04,927 --> 01:11:08,263
I understood that society
had no room for me,

759
01:11:08,389 --> 01:11:11,182
and I had no room
for society

760
01:11:11,308 --> 01:11:13,184
and never had.

761
01:11:21,568 --> 01:11:23,653
I'm sure it was
quite natural for you

762
01:11:23,779 --> 01:11:26,030
to furnish your room
as a monk's cell,

763
01:11:26,156 --> 01:11:30,243
but as an inspiration for
the story chapter headings,

764
01:11:30,369 --> 01:11:32,537
it hasn't been easy.

765
01:11:32,663 --> 01:11:36,582
There's simply nothing left
for me to use.

766
01:11:37,835 --> 01:11:40,295
Well, I'm sorry
about that.

767
01:11:40,421 --> 01:11:43,381
But if I may,
I can give you a tip.

768
01:11:44,591 --> 01:11:46,301
Yes, please.

769
01:11:46,427 --> 01:11:50,096
You know, I occupy myself
mostly with text,

770
01:11:50,222 --> 01:11:52,682
but sometimes the text
can seem so...

771
01:11:53,934 --> 01:11:57,645
So empty,
so unfathomably empty.

772
01:11:57,771 --> 01:12:01,774
It could be the best text
by the most famous author.

773
01:12:01,900 --> 01:12:05,111
The solution might be
to change your point of view.

774
01:12:07,072 --> 01:12:08,573
I-I don't get that.

775
01:12:08,699 --> 01:12:10,908
Things hide...

776
01:12:11,994 --> 01:12:13,828
When they
become familiar.

777
01:12:13,954 --> 01:12:16,789
But if you look at them
from another angle,

778
01:12:18,584 --> 01:12:20,877
they might take on
a new meaning.

779
01:12:32,598 --> 01:12:34,140
You're right.

780
01:12:34,266 --> 01:12:36,476
Before this was just

781
01:12:36,602 --> 01:12:38,895
the stain
from the tea I threw.

782
01:12:41,023 --> 01:12:43,232
Can you see
what it could be?

783
01:12:45,402 --> 01:12:46,736
A revolver.

784
01:12:46,862 --> 01:12:50,073
No, a revolver has
a drum that revolves.

785
01:12:50,199 --> 01:12:52,700
It's a pistol.

786
01:12:52,826 --> 01:12:54,786
Can you see
what kind it could be?

787
01:12:54,912 --> 01:12:56,579
No, I don't remember

788
01:12:56,705 --> 01:12:58,539
anything like that
from my literature.

789
01:12:58,665 --> 01:13:01,209
Oh, but it's something
I can remember from mine.

790
01:13:01,335 --> 01:13:02,335
Ian Fleming.

791
01:13:03,379 --> 01:13:05,213
Not familiar.

792
01:13:05,339 --> 01:13:08,633
If you haven't read that, you
haven't read anything at all.

793
01:13:10,552 --> 01:13:13,429
This could be,
with a little imagination,

794
01:13:13,555 --> 01:13:16,724
a Walther P.P.K. Automatic,

795
01:13:16,850 --> 01:13:19,394
the same gun
that was issued to bond

796
01:13:19,520 --> 01:13:23,022
after his preferred pistol,
the beretta, had jammed.

797
01:13:24,900 --> 01:13:26,692
Is that something
you can use?

798
01:13:28,529 --> 01:13:30,613
Oh yes, it is.

799
01:13:30,739 --> 01:13:32,198
♪ Burning down
the house! ♪

800
01:13:33,909 --> 01:13:35,827
♪ Hold tight ♪

801
01:13:35,953 --> 01:13:38,246
♪ wait till
the party's over ♪

802
01:13:38,372 --> 01:13:39,747
♪ hold tight... ♪

803
01:13:39,873 --> 01:13:41,541
Whether I left society,

804
01:13:41,667 --> 01:13:44,043
or it left me,
I cannot say.

805
01:13:44,169 --> 01:13:47,255
I suppose you could make
an argument for both sides.

806
01:13:47,381 --> 01:13:49,173
♪ Burning down
the house! ♪

807
01:13:49,299 --> 01:13:51,259
I was on my way
to the shady side

808
01:13:51,385 --> 01:13:53,136
of the debt-collecting
business,

809
01:13:53,262 --> 01:13:55,930
which among other things
involved stuff

810
01:13:56,056 --> 01:13:58,099
like burning people's cars.

811
01:14:00,185 --> 01:14:03,604
I had for a long time
known about this man, L.

812
01:14:09,278 --> 01:14:10,903
Hi, my name is Joe.

813
01:14:11,905 --> 01:14:13,698
I know that.

814
01:14:13,824 --> 01:14:15,825
Come in.

815
01:14:19,872 --> 01:14:21,998
I'm looking for a job.

816
01:14:23,792 --> 01:14:25,501
I've been working
in an office,

817
01:14:25,627 --> 01:14:27,420
and I was never
really good at it.

818
01:14:27,546 --> 01:14:29,797
I can understand that.
I mean,

819
01:14:29,923 --> 01:14:31,841
what's the point?

820
01:14:31,967 --> 01:14:34,427
I believe I possess
some qualifications

821
01:14:34,553 --> 01:14:37,263
and that I'm rather
unscrupulous.

822
01:14:37,389 --> 01:14:39,098
I know all about
your qualifications

823
01:14:39,224 --> 01:14:40,766
and they're excellent.

824
01:14:40,893 --> 01:14:42,852
I would suggest

825
01:14:42,978 --> 01:14:46,022
that you start
your own little business

826
01:14:46,148 --> 01:14:47,773
with my help.

827
01:14:47,900 --> 01:14:49,484
I understand

828
01:14:49,610 --> 01:14:52,361
you possess
a great deal of insight

829
01:14:52,488 --> 01:14:54,989
about a rather
broad spectrum of men.

830
01:14:56,700 --> 01:14:59,785
This could be... or should
be capitalised on.

