1 00:00:21,663 --> 00:00:27,340 When the child was a child, it walked with its arms swinging. 2 00:00:27,503 --> 00:00:32,054 It wanted the stream to be a river, the river a torrent... 3 00:00:32,223 --> 00:00:36,182 and this puddle to be the sea. 4 00:00:36,343 --> 00:00:40,655 When the child was a child, it didn't know it was a child. 5 00:00:40,823 --> 00:00:46,022 Everything was full of life, and all life was one. 6 00:00:46,183 --> 00:00:50,813 When the child was a child, it had no opinion about anything. 7 00:00:50,983 --> 00:00:52,336 It had no habits. 8 00:00:52,503 --> 00:00:56,291 It often sat cross-legged, took off running... 9 00:00:56,463 --> 00:01:01,298 had a cowlick in its hair, and didn't pull a face... 10 00:01:01,463 --> 00:01:03,215 when photographed. 11 00:02:57,343 --> 00:02:58,696 Look. 12 00:03:11,623 --> 00:03:16,822 The consolation of lifting one's head out here in the open... 13 00:03:16,983 --> 00:03:20,817 of seeing the colours enlightened by the sun... 14 00:03:20,983 --> 00:03:23,941 in all men's eyes. 15 00:03:25,703 --> 00:03:27,773 At last mad, no longer alone. 16 00:03:27,943 --> 00:03:32,573 At last mad, at last redeemed. At last mad, at last at peace. 17 00:03:32,743 --> 00:03:34,973 At last an internal light. 18 00:03:35,143 --> 00:03:40,137 We're approaching Berlin Tegel, the no-smoking sign has been turned on. 19 00:03:40,303 --> 00:03:44,535 Please stop smoking until you're inside the airport. 20 00:03:58,983 --> 00:04:04,899 There's a little house with two floors and a terrace. 21 00:04:05,063 --> 00:04:08,419 And every day we go bathing. 22 00:04:08,583 --> 00:04:11,620 The man who lives there is called Peter... 23 00:04:31,383 --> 00:04:32,816 Pretty picture. 24 00:06:01,983 --> 00:06:05,134 Nothing good to see on TV. 25 00:06:07,863 --> 00:06:12,141 You stumble over your colours, and are never punctual. 26 00:06:24,223 --> 00:06:28,933 Still the same smell. But dustier. She collected everything. 27 00:06:29,103 --> 00:06:31,663 Stamps, postcards. 28 00:06:31,823 --> 00:06:37,580 Even U-Bahn tickets. She never threw anything away. 29 00:06:37,743 --> 00:06:42,214 Mother. My mother. She never was. 30 00:06:42,383 --> 00:06:45,819 My father... My father was my father. 31 00:06:45,983 --> 00:06:51,535 She is dead. No tears, no grief. Maybe later. 32 00:06:51,703 --> 00:06:57,141 Dependant on everybody. My sister. I have to get out of here. 33 00:07:20,463 --> 00:07:24,979 She's never loved me. And you also just pretend. 34 00:07:25,143 --> 00:07:27,703 Be glad that they forgot about you. 35 00:07:27,863 --> 00:07:31,902 Want to die immediately, don't want to go on living. 36 00:07:36,143 --> 00:07:42,252 My God, what will become of the boy? He's only got music on his mind. 37 00:07:46,743 --> 00:07:49,132 What does he want now? 38 00:07:49,303 --> 00:07:54,536 I already bought him a guitar. Does he wants drums now? 39 00:07:57,583 --> 00:08:03,340 I'm slowly getting fed up with it. Won't he ever grow up? 40 00:08:04,663 --> 00:08:10,454 No really, I'm getting fed up. I don't want to go on with this. 41 00:08:10,623 --> 00:08:17,335 No really, this has to stop some time. I can't help him any more. 42 00:08:18,783 --> 00:08:22,742 No wonder, he only learnt rock 'n' roll. 43 00:08:22,903 --> 00:08:27,738 Maybe he'll get a grip on himself one day. 44 00:08:37,823 --> 00:08:44,058 When the child was a child, it was the time of these questions: 45 00:08:44,223 --> 00:08:48,774 Why am I me, and why not you? 46 00:08:48,943 --> 00:08:53,494 Why am I here, and why not there? 47 00:08:53,663 --> 00:08:58,691 When did time begin, and where does space end? 48 00:08:58,863 --> 00:09:02,936 Isn't life under the sun just a dream? 49 00:09:05,303 --> 00:09:11,936 Isn't what I see, hear and smell just a mirage of the world before the world? 50 00:09:12,103 --> 00:09:17,496 Does evil actually exist, and people who are really evil? 51 00:09:19,023 --> 00:09:26,976 How can it be that I, the one I am, wasn't there before I was there... 52 00:09:27,143 --> 00:09:34,538 and that some time I, the one I am, no longer will be the one I am? 53 00:09:39,463 --> 00:09:43,058 The child needs oxygen. Breathe deep down. 54 00:09:43,223 --> 00:09:46,340 If I could only suffer in her place. - It hurts. 55 00:09:46,503 --> 00:09:51,577 It'll be over soon. - It's almost over. 56 00:09:51,743 --> 00:09:58,091 Poor little mite, I'm anxious to see you. I wonder what you look like. 57 00:09:58,263 --> 00:10:04,133 You bastard. You bastard. - Women will fuck up your life. 58 00:10:04,303 --> 00:10:09,935 Blackie, I think I got lost. We wanted to go to the cemetery... 59 00:10:39,503 --> 00:10:40,856 Well? 60 00:10:47,703 --> 00:10:53,414 Sunrise at 7.22 am, sunset at 4.28 pm. Moonrise at 7.04 pm, moonset... 61 00:10:53,583 --> 00:10:56,051 Level of the Havel and the Spree... 62 00:10:56,223 --> 00:11:01,820 20 years ago today, a Soviet jet fighter crashed into the lakes at Spandau. 63 00:11:01,983 --> 00:11:05,942 50 years ago, there were... - The Olympic Games. 64 00:11:06,983 --> 00:11:11,818 200 years ago, the first balloon flew over the city. 65 00:11:12,103 --> 00:11:16,142 Like the fugitives the other day. - And today... 66 00:11:16,303 --> 00:11:19,659 Lilienthaler Chaussee: A man slows down... 67 00:11:19,823 --> 00:11:23,338 and looks over his shoulder into space. 68 00:11:25,023 --> 00:11:27,696 Someone who wants to put an end to it... 69 00:11:27,863 --> 00:11:30,741 put first-issue stamps on his farewell letters. 70 00:11:30,903 --> 00:11:32,256 A different one on each. 71 00:11:32,423 --> 00:11:37,099 Then he spoke English with an American soldier... 72 00:11:37,263 --> 00:11:41,336 for the first time since his schooldays, fluently. 73 00:11:42,383 --> 00:11:48,618 Just before dashing his head against the wall, a prisoner said: "Now." 74 00:11:48,783 --> 00:11:52,219 Instead of the station's name, the guard... 75 00:11:52,383 --> 00:11:56,012 suddenly shouted: "Tierra del Fuego." - Nice. 76 00:11:56,183 --> 00:11:59,380 An old man was reading the Odyssey to a child... 77 00:11:59,543 --> 00:12:04,378 and the young listener stopped blinking his eyes. 78 00:12:04,543 --> 00:12:06,977 And what do you have to tell? 79 00:12:08,983 --> 00:12:15,934 A passer-by who, in the rain, folded her umbrella and was drenched. 80 00:12:17,383 --> 00:12:23,140 A schoolboy who described to his teacher a fern growing... 81 00:12:23,303 --> 00:12:25,737 and the astounded teacher. 