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Evening, Mr. Godby.

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- Hello, hello, hello.
- Quite the stranger, aren't you?

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- l couldn't get in yesterday.
- l wondered what had happened to you.

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- l had a bit of a dustup.
- What about?

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Saw a chap getting out
of a first-class compartment.

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When he came to give up his ticket,
it was only third class.

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l told him to pay the excess,
and he turned nasty.

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l had to send for Mr. Saunders.

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- Fat lot of good he'd be.
- He ticked him off.

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- Seeing's believing.
- l tell you, he ticked him off proper.

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You pay the balance at once," he says,
"or l'll hand you over to the police."

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You ought to have seen the look on the chap's
face at the mention of the word "police."

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Changed his tune then, he did.
Paid up like lightning.

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That's just what l mean. He didn't have
the courage

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to handle it himself.
He had to call in the police.

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Aw, he's not a bad lot, Mr. Saunders.

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After all, you can't expect much 
spirit from a man

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with only one lung and a wife with diabetes.

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l thought something must be wrong
when you didn't come.

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l'd have popped in to explain, 

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but l had a date and had to
run for it the moment l went off.

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Oh, indeed.

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- Chap l know is getting married.
- Very interesting, l'm sure.

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- What's up with you, anyway?
- l'm sure l don't know to what you're referring.

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- You're a bit unfriendly all of a sudden.
- Beryl, hurry up.

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- Put some more coal in the stove while you're at it.
- Yes, Mrs. Bagot.

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l'm afraid l really can't stand here
wasting my time in idle gossip, Mr. Godby.

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Aren't you going to offer me another cup?

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You can have another cup and welcome
when you've finished that one.

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Beryl'll give it to you.
l've got my accounts to do.

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Hey,

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- l'd rather you gave it to me.
- Time and tide wait for no man, Mr. Godby.

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Laura, what a lovely surprise!

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Oh, Dolly.

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My dear, l've been shopping
till l'm dropping.

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My feet are nearly off,
and my throat's parched.

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l thought of having tea in Spindle's,
but l was terrified of losing the train.

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- Oh, dear.
- This is Dr. Harvey.

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- How do you do?
- How do you do?

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Would you be a perfect dear
and get me my cup of tea?

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l really don't think l could drag
my poor old bones over to the counter.

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No, please.

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My dear, what a nice-looking man.

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Who on earth is he?
Really, you're quite a dark horse.

45
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l shall telephone
Fred in the morning and make mischief.

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This is a bit of luck.
l haven't seen you for ages.

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l've been meaning to pop in,
but Tony's had measles and then l had...

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all that awful fuss over Phyllis.
But, of course, you don't know.

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- My dear, she left me.
- Oh, how dreadful.

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Mind you, l never really
cared for her much,

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but still, Tony did. Tony adored her.

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l'll tell you all about that later
in the train. Thank you so very much.

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There's certainly enough milk in it,
but still, it'll be refreshing.

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- Oh, dear, no sugar.
- lt's in the spoon.

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Oh, of course. What a fool l am.

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Laura, you're looking frightfully well.
l do wish l'd known you were coming in today.

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We could've come together
and lunched and had a good gossip.

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l loathe shopping by myself anyway.

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- There's your train.
- Yes, l know.

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- Oh, aren't you coming with us?
- No, l go in the opposite direction.

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- My practice is in Churley.
- Oh, l see.

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l'm a general practitioner at the moment.

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Dr. Harvey's going out to Africa next week.

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Oh, how thrilling.

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...the 5:40 to Churley,
Leigh Green and Langdon.

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- l must go.
- Yes, you must.

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- Goodbye.
- Goodbye.

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He'll have to run, or he'll miss it.

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He's got to get right
over to the other platform.

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Talking of missing trains reminds me
of that awful bridge at Broadham Junction.

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You've got to go traipsing all up one side
along the top and down the other.

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Well, the other day, l'd been
over to see Bob's solicitor

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about renewing
the lease of the house.

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And l arrived at the station
with exactly half a minute to spare.

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My dear, l flew.

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l'd got Tony with me

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and like a fool, l just bought a new
shade for the lamp in the drawing room.

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l could've gotten it
just as easily here in Milford.

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Well, it was the most enormous thing.

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l could hardly see over it.

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But l've never been in such a frizz in all
my life. l nearly knocked a woman down.

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Of course, by the time
l got home, it was battered to bits.

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Oh, is that our train?

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Can you tell me,
is that the Ketchworth train?

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- No, it's the express.
- The boat train.

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Of course. That doesn't stop, does it?

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- l want some chocolate, please.
- Milk or plain?

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Plain, l think.

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No, perhaps milk would be nicer.
Have you any with nuts in it?

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Nestle's Nut Milk. Shilling or sixpence?

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I think one plain and one nut milk.

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- Large or small?
- Large, please.

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Where is she?

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l never noticed her go.

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Oh, l couldn't think
where you'd disappeared to.

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l just wanted to see the express go through.

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What on earth's the matter?
Are you feeling ill?

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- l feel a little sick.
- My dear, come and sit down.

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- There's our train.
- lt's all right.

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- Have you any brandy?
- l'm afraid it's out of hours.

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- Oh, surely, if somebody's feeling ill -
- l'm all right, really.

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Just a sip of brandy
will buck you up.

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Please.

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- Very well.
- Thank you.

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- How much?
- Tenpence, please.

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The train for Ketchworth is now
arriving at platform three.

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We shall have to hurry.

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Oh, well, this is a bit of luck.

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This train's generally packed.

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l really am very worried about you, dear.
You look terribly peaky.

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l'm all right. Really, l am.
l just felt faint for a minute, that's all.

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lt often happens to me. l did it once
in the middle of Bobby's school concert.

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l don't think he's ever forgiven me.

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Well, he certainly was very good-looking.

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- Who?
Your friend, Doctor - whatever his name was.

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- Yes, he's a nice creature.
- Have you known him long?

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No, not very long.

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- l hardly know him at all, really.
- Well, my dear,

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l've always had a passion for doctors.

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l can well understand how it is
that women get neurotic.

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I wish I could trust you.

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I wish you were a wise, kind friend...

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instead of a gossiping acquaintance
I've known casually

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for years and never
particularly cared for.

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l wish...
l wish...

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Fancy him going all the way to Africa.
ls he married?

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- Well, yes.
- Any children?

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Yes, two boys. He's very proud of them.

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ls he taking them with him -
his wife and children, l mean?

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Yes. Yes, he is.

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l suppose it's sensible in a way rushing off...

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to start life anew in the wide open
spaces and all that sort of thing, but...

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wild horses wouldn't
drag me away from England...

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and home and all the
things l'm used to. I mean...

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one has one's roots after all,
hasn't one?

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Oh, yes, one has one's roots.

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l knew a girl once years ago
who went to Africa.

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You, know, her husband was something
to do with engineering or something.

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And, my dear,
she had the most dreadful time.

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She caught some awful kind of germ
through going out on a picnic

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and she was ill
for months and months.

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l wish you'd stop talking.

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I wish you'd stop prying
and trying to find things out.

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I wish you were dead.
No, l don't mean that.

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That was silIy and unkind,

146
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- but l wish you'd stop talking.
- My dear, all her hair came out,

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and she said
the social life was quite, quite horrid.

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Provincial, you know, and very nouveau riche.

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Oh, Dolly.

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What's the matter, dear?
Are you feeling ill again?

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No, not really ill. l feel a bit dizzy.

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- l think l'll close my eyes for a little.
- Oh, you poor darling.

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And here am l chattering away
19 to the dozen.

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l won't say another word.

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lf you drop off, l'll wake you up
when we get to the level crossing.

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That'll give you a chance
to pull yourself together

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and powder your nose
before we get out.

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Thanks, Dolly.

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This can't last.

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This misery can't last.

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l must remember that
and try to control myself.

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Nothing lasts, realIy -

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neither happiness nor despair.

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Not even life lasts very long.

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There'll come a time in the future
when l shan't mind about this anymore...

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when I can look back and
say quite peacefully

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and cheerfully how silly l was.

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No, no, l don't want that
time to come ever.

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I want to remember every minute...

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always...

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always to the end of my days.

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- Ketchworth!
- Wake up, Laura. We're here.

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Ketchworth!

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l could easily come to
the house with you, dear.

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- lt isn't very much out of my way.
- Thank you.

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All l have to do is
walk down Elmore Lane 

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past the grammar school
and l shall be home in two minutes.

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lt's sweet of you, Dolly,
but l'm perfectly all right now, really l am.

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- You're quite sure?
- Absolutely positive.

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Thank you for being so kind.

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Oh, nonsense, dear.

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l shall telephone in the morning
and see if you've had a relapse.

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l shall disappoint you.

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Good night.

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Good night. Oh, give my love
to Fred and the children.

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ls that you, Laura?

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- Yes, dear.
- Thank goodness you've come back.

188
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- The place has been in an uproar.
- Why? What's the matter?

189
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Bobby and Margaret
have been fighting again.

190
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They won't go to sleep until you 
go in and talk to them about it.

191
00:11:08,607 --> 00:11:10,691
Mummy?
ls that you, Mummy?

192
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- Yes, Margaret.
- Come upstairs at once, Mummy!

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l want to talk to you.

194
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You're both very naughty. You
should have been asleep hours ago.

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- Now what is it, you two?
- Well, Mummy,

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tomorrow's my birthday

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and l want to
go to the circus.

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And tomorrow's not
Margaret's birthday,

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and she wants to
go to the pantomime.

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My birthday's in June. There 
aren't any pantomimes in June.

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lt's far too late to
discuss it tonight 

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and if you don't
go to sleep at once,

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l shall tell Daddy not
to let you go to either.

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- Oh, Mummy!
- Oh, Mummy!

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Why not take them to both?
One in the afternoon, one in the evening?

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You know that's impossible.

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We shouldn't get them to bed till 
all hours and they'd be tired and fractious.

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Well, then, one on one day
and the other on the other.

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You're always accusing me
of spoiling the children.

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Their characters would be
ruined in a fortnight

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if l left them to your
over-tender mercies.

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All right, have it your own way.

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- Circus or pantomime?
- Neither.

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We'll thrash them both soundly,

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lock them up in the attic
and go to the pictures by ourselves.

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Oh, Fred.

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00:12:19,741 --> 00:12:22,816
- What on earth's the matter?
- Nothing. lt's nothing.

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Darling, what's wrong?
Tell me, please.

219
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Really and truly, it's nothing. l -

220
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l'm just a little run-down, that's all.

221
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l had a sort of fainting spell
at the refreshment room at Milford.

222
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lsn't it idiotic?

223
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Dolly Messiter was with me and 
she talked and talked and talked

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until l wanted to strangle her.

225
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Still, she meant to be kind.

226
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lsn't it awful about people
meaning to be kind?

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- Would you like to go to bed?
- No, Fred, really.

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Come and sit by the fire
in the library and relax.

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You can help me with
the Times crossword.

230
00:12:55,657 --> 00:12:58,649
You have the most
peculiar ideas of relaxation.

231
00:12:59,249 --> 00:13:00,149
That's better.

232
00:13:00,249 --> 00:13:01,482
- There you are, darling.
- Thank you.

233
00:13:03,965 --> 00:13:06,349
But why a fainting spell?
l can't understand it.

234
00:13:06,349 --> 00:13:09,015
Don't be silly, darling. l've often
had fainting spells, and you know it.

235
00:13:09,582 --> 00:13:10,949
Don't you remember
Bobby's school concert

236
00:13:11,249 --> 00:13:12,274
and Eileen's wedding...

237
00:13:12,940 --> 00:13:14,240
and that time you
insisted on taking me

238
00:13:14,240 --> 00:13:16,140
to that symphony concert
at the town hall?

239
00:13:16,140 --> 00:13:17,965
Go on, that was a nosebleed.

240
00:13:18,265 --> 00:13:19,724
l suppose l must be
that type of woman.

241
00:13:20,324 --> 00:13:21,524
lt's very humiliating.

242
00:13:21,882 --> 00:13:24,582
l still maintain there'd be no
harm in you seeing Dr. Graves.

243
00:13:24,615 --> 00:13:25,815
lt would be a waste of time.

244
00:13:26,474 --> 00:13:28,474
- Now, listen...
- Oh, but do shut up about it, darling.

245
00:13:28,474 --> 00:13:29,874
You're making
a fuss about nothing.

246
00:13:30,465 --> 00:13:32,574
l'd been shopping and l was
tired and the refreshment room

247
00:13:32,574 --> 00:13:34,274
was very hot, and
l suddenly felt sick.

248
00:13:34,800 --> 00:13:35,974
Nothing more than that.

249
00:13:36,324 --> 00:13:38,974
- All right.
- Really nothing more than that.

250
00:13:39,340 --> 00:13:41,532
Now you get on with your old 
puzzle and leave me in peace.

251
00:13:42,009 --> 00:13:43,107
Have it your own way.

252
00:13:45,324 --> 00:13:47,857
You're a poetry addict.
See if you can help me over this.

253
00:13:48,024 --> 00:13:49,032
lt's Keats.

254
00:13:49,332 --> 00:13:51,032
"When l behold, upon
the night's starred face...

255
00:13:51,032 --> 00:13:53,940
huge cloudy symbols of a high" -
something in seven letters.

256
00:13:55,449 --> 00:13:56,857
Romance, l think.

257
00:13:57,357 --> 00:13:58,557
 l'm almost sure it is.

258
00:13:59,615 --> 00:14:01,874
"Huge cloudy symbols
of a high romance."

259
00:14:01,874 --> 00:14:03,565
lt'll be in the Oxford
Book of English Verse.

260
00:14:03,774 --> 00:14:04,509
No, that's right, l'm sure,

261
00:14:04,509 --> 00:14:06,449
it fits in with "delirium"
and "Baluchistan."

262
00:14:11,799 --> 00:14:14,357
- Would some music throw you off your stride?
- No, dear, l'd like it.

263
00:15:17,724 --> 00:15:18,790
Fred...

264
00:15:19,849 --> 00:15:21,057
Fred...

265
00:15:22,200 --> 00:15:23,232
dear Fred.

266
00:15:24,882 --> 00:15:26,732
There's so much
that I want to say to you.

267
00:15:28,440 --> 00:15:30,594
You're the only one in
the world with enough wisdom

268
00:15:30,594 --> 00:15:32,274
and gentleness to understand.

269
00:15:33,432 --> 00:15:35,857
lf only it were somebody else's 
story and not mine.

270
00:15:37,765 --> 00:15:40,399
As it is, you are the only one
in the world that l can never teIl.

271
00:15:42,107 --> 00:15:43,382
Never, never.

272
00:15:44,315 --> 00:15:48,099
Because even if I waited until we were
old, old people and told you then...

273
00:15:48,982 --> 00:15:51,149
you'd be bound to Iook back
over the years and be hurt...

274
00:15:52,882 --> 00:15:54,940
and, oh, my dear,
I don't want you to be hurt.

275
00:15:56,357 --> 00:15:57,349
You see,

276
00:15:58,482 --> 00:16:00,040
we're a happily married couple...

277
00:16:00,715 --> 00:16:02,374
and must never forget that.

278
00:16:03,732 --> 00:16:04,899
This is my home.

279
00:16:06,382 --> 00:16:07,824
You're my husband...

280
00:16:08,507 --> 00:16:10,149
and my children are upstairs in bed.

281
00:16:11,757 --> 00:16:13,232
I'm a happiIy married woman -

282
00:16:14,798 --> 00:16:16,773
or, rather, I was until a few weeks ago.

283
00:16:18,840 --> 00:16:20,565
This is my whole world...

284
00:16:21,382 --> 00:16:22,482
and it's enough -

285
00:16:23,507 --> 00:16:25,440
or, rather, it was, untiI a few weeks ago.

286
00:16:28,107 --> 00:16:30,190
But, oh, Fred, l've been so foolish.

287
00:16:31,732 --> 00:16:32,898
I've falIen in love.

288
00:16:34,273 --> 00:16:35,273
I'm an ordinary woman.

289
00:16:36,815 --> 00:16:39,640
I didn't think such violent things
could happen to ordinary people.

290
00:16:42,065 --> 00:16:44,015
It alI started on an ordinary day...

291
00:16:45,315 --> 00:16:47,432
in the most ordinary
place in the world...