831
01:15:01,121 --> 01:15:02,872
I need sub-contractors
who can put

832
01:15:02,998 --> 01:15:05,082
moderate pressure
on individuals

833
01:15:05,209 --> 01:15:07,877
with whom my clients
rightly or wrongly

834
01:15:08,003 --> 01:15:10,338
have a bone to pick.
Understand?

835
01:15:10,464 --> 01:15:12,131
Extortion.

836
01:15:12,257 --> 01:15:13,466
No.
No, no, no, no.

837
01:15:15,010 --> 01:15:17,428
I always prefer the term

838
01:15:17,554 --> 01:15:19,180
"debt collection."

839
01:15:20,724 --> 01:15:22,308
- Yeah.
- I refrain from judging

840
01:15:22,434 --> 01:15:24,268
whether my clients' wishes

841
01:15:24,394 --> 01:15:26,562
are legitimate or otherwise.

842
01:15:26,688 --> 01:15:28,439
A point of view

843
01:15:28,565 --> 01:15:31,484
I strongly recommend
you follow.

844
01:15:33,403 --> 01:15:35,029
My main
qualification of course

845
01:15:35,155 --> 01:15:37,740
was my considerable experience
with men and sex.

846
01:15:37,866 --> 01:15:41,494
But even my more specialised
skills came in handy.

847
01:16:04,560 --> 01:16:07,478
No, now this is not
how it goes.

848
01:16:07,604 --> 01:16:09,939
You have to wait
until you're hit.

849
01:16:13,318 --> 01:16:16,362
The two helpers that l
had recommended were okay,

850
01:16:16,488 --> 01:16:19,991
but they were predisposed to
a rather repetitive technique,

851
01:16:20,117 --> 01:16:24,203
which consisted of creating
as much havoc as possible

852
01:16:24,329 --> 01:16:26,414
with a pair of iron bars.

853
01:16:42,139 --> 01:16:45,433
Destroying your things doesn't
seem to have much effect on you.

854
01:16:45,434 --> 01:16:47,602
Here was a man

855
01:16:47,728 --> 01:16:49,729
I was unable
to read sexually,

856
01:16:49,855 --> 01:16:51,772
so I became persistent.

857
01:16:52,774 --> 01:16:54,567
Tie him to the chair.

858
01:16:57,195 --> 01:16:58,321
Don't hurt him.

859
01:17:01,908 --> 01:17:03,993
I can't find a stain on you,

860
01:17:04,119 --> 01:17:07,705
but my experience tells me
that no man is spotless.

861
01:17:07,831 --> 01:17:09,749
Luckily, you're equipped

862
01:17:09,875 --> 01:17:12,501
with a very reliable
truth-detector.

863
01:17:22,846 --> 01:17:25,765
I'm going to tell you
a few stories.

864
01:17:25,891 --> 01:17:28,351
All you have to do
is listen.

865
01:17:30,187 --> 01:17:34,106
You're in a bar
watching a couple...

866
01:17:34,232 --> 01:17:36,484
I now meticulously
went through the catalogue

867
01:17:36,610 --> 01:17:39,403
of sexual deviations
in fictional form.

868
01:17:39,529 --> 01:17:42,907
Stories about
sadomasochism,

869
01:17:43,033 --> 01:17:45,743
fetishism,
homosexuality,

870
01:17:45,869 --> 01:17:47,578
you name it.

871
01:17:47,704 --> 01:17:49,330
But he didn't react.

872
01:17:49,456 --> 01:17:52,083
And I'd almost given up
when I said:

873
01:17:52,209 --> 01:17:55,795
On your way home,
you walk through the park.

874
01:18:01,385 --> 01:18:03,052
And something
makes you stop.

875
01:18:04,513 --> 01:18:06,305
You hear something.

876
01:18:20,404 --> 01:18:21,946
Yes, that's it.

877
01:18:22,072 --> 01:18:24,782
You can hear the children
on the playground.

878
01:18:26,910 --> 01:18:28,577
You sit on a bench nearby

879
01:18:28,704 --> 01:18:30,913
and watch them play.

880
01:18:32,207 --> 01:18:34,250
There's a little boy
in shorts.

881
01:18:36,002 --> 01:18:38,170
He's playing
in the sandpit.

882
01:18:40,340 --> 01:18:42,049
He looks at you

883
01:18:42,175 --> 01:18:44,885
with his blue eyes.

884
01:18:46,763 --> 01:18:48,556
He smiles at you.

885
01:18:48,682 --> 01:18:50,975
I think he comes to you.

886
01:18:51,101 --> 01:18:54,019
He sits on your lap

887
01:18:54,146 --> 01:18:55,771
and looks up at your face.

888
01:18:56,982 --> 01:18:58,482
He says

889
01:18:58,608 --> 01:19:01,152
he'd like to come
home with you.

890
01:19:04,781 --> 01:19:08,033
At home
you can't fight the idea

891
01:19:08,160 --> 01:19:10,244
of being naked together.

892
01:19:10,370 --> 01:19:12,872
He crawls all over you.

893
01:19:12,998 --> 01:19:17,084
- You get an erection.
- Won't you please stop?

894
01:19:17,210 --> 01:19:20,671
He lies on his stomach.

895
01:19:20,797 --> 01:19:22,882
You pull down his pants.

896
01:19:23,967 --> 01:19:25,384
I'll pay!

897
01:19:58,251 --> 01:19:59,752
You did what?

898
01:20:00,754 --> 01:20:02,213
I gave him a blowjob.

899
01:20:02,339 --> 01:20:04,256
Why?
That pig?!

900
01:20:04,382 --> 01:20:07,009
- I took pity on him.
- Pity?

901
01:20:07,135 --> 01:20:10,429
Yes. I had just
destroyed his life.

902
01:20:10,555 --> 01:20:13,307
Nobody knew his secret,

903
01:20:13,433 --> 01:20:15,643
most probably
not even himself.

904
01:20:17,062 --> 01:20:18,729
He sat there
with the shame.

905
01:20:20,315 --> 01:20:23,067
I suppose I sucked him off
as a kind of apology.

906
01:20:23,193 --> 01:20:24,443
That's unbelievable.