82 00:12:27,303 --> 00:12:32,331 A blind woman, who groped her watch, feeling my presence. 83 00:12:34,423 --> 00:12:37,813 It's great to live by the spirit, to testify for eternity... 84 00:12:37,983 --> 00:12:41,532 only what is spiritual in people's minds. 85 00:12:43,183 --> 00:12:46,732 But sometimes I'm fed up with my spiritual existence... 86 00:12:46,903 --> 00:12:48,814 of forever hovering above. 87 00:12:48,983 --> 00:12:51,338 I'd like to feel a weight in me... 88 00:12:51,503 --> 00:12:55,018 to end the infinity, and to tie me to earth. 89 00:12:55,183 --> 00:12:59,062 I'd like at each step, each gust of wind... 90 00:12:59,223 --> 00:13:02,818 to be able to say: "Now, now and now." 91 00:13:02,983 --> 00:13:05,622 No longer: "Forever" and "For eternity". 92 00:13:05,783 --> 00:13:10,459 Sit at the empty place at a card table, be greeted... 93 00:13:10,623 --> 00:13:12,739 even by a nod. 94 00:13:14,143 --> 00:13:17,931 Every time we participated, it was a pretence. 95 00:13:18,983 --> 00:13:23,499 Wrestling, allowing a hip to be put out, in pretence... 96 00:13:23,663 --> 00:13:25,938 catching a fish in pretence. 97 00:13:26,103 --> 00:13:31,416 In pretence, sitting at tables drinking and eating in pretence. 98 00:13:31,583 --> 00:13:36,611 Having lambs roasted and wine served in the tents in the desert... 99 00:13:36,783 --> 00:13:38,614 only in pretence. 100 00:13:38,783 --> 00:13:43,299 I don't have to beget a child or plant a tree... 101 00:13:43,463 --> 00:13:47,854 but it would be nice, coming home after a long day... 102 00:13:48,023 --> 00:13:51,811 to feed the cat like Philip Marlowe... 103 00:13:51,983 --> 00:13:56,340 to have a fever, blackened fingers from the newspaper. 104 00:13:58,103 --> 00:14:02,176 To be excited not only by the mind, but by a meal. 105 00:14:03,223 --> 00:14:07,136 By the line of a neck, by an ear. 106 00:14:09,583 --> 00:14:11,221 To lie. 107 00:14:11,383 --> 00:14:13,613 Through one's teeth. 108 00:14:13,783 --> 00:14:17,458 As you're walking, to feel your bones moving along. 109 00:14:17,623 --> 00:14:20,820 At last to guess instead of always knowing. 110 00:14:20,983 --> 00:14:25,977 To be able to say: "Ah" and "Oh" and "Hey"... 111 00:14:26,143 --> 00:14:29,692 instead of: "Yes and amen." - Yes. 112 00:14:29,863 --> 00:14:32,935 To be able to enthuse for evil... 113 00:14:33,103 --> 00:14:36,857 to draw all the demons from the passers-by... 114 00:14:37,023 --> 00:14:39,935 and to chase them out into the world. 115 00:14:40,103 --> 00:14:42,333 To be a savage. 116 00:14:43,983 --> 00:14:48,818 Or to feel how it is to take off your shoes under the table... 117 00:14:48,983 --> 00:14:53,738 and to wriggle your toes, barefoot, like that... 118 00:14:57,383 --> 00:14:59,214 Stay alone. 119 00:14:59,383 --> 00:15:02,932 Let things happen. Keep serious. 120 00:15:03,103 --> 00:15:07,813 We can only be savages in as much as we keep serious. 121 00:15:07,983 --> 00:15:12,932 Do no more than look. Assemble, testify, preserve. 122 00:15:15,063 --> 00:15:19,534 Remain spirit. Keep your distance. Keep your word. 123 00:15:19,703 --> 00:15:24,140 Look, a convertible. You don't buy that, you steal it. 124 00:15:24,303 --> 00:15:26,612 Or it's stolen from you. - Imagine... 125 00:15:26,783 --> 00:15:30,935 Open the roof, leave the smog behind. - In a pimpmobile. 126 00:20:09,063 --> 00:20:11,338 Tell me, muse, the storyteller... 127 00:20:11,503 --> 00:20:15,462 he who has been thrust to the edge of the world... 128 00:20:15,623 --> 00:20:22,540 both an infant and an ancient, and through him reveal Everyman. 129 00:20:31,183 --> 00:20:36,576 With time, those who listened to me became my readers. 130 00:20:36,743 --> 00:20:40,372 They no longer sit in a circle, but apart... 131 00:20:40,543 --> 00:20:44,331 and one doesn't know anything about the other. 132 00:20:50,543 --> 00:20:54,456 I'm an old man, with a broken voice... 133 00:20:54,623 --> 00:20:59,538 but the story still rises from the depths... 134 00:20:59,703 --> 00:21:02,422 and the slowly opened mouth... 135 00:21:02,583 --> 00:21:06,815 repeats it as clearly as it does powerfully. 136 00:21:06,983 --> 00:21:12,501 A liturgy for which no one needs to be initiated... 137 00:21:12,663 --> 00:21:16,941 to the meaning of the words and sentences. 138 00:21:25,863 --> 00:21:30,539 Maybe she doesn't have the money to see another doctor. 139 00:21:32,303 --> 00:21:35,739 4 years since I saw her, she's been sick for 2. 140 00:21:35,903 --> 00:21:40,613 When will you pray with your own words, and not for eternal life? 141 00:21:40,783 --> 00:21:46,141 And then these young girls make eyes at men... 142 00:21:46,303 --> 00:21:50,262 So why am I living? Why am I living? 143 00:21:56,663 --> 00:21:59,814 How will I pay? With my small pension. 144 00:22:11,903 --> 00:22:14,701 You're lost, it can go on for a long time. 145 00:22:14,863 --> 00:22:17,536 Abandoned by parents, betrayed by wife. 146 00:22:17,703 --> 00:22:21,821 Friend in another town, your children only recall your stutter. 147 00:22:21,983 --> 00:22:26,215 You could hit yourself as you look in the mirror. 148 00:22:26,383 --> 00:22:30,979 What's that? What's going on? 149 00:22:31,143 --> 00:22:35,534 I'm still there. If I want it, if I only want it. 150 00:22:36,863 --> 00:22:40,412 I must want it, then I can get out of it again. 151 00:22:40,583 --> 00:22:43,814 I let myself go, I can drag myself out again. 152 00:22:43,983 --> 00:22:46,543 Of course, mother was right. 153 00:22:57,383 --> 00:23:00,500 Hey, two Marks. - No, it's a beer top. 154 00:23:00,663 --> 00:23:02,733 Nonsense, let's pull it up. 155 00:23:07,343 --> 00:23:08,696 Only 10 Pfennigs. 156 00:23:10,303 --> 00:23:15,741 "You bet?" was great last night. - It wasn't on last night. 157 00:23:15,903 --> 00:23:18,781 A few days ago, or a month... 158 00:23:21,463 --> 00:23:26,378 I'm all alone, just mad on my own... 159 00:23:26,543 --> 00:23:30,934 three at play, that'll be the day. 160 00:23:39,863 --> 00:23:44,937 5 years ago. - And they lived happily ever after. 161 00:24:04,583 --> 00:24:08,053 Marion, not like that. Mon dieu. 162 00:24:08,223 --> 00:24:13,695 What is this? With a swing, not with force. 163 00:24:13,863 --> 00:24:17,697 What are you doing? Don't dangle, fly. 164 00:24:17,863 --> 00:24:21,936 You are an angel. - For heaven's sake. 165 00:24:23,143 --> 00:24:25,816 And for my sake, too. 166 00:24:25,983 --> 00:24:30,135 I can't fly with these things. - Yes, you can. 167 00:24:30,303 --> 00:24:36,094 It's easier with wings than without. - Not with these chicken feathers. 