292
00:16:48,273 --> 00:16:50,223
the refreshment room
at Milford Junction.

293
00:16:51,815 --> 00:16:53,298
I was having a cup of tea...

294
00:16:53,885 --> 00:16:56,285
and reading a book that I'd got
that morning from Boots.

295
00:16:56,732 --> 00:16:58,273
My train wasn't due for ten minutes.

296
00:16:59,732 --> 00:17:02,440
I looked up and saw a man
come in from the platform.

297
00:17:03,898 --> 00:17:05,482
He had on an ordinary mac.

298
00:17:05,519 --> 00:17:07,519
His hat was turned down,
and l didn't even see his face.

299
00:17:08,857 --> 00:17:10,773
He got his tea at the counter
and turned.

300
00:17:11,040 --> 00:17:13,398
Then I did see his face.
It was rather a nice face.

301
00:17:13,465 --> 00:17:15,273
- Any sugar?
- ln the spoon.

302
00:17:16,065 --> 00:17:17,940
He passed my table on the way to his.

303
00:17:17,940 --> 00:17:19,357
You're neglecting your duty.

304
00:17:19,357 --> 00:17:21,490
The woman at the counter
was going on as usual.

305
00:17:21,898 --> 00:17:23,640
You know, I told you
about her the other day -

306
00:17:24,107 --> 00:17:25,398
the one with the refined voice.

307
00:17:25,565 --> 00:17:28,432
- Minnie hasn't touched her milk.
- Did you put it down for her?

308
00:17:28,498 --> 00:17:29,898
Yes, but she never came for it.

309
00:17:31,440 --> 00:17:33,332
- Fond of animals?
- ln their place.

310
00:17:33,690 --> 00:17:35,923
My landlady's got a positive
mania for animals.

311
00:17:36,190 --> 00:17:38,423
She's got two cats -
one Manx, one ordinary -

312
00:17:38,690 --> 00:17:40,048
three rabbits in a hutch
in the kitchen...

313
00:17:40,348 --> 00:17:41,848
they belong to her
little boy by rights -

314
00:17:42,315 --> 00:17:44,807
and one of those dark-looking
dogs with hair over its eyes.

315
00:17:45,273 --> 00:17:49,182
- l don't know to what breed you refer.
- l don't think it knows itself.

316
00:17:51,107 --> 00:17:54,173
Go and clean off number three, Beryl.
l can see the crumbs on it from here.

317
00:17:54,340 --> 00:17:55,773
What about my other cup?

318
00:17:56,073 --> 00:17:58,173
 l'll have to be moving.
The 5:40 will be in in a minute.

319
00:17:58,548 --> 00:18:00,398
- Who's on the gate?
- Young William.

320
00:18:27,357 --> 00:18:28,840
Look, please, could you
give me a glass of water?

321
00:18:28,840 --> 00:18:30,440
l've got something in my eye,
and l want to bathe it. 

322
00:18:32,815 --> 00:18:35,165
- Would you like me to have a look?
- No, don't trouble.

323
00:18:35,165 --> 00:18:36,565
l expect the water will do.
Thanks you. 

324
00:18:37,232 --> 00:18:38,465
Bit of coal dust, l expect.

325
00:18:38,732 --> 00:18:41,957
A man l knew lost the sight in one
eye through getting a bit of grit in it.

326
00:18:41,923 --> 00:18:43,357
Nasty, very nasty.

327
00:18:43,357 --> 00:18:44,190
Better?

328
00:18:44,190 --> 00:18:46,665
- l'm afraid not. Ooh.
- Can l help you?

329
00:18:47,307 --> 00:18:49,165
Oh, no, please, it's only
something in my eye.

330
00:18:49,165 --> 00:18:51,898
Try pulling your eyelid
down as far as it'll go.

331
00:18:51,898 --> 00:18:53,940
- And then blowing your nose.
- Please let me look.

332
00:18:53,940 --> 00:18:56,240
- l happen to be a doctor.
- lt's very kind of you.

333
00:18:56,307 --> 00:18:57,940
Look, turn around
to the light, please.

334
00:18:59,065 --> 00:19:00,398
Now look up.

335
00:19:02,148 --> 00:19:03,273
Now look down.

336
00:19:06,005 --> 00:19:07,648
Keep still.
l see it.

337
00:19:11,023 --> 00:19:13,690
- There.
- Oh, what a relief. lt was agonizing.

338
00:19:13,690 --> 00:19:15,607
- Looks like a bit of grit.
- lt was when the express went through.

339
00:19:15,607 --> 00:19:18,132
- Thank you very much, indeed.
- There we go. l must run.

340
00:19:18,198 --> 00:19:20,523
- How lucky for me you happened to be here.
- Anybody could've done it.

341
00:19:20,523 --> 00:19:23,732
- Never mind, you did, and l'm most grateful.
- There's my train. l must go. Good-bye.

342
00:19:23,732 --> 00:19:24,890
Goodbye.

343
00:19:29,857 --> 00:19:30,982
That's how it all began -

344
00:19:32,148 --> 00:19:34,148
just through me getting
a little piece of grit in my eye.

345
00:19:35,732 --> 00:19:37,165
I completeIy forgot
the whole incident.

346
00:19:37,265 --> 00:19:38,965
It didn't mean
anything to me at all.

347
00:19:41,315 --> 00:19:42,523
At Ieast l didn't think it did.

348
00:19:48,773 --> 00:19:50,940
The next Thursday l went
into Milford again, as usual.

349
00:20:01,731 --> 00:20:03,181
l changed my book at Boots.

350
00:20:03,648 --> 00:20:06,606
Miss Lewis had at last managed
to get the new Kate O'Brien for me.

351
00:20:06,773 --> 00:20:08,940
l believe she'd kept it hidden
under the counter for two days.

352
00:20:09,856 --> 00:20:10,561
On the way out, 

353
00:20:10,561 --> 00:20:12,961
l bought two new
toothbrushes for the children.

354
00:20:13,231 --> 00:20:15,690
I like the smeIl of a chemist's
better than any other shop.

355
00:20:15,856 --> 00:20:17,398
It's such a mixture of nice things -

356
00:20:17,465 --> 00:20:19,690
herbs and scent and soap.

357
00:20:20,273 --> 00:20:22,690
That awful Mrs. Leftwich
was at the other end of the counter

358
00:20:22,690 --> 00:20:24,970
wearing one of the silliest
hats l've ever seen.

359
00:20:25,340 --> 00:20:26,898
Fortunately, she didn't look up,

360
00:20:27,065 --> 00:20:28,981
so I got out without
her buttonhoIing me.

361
00:20:30,231 --> 00:20:31,815
Just as I stepped out
onto the pavement -

362
00:20:31,981 --> 00:20:33,898
- Good morning.
- Oh, good morning.

363
00:20:33,898 --> 00:20:35,231
- How's the eye?
- Perfectly all right.

364
00:20:35,298 --> 00:20:38,273
- How kind it was of you to take so much trouble.
- lt was nothing at all.

365
00:20:38,440 --> 00:20:40,706
- lt's clearing up, l think.
- Yes, it's going to be nice.

366
00:20:41,606 --> 00:20:44,606
- Well, l must be getting along to the hospital.
- And l must be getting along to the grocers.

367
00:20:44,773 --> 00:20:46,356
What exciting lives
we lead, don't we?

368
00:20:46,516 --> 00:20:47,516
- Good-bye.
- Good-bye.

369
00:20:50,023 --> 00:20:52,565
That evening l had to run
nearly all the way to the station.

370
00:20:53,023 --> 00:20:54,265
l'd been to the Palladium,
as usual, 

371
00:20:54,265 --> 00:20:56,715
but it was a terribly long
film and l was afraid l'd be late.

372
00:20:58,231 --> 00:20:59,981
As l came up onto the platform,

373
00:20:59,981 --> 00:21:01,898
the Churley train
was just puffing out.

374
00:21:02,648 --> 00:21:05,565
I looked up idIy as the windows
of the carriages went by,

375
00:21:05,773 --> 00:21:07,440
wondering if he was there.

376
00:21:07,815 --> 00:21:10,565
l remember this crossing my mind,
but it was quite unimportant.

377
00:21:10,815 --> 00:21:12,731
I was reaIly thinking of other things.

378
00:21:13,106 --> 00:21:15,690
The present for your birthday
was worrying me rather.

379
00:21:16,106 --> 00:21:18,648
It was terribly expensive,
but I knew you wanted it...

380
00:21:18,815 --> 00:21:20,648
and I had sort of half
taken the plunge

381
00:21:20,815 --> 00:21:24,190
and left a deposit on it at Spink and
Robson's untiI the next Thursday.

382
00:21:25,440 --> 00:21:26,898
The next Thursday.

383
00:21:28,148 --> 00:21:30,837
Well, l squared my
conscience by thinking

384
00:21:30,837 --> 00:21:32,173
how pleased you would be
and bought it.

385
00:21:32,173 --> 00:21:33,856
- Yes, l'll have it.
- Thank you, madam.

386
00:21:34,023 --> 00:21:37,023
lt was wildIy extravagant, l know, 
but having committed the crime...

387
00:21:37,231 --> 00:21:39,106
I suddenly felt reckIess and gay.

388
00:21:39,981 --> 00:21:41,440
The sun was out and,

389
00:21:41,606 --> 00:21:44,148
everybody in the street
looked more cheerful than usual...

390
00:21:44,315 --> 00:21:46,323
and there was a barreI organ
at the corner by Harris's

391
00:21:46,323 --> 00:21:48,786
and you know how
I love barrel organs.

392
00:21:48,773 --> 00:21:49,690
It was playing

393
00:21:49,691 --> 00:21:51,659
"Let the Great Big World keep Turning..."

394
00:21:51,923 --> 00:21:53,690
and I gave the man sixpence

395
00:21:53,856 --> 00:21:55,648
and went to the Kardomah for lunch.

396
00:21:56,523 --> 00:21:57,698
It was very full,

397
00:21:57,698 --> 00:22:00,237
but two people had got up
from the table just as l had come in.

398
00:22:00,900 --> 00:22:02,395
That was a bit of luck, wasn't it?

399
00:22:02,395 --> 00:22:03,595
Or was it?

400
00:22:04,440 --> 00:22:07,065
Just after l had given my order,
l saw him come in.

401
00:22:07,231 --> 00:22:08,798
He looked a Iittle tired, l thought,

402
00:22:08,798 --> 00:22:10,472
and there was nowhere
for him to sit...

403
00:22:10,565 --> 00:22:11,887
so l smiled and said...

404
00:22:11,887 --> 00:22:12,857
Good morning.

405
00:22:13,481 --> 00:22:14,523
Oh, good morning.

406
00:22:14,543 --> 00:22:15,543
Are you all alone?

407
00:22:15,590 --> 00:22:16,665
Yes, l am.

408
00:22:16,731 --> 00:22:18,130
Would you mind if l
shared your table? 

409
00:22:18,130 --> 00:22:19,330
lt's very full. There
doesn't seem to be

410
00:22:19,330 --> 00:22:20,498
- anywhere else.
- No, of course not.

411
00:22:24,690 --> 00:22:26,515
l'm afraid we haven't been
introduced properly.

412
00:22:26,581 --> 00:22:27,565
My name's Alec Harvey.

413
00:22:27,900 --> 00:22:28,940
How do you do?

414
00:22:29,398 --> 00:22:31,581
- Mine's Laura Jesson.
- Mrs. Or Miss?

415
00:22:31,648 --> 00:22:32,731
Mrs.

416
00:22:32,940 --> 00:22:33,840
You're a doctor, aren't you?

417
00:22:33,840 --> 00:22:35,500
l remember you said so that
day in the refreshment room.

418
00:22:35,500 --> 00:22:36,373
Yes.

419
00:22:36,373 --> 00:22:38,401
Not a very interesting one.
Just an ordinary G.P.

420
00:22:38,573 --> 00:22:39,873
My practice is in Churley.

421
00:22:40,065 --> 00:22:41,031
Yes, sir?

422
00:22:41,431 --> 00:22:42,878
- What did you plump for?
- Excuse me, sir.

423
00:22:43,606 --> 00:22:45,273
Um, the soup and fried sole.

424
00:22:45,940 --> 00:22:47,148
Yes, l'll have the same.

425
00:22:47,415 --> 00:22:48,923
- Anything to drink?
- No, thank you.

426
00:22:49,273 --> 00:22:51,073
That is, would you
like anything to drink?

427
00:22:51,315 --> 00:22:53,773
- No, thank you. Just plain water.
- Plain water, please.

428
00:23:02,940 --> 00:23:04,440
Will you just look at the cellist?

429
00:23:13,556 --> 00:23:14,831
lt really is dreadful, isn't it?

430
00:23:14,831 --> 00:23:16,667
But we oughtn't to laugh.
They might see.

431
00:23:16,898 --> 00:23:18,809
There should be a society
for the prevention of

432
00:23:18,809 --> 00:23:20,256
cruelty to musical instruments.

433
00:23:20,656 --> 00:23:21,925
You don't play the piano, l hope?

434
00:23:22,023 --> 00:23:23,956
- l was forced to as a child.
- You haven't kept it up?

435
00:23:23,956 --> 00:23:24,698
No,

436
00:23:24,698 --> 00:23:26,764
- my husband isn't musical at all.
- Good for him.

437
00:23:27,064 --> 00:23:29,698
For all you know, l might have
a tremendous burning professional talent.

438
00:23:29,698 --> 00:23:30,881
Oh, dear, no.

439
00:23:31,401 --> 00:23:32,513
Why are you so sure?

440
00:23:32,856 --> 00:23:34,439
You're too sane and uncomplicated.

441
00:23:36,064 --> 00:23:37,973
l suppose it's a good thing
to be uncomplicated,

442
00:23:37,973 --> 00:23:39,333
but it does sound a little dull.

443
00:23:39,439 --> 00:23:40,606
You could never be dull.

444
00:23:42,481 --> 00:23:45,898
- Do you come here every Thursday?
- Yes, to spend a day at the hospital.

445
00:23:46,189 --> 00:23:48,898
Stephen Lynn, the chief physician
here, graduated with me.

446
00:23:49,064 --> 00:23:50,764
l take over from
him once a week.

447
00:23:50,764 --> 00:23:52,069
Gives him a chance
to go up to London.

448
00:23:52,231 --> 00:23:54,814
- Gives me a chance to study the hospital patients.
- l see.

449
00:23:54,981 --> 00:23:56,314
Do you?

450
00:23:56,564 --> 00:23:58,731
- Do l what?
- Come here every Thursday?

451
00:23:59,939 --> 00:24:02,048
Yes, l do the week's
shopping. Thank you.

452
00:24:02,248 --> 00:24:05,714
Change my library book, have lunch
and generally go to the pictures.

453
00:24:05,981 --> 00:24:08,231
Not a very exciting routine,
but it makes a change.

454
00:24:10,231 --> 00:24:11,898
Are you going to
the pictures this afternoon?

455
00:24:12,064 --> 00:24:12,898
Yes.

456
00:24:13,731 --> 00:24:15,064
How extraordinary.
So am l.

457
00:24:16,606 --> 00:24:18,231
l thought you had to spend
all day at the hospital.

458
00:24:18,398 --> 00:24:21,998
Well, between ourselves, l killed
two patients by accident this morning.

459
00:24:21,998 --> 00:24:23,856
The matron's very
displeased with me.

460
00:24:23,856 --> 00:24:25,515
l simply daren't go back.

461
00:24:26,298 --> 00:24:27,314
How can you be so silly?

462
00:24:27,481 --> 00:24:29,923
Seriously, l really did get through
most of my work this morning.

463
00:24:30,189 --> 00:24:31,456
lt won't matter at
all if l play truant.

464
00:24:31,456 --> 00:24:33,662
Would you mind very much
if l came to the pictures with you?

465
00:24:34,773 --> 00:24:36,531
- Well, l -
- l could sit downstairs,

466
00:24:36,531 --> 00:24:37,731
and you could sit upstairs.

467
00:24:38,023 --> 00:24:39,373
Upstairs is too expensive.

468
00:24:42,439 --> 00:24:44,731
The orchestra stopped
as abruptly as it had started...

469
00:24:44,898 --> 00:24:46,189
and we began to laugh again.