907
01:20:25,695 --> 01:20:27,404
No, listen to me.
This is a man

908
01:20:27,531 --> 01:20:30,741
who'd succeeded
in repressing his own desire,

909
01:20:30,867 --> 01:20:33,202
who had never before
given into it

910
01:20:33,328 --> 01:20:35,996
right up until
I forced it out.

911
01:20:36,122 --> 01:20:38,499
He had lived a life
full of denial

912
01:20:38,625 --> 01:20:40,751
and had never hurt a soul.

913
01:20:40,877 --> 01:20:42,711
I think
that's laudable.

914
01:20:44,214 --> 01:20:45,631
No matter
how hard I try,

915
01:20:45,757 --> 01:20:48,050
I can't find anything
laudable in paedophilia.

916
01:20:48,176 --> 01:20:49,718
That's because
you think about

917
01:20:49,845 --> 01:20:53,222
the perhaps 5%
who actually hurt children.

918
01:20:53,348 --> 01:20:55,724
The remaining 95%

919
01:20:55,851 --> 01:20:58,727
never live out
their fantasies.

920
01:20:58,854 --> 01:21:01,480
Think about
their suffering.

921
01:21:01,606 --> 01:21:04,233
Sexuality is
the strongest force

922
01:21:04,359 --> 01:21:06,068
in human beings.

923
01:21:06,194 --> 01:21:08,863
To be born
with a forbidden sexuality

924
01:21:08,989 --> 01:21:10,823
must be agonising.

925
01:21:12,200 --> 01:21:14,702
The paedophile who manages
to get through life

926
01:21:14,828 --> 01:21:17,288
with the shame
of his desire

927
01:21:17,414 --> 01:21:21,250
while never acting on it
deserves a bloody medal.

928
01:21:26,423 --> 01:21:28,966
But there was another reason
for my sympathy,

929
01:21:29,092 --> 01:21:31,385
which you find
so mysterious.

930
01:21:34,097 --> 01:21:38,058
I saw a man who was carrying
the same cross as myself.

931
01:21:40,395 --> 01:21:42,396
Loneliness.

932
01:21:45,525 --> 01:21:48,152
We were both
sexual outcasts.

933
01:21:57,162 --> 01:21:59,663
In any case,
some years passed,

934
01:21:59,789 --> 01:22:01,457
during which
my business grew,

935
01:22:01,583 --> 01:22:04,877
enabling me to step up
my anonymous deposits

936
01:22:05,003 --> 01:22:06,629
to marcel.

937
01:22:07,923 --> 01:22:10,758
Your business
is doing great...

938
01:22:12,510 --> 01:22:15,679
You complete all the jobs
I give you to perfection

939
01:22:15,805 --> 01:22:19,141
and I hear only words of praise
from your other clients,

940
01:22:19,267 --> 01:22:21,393
- but...
- But what?

941
01:22:21,519 --> 01:22:23,312
We aren't
getting any younger.

942
01:22:23,438 --> 01:22:25,940
Oh.
No, that's for sure.

943
01:22:26,066 --> 01:22:28,609
I think you're getting
to that age

944
01:22:28,735 --> 01:22:31,445
where you have to start
thinking about a successor.

945
01:22:32,405 --> 01:22:35,491
Oh... I don't need
a fucking successor.

946
01:22:35,617 --> 01:22:40,371
Listen, a person should take
their crime seriously.

947
01:22:40,497 --> 01:22:42,873
You need someone

948
01:22:42,999 --> 01:22:45,334
to be your right hand,
someone to help you.

949
01:22:45,460 --> 01:22:47,753
A crown princess.

950
01:22:49,798 --> 01:22:52,091
The normal process

951
01:22:52,217 --> 01:22:54,301
is to find out
what colleagues

952
01:22:54,427 --> 01:22:56,804
are in prison
or are drug addicts,

953
01:22:56,930 --> 01:22:58,847
and thereby
unable to fulfil

954
01:22:58,974 --> 01:23:00,599
their roles as parents.

955
01:23:02,310 --> 01:23:05,562
Then you find out where
their kids play football...

956
01:23:06,898 --> 01:23:08,649
And you get involved.

957
01:23:08,775 --> 01:23:10,901
You cheer them on
for a couple of years

958
01:23:11,027 --> 01:23:12,444
no matter how bad they are.

959
01:23:12,570 --> 01:23:15,781
Actually, the worse,
the better. That way

960
01:23:15,907 --> 01:23:18,534
gradually you take on
the role of the parent

961
01:23:18,660 --> 01:23:20,703
until in the end

962
01:23:20,829 --> 01:23:24,373
you have a loyal helper that
will walk through fire for you.

963
01:23:25,959 --> 01:23:27,584
Even do time for you.

964
01:23:31,923 --> 01:23:33,298
It sounds like a...

965
01:23:33,425 --> 01:23:36,010
Kind of an entrapment
you're suggesting.

966
01:23:36,136 --> 01:23:39,221
- An unsavoury entrapment.
- Call it what you want,

967
01:23:39,347 --> 01:23:41,724
but if you believe at all

968
01:23:41,850 --> 01:23:43,851
in the effects
of good parenting,

969
01:23:43,977 --> 01:23:46,270
that kid will have
much greater opportunities

970
01:23:46,396 --> 01:23:48,605
with you as a mentor
than without.

971
01:23:50,066 --> 01:23:52,026
And since I like you,

972
01:23:52,152 --> 01:23:55,320
I've been looking around
for a suitable subject.

973
01:23:55,447 --> 01:23:58,282
She's 15 years old

974
01:23:58,408 --> 01:24:01,410
from a family
of hardened criminals,

975
01:24:01,536 --> 01:24:03,787
and she's
been through a lot.

976
01:24:03,913 --> 01:24:06,665
Last couple of years
she's been institutionalised.

977
01:24:06,791 --> 01:24:10,002
Her father is in prison and her
mother died of an overdose.

978
01:24:10,128 --> 01:24:11,712
She's a smart girl.

979
01:24:11,838 --> 01:24:13,881
And although
she doesn't play football,

980
01:24:14,007 --> 01:24:16,383
she does play basketball...
Very badly.