168 00:24:37,143 --> 00:24:40,931 What did she say? - These wings bother her. 169 00:24:43,543 --> 00:24:51,177 Marion, just imagine you're a dove. - You bunch of sparrows. 170 00:24:52,223 --> 00:24:56,421 What are you playing at? Sounds like a firemen's ball. 171 00:24:56,583 --> 00:25:01,259 That's enough. Concentrate, Marion. 172 00:25:01,423 --> 00:25:04,415 She works hard with those chicken feathers. 173 00:25:04,583 --> 00:25:08,974 Marion, make an effort. - Make an effort. 174 00:25:09,143 --> 00:25:13,739 Of course, I make an effort. What do you think I'm doing? 175 00:25:15,303 --> 00:25:20,536 I'd have fallen on your heads long ago, if I didn't make an effort. 176 00:25:27,063 --> 00:25:28,416 One moment, please. 177 00:25:29,583 --> 00:25:34,532 Hold everything. We can't pay the rent and the electricity. 178 00:25:34,703 --> 00:25:36,056 We're broke. 179 00:25:37,423 --> 00:25:43,692 So tomorrow we'll take things down, pull the caravans to winter quarters. 180 00:25:43,863 --> 00:25:49,540 The bailiff's been. This is it for the circus this year. 181 00:25:49,703 --> 00:25:51,375 I'm sorry. 182 00:25:51,543 --> 00:25:54,740 It's over. Not even a season. 183 00:25:54,903 --> 00:25:58,976 Once again, no time to bring something to an end. 184 00:25:59,143 --> 00:26:03,739 Tonight the last night of my good old number. 185 00:26:03,903 --> 00:26:05,621 And it's a full moon. 186 00:26:05,783 --> 00:26:10,698 And the trapeze artist comes tumbling down... 187 00:26:10,863 --> 00:26:13,013 Tais-toi. Be quiet. 188 00:26:13,183 --> 00:26:19,213 I never imagined it like that, the farewell to the circus. 189 00:26:21,223 --> 00:26:25,535 The last evening, no one shows up, you play like fools... 190 00:26:25,703 --> 00:26:29,935 and I fly around the ring like a poor chicken. 191 00:26:31,263 --> 00:26:37,941 And then I'm a waitress again. Merde. 192 00:26:39,783 --> 00:26:43,617 Moments like that, like right now... 193 00:26:43,783 --> 00:26:47,412 a beautiful memory in 10 years time. 194 00:26:47,583 --> 00:26:53,818 Time will heal everything, but what if time was the illness? 195 00:26:53,983 --> 00:26:58,181 As if sometimes one had to lean over to go on living. 196 00:26:58,343 --> 00:27:02,939 To live... A look is enough. 197 00:27:03,103 --> 00:27:05,776 The circus... I'll miss it. 198 00:27:05,943 --> 00:27:10,255 It's funny. It's the end, and I don't feel a thing. 199 00:27:10,423 --> 00:27:12,095 An angel passes by. 200 00:27:12,263 --> 00:27:15,938 I must stop having a bad conscience. 201 00:27:21,463 --> 00:27:24,535 As if pain had no past. 202 00:27:24,703 --> 00:27:27,775 It always stops when it's only just starting... 203 00:27:27,943 --> 00:27:31,015 to be too good to be true. 204 00:27:31,183 --> 00:27:33,697 At last outside, in the city. 205 00:27:33,863 --> 00:27:38,618 Find out who I am, who I have become. 206 00:27:38,783 --> 00:27:43,413 Most of the time, I'm too aware to be sad. 207 00:27:43,583 --> 00:27:49,419 I waited an eternity to hear a loving word. 208 00:27:49,583 --> 00:27:51,733 Then I went abroad. 209 00:27:51,903 --> 00:27:56,931 Someone who'd say: "I love you so much today." 210 00:27:57,983 --> 00:28:01,737 That would be wonderful. 211 00:28:01,903 --> 00:28:07,660 I look up and the world appears before my eyes... 212 00:28:07,823 --> 00:28:10,542 and fills my heart. 213 00:28:13,503 --> 00:28:18,531 As a child, I wanted to live on an island. 214 00:28:19,983 --> 00:28:24,534 A woman alone, gloriously alone. 215 00:28:26,343 --> 00:28:28,538 Yes, that's it. 216 00:28:41,383 --> 00:28:44,739 Everything so empty, incompatible. 217 00:28:44,903 --> 00:28:48,737 Emptiness, fear. 218 00:28:48,903 --> 00:28:52,418 La peur, la peur, la peur... 219 00:28:52,583 --> 00:28:53,936 Fear. 220 00:28:58,703 --> 00:29:02,742 Like a small animal, lost in the woods. 221 00:29:02,903 --> 00:29:05,701 Who are you? I don't know any more. 222 00:29:05,863 --> 00:29:11,256 But I do know: I will no longer be a trapeze artist. 223 00:29:19,103 --> 00:29:22,539 Must not cry. That's how it is. 224 00:29:22,703 --> 00:29:27,413 It happens, not always as you'd like it. 225 00:29:27,583 --> 00:29:31,735 Emptiness, such emptiness... 226 00:30:18,303 --> 00:30:20,134 What shall I do? 227 00:30:23,183 --> 00:30:27,540 Not think any more. Just be there. 228 00:30:28,783 --> 00:30:33,811 Berlin... Here I'm a stranger, and yet it's all so familiar. 229 00:30:33,983 --> 00:30:38,818 You can't get lost, you always end up at the Wall. 230 00:30:38,983 --> 00:30:45,218 I'm waiting for my photo at a machine, and it comes out with another face. 231 00:30:45,383 --> 00:30:48,932 That could be the beginning of a story. 232 00:30:49,103 --> 00:30:53,415 The faces... I'd like to see faces. 233 00:30:53,583 --> 00:30:56,734 Maybe I'll find a job as a waitress. 234 00:31:08,103 --> 00:31:10,936 This evening scares me. 235 00:31:11,103 --> 00:31:14,539 It's silly, fear makes me sick. 236 00:31:14,703 --> 00:31:19,936 Only part of me worries, the other part doesn't believe in it. 237 00:31:23,663 --> 00:31:29,135 How should I live? Maybe that's not the question. 238 00:31:29,303 --> 00:31:31,942 How should I think? 239 00:31:37,303 --> 00:31:43,333 I know so little. Maybe because I'm always just curious. 240 00:31:43,503 --> 00:31:45,733 Sometimes I think so wrongly... 241 00:31:45,903 --> 00:31:50,931 because I'm thinking as if I was talking to someone else. 242 00:31:55,383 --> 00:32:00,582 Inside closed eyes, close the eyes again. 243 00:32:01,623 --> 00:32:04,421 Then even the stones come alive. 244 00:32:42,143 --> 00:32:44,737 To be with the colours. 245 00:32:44,903 --> 00:32:48,134 Les couleurs. The colours. 246 00:32:50,783 --> 00:32:56,938 Neon lights in the evening sky, the red and yellow S-Bahn. 247 00:33:01,583 --> 00:33:06,293 Longing... longing. 248 00:33:06,463 --> 00:33:09,739 I only need to be ready. 249 00:33:10,983 --> 00:33:15,738 Longing for a wave of love that would stir in me. 250 00:33:18,783 --> 00:33:24,938 That's what makes me clumsy, the absence of desire. 251 00:33:31,223 --> 00:33:33,942 Desire to love. 252 00:33:42,183 --> 00:33:44,936 Desire to love. 253 00:34:29,463 --> 00:34:33,422 Don't stare. Have you never seen anyone die? 254 00:34:33,583 --> 00:34:38,737 I stink of gasoline. I can't just... It was all so clear. 