470
00:24:46,689 --> 00:24:48,051
l had no premonitions,

471
00:24:48,156 --> 00:24:49,599
but l suppose
l should have had.

472
00:24:49,599 --> 00:24:51,599
It alI seemed so natural
and so innocent.

473
00:24:52,939 --> 00:24:56,398
We finished lunch, and that idiot
of a waitress had put the bill aIl on one.

474
00:24:56,564 --> 00:24:58,606
- l really must insist.
- l couldn't possibly.

475
00:24:58,773 --> 00:25:00,098
Having forced my
company on you,

476
00:25:00,098 --> 00:25:01,475
it's only fair that l should
pay through the nose for it.

477
00:25:01,475 --> 00:25:04,209
Oh, please don't insist. l should so
much rather we halved it.

478
00:25:04,209 --> 00:25:05,200
l would really, please.

479
00:25:06,064 --> 00:25:09,481
- l shall give in gracefully.
- We haIved it meticulously.

480
00:25:10,773 --> 00:25:12,981
We even haIved the tip.

481
00:25:22,356 --> 00:25:23,481
Thank you.

482
00:25:25,439 --> 00:25:26,648
We have two choices:

483
00:25:26,814 --> 00:25:28,648
The Loves of Cardinal Richelieu 
at the Palace...

484
00:25:28,814 --> 00:25:30,748
- or Love in a Mist at the Palladium.
- You're very knowledgeable.

485
00:25:30,748 --> 00:25:32,473
There must be no argument
about buying the tickets.

486
00:25:32,473 --> 00:25:33,773
We each pay for ourselves.

487
00:25:33,964 --> 00:25:35,431
You must think me
a very poor doctor if

488
00:25:35,431 --> 00:25:36,931
l can't afford a couple
of one-and-ninepennies.

489
00:25:36,931 --> 00:25:39,056
- l insist.
- l had hoped you were going to treat me.

490
00:25:39,056 --> 00:25:41,564
- Which is it to be: Palace or Palladium?
- Palladium.

491
00:25:41,631 --> 00:25:44,564
l was once very sick on a channel
steamer called Cardinal Richelieu.

492
00:26:26,106 --> 00:26:27,286
Excuse me.

493
00:26:29,523 --> 00:26:32,056
l feel awfully grand perched up here.
lt was very extravagant of you.

494
00:26:32,056 --> 00:26:33,348
lt was a famous victory.

495
00:26:33,417 --> 00:26:34,814
Do you feel guilty at all?
l do.

496
00:26:34,814 --> 00:26:35,523
Guilty?

497
00:26:35,523 --> 00:26:38,123
You ought to more than me really.
You neglected your work this afternoon.

498
00:26:38,123 --> 00:26:39,289
l worked this morning.

499
00:26:39,739 --> 00:26:41,709
A little relaxation never
did harm to anyone.

500
00:26:41,709 --> 00:26:43,389
Why should either of us feel guilty?

501
00:26:43,959 --> 00:26:45,181
l don't know.

502
00:26:45,626 --> 00:26:46,926
How awfully nice you are.

503
00:27:01,232 --> 00:27:02,397
lt can't be.

504
00:27:04,522 --> 00:27:05,639
lt is.

505
00:27:09,481 --> 00:27:11,081
We walked back
to the station together.

506
00:27:11,807 --> 00:27:14,731
Just as we reached the gates,
he put his hand under my arm.

507
00:27:15,481 --> 00:27:18,772
I didn't notice it then,
but l remember it now.

508
00:27:19,022 --> 00:27:21,564
- What's she like - your wife?
- Madeleine?

509
00:27:21,814 --> 00:27:24,731
Small, dark, rather delicate.

510
00:27:24,897 --> 00:27:26,939
How funny. l should have
thought she would've been fair.

511
00:27:27,106 --> 00:27:28,856
And your husband?
What's he like?

512
00:27:29,022 --> 00:27:30,814
Medium height, brown hair,

513
00:27:30,981 --> 00:27:33,539
kindly, unemotional
and not delicate at all.

514
00:27:33,606 --> 00:27:35,814
- You said that proudly.
- Did l?

515
00:27:35,981 --> 00:27:37,356
- Good evening.
- Good evening.

516
00:27:37,939 --> 00:27:40,397
We've just got time for
a cup of tea before our trains go.

517
00:27:40,772 --> 00:27:42,381
And for the third
time in one week,

518
00:27:42,381 --> 00:27:44,237
he brought that common
man and his wife...

519
00:27:44,237 --> 00:27:46,397
to the house without so much
as a "by your leave."

520
00:27:46,464 --> 00:27:49,439
- Two teas, please.
- Cake or pastry?

521
00:27:49,606 --> 00:27:51,331
- Cake or pastry?
- No, thank you.

522
00:27:51,897 --> 00:27:55,114
- Are those Bath buns fresh?
- Certainly they are. Made this morning.

523
00:27:55,114 --> 00:27:56,097
Two, please.

524
00:27:58,272 --> 00:27:59,939
That'll be sevenpence.

525
00:28:01,314 --> 00:28:04,231
- Take the tea to the table, Beryl.
- l'll carry the buns.

526
00:28:09,397 --> 00:28:10,306
You must eat one of these.

527
00:28:10,306 --> 00:28:12,116
- Fresh this morning.
- Very fattening.

528
00:28:12,172 --> 00:28:13,731
l don't hold to such foolishness.

529
00:28:13,797 --> 00:28:15,214
They do look good, l must say.

530
00:28:15,430 --> 00:28:17,930
One of my earliest passions in life.
l've never outgrown it.

531
00:28:17,930 --> 00:28:20,606
- What happened then, Mrs. Bagot?
- Well -

532
00:28:21,314 --> 00:28:22,656
it's all very fine, l said,

533
00:28:22,656 --> 00:28:26,231
expecting me to do this, that and 
that other but what do l get out of it?

534
00:28:26,481 --> 00:28:27,697
You can't expect
me to be a cook,

535
00:28:27,697 --> 00:28:30,139
housekeeper and char rolled
into one during the day...

536
00:28:30,164 --> 00:28:33,064
and a loving wife in the evening,
just because you feel like it.

537
00:28:33,231 --> 00:28:34,481
Oh, dear me, no.

538
00:28:34,481 --> 00:28:36,321
There are just as good
fish in the sea,

539
00:28:36,321 --> 00:28:38,097
l said, as ever came out of it.

540
00:28:38,197 --> 00:28:40,295
And l packed me boxes
then and there and left him.

541
00:28:40,464 --> 00:28:42,147
Didn't you never go back?

542
00:28:42,314 --> 00:28:43,381
Never.

543
00:28:43,481 --> 00:28:46,081
Went to my sister's place
at Folkestone for a bit.

544
00:28:46,147 --> 00:28:49,564
Then l went in with a friend of mine,
and we opened a tea shop in Hythe.

545
00:28:49,897 --> 00:28:51,106
What happened to him?

546
00:28:51,272 --> 00:28:54,356
- Dead as a doornail inside three years.
- Well, l never.

547
00:28:56,647 --> 00:28:58,856
ls tea bad for one?
Worse than coffee, l mean?

548
00:28:59,689 --> 00:29:01,939
lf this is a professional interview,
my fee is a guinea.

549
00:29:02,606 --> 00:29:05,564
- Why did you become a doctor?
- That's a long story.

550
00:29:06,314 --> 00:29:08,314
Perhaps because
l'm a bit of an idealist.

551
00:29:08,314 --> 00:29:10,188
l should think all doctors
ought to have ideals really.

552
00:29:10,481 --> 00:29:11,739
Otherwise their work
would be unbearable.

553
00:29:11,739 --> 00:29:13,624
Surely you're not
encouraging me to talk shop?

554
00:29:13,672 --> 00:29:16,002
Why shouldn't you talk shop?
lt's what interests you most, isn't it?

555
00:29:16,002 --> 00:29:17,099
Yes, it is. 

556
00:29:17,606 --> 00:29:19,689
l'm terribly ambitious really.

557
00:29:19,856 --> 00:29:22,481
Not ambitious for myself
so much as for my special pigeon.

558
00:29:22,897 --> 00:29:24,689
- What is your special pigeon?
- Preventive medicine.

559
00:29:25,647 --> 00:29:26,581
l see.

560
00:29:26,781 --> 00:29:28,215
l'm afraid you don't.

561
00:29:28,647 --> 00:29:29,822
l was trying to be intelligent.

562
00:29:30,118 --> 00:29:31,518
Most good doctors...

563
00:29:31,689 --> 00:29:33,714
especially when they're young,
have private dreams.

564
00:29:33,929 --> 00:29:35,229
That's the best part of them.

565
00:29:35,481 --> 00:29:37,006
Sometimes, though those
get over-professionalized

566
00:29:37,006 --> 00:29:38,629
and strangulated
- am l boring you?

567
00:29:38,772 --> 00:29:41,481
No, l don't quite understand,
but you're not boring me.

568
00:29:41,481 --> 00:29:42,414
What l mean is this:

569
00:29:43,188 --> 00:29:44,981
 All good doctors
must primarily

570
00:29:44,981 --> 00:29:46,056
be enthusiasts.

571
00:29:46,602 --> 00:29:47,589
They must,

572
00:29:47,989 --> 00:29:49,527
like writers and
painters and priests -

573
00:29:49,527 --> 00:29:51,200
they must have
a sense of vocation...

574
00:29:51,731 --> 00:29:54,439
a deep-rooted, unsentimental
desire to do good.

575
00:29:54,814 --> 00:29:55,839
- Yes, l see that.
- Well,

576
00:29:55,839 --> 00:29:58,731
obviously one way of preventing
disease is worth 50 ways of curing it.

577
00:29:58,897 --> 00:30:00,606
That's where my ideal comes in.

578
00:30:00,772 --> 00:30:03,097
Preventive medicine isn't anything
to do with medicine at all really.

579
00:30:03,164 --> 00:30:04,439
lt's concerned with conditions -

580
00:30:04,639 --> 00:30:07,294
living conditions and hygiene
and common sense.

581
00:30:07,647 --> 00:30:09,897
For instance, my speciality
is pneumoconiosis.

582
00:30:10,072 --> 00:30:11,689
Oh, dear.

583
00:30:11,856 --> 00:30:14,355
Don't be alarmed.
lt's simpler than it sounds.

584
00:30:14,804 --> 00:30:17,235
lt's nothing but a slow process
of fibrosis of the lung...

585
00:30:17,235 --> 00:30:19,272
due to the inhalation
of particles of dust.

586
00:30:19,564 --> 00:30:22,122
ln the hospital herenthere are
splendid opportunities for observing

587
00:30:22,122 --> 00:30:24,109
cures and making notes
because of the coal mines.

588
00:30:24,109 --> 00:30:25,647
You suddenly
look much younger.

589
00:30:26,409 --> 00:30:27,409
Do l?

590
00:30:28,314 --> 00:30:29,772
Almost like a little boy.

591
00:30:30,732 --> 00:30:32,182
What made you say that?

592
00:30:33,255 --> 00:30:34,730
l don't know.

593
00:30:35,227 --> 00:30:36,597
Yes, l do.

594
00:30:37,314 --> 00:30:38,347
Tell me.

595
00:30:39,689 --> 00:30:40,697
Oh, no, l couldn't, really.

596
00:30:41,097 --> 00:30:42,872
You were saying
about the coal mines.

597
00:30:44,380 --> 00:30:45,230
Oh, yes,

598
00:30:45,230 --> 00:30:46,686
the inhalation of coal dust.

599
00:30:48,922 --> 00:30:52,522
That's one specific form of the disease.
lt's called anthracosis.

600
00:30:54,147 --> 00:30:55,689
What are the others?

601
00:30:56,547 --> 00:30:58,105
Chalicosis -

602
00:30:58,480 --> 00:31:00,272
that comes from metal dust -

603
00:31:00,409 --> 00:31:02,314
steelworks, you know.

604
00:31:02,922 --> 00:31:04,897
Yes, of course, steelworks.

605
00:31:05,589 --> 00:31:07,147
And silicosis -

606
00:31:08,205 --> 00:31:09,805
that's stone dust -

607
00:31:10,655 --> 00:31:12,005
gold mines.

608
00:31:13,409 --> 00:31:14,730
l see.

609
00:31:17,314 --> 00:31:18,730
- There's your train.
- Yes.

610
00:31:18,797 --> 00:31:21,272
- You mustn't miss it.
- No.

611
00:31:21,509 --> 00:31:24,355
- What's the matter?
- Nothing. Nothing at all, really.

612
00:31:26,397 --> 00:31:28,594
lt's been so very nice. l've enjoyed
my afternoon enormously.

613
00:31:28,630 --> 00:31:29,964
l'm so glad.
So have l.

614
00:31:29,964 --> 00:31:32,067
l apologize for boring you
with long medical words.

615
00:31:32,130 --> 00:31:34,939
l feel dull and stupid not to be
able to understand more.

616
00:31:36,109 --> 00:31:37,772
Shall l see you again?

617
00:31:38,254 --> 00:31:39,814
lt's the other platform, isn't it?
You'll have to run.

618
00:31:39,880 --> 00:31:41,855
Don't bother about me.
Mine's not due for a few minutes.

619
00:31:41,902 --> 00:31:44,689
- Shall l see you again?
- Yes, of course.

620
00:31:44,755 --> 00:31:46,330
Perhaps you'd come out
to Ketchworth one Sunday.

621
00:31:46,330 --> 00:31:47,704
lt's rather far, l know,
but we should be delighted.

622
00:31:47,704 --> 00:31:49,997
- Please, please.
- What is it?

623
00:31:49,997 --> 00:31:52,064
Next Thursday, the same time.

624
00:31:53,422 --> 00:31:55,480
- No, l couldn't possibly.
- Please.

625
00:31:55,904 --> 00:31:57,897
l ask you most humbly.

626
00:31:58,547 --> 00:32:00,230
You'll miss your train.

627
00:32:01,057 --> 00:32:02,397
All right.

628
00:32:02,964 --> 00:32:04,272
- Run.
- Good-bye.

629
00:32:04,272 --> 00:32:05,272
l'll be there.

630
00:32:05,502 --> 00:32:06,747
Thank you, my dear.

631
00:32:35,505 --> 00:32:36,647
I stood there

632
00:32:37,247 --> 00:32:39,715
and watched his train
draw out of the station.

633
00:32:40,922 --> 00:32:42,730
l stared after it 

634
00:32:42,905 --> 00:32:45,897
until its taiIlight had vanished
into the darkness.

635
00:32:49,005 --> 00:32:51,114
I imagined him
getting out at Churley...

636
00:32:51,955 --> 00:32:53,347
giving up his ticket

637
00:32:54,147 --> 00:32:56,126
waIking back
through the streets...

638
00:32:56,964 --> 00:32:59,605
letting himseIf into his
house with his Iatchkey.

639
00:33:00,922 --> 00:33:03,647
His wife - Madeleine -

640
00:33:04,772 --> 00:33:06,980
would probably be in
the haIl to meet him.

641
00:33:08,564 --> 00:33:10,247
Or perhaps upstairs
in her room,

642
00:33:10,547 --> 00:33:11,574
not feeIing very welI.

643
00:33:12,755 --> 00:33:14,997
"Small, dark and rather deIicate."

644
00:33:16,714 --> 00:33:18,130
I wondered if he'd say...

645
00:33:19,380 --> 00:33:21,564
"l met such a nice woman
at the Kardomah.

646
00:33:22,072 --> 00:33:24,014
We had lunch and
went to the pictures."

647
00:33:26,655 --> 00:33:28,480
Then suddenly,
l knew that he wouIdn't.

648
00:33:28,780 --> 00:33:31,367
I knew beyond a shadow of doubt
that he wouldn't say a word.

649
00:33:31,447 --> 00:33:35,105
At that moment, the first awful
feeIing of danger swept over me.

650
00:33:44,063 --> 00:33:45,563
I got into the first
compartment l saw.

651
00:33:45,563 --> 00:33:47,563
l wanted to get home
as quickIy as possible.

652
00:33:49,197 --> 00:33:52,438
l looked hurriedIy round the carriage
to see if anyone was Iooking at me...

653
00:33:53,022 --> 00:33:54,972
as if they couId read
my secret thoughts.