981
01:24:17,761 --> 01:24:20,304
She's chosen a team sport

982
01:24:20,430 --> 01:24:22,347
because she's lonely.

983
01:24:23,683 --> 01:24:25,934
I saved the best part
for last:

984
01:24:26,061 --> 01:24:29,354
Her right ear is
slightly deformed...

985
01:24:30,648 --> 01:24:33,484
Which she's
very ashamed of,

986
01:24:33,610 --> 01:24:36,570
and of course this serves
to isolate her even more.

987
01:24:36,696 --> 01:24:38,489
It makes her an easy target

988
01:24:38,615 --> 01:24:41,700
for even the slightest
bit of attention

989
01:24:41,826 --> 01:24:45,454
or sign of empathy
from you.

990
01:24:50,001 --> 01:24:51,960
Despite my protests,

991
01:24:52,087 --> 01:24:53,796
the clever l
somehow talked me

992
01:24:53,922 --> 01:24:55,631
into actually having
a look at P.

993
01:24:58,176 --> 01:25:00,427
The longer I watched
the poor girl

994
01:25:00,553 --> 01:25:02,137
with the deformed ear,

995
01:25:02,263 --> 01:25:04,890
the more repulsive
I found the whole plan.

996
01:25:31,793 --> 01:25:34,128
But as if
l had foreseen this,

997
01:25:34,254 --> 01:25:38,132
the meeting with P filled me
with pity and emotion.

998
01:25:39,717 --> 01:25:41,677
And without wanting to,

999
01:25:41,803 --> 01:25:44,513
I found myself,
weekend after weekend,

1000
01:25:44,639 --> 01:25:48,183
at her games
supporting the poor player.

1001
01:26:03,908 --> 01:26:05,367
Thanks
for cheering me on.

1002
01:26:05,493 --> 01:26:07,077
You're welcome.

1003
01:26:08,371 --> 01:26:10,289
You played
really well today.

1004
01:26:12,417 --> 01:26:15,127
- No, I didn't.
- You did.

1005
01:26:15,253 --> 01:26:17,629
You really improved
yourself lately.

1006
01:26:21,134 --> 01:26:23,260
I was proud to introduce p

1007
01:26:23,386 --> 01:26:25,470
to my father's passion...

1008
01:26:25,597 --> 01:26:27,222
And to his world.

1009
01:26:31,895 --> 01:26:33,437
It's actually...

1010
01:26:35,356 --> 01:26:36,940
The souls of the trees

1011
01:26:37,066 --> 01:26:38,901
that we see
in the winter.

1012
01:26:45,992 --> 01:26:47,910
I think they look
like human souls.

1013
01:26:52,332 --> 01:26:53,999
You're right.

1014
01:26:54,125 --> 01:26:57,044
They do look like
human souls.

1015
01:26:58,338 --> 01:27:00,047
Twisted souls,

1016
01:27:00,173 --> 01:27:02,299
regular souls,
crazy souls.

1017
01:27:04,052 --> 01:27:06,678
All depending on the kind
of lives human beings lead.

1018
01:27:11,976 --> 01:27:13,477
I found my tree,

1019
01:27:13,603 --> 01:27:15,646
my soul tree.

1020
01:27:18,566 --> 01:27:20,275
This is my tree.

1021
01:27:24,030 --> 01:27:26,073
It's not an ash tree.

1022
01:27:26,199 --> 01:27:27,908
No, it's an oak tree.

1023
01:27:38,962 --> 01:27:41,380
My father found
his soul tree,

1024
01:27:41,506 --> 01:27:43,840
but I've...
I've never found mine.

1025
01:27:45,260 --> 01:27:47,344
"You will know it
when you see it,"

1026
01:27:47,470 --> 01:27:49,596
that's what he said.

1027
01:27:55,520 --> 01:27:57,479
When P reached
the age of majority

1028
01:27:57,605 --> 01:28:00,107
and I became
her personal advisor,

1029
01:28:00,233 --> 01:28:02,651
I asked her
to move in with me.

1030
01:28:09,575 --> 01:28:11,285
I've never seen you
with your hair up.

1031
01:28:12,287 --> 01:28:14,329
It's so pretty.

1032
01:28:26,926 --> 01:28:30,137
All this time all my
sexual activity had stopped.

1033
01:28:30,263 --> 01:28:33,598
My groin was one big sore
from my abuse

1034
01:28:33,725 --> 01:28:35,392
that wouldn't heal

1035
01:28:35,518 --> 01:28:37,894
and made
even masturbation impossible.

1036
01:28:42,483 --> 01:28:45,402
I experienced definite
abstinence symptoms:

1037
01:28:45,528 --> 01:28:47,529
Fever and cramps.

1038
01:29:02,211 --> 01:29:03,587
Joe, what's going on?

1039
01:29:06,215 --> 01:29:08,842
- Careful.
- We need to clear this up.

1040
01:29:18,519 --> 01:29:20,437
I just get this sometimes.

1041
01:29:24,233 --> 01:29:25,692
It's okay,
it's okay.

1042
01:29:27,236 --> 01:29:29,154
Perhaps she really loved you.

1043
01:29:30,907 --> 01:29:32,824
I couldn't accept it.

1044
01:29:32,950 --> 01:29:36,119
Perhaps because you really
wanted it to be true.

1045
01:29:38,456 --> 01:29:40,540
Perhaps I hoped it.

1046
01:29:40,666 --> 01:29:43,126
It's very touching,
all this about P.

1047
01:29:45,963 --> 01:29:48,006
Then you've probably
misunderstood

1048
01:29:48,132 --> 01:29:49,549
the whole thing.

1049
01:30:17,495 --> 01:30:19,204
Don't.

1050
01:30:20,748 --> 01:30:22,040
I wanna see you.

1051
01:30:22,166 --> 01:30:23,917
- Don't.
- Why?

1052
01:30:24,043 --> 01:30:25,627
- Please don't.
- Why not?

1053
01:30:25,753 --> 01:30:28,713
No.
No, I have a wound.