255 00:34:38,903 --> 00:34:42,532 The way they're standing there, staring at me. 256 00:34:42,703 --> 00:34:46,935 I should have told her yesterday that I'm sorry... 257 00:34:47,103 --> 00:34:52,814 I can't simply... I've still got so much to do... 258 00:34:52,983 --> 00:34:57,738 As I came up the mountain out of the misty valley into the sun... 259 00:35:00,343 --> 00:35:05,417 The fire on the cattle range, the potatoes in the ashes... 260 00:35:06,663 --> 00:35:10,099 the boathouse floating on the lake. 261 00:35:10,263 --> 00:35:15,417 The Southern Cross. The Far East. 262 00:35:15,583 --> 00:35:22,136 The Great North. The Wild West. 263 00:35:22,303 --> 00:35:29,937 The Great Bear Lake. The Tristan de Cunha Island. 264 00:35:31,183 --> 00:35:37,736 The Mississippi Delta. Stromboli. 265 00:35:39,343 --> 00:35:45,942 The old houses of Charlottenburg. Albert Camus. 266 00:35:48,063 --> 00:35:54,536 The morning light. The eyes of the child. 267 00:35:56,183 --> 00:35:59,539 Swimming near the waterfall. 268 00:36:01,063 --> 00:36:07,411 The spots of the first drops of rain. The sun. 269 00:36:07,583 --> 00:36:13,533 The bread and wine. Hopping. 270 00:36:13,703 --> 00:36:19,414 Easter. The veins of the leaves. 271 00:36:19,583 --> 00:36:25,818 The blowing grass. The colours of the stones. 272 00:36:25,983 --> 00:36:30,534 The pebbles on the stream's bed. 273 00:36:30,703 --> 00:36:34,252 The white tablecloth outdoors. 274 00:36:34,423 --> 00:36:38,257 The dream of the house in the house. 275 00:36:38,423 --> 00:36:42,462 The dear one asleep in the next room. 276 00:36:42,623 --> 00:36:48,334 The peaceful Sunday. The horizon. 277 00:36:48,503 --> 00:36:52,542 The light from the room in the garden. 278 00:36:52,703 --> 00:36:58,733 The night flight. Riding a bicycle with no hands. 279 00:37:00,343 --> 00:37:02,811 The beautiful stranger. 280 00:37:04,143 --> 00:37:05,496 My father. 281 00:37:07,583 --> 00:37:08,936 My mother. 282 00:37:11,063 --> 00:37:12,416 My wife. 283 00:37:14,623 --> 00:37:15,976 My child. 284 00:37:32,223 --> 00:37:36,933 The world seems to be sinking into dust, but I recount... 285 00:37:37,103 --> 00:37:38,855 as in the beginning... 286 00:37:39,023 --> 00:37:42,538 in my sing-song voice, which sustains me... 287 00:37:42,703 --> 00:37:46,935 saved by the tale from present troubles... 288 00:37:47,103 --> 00:37:50,937 and protected for the future. 289 00:38:04,183 --> 00:38:10,053 Finished with the sweeping over the centuries as in the past. 290 00:38:10,223 --> 00:38:14,819 Now I can think only day by day. 291 00:38:14,983 --> 00:38:20,660 My heroes are no longer the warriors and kings... 292 00:38:20,823 --> 00:38:27,535 but the things of peace, one equal to the other. 293 00:38:27,703 --> 00:38:34,859 The drying onions equal to the tree trunk crossing the marsh. 294 00:38:35,023 --> 00:38:42,976 But no one has so far succeeded in singing an epic of peace. 295 00:38:43,143 --> 00:38:48,934 What is wrong with peace that its inspiration doesn't endure... 296 00:38:49,103 --> 00:38:55,178 and that its story is hardly told? 297 00:38:59,383 --> 00:39:02,420 Must I give up now? 298 00:39:02,583 --> 00:39:07,611 If I do give up, then mankind will lose its storyteller. 299 00:39:07,783 --> 00:39:11,822 And once mankind loses its storyteller... 300 00:39:11,983 --> 00:39:15,737 it will also lose its childhood. 301 00:39:25,103 --> 00:39:30,302 I cannot find the Potsdamer Platz. 302 00:39:32,423 --> 00:39:38,578 Here? This can't be it. 303 00:39:38,743 --> 00:39:44,340 Potsdamer Platz, that's where Cafe Josti used to be. 304 00:39:44,503 --> 00:39:51,215 In the afternoons, I went there to chat and to drink a coffee... 305 00:39:51,383 --> 00:39:53,260 and to watch the crowd. 306 00:39:53,423 --> 00:39:57,211 Before that I smoked my cigar at Loese and Wolf... 307 00:39:57,383 --> 00:40:00,739 a renowned tobacconist. 308 00:40:00,903 --> 00:40:02,859 Just across from here. 309 00:40:03,903 --> 00:40:10,536 This can't be the Potsdamer Platz. 310 00:40:11,703 --> 00:40:17,414 And no one whom you can ask. 311 00:40:18,983 --> 00:40:26,856 It was a lively place. Tramways, horse-drawn carriages... 312 00:40:27,023 --> 00:40:33,656 and two cars: Mine and that of the chocolate shop. 313 00:40:34,983 --> 00:40:39,374 The Wertheim store was here, too. 314 00:40:39,543 --> 00:40:46,142 And then suddenly, the flags appeared. 315 00:40:46,303 --> 00:40:48,055 Here... 316 00:40:49,383 --> 00:40:54,138 The whole Platz was covered with them. 317 00:40:54,303 --> 00:40:59,741 And the people weren't friendly anymore... 318 00:40:59,903 --> 00:41:03,896 and the police wasn't either. 319 00:41:04,063 --> 00:41:07,851 I will not give up... 320 00:41:08,023 --> 00:41:13,017 as long as I haven't found the Potsdamer Platz. 321 00:41:17,863 --> 00:41:22,379 Where are my heroes? Where are you, my children? 322 00:41:22,543 --> 00:41:27,412 Where are my own, the dull-witted... 323 00:41:27,583 --> 00:41:29,539 the original ones? 324 00:41:38,703 --> 00:41:43,413 Name me, muse, the immortal singer... 325 00:41:43,583 --> 00:41:48,099 who, abandoned by his mortal audience... 326 00:41:48,263 --> 00:41:49,742 Iost his voice. 327 00:41:49,903 --> 00:41:52,815 He who, from angel of poetry that he was... 328 00:41:52,983 --> 00:41:58,376 became the organ grinder ignored or mocked... 329 00:41:58,543 --> 00:42:02,695 outside, on the threshold of no man's land. 330 00:42:25,423 --> 00:42:32,135 20 Marks, 40 Marks, 80 Marks. In a week I could have 500. 331 00:42:32,303 --> 00:42:34,453 Off to the south. 332 00:42:34,623 --> 00:42:38,093 What a crazy idea to stand here. Too much traffic. 333 00:42:38,263 --> 00:42:41,141 Idiot, three times he's been this way. 334 00:42:41,303 --> 00:42:43,976 I want to get out of here. 335 00:42:44,143 --> 00:42:48,933 If anyone recognises me, I'll be thrown out of secondary school. 336 00:42:49,103 --> 00:42:52,732 I need Klaus, he'd take good care of me. 337 00:42:52,903 --> 00:42:57,818 He was so good, too good. And now he's dead. 338 00:43:06,583 --> 00:43:10,132 Are there still borders? More than ever. 339 00:43:10,303 --> 00:43:15,696 Each street has its own border line. 340 00:43:15,863 --> 00:43:19,253 Between each plot there's a no man's land strip... 341 00:43:19,423 --> 00:43:23,052 hidden by a hedge or by a ditch. 