654
00:33:55,755 --> 00:33:56,938
No one was,

655
00:33:56,968 --> 00:33:59,015
except a cIergyman
in the opposite corner.

656
00:33:59,405 --> 00:34:00,755
I felt myself blushing

657
00:34:01,455 --> 00:34:03,830
and opened my library book
and pretended to read.

658
00:34:06,738 --> 00:34:08,022
By the time l'd
got to Ketchworth,

659
00:34:08,022 --> 00:34:10,631
l'd made up my mind definitely that
I wasn't going to see Alec anymore.

660
00:34:10,631 --> 00:34:12,580
- Good evening, Mrs. Jesson.
- lt was silly and undignified,

661
00:34:12,580 --> 00:34:14,509
flirting like that with
a complete stranger.

662
00:34:16,322 --> 00:34:17,413
Good evening.

663
00:34:17,800 --> 00:34:20,397
I walked up to the house
quite briskly and cheerfully.

664
00:34:20,500 --> 00:34:22,230
l'd been behaving
like an idiot, admittedIy,

665
00:34:22,230 --> 00:34:24,043
but after all, no
harm had been done.

666
00:34:26,530 --> 00:34:27,972
You met me in the hall.

667
00:34:28,422 --> 00:34:30,813
Your face was strained and
worried, and my heart sank.

668
00:34:30,813 --> 00:34:32,053
Fred, what's the matter?

669
00:34:32,880 --> 00:34:35,397
lt's all right, old girl, but you must 
keep calm and not be upset.

670
00:34:35,463 --> 00:34:36,697
- What is it? What's wrong?
- lt's Bobby.

671
00:34:36,697 --> 00:34:38,924
He was knocked down by a car
on the way home from school.

672
00:34:38,924 --> 00:34:39,947
Now it's not serious.

673
00:34:40,247 --> 00:34:42,813
He was just grazed by the mudguard
but it knocked him against the curb,

674
00:34:42,813 --> 00:34:45,563
and he's got slight concussion.
The doctor's upstairs with him now.

675
00:34:52,355 --> 00:34:54,788
lt's all right, Mrs. Jesson.
Nothing to worry about.

676
00:34:54,855 --> 00:34:57,105
He'll be as right
as rain in a few hours.

677
00:34:58,930 --> 00:35:01,288
You're sure?
You're sure it's not serious?

678
00:35:01,288 --> 00:35:02,138
Quite sure,

679
00:35:02,438 --> 00:35:05,047
but it was certainly
a very lucky escape.

680
00:35:05,105 --> 00:35:06,647
l've given him
a little sedative,

681
00:35:06,813 --> 00:35:09,480
and l shall advise keeping him
at home for a couple of days.

682
00:35:09,647 --> 00:35:11,438
lt must have been
a bit of a shock -

683
00:35:11,630 --> 00:35:13,347
l feIt so dreadful, Fred,
Iooking at him,

684
00:35:13,347 --> 00:35:15,418
Iying there with that
bandage round his head.

685
00:35:15,630 --> 00:35:18,438
l tried not to show it, but I was
quite hysterical inside...

686
00:35:18,938 --> 00:35:21,105
as though the whole
thing were my fault -

687
00:35:21,272 --> 00:35:23,063
a sort of punishment,

688
00:35:23,355 --> 00:35:25,438
an awful, sinister warning.

689
00:35:26,980 --> 00:35:29,855
An hour or two later, of course,
everything became quite normal again.

690
00:35:30,230 --> 00:35:32,105
He began to enjoy
the whole thing thoroughIy...

691
00:35:32,272 --> 00:35:34,772
and reveled in the fact
that he was the center of attraction.

692
00:35:34,938 --> 00:35:36,605
Oh, good!

693
00:35:37,105 --> 00:35:40,022
Do you remember how we spent
the whole evening planning his future?

694
00:35:41,522 --> 00:35:43,605
But he's much too young
to decide really.

695
00:35:43,772 --> 00:35:44,563
Good life,

696
00:35:44,563 --> 00:35:45,663
if the boy has
a feeling for it.

697
00:35:45,700 --> 00:35:48,438
How can he possibly really
know if he has a feeling for it?

698
00:35:48,730 --> 00:35:50,730
He'll probably want to be
an engine driver next week.

699
00:35:50,897 --> 00:35:53,438
No, it was last week he
wanted to be an engine driver.

700
00:35:53,897 --> 00:35:57,188
lt seems so final, somehow, entering
a child of that age for the navy.

701
00:35:57,605 --> 00:35:58,647
lt's a healthy life.

702
00:35:58,847 --> 00:36:01,247
l know it's a good life...
and l know it's a healthy life...

703
00:36:01,630 --> 00:36:04,313
and l know he'll be able to see the 
world and have a wife in every port...

704
00:36:04,380 --> 00:36:06,730
and keep on calling
everybody "sir," but

705
00:36:06,838 --> 00:36:08,938
- what about us?
- What do you mean, "What about us?"

706
00:36:09,105 --> 00:36:11,455
- We shall hardly ever see him.
- Oh, nonsense.

707
00:36:11,522 --> 00:36:12,980
lt isn't nonsense.

708
00:36:13,180 --> 00:36:15,708
He'll be sent away to sea
as a smooth-faced boy...

709
00:36:16,147 --> 00:36:17,002
and the next thing we know,

710
00:36:17,002 --> 00:36:19,387
he'll come walking in with
a long beard and a parrot.

711
00:36:19,980 --> 00:36:22,897
l think you take rather a Victorian 
view of the navy, my dear.

712
00:36:23,605 --> 00:36:26,355
He's our only son, and l should like
to be there while he's growing up.

713
00:36:26,897 --> 00:36:29,247
All right, old girl. Then
we'll put him into an office 

714
00:36:29,247 --> 00:36:31,831
and you can see him off
on the 8:50 every morning.

715
00:36:32,397 --> 00:36:35,063
You really are very annoying. You
know perfectly well l should hate that.

716
00:36:35,230 --> 00:36:37,030
All right, have it your own way.

717
00:36:41,147 --> 00:36:42,072
Fred...

718
00:36:45,063 --> 00:36:47,438
l had lunch with a strange man today,
and he took me to the movies.

719
00:36:47,438 --> 00:36:48,555
Good for you.

720
00:36:49,772 --> 00:36:51,655
He's awfully nice.
He's a doctor.

721
00:36:52,605 --> 00:36:55,188
A very noble profession.

722
00:36:56,772 --> 00:36:58,022
Oh, dear.

723
00:36:59,063 --> 00:37:02,272
lt was Richard lll who said
"My kingdom for a horse," wasn't it?

724
00:37:02,438 --> 00:37:03,488
Yes.

725
00:37:04,105 --> 00:37:06,772
l wish to goodness he hadn't,
'cause it spoils everything.

726
00:37:08,230 --> 00:37:10,647
l thought perhaps we might
ask him to dinner one night.

727
00:37:10,980 --> 00:37:12,313
By all means.

728
00:37:13,980 --> 00:37:15,146
Who?

729
00:37:16,146 --> 00:37:18,605
Dr. Harvey -
the one l was telling you about.

730
00:37:19,146 --> 00:37:21,663
- Must it be dinner?
- Well, you're never at home for lunch.

731
00:37:21,730 --> 00:37:23,063
Exactly.

732
00:37:24,563 --> 00:37:25,938
Oh, Fred.

733
00:37:28,063 --> 00:37:29,855
Now what on earth's the matter?

734
00:37:31,396 --> 00:37:32,996
lt's nothing.
lt's only -

735
00:37:33,096 --> 00:37:34,586
Oh, Fred.

736
00:37:35,063 --> 00:37:37,313
l really don't see what's
so frightfully funny.

737
00:37:37,480 --> 00:37:39,463
Oh, l do.
lt's all right, darling.

738
00:37:39,463 --> 00:37:41,523
l'm not laughing at you.
l'm laughing at me.

739
00:37:42,230 --> 00:37:44,355
l'm the one that's funny.
l'm an absolute idiot, 

740
00:37:44,521 --> 00:37:47,188
worrying myself about
things that don't exist...

741
00:37:47,355 --> 00:37:49,863
and making mountains
out of molehills.

742
00:37:50,021 --> 00:37:52,496
l told you when you came in
that it was nothing serious.

743
00:37:52,563 --> 00:37:56,146
- There was nothing to get into such a state about.
- l do see that now, l really do.

744
00:38:06,463 --> 00:38:08,980
When Thursday came,
l went to meet Alec...

745
00:38:09,080 --> 00:38:11,738
more as a matter of politeness
than for any other reason.

746
00:38:12,130 --> 00:38:13,896
It didn't seem of any importance,

747
00:38:13,896 --> 00:38:15,209
but, after alI, l had promised.

748
00:38:16,946 --> 00:38:18,821
l managed to
get the same table.

749
00:38:19,480 --> 00:38:20,555
l waited a bit,

750
00:38:21,188 --> 00:38:22,388
but he didn't come.

751
00:38:23,296 --> 00:38:25,905
The ladies' orchestra
was playing away, as usual.

752
00:38:26,380 --> 00:38:27,738
l looked at the cellist.

753
00:38:27,838 --> 00:38:29,822
She had seemed to be
so funny last week...

754
00:38:30,005 --> 00:38:31,896
but today, she didn't
seem funny anymore.

755
00:38:32,601 --> 00:38:34,371
She looked pathetic,
poor thing.

756
00:38:36,005 --> 00:38:37,063
After Iunch,

757
00:38:37,603 --> 00:38:39,443
I happened to pass
by the hospital.

758
00:38:40,588 --> 00:38:43,238
l remember looking up at the windows
and wondering if he were there...

759
00:38:43,838 --> 00:38:46,446
or whether something awful had 
happened to prevent him turning up.

760
00:38:47,338 --> 00:38:49,105
l got to the station
earlier than usual.

761
00:38:49,205 --> 00:38:50,897
I hadn't enjoyed the pictures much.

762
00:38:51,171 --> 00:38:54,071
lt was one of those noisy musical 
things, and l'm so sick of them.

763
00:38:54,338 --> 00:38:56,113
I had come out
before it was over.

764
00:38:56,505 --> 00:38:58,405
As l took my tea to the table,

765
00:38:58,671 --> 00:39:00,613
I suddenly wondered
if I'd made a mistake...

766
00:39:00,880 --> 00:39:02,946
and he'd meant me
to meet him there.

767
00:39:18,755 --> 00:39:20,380
Albert Godby, how dare you!

768
00:39:20,380 --> 00:39:23,171
- l couldn't resist.
- l'll trouble you to keep your hands to yourself.

769
00:39:23,171 --> 00:39:24,380
Oh, you're blushing.

770
00:39:24,480 --> 00:39:25,971
Oh, you look wonderful
when you're angry,

771
00:39:25,971 --> 00:39:28,963
- just like an avenging angel.
- l'll give you avenging angel,

772
00:39:29,030 --> 00:39:30,688
coming in here taking liberties.

773
00:39:30,688 --> 00:39:32,213
l thought after what you
said last Monday you

774
00:39:32,213 --> 00:39:33,680
wouldn't object to
a friendly little slap.

775
00:39:33,680 --> 00:39:35,546
Never you mind
about last Monday.

776
00:39:35,646 --> 00:39:37,021
l'm on duty now.

777
00:39:37,213 --> 00:39:39,905
A nice thing if Mr. Saunders had happened
to be looking through the window.

778
00:39:40,171 --> 00:39:42,188
lf Mr. Saunders is in the habit
of looking through windows

779
00:39:42,188 --> 00:39:43,782
it's about time he saw
something worth looking at.

780
00:39:43,782 --> 00:39:47,855
- You ought to be ashamed of yourself.
- lt's high spirits, don't be mad at me.

781
00:39:47,855 --> 00:39:49,530
High spirits, indeed.

782
00:39:49,530 --> 00:39:50,703
Take your tea, and be quiet.

783
00:39:51,005 --> 00:39:52,071
lt's all your fault, really.

784
00:39:52,371 --> 00:39:54,182
l don't know to
what you're referring.

785
00:39:54,838 --> 00:39:56,655
l was thinking of,
um, tonight.

786
00:39:56,921 --> 00:39:59,563
lf you don't learn to behave
yourself, there won't be a tonight

787
00:39:59,563 --> 00:40:00,913
or any other night, either.

788
00:40:01,130 --> 00:40:02,080
Give us a kiss.

789
00:40:02,080 --> 00:40:04,046
l'll do no such thing.
The lady might see us.

790
00:40:04,046 --> 00:40:05,980
- Come on, a quick one across the bar.
- Albert, stop it!

791
00:40:06,146 --> 00:40:08,030
- Come, there's a love.
- Let go of me this minute.

792
00:40:08,030 --> 00:40:09,271
- Come on, love.
- Albert.

793
00:40:09,271 --> 00:40:11,563
Now look at me Banburys
all over the floor.

794
00:40:13,438 --> 00:40:15,730
Just in time, or born in the vestry?

795
00:40:15,796 --> 00:40:18,838
You shut your mouth and help 
Mr. Godby pick up them cakes.

796
00:40:20,130 --> 00:40:22,480
Come along now -
what are you standing there gaping at?

797
00:40:42,046 --> 00:40:45,021
As l left the refreshment room,
l saw a train coming in

798
00:40:45,171 --> 00:40:48,229
His train.
He wasn't on the platform,

799
00:40:48,629 --> 00:40:51,771
and I suddenly felt panic-stricken
at the thought of not seeing him again.

800
00:40:59,254 --> 00:41:00,938
My dear, l'm so sorry.

801
00:41:01,238 --> 00:41:02,004
l'd no way of letting you know.

802
00:41:02,004 --> 00:41:05,438
- Your train, you'll miss it.
- The house surgeon had to operate suddenly.

803
00:41:12,463 --> 00:41:13,654
l was going to send
a note to the Kardomah, 

804
00:41:13,654 --> 00:41:15,404
but l thought they might shout your 
name out and embarrass you.

805
00:41:15,404 --> 00:41:17,188
Please don't say any more.

806
00:41:23,504 --> 00:41:25,271
Quickly, quickly,
the whistle's gone.

807
00:41:28,921 --> 00:41:30,504
l'm so glad l had a chance to explain.

808
00:41:30,704 --> 00:41:31,671
l didn't think l'd see you again.

809
00:41:31,671 --> 00:41:33,646
How absurd.
Quickly, quickly.

810
00:41:36,088 --> 00:41:37,896
- Next Thursday?
- Yes, next Thursday.

811
00:41:37,963 --> 00:41:39,313
- Good-bye!
- Good-bye!

812
00:41:39,379 --> 00:41:41,896
Next Thursday!
Good-bye!

813
00:41:43,213 --> 00:41:48,229
The train for Ketchworth is about
to leave from platform three.

814
00:41:59,171 --> 00:42:01,063
The stars can change
in their courses,

815
00:42:01,129 --> 00:42:03,729
the universe go up in flames
and the world crash around us,

816
00:42:03,729 --> 00:42:05,104
but there'll always be Donald Duck.

817
00:42:05,171 --> 00:42:09,188
l do love him so - his dreadful
energy and his blind frustrated rages.

818
00:42:10,338 --> 00:42:11,438
lt's the big picture now.

819
00:42:11,438 --> 00:42:14,066
Here we go. No more
laughter. Prepare for tears.

820
00:42:18,713 --> 00:42:20,604
It was a terribIy bad picture.

821
00:42:21,171 --> 00:42:22,438
We crept out before the end,

822
00:42:23,238 --> 00:42:24,404
rather furtively...

823
00:42:24,504 --> 00:42:26,371
as though we were
committing a crime.

824
00:42:26,921 --> 00:42:29,938
The usherette at the door looked
at us with stony contempt.

825
00:42:31,088 --> 00:42:32,504
It was a lovely afternoon,

826
00:42:32,504 --> 00:42:34,366
and it was a relief
to be in the fresh air.

827
00:42:34,671 --> 00:42:37,063
We decided we'd go
to the botanical gardens.

828
00:42:37,296 --> 00:42:38,154
Do you know,

829
00:42:38,754 --> 00:42:40,394
l believe we should aIl
behave quite differentIy...

830
00:42:40,394 --> 00:42:42,688
if we lived in a warm,
sunny climate aIl the time.