1054
01:30:28,840 --> 01:30:31,133
- I have a wound.
- It doesn't matter.

1055
01:30:31,259 --> 01:30:32,968
No, you don't understand.

1056
01:30:33,094 --> 01:30:35,595
I have that thing
with my ear.

1057
01:30:35,721 --> 01:30:37,556
I'm so ashamed.

1058
01:31:15,470 --> 01:31:17,220
D'you like me?

1059
01:31:21,309 --> 01:31:22,893
You're so beautiful.

1060
01:32:53,776 --> 01:32:55,777
There's one thing
I don't understand.

1061
01:32:57,572 --> 01:32:59,739
Did she know what
you did for a living?

1062
01:33:00,992 --> 01:33:02,784
P was very discreet

1063
01:33:02,910 --> 01:33:05,161
and a girl of few words.

1064
01:33:06,622 --> 01:33:09,291
Oddly, although
I worked strange hours,

1065
01:33:09,417 --> 01:33:11,668
she never asked
about my work.

1066
01:33:13,546 --> 01:33:15,297
But one day
she had a question.

1067
01:33:17,425 --> 01:33:19,301
Joe?

1068
01:33:24,307 --> 01:33:27,392
Why did you start coming
to my basketball matches?

1069
01:33:30,104 --> 01:33:32,147
It wasn't a coincidence,
was it?

1070
01:33:38,613 --> 01:33:40,697
No, it wasn't
a coincidence.

1071
01:33:45,077 --> 01:33:47,329
I didn't tell you
because I...

1072
01:33:48,623 --> 01:33:50,915
I thought
you'd be upset...

1073
01:33:52,418 --> 01:33:54,628
And that you'd
get angry at me.

1074
01:33:55,630 --> 01:33:57,505
I won't get angry.

1075
01:34:02,303 --> 01:34:04,304
What I do...

1076
01:34:06,474 --> 01:34:08,516
My job
isn't a normal job.

1077
01:34:08,643 --> 01:34:10,769
It's not legal.

1078
01:34:10,895 --> 01:34:13,647
No one in my family
does anything legal.

1079
01:34:19,779 --> 01:34:21,905
A man that's helped me
in my business

1080
01:34:22,031 --> 01:34:24,032
suggested that
I watched you.

1081
01:34:27,119 --> 01:34:28,870
The plan was that I...

1082
01:34:28,996 --> 01:34:31,498
I should look at you

1083
01:34:31,624 --> 01:34:33,917
to see whether one day

1084
01:34:34,043 --> 01:34:35,585
I could use you
in my work.

1085
01:34:36,629 --> 01:34:38,630
I should
make friends with you,

1086
01:34:38,756 --> 01:34:42,217
because I knew you didn't
have a mother or a father.

1087
01:34:42,343 --> 01:34:43,843
What's wrong
with that?

1088
01:34:45,137 --> 01:34:47,722
Don't you see
how evil that plan was?

1089
01:34:47,848 --> 01:34:50,141
I felt terrible.

1090
01:34:50,267 --> 01:34:52,143
You shouldn't have.

1091
01:34:52,269 --> 01:34:54,020
Why not?

1092
01:34:56,774 --> 01:34:59,109
Because if you hadn't...

1093
01:35:01,112 --> 01:35:02,779
We'd never have met.

1094
01:35:08,661 --> 01:35:11,204
I'd like to go
with you to work

1095
01:35:11,330 --> 01:35:13,498
- next time.
- No.

1096
01:35:22,633 --> 01:35:24,676
Will you think about it?

1097
01:35:24,802 --> 01:35:26,636
- No.
- Yes.

1098
01:35:26,762 --> 01:35:27,846
No.

1099
01:35:27,972 --> 01:35:30,598
She didn't take no
for an answer.

1100
01:35:30,725 --> 01:35:32,642
No, of course not.

1101
01:35:32,768 --> 01:35:36,229
How do you keep a wave
upon the sand?

1102
01:35:39,358 --> 01:35:42,193
With the risk of being
too clever for myself,

1103
01:35:42,319 --> 01:35:44,696
social inheritance

1104
01:35:44,822 --> 01:35:47,198
is an irrefutable fact.

1105
01:35:47,324 --> 01:35:50,493
If anyone knew about
the laws of the street,

1106
01:35:50,619 --> 01:35:52,162
it must've been P.

1107
01:35:54,415 --> 01:35:56,666
You're more right
than you know.

1108
01:35:58,753 --> 01:36:00,962
Let's shoot the fucker.

1109
01:36:02,131 --> 01:36:04,007
Stop! Stop!

1110
01:36:08,637 --> 01:36:10,388
We don't use firearms.

1111
01:36:12,308 --> 01:36:16,019
- I'd like to have the gun.
- The others have weapons too.

1112
01:36:17,062 --> 01:36:18,897
Well, I didn't know that.

1113
01:36:19,023 --> 01:36:21,065
But in any case,
you're not to have one.

1114
01:36:21,192 --> 01:36:23,485
But guns aren't dangerous.

1115
01:36:23,611 --> 01:36:26,237
It depends on how
you use them.

1116
01:36:26,363 --> 01:36:27,864
Yes, exactly.

1117
01:36:27,990 --> 01:36:29,949
I wasn't going to shoot him.

1118
01:36:30,075 --> 01:36:33,161
We wouldn't have gotten any
money out of him that way.

1119
01:36:33,287 --> 01:36:35,246
Can I have the gun?

1120
01:36:39,084 --> 01:36:40,919
Thank you.

1121
01:37:01,065 --> 01:37:02,398
You're evil.

1122
01:37:07,530 --> 01:37:10,824
And now I'm afraid
one of those coincidences

1123
01:37:10,950 --> 01:37:12,450
you have such
a hard time with

1124
01:37:12,576 --> 01:37:15,203
occurred
with a very special person.

1125
01:37:17,164 --> 01:37:19,874
It was p's job to take us
to the debtors,

1126
01:37:20,000 --> 01:37:22,085
so until I saw
the name on the door,

1127
01:37:22,211 --> 01:37:24,796
I had no idea
whose house we were at.