342 00:43:23,223 --> 00:43:26,693 Who dares, will fall on booby traps... 343 00:43:26,863 --> 00:43:29,696 or be hit by laser beams. 344 00:43:29,863 --> 00:43:34,414 The trout in the water are really torpedoes. 345 00:43:34,583 --> 00:43:38,542 Every proprietor, or even tenant... 346 00:43:38,703 --> 00:43:41,376 sticks up his nameplate like a coat of arms... 347 00:43:41,543 --> 00:43:44,501 and studies the paper like a world leader. 348 00:43:44,663 --> 00:43:49,418 The German people are divided into as many states as there are individuals. 349 00:43:49,583 --> 00:43:53,098 And these small states are mobile. 350 00:43:53,263 --> 00:43:55,379 Each one takes his own with him... 351 00:43:55,543 --> 00:43:59,252 and demands a toll when another wants to enter. 352 00:43:59,423 --> 00:44:05,862 In the form of a fly in amber or a leather bottle. 353 00:44:06,023 --> 00:44:07,741 So much for the border. 354 00:44:07,903 --> 00:44:13,773 But one can only enter each state with the right passwords. 355 00:44:32,783 --> 00:44:36,935 Today's German soul can only be conquered and governed... 356 00:44:37,103 --> 00:44:41,460 by he who arrives at each small state with the password. 357 00:44:41,623 --> 00:44:44,979 Fortunately, no one is now able to do so. 358 00:44:45,143 --> 00:44:51,662 So everyone migrates and raises his own flag all over the world. 359 00:44:51,823 --> 00:44:54,291 Even their children shake their rattles... 360 00:44:54,463 --> 00:44:57,739 and trail their filth around in circles. 361 00:49:07,103 --> 00:49:09,059 The medals reflect the best. 362 00:49:09,223 --> 00:49:12,135 They were elegant, those brothers. 363 00:49:12,303 --> 00:49:14,942 Could I have light? - But no flame. 364 00:49:15,103 --> 00:49:17,333 You're welcome. - Thank you. 365 00:49:19,223 --> 00:49:22,898 The only thing I shall miss from the outside... 366 00:49:23,063 --> 00:49:27,181 from the realm of light, will be sparrows. 367 00:49:27,343 --> 00:49:30,016 Money buys happiness. How to live? 368 00:49:30,183 --> 00:49:32,902 The Man in the Golden Helmet is a swindle. 369 00:49:33,063 --> 00:49:37,341 You're not natives, you're all refugees. 370 00:49:37,503 --> 00:49:39,937 You're wet from swimming. 371 00:49:40,103 --> 00:49:43,618 I've been sitting here since this morning... 372 00:49:43,783 --> 00:49:45,614 I'm so cold and bored. 373 00:49:45,783 --> 00:49:49,856 Wind in the face, the first snow in the air. 374 00:49:50,063 --> 00:49:52,099 Water in the gutter. 375 00:49:52,263 --> 00:49:55,255 The balcony with the beautiful stranger. 376 00:49:55,423 --> 00:50:00,099 Real ones. They look like it. They could be real ones. 377 00:50:00,263 --> 00:50:03,414 Some stole food from the dogs in the camps. 378 00:50:03,583 --> 00:50:09,135 That would take the grin off your face. Don't be too sure yet. 379 00:50:09,303 --> 00:50:13,455 The Frenchman. I met him in the streets. 380 00:50:13,623 --> 00:50:18,219 "Berlin won't be there any more," Constant said. 381 00:50:18,383 --> 00:50:24,777 The house was half gone. Some of it still stood. For how long? 382 00:50:24,943 --> 00:50:27,298 Yes, I can still see this woman... 383 00:50:27,463 --> 00:50:34,619 who was standing up there in the ruins shaking the duvet. 384 00:50:34,783 --> 00:50:39,698 When was that? May... June 1945. 385 00:51:02,383 --> 00:51:07,138 Is he good at what he's doing? It seems so. 386 00:51:23,943 --> 00:51:28,334 I'd like to see it. Maybe he'll give it to me. 387 00:53:25,623 --> 00:53:28,376 Come, I'll show you something else. 388 00:54:59,623 --> 00:55:05,255 When the child was a child it choked on spinach, peas... 389 00:55:05,423 --> 00:55:08,733 rice pudding and steamed cauliflower... 390 00:55:08,903 --> 00:55:13,419 and now eats all of that, and not just because it has to. 391 00:55:13,583 --> 00:55:18,452 When the child was a child, it woke up once in a strange bed... 392 00:55:18,623 --> 00:55:20,818 but now time and time again. 393 00:55:20,983 --> 00:55:26,376 Many people seemed beautiful then, nowadays it's only the odd one. 394 00:55:26,543 --> 00:55:32,982 It had a precise picture of Paradise, and now can only guess at it. 395 00:55:33,143 --> 00:55:38,740 It couldn't imagine nothingness, and today shudders at the idea. 396 00:55:38,903 --> 00:55:43,454 When the child was a child, it played with enthusiasm... 397 00:55:43,623 --> 00:55:50,699 and now it can only muster it when it concerns its work. 398 00:58:42,023 --> 00:58:44,617 Do you recall our first visit here? 399 00:58:44,783 --> 00:58:48,298 History had not yet begun. 400 00:58:48,463 --> 00:58:52,456 We let mornings and evenings go by, and waited. 401 00:58:52,623 --> 00:58:59,062 It took a long time for the river to find its bed and the stagnant water to flow. 402 00:58:59,223 --> 00:59:05,059 Valley of the primeval river. One day, I still remember... 403 00:59:05,223 --> 00:59:09,660 the glacier melted and the icebergs drifted to the north. 404 00:59:09,823 --> 00:59:14,943 A tree passed by, still green, with an empty bird's nest. 405 00:59:15,103 --> 00:59:19,062 Only the fish had leapt over a myriad of years. 406 00:59:19,223 --> 00:59:22,613 Then came the moment when the bees drowned. 407 00:59:22,783 --> 00:59:27,299 Some time later, the two stags fought on the bank. 408 00:59:27,463 --> 00:59:33,379 Then the flies and the antlers, like branches, flowing down the river. 409 00:59:33,543 --> 00:59:35,818 All that ever grew again was grass... 410 00:59:35,983 --> 00:59:40,374 growing over the bodies of wild cats, wild boar and buffaloes. 411 00:59:40,543 --> 00:59:46,061 One morning, out of the savannah, its forehead smeared with grass... 412 00:59:46,223 --> 00:59:50,341 appeared the biped, our image, so long awaited. 413 00:59:50,503 --> 00:59:52,733 And its first word was a shout. 414 00:59:52,903 --> 00:59:59,581 Was it "ah" or "oh", or was it merely a groan? 415 00:59:59,743 --> 01:00:04,692 We were at last able to laugh, for the first time. 416 01:00:04,863 --> 01:00:10,176 Through this man's shout and that of his followers, we learnt to speak. 417 01:00:10,343 --> 01:00:12,493 A long story. 418 01:00:12,663 --> 01:00:14,733 Sun, lightning, thunder in the sky... 419 01:00:14,903 --> 01:00:18,418 and below on earth, the firesides, the leaps... 420 01:00:18,583 --> 01:00:21,939 the round dances, the signs, the writing. 421 01:00:23,943 --> 01:00:28,300 Then one broke through the cycle and ran straight ahead. 