831
00:42:43,213 --> 00:42:46,063
We shouldn't be so withdrawn
and shy and difficult.

832
00:42:47,296 --> 00:42:49,479
Oh, Fred, it really
was a lovely afternoon.

833
00:42:49,588 --> 00:42:51,454
There were some little
boys sailing their boats.

834
00:42:51,654 --> 00:42:53,086
One of them looked
awfully like Bobby.

835
00:42:53,421 --> 00:42:56,354
That should have given me a pang
of conscience, l know, but it didn't.

836
00:42:56,588 --> 00:42:58,096
l was enjoying myself -

837
00:42:58,463 --> 00:43:00,304
enjoying every single minute.

838
00:43:00,671 --> 00:43:02,979
Alec suddenly said that he
was sick of staring at the water

839
00:43:02,979 --> 00:43:04,042
and that he wanted to be on it.

840
00:43:06,046 --> 00:43:07,579
All the boats were covered up,

841
00:43:07,609 --> 00:43:10,200
but we managed to persuade
the old man to let us have one.

842
00:43:10,896 --> 00:43:12,813
He thought we were raving mad.

843
00:43:13,754 --> 00:43:15,121
Perhaps he was right.

844
00:43:15,754 --> 00:43:17,488
Alec rode off at a great rate

845
00:43:17,588 --> 00:43:19,521
and l trailed my
hand in the water.

846
00:43:19,838 --> 00:43:22,313
It was very cold,
but a lovely feeling.

847
00:43:28,129 --> 00:43:30,354
You don't row very well, do you?

848
00:43:30,629 --> 00:43:33,396
l'm going to be perfectly honest
with you - l don't row at all...

849
00:43:33,671 --> 00:43:36,254
and unless you want to go round
and round in ever-narrowing circles...

850
00:43:36,254 --> 00:43:38,179
you'd better start steering.

851
00:43:40,213 --> 00:43:42,104
Oh, we had such fun, Fred.

852
00:43:42,379 --> 00:43:45,063
I felt gay and happy
and sort of released.

853
00:43:45,921 --> 00:43:48,146
That's what's so
shameful about it aIl.

854
00:43:48,754 --> 00:43:51,229
That's what would hurt
you so much if you knew -

855
00:43:51,629 --> 00:43:54,104
that I could feel as
intensely as that...

856
00:43:54,171 --> 00:43:56,063
away from you,

857
00:43:56,296 --> 00:43:58,104
with a stranger.

858
00:43:59,588 --> 00:44:01,813
Oh, look out!
We can't get through!

859
00:44:01,879 --> 00:44:03,521
Pull on your left!

860
00:44:09,296 --> 00:44:11,521
Oh, dear, l never
could tell left from right.

861
00:44:11,587 --> 00:44:13,562
l'm most awfully sorry.

862
00:44:36,879 --> 00:44:39,312
You know the British have
always been nice to mad people.

863
00:44:39,671 --> 00:44:41,479
That boatman thinks
we're quite dotty,

864
00:44:41,479 --> 00:44:42,832
but look how sweet he's been.

865
00:44:43,754 --> 00:44:46,771
Tea, milk, even sugar.

866
00:44:52,462 --> 00:44:53,937
Thank you.

867
00:45:07,421 --> 00:45:09,271
You know what's
happened, don't you?

868
00:45:12,046 --> 00:45:13,354
Yes.

869
00:45:14,296 --> 00:45:15,771
Yes, l do.

870
00:45:16,962 --> 00:45:19,312
l've fallen in love with you.

871
00:45:21,504 --> 00:45:22,937
Yes, l know.

872
00:45:26,837 --> 00:45:30,048
Tell me honestly. Please tell me 
honestly if what l believe is true.

873
00:45:32,587 --> 00:45:35,146
- What do you believe?
- That it's the same with you -

874
00:45:35,504 --> 00:45:37,437
that you've fallen in love too.

875
00:45:39,671 --> 00:45:41,562
- lt sounds so silly.
- Why?

876
00:45:41,629 --> 00:45:44,604
- l know you so little.
- lt is true though, isn't it?

877
00:45:47,171 --> 00:45:48,854
- Yes, it's true.
- Laura.

878
00:45:48,921 --> 00:45:50,229
No, please,

879
00:45:50,229 --> 00:45:52,214
we must be sensible.
Please help me to be sensible.

880
00:45:52,279 --> 00:45:53,979
We mustn't behave like this.

881
00:45:54,196 --> 00:45:56,104
We must forget that
we've said what we've said.

882
00:45:56,171 --> 00:45:58,896
- Not yet, not quite yet.
- But we must. Don't you see?

883
00:46:00,962 --> 00:46:02,396
Listen,

884
00:46:02,712 --> 00:46:05,437
it's too late now to be
as sensible as all that.

885
00:46:05,962 --> 00:46:07,812
lt's too late to forget
what we've said...

886
00:46:08,129 --> 00:46:10,271
Whethand anyway, whether we'd
said it or not couldn't have mattered.

887
00:46:11,046 --> 00:46:13,854
We know. We've both of
us known for a long time.

888
00:46:14,837 --> 00:46:16,512
How can you say that?

889
00:46:16,812 --> 00:46:18,206
l've only known
you for four weeks.

890
00:46:19,421 --> 00:46:22,146
We only talked for the first
time last Thursday week.

891
00:46:22,379 --> 00:46:23,779
Last Thursday week.

892
00:46:24,479 --> 00:46:27,021
Has it been a long time
for you since then?

893
00:46:27,046 --> 00:46:28,721
Answer me truly.

894
00:46:29,421 --> 00:46:30,687
Yes.

895
00:46:30,879 --> 00:46:33,521
How often did you decide that you
were never going to see me again?

896
00:46:34,629 --> 00:46:36,096
- Several times a day.
- So did l.

897
00:46:36,096 --> 00:46:38,204
- Oh, Alec.
- l love you. 

898
00:46:38,921 --> 00:46:40,729
l love your wide eyes...

899
00:46:41,212 --> 00:46:43,104
and the way you smile...

900
00:46:43,504 --> 00:46:45,146
and your shyness...

901
00:46:45,962 --> 00:46:48,021
- and the way you laugh at my jokes.
- Please don't.

902
00:46:48,087 --> 00:46:50,271
l love you.
l love you.

903
00:46:50,962 --> 00:46:51,837
You love me too.

904
00:46:51,837 --> 00:46:54,481
lt's no use pretending it hasn't
happened, because it has.

905
00:46:54,654 --> 00:46:56,404
Yes, it has.

906
00:46:56,671 --> 00:46:59,354
l don't want to pretend anything
either to you or to anyone else...

907
00:46:59,962 --> 00:47:01,854
but from now on,
l shall have to.

908
00:47:01,921 --> 00:47:03,187
That's what's wrong,
don't you see?

909
00:47:03,487 --> 00:47:05,033
That's what spoils everything.

910
00:47:05,462 --> 00:47:08,062
That's why we must stop
here and now talking like this.

911
00:47:09,004 --> 00:47:11,854
We're neither of us free to love each
other. There's too much in the way.

912
00:47:13,337 --> 00:47:15,521
There's still time...

913
00:47:15,796 --> 00:47:17,437
if we control ourselves

914
00:47:17,437 --> 00:47:19,043
and behave like
sensible human beings.

915
00:47:20,837 --> 00:47:22,812
There's still time to -

916
00:47:25,296 --> 00:47:27,312
There's no time at all.

917
00:47:30,587 --> 00:47:32,812
- There's your train.
- Yes.

918
00:47:34,046 --> 00:47:36,479
l'll come over to
the platform with you.

919
00:47:57,712 --> 00:47:59,687
No, Alec, not here.
Someone will see.

920
00:48:00,087 --> 00:48:01,854
l love you so.

921
00:48:14,379 --> 00:48:16,645
Do you think we might
have that down a bit, darling?

922
00:48:17,837 --> 00:48:19,437
Hi, Laura.

923
00:48:21,254 --> 00:48:24,937
- Yes, dear?
- You were miles away.

924
00:48:25,879 --> 00:48:27,645
Was l? Yes,
l suppose l was.

925
00:48:27,712 --> 00:48:29,529
Do you mind if we turn
that down a little?

926
00:48:29,529 --> 00:48:30,605
lt really is deafening.

927
00:48:30,605 --> 00:48:32,104
No, of course not.

928
00:48:41,087 --> 00:48:44,062
l shan't be long over this, darling,
then we'll go up to bed.

929
00:48:44,462 --> 00:48:46,229
You look a bit tired, you know.

930
00:48:46,504 --> 00:48:48,395
Don't hurry.
l'm perfectly happy.

931
00:48:57,337 --> 00:48:59,729
How can l possibly say that?

932
00:49:00,329 --> 00:49:02,091
"Don't hurry.
l'm perfectly happy."

933
00:49:03,837 --> 00:49:05,437
If only it were true.

934
00:49:06,212 --> 00:49:09,145
Not, l suppose, that anybody
is ever perfectly happy, really.

935
00:49:09,705 --> 00:49:11,712
But just to be
ordinariIy contented,

936
00:49:12,312 --> 00:49:13,703
to be at peace.

937
00:49:15,045 --> 00:49:16,629
lt's such a littIe
while ago, realIy,

938
00:49:16,629 --> 00:49:20,212
but it seems an eternity since
that train went out of the station...

939
00:49:20,920 --> 00:49:23,312
taking him away
into the darkness.

940
00:49:24,087 --> 00:49:25,687
I was happy then.

941
00:49:26,212 --> 00:49:29,895
As l went back through the subway to
my own platform l was walking on air.

942
00:49:30,795 --> 00:49:32,562
When l got into the train,

943
00:49:32,862 --> 00:49:34,429
I didn't even pretend to read.

944
00:49:34,754 --> 00:49:37,812
l didn't care whether people were
Iooking at me or not. I had to think.

945
00:49:38,545 --> 00:49:42,020
I should have been utterly wretched and
ashamed. l know l should, but l wasn't.

946
00:49:42,620 --> 00:49:44,937
I felt suddenly
quite wildly happy...

947
00:49:45,379 --> 00:49:47,270
Iike a romantic schoolgirl,

948
00:49:47,470 --> 00:49:49,031
like a romantic fool.

949
00:49:49,700 --> 00:49:50,879
You see,

950
00:49:51,379 --> 00:49:53,020
he had said he loved me,

951
00:49:53,620 --> 00:49:55,279
and l had said l loved him.

952
00:49:55,679 --> 00:49:58,066
And it was true.
lt was true.

953
00:49:59,295 --> 00:50:01,662
l imagined him
holding me in his arms.

954
00:50:02,254 --> 00:50:05,604
l imagined being with him in all
sorts of glamorous circumstances.

955
00:50:05,670 --> 00:50:07,529
lt was one of those
absurd fantasies,

956
00:50:07,529 --> 00:50:09,532
just like one has when
one is a girl being wooed

957
00:50:09,532 --> 00:50:11,463
and married by the
ideal of one's dreams.

958
00:50:17,170 --> 00:50:20,104
l stared out of that raiIway
carriage window into the dark...

959
00:50:20,754 --> 00:50:24,104
and watched the dim trees and
the teIegraph posts slipping by...

960
00:50:24,920 --> 00:50:27,062
and through them,
l saw Alec and me.

961
00:50:29,462 --> 00:50:31,354
Alec and me -

962
00:50:31,587 --> 00:50:34,812
perhaps a little younger than we
are now, but just as much in love...

963
00:50:35,170 --> 00:50:37,187
and with nothing in the way.

964
00:50:42,287 --> 00:50:43,587
I saw us in Paris,

965
00:50:43,987 --> 00:50:45,413
in a box at the opera.

966
00:50:45,795 --> 00:50:47,854
The orchestra was tuning up.

967
00:50:52,479 --> 00:50:53,762
Then we were in Venice,

968
00:50:54,262 --> 00:50:57,167
drifting along the Grand Canal
in a gondola with the sound of

969
00:50:57,167 --> 00:50:59,567
mandoIinscoming
to us over the water.

970
00:51:00,179 --> 00:51:02,362
I saw us traveling
far away together

971
00:51:02,862 --> 00:51:05,034
aIl the places I've
always longed to go.

972
00:51:07,420 --> 00:51:11,228
I saw us leaning on the rail of a ship,
looking at the sea and the stars...

973
00:51:13,378 --> 00:51:15,507
standing on a tropicaI
beach in the moonlight

974
00:51:15,507 --> 00:51:17,724
with the palm trees
sighing above us.

975
00:51:19,170 --> 00:51:21,903
Then the palm trees changed
into those pollarded wiIlows

976
00:51:21,903 --> 00:51:24,063
by the canal just
before the level crossing...

977
00:51:25,295 --> 00:51:27,770
and all the silly
dreams disappeared...

978
00:51:28,462 --> 00:51:30,228
and l got out at Ketchworth

979
00:51:30,528 --> 00:51:32,185
and gave up my ticket...

980
00:51:32,378 --> 00:51:34,278
and walked home as usual

981
00:51:34,678 --> 00:51:36,742
quite soberly
and without wings-

982
00:51:36,942 --> 00:51:38,842
without any wings at all.

983
00:51:39,337 --> 00:51:42,437
When l had changed for dinner and was
doing my face a bit - Do you remember?

984
00:51:42,503 --> 00:51:44,478
I don't suppose you do,
but l do.

985
00:51:45,212 --> 00:51:47,645
You see, you didn't know that
that was the first time in our life

986
00:51:47,645 --> 00:51:49,469
together that I had
ever lied to you.

987
00:51:50,003 --> 00:51:51,353
It started then -

988
00:51:52,583 --> 00:51:57,093
the shame of the whole
thing the guiItiness, the fear.

989
00:51:58,170 --> 00:52:01,062
- Good evening, Mrs. Jesson.
- Hello, dear.

990
00:52:02,295 --> 00:52:04,353
- Had a good day?
- Yes, lovely.

991
00:52:05,837 --> 00:52:07,187
What'd you do?

992
00:52:07,253 --> 00:52:10,020
Well, l shopped and had lunch
and went to the pictures.

993
00:52:10,087 --> 00:52:12,103
- All by yourself?
- Yes.

994
00:52:12,587 --> 00:52:16,187
- Uh, no, not exactly.
- What do you mean, "not exactly"?

995
00:52:17,128 --> 00:52:19,345
Well, l went to the pictures
by myself, but

996
00:52:19,545 --> 00:52:21,085
l had lunch with Mary Norton.

997
00:52:21,337 --> 00:52:23,853
She couldn't come to the pictures 'cause
she had to go and see her in-laws.

998
00:52:23,853 --> 00:52:26,028
They live just outside
Milford, you know.

999
00:52:26,420 --> 00:52:29,103
So l walked with her to the bus
and then came home on my own.

1000
00:52:29,170 --> 00:52:31,770
Haven't seen Mary Norton for ages.
How is she looking?

1001
00:52:31,920 --> 00:52:34,103
Very well, really.
A little fatter, l thought.

1002
00:52:34,295 --> 00:52:36,978
Hurry up with all this beautifying.
l want my dinner.

1003
00:52:37,295 --> 00:52:39,520
You go on down.
l won't be five minutes.

1004
00:53:01,878 --> 00:53:04,470
- Number, please?
- Ketchworth 3-7, please.

1005
00:53:04,470 --> 00:53:06,235
Ketchworth 3-7.

1006
00:53:13,287 --> 00:53:15,770
- Hello?
- Hello, is Mrs. Norton there, please?

1007
00:53:15,770 --> 00:53:18,053
- Yes. WiIl you hold on?
- Yes, l'll hold on.

1008
00:53:20,753 --> 00:53:22,803
- Hello?
- Hello? ls that you, Mary?

1009
00:53:22,803 --> 00:53:26,728
Oh, Laura! Fancy hearing from you.
l thought you were dead.

1010
00:53:27,712 --> 00:53:29,853
No, l haven't seen you for ages.

1011
00:53:29,920 --> 00:53:31,028
Listen, my dear...

1012
00:53:31,628 --> 00:53:34,783
will you be a saint and back me up
in the most appalling domestic lie?

1013
00:53:34,795 --> 00:53:38,145
- As bad as all that?
- My life depends on it.