1128
01:37:29,009 --> 01:37:32,470
- Sure this is the right place?
- Yeah.

1129
01:37:39,311 --> 01:37:41,396
I was thinking
maybe it's time

1130
01:37:41,522 --> 01:37:44,899
for you to do
this one on your own.

1131
01:37:45,025 --> 01:37:46,609
Yeah?

1132
01:37:48,737 --> 01:37:49,821
Thank you, Joe.

1133
01:37:49,947 --> 01:37:52,073
I don't want
anything destroyed

1134
01:37:52,199 --> 01:37:54,325
and I don't want
anybody hurt.

1135
01:37:54,451 --> 01:37:57,287
Okay?
You just show yourself

1136
01:37:57,413 --> 01:38:00,206
and offer him
a reasonable payment plan.

1137
01:38:01,292 --> 01:38:03,126
If you say so.

1138
01:38:03,252 --> 01:38:04,836
Of course that's how
I'll do it.

1139
01:38:20,311 --> 01:38:21,686
Whether the feeling

1140
01:38:21,812 --> 01:38:25,315
when I saw Jerome again
was love, I couldn't say.

1141
01:38:27,693 --> 01:38:29,611
But it was a feeling,

1142
01:38:29,737 --> 01:38:32,447
and far stronger
than I liked.

1143
01:38:44,543 --> 01:38:47,211
I was actually walking home
through the alley here.

1144
01:38:48,839 --> 01:38:51,299
No two neighbourhoods
are totally different

1145
01:38:51,425 --> 01:38:53,426
but still so close together

1146
01:38:53,552 --> 01:38:55,762
that the shortest route
from Jerome's house

1147
01:38:55,888 --> 01:38:58,598
towards the centre
was through the alley.

1148
01:39:05,856 --> 01:39:07,815
Hello!

1149
01:39:07,942 --> 01:39:09,817
How did it go?

1150
01:39:09,944 --> 01:39:11,945
Brilliant.

1151
01:39:12,071 --> 01:39:13,738
Yeah, really well.

1152
01:39:15,366 --> 01:39:17,992
I made a reasonable payment
plan like you told me to.

1153
01:39:18,118 --> 01:39:19,661
How did he look?

1154
01:39:20,955 --> 01:39:22,914
Scared.

1155
01:39:23,040 --> 01:39:25,583
How old did he look?

1156
01:39:25,709 --> 01:39:27,502
I dunno.

1157
01:39:27,628 --> 01:39:29,003
Ancient?

1158
01:39:48,565 --> 01:39:50,858
Jerome was
to pay off his debt

1159
01:39:50,985 --> 01:39:52,735
in six payments.

1160
01:39:52,861 --> 01:39:55,613
Every time P went
to Jerome to collect,

1161
01:39:55,739 --> 01:39:57,782
I paced around restlessly

1162
01:39:57,908 --> 01:40:00,034
until she was
back home again.

1163
01:40:02,371 --> 01:40:05,957
I even had to find my mother's
sad old solitaire cards

1164
01:40:06,083 --> 01:40:08,793
in order to make
the hours pass.

1165
01:40:16,510 --> 01:40:19,345
Each night I was less
reassured by her coming home

1166
01:40:19,471 --> 01:40:21,139
than the night before.

1167
01:40:21,265 --> 01:40:25,435
The question of whether
jealousy is the fear of sharing

1168
01:40:25,561 --> 01:40:28,938
or the fear of losing
was of little interest to me.

1169
01:40:29,064 --> 01:40:31,983
But yes, it was a fact
that this unworthy feeling

1170
01:40:32,109 --> 01:40:34,527
I had managed to suppress
for so long

1171
01:40:34,653 --> 01:40:36,487
was creeping up on me.

1172
01:40:39,491 --> 01:40:42,035
The evening she was
to collect the final payment

1173
01:40:42,161 --> 01:40:43,911
she didn't kiss me.

1174
01:40:44,038 --> 01:40:46,372
I took it
to be forgetfulness,

1175
01:40:46,498 --> 01:40:49,959
but the hours passed
and she didn't return.

1176
01:40:57,885 --> 01:40:59,969
Every time
I saw car lights,

1177
01:41:00,095 --> 01:41:02,555
I thought it was p
being driven home.

1178
01:42:05,035 --> 01:42:07,620
I had decided to flee.

1179
01:42:07,746 --> 01:42:11,165
I couldn't stay in this town
with her and him.

1180
01:42:13,001 --> 01:42:16,087
I had cowardly made a plan
to escape and head South,

1181
01:42:16,213 --> 01:42:19,507
like from some ice age
I didn't have the guts

1182
01:42:19,633 --> 01:42:22,093
to turn around and face.

1183
01:42:22,219 --> 01:42:26,472
But the goodbye was sad
and strangely unfulfilling.

1184
01:42:26,598 --> 01:42:28,724
And something called me on

1185
01:42:28,851 --> 01:42:31,018
to seek further up
the Mountain.

1186
01:43:45,469 --> 01:43:48,512
It's said to be difficult
to take someone's life.

1187
01:43:48,639 --> 01:43:52,558
I would've said that
it's more difficult not to.

1188
01:43:54,102 --> 01:43:55,561
For a human being,

1189
01:43:55,687 --> 01:43:58,147
killing is the most
natural thing in the world.

1190
01:43:59,358 --> 01:44:01,609
We're created for it.

1191
01:44:03,654 --> 01:44:05,613
Wonderful.

1192
01:44:56,415 --> 01:44:57,540
No, get off!

1193
01:44:57,666 --> 01:45:00,334
Sorry.

1194
01:45:07,509 --> 01:45:09,593
Fireman's grip.

1195
01:47:30,235 --> 01:47:32,862
Oh. Oh yeah.

1196
01:49:01,409 --> 01:49:04,578
Fill all my holes please.

1197
01:49:25,892 --> 01:49:28,602
I still don't know why
the gun didn't work.

1198
01:49:28,728 --> 01:49:30,271
I did check to make sure

1199
01:49:30,397 --> 01:49:32,356
that there were bullets
in the magazine.