422 01:00:28,463 --> 01:00:35,062 As long as he ran straight ahead, swerving sometimes perhaps from joy... 423 01:00:35,223 --> 01:00:38,852 he seemed free, and again we could laugh with him. 424 01:00:39,023 --> 01:00:44,541 But then, suddenly, he ran zigzag, and stones flew. 425 01:00:47,383 --> 01:00:53,015 With his flight began the history of wars. It is still going on. 426 01:00:53,183 --> 01:00:58,337 But the story of the grass, the sun, the leaps and the shouts... 427 01:00:58,503 --> 01:01:00,937 is still going on, too. 428 01:01:06,783 --> 01:01:10,901 Do you know how one day the road was built here... 429 01:01:11,063 --> 01:01:15,261 which the next day saw the Napoleon retreat... 430 01:01:15,423 --> 01:01:19,496 and was paved later on? 431 01:01:19,663 --> 01:01:25,659 Today it is covered with grass and sunk in like a Roman road... 432 01:01:25,823 --> 01:01:27,939 with the tank tracks. 433 01:01:29,383 --> 01:01:34,332 But we weren't even spectators. We've always been too few. 434 01:01:39,903 --> 01:01:46,092 You really want... - To conquer a history for myself. 435 01:01:46,263 --> 01:01:49,380 What my timeless downward look has taught me... 436 01:01:49,543 --> 01:01:53,013 I want to transmute, to sustain a glance... 437 01:01:53,183 --> 01:01:57,381 a short shout, a sour smell. 438 01:01:58,383 --> 01:02:03,059 I've been outside long enough. Absent long enough. 439 01:02:03,223 --> 01:02:07,580 Long enough out of the world. Let me enter the history of the world. 440 01:02:07,743 --> 01:02:10,416 Or just hold an apple in my hand. 441 01:02:10,583 --> 01:02:15,737 Look, those feathers, there on the water, already vanished. 442 01:02:15,903 --> 01:02:22,934 Look, the tyre marks on the asphalt, and now the cigarette butt rolling. 443 01:02:23,103 --> 01:02:29,053 The primeval river has dried up, and only today's raindrops still quiver. 444 01:02:29,223 --> 01:02:32,772 Down with the world behind the world. 445 01:03:52,943 --> 01:03:56,015 Only the Roman roads still lead somewhere... 446 01:03:56,183 --> 01:03:59,937 only the oldest traces lead anywhere. 447 01:04:00,103 --> 01:04:02,492 Where is the top of the pass here? 448 01:04:02,663 --> 01:04:08,579 Even the plains, even Berlin, has its hidden passes. 449 01:04:08,743 --> 01:04:15,342 And it's only there that my country, the country of the tale, begins. 450 01:04:15,503 --> 01:04:19,496 Why doesn't everyone see from childhood on... 451 01:04:19,663 --> 01:04:23,941 the passes, doors and crevices... 452 01:04:24,103 --> 01:04:28,096 on the ground and above in the sky. 453 01:04:28,263 --> 01:04:35,419 If everyone saw them, there would be history without murder or war. 454 01:04:35,583 --> 01:04:39,815 This time I'm doing it. Funny I'm so calm. 455 01:04:39,983 --> 01:04:43,976 Why red socks with black shoes? Stupid. 456 01:04:44,143 --> 01:04:47,692 Foggy, cold. Put on a pullover, afraid to be cold. 457 01:04:47,863 --> 01:04:52,254 Very good jacket. A bargain. Just the pocket's torn. 458 01:04:52,423 --> 01:04:54,095 She gave it to me. 459 01:04:54,263 --> 01:04:59,417 Pebbles on the roof. Why? So it doesn't fly away? Nonsense. 460 01:04:59,983 --> 01:05:01,860 Once I'd like to fly. 461 01:05:02,023 --> 01:05:06,539 The plane circles over Berlin, one day it'll crash. 462 01:05:06,703 --> 01:05:10,901 It's cold. My hands were always warm. A good sign. 463 01:05:11,063 --> 01:05:13,736 It crackles underfoot. What time is it? 464 01:05:13,903 --> 01:05:19,261 The sun's setting. Logical, the west. Now I know where the west is. 465 01:05:19,423 --> 01:05:22,574 I always took the U-Bahn to the east to go home... 466 01:05:22,743 --> 01:05:25,132 bought 10 tickets, saved a Mark. 467 01:05:25,303 --> 01:05:28,340 The sun in my back, on the left the star. 468 01:05:28,503 --> 01:05:32,098 That's good: Sun and a star. Her little feet. 469 01:05:32,263 --> 01:05:35,778 Hopping from one foot to the other. She danced so sweetly. 470 01:05:35,943 --> 01:05:37,296 We were all alone. 471 01:05:37,463 --> 01:05:41,058 Has she got my letter? I don't want her to read it. 472 01:05:41,223 --> 01:05:45,375 Berlin means nothing to me... Havel? Is that a lake? 473 01:05:45,543 --> 01:05:50,333 Over there Wedding, or what? The East is everywhere really. 474 01:05:50,503 --> 01:05:54,496 Strange people, they're shouting. I don't care. 475 01:05:54,663 --> 01:06:00,135 All these thoughts. I'd really rather not think any more. 476 01:06:00,303 --> 01:06:02,259 I'm going, why? 477 01:07:28,263 --> 01:07:34,816 Leave me alone, you swine. - Mother. Mother. 478 01:08:06,663 --> 01:08:12,135 I'll never make it tonight. No trapeze on full-moon nights. 479 01:08:12,303 --> 01:08:16,296 Not the last time, the very last time. 480 01:08:16,463 --> 01:08:19,057 I should wake up from this dream. 481 01:08:19,223 --> 01:08:23,774 The end of the circus. Fini. 482 01:08:23,943 --> 01:08:29,097 And once again I feel as if night were falling inside of me. 483 01:08:29,263 --> 01:08:33,381 Fear... Fear of death. 484 01:08:33,543 --> 01:08:37,013 Why not death? 485 01:08:37,183 --> 01:08:39,413 The essential at times... 486 01:08:39,583 --> 01:08:45,499 just being beautiful, and nothing more. 487 01:08:45,663 --> 01:08:51,021 To look at oneself in the mirror is to see oneself think. 488 01:08:51,183 --> 01:08:54,175 So what do you think? 489 01:08:54,343 --> 01:08:59,701 I think I still have the right to be afraid, but not to talk about it. 490 01:08:59,863 --> 01:09:04,653 You're not yet blind, the heart is still beating. 491 01:09:04,823 --> 01:09:07,815 And now you're crying after all. 492 01:09:07,983 --> 01:09:12,420 You'd like to cry like a very sad little girl. 493 01:09:12,583 --> 01:09:15,814 Do you know why you're crying? For whom? 494 01:09:15,983 --> 01:09:20,101 Not for me. I don't know for whom. 495 01:09:20,263 --> 01:09:25,053 I'd like to know. I know nothing. 496 01:09:25,223 --> 01:09:31,901 I'm a little bit afraid. It's gone, gone away. It'll come back. 497 01:09:32,063 --> 01:09:33,894 It doesn't matter. 498 01:15:53,823 --> 01:16:00,012 Just to be able to say, like right now, I'm happy. 499 01:16:00,183 --> 01:16:06,053 I have a story, and I'll go on having one. 500 01:20:53,540 --> 01:20:57,249 There it is again, this feeling of well-being... 501 01:20:57,420 --> 01:21:03,256 as if inside my body a hand was softly tightening. 502 01:21:49,020 --> 01:21:56,370 When the child was a child, it was the time of these questions: 503 01:21:56,540 --> 01:22:00,818 Why am I me, and why not you? 504 01:22:00,980 --> 01:22:05,531 Why am I here, and why not there? 