1014
00:53:38,402 --> 00:53:41,945
Well, today, l went into Milford,
as usual, to do my shopping...

1015
00:53:42,170 --> 00:53:43,487
with the special
intention of buying

1016
00:53:43,487 --> 00:53:45,967
a far too expensive
present for Fred's birthday.

1017
00:53:46,278 --> 00:53:48,562
WelI, Spink and Robson's
hadn't got what l wanted...

1018
00:53:48,628 --> 00:53:52,145
which was one of those clocks with,
um, barometers and everything in one...

1019
00:53:52,212 --> 00:53:54,828
but they rang up their branch in
Broadham and said there was one there

1020
00:53:55,128 --> 00:53:57,500
so l hopped on the 1:30
train and went to get it.

1021
00:53:57,545 --> 00:53:59,287
- Go on.
- Well,

1022
00:53:59,387 --> 00:54:01,348
this is where
the black lie comes in.

1023
00:54:02,587 --> 00:54:05,745
Fred asked me if l'd had
a good day, and l said yes

1024
00:54:05,945 --> 00:54:07,705
and that you and
l had lunch together

1025
00:54:07,712 --> 00:54:10,687
and that you had gone to see your
in-laws and l had gone to the pictures.

1026
00:54:10,753 --> 00:54:12,728
So if you run into him,
don't let me down, will you?

1027
00:54:12,795 --> 00:54:14,553
Darling, of course not.

1028
00:54:15,453 --> 00:54:17,010
l'll do as much
for you, l promise.

1029
00:54:16,920 --> 00:54:20,395
- Well, Iet's really lunch one day.
- Yes, that'd be lovely.

1030
00:54:20,462 --> 00:54:22,045
What about next Thursday?

1031
00:54:22,045 --> 00:54:24,798
No, l can't on Thursday.
That's my Milford day.

1032
00:54:25,098 --> 00:54:28,395
- What about Friday?
- Fine, better make it here.

1033
00:54:28,462 --> 00:54:29,853
All right, perfect.

1034
00:54:30,153 --> 00:54:31,867
You know what my cook's like.

1035
00:54:32,045 --> 00:54:34,078
- lt'll have to be early.
- Yes,

1036
00:54:34,578 --> 00:54:35,402
all right.

1037
00:54:35,545 --> 00:54:37,187
- Good-bye.
- Good-bye.

1038
00:54:51,711 --> 00:54:53,311
That week was misery.

1039
00:54:55,378 --> 00:54:57,503
I went through it
in a sort of trance.

1040
00:55:00,045 --> 00:55:01,370
How odd of you
not to have noticed

1041
00:55:01,370 --> 00:55:03,403
that you were living
with a stranger in the house.

1042
00:55:06,628 --> 00:55:08,561
Thursday came at last.

1043
00:55:08,986 --> 00:55:12,478
l had arranged to meet Alec
outside the hospital at 12:30.

1044
00:55:19,545 --> 00:55:21,520
- Hello.
- Hello.

1045
00:55:21,795 --> 00:55:23,120
l thought you wouldn't come.

1046
00:55:23,220 --> 00:55:25,009
l've been thinking all the week
that you wouldn't come.

1047
00:55:26,128 --> 00:55:27,653
l didn't mean
to really, but

1048
00:55:27,753 --> 00:55:28,841
here l am.

1049
00:55:34,961 --> 00:55:37,978
Do you know, l hadn't been inside the Royal
since Violet's wedding reception.

1050
00:55:38,195 --> 00:55:40,145
lt aIl seemed very grand.

1051
00:55:40,461 --> 00:55:42,561
He actually ordered
a bottle of champagne

1052
00:55:42,561 --> 00:55:45,479
and when l protested, he said
that we were only middle-aged once.

1053
00:55:45,628 --> 00:55:48,728
We were very gay during Iunch
and taIked about quite ordinary things.

1054
00:55:48,836 --> 00:55:50,278
Oh, Fred, he really was charming.

1055
00:55:50,378 --> 00:55:52,528
I know you would have liked him
if only things had been different.

1056
00:55:53,836 --> 00:55:56,270
As we were going out, he said
that he had a surprise for me...

1057
00:55:56,336 --> 00:55:58,186
and that if l would wait
in the lounge for five minutes,

1058
00:55:58,186 --> 00:55:59,743
he'd show me what it was.

1059
00:55:59,920 --> 00:56:01,820
He went out and
down the steps at a run

1060
00:56:02,020 --> 00:56:05,053
more like an excited schoolboy
than a respectabIe doctor.

1061
00:56:06,203 --> 00:56:07,006
Suddenly...

1062
00:56:07,006 --> 00:56:08,645
out of the dining room
came Mary Norton

1063
00:56:08,645 --> 00:56:10,954
and that rich over-made-up
cousin of hers.

1064
00:56:11,336 --> 00:56:12,886
They must have been
in the dining room all the time

1065
00:56:12,886 --> 00:56:15,084
and seen Alec and me and
the champagne and everything.

1066
00:56:16,278 --> 00:56:17,220
Laura!

1067
00:56:17,320 --> 00:56:19,087
So it was you after all.

1068
00:56:19,086 --> 00:56:19,953
Hermione said it was.

1069
00:56:19,953 --> 00:56:21,828
- How are you?
- You know how shortsighted l am.

1070
00:56:21,828 --> 00:56:24,174
l peered and peered
and still couldn't be sure.

1071
00:56:24,195 --> 00:56:26,036
l never saw you at all.
How awful of me.

1072
00:56:26,036 --> 00:56:27,460
l expect it was the champagne.

1073
00:56:27,628 --> 00:56:29,378
l'm not used to
champagne for lunch.

1074
00:56:29,478 --> 00:56:31,269
Or for dinner either,
for that matter, but

1075
00:56:31,269 --> 00:56:33,978
- Alec insisted.
- Alec? Alec who, dear?

1076
00:56:34,128 --> 00:56:36,836
Alec Harvey, of course. Surely 
you remember the Harveys.

1077
00:56:36,836 --> 00:56:37,933
l've known them for years.

1078
00:56:38,003 --> 00:56:40,370
- No, l don't think l ever -
- He'll be back in a minute.

1079
00:56:40,370 --> 00:56:42,936
You'll probably recognize him
when you peer very closely.

1080
00:56:43,045 --> 00:56:46,378
- He looks very charming and very attentive.
- He's a dear.

1081
00:56:46,445 --> 00:56:49,020
One of the nicest people in
the world and a wonderful doctor.

1082
00:56:52,036 --> 00:56:55,678
- Alec, you remember Mrs. Norton, don't you?
- l'm afraid l don't.

1083
00:56:55,678 --> 00:56:59,103
lt's no use, Laura. We've never
seen each other before in our lives.

1084
00:56:59,203 --> 00:57:00,470
l'm quite sure we haven't.

1085
00:57:00,470 --> 00:57:02,520
How absurd. l made certain
he and Madeleine were there

1086
00:57:02,520 --> 00:57:04,996
when you dined with us
just before Christmas last year.

1087
00:57:05,128 --> 00:57:06,370
Alec, this is Mrs. Rolandson.

1088
00:57:06,470 --> 00:57:07,636
- How do you do?
- How do you do?

1089
00:57:07,636 --> 00:57:09,376
- Horrid weather, isn't it?
- Yes.

1090
00:57:09,403 --> 00:57:12,420
Of course, one can't really expect 
spring at this time of the year, can one?

1091
00:57:12,420 --> 00:57:13,586
No. No.

1092
00:57:16,045 --> 00:57:17,236
Well, we must be going.

1093
00:57:17,336 --> 00:57:20,933
l'm taking Hermione with me to
see the in-laws as moral support.

1094
00:57:21,003 --> 00:57:22,603
- Good-bye, Dr. Harvey.
- Good-bye.

1095
00:57:22,670 --> 00:57:23,553
Good-bye, my dear.

1096
00:57:23,653 --> 00:57:26,066
l do so envy you
your champagne.

1097
00:57:26,753 --> 00:57:28,520
- Good-bye.
- Good-bye.

1098
00:57:33,711 --> 00:57:35,936
- That was awful.
- Never mind.

1099
00:57:36,203 --> 00:57:38,353
They'd been watching us
all through lunch. Oh, dear.

1100
00:57:38,845 --> 00:57:39,695
Forget it.

1101
00:57:40,205 --> 00:57:41,816
Come out and
look at the surprise.

1102
00:57:42,461 --> 00:57:45,186
There at the foot of the steps
was a little two-seater car.

1103
00:57:45,670 --> 00:57:48,436
Alec had borrowed it from
Stephen Lynn for the afternoon.

1104
00:57:49,145 --> 00:57:51,936
I tried so hard to look pleased,
but it wasn't any good.

1105
00:57:52,461 --> 00:57:54,411
I kept thinking
of those two

1106
00:57:54,611 --> 00:57:56,081
Iaughing and talking...

1107
00:57:56,503 --> 00:57:59,603
Iaughing and taIking about us, and
I couldn't get them out of my mind.

1108
00:58:01,128 --> 00:58:02,770
When we were out
in the real country -

1109
00:58:02,770 --> 00:58:05,079
I think it was a few
miles beyond Brayfield -

1110
00:58:05,411 --> 00:58:08,111
we stopped the car just
outside a village and got out.

1111
00:58:08,661 --> 00:58:10,594
There was a little
bridge and a stream...

1112
00:58:10,894 --> 00:58:12,669
and the sun was making
an effort to come out,

1113
00:58:12,669 --> 00:58:14,360
but really not
succeeding very well.

1114
00:58:15,286 --> 00:58:18,761
We leaned on the parapet of the bridge
and looked down into the water.

1115
00:58:19,078 --> 00:58:20,028
I shivered,

1116
00:58:20,228 --> 00:58:21,459
and Alec put his
arm round me.

1117
00:58:21,544 --> 00:58:24,144
- Cold?
- No, not really.

1118
00:58:24,294 --> 00:58:25,894
Happy?

1119
00:58:28,836 --> 00:58:30,561
No, not really.

1120
00:58:31,903 --> 00:58:33,861
l know exactly what
you're going to say.

1121
00:58:35,128 --> 00:58:36,853
That it isn't worth it.

1122
00:58:37,753 --> 00:58:39,978
That the furtiveness and lying

1123
00:58:40,278 --> 00:58:42,527
outweigh the happiness
we might have together.

1124
00:58:42,711 --> 00:58:44,103
lsn't that it?

1125
00:58:45,169 --> 00:58:46,894
Something like that.

1126
00:58:50,544 --> 00:58:51,811
l want to ask
you something,

1127
00:58:52,011 --> 00:58:53,577
just to reassure myself.

1128
00:58:54,028 --> 00:58:55,178
What is it?

1129
00:58:56,711 --> 00:58:58,444
lt is true for you, isn't it?

1130
00:58:59,028 --> 00:59:01,028
This overwhelming feeling
we have for each other -

1131
00:59:01,028 --> 00:59:03,014
it's as true for you
as it is for me, isn't it?

1132
00:59:04,503 --> 00:59:06,269
Yes, it's true.

1133
00:59:13,128 --> 00:59:15,728
We must have stayed
on that bridge for a long time...

1134
00:59:16,836 --> 00:59:18,786
because when we got back to
Stephen Lynn's garage,

1135
00:59:18,786 --> 00:59:20,268
it was getting dark.

1136
00:59:21,919 --> 00:59:24,728
l remember feeling as if I was
on the edge of a precipice.

1137
00:59:25,086 --> 00:59:26,978
I think Alec felt that too.

1138
00:59:27,336 --> 00:59:30,269
You see, we both knew how
desperately we loved each other.

1139
00:59:33,294 --> 00:59:36,294
Alec said that he had to leave the keys
of the car in Stephen Lynn's flat...

1140
00:59:36,403 --> 00:59:38,436
and suggested that
I came up with him.

1141
00:59:38,528 --> 00:59:40,569
I refused rather
too vehemently.

1142
00:59:41,003 --> 00:59:43,511
Alec reminded me that Stephen 
wasn't coming back tilI late,

1143
00:59:43,511 --> 00:59:44,936
but I still refused.

1144
00:59:54,961 --> 00:59:56,044
l'm going back.

1145
00:59:56,244 --> 00:59:57,586
l'm going to miss my train.

1146
00:59:58,628 --> 01:00:00,644
- Back where?
- To Stephen's flat.

1147
01:00:01,586 --> 01:00:03,019
Oh, Alec.

1148
01:00:17,511 --> 01:00:21,053
Alec, l must go home now.
l really must go home.

1149
01:00:42,819 --> 01:00:44,603
A cup of tea, please.

1150
01:00:53,919 --> 01:00:54,908
Good afternoon.

1151
01:00:54,908 --> 01:00:56,501
- Afternoon, lady.
- Afternoon.

1152
01:00:56,544 --> 01:00:59,269
- Couple of whiskeys, please.
- Very sorry. lt's out of hours.

1153
01:00:59,336 --> 01:01:02,478
Well, just sneak 'em to us under
the cover of them poor old sandwiches.

1154
01:01:02,544 --> 01:01:05,228
Them sandwiches were fresh this morning,
and l shall do no such thing.

1155
01:01:05,294 --> 01:01:06,894
Come on, be a sport. 

1156
01:01:07,003 --> 01:01:09,353
You can have as much
as you want to after 6:00.

1157
01:01:09,419 --> 01:01:12,103
My throat's like a parrot's cage. 
Listen.

1158
01:01:13,294 --> 01:01:14,169
I'm sorry.

1159
01:01:14,169 --> 01:01:17,623
My license does not permit me to serve 
alcohol out of hours. That's final.

1160
01:01:17,836 --> 01:01:19,686
You wouldn't want to get me
into trouble, would you?

1161
01:01:19,753 --> 01:01:20,878
Just give us the chance, lady.

1162
01:01:20,878 --> 01:01:23,064
That's all we ask.
Just give us the chance.

1163
01:01:26,128 --> 01:01:27,353
Beryl!

1164
01:01:28,303 --> 01:01:31,453
- Yes, Mrs. Bagot?
- Ask Mr. Godby to come here for
a moment, will you?

1165
01:01:31,453 --> 01:01:32,419
Yes, Mrs. Bagot.

1166
01:01:32,419 --> 01:01:34,769
- Oh, and who's he when he's at home?
- You'll soon see.

1167
01:01:34,836 --> 01:01:37,753
- Coming in here cheeking me.
- Come off it, mother. Be a pal.

1168
01:01:37,753 --> 01:01:39,769
l'll give you "mother,"
you saucy upstart.

1169
01:01:39,836 --> 01:01:42,086
- Oi, oi, who you callin' an upstart?
- You! 

1170
01:01:42,086 --> 01:01:44,091
And l'll trouble you to
get out of here double quick.

1171
01:01:44,252 --> 01:01:46,727
Disturbing the customers and
making a nuisance of yourselves.

1172
01:01:46,877 --> 01:01:48,961
Here, where's the fire,
where's the fire?

1173
01:01:49,261 --> 01:01:50,127
What's going on in here?

1174
01:01:50,127 --> 01:01:52,461
Mr. Godby, these
gentlemen are annoying me.

1175
01:01:52,461 --> 01:01:54,877
What? We haven't done nothing,
have we, Johnnie?

1176
01:01:55,277 --> 01:01:56,901
All we did was ask
a couple of drinks, that's all.

1177
01:01:56,961 --> 01:02:00,644
- They insulted me, Mr. Godby.
- We never did anything of the kind.

1178
01:02:00,794 --> 01:02:03,019
- Just having a little joke, that's all.
- Hop it, both of you.

1179
01:02:03,086 --> 01:02:06,436
- We've got a right to stay here as long as we like.
- You heard what l said. Hop it. 

1180
01:02:06,502 --> 01:02:09,227
Now, look here. What is this, a free
country or a bloomin' Sunday school?

1181
01:02:09,194 --> 01:02:11,311
l checked your warrants at the gate.
Your train's due in one minute,

1182
01:02:11,311 --> 01:02:12,777
number two platform.
Hop it.

1183
01:02:12,777 --> 01:02:15,644
- Now, look here -
- Aw, come on, Johnnie. Come on.

1184
01:02:15,711 --> 01:02:19,186
- Don't argue with the poor basket.
- Hop it. 

1185
01:02:23,752 --> 01:02:25,061
Cheerio, mother.