1200
01:49:33,567 --> 01:49:35,651
It simply malfunctioned,

1201
01:49:35,777 --> 01:49:38,904
just like bond's beretta.

1202
01:49:39,030 --> 01:49:40,948
I think I know enough
to say that

1203
01:49:41,074 --> 01:49:44,243
even if you had rounds in the
magazine of the Walther P.P.K.,

1204
01:49:44,369 --> 01:49:46,579
and you'd taken off
the safety...

1205
01:49:47,998 --> 01:49:50,833
You cannot shoot
until you rack the gun.

1206
01:49:50,959 --> 01:49:55,087
You pull and release
the sliding mechanism.

1207
01:49:56,715 --> 01:49:58,966
And P hadn't done it
because, as she said,

1208
01:49:59,092 --> 01:50:01,594
she had no intention
of shooting the man.

1209
01:50:03,763 --> 01:50:06,557
I don't know about bond, but
I assume it has to be apparent

1210
01:50:06,683 --> 01:50:08,892
from his books
and his films that

1211
01:50:09,019 --> 01:50:11,937
you have to rack
an automatic pistol.

1212
01:50:13,106 --> 01:50:15,357
Of course, you're right.

1213
01:50:16,901 --> 01:50:19,820
I've seen it in films
a thousand times.

1214
01:50:25,243 --> 01:50:26,452
It's morning.

1215
01:50:29,331 --> 01:50:30,831
And the snow is gone.

1216
01:50:30,957 --> 01:50:33,042
So the sun must be out?

1217
01:50:33,168 --> 01:50:35,461
Yes, there is sun.

1218
01:50:41,468 --> 01:50:44,094
I've never managed to figure
out where it comes from.

1219
01:50:45,722 --> 01:50:47,723
It must be some interplay

1220
01:50:47,849 --> 01:50:50,476
between windows

1221
01:50:50,602 --> 01:50:53,520
and towers
and high buildings.

1222
01:50:57,025 --> 01:50:58,609
It's not much,

1223
01:50:58,735 --> 01:51:01,695
but it's the sun you get
here at my place.

1224
01:51:06,284 --> 01:51:07,660
It's beautiful.

1225
01:51:18,463 --> 01:51:20,714
In the beginning you said that

1226
01:51:20,840 --> 01:51:24,009
your only sin was that
you asked more of the sunset.

1227
01:51:25,970 --> 01:51:27,805
Meaning, I suppose,
that you wanted

1228
01:51:27,931 --> 01:51:29,973
more from life
than was good for you.

1229
01:51:33,228 --> 01:51:35,979
You were a human being
demanding your right.

1230
01:51:36,106 --> 01:51:38,649
And more than that,

1231
01:51:38,775 --> 01:51:41,860
you were a woman
demanding her right.

1232
01:51:44,989 --> 01:51:47,282
Does that pardon
everything?

1233
01:51:49,119 --> 01:51:50,619
Do you think
if two men

1234
01:51:50,745 --> 01:51:53,038
would've walked down a train
looking for women,

1235
01:51:53,164 --> 01:51:56,333
do you think anybody would
have raised an eyebrow?

1236
01:51:57,711 --> 01:52:00,587
Or if a man had led
the life you had?

1237
01:52:02,257 --> 01:52:04,842
And the story about Mrs. H

1238
01:52:04,968 --> 01:52:08,387
would've been extremely
banal if you'd been a man

1239
01:52:08,513 --> 01:52:11,306
and your conquest would
have been a woman.

1240
01:52:12,809 --> 01:52:15,269
When a man leaves
his children

1241
01:52:15,395 --> 01:52:17,855
because of desire,

1242
01:52:17,981 --> 01:52:20,607
we accept it with a shrug,
but you as a woman,

1243
01:52:20,734 --> 01:52:24,778
you had to take on a...
A guilt, a burden of guilt

1244
01:52:24,904 --> 01:52:26,864
that could never
be alleviated.

1245
01:52:30,577 --> 01:52:34,455
And all in all,
all the blame and guilt

1246
01:52:34,581 --> 01:52:37,166
that piled up over the years
became too much for you,

1247
01:52:37,292 --> 01:52:38,792
you reacted aggressively...

1248
01:52:38,918 --> 01:52:40,961
Almost like a man
I have to say...

1249
01:52:41,087 --> 01:52:42,504
And you fought back.

1250
01:52:43,715 --> 01:52:46,008
You fought back against
the gender that had been

1251
01:52:46,134 --> 01:52:48,010
oppressing
and mutilating

1252
01:52:48,136 --> 01:52:50,721
and killing you
and billions of women.

1253
01:52:52,891 --> 01:52:55,726
But I wanted to kill
a human being.

1254
01:52:59,105 --> 01:53:01,190
But you didn't.

1255
01:53:03,151 --> 01:53:05,235
Because of a chance event.

1256
01:53:05,361 --> 01:53:08,113
You call it
a chance event.

1257
01:53:09,282 --> 01:53:12,159
I call it
subconscious resistance.

1258
01:53:12,285 --> 01:53:14,953
On the surface
you wanted to kill,

1259
01:53:15,079 --> 01:53:18,123
but deep down you
celebrated human worth

1260
01:53:18,249 --> 01:53:22,044
and a veil of forgetfulness
draped itself

1261
01:53:22,170 --> 01:53:25,881
over your knowledge of
how to rack a gun.

1262
01:53:27,300 --> 01:53:29,259
Although all this sounds

1263
01:53:29,385 --> 01:53:31,845
frighteningly close
to the clichés of our times...

1264
01:53:33,306 --> 01:53:35,307
...and I'm predisposed

1265
01:53:35,433 --> 01:53:38,185
to knock holes
in your arguments...

1266
01:53:40,313 --> 01:53:42,356
I'm too tired.

1267
01:53:42,482 --> 01:53:44,024
Well, that's good.

1268
01:53:47,362 --> 01:53:49,696
Why don't you lay down?

1269
01:53:51,908 --> 01:53:53,200
Yes.