505 01:22:05,700 --> 01:22:09,978 When did time begin, and where does space end? 506 01:22:10,140 --> 01:22:16,010 Isn't life under the sun just a dream? 507 01:23:30,300 --> 01:23:33,212 Isn't that Columbo? - Don't think so. 508 01:23:33,380 --> 01:23:38,170 Not with that moth-eaten coat. - He wouldn't be out here. 509 01:26:13,860 --> 01:26:17,330 Well? - I'm going to enter the river. 510 01:26:17,500 --> 01:26:21,493 An old human expression that I only understand today. 511 01:26:21,660 --> 01:26:23,491 Now or never, moment of the ford. 512 01:26:23,660 --> 01:26:27,448 But there is no other bank, there is only the river. 513 01:26:27,620 --> 01:26:30,657 Into the ford of time, the ford of death. 514 01:26:30,820 --> 01:26:33,778 We're not yet born, so let's descend. 515 01:26:33,940 --> 01:26:37,296 To look is not to look from on high, but at eye-level. 516 01:26:37,460 --> 01:26:40,611 First, I'll take a bath. 517 01:26:40,780 --> 01:26:44,819 Then I'll be shaved by a Turkish barber... 518 01:26:44,980 --> 01:26:48,529 who will also massage me down to the fingertips. 519 01:26:48,700 --> 01:26:54,730 Then I'll buy a newspaper and read it from the headlines to the horoscope. 520 01:26:54,900 --> 01:27:00,577 On the first day, I'll only be served. For requests, ask the neighbour. 521 01:27:00,740 --> 01:27:04,528 If someone stumbles over my legs, he'll apologise. 522 01:27:04,700 --> 01:27:06,816 If pushed, I'll push back. 523 01:27:06,980 --> 01:27:10,017 The bartender will find me an empty table. 524 01:27:10,180 --> 01:27:14,093 A car will stop, and the mayor will give me a lift. 525 01:27:14,260 --> 01:27:17,013 I'll be familiar to everyone, suspect to no one. 526 01:27:17,180 --> 01:27:20,252 I won't say a word, will understand every language. 527 01:27:20,420 --> 01:27:25,540 This will be my first day. - But none of it will be true. 528 01:27:55,500 --> 01:28:01,211 I'll take her in my arms, and she'll take me in her arms. 529 01:28:44,820 --> 01:28:47,459 I think he's drunk. - Yes. 530 01:29:11,020 --> 01:29:12,373 Let's go. 531 01:29:41,980 --> 01:29:43,413 It's got a taste. 532 01:29:46,420 --> 01:29:49,173 Now I begin to understand. 533 01:29:55,900 --> 01:29:58,334 Is that red? - Yes. 534 01:29:58,500 --> 01:30:00,570 Did you hurt yourself? 535 01:30:00,740 --> 01:30:03,129 Is today a good day? - It's okay. 536 01:30:04,580 --> 01:30:07,492 And the pipes? - They're yellow. 537 01:30:07,660 --> 01:30:10,618 Yellow. What about him? - He's grey-blue. 538 01:30:10,780 --> 01:30:13,738 Grey-blue. This one? - Purple. 539 01:30:13,900 --> 01:30:15,652 This one? - Orange. Ochre. 540 01:30:15,820 --> 01:30:18,493 Ochre or orange? - Ochre. 541 01:30:18,660 --> 01:30:21,857 Yellow, red... this one? - It's green. 542 01:30:22,020 --> 01:30:26,172 And what's that over the eye? - That's blue. 543 01:30:27,340 --> 01:30:28,693 Blue. 544 01:30:29,220 --> 01:30:32,257 Is it very cold? - It'll soon be over. 545 01:30:32,420 --> 01:30:34,297 I'd love to have a coffee. 546 01:30:34,460 --> 01:30:38,169 Do you have money? - Yes... no. 547 01:30:42,620 --> 01:30:45,373 I'm glad everything is fine today. 548 01:30:55,460 --> 01:30:56,813 Beautiful. 549 01:31:22,620 --> 01:31:25,418 Coffee. - With milk and sugar? 550 01:31:25,580 --> 01:31:27,013 Black. 551 01:32:07,580 --> 01:32:15,533 When the child was a child, it lived on apples and bread, that was enough. 552 01:32:15,700 --> 01:32:17,895 And it is still that way. 553 01:32:20,100 --> 01:32:27,780 When the child was a child, berries fell only like berries into its hand. 554 01:32:27,940 --> 01:32:30,693 And they still do now. 555 01:32:32,620 --> 01:32:38,490 Fresh walnuts made its tongue raw, and they still do now. 556 01:32:38,660 --> 01:32:45,179 Atop each mountain it was longing for a higher mountain. 557 01:32:45,340 --> 01:32:51,336 And in each city it was longing for a bigger city. 558 01:32:51,500 --> 01:32:54,890 And it still does. 559 01:32:58,140 --> 01:33:01,416 Reached in the treetop for the cherries... 560 01:33:01,580 --> 01:33:05,812 as excitedly as it still does today. 561 01:33:08,220 --> 01:33:13,772 Was shy in front of strangers, and it still is. 562 01:33:16,300 --> 01:33:22,899 Waited for the first snow, and still waits that way. 563 01:33:29,460 --> 01:33:37,413 When the child was a child, it threw a stick like a lance into a tree. 564 01:33:37,580 --> 01:33:41,459 And it's still quivering there today. 565 01:34:20,380 --> 01:34:25,170 How do I get to Akazienstrasse? - Go up Potsdamer to Kleistpark. 566 01:34:25,340 --> 01:34:30,733 Right at Grunewald past Gleditsch, no right turn at Goltzstrasse. 567 01:34:30,900 --> 01:34:33,209 Turn left, and there you are. 568 01:35:05,060 --> 01:35:09,895 This entrance is for the crew. Extras, the other way, please. 569 01:35:18,500 --> 01:35:21,492 Extra. - That's just what you look like. 570 01:35:21,660 --> 01:35:23,332 They all want autographs. 571 01:35:24,380 --> 01:35:25,733 Lousy cop. 572 01:37:53,540 --> 01:37:57,328 Come on, Marion. Don't worry. It'll be alright. 573 01:37:57,500 --> 01:38:01,015 I'll send you a postcard of the Eiffel Tower. 574 01:38:01,180 --> 01:38:05,856 See you next season. Don't forget the Alekan Circus. 575 01:38:06,020 --> 01:38:10,571 Bye Archie, see you next year. - Au revoir. 576 01:38:10,740 --> 01:38:12,173 A thousand kisses. 577 01:38:12,340 --> 01:38:17,368 I'll send you a parcel. With some Camembert cheese? 578 01:39:15,500 --> 01:39:20,733 I couldn't say who I am. I don't have the slightest idea. 579 01:39:20,900 --> 01:39:26,577 I am someone with no roots, no story, no country... 580 01:39:26,740 --> 01:39:29,254 and I like it that way. 581 01:39:29,420 --> 01:39:35,859 I am here, I am free. I can imagine anything. It's all possible. 582 01:39:36,020 --> 01:39:41,697 I only have to raise my eyes, and once again I become the world. 583 01:39:41,860 --> 01:39:45,614 Now, in this very place... 584 01:39:45,780 --> 01:39:51,776 a feeling of happiness that I could always have. 585 01:41:47,060 --> 01:41:49,893 What are you doing? - I'm sitting. 586 01:41:50,060 --> 01:41:52,449 Are you sad? - No. 587 01:41:52,620 --> 01:41:56,169 Are you sick? - Yes. 588 01:41:56,340 --> 01:41:58,854 What's the matter? - A need. 589 01:41:59,020 --> 01:42:01,534 Oh, that's it. 590 01:42:01,700 --> 01:42:05,375 A double knot is the only way to make it hold. 591 01:42:09,580 --> 01:42:13,858 A need. A need of food perhaps. - Or a need of drink. 