1186
01:02:26,752 --> 01:02:29,936
And if them sandwiches were made
this morning, you're Shirley Temple.

1187
01:02:32,586 --> 01:02:35,811
- Thank you, Albert.
- What a nerve, talking to you like that, Mrs. Bagot.

1188
01:02:35,877 --> 01:02:36,811
Be quiet, Beryl.

1189
01:02:37,011 --> 01:02:39,762
Pour me out a nip of Three Star.
l'm feeling quite upset.

1190
01:02:39,877 --> 01:02:43,252
- l must get back to the gate.
- l'll be seeing you later, Albert.

1191
01:02:43,919 --> 01:02:45,269
Okay!

1192
01:02:51,002 --> 01:02:57,061
The train now arriving at platform
three is the 5:43 for Ketchworth.

1193
01:03:00,919 --> 01:03:03,644
- l reaIly must go home.
- I'm going back to the flat.

1194
01:03:04,544 --> 01:03:05,652
I must go home.

1195
01:03:06,152 --> 01:03:07,400
l reaIly must go home.

1196
01:03:07,419 --> 01:03:08,777
l'm going back to the flat.

1197
01:03:12,211 --> 01:03:13,811
l'm going home.

1198
01:03:37,502 --> 01:03:39,227
Excuse me.
l've forgotten something.

1199
01:04:45,211 --> 01:04:46,644
Darling!

1200
01:04:53,627 --> 01:04:55,186
lt's raining.

1201
01:04:56,294 --> 01:04:58,769
lt started just as l turned
out of the high street.

1202
01:04:58,836 --> 01:05:01,269
You had no umbrella,
and your coat's wet.

1203
01:05:01,627 --> 01:05:04,061
You mustn't catch cold.
That would never do.

1204
01:05:08,252 --> 01:05:10,185
l look an absolute fright.

1205
01:05:10,294 --> 01:05:12,685
- Let me put that down for you.
- Thank you.

1206
01:05:15,752 --> 01:05:18,269
l hope the fire will
perk up in a few minutes.

1207
01:05:19,335 --> 01:05:23,019
- l expect the wood was damp.
- Yes, l expect it was.

1208
01:05:25,794 --> 01:05:27,352
Do sit down, darling.

1209
01:05:34,002 --> 01:05:35,552
l got right into the train
and then got out again.

1210
01:05:35,552 --> 01:05:36,954
Wasn't it idiotic?

1211
01:05:37,377 --> 01:05:39,394
We're both very,
very foolish.

1212
01:05:45,252 --> 01:05:49,935
- Alec, l can't stay, you know. Really, l can't.
- Just a little while. Just a little while.

1213
01:05:53,044 --> 01:05:54,519
Quickly, quickly!
l must go.

1214
01:05:54,585 --> 01:05:57,810
Here, through the kitchen.
There's a tradesman's staircase.

1215
01:06:07,877 --> 01:06:10,352
- ls that you, Alec?
- Yes.

1216
01:06:14,760 --> 01:06:16,944
- You're back early.
- Yes, l felt a cold coming on...

1217
01:06:16,944 --> 01:06:19,210
so l denied myself the always
questionable pleasure...

1218
01:06:19,210 --> 01:06:22,602
of dining with that arch-arguer Roger Hinchley
and decided to come back to bed.

1219
01:06:23,169 --> 01:06:26,085
lnflamed membranes
are unsympathetic to a dialectic.

1220
01:06:26,127 --> 01:06:27,560
What'll you do about food?

1221
01:06:27,960 --> 01:06:30,601
l can always ring down to the
restaurant if l want any later on.

1222
01:06:31,002 --> 01:06:33,544
We live in a modern age,
and this is a service flat.

1223
01:06:33,544 --> 01:06:37,710
- Yes, yes, of course.
- lt caters for all tastes.

1224
01:06:43,710 --> 01:06:44,644
You know, my dear Alec,

1225
01:06:44,844 --> 01:06:46,810
you have hidden depths which
l never even suspected.

1226
01:06:46,810 --> 01:06:48,344
- Look here, Stephen -
- Oh, for heaven's sake, Alec.

1227
01:06:48,344 --> 01:06:50,071
No explanations or apologies.

1228
01:06:50,377 --> 01:06:51,852
l am the one who
should apologize

1229
01:06:51,852 --> 01:06:53,612
for returning so inopportunely.

1230
01:06:54,085 --> 01:06:55,310
lt's quite obvious to me

1231
01:06:55,310 --> 01:06:57,442
that you were interviewing
a patient privately.

1232
01:06:57,669 --> 01:06:59,810
Women are frequently
rather neurotic creatures

1233
01:07:00,210 --> 01:07:02,087
and the hospital atmosphere
is upsetting to them.

1234
01:07:02,627 --> 01:07:04,810
By the rather
undignified scuffling

1235
01:07:05,210 --> 01:07:06,877
which l heard when
l came into the hall...

1236
01:07:06,877 --> 01:07:09,935
l gather that she beat a hasty
retreat down the back stairs.

1237
01:07:10,044 --> 01:07:13,685
l'm surprised at this farcical 
streak in your nature, Alec.

1238
01:07:13,752 --> 01:07:15,685
Such carryings-on are
quite unnecessary.

1239
01:07:15,685 --> 01:07:17,670
After all, we've been
friends for years...

1240
01:07:17,835 --> 01:07:20,060
and l am the most
broad-minded of men.

1241
01:07:20,294 --> 01:07:22,310
l'm really very sorry, Stephen.

1242
01:07:22,810 --> 01:07:26,461
l'm sure that the whole situation must
seem inexpressibly vulgar to you.

1243
01:07:26,794 --> 01:07:28,769
Actually, it isn't in the least.

1244
01:07:28,919 --> 01:07:29,935
However, you're perfectly right:

1245
01:07:29,935 --> 01:07:32,743
Explanations are unnecessary
particularly between old friends.

1246
01:07:33,419 --> 01:07:34,460
- l must go now.
- Very well.

1247
01:07:34,460 --> 01:07:36,027
 l'll collect my hat
and coat. Good-bye.

1248
01:07:36,127 --> 01:07:37,552
Absolutely you'll let me
have my latchkey back.

1249
01:07:37,752 --> 01:07:39,407
l only have two, and l'm
so afraid of losing them.

1250
01:07:39,407 --> 01:07:41,007
You know how
absentminded l am.

1251
01:07:44,044 --> 01:07:48,269
- You're very angry, aren't you?
- No, Alec, not angry, just disappointed.

1252
01:08:13,835 --> 01:08:16,227
l ran until l couldn't
run any longer.

1253
01:08:16,460 --> 01:08:18,585
l leant against a lamppost
to try and get my breath.

1254
01:08:18,585 --> 01:08:21,252
I was in one of those side roads
that Iead out of the high street.

1255
01:08:21,252 --> 01:08:24,602
I know it was stupid to run,
but l couldn't heIp myself.

1256
01:08:25,210 --> 01:08:30,102
I felt so utterly humiIiated and defeated
and so dreadfulIy, dreadfulIy ashamed.

1257
01:08:32,419 --> 01:08:35,060
After a moment or two
I pulled myself together...

1258
01:08:36,169 --> 01:08:38,685
and walked on in
the direction of the station.

1259
01:08:38,960 --> 01:08:41,310
lt was stilI raining,
but not very much.

1260
01:08:41,668 --> 01:08:44,102
l suddenly realized
that l couldn't go home...

1261
01:08:44,168 --> 01:08:47,810
not until l had got myself more under
control and had a Iittle time to think.

1262
01:08:47,877 --> 01:08:50,393
Then l thought of you waiting at
home and the dinner being spoil...

1263
01:08:50,460 --> 01:08:54,185
so l went into the high street and found
a tobacconist and telephoned to you.

1264
01:08:55,585 --> 01:08:57,227
Do you remember?

1265
01:09:21,418 --> 01:09:23,018
Hello, Fred, is that you?

1266
01:09:23,418 --> 01:09:25,033
Yes, dear, it's me, Laura.

1267
01:09:26,210 --> 01:09:29,268
Yes, everything's perfectly all right,
but l shan't be home to dinner.

1268
01:09:30,085 --> 01:09:31,493
l'm with Miss Lewis.

1269
01:09:31,960 --> 01:09:35,477
Miss Lewis, dear. You know,
the librarian l told you about at Boots.

1270
01:09:36,085 --> 01:09:39,893
Y-Yes, l can't explain in any detail
because she's outside the box now.

1271
01:09:40,502 --> 01:09:44,268
Well, l met her in the high street
a little while ago in a terrible state.

1272
01:09:44,585 --> 01:09:48,310
Her mother's been taken ill, and l've promised
to stay with her until the doctor comes.

1273
01:09:49,918 --> 01:09:53,852
Yes, l know, but she's always been awfully
kind to me, and l feel so sorry for her.

1274
01:09:54,835 --> 01:09:55,985
No, l'll get a sandwich,

1275
01:09:56,085 --> 01:09:57,723
but ask Ethel to
leave me some soup 

1276
01:09:57,723 --> 01:09:59,327
in a saucepan
in the kitchen.

1277
01:10:01,085 --> 01:10:03,102
Yes, of course,
as soon as l can.

1278
01:10:04,460 --> 01:10:06,102
All right.
Good-bye.

1279
01:10:07,418 --> 01:10:11,018
It's awfulIy easy to lie when you know
that you're trusted implicitly -

1280
01:10:11,435 --> 01:10:12,643
so very easy

1281
01:10:12,843 --> 01:10:14,526
and so very degrading.

1282
01:10:15,543 --> 01:10:17,852
l started walking
without much purpose.

1283
01:10:17,918 --> 01:10:20,560
I turned out of the high
street almost immediately.

1284
01:10:20,960 --> 01:10:23,268
I was terrified that
l might run into Alec.

1285
01:10:23,877 --> 01:10:26,852
l was pretty certain that he'd 
come after me to the station.

1286
01:10:27,918 --> 01:10:29,468
I walked for a long whiIe.

1287
01:10:29,768 --> 01:10:31,665
FinalIy, l found myself
at the war memorial -

1288
01:10:31,835 --> 01:10:34,102
you know, it's right at
the other side of the town.

1289
01:10:34,627 --> 01:10:37,727
lt had stopped raining aItogether,
and I felt stifIingly hot...

1290
01:10:38,377 --> 01:10:40,727
so l sat down on
one of the seats.

1291
01:10:41,543 --> 01:10:43,435
There was nobody about,
and I lit a cigarette.

1292
01:10:43,502 --> 01:10:46,343
I know how you disapprove of
women smoking in the street

1293
01:10:46,610 --> 01:10:48,110
I do too, really -
but

1294
01:10:48,310 --> 01:10:51,051
l wanted to calm my nerves,
and l thought it might help.

1295
01:10:52,293 --> 01:10:53,760
I sat there for ages -

1296
01:10:54,160 --> 01:10:55,521
l don't know how long -

1297
01:10:56,543 --> 01:10:59,602
then I noticed a policeman
walking up and down a Iittle way off.

1298
01:11:00,602 --> 01:11:03,018
He was looking at
me rather suspiciousIy.

1299
01:11:04,168 --> 01:11:06,018
Presently he came up to me.

1300
01:11:07,168 --> 01:11:10,235
- Feeling all right, miss?
- Yes, thank you.

1301
01:11:10,668 --> 01:11:12,068
Waiting for someone?

1302
01:11:12,368 --> 01:11:14,631
No. No, l'm not
waiting for anybody.

1303
01:11:14,835 --> 01:11:16,302
Don't go and
catch cold now.

1304
01:11:16,602 --> 01:11:18,699
lt's a damp night for
sitting about on seats.

1305
01:11:18,960 --> 01:11:21,227
l'm going now anyhow.
l've got to catch a train.

1306
01:11:21,335 --> 01:11:23,218
You're sure you
feel quite all right?

1307
01:11:23,585 --> 01:11:25,060
Quite, thank you.

1308
01:11:25,260 --> 01:11:28,063
- Good night.
- Good night, miss.

1309
01:11:28,960 --> 01:11:31,310
l walked away,
trying to look casual,

1310
01:11:31,310 --> 01:11:33,054
knowing that
he was watching me.

1311
01:11:33,377 --> 01:11:35,268
I felt like a criminal.

1312
01:11:35,710 --> 01:11:38,602
l walked rather quickIy back
in the direction of the high street.

1313
01:11:39,602 --> 01:11:43,143
I got to the station 15 minutes
before the last train to Ketchworth.

1314
01:11:43,710 --> 01:11:46,893
And then I realized that I had been
wandering about for over three hours...

1315
01:11:47,252 --> 01:11:49,643
but it didn't seem
to be any time at aIl.

1316
01:11:50,368 --> 01:11:52,018
Stan, you are awful.

1317
01:11:52,668 --> 01:11:54,393
- See ya in the yard.
- All right.

1318
01:11:57,960 --> 01:12:00,977
- I'd like a glass of brandy, please.
- We're just closin'.

1319
01:12:01,127 --> 01:12:03,060
Yes, l see you are, but you're
not quite closed yet, are you?

1320
01:12:03,127 --> 01:12:05,352
- Three Star?
- That'll do.

1321
01:12:10,501 --> 01:12:13,018
Oh, and have you got
a piece of paper and an envelope?

1322
01:12:13,085 --> 01:12:17,018
- l'm afraid you'll have to get that at the bookstall.
- Well, the bookstall's closed.

1323
01:12:17,251 --> 01:12:20,060
Please, it's very important.
l should be so much obliged.

1324
01:12:20,126 --> 01:12:22,310
All right.
Just a minute.

1325
01:12:39,001 --> 01:12:41,768
- Thank you very much.
- We close in a few minutes, you know.

1326
01:12:41,835 --> 01:12:43,185
Yes, l know.

1327
01:13:16,251 --> 01:13:17,751
Darling, l've been
looking for you everywhere.

1328
01:13:17,951 --> 01:13:19,368
- Please go away. Please don't.
- l've watched every train.

1329
01:13:19,368 --> 01:13:20,615
Please go away.

1330
01:13:20,835 --> 01:13:23,810
- l can't leave you like this.
- You must. lt'll be better, really it will.

1331
01:13:24,293 --> 01:13:25,601
You're being
dreadfully cruel.

1332
01:13:26,001 --> 01:13:27,737
lt was just an accident
that he came back early.

1333
01:13:27,737 --> 01:13:29,593
He doesn't know who you are.
He never even saw you.

1334
01:13:29,593 --> 01:13:31,286
l supposed he laughed, didn't he?

1335
01:13:31,335 --> 01:13:33,018
l suppose you spoke of me
together as men of the world.

1336
01:13:33,018 --> 01:13:34,135
We didn't speak of you.

1337
01:13:34,135 --> 01:13:36,196
We spoke of some nameless
creature who has no reality at all.

1338
01:13:36,196 --> 01:13:37,243
Why didn't you tell
him who l was?

1339
01:13:37,243 --> 01:13:39,410
Why didn't you say we were cheap
and low and without courage?

1340
01:13:39,410 --> 01:13:41,226
- Stop it, Laura. Pull yourself together.
- lt's true, isn't it?

1341
01:13:41,226 --> 01:13:42,553
lt's nothing of the sort.

1342
01:13:43,085 --> 01:13:44,335
We know we
really love each other.

1343
01:13:44,335 --> 01:13:45,035
That's true.

1344
01:13:45,035 --> 01:13:47,078
- That's all that really matters.
- lt isn't all that really matters.

1345
01:13:47,078 --> 01:13:48,343
Other things matter too.

1346
01:13:48,643 --> 01:13:51,652
Self-respect matters, and decency.
l can't go on any longer.

1347
01:13:54,418 --> 01:13:55,643
Could you really
say good-bye,

1348
01:13:56,243 --> 01:13:57,364
never see me again?

1349
01:13:59,668 --> 01:14:01,518
Yes, if you'd help me.

1350
01:14:11,876 --> 01:14:13,185
l love you, Laura.

1351
01:14:13,485 --> 01:14:16,047
l shall love you always
until the end of my life.

1352
01:14:18,668 --> 01:14:20,976
l can't look at you now
because l know something.