1270
01:54:05,046 --> 01:54:07,548
Let me just say
that telling my story

1271
01:54:07,674 --> 01:54:09,842
as you insisted...

1272
01:54:09,968 --> 01:54:12,302
Or permitted...

1273
01:54:12,428 --> 01:54:14,972
Has put me at ease.

1274
01:54:16,891 --> 01:54:19,184
At this moment

1275
01:54:19,310 --> 01:54:22,896
my addiction is
very clear to me...

1276
01:54:25,358 --> 01:54:27,651
And I've come
to a decision.

1277
01:54:29,779 --> 01:54:33,490
Even though
only one in a million,

1278
01:54:33,616 --> 01:54:36,827
as my dubious
therapist said,

1279
01:54:36,953 --> 01:54:38,871
succeed in...

1280
01:54:40,373 --> 01:54:43,500
Mentally, bodily...

1281
01:54:44,836 --> 01:54:47,254
And in her heart

1282
01:54:47,380 --> 01:54:51,383
of ridding herself
of her sexuality,

1283
01:54:51,509 --> 01:54:54,177
this is now my goal.

1284
01:54:55,638 --> 01:54:58,181
But is that a life
worth living?

1285
01:55:01,060 --> 01:55:03,770
It's the only way
I can live it.

1286
01:55:07,901 --> 01:55:11,820
I will stand up
against all odds...

1287
01:55:16,326 --> 01:55:19,870
Just like a deformed tree
on a hill.

1288
01:55:27,712 --> 01:55:30,172
I will muster

1289
01:55:30,298 --> 01:55:32,674
all my stubbornness...

1290
01:55:35,845 --> 01:55:37,679
My strength...

1291
01:55:40,350 --> 01:55:42,726
My masculine aggression.

1292
01:55:45,104 --> 01:55:49,232
But most of all
I want to say thanks

1293
01:55:49,359 --> 01:55:52,903
to my new,
and maybe first friend.

1294
01:55:54,364 --> 01:55:56,448
Thank you, Seligman...

1295
01:55:58,284 --> 01:56:02,412
Who perhaps is happy
when all is said and done.

1296
01:56:08,628 --> 01:56:11,254
I'm happy at any rate

1297
01:56:11,381 --> 01:56:14,257
that the shot didn't go off

1298
01:56:14,384 --> 01:56:16,593
and made me a murderer.

1299
01:56:22,266 --> 01:56:25,727
If I may,
I'd like to sleep now.

1300
01:56:29,607 --> 01:56:31,942
I'll make sure
you won't be disturbed.

1301
01:56:42,745 --> 01:56:44,454
Good night, Joe.

1302
01:56:45,540 --> 01:56:47,791
Good night, Seligman.

1303
01:58:14,253 --> 01:58:15,796
No!

1304
01:58:18,966 --> 01:58:21,635
But you've fucked
thousands of men.

1305
01:59:07,807 --> 01:59:10,058
♪ Hey, Joe ♪

1306
01:59:11,811 --> 01:59:15,355
♪ where are you going
with that gun in your hand? ♪

1307
01:59:21,445 --> 01:59:23,905
♪ Hey, Joe ♪

1308
01:59:25,158 --> 01:59:29,035
♪ I said where are you going
with that gun in your hand? ♪

1309
01:59:35,209 --> 01:59:37,544
♪ I'm going down
to shoot my old lady ♪

1310
01:59:39,547 --> 01:59:43,383
♪ you know I caught her messing
around with another man ♪

1311
01:59:48,764 --> 01:59:51,892
♪ I'm going down
to shoot my old lady ♪

1312
01:59:53,853 --> 01:59:57,731
♪ you know I caught her messing
around with another man ♪

1313
01:59:59,650 --> 02:00:01,735
♪ and that ain't too cool ♪

1314
02:00:03,863 --> 02:00:05,947
♪ hey, Joe ♪

1315
02:00:07,992 --> 02:00:10,535
♪ I heard you shot
your woman down ♪

1316
02:00:10,661 --> 02:00:13,205
♪ you shot her down now ♪

1317
02:00:17,168 --> 02:00:19,711
♪ hey, Joe ♪

1318
02:00:21,881 --> 02:00:24,591
♪ I heard you shot
your lady down ♪

1319
02:00:24,717 --> 02:00:27,886
♪ you shot her down
to the ground ♪

1320
02:00:31,349 --> 02:00:33,850
♪ yes, I did,
I shot her ♪

1321
02:00:35,603 --> 02:00:38,855
♪ you know I caught her
messing around town ♪

1322
02:00:44,946 --> 02:00:47,614
♪ yes, I did,
I shot her ♪

1323
02:00:49,575 --> 02:00:53,703
♪ you know I caught my old lady
messing around town ♪

1324
02:00:53,829 --> 02:00:56,122
♪ and I gave her the gun ♪

1325
02:00:56,249 --> 02:00:58,583
♪ I shot her ♪

1326
02:01:26,237 --> 02:01:28,738
♪ hey, Joe ♪

1327
02:01:30,741 --> 02:01:33,827
♪ where you gonna
go to now? ♪

1328
02:01:39,625 --> 02:01:42,127
♪ Hey, Joe ♪

1329
02:01:44,463 --> 02:01:47,465
♪ where you gonna
go to now? ♪

1330
02:01:53,055 --> 02:01:55,557
♪ I'm going
way down South ♪

1331
02:01:57,560 --> 02:02:00,562
♪ way down to Mexico way ♪

1332
02:02:06,527 --> 02:02:08,903
♪ I'm going
way down South ♪

1333
02:02:10,781 --> 02:02:13,825
♪ way down
where I can be free ♪

1334
02:02:18,748 --> 02:02:21,708
♪ ain't no hangman gonna ♪

1335
02:02:23,544 --> 02:02:26,880
♪ he ain't gonna put
a rope around me ♪

1336
02:02:32,219 --> 02:02:34,888
♪ hey, Joe ♪

1337
02:02:36,640 --> 02:02:38,975
♪ you'd better run on down ♪

1338
02:02:39,977 --> 02:02:52,020
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