592 01:42:16,580 --> 01:42:20,414 She isn't gone, Cassiel. I know it. 593 01:42:20,580 --> 01:42:22,855 I'll find her. 594 01:42:23,020 --> 01:42:27,411 Something will happen, something important, tonight. 595 01:42:30,140 --> 01:42:33,018 She'll teach me everything. 596 01:42:34,060 --> 01:42:38,611 There are other suns then the one up in the sky, Cassiel. 597 01:42:38,780 --> 01:42:43,251 In the deep of the night, spring will begin today. 598 01:42:43,420 --> 01:42:46,651 Other wings will grow in place of the old ones. 599 01:42:46,820 --> 01:42:50,574 Wings that will at last astound me. 600 01:51:37,940 --> 01:51:41,012 It must finally become serious. 601 01:51:44,620 --> 01:51:49,535 I've often been alone, but I've never lived alone. 602 01:51:53,420 --> 01:51:57,049 When I was with someone I was often happy... 603 01:51:57,220 --> 01:52:00,496 but at the same time it all seemed a coincidence. 604 01:52:00,660 --> 01:52:06,337 These people were my parents, but it could have been others. 605 01:52:06,500 --> 01:52:09,776 Why was the brown-eyed one my brother... 606 01:52:09,940 --> 01:52:14,616 and not the green-eyed boy on the opposite platform? 607 01:52:16,060 --> 01:52:19,450 The taxi driver's daughter was my friend... 608 01:52:19,620 --> 01:52:26,571 but I might as well have put my arm around a horse's neck. 609 01:52:26,740 --> 01:52:31,450 I was with a man, I was in love... 610 01:52:31,620 --> 01:52:34,612 and I might as well have left him there... 611 01:52:34,780 --> 01:52:40,730 and gone off with the stranger we met in the street. 612 01:52:44,060 --> 01:52:47,018 Look at me, or don't. 613 01:52:47,180 --> 01:52:50,172 Give me your hand, or don't. 614 01:52:51,580 --> 01:52:56,779 No, don't give me your hand, and look away. 615 01:53:02,340 --> 01:53:05,218 I think tonight is the new moon. 616 01:53:06,660 --> 01:53:08,890 No night more peaceful. 617 01:53:12,140 --> 01:53:15,610 No bloodshed in all the city. 618 01:53:15,780 --> 01:53:18,419 I've never played with anyone and yet... 619 01:53:18,580 --> 01:53:23,700 I never opened my eyes and thought: Now it's serious. 620 01:53:26,780 --> 01:53:29,897 At last it's becoming serious. 621 01:53:32,940 --> 01:53:35,579 So I've grown older. 622 01:53:38,060 --> 01:53:41,336 Was I the only one who wasn't serious? 623 01:53:42,660 --> 01:53:45,811 Is it our times that are not serious? 624 01:53:47,100 --> 01:53:52,538 I've never been lonely, neither alone, nor with someone else. 625 01:53:52,700 --> 01:53:55,692 But I would have liked to be lonely. 626 01:53:55,860 --> 01:54:00,695 Loneliness means: I am whole at last. 627 01:54:00,860 --> 01:54:06,651 Now I can say it, as tonight I'm lonely at last. 628 01:54:06,820 --> 01:54:10,733 I must put an end to coincidence. 629 01:54:14,540 --> 01:54:17,771 The new moon of decision. 630 01:54:17,940 --> 01:54:22,730 I don't know if there is a destiny, but there is a decision. 631 01:54:22,900 --> 01:54:25,414 Decide. 632 01:54:25,580 --> 01:54:29,414 Now we are the times. 633 01:54:29,580 --> 01:54:35,655 Not only the whole town, the whole world is taking part in our decision. 634 01:54:35,820 --> 01:54:41,531 Now we are more than the two of us. We incarnate something. 635 01:54:41,700 --> 01:54:44,817 We are sitting on the People's Square... 636 01:54:44,980 --> 01:54:50,657 and the whole place is full of people whose dream is the same as ours. 637 01:54:50,820 --> 01:54:54,893 We are deciding everybody's game. 638 01:54:55,060 --> 01:55:02,250 I am ready. Now it's your turn. 639 01:55:02,420 --> 01:55:05,492 You hold the game in your hand. 640 01:55:05,660 --> 01:55:09,016 Now or never. 641 01:55:13,580 --> 01:55:20,258 You need me. You will need me. 642 01:55:20,420 --> 01:55:27,496 There is no greater story than ours, that of man and woman. 643 01:55:27,660 --> 01:55:31,619 It will be a story of giants. 644 01:55:31,780 --> 01:55:36,649 Invisible, transposable. 645 01:55:36,820 --> 01:55:40,608 A story of new ancestors. 646 01:55:42,620 --> 01:55:45,657 Look, my eyes. 647 01:55:47,580 --> 01:55:51,892 They are the image of necessity... 648 01:55:52,060 --> 01:55:56,099 of the future of everyone in the place. 649 01:55:59,140 --> 01:56:03,975 Last night I dreamt of a stranger. 650 01:56:07,500 --> 01:56:09,730 Of my man. 651 01:56:09,900 --> 01:56:13,051 Only with him could I be lonely... 652 01:56:13,220 --> 01:56:15,290 open up to him... 653 01:56:15,460 --> 01:56:19,897 wholly open, wholly for him... 654 01:56:20,060 --> 01:56:23,689 welcome him wholly into me... 655 01:56:23,860 --> 01:56:31,653 surround him with the labyrinth of shared happiness. 656 01:56:31,820 --> 01:56:34,937 I know... 657 01:56:35,100 --> 01:56:37,568 it's you. 658 01:57:03,860 --> 01:57:05,816 Something happened. 659 01:57:07,540 --> 01:57:14,013 It is still going on. It binds me. 660 01:57:14,180 --> 01:57:21,131 It was true at night, and it's true in the day, even more so now. 661 01:57:21,300 --> 01:57:27,330 Who was who? I was in her and she was around me. 662 01:57:29,140 --> 01:57:33,975 Who in the world can claim that he was ever together with another being? 663 01:57:34,140 --> 01:57:37,177 I am together. 664 01:57:37,340 --> 01:57:44,257 No mortal child was begot, only an immortal common image. 665 01:57:44,420 --> 01:57:48,333 I learned astonishment that night. 666 01:57:48,500 --> 01:57:53,574 She came to take me home, and I found home. 667 01:57:57,060 --> 01:57:59,290 It happened once. 668 01:58:01,900 --> 01:58:06,018 Once, and therefore forever. 669 01:58:08,300 --> 01:58:13,090 The image that we created will be with me when I die. 670 01:58:14,740 --> 01:58:17,857 I will have lived within it. 671 01:58:19,500 --> 01:58:26,292 The amazement about the two of us, amazement about man and woman... 672 01:58:26,460 --> 01:58:29,213 has turned me into a human being. 673 01:58:33,660 --> 01:58:39,656 I know now... 674 01:58:39,820 --> 01:58:41,572 what... 675 01:58:41,740 --> 01:58:48,088 no angel knows. 676 01:58:53,660 --> 01:58:58,780 Name the men, women and children who will look for me... 677 01:58:58,940 --> 01:59:03,695 me, their storyteller, their cantor, their spokesman... 678 01:59:03,860 --> 01:59:11,972 because they need me more than anything in the world. 679 01:59:12,820 --> 01:59:16,574 We have embarked.