1353
01:14:22,251 --> 01:14:24,476
l know that this is
the beginning of the end -

1354
01:14:24,543 --> 01:14:25,726
not the end of
my loving you,

1355
01:14:25,726 --> 01:14:27,341
but the end of
our being together.

1356
01:14:28,668 --> 01:14:31,185
But not quite yet, darling.
Please, not quite yet.

1357
01:14:33,251 --> 01:14:35,226
Very well.
Not quite yet.

1358
01:14:36,085 --> 01:14:37,718
l know what you
feel about this evening -

1359
01:14:38,018 --> 01:14:40,083
l mean about
the sordidness of it.

1360
01:14:40,918 --> 01:14:42,801
l know about the strain
of our different lives

1361
01:14:43,301 --> 01:14:45,054
our lives apart
from each other.

1362
01:14:46,043 --> 01:14:47,143
The feeling of guilt,

1363
01:14:47,143 --> 01:14:49,065
doing wrong is
too strong, isn't it?

1364
01:14:50,418 --> 01:14:53,185
Too great a price to pay for the
happiness we have together.

1365
01:14:55,460 --> 01:14:56,626
l know all this

1366
01:14:56,726 --> 01:14:58,318
because it's
the same for me too.

1367
01:15:01,710 --> 01:15:03,726
You can look at me now.
l'm all right.

1368
01:15:09,793 --> 01:15:11,351
Let's be very careful.

1369
01:15:11,851 --> 01:15:13,531
Let's prepare ourselves.

1370
01:15:14,460 --> 01:15:18,143
A sudden break now, however brave
and admirable, would be too cruel.

1371
01:15:18,418 --> 01:15:21,560
We can't do such violence
to our hearts and minds.

1372
01:15:22,418 --> 01:15:23,893
Very well.

1373
01:15:26,876 --> 01:15:28,295
l'm going away.

1374
01:15:29,501 --> 01:15:30,218
I see.

1375
01:15:30,218 --> 01:15:32,047
- But not quite yet.
- Please, not quite yet.

1376
01:15:35,543 --> 01:15:38,335
- That's the 10:10. lt's after closing time.
- Oh, is it?

1377
01:15:38,435 --> 01:15:40,684
- l shall have to lock up.
- All right.

1378
01:15:53,084 --> 01:15:56,309
- l want you to promise me something.
- What is it?

1379
01:15:56,626 --> 01:15:58,976
Promise me that
however unhappy you are...

1380
01:15:59,334 --> 01:16:01,101
and however much
you think things over

1381
01:16:01,101 --> 01:16:03,016
that you'll meet me
again next Thursday.

1382
01:16:03,334 --> 01:16:06,309
- Where?
- Outside the hospital at 12:30.

1383
01:16:07,168 --> 01:16:10,268
- All right. l promise.
- l've got to talk to you. l've got to explain.

1384
01:16:10,334 --> 01:16:12,268
- About going away?
- Yes.

1385
01:16:12,376 --> 01:16:15,518
Where will you go? Where can you go?
You can't give up your practice.

1386
01:16:16,584 --> 01:16:19,434
l've had a job offered me.
l wasn't going to tell you.

1387
01:16:19,626 --> 01:16:21,268
l wasn't going to take it,

1388
01:16:21,268 --> 01:16:23,056
but l know now
it's the only way out.

1389
01:16:23,668 --> 01:16:27,101
- Where?
- A long way away - Johannesburg.

1390
01:16:28,668 --> 01:16:30,101
Oh, Alec.

1391
01:16:30,334 --> 01:16:31,676
My brother's out there.

1392
01:16:31,976 --> 01:16:33,675
They're opening a new hospital.
They want me in it.

1393
01:16:35,751 --> 01:16:37,226
lt's a fine opportunity, really.

1394
01:16:37,226 --> 01:16:39,035
l'll take Madeleine
and the boys.

1395
01:16:40,084 --> 01:16:40,968
lt's been torturing me -

1396
01:16:40,968 --> 01:16:43,591
the necessity of making
a decision one way or the other.

1397
01:16:43,709 --> 01:16:45,709
l haven't told anybody,
not even Madeleine.

1398
01:16:47,251 --> 01:16:49,559
l couldn't bear the thought
of leaving you...

1399
01:16:50,709 --> 01:16:53,476
but now l see it's got
to happen soon anyway.

1400
01:16:55,209 --> 01:16:56,934
lt's almost happening already.

1401
01:17:00,068 --> 01:17:01,268
Stanley!

1402
01:17:06,293 --> 01:17:07,851
When will you go?

1403
01:17:09,293 --> 01:17:10,676
Almost immediately,

1404
01:17:11,276 --> 01:17:12,685
in about two weeks' time.

1405
01:17:14,334 --> 01:17:16,101
Quite near, isn't it?

1406
01:17:16,626 --> 01:17:17,934
Do you want me to stay?

1407
01:17:17,934 --> 01:17:19,101
Do you want me to
turn down the offer?

1408
01:17:19,101 --> 01:17:20,393
Don't be foolish, Alec.

1409
01:17:21,501 --> 01:17:23,534
l'll do whatever you say.

1410
01:17:24,534 --> 01:17:25,962
That's unkind of you, my darling.

1411
01:17:26,001 --> 01:17:31,143
The train for Ketchworth is
now arriving at platform three.

1412
01:17:47,709 --> 01:17:49,768
You're not angry with me, are you?

1413
01:17:50,001 --> 01:17:51,434
No, l'm not angry.

1414
01:17:52,034 --> 01:17:54,463
l don't think l'm anything,
really. l just feel tired.

1415
01:17:54,668 --> 01:17:55,934
Forgive me?

1416
01:17:56,834 --> 01:17:58,291
Forgive you for what?

1417
01:17:58,501 --> 01:17:59,884
For everything -

1418
01:18:00,251 --> 01:18:02,059
for meeting you
in the first place...

1419
01:18:02,626 --> 01:18:04,809
for taking the piece
of grit out of your eye...

1420
01:18:05,459 --> 01:18:06,934
for loving you,

1421
01:18:07,001 --> 01:18:09,059
for bringing you
so much misery.

1422
01:18:11,543 --> 01:18:13,684
l'll forgive you
if you'll forgive me.

1423
01:18:22,418 --> 01:18:23,851
Thursday.

1424
01:18:26,209 --> 01:18:28,101
All that was a week ago.

1425
01:18:28,534 --> 01:18:31,393
lt's hardly credible that
it should be so short a time.

1426
01:18:33,059 --> 01:18:35,043
Today was our
last day together -

1427
01:18:35,409 --> 01:18:37,934
our very last together
in alI our Iives.

1428
01:18:38,643 --> 01:18:41,643
I met him outside the hospital
as l had promised at 12:30 -

1429
01:18:42,226 --> 01:18:44,059
at 12:30 this morning.

1430
01:18:45,459 --> 01:18:47,268
That was only this morning.

1431
01:18:47,751 --> 01:18:50,934
We drove into the country again,
but this time he hired a car.

1432
01:18:51,209 --> 01:18:53,809
l Iit cigarettes for him every
now and then as we went along.

1433
01:18:54,001 --> 01:18:55,484
We didn't taIk much.

1434
01:18:55,784 --> 01:18:58,002
I felt numbed and
hardly alive at aIl.

1435
01:18:59,293 --> 01:19:00,893
We had lunch
in a viIlage pub.

1436
01:19:03,418 --> 01:19:06,351
Afterwards, we went to the same
bridge over the stream -

1437
01:19:07,043 --> 01:19:09,184
the bridge that
we'd been to before.

1438
01:19:11,417 --> 01:19:14,351
Those Iast few hours
went by so quickly.

1439
01:19:25,501 --> 01:19:28,434
As we waIked through the station,
I remember thinking...

1440
01:19:29,376 --> 01:19:31,601
"This is the last time with Alec.

1441
01:19:32,751 --> 01:19:35,267
''l shalI see all this again,
but without Alec."

1442
01:19:36,459 --> 01:19:38,434
I tried not to think of it...

1443
01:19:39,084 --> 01:19:41,851
not to Iet it spoil our
last moments together.

1444
01:20:07,751 --> 01:20:11,434
- Are you all right, darling?
- Yes, l'm all right.

1445
01:20:12,917 --> 01:20:15,392
l wish l could think
of something to say.

1446
01:20:16,584 --> 01:20:18,392
lt doesn't matter -
not saying anything, l mean.

1447
01:20:18,459 --> 01:20:20,551
- l'll miss my train and wait to see you to yours.
- No, please don't.

1448
01:20:20,551 --> 01:20:22,376
l'll come over with you
to your platform. l'd rather.

1449
01:20:22,417 --> 01:20:23,692
Very well.

1450
01:20:27,001 --> 01:20:29,434
Do you think we shall ever
see each other again?

1451
01:20:30,501 --> 01:20:33,351
l don't know.
Not for years anyway.

1452
01:20:34,667 --> 01:20:36,809
The children will
all be grown up.

1453
01:20:37,834 --> 01:20:40,101
l wonder if they'll ever
meet and know each other.

1454
01:20:40,167 --> 01:20:42,517
Couldn't l write to you,
just once in a while?

1455
01:20:42,834 --> 01:20:44,934
No, Alec, please.
You know we promised.

1456
01:20:45,234 --> 01:20:46,932
Well, all right, dear.

1457
01:20:47,359 --> 01:20:49,867
l do love you
so very much.

1458
01:20:50,967 --> 01:20:53,421
l love you with
all my heart and soul.

1459
01:20:55,876 --> 01:20:57,292
l want to die.

1460
01:20:59,209 --> 01:21:00,842
lf only l could die.

1461
01:21:01,209 --> 01:21:03,317
lf you died,
you'd forget me.

1462
01:21:03,517 --> 01:21:05,002
l want to be remembered.

1463
01:21:06,292 --> 01:21:08,226
Yes, l know.
l do too.

1464
01:21:12,542 --> 01:21:16,892
- We've still got a few minutes.
- Laura, what a lovely surprise!

1465
01:21:17,042 --> 01:21:18,834
My dear, l've been
shopping till l'm dropping.

1466
01:21:18,834 --> 01:21:21,447
My feet are nearly falling off.
My throat's parched.

1467
01:21:21,501 --> 01:21:24,392
l thought of having tea at Spindle's,
but l was terrified of losing the train.

1468
01:21:24,592 --> 01:21:25,601
Oh, dear!

1469
01:21:25,901 --> 01:21:28,167
- Oh, this is Dr. Harvey.
- How do you do?

1470
01:21:28,167 --> 01:21:28,784
How do you do?

1471
01:21:28,784 --> 01:21:30,402
Would you be a perfect
dear and get me a cup of tea?

1472
01:21:30,402 --> 01:21:33,251
 l really don't think l could drag my
poor old bones over to the counter.

1473
01:21:33,251 --> 01:21:34,417
No, please.

1474
01:21:34,484 --> 01:21:37,784
lt was cruel of fate to be against us
right up to the very last minute.

1475
01:21:38,292 --> 01:21:39,326
DoIly Messiter -

1476
01:21:39,526 --> 01:21:42,483
poor, well-meaning,
irritating Dolly Messiter -

1477
01:21:42,917 --> 01:21:46,184
crashing into those last few
precious minutes we had together.

1478
01:21:47,042 --> 01:21:50,109
She chattered and fussed,
but I didn't hear what she said.

1479
01:21:50,576 --> 01:21:54,142
- I felt dazed and bewildered.
- Oh, dear. No sugar.
- lt's in the spoon.

1480
01:21:54,209 --> 01:21:57,842
Alec behaved so beautifully
with such perfect politeness.

1481
01:21:58,209 --> 01:22:00,359
No one could have guessed
what he was realIy feeIing.

1482
01:22:01,359 --> 01:22:02,892
And then -

1483
01:22:04,709 --> 01:22:06,684
- There's your train.
- Yes, l know.

1484
01:22:06,776 --> 01:22:09,517
- Oh, aren't you coming with us?
- No, l go in the opposite direction.

1485
01:22:09,584 --> 01:22:11,434
- My practice is in Churley.
- Oh, l see.

1486
01:22:11,454 --> 01:22:14,776
- l'm a general practitioner at the moment.
- Dr. Harvey's going out to Africa next week.

1487
01:22:14,776 --> 01:22:16,101
Oh, how thrilling.

1488
01:22:16,792 --> 01:22:19,784
The train now arriving
at platform four...

1489
01:22:20,084 --> 01:22:24,667
is the 5:40 for ChurIey,
Leigh Green and Langdon.

1490
01:22:24,667 --> 01:22:26,059
- l must go.
- Yes, you must.

1491
01:22:26,126 --> 01:22:27,934
- Good-bye.
- Good-bye.

1492
01:22:32,709 --> 01:22:35,642
l feIt the touch of his hand
on my shoulder for a moment...

1493
01:22:36,501 --> 01:22:38,350
and then he walked away -

1494
01:22:39,959 --> 01:22:42,267
away, out of my life forever.

1495
01:22:43,250 --> 01:22:45,100
He's got to get right
over to the other platform.

1496
01:22:45,167 --> 01:22:48,517
Talking of missing trains reminds me of
that awful bridge at Broadham Junction.

1497
01:22:48,584 --> 01:22:51,309
Dolly stilI went on talking,
but l wasn't listening to her.

1498
01:22:53,000 --> 01:22:55,684
l was Iistening for
the sound of his train starting.

1499
01:22:57,792 --> 01:22:59,142
Then it did.

1500
01:23:01,250 --> 01:23:03,309
I said to myself, "He didn't go.

1501
01:23:03,959 --> 01:23:06,600
At the Iast minute his courage
failed him. He couldn't have gone.

1502
01:23:07,500 --> 01:23:09,409
Any minute now he'lI come back
into the refreshment room

1503
01:23:09,409 --> 01:23:11,025
pretending he's
forgotten something."

1504
01:23:11,709 --> 01:23:13,642
I prayed for him to do that...

1505
01:23:13,875 --> 01:23:16,434
just so that l could see
him again for an instant.

1506
01:23:19,959 --> 01:23:22,309
But the minutes went by.

1507
01:23:23,875 --> 01:23:24,950
ls that the train?

1508
01:23:25,150 --> 01:23:27,335
Oh, can you tell me,
is that the Ketchworth train?

1509
01:23:27,417 --> 01:23:29,559
- No, it's the express.
- The boat train.

1510
01:23:29,625 --> 01:23:31,559
Oh, of course.
That doesn't stop, does it?

1511
01:23:31,959 --> 01:23:34,725
- l want some chocolate, please.
- Milk or plain?

1512
01:24:04,125 --> 01:24:05,425
l meant to do it, Fred.

1513
01:24:05,725 --> 01:24:07,127
I really meant to do it.

1514
01:24:08,250 --> 01:24:10,434
l stood there trembling
right on the edge...

1515
01:24:12,667 --> 01:24:14,225
but l couldn't.

1516
01:24:15,125 --> 01:24:16,642
l wasn't brave enough.

1517
01:24:18,334 --> 01:24:20,825
I should like to be able to say that it was
the thought of you and the children

1518
01:24:20,825 --> 01:24:22,507
that prevented me,
but it wasn't.

1519
01:24:24,500 --> 01:24:26,559
l had no thoughts at all.

1520
01:24:27,875 --> 01:24:31,184
Only an overwhelming desire
not to feel anything ever again.

1521
01:24:32,792 --> 01:24:34,850
Not to be unhappy anymore.

1522
01:24:35,250 --> 01:24:36,492
I turned...

1523
01:24:38,834 --> 01:24:41,100
and went back into
the refreshment room.

1524
01:24:48,417 --> 01:24:50,642
That's when l nearly fainted.

1525
01:25:30,107 --> 01:25:31,434
Laura.

1526
01:25:34,292 --> 01:25:35,559
Yes, dear?

1527
01:25:36,042 --> 01:25:37,934
Whatever your dream was,

1528
01:25:38,084 --> 01:25:40,559
it wasn't a very happy one, was it?

1529
01:25:43,109 --> 01:25:44,600
No.

1530
01:25:45,125 --> 01:25:47,559
ls there anything
l can do to help?

1531
01:25:50,375 --> 01:25:52,475
Yes, Fred.
You always help.

1532
01:25:52,834 --> 01:25:54,975
You've been
a long way away.

1533
01:25:58,875 --> 01:26:01,059
Thank you